Tygar

Date: 3/26/2014 (Wed)
Total sleep: 7.5 hours
Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Visualization & Mantras
Recall Techniques: Mantras
Fell Asleep: 9:30 pm
Dream 1 Title: Strange Hotel
Dream 1: This dream was either a bit choppy, or my recall is a bit choppy. I’m in a hotel room, but it is a very large room which reminds me of my sisters living room from a house she used to live in quite a few years ago. The room is very messy. I there are other people in the room but I only know my wife. I know the room needs to get cleaned up, but because I didn’t make the mess I don’t feel I have to assist. I walk out of the door onto a paved walkway. I walk to the corner of the building. My nephew and one of his friends (both about 8 years old) come running by waving plastic swords. I am looking at a parking lot. There are a few cars. **Jump** I am standing on a very high cliff with Joseph Gordon-Levitt (the actor from Inception) and a group of women. They are watching us demonstrate a new invention Joseph created. It is a device which will allow two people to hang out over the cliff to get a better view. It has two harnesses, but it requires Joseph and me to hang onto a handle while lowering ourselves into the harnesses, while they are hanging out over a 3,000 foot drop. I start to climb over the edge, my heart is racing. My legs are dangling as I hang on, but I can’t get my feet into the harness. Joseph says “Screw this!” and walks away. I am very angry at him for leaving me hanging, LITERALLY!! **Jump** I am in a room that reminds me of an old doctor’s office waiting room. There is furniture made of dark wood and a dark brown leather couch. I am sitting on the left arm of the couch (which is thickly padded).

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

A gorgeous young woman is lying on the couch and she is completely naked. She has long, wavy, raven black hair. Her skin is very tan. She is in perfect shape, like a fitness model. She has perfect breasts. My wife is standing in front of her, staring at her. I am very aroused, and notice I too am naked. My wife is fully clothed in her typical business attire she would wear to work. The woman shifts closer to me and begins to perform fellatio on me. It feels absolutely amazing. I can’t keep my eyes of this woman’s inhumanly perfect body. My wife kneels down in front of the woman and begins to gently run her hands along her abdomen, then upward to caress her perfect breasts. The woman moans with pleasure. My wife says, “Look at her. She has such a perfect body.” (I feel like I’ve wandered into a porn movie.) By wife begins to shift her body downward and I know she is going to perform cunnilingus on this woman.

**Jump** (DAMNIT!!!) I am back in the parking lot of the hotel. There is a tram (just like the ones found at Disney world) parked in front of the hotel. The cars are red, with white roofs. There are a bunch of beautiful women in the tram. My wife and I are standing with another group of women, all of which are young and beautiful. I know there is a fitness competition going on at the hotel and my wife and I are coaches for our group. The other group is our competition. One of the women on the tram (a gorgeous blond woman with striking blue eyes) stands up and yells, “YOU KNOW….WE REALLY DON’T LIKE YOU!!” I laugh out loud. Then I turn to my team and say sarcastically, “Did you hear her ladies? She really doesn’t like us!” All the woman, in unison, say, “AWWWWWWW!!!” My alarm goes off.
Awake: 5:00 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 12
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 8
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 15 min
Emotions: Annoyance, fear, excitement, arousal, lust, pride
Dream Signs: Celebrity who I seem to know, pornographic scene with my wife and another woman, at a hotel I don’t recognize, Hanging off a cliff with no safety equipment, Never noticed any text
Notes: Took magnesium, B-5 and chorine. I am actually pleased that I remembers one of my dreams, in detail, last night. I was exhausted and expected to sleep straight through. I set my alarm to radio and tied to find a station with soft music. Today it worked. The volume was low, and the song was soft, so I woke up gently and didn’t forget my dream. I awoke earlier in the night from another dream, but fell back to sleep before I could recover it. I did my mantras and visualization exercises before bed. I know one issue is I just don’t get sufficient sleep during the week.
Text Search Experiment: (Day 3) I actually remembered to do a text search before my workout this morning, but didn’t do it when I first woke up. I’m continuing to search for text during the day, especially when I change environments (go to a different room, enter a different building, go outside, etc). While I am searching I am very aware and keep stating that I am dreaming. I’m trying to find the right mantra for this experiment. I’m struggling with finding something that is very simple yet sends the correct expectation to my subconscious. Right now I state, “Tonight, while I’m dreaming I will look for text. When I find text it will be a reality check and I will be lucid. If there is no text to be found I will count my fingers and become lucid.” I am staying positive and looking forward to the weekend when I can sleep for more hours.

Date: 3/25/2014 (Mon)
Total sleep: 6.5 hrs
Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantras
Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
Dream 1 Title: Michelle McFee
Dream 1: I am standing at the bottom of a wide (approx. 8 feet) flight of stone stairs that climb to a small platform about 10 feet up. At the bottom, on each side is a thick stone pillar about 4 feet tall. Stone railings are on both sides of the stair case. The steps are surrounded by a wooden structure on three sides, the side at the bottom of the steps is open. The structure is peaked with a shingled pyramid shaped roof. The building looks old. There is a road to my left, a pond to my right, and many pine trees in all directions. I recognize this place. My in-laws have a house on this pond, but it is about a mile away. In my dream the structure is familiar, but not in real life. Sitting on the stairs, close to the top is a woman. She is in her late 30’s to early 40’s with brown shoulder length hair. She is wearing a black leather jacket, a red shirt and blue jeans. In front of her is a small table with a laptop on it. She is talking to the laptop. I recognize her as Michelle MeFee; a local radio and new paper personality. (In real life she looks nothing like this woman, and her voice is completely different.) The scene shifts, and the structure has an opening underneath it, with a paved road running through it. I see a blue minivan drive under the structure. I recognize the driver as my ex-wife’s grandfather (who is dead in RL). **Jump** I am walking down Davis Road (a street from my old childhood neighborhood) with Michelle McFee. We are talking about her career as a radio personality. She tells me that she really enjoys the show. **Jump** We are back at the structure. She is back in the exact same place as before, but now I am sitting next to her. The laptop is open and I have a clear view of it, but don’t notice any text. I shift closer to her . She is looking at the computer and I look closely at the right side of her face. I can faintly see veins running across her cheek. I have the urge to kiss her and move closer. The dream fades and I awake.
Awake: 4:00 to 4:30 am, then reawoke at 5:00 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 10
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 7
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 10 min
Emotions: General happiness, desire
Dream Signs: Back in old neighborhood; Celebrity who I know; In my in-law’s neighborhood; Ex-Wife’s dead grandfather; No text where there should be text (laptop, on the street where we were waling there should have been a stop sign right in front of us plus other signs)
Notes: Took magnesium, B-5 & Chorin. Not a great night for dream recall. I woke up earlier in the night from a dream, but couldn’t recall anything before I dozed back off. I awoke from Dream 1 close to 4 am and had trouble falling back to sleep. I estimate I fell back to sleep at 4:30ish. I was dreaming when my alarm startled me awake at 5:00 am and erased all memory of it. I am sick of my alarm clock, which is having issues anyway (cd player no longer works & some buttons don’t work) so I ordered a new “La Crosse Technologies Mood Light LED Nature Alarm” clock. This clock can be set to that slowly brightening light comes on 10 min prior to the alarm, and the alarm can be set to nature noises (birds, forest, ocean, or rain). It also has a dimmable back lit face, so it won’t be very bright.
Text Search Experiment: I read a recent study about forming new habits. The study showed it can take between 20 and 254 days to form a new habit, depending on the complexity of the habit (Drinking a glass of water each morning was the simple habit which took 20 days on average) and the personality of the person who is trying to form the habit. Forming the habit of continuously searching for text in real life is more complicated because I need to be aware all the time. This morning I completely forgot to do a text check when I awoke, when I went to the bathroom and when I went to my basement to work out. It wasn’t until I was done with my workout that I remembered that I should be checking. I feel this habit will take a few months to become fully ingrained into my real life. I’m sure it will take longer for it to feed into my subconscious. I will have to be diligent and keep a positive attitude.

Date: 3/24/2014 (Sun)
Total sleep: 7 hrs
Daytime Techniques: Mantra, Visualization, Text Search RC
Lucid Techniques: Mantra, Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantra
Fell Asleep: 10:30 pm
Dream 1 Title: Roxanne
Dream 1: I am standing in a kitchen I don’t recognize. My wife is there. We are preparing a large dinner for a family gathering. We are discussing how many grams of carbohydrates are in the sweet potatoes we are preparing. She tells me that I have to ask Roxanne to leave. (Roxanne is a girl I briefly dated in college.) I walk out of the kitchen and into a large dining room. There is a long table with a white table cloth, and many place settings. The chairs are ornately carved. Roxanne is standing at the far end of the table. I walk to her. She looks just like she did back in college. As I approach she is smiling at me. I feel anxious because I know I have to ask her to leave. I smile back. I grab hold of the backs of one of the chairs. I am worried she will be angry with me. I then tell her that she can’t stay because this party is only for relatives. She smiles and nods. I wake up.
Dream 2 Title: Moving out of my dorm
Dream 2: I am in what I know is my dorm room. It is a relatively small room. In one corner is a folding table and chair. On the table is my computer (similar to the one I had in the early 90’s). Against one of the walls is a single bed with a maroon comforter. Sitting on the bed is a girl, about 7 years old. She has black hair. I know I am looking after this girl (In RL I don’t know this girl). I am moving out of the dorm today. I wrap some cloths in the comforter and leave. **Jump** I am sitting on my motorcycle (I’ve never owned a motorcycle in RL). I have attached my comforter, filled with cloths, to the back of my bike with bungee cords. The little girl is sitting on the comforter. It is raining outside as we drive out of the driveway and onto the street. We drive down a steep hill in front of Holy Cross College. When we reach the bottom of the hill I turn left, and then turn left again at a tall cement building. We start to head up another steep hill, but the comforter falls off the back of the bike. I stop. I tell the girl to leave the bundle where it is (sitting on the wet street) and we will come back for it later. I push the bike up the street and the girl walks with me. We turn right into a parking lot. I find a bike rack and suddenly my motor cycle is a child’s bike, made entirely from plastic. I put it in the bike rack and was not concerned that I didn’t have a lock because I didn’t think anyone would be interested in stealing a plastic bike. I know this is an apartment building and I am going to be renting a place here. I start walking toward the building. A man approaches me. He is wearing a white and blue checkered shirt. He stops in front of me. I don’t like him. He makes me feel uneasy. He looks to the little girl and then back to me with a strange smile. Then he says “You must be looking for the child loving center.” In my mind I know this is a place where adults take children to molest them. I am furious with this man. I realize that he is a child molester. I grab him by the front of his shirt and push him up against a nearby cement wall. I look him in the eyes and say, “I’m calling the police!” He continues to smile. Suddenly I know that he has gotten away with this in the past and the police won’t help. Just then I know what exactly to do. I have a flash in my head of a man, a tall, very large man with a shaved head and a tribal neck tattoo. I know this man is a convicted murderer who hates child molesters. I look back to the man in the checkered shirt and say, “I’m going to call Manny McMurderer.” The man’s smile fades, and his eyes grow wide. I know he is finally scared. The dream fades and I wake up.
Dream 3 Title: Just a feeling
Dream 3: (can only remember emotion) I remember being in a situation where I was very happy.
Awake: 5:30 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = 8; D3 = ?
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 = 5; D3 = ?
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 2 min; D2 = 10 min; D3 = ?
Emotions: Guilt, Anger, Happiness
Dream Signs: Person from my past, being in places I don’t know in RL, People I don’t know in real life, a people I don’t know in RL who I know in my dream, Being approached by a child molester, riding a motorcycle (in the rain), No text where there should have been text (street signs, dorm room, kitchen)
Notes: For Dream 3: My alarm didn’t go off this morning, so I awoke to my wife’s alarm. That meant I was late for work. I bolted out of bed which completely erased the last dream of the night.
Text Search Experiment: I am trying to ingrain a habit of searching for text everywhere I go. I search with my eyes for text that I can see. I make a game of it, by trying to read every bit of text (numbers & words) I can see from my current position. I do this because I realize that text rarely appears in my dreams. (When I see text, I will read it, look away, and then reread it as a RC.) So, the lack of text of any kind is a dream sign that occurs in 98+% of my dreams. My assumption is, if I search for text out of habit in my dream then either: 1. My dream will create some text, and when I read it, look away & will it to change, and look back, I will know I am dreaming, or 2. I will be unable to locate any text which will trigger me to do a different RC. So far I have been doing this “Text Search Technique” for about a week. I recalled 2 solid dreams last night and noticed no text in either of them. Both dreams took place in areas where text should have been present. I did not specifically look for text out of habit.

Date: 3/23/2014 (Sat)
Total sleep: 7 hours?
Daytime Techniques: RCs (Text), visualization, Mantra
Lucid Techniques: Mantra, visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantra
Fell Asleep: Sometime after 1 am
Dream 1 Title: Ghost pinches my butt
Dream 1: (Brief – I believe this was actually Hypnagogia) I am sitting on my couch in my living room. Everything looks exactly the same as reality. I am watching some random nature show. Out of habit I look down at the digital clock on the face of the cable box. There are no numbers. I know something isn’t right. I stand up and suddenly the power goes out (all the lights and the TV). I am standing in complete darkness when I feel a very strong hand pinch my left buttocks! At the same time I hear a deafening loud woman’s scream! I startle awake. (See notes below)
Dream 2 Title: Random Fragments
Dream 2: (See notes below) (1) I am on an island. I am standing on a rocky hill top, with long grass growing from between the rocks. It is a cloudy and slightly foggy day. I can see the ocean from where I am standing. (2) I am asking someone “Is she corporate?” I feel nervous because I feel like she has been sent from corporate to spy on us.
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 8; D2 = 3;
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 9; D2 = 3;
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 1 min; D2 = 30 sec
Emotions: Confusion, Fear, Peaceful, Annoyance
Dream Signs: Couldn’t see text, sudden power failure, being somewhere I don’t recognize.
Notes: I took only B-5 and Chorine last night. My wife and I went out with friends to see a live band last night (when we left I had a strong ringing in my ears which could explain the woman’s scream in dream 1). But my wife was coming down with an illness and we left at 10:30 pm. When we got home she was feeling horrible and couldn’t sleep. I had to drive to the 24 hour pharmacy twice. This kept me awake until after 1 am (I stopped looking at the clock at that time). On a good note: I am working very hard to develop a strong habit of searching for text (with my eyes) everywhere I go. When I see it I; look, look away and will it to change, look back. There is text everywhere in my life. So far it is an extremely rare occasion where I can’t see some kind of text (numbers or words). Last night I started with a new mantra: “When I am dreaming tonight I will seek out text, when I see it I will know I am dreaming.”

Date: 3/22/2014 (Fri)
Total sleep: 8 hours
Daytime Techniques: RCs, visualization,
Lucid Techniques: Mantra, brief hand technique
Recall Techniques: Mantra
Fell Asleep: 12:00 am
Dream 1 Title: Cars (fragment)
Dream 1: I’m driving an old 1960’s British car, which is yellow. I am chasing another car (same make/model) but it is white. We are on a British country road. There are no houses to be seen, just miles of grassland. There is someone else in the car with me, but I don’t remember who. The road splits ahead. The white car goes left, down a hill. We go right up a hill. The roads run parallel to each other. As we reach the peak of the hill I cut the wheel sharply to the left, we jump off of a cliff, fly through the air, and land on the roof of the white car. We stay perfectly on top of the white care as it rolls off the road to a stop. I can’t remember anything else.
Dream 2 Title: Messy Room
Dream 2: I am in my parent’s house, in my old room (from high school). The room is a complete mess. It is full of old junk. I know I need to get it organized. There are boxes full of stuff on the floor, the dresser tops are covered in stuff, there are many shelves on the wall full of knick-knacks and figurines, my closet is full of shelves full of old shoes as well as a long hanger pole which is stuffed with old cloths on hangers. I know all of this stuff was purchased by my parents at yard sales. I am very frustrated because there is nowhere to put all the stuff that is in boxes on the floor. Yet I know I need to get it organized and put away. Jen, my daughter and her friend come into the room. They are going to help. We are all looking though the boxes. I find an interesting item. It looks like a tiny cactus in a tiny red pot, but the cactus is made from natural, uncut, blue crystal. I take it to the window and look closely at it. It glimmers in the sunlight. I place it on the edge between the top and bottom halves of the window. I adjust its position so the sunlight catches it just right. When the light passes through the crystal it casts an amazing blue image on the floor. It looks like a moving blue laser light show. My wife and the kids are amazed. I continue to try to organize the room, the dream gets foggy and I wake up.
Dream 3 Title: Old Truck
Dream 3: I am outside on a nice summer day. I am in a residential neighborhood (I don’t recognize it from real life). There is an old 1950’s red (with faded paint and lots of rust) pickup truck parked on the side of the road. I go to it, open the driver’s side door, and try to get in, but the truck rolls forward into the street. There is a couple there. The woman tells me that her grandfather has been fixing up the truck and I shouldn’t touch it because it may break. I apologize. I grab the frame of the open door and begin to move the truck (with super human strength) back to its original position. The rear axel and wheels come off and roll away. I feel really bad about breaking the truck. The woman (slim, with short red hair) comes over and tells me to help her lift the trick up so her husband can put the axel back in place. We bend down, grab hold, and lift the truck up. As we press the truck up over our heads (super human strength) the woman’s shirt gets caught on something and is pulled up exposing her small perky breasts…the dream fades and I wake up.
Dream 4 Title: Matrix Kid
Dream 4: I am back in my old bedroom (from Dream 1). I am laying in bed. The room looks similar to dream 1, but without all the junk. There are many pictures hanging on the walls. Jen comes in and tells me I need to get up and get ready for a family party. I get up just as two young girls run in the room. One is my daughter (but she doesn’t look like my daughter and it only about 8 years old), the other is my niece (but she doesn’t look like my niece and is only 3-4 years old). My daughter runs to one of the walls, jumps up, and begins to run across the tops of the picture frames (this looks like something out of the Matrix movie). My niece follows her. As my daughter jumps for the last picture frame on the wall, she flies over a dresser and lands gently on the floor. My niece tries to follow but falls and crashes on top of the dresser. Knick-Knacks go flying everywhere and she falls to the floor. She is crying. I go over to see if she is alright, she is ok. I shout to my daughter to come back in the room, and she does. I tell her that can’t do that anymore today because the smaller kids will try to follow her and get hurt. She says “Okay” and leaves the room. The dream gets foggy at this point. I vaguely remember helping my wife clean the house, by going from room to room picking up stuff off of the floor. At some point I go to the supermarket to get some stuff for the party. I wake up
Awake: 8 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 5; D2 = 7; D2 = 6; D4 = 7
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 3; D2 = 5; D3 = 4; D4 = 5
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 2 min; D2 = 10 min; D3 = 4 min; D4 = 15 min
Emotions: Annoyance, frustration; guilt
Dream Signs: super human strength, kids I know but don’t look like they should, kids doing matrix moves, crystal casing a laser light show
Notes: I took some melatonin last night along with the B-5 and Chorine. Got to bed late.

Date: 3/21/2014 (Thu)
Total sleep: 7.5 hrs
Daytime Techniques: RC’s, Awareness, & Visualization
Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Reviewing previous dreams, visualization, “Find your hands”, MILD
Recall Techniques: Mantras, visualization, “lucid anchor”
Fell Asleep: 9:30 pm
Dream 1 Title: I am Tarzan
Dream 1: I am in a large department store with my wife. The store is huge, like a super Walmart, but it has a 1970’s appearance that reminds me of the Worcester Fair (as store I was often in as a child). Jen is shopping for her trip to the Amazon jungle. She is in an isle picking up bright orange cans of spray on sun screen. The thought of the jungle triggers a false memory. I remember that I was raised by a female ape (just like Tarzan). I also recall that she used to sing a song to me. The words of that song are “I love you for breakfast, I love you for lunch, I love you for dinner, I love you a bunch.” We continue to shop. Jen is looking for some shorts and tops to take on the trip. I suddenly am afraid. I know there are dangerous animals in this place and they are going to try and kill me. My wife is now gone and I exit the building through a side door. I am now on Hope Ave. in Worcester. It looks very close to the way it does in real life; it is a long straight road with sidewalks on both sides. Also the street runs through a large cemetery on both sides. I am walking on the sidewalk when I see two rows of animals walking towards me. The first two animals are a large wolf (to my right) and a lioness (on my left). There are other animals behind them (I remember a gorilla and a bear, but not the rest). I know these animals want to kill me, but I am the lord of the jungle. I must make an example of some of these animals do demonstrate my strength and power. I jump to my right and slam my right shoulder into the wolf, knocking him down on to a grassy area. I immediately begin to rain blows down on his rib cage (just like an ape would do in a fight). With the wolf incapacitated I spin on the lioness. She is coming up behind me with her long yellowed teeth bared. I grab her face. I slide my fingers into her mouth, right hand on the top and left hand on the lower jaw. I begin to pull her mouth open. She struggles but I am too strong. The dream ends before I hear the snap of bone. I look at the clock, look away, and back again as a RC, 4:16 am, but I am definitely awake
Dream 2 Title: Practice Flying
Dream 2: After I woke up from Dream 1 I lay in bed for 10 to 15 min remembering the dream. I then remind myself that “in my dream I will see my hands and realize I am dreaming.” At some point I doze off. I am in a bedroom, standing in the middle of the room. I notice it is day time and it feels like summer. I can see sunlight coming in the windows and it is reflecting off of the light colored hardwood floor. I walk out of the door into the living room. I realize I am in the old house where I used to live with my wife several years ago. But the room size and shape is not the same, there is no furniture, and our bedroom was on the second floor. Jen is looking out of the large front windows. I walk over and look out as well. The scene looks nothing like real life. I am looking out onto a city street. A sidewalk runs right in front of the window. There are brick buildings across the street. Right then a silver PT Cruiser comes speeding down the street from my left, swerves onto the sidewalk and speeds past my window. I think “Oh my God, that idiot is going to kill someone.” I must do something! I run to the kitchen door and out onto the sidewalk. I begin to sprint and realize I have super speed. I must be running over 50 miles per hour because I am catching up to the speeding car. The car swerves to the left, off the sidewalk, across the street and down a side road. I think to myself, “This is an opportunity to practice my flying!” I jump forward, superman style, and begin to zoom down the side street. I see the car about 100 yards down the road, stopped. The driver is now on a motorcycle (wearing a black leather jacket, blue jeans, and a black helmet with a reflective face shield.) I jet after him as he speeds away. I am willing myself to go faster as he goes right down another side street between brick buildings. I pursue, but have to slow down so I don’t hit any buildings. The guy rides up a cement ramp and into a building. I follow. I am now flying down a hallway. The building is old and the walls are made of cement. I fly up a set of stairs, through an open doorway, and into a long wide hallway with large openings to my right. It reminds me of a parking garage, but the hallway is not wide enough for cars to park. I can see a rundown city (many old brick buildings) through the openings. Suddenly I hear the motorcycle behind me. Somehow the guy has tricked me. I roll over (while still flying) onto my back and see the guy riding toward me. I begin to fly backward, with my feet in front of me, toward the guy. As we close the distance I slam my feet into his helmet. I don’t see him wipe out, but I can hear the bike crash onto the pavement. I wake up.
Awake: 5:10 am
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) Dream 1 = 6; Dream 2 = 7
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) Dream 1 = 5; Dream 2 = 9
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Dream 1 = 8 minutes; Dream 2 = 2-3 minutes
Emotions: Dream 1 = Fear, then anger; Dream 2 = anger, confident/powerful
Dream Signs: I am Tarzan, in a place that reminds me of my past, fighting wild animals and winning, wild animals in Worcester, back in my old house, a car driving on the sidewalk, running at super speed, flying, knowing that I need to practice my flying
Notes: I did not take any magnesium last night. I did take 500 mg of Chorine and 250 mg of B-5. I am so glad I had decent dream recall last night. When I woke up form Dream 1, I almost fell right back to sleep. Then I realized I need to remember the dream. It took a while to trace the dream backward from the end. I know there was more but couldn’t seem to extract it from my mind. The second dream was awesome. I had some slight idea that I was dreaming, but I was not lucid. But lucid or not it feels great to fly. I awoke feeling energized. I also think I was very close to lucidity which is a good sign that achieving lucidity in the future is going to become easier. I started the “Find my hands” technique last night. For some reason this technique appeals to me. I really believe I will have greater success using it. I am going to stick with it every night for a few weeks and see how it goes. Note: I did see my hands in both dreams (when I was beating the wolf in the first; and when I was flying, with my hands out in front of me, in the second.)

Date: 3/20/2014 (Thu Night)
Total sleep: 7 hours
Daytime Techniques: RC’s, Awareness, & Visualization
Lucid Techniques: Mantras & Visualization
Recall Techniques: Mantras & Reviewing previous dreams
Fell Asleep: 10 pm
Dream 1 Title: Corporate Event
Dream 1 (Fragment): I am at some kind of corporate event. There are 3 sales guys there. All of them are in their early 20’s. They are all wearing black suits, with white shirts and black ties. They are very excited and shouting out a corporate mantra which went something like this “Company Name! (I don’t recall the name) We Will Win!!”. I vaguely remember looking at a spreadsheet on a computer. I wake up.
Dream 2 Title: Another trip to a Mall
Dream 2 (Fragment): I am sitting in a minivan with my current friend Mike R. It is raining outside. I am sitting in a parking lot of a plaza. At some point I leave the car and go into a store. There are cloths hanging up on hooks which are on slat walls. All the walls in the store are slat walls. There are a lot of glass cases around containing miscellaneous items for sale. This place reminds me of a store I’ve been to in Wells Maine. At some point I am standing next to my wife and daughter. She is playing a video game on a computer. She stops and I decide to try it, but the game doesn’t make any sense to me so I don’t even try to play. I then leave the store. I walk out of the front door and it opens into a parking garage which reminds me of Logan airport in Boston. It is still raining and there is water leaking down the cement support beams. I wake up.
Awake: 5 am (I continued to lay in bed for about 30 min trying to remember the dreams)
Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) Dream 1 = 6; Dream 2 = 7
Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) Dream 1 = 4; Dream 2 = 5
Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) Dream 1 = 1 minute; Dream 2 = 10 minutes
Emotions: Dream 1: I was annoyed with the obnoxious sales guys. Dream 2: I was annoyed with the video game.
Dream Signs: Sitting in the car with a friend I don’t see often; being in a place I don’t recognize.
Notes: I took 400 mg of magnesium, 100 mg of chorine & 250 mg of B-5 2 hrs before bed. The magnesium helps me to fall asleep quicker and to say asleep through the night. However, it seems to be negatively impacting my dream recall. The chorine and B-5 are supposed to help with dream recall, but so far I’ve noticed no difference. After several days of binge eating sugar filled junk food, I was fully back on track with my paleo eating yesterday. I feel great this morning: Well rested and in a great mood.

Great night sleep, but lousy dream recall.

Dream 1 (Fragment): I remember this part from 3rd person perspective. Arnold Schwarzenegger is walking down a hall, in a hotel, back to his room. He is wearing nothing but white briefs. His is very out of shape and his gut is hanging over his waistband. He yells out “LEAVE ME ALONE!!” To some people who were just following him.

Dream 1 (Fragment): I remember being at my daughter’s middle school, but that is it.

Dream 2 – Back at college?: In my dream I know I’m in college. I am heading to the cafeteria to get lunch. I arrive at the cafeteria, which is a one story brick building. There is construction going on in front of the building. There is a huge hole dug in front of the main entrance. I jump down into the hole. There is muddy water at the bottom. I then climb back out on the other side, and I’m not even dirty. I stand near the main entrance waiting for my friends to arrive. There are college kids going in and out of the glass double doors. I notice a group of Nazis standing nearby. They are in full SS uniforms and handing out pamphlets to students. One of them approaches me and tries to hand me a pamphlet, but I decline. I am disgusted that they are allowed to hand out propaganda, but realize that it is a free country. My friends arrive: John P (a childhood friend), Scott B and Jim G (both I knew in high school but they were never my friends - Note Scott B died 2 years ago). We walk into the doors and there are areas on each side where you can pick up trays, utensils and cups. We all grab cups and star walking. There are food booths everywhere offering all different kinds of foods (it reminded me of Faneuil Hall in Boston). Scott B is walking right in front of me and at one point he stops quickly. My hand with the cup swings up as I stop short and gets stuck under his arm. I have a brief moment when I think he is going to be annoyed, but he just turns, smiles and hands the cup back to me. We keep walking until we come across a place with ribs. We all stop and take a plate or ribs (which looked delicious). We walk to the back of the building, and out of the exit doors. We are now on a road surrounded by woods. I recognize the road as one very close to where I currently live in real life. As we continue to walk I realize that I didn’t bother to fill up my cup, so I have nothing to drink. My alarm goes off and I wake up.

I took some Melatonin plus Magnesium, B-5, & Chorine last night and it knocked me out. I barely remember the first dream and my alarm killed any dream recall I had on the second dream. Mondays are always difficult for me. I generally don’t sleep well.

Dream 1 (Fragment): I remember being asked to teach a class on cunnilingus, but everyone kept pronouncing it with a strong southern accent “Colonel Angus”, just like a on a Saturday Night Live skit from 2003.

Dream 2 (Fragment): I remember speaking to my Aunt Jane about my father.

3/16/2014

Note: I started taking magnesium, B-5, & Chorine supplements, on 3/15, hoping to enhance dream recall. So last night was the second night of taking them.

I got to bed late last night, shortly after midnight and fell asleep easily.

Dream 1 (Fragment): I remember searching for Lorene (The mother of a girl who plays on my daughter’s soccer team). We were in an astronomy class and I had to tell her about light pollution.

Dream 2 – LD #56 “Bed in the middle of the street?”: The first thing I remember was being at a house that resembled the house I lived in with my ex-wife. In my head I knew I currently lived there with my current wife and daughter. I am standing in the driveway. There is a latter that extends up to the first of 3 balconies (one above the garage which is the first floor, one on the second floor, and another on the third floor (In real life there are no balconies, and the house only has a first floor). I am very annoyed that the latter was left out because it is a danger to my daughter and her friends. My daughter is there and I ask “Where is mom?” I know that my wife left the latter up and I am very annoyed with her. **Jump** I am at school (which I know is high school). The building is huge and actually resembles a casino I’ve been too in the past. At one point I am walking around with friends. I find myself sitting in a folding chair in the middle of a hall. I am waiting for my wife to bring me my suit because I have to attend a funeral. The funeral is for someone close to me and I am very upset (I suspect my father has died, but not 100% sure). Ashton Kutcher comes up to me. He is trying to cheer me up. He shows me his fake ID which is a picture of a ID on a coffee mug. I tell him to leave me along. I realize my wife has forgotten to bring my suit to the school and I am very angry. I get up and start walking to class. I see the principal (who is actor Tim Russ), who is reprimanding some kids for hanging around in the hall. I hear the bell ring and know I am late for class. I further realize I don’t know where the class is located. The principal comes over to me and starts reprimanding me. I collapse to the floor sobbing from all of the emotional stress (father died, wife didn’t bring me my suit, can’t remember where my class is located). He begins to rub my back and tell me it is ok. I shut my eyes tight. **Jump** I open my eyes and I am in bed (False awakening?), except it isn’t my bed. I am laying on a mattress in the middle of a street. I pull back the blankets (white sheet and bright red blanket). I notice my wife sleeping next to me, snuggled under the blankets with her back to me. I also notice that I was sleeping on the wrong side of the bed. I stand up, and can feel the rough pavement under by bare feet. I know something isn’t right and do a reality check. I look at my left hand and count my fingers. I count to 7 and more fingers keep appearing between the ones that are already there. I’m Lucid! I remind myself to stay calm. I look around and see it is a beautiful summer day. The sky is blue (I did not see the sun), the trees are covered in amazingly green leaves, the air is warm. The colors and details are so much more vivid than real life. I am on a neighborhood street, with lines of houses going off to my left and right as far as I can see. There is a house directly in front of me and it resembles the house I used to live in with my ex-wife, but isn’t exactly the same. I begin to walk through the yard of that house. I try to remember what I’m supposed to do, then I recall I need to engage all 5 senses. The yard is very overgrown with grass and weeds, but they are all beautiful. I begin touching the plants. I start talking to myself out loud for hearing. “I need to engage my senses.” I lean in close to a group of weeds. I say “This is amazing!” The leaves were light green with streaks of pink. I say “I’ve got sight, sound and touch…I need taste.” (I have completely forgotten about smell) I remember what I need to do. I say, “I will just taste those blow pops that were dropped here last Halloween.” I then turn around. There is a low cement wall behind me with long grass on top. Among the grass are two blow pops, one is green apple flavored and the other is strawberry (I know this by the wrappers). I pick up the green apple flavored one. I can see the front door of the house, which leads out to a small porch. My ex-wife walks out (she looks just like she does in a recent picture of her I saw on Facebook – she hasn’t aged well). She says “Hi!” She seems excited to see me. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She responds, “Impressive!” as she turns to head back into the house. I am walking backwards down a low grassy hill to another street. I remember my goal for my lucid dream (to fly into space and view the earth from orbit). I yell, “HEY! Come out here!” She turns and comes back out onto the porch just as I step onto the street (again I can feel the pavement under my bare feet). I say, with a huge smile, “I’ll show you impressive!” I am just about to take off at supersonic speed (Man of Steel style)…the dream ends abruptly and I open my eyes. I do a quick reality check, by looking at the clock and looking back (the numbers didn’t change – 6:28 am). I was too excited to go back to sleep. I took my notebook and left the bedroom to write some notes (I didn’t want to wake up my wife).

Recap: This is the first LD I’ve intentionally had in several years. I am glad I had a planned goal to keep me focused. I am also happy that I remembered to engage my senses prior to fly. But, I forgot about the sense of smell. I also note that is was strong emotions which lead me to realize something wasn't right, which then lead to a reality check.

Dream 1 (fragment): I remember sitting and talking about working out with my fiend Mike B.

Dream 2 (Fragment) – Full House?: I was (David Coulier) Uncle Joey on the show Full House. I know I am playing the role in the show. I am in a large room, on the second floor of a building that somewhat resembles the main room from the TV show. I am having a scene with Danny Tanner’s girlfriend (Vicky?). We are talking about something and then we are supposed to almost kiss. We lean in to kiss, when we hear Uncle Jessie coming up the stairs. I am now in 3rd person perspective. Uncle Joey panics, goes to the window, climbs out and climbs down the drainpipe. The scene cuts to another room, a bedroom. Uncle Joey climbs in the window out of breath. To his left are some bunk beds. The Olsen twins are sitting on the lower bed and they are about 4 years old. He looks at them and says comically “We were just talking!” and runs out of the room. Queue laugh track. I wake up.

Dream 3 – Dave gets angry: I am at kids sports event (I belive it was soccer) with my childhood friends John and Dave. We were coaching. We are driving home in a minivan. We are coming up a road near my old neighborhood, heading to John and Dave’s mother’s house (where she currently lives). We see the old neighborhood market (Pandy’s – which burned down years ago) but it is a restaurant. We decide to stop for some breakfast. We get out of the van and head toward the building when I notice it is now attached to a much larger building (it wasn’t when I first noticed it). It has an Italian feel. We go in, and the Italian feel continues with the design of the dining room. We sit in a booth and a waitress comes over. We ask for the breakfast special. She quickly brings out a large bowl. I take the bowl and notice the inside of the bowl is lined with blue, white and yellow mosaic tiles in an intricate pattern. The bowl is full of scrambled eggs mixed with bacon pieces and kielbasa. We each dish out some of the food and begin to eat (it is delicious). A woman comes into the room with her two children (a boy about 3 and a girl about 5). She sits in a booth. I then notice that there are more people in the room there were there before, but this doesn’t seem strange to me. The little book is playing with a red ball and the girl is coloring. They are not misbehaving. Suddenly the woman starts screaming and swearing at the children (abusively). Dave, John and I are aghast. Suddenly Dave, who in real life is a very meek person, stands up and yells to the woman in a booming voice “SHUT THE F#$% UP!!!!!” John and I are shocked, and so is the woman! The entire room is silent and everyone is looking at Dave. I tell him to calm down. He sits back down. I get up and walk over to the woman. I tell her that she is being verbally abusive to her children and we cannot tolerate it. I tell her if she does it again we will call the police and she will lose her children to child protective services. I then tell her the only way to discipline children with to be calm and consistent. I then go back to our table. I take the food bowl and notice that there is very little of the egg stuff left, and it looks like there is a layer of burn egg stuck to the mosaic tiles. I worry that the bowl is ruined. I wake up.

I only remember 1 dream from last night – Bond…James Bond: I don’t remember the entire dream, but it is a long fragment. I remember walking down a long perfectly straight street. The street is in a residential neighborhood. All the houses are very tight together on very small pieces of land. All the yards are perfectly square, with larger front yards. To my right, the houses are right on the edge of a cliff overlooking the Pacific Ocean (I know I am in California). To my left the houses are up against another cliff (so we are on a ledge). It is a beautiful summer day. The sun is shining brightly. I am Daniel Craig (the actor) and I am dressed in a white button down, short sleeve shirt and khaki pants (exactly like James Bond in Casino Royal). The cloths are tailored perfectly to my lean, well-muscled body. I am feeling wonderfully confident. To my left I pass a man who it trimming his front hedges, which are perfectly shaped with tight, angled edges . To my right I pass a yard where there are six gorgeous women sunbathing on cedar lounge chairs. The lounge chairs are arranged in a circular pattern, with all the heads of the chairs touching. The women are all wearing bikinis, are well tanned and oiled. Their skin is shining in the sun. The three women facing my direction take notice of me. One of them shifts her sunglasses lower on her nose so she can peer over them at me. They all smile as I walk by, and I smile back. Next, I walk through a set of automatic glass sliding doors into, what I know, is my house. I am on a huge stonework patio. I walk over to a low stonework wall which overlooks the neighborhood, through which I just walked, and then an amazing view of the Ocean. I can see that we are located in a huge cove that curves around to the left. I can see the waves crashing onto the rocky shore. I know that I am a television producer and I am trying to come up with an idea for a new show. I picture, in my mind, the old show “Lassie” in my mind. It is in black and white. I can see the collie standing with little Timmy. He is wearing blue jeans and a checkered shirt. They are standing near and Indian teepee. I like the idea of a boy and his pet having adventures. But I want something more ferocious. I picture a lion in my head and I can see a large male lion clearly. I am wondering if people would watch a show about a boy and his pet lion. I wake up.

3/13/2014
I took melatonin before bed last night. I had some trouble falling asleep. I woke up at 5:15 am (which is close to the normal time I wake up). I need to buy some more magnesium, which is a great sleep aid for me.

Dream 1 (Fragment): The only thing I can recall about this dream is seeing a huge bright yellow school bus. It was about twice the size of a normal school bus.

Dream 2 (lost): I was awoken in the midst of a dream by a strange scrapping noise. My wife was running her hands along the headboard of our bed. I asked her what she was doing and she said “I need to get these towels.” Then she settled down and fell back to sleep. At this point my dream was completely lost.

Dream 3 – Three Large Ladies: The first thing I remember is being in a mansion. The rooms I’m in are very large, dimly lit, full of dark wood paneling, and large old furniture. It had a slightly gothic feel. I am comfortable here like I may own this mansion. I end up in one of the bedrooms and it is full of dirty cloths. I am annoyed with this. Next I remember I am dating a very large woman (morbidly obese – I have been watching the show “My 600 Lb. Life” recently). I do own the mansion and my yard is a huge theme park. I am now outside of the mansion and I am taking my girlfriend, her daughter, and her two sisters on a gondola ride across the park. Her daughter and sisters are also morbidly obese. We are all in our own separate gondolas, only they are actually large bathtubs suspended on cables. We are all approximately 50 feet off the ground. I can see my girlfriend and remember telling her that it is perfectly safe. I believe she was worried about the weight limit on the cables. Then a strong wind came and my tub began to blow in the wind and was tipping dangerously far to my left. I feel like I might fall out. The ladies’ tubs aren’t moving because their weight is holding them safely in place. *Jump* I am in my bed. My room does not look exactly like it does in real life, but I don’t notice. I reach over to jot some notes in my dream journal, when my girlfriend is suddenly in the bed, which is suddenly enormous. I can’t see her body because it is covered with blankets, but she is shifting closer to me almost like a snake. It appears she has no limbs, her body isn’t large any more, and she is just a head sticking out from a bunch of blankets.

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

She slides up between my legs and begins to perform fellatio on me. It feels really good.

Suddenly both her sisters are also in the bed, and they are slithering toward me just like my girlfriend. I fall off the bed next to my bedside table. I am now trapped with the bed to my right, the table at my back and a wall to my left as the sisters slid off the bed onto the floor in front of me.

Spoiler for Sexual Content:

For some reason I notice a facecloth on the floor that had been previously used to “cleanup” after some earlier sexual activity which I don’t remember. I feel embarrassed and tuck it under the bedside table. One of the sister’s head slides up to my lap and she says seductively, “This is where our generosity really pays off.” She then begins to perform fellatio on me. It feels amazingly good and

I think to myself, “Wait until my buddies here this story.” I wake up.

3/12/2014
Actively pursuing lucid dreams is a very difficult task for me because I have so much trouble sleeping. Last night started off well. I woke up after a dream, but didn’t look at the time. I remembered some of the dream. I woke up after a second dream at 2:30 am. I remembered a small fragment, but I knew there was more. I tried to relax and let the dream come back to me, but it just didn’t. I was frustrated. I lay in bed from then to now and just couldn’t fall back to sleep. So this morning I’ve only had 4.5 hours of sleep and feel horrible.

Dream 1 – Back at the store: In my dream I was working back at the book store where I worked in my late teens. I am standing behind the checkout counter and there are several customers in the store. The man, who looked like a 50-something year old biker (long graying hair and beard, beat up black leather jacket, and dirty blue jeans) he is holding a framed picture. He starts to yell out for all the customers to hear that he tried to return the picture, because there was a red ink stain on the frame, but I refused to give him his money back. I’m very angry because I can remember that the man came in over a year ago and tried to return the picture after he spilled ink on the frame. The man heads for the back room of the store, and I know he is going to try to seal something. I yell at him, “HEY!” and stare him down. He backs down and walks away. Then one of his friends, who looks like the father from Duck Dynasty, tries to sneak into the backroom. I see him and yell at him, and he backs off. I wake up.

Dream 2 (Fragment): The only
thing I remember from this dream was looking out over a large parking lot. There were mulch covered islands with dogwood trees planted on them. The trees are covered in beautiful pink flowers. I vaguely remember sitting cross legged on the floor of a dressing room in a cloths store.