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    1. Dj 4/7/2014

      by , 04-07-2014 at 11:40 AM
      Date: 4/7/2014 (Mon)
      Total sleep: 7 hours
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
      Dream 1 Title: Car on the beach
      Dream 1: I am with Gwen and some other people. We have driven an old blue car (1970’s car) onto a beach and parked it right near the wave line. We are having some kind of beach party. She asks me to go and get something. I walk off the beach and end up on a very thin road (more like a bike path). There are many houses and stores along this path. I see a man grilling with his family. I go down one side path and end up in a place that looks like something from a theme park. It has a very “middle ages” feel, like I am in the castle of a knight of old. The dream fades and I awake.
      Awake: 5:00 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 3
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 3
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 10 min
      Emotions: General happiness
      Dream Signs: Car on the beach, strange situation, bike path with many houses, theme park area
      Notes: Took Melatonin and Magnesium before bed. I have struggled this past weekend with LDing. My dream recall on Friday & Saturday night was horrible. I can only attribute this to my weekend schedule being so different than my work week schedule (to bed much later). But, the horrible dream recall is frustrating me. Last night my dream recall was better. I woke up from the first dream at 3:45 am. I had clear memories of the dream. I jotted down a few tags in my note book, ran through the dream in my head one more time, and then dozed back off. I awoke to my alarm which startled me. This destroyed my recall of the dream I was having just before the alarm, and negatively impacted my dream recall of my previous dream. I forgot to set the light alarm for my clock (must be set separately). I had a rough weekend. I injured my knee (this is a knee I severely injured in the past, so I have reoccurring issues) this weekend which is now impacting my morning workouts. My wife is having some health issues which are a struggle. Work has also been a struggle lately (the end of each quarter is always very busy, plus some other issues). On top of all that I am having issues with dream recall (which could be partial impacted by all the other issues). Hopefully things will get better soon.
      Categories
      non-lucid , side notes
    2. Dj 4/6/2014

      by , 04-06-2014 at 07:02 PM
      Date: 4/6/2014
      Total sleep: 7 hours
      Daytime Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Visualization
      Lucid Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Mantras, Medititation/Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Mantra/Intent, Remembering past hour of events during the day
      Fell Asleep: 12:00 am
      Dream 1 Title: None
      Dream 1: I woke up at 7 am from what I know was a long and interesting dream. Yet, I just couldn’t seem to focus in on any single point so I could start recalling more. It was like looking through a thick fog. It was very frustrating that I couldn’t recall a single detail.
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = ?
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = ?
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?
      Emotions: ?
      Dream Signs: ?
      Notes: I find it very frustrating when I know I’ve had a dream, I wake up right after, and yet just can get through the brain fog to recall any details.
      Categories
      side notes
    3. Dj 4/5/2014

      by , 04-05-2014 at 03:55 PM
      Date: 4/5/2014
      Total sleep: 7.5 hours
      Daytime Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Visualization
      Lucid Techniques: Awareness, RCs, Mantras, Medititation/Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Mantra/Intent, Remembering past hour of events during the day
      Fell Asleep: 11:00
      Dream 1 Title: (Fragment)
      Dream 1: I woke up right after this dream ended and struggled to remember anything. The last thing I could remember: I was riding a bicycle on the great wall of China.
      Dream 2 Title: (Fragment) Porn at work
      Dream 2: Another long dream, and I couldn’t work my way back from the very last event. I am at work. I am in an area with cubicles, but they are outside. I am with a coworker who I know in the dream but not in RL. My computer is on and there are small pictures of cartoon people in different sexual situation. I know they are links to cartoon pornographic movie clips. My coworker wants to watch some of them. I am very nervous that I am going to get in trouble for this because it is on my computer. He takes the mouse and clicks on the first link. The dream fades and I wake up. It is 5:26 am. I struggle with recall. I know this was a very long dream, but I just can’t seem to work my way back to the beginning. Frustration may have kept me awake. I dozed back off about an hour later.
      Dream 3 Title: (Fragment) The Three Stooges burned a bank
      Dream 3: I am walking down a city street. I see a bank and realize I need to get some money from an ATM. I open the door and enter the bank. There are 3 ATMs, but they are all burnt and useless. I’m surprised by this. I walk back out onto the street and go right. I walk a short way and there is an ally on my right. I see the Three Stooges sitting on a bench in the alley looking ashamed. All of them are wearing business suits, but they are burnt and smoking. Their faces are covered in gray and black ash, and Moe & Larry’s hair is singed and smoking. I realize they were the bankers in charge of the bank and their comical antics have destroyed the bank. I awake to my wife’s alarm. She hits SNOOZE.
      Dream 4 Title: (Fragment) Rob Lowe motivational speaker
      Dream 4: I doze back off after the alarm. I am back at work. Rob Lowe is there. He is wearing a very nice business suit. He is there to give a motivational speech. I wake up to my wife’s alarm again. She hits SNOOZE.
      Dream 5 Title: (Fragment) I forgot to shut off my computer
      Dream 5: I doze back off after the 2nd alarm. I am back at work. I remember that I had porn sights up on my computer (from Dream 2), but I forgot to shut my computer off and my boss (My old boss, who is a complete A-Hole in real life) is walking around checking computers. I am in a panic. I am running down a hall to get to my computer and my wife is right behind me. I get to my cubicle and my computer is gone. I realize my boss has found it and taken it to HR. I know I’m going to lose my job. I fall to my knees. I am so angry and ashamed. My wife comes up next to me, places her hand on my back and tells me it is going to be ok. I wake up to my wife’s alarm yet again. She hits SNOOZE. I get up at this point.
      Awake: 5:30 am, fell back to sleep around 6:30 am up at 7:30 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 2; D2 = 4; D3 = 5; D4 = 5; D5 = 5
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2; D2 = 3; D3 = 4; D4 = 4; D5 = 4
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?; D2 = I know this was a long dream, probably 20 min, but I only remember about 3 min; D3 = 3 min; D4 = 1 min; D5 = 2 min
      Emotions: Nervousness, fear, panic, shame, annoyance
      Dream Signs: Celebrities, Strange Places, Strange Bad Situations
      Notes: I took magnesium before bed. This was a frustrating night. I struggled with recall. When I recall, it is like pulling an anchor out of the water. I have the very end of the chain and the rest is below the surface. Some nights I can pull it all the way up without issue. Other night I can only hold onto the very end of the chain and the rest stays under water. I'm sure my frustration earlier in the night caused issues for the rest of the night.
    4. Dj 4/4/2014

      by , 04-04-2014 at 11:12 AM
      Date: 4/4/14 (Thu)
      Total sleep: 6.5 Hours
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
      Dream 1 Title: Aimless wandering
      Dream 1: I am walking up a low grassy hill with my wife. We are walking to the mall together. I am wearing a long black trench coat. **Jump** I am at the mall and I am in the kitchen area of a restaurant. Lisa from work is there. She asks me if I need help with anything and I say no. There are stainless steel cabinets and counters all around me. They are covered of boxes, cans, bottles and kitchen utensils. There is a large gray plastic trash bin, with wheels, right in front of me. I look in. There are a few boxes, and beneath them are a bunch of cookies. I see some cookie that are cupped, and in the depression is yellow filling. I know they are lemon and really want to eat some. I reach in to take some, but realize they are in the trash and that would be disgusting. I walk out thought a set of swinging doors and find myself in a local mall. I walk to my left, not paying too much attention to anything. There are people all around. I notice a pretty woman pushing a baby carriage and stop to look at the baby. She gives me a dirty look. I feel embarrassed. I quickly turn away and walk into the store to my right. Then I realize this isn’t a store but a daycare center. I know I shouldn’t be in there because you have to sign in before entering for security reasons. I quickly leave. **Jump** I am sitting in the sand of a beach, but I can’t see, hear or smell the ocean. It feels like I’m on a movie set. But, the sand feels nice. It is warm and very dry. Then I notice a bundle of sticks sticking out of the sand to my right. They are sticks which would be used for beef and chicken skewers at a Chinese restaurant. Then I see pieces of meat clinging to the sticks. I am disgusted. I look around and there are many more around me, sticking out of the sand. I realize I am sitting in the middle of a garbage dump. I jump to my feet and begin to walk away. The dream fades and I awake.
      Dream 2 Title: Sleeping in a warehouse (**Lucid**)
      Dream 2: I am in some kind of small warehouse. The floors and walls are cement. There are tables and chairs set up. There is a small stage. There are miscellaneous items (boxes, bins, boards, etc) that you may find in a warehouse pushed up against the walls. My wife and daughter are there. We find seats at a large round table (seats about 8 people) as more people start to come into the room. Everyone starts to take their seats. A woman comes in and goes up to the mic on the small stage. I realize she is a comedian. She walks out into the audience and is talking but I can’t make out what she is saying. She walks to our table and put’s her hand on my daughter’s shoulder. She gets up from her seat and walks with the woman. I assume she is going to go up on stage as part of the act, but instead the woman escorts her to another table. I’m confused by this. I realize I am sitting on a couch and I lay down on my side because I’m feeling tired. I see my wife get up, walk over to the table where my daughter is now sitting and sit next to her. Things start to fade out as I feel I am falling asleep. I open my eyes and the show is over. I am still lying down with a coat covering me. I look over my right shoulder and see Maggie (a woman I used to work with over 10 yrs ago). I say hi to her. She says Hi back but is looking at me funny because I am sleeping during a show. I sit up and look for my wife and daughter, but I realize I am now shirtless and only wearing athletic shorts. I see my wife and daughter about 20 feet away, they have their backs to me. I notice my daughter has much more hair than in RL, it is up in a ponytail and hangs to the back of her legs. Someone behind me playfully wraps his or her arms around my neck. I don’t know who it is. I move toward my wife and daughter and the person continues to hang on. My wife turns and smiles. The person lets go and I turn around. It is a young man who I don’t recognize (in the dream or RL). He is about my daughter’s age, with short red curly hair and lots of freckles on his face. Behind him a see a large metal sliding door which I know leads out of the building. Something is feeling strange about this situation. I walk to the door. Suddenly I have a shirt on. I know I was shirtless seconds ago, and I know something isn’t right. Then I remember I was awake in my bed just a little while ago, and having a lot of trouble falling back to sleep. I am lucid without doing a reality check. Everything around me, colors and details, become more vivid. I am surprisingly calm. (I completely forgot to stabilize) I grab the handle of the door and slid it open. There is an alley before me with a one story brick building to the left and a wooden stockade fence to the right. I walk out into the ally. About 20 feet down the alley is a maroon dumpster and standing hear it is a woman. She is taller than me (probably 6 ‘6”) with dark black wavy hair that falls below her shoulders. She is wearing a puffy white long sleeve shirt, a long black skirt, and tall black boots. She reminds me of a gypsy. I walk towards her. She turns and smiles at me. I smile back. I say, “I’m dreaming!” She continues to look at me but her face morphs. Her cheek bones and jaw become more pronounce and the shadow of beard stubble appears. She is now a man dressed like a woman. I ignore this change knowing this is just a dream. I decide to jump over the six foot fence to my right. As I jump I remember my goal, and drop back to the ground. I know I want to fly into space and view the earth from orbit. I look up at the sky, which is brilliantly blue with no clouds. I turn back to the man/woman and say “Do you want to see something amazing?” He/she nods. I look back to the sky and it has changed. It is a swirling mass of deep purple and blue with millions of stars and galaxies. I pause for a moment to stare at this amazing sight. Then I squat down a bit and give a tremendous leap…but my real life legs respond and jerk which immediately wakes me up.
      Awake:: 4:00 am then dozed back off around 5 am and awoke at 5:15 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 6; D2 = before lucid 8, after lucid 13
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 before lucid 8 then Lucid
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 20 min; D2 10 min
      Emotions: Disappointment, Fear, Embarrassment; Disgust; Happiness
      Dream Signs: In strange places (restaurant kitchen, day care center, warehouse, beach, etc), person from my past, daughter with long hair, some kid I don’t know hugging me from behind)
      Notes: I woke up after Dream 1 just before 4 am. I have pain in my neck. I lay there recalling my dream for a few minutes. I make mental tags. But then I realize I’m probably not going to be able to fall back to sleep. I then jot my tags down on my notebook and lay there thinking about my dream and trying to remember previous dreams from earlier that night. I glance at the clock at 4:32 am. I start meditating (breathing, clearing my mind) in the hope of falling back to sleep. I glace at the clock at 4:53 am. Then I ended up in Dream 2, but it was a very light sleep right on the verge of waking up. In the dream I completely forgot to stabilize. I’m sure that would have helped.

      Updated 04-04-2014 at 11:22 AM by 68290

      Categories
      lucid , non-lucid , side notes
    5. Dj 4/3/2014

      by , 04-03-2014 at 12:12 PM
      Date: 4/3/2014 (Wed)
      Total sleep: 7 hours
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, reviewing DJ
      Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 9:45 pm
      Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Looking for a location to shoot a movie
      Dream 1: I am driving in my car with John C (a guy who used to work for me). We are on Rt 146 south. We are coming up on a golf course on our right which may be a good place the shoot or movie. I pass the golf course and pull into a “U” shaped driveway of a hotel. **Jump** I am in the hotel dining room. It is breakfast time. I am sitting at a small table. There are other people walking around, or sitting at tables. I see Patrick Wilson (the actor). He is caring a plate of food away from the buffet. I am trying to catch his eye because I want to tell him that I was very impressed with his character from “The Watchmen” movie. But he walks past me without making eye contact. **Jump** I am outside, standing on a low hill overlooking a golf course. John C is next to me. We think that this would be a great place to shoot our movie. I wake up.
      Dream 2 Title: Missing class due to crime spree
      Dream 2: I am in my house, only it looks more like house of my childhood friends. My daughter and two of her friends are with me. They are very scared and whispering to me that someone has broken into the house. The house is very dimly lit. I know the burglar is on the second floor. I move to the stairs as quietly as I can. I climb the stairs and into a small hallway. I can go into the room on the left or the room on the right. I go left. The room is very messy. There are piles of cloths scattered all over the floor, the bed, and the dresser. The only light is moon light shining in through the window. I see a boy (about my daughter’s age standing near the window. I move forward quickly and grab hold of his left arm. He doesn’t resist. I tell him that the police are on the way (although I didn’t call them). I take him down stairs. He tells me that his older brother is on his way with a van. They were going to clean the house out. I open the front door and see a bright yellow van backing up the driveway. I run out. The driver must have seen me because he starts to pull away quickly, but he swerves onto the grass and the two right wheels go off a small hill. The van tips to the right and rolls over into a muddy ditch. Just then a police car pulls into the driveway. I look past the van, to my right, and see the Quinsigamond Community College campus (although it looked very different than reality). I know I have to get to class. I walk away from the crime scene and onto the campus. I meet up with Sheryl F (a woman I know in RL) who is the class with me. She is very upset and on the verge of tears. I ask her what’s wrong. She tells me that her van was stolen. It was her work van which was full of radiology equipment. She was afraid that she would lose her job and have to pay back the tens of thousands of dollars to replace the equipment. I feel very bad for her. We are down by a street and the police arrive. There is a large crowd of people there. Sheryl gave information to the police. That is when I realize that my car has been broken into. Someone had broken my driver’s side window and taken some stuff from the car (but I have no idea what stuff). I explain this to the police. I realize that Sheryl and I are going to miss class because of this mess. I am even more upset at this point. Sheryl and I go to find our professor. We walk a short distance and we find him. His is walking to the classroom. He is also running late for class. We briefly explain the situation and he tells us not to worry and that we don’t have to attend today’s class. I am very relieved. Sheryl and I decide to find a vending machine to get some food. We walk to a building (which look like one of my old grade schools). I notice that Mr. T is walking right in front of us. He looks like he currently does, in his early 60’s. He stops just inside the door, blocking our way. There is a “Rocky III” poster on the wall. It is a picture of him in his prime. He is staring at the picture and is noticeably upset. Sheryl and I try to comfort him. We tell him that he is still in very good shape for his age. He takes his shirt off and begins to flex his chest at the poster says, “I still got it. I can get back to lookin’ like that!” We tell him that he definitely can get back. Sheryl and I walk away (forgot about the food) and head to another building. I see a small brick building with large glass windows and a glass door. It looks more like a small store than a school building. I know this is where our class was being held. I know it is time for class to be released. I also notice a pumpkin next to the door. The door opens and a stream of children (8 – 10 years old) come out. All are wearing Halloween costumes. At the very end our professor comes out, only he is Svengoolie (horror movie TV host) and he is riding a horse. He rears the horse up and waves to us before riding off. The light from my alarm wakes me up.
      Awake: 4:45 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 5; D2 = 9
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 4; D2 = 6
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 5 min; D2 = 15 min
      Emotions: Nervous, Fear, Anxious, Anger, Relief
      Dream Signs: School, Celebrities, old friend’s house, shifting scenery, old friends, strand situations (break ins, theft, van tipping over)
      Notes: I took some B-5 and Chorine last night, but all it did was give me mild heartburn. I reviewed some dreams in my dream journal. I did some meditation along with mantras and visualization (becoming lucid in one of my prior normal dreams) I really felt the joy of being lucid and approached everything with a very positive attitude. I did mental tags for the first dream of the night (Night Owl, shooting a movie, golf course) which did help me remember.
      Text Search Experiment: I was very aware of text all day.
    6. 4/2/2014

      by , 04-02-2014 at 12:01 PM
      Date: 4/2/2014 (Wed)
      Total sleep: 7 hrs
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization, Reviewing Dream Journal
      Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization, Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 10:00 PM
      Dream 1 Title: (Fragment) Lost in Space
      Dream 1: I am Will Robinson from the 1960’s TV show Lost In Space. I am with Dr. Smith and we are on an alien planet. The environment looks like a desert with a lot of rocks, sand and cactus type plants.
      Dream 2 Title: (Fragment) Crushed by a log
      Dream 2: I am in the yard or the mother of my childhood friends, except the yard is a large area of forest. I am standing on a well worn trail. I can see large areas of lichen covered shale sticking out of the ground. There are large oak and pine trees all around, mix with much younger trees. I am with my sister and her husband. We are there to clean up after a large storm. I look around and don’t notice any damage. Then I look up and see a huge log, the size of a tree truck and sharply broken off at both ends as if it was snapped off by a tornado, stuck high up among the branches of several trees. I look around high up among the other trees and see similar logs all around. Then I notice one of them is stuck in some branched and some cables. I realize those cables are electrical cables for my friend’s Mother’s house. I know we have to remove that log first. I walk toward it, and stand beneath it. I wonder how we are going to get it down. I turn back to my brother in-law and he has a piece of cable in his hand. He pulls on it, hard. I look up and the log comes loose and falls right on top of me. I wake up.
      Dream 3 Title: (Fragment) Whirligig
      Dream 3: I am standing in the driveway of my parent’s house. It looks like it did many years ago before they added on a garage. I am with two women. We are playing some game. I have a whirligig, but propellers are made from large feathers (remind me of feathers from an eagle) and they are tied to a stick. There is a wooden kitchen chair in the drive way. I stand on the chair and hold the whirligig up over my head. Then I see huge dark storm clouds on the horizon, and they are rushing toward us at incredible speed. I see a wall of heavy rain rushing toward us. I yell to the women to get into the house. I jump off the chair and start running for the door. I wake up.
      Dream 4 Title: (Fragment) Ricky Gervais is cheating on his wife
      Dream 4: I am in my home. Actor Ricky Gervais is there. He has asked us to babysit his two children (young boy and girl). He leaves. The children end up making a tent out of blankets in the bathroom. They have made a big mess and I need to clean it up. I sneak into the bathroom, duck into the tent and start picking up trash (candy wrappers, empty juice pouches, etc). I put it all into an overflowing waste basket and go out to the kitchen. But, it is no longer my kitchen, it is now a patio with a bar. My wife is serving drinks to several women. I see a woman who I know to be Ricky’s wife. I put down the waste basket and start walking toward her. I know that Ricky left the kids with us so he go off with his mistress. I need to tell his wife that her husband is cheating. Ricky’s wife (I don’t know her name) starts walking toward me. I am nervous because I don’t know how she will react. She is a woman in her 50’s with a bit of extra weight on her. She has shoulder length brown hair and a nice smile. She comes up to me and we meet with a friendly embrace. I look into her eyes and say “I need to tell you something.” She replies, “I know darling.” We begin to walk back to the house so we can talk in private. The light from my alarm clock wakes me up.
      Awake:: 4:50 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 3; D2 = 4; D3 = 5; D4 = 6
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2; D2 = 3; D3 = 3; D4 = 4
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 1 min; D2 = 3 min; D3 = 2 min; D4 = 4 min
      Emotions: Annoyance, fear, happiness, concern, nervous
      Dream Signs: I am in a TV show, huge logs up in trees, almost killed, sudden huge storm coming on too fast, celebrity, children sleeping in the bathroom, my kitchen is a padio
      Notes: No supplements last night. I read through my dream journal before bed. I did some meditative visualization and mantras before falling asleep. When I awoke from each dream I lay there recalling and then stated my mantras before falling back to sleep. Overall I had decent recall but I just don’t get enough sleep during my work week.
      Text Search Experiment: I continue to be aware and read as much text as I can during the day. So far I am not having any success with transitioning this habit to my dreams.
    7. Dj 4/1/2014

      by , 04-01-2014 at 12:07 PM
      Date: 4/1/2014 (Tue)
      Total sleep: 6.75 hours
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search, Awareness
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 10 pm
      Dream 1 Title: Underground Railroad?
      Dream 1: I am standing on the grass facing a small hill. There are old stairs, made of old railroad ties, leading up the hill to an old shack. The shack is run down and painted white. I see an old rusty cloths line (the kind that rotates) in the yard. My wife is with me. I know that this shack is her grandmother’s house. We walk up the stairs and into the yard. There is a dog run running from the house to a nearby pine tree. The grass under the run has been worn away leaving only dry dirt. I don’t see a dog. We walk in through the old screen door, which squeaks loudly. We are in a very old kitchen. There are counters and cabinets to our left and right. The kitchen has a 1940’s feel and everything looks very old. There is a plastic container, filled with sugar, on the counter to my right. My wife opens it, and for some reason puts dry cat food in with the sugar. She then puts the lid back on. Jen’s grandmother (who is dead in real life) comes into the room from a doorway at the far end of the kitchen. She is wearing a long white night gown. She goes to my wife and gives her a hug. Another elderly woman come into the room from the same doorway. I know she is the grandmother’s sister, but in RL she is unfamiliar to me. The woman picks up a cup of coffee from one of the counters, walks to the container of sugar and begins spooning some into her coffee. I can see the cat food mixed with the sugar as she puts it in the cup. I wonder when she will notice and now she will react (I assume she will be angry). Suddenly, I am afraid. I know my wife and I are being chased and we need to hide. We move across the room to a door. I open the door which leads to a dark basement. The stairs leading down are very old and don’t look very safe. We descend the steps anyway. The basement has a dirt floor. There are roughly constructed work tables one every wall (running completely around the perimeter) and a long work table in the middle of the room. (The basement is much bigger than the shake, but I don’t question this.) There are old dirty canvas tarps on all the tables that hang over the edge. We move to the nearest table to our left, duck under the tarp and lay on the dirt floor. We are trying to hide. I peek out from the tarp and can see an archway leading outside. It is now night and I can see many eyes reflected red by some unseen light source. My wife says “Oh my God! This is just like The Hills Have Eyes!” (I know she is referencing the movie.) Suddenly I notice a young black man hiding under the table directly to my left. He is dressed in an old white button down shirt with puffy sleeves, rust orange colored pants which only come a bit below his knees and are held up with a piece of rope tied around his waist. He looks like a stereo typical slave from the 1800’s. I now know that the people outside are searching for him. He is a runaway slave and this place is part of the underground railroad. Suddenly a large group of slaves, dressed in a similar fashion to the hiding man, come in through the archway. The move around the room lifting the tarps and searching under the tables. They come to where we are hiding, lift the tarp and find up. They completely ignore my wife and me. The hiding slave stands up and smiles at the other men. One of the men hugs him and I realize that they were just playing a game. They all leave together out through the archway. My wife and I get up and move to the far left corner of the basement. We find a small room. It has a low box with a hole cut in the top. I realize it is an indoor outhouse. There is an opening cut in the wall. I look out and see a street. There is a brand new, dark blue, Nissan Altima parked about 50 yards away. My nephew is standing near the car with two other people who I don’t recognize. I turn and my wife is gone. I know she has gone back up to the first floor. I walk out of the small room and I am in a paved basement that looks very similar to the one in my house. I know I have to bring some cat up with me. I find the bag of cat food and see two sets of stairs. I take the one to the left (there is another to the right). I climb to the top and it ends at the ceiling with not where else to go. There is white cloth hanging from the ceiling and I have to push it out of the way to descend the steps. I go to the other flight of stairs and begin to ascend. As I get close to the top a large smoke gray cat sticks is paw out from under a step, right in front of my face. I smile at his playfulness. The dream fades as the light from my alarm clock wakes me up.
      Awake:: 4:45 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 11
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 7
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 15 min
      Emotions: Happiness & fear
      Dream Signs: In a place I don’t recognize, dead grandmother, cat food in the sugar, hiding, slaves, underground railroad, magically changing scenes, basement bigger than house
      Notes: No supplements last night. I am doing to meditating along with my visualization and mantras and it is really improving my ability to fall asleep. I am very happy with the detailed recall I have of my last dream of the night. I really love my new alarm clock. It wakes me up with light which doesn’t ruin my recall of my dream. I don’t remember awaking after any previous dreams.
      Text Search Experiment: I am still searching for text, and using it as a reality check, throughout my day. I didn’t notice any text in my dream.
      Categories
      non-lucid , side notes
    8. 3/31/2014 - LD Data

      by , 03-31-2014 at 05:08 PM
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      I reviewed my LD journal to find what triggered me to do a RC, or to just “know” I was dreaming. I broke the findings into 4 categories
      1. “Felt Like a Dream”: In these cases I did a RC because the environment felt dreamlike, even though there was nothing out of the ordinary going on.
      2. Emotion: In these cases I was having an emotional reaction to a situation in all instances it was one of the following that triggered the reaction: Surprise, Confusion, or a combination of the two.
      a. Confusion can be viewed as an opposite to interest, and serves as a signal to the self to inform the viewer that they cannot comprehend what they are looking at, and confusion often necessitates a shift in action to remedy the lack of understanding. Confusion is thought to stem from uncertainty, and a lack of one's expectations and knowledge being met
      b. Surprise functions as a disruption of current action to alert a viewer to a significant event. The emotion is centered around the experience of something new and unexpected, and can be ellicied by sensory incongruity.
      3. RC Habit: In these cases I simply did a reality check out of habit.
      4. Remembering being awake before the dream: All of these cases were WBTB occurrences.

      I tracked every event where I became lucid, or did a RC and didn’t become lucid. (*Note: Technically I could put “Felt Like a Dream” and “Remembering being away before the dream” into the Emotion category because both of those would cause some level of surprise or confusion.)

      *I should also note I have never been successful at using the WILD technique, nor can I regularly use WBTB because I have issues falling back to sleep after being awake for more than 10 minutes.*

      So for someone who uses DILD techniques (RCs, Mantras, Visualization, Meditative Visualization, etc.) I have found the overwhelming majority of my LDs were triggered by a response to Confusion and/or Surprise. I believe that confusion and surprise tend to triggers a cognitive response which naturally initiates involvement of the conscious mind.

      Example: I have many instances where my reflection in a mirror has triggered lucidity. So, in all of these cases I look at myself in mirror. Something is noticeably different with my appearance, of which I am intimately familiar. I am surprised, confused, or both by seeing something that is not what I expected. My conscious mind activates to try to figure out why my reflection doesn’t match my expectation of how it should appear. It tries to find a reason to explain the discrepancy. With my consciousness elevated in that moment, and my current understanding that I could be dreaming at any time (questioning reality during my waking hours), I ask myself if this is a dream and do a RC. I am now lucid.

      To use this with my “Text Search” experiment I would have to have an emotional response to the lack of text in my dreams. So far my dream logic has gotten the best of me and I am not surprised by the lack to text. I know this is because 98+% of the time, in real life, I pay little attention to text unless it is in my current interest to read it. In my dreams I have little to no interest to read any text. This is similar to doing RCs out of habit. I have been doing RCs, out of habit in real life, for almost 10 years. Yet I have only had 4 instances where I have done a RC in a dream out of habit.

      So, if it is the emotional reaction which triggers the rational mind to engage in an attempt to figure out why the current situation defies current expectation....how and I turn this to my advantage?

      Updated 03-31-2014 at 05:26 PM by 68290

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      side notes
    9. Dj 3/31/2014

      by , 03-31-2014 at 12:02 PM
      Date: 3/31/2014 (Mon)
      Total sleep: 6.5 hrs
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, Visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Meditative Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Meditative Visualization Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 10:30 pm
      Dream 1 Title: (Fragments)
      Dream 1: I am standing in my back yard, near my house. There is about 2 inches of water surrounding my house from the cement of the basement to about 4 feet out. I can see a lot of brown leaves submerged under the water. My daughter is near me and I tell her we are going to have to rake those leaves out of the water. I feel very annoyed with having to rake and worried that we will get water in the basement. Later in the dream I am a federal agent. I am in some kind of government building with many large windows.
      Dream 2 Title: Opening a new store
      Dream 2: I am standing in the parking lot of a convenience store. It is very run down. I know my parents own this store. (It strongly reminds me of a store near a house where I used to live.) I go into the store and many of the shelves are bare. I am annoyed that my parents have not kept the store well stocked and they have let it get so run down. I walk up to the counter and see a box which contains books of matches. They have a price of “$.03” (It was text and I could read it). Again I am annoyed because I know they are losing money because they are selling the matches at cost. I walk out of the store and I am in a much larger parking lot (which reminds me of Lincoln Plaza before they updated a few years ago). There are many people standing around. I sit on a low wall and see my friend John sitting nearby (childhood friend). He is wearing a long black trench coat over a suit. I realize I am dressed in a similar fashion. I feel tugging at my jacket and look to see my mother standing next to me. She is trying to remove a box of Kraft macaroni and cheese from my coat pocket but it is stuck. Suddenly I remember she had asked me to bring her that box. I pull the box out of my pocket and hand it to her. I stand up and walk over to a crowd of people who are gathered around a billboard. I push through the crowd to get a better view. A man to my right (short pudgy man with a crew cut) gives me a dirty look, but I ignore him. I can see the sign. It is vividly colored with reds, yellows, whites, and blacks. I see a picture of a large cartoon dog wearing a red and white leather jacket. Below him are large words. I don’t read the words but I know they say “Big Dog Store”. I know that this is the name of my parents’ new store. I now have memories that my parents have shut down the old store and built a larger, much nicer, store and this is their new advertising billboard. There is a building to my right. I go in. It is a large lecture hall. I know that I am taking a class her. I sit down next to a very slim young woman. She has brown straight hair, a bit longer than should length, and is wearing a long yellow dress. She is an average looking woman but when she turns and smiles at me I suddenly find her very attractive. She asks me a question (I can’t recall what it was) and I reply (can’t remember this either). I loot to my right and my friend John is there. I poke his arm to get his attention and ask him if he has any gum. I want some mint gum to freshen my breath because I plan on kissing the young woman. He hands me a pack of gum in a blue package. The dream fades and I awake. My new alarm, which has a slowly brightening light 15 min prior to my actual alarm, woke me gently.
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 3; D2 = 9
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2; D2 = 6
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?; D2 = 10 min
      Emotions: Annoyance, worry, more annoyance, general happiness
      Dream Signs: Water doing damage, childhood friend, locations that remind me of past places, parents owning a new business, going to kiss a woman I don’t know
      Notes: Took melatonin and magnesium last night. I am very happy with my new alarm clock. The gently brightening light awoke me about 4 minutes before the actual alarm (which is set to nature noises) went off. I had no issue with remember the dream. I am adding some meditation combined with visualization and mantras prior to sleep. I will see if this helps. During the day, yesterday, I actually attempted to take an afternoon nap, but just couldn’t fall asleep. I also attempted WBTB on Saturday & Sunday mornings, but just couldn’t fall back to sleep.
      Text Search Experiment: (Day 8) Continue to search text daily. I am losing confidence in this method. I actually saw a bit of text in my dream last night and could read it clearly. I find that dream logic is preventing me from even noticing the lack of text in my dreams.
    10. Dj 3/30/2014

      by , 03-30-2014 at 02:39 PM
      Date: 3/30/2014 (Sat)
      Total sleep: 7.5 hours
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, visualization
      Recall Techniques: Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 11:15 pm
      Dream 1 Title: Fragment
      Dream 1: I was having a work related conversation with an African American woman.
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 2
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?
      Emotions: None
      Dream Signs: None
      Notes: This has been a bad weekend for dream recall. I have just been too exhausted. I got my new alarm clock yesterday. I managed to add a red filter to the display to greatly reduce the brightness. This helps me when I look at the clock in the middle of the night. Tomorrow I will be waking up to light and nature sounds. Hopefully that will help with dream recall.
      Text Search Experiment: (Day 7) I paid close attention to text all day yesterday.
    11. Dj 3/29/2014

      by , 03-29-2014 at 03:15 PM
      Date: 3/29/2014 (Fri)
      Total sleep: 6 hours
      Daytime Techniques: RCs, visualization, Text Search
      Lucid Techniques: Mantra
      Recall Techniques: Mantra
      Fell Asleep: 1:30 am
      Dream 1 Title: Just fragments
      Dream 1: I remember my wife finding a baby bird and wanting to take care of it. I remember seeing a bush with white Christmas lights on it. I remember Leonardo DiCaprio talking to a bunch of people and saying, “We must be prepared!” (Watched “Wolf of Wall Street” last night)
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 2
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 2
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = ?
      Emotions: ?
      Dream Signs: Celebrity
      Notes: No supplements last night. I got to bed late (1:30 am). I have been running on too little sleep for 3 days (6 to 6.5 per night). I know this is having a negative impact on my chances for lucidity and for my dream recall. Last night I was so exhausted I just couldn’t spend time trying to recall my dreams (I did wake up after 2, but dozed off immediately).
      Text Search Experiment: (Day 6) I was very sleep deprived yesterday and didn’t have good focus. I tried to pay as much attention to text as possible.

      Updated 03-29-2014 at 03:19 PM by 68290

      Categories
      side notes , non-lucid , dream fragment
    12. Dj 3/28/2014

      by , 03-28-2014 at 01:41 PM
      Date: 3/28/2014 (Thu)
      Total sleep: 6.5 hours
      Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 10:00 pm
      Dream 1 Title: Weird South Park Cartoon
      Dream 1: I am in a strange house with my wife. She is very upset. We had a contractor cut an area in the floor and install a set of stairs to the basement. To do this they had to cut a large hole in our hardwood floor. He cut it unevenly so there is an area with exposed brickwork that is very old and ugly. I can’t blame her for being upset, it looks horrible. **Jump** (3rd person perspective) I am watching a South Park style cartoon. There are three characters (Brad Pitt, my wife, and another one who I didn’t recognize) and they are dancing around in a cartoon apple orchard. Suddenly Scionox’s (From DV) avatar (a black dragon) comes onto the screen and starts chasing the characters. They act comically scared and run around the orchard. Then they all run off the screen. I wake up.
      Dream 2 Title: Breakup in Hawaii (**Lucid**)
      Dream 2: I am in a hotel room with several women I used to work with 10 years ago; Judy, Coleen, & Cindy. My long term girlfriend is also there (whom I don’t know in real life). Everyone is sitting on the floor and we are having a pie tasting party. In front of me are several pieces of different types of pie on white paper plates, with white plastic forks. I am handing out the pieces to people. I am hoping there won’t be any pie left when I’m done passing them out because I am trying to not eat sugar (this is a RL habit). When I am done passing them out there is one piece left for me. It is a large piece of apple pie. The crust is golden brown and I am dying to have some, but I resist. Coleen says, “Come on! You need to have at least a bite.” I just shake my head no. My girlfriend brings in a pot of hot cider and we start handing out styrafoam cups filled with cider, with a red plastic coffee stirrer in each. After a short time the women decide to leave and I am very happy because I want to have some intimate time with my girlfriend. I lay down on the bed, which is in a corner of the room. My girlfriend, who is a slim woman with brown shoulder length hair, (I don’t know her name, but I know that we have been dating for years) comes out of the bathroom. She is wearing blue jeans, a brown leather jacket, white t-shirt, and has a large brown leather bad hung over her shoulder (I know it is her overnight bag). She has her car keys in her hand, and I know she is leaving to go sleep with another man. I say to her, “If you leave it is over.” She replies, “Fine.” and walks out the door. I am devastated. I can’t describe how horrible I felt. It was just too real. I actually felt like a happy long term relationship had just ended because she wanted to be with someone else. I get up off the bed, walk to the dresser, and grab my car keys and my hotel key card. I just want to get out of this room. I need to just walk. Go out the door, which leads directly onto a city street. There are tall buildings on both sides of the road, and many cars parked along the street. I am lost in my despair and not paying attention to anything. I turn left and begin walking down the sidewalk, with my eyes down. I can feel the keys in my left hand and the key card in my right. Suddenly I decide to turn around and walk the other way. I look up, and directly in front of me at the end of this seemingly endless perfectly straight street, is a beautiful sunset. For the first time I also notice there are palm trees along the street. I realize that I am in Hawaii. Then something clicks in my mind! I remember being awake, at home, in my own bed, just a little while ago. I can’t actually be in Hawaii if I was just home sleeping. I am lucid without doing a reality check. The despair I was feeling moments before is completely washed away by overwhelming joy and excitement. I remind myself to stay calm. I look down at the keys in my left hand and am amazed at how realistic they look. It is like the level of vividness has increased one thousand fold. I look back to the sunset, and the vividness has amplified dramatically. It is indescribably beautiful. The sun has just slipped below the horizon. There are thin clouds reflecting brilliant hues of orange, mixing with the oranges are shades of purples and pinks. All of this is reflected brilliantly off of the buildings, which are now all made of mirrored glass. I think, “My God I wish I could take a picture of this and bring it back to real life!” I pull my eyes away from this amazing site and turn around to look down the street in the other direction. The building end about 100 yards away, where the street ends at an amazing beach. There are palm trees to the right and left of the last buildings and a long expanse of beautiful white sand ending at a perfect ocean extending to the horizon. I have completely forgotten about my goals. I want to experience swimming in the ocean. I jog down to the beach. I slip my keys and key card into the pocket of my swimsuit (which I am now wearing) as I run. I can feel the warm sand between my toes. I run straight into the water, which is as warm as a nice bath. A large wave is heading right for me as I reach waist deep. It washes over me and feels amazing. I swim deeper under the water and can see with complete clarity and just continue to breath as normal (no fear of drowning in a dream). I see a small school of angelfish . They are vibrant orange with vertical purple stripes. The vividness is amazing. They begin to shift colors from orange with purple stripes to purple with orange stripe and back again. I laugh under the water. I am filled with such joy. I swim to surface. As I come out of the water I find it is late dusk. I am back into waist deep water. I see two beautiful women walking out of the water, both are wearing wet white t-shirts with bikinis underneath. The urge for sex takes over. I walk up to one of them. She is in her 20’s. She is tall (about 5’ 8”), with long wet blonde hair. I take her hand and we walk out of the water onto the beach. Her friend just walks away from us. I take hold of the bottom of the t-shirt , pull it over her head, and toss it onto the sand. Her bikini is a brilliant sapphire blue. She has an amazing voluptuous body and very large breasts. I reach around to untie her bikini top, and with a seductive smile she says playfully, “No, no, no.” I respond, “Yes, yes, yes.” The dream quickly fades away and I awake. I do a RC by looking at my clock…but I am actually awake.
      Awake: 4:30 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 7; D2 = 15
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 6; D2 = Lucid
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 3 min; D2 = 6 min
      Emotions: General happiness, Utter Devastation, Indescribable Joy
      Dream Signs: Cartoons, my wife is a cartoon, someone cutting holes in our floor, people I worked with 10 years ago, a girlfriend who I didn’t know (didn’t even know her name), not text anywhere.
      Notes: I didn’t take any supplements last night. I purchased “Creative Visualization” by Shakti Gawain and started reading it last night. I used my typical visualizations, mantras, RCs, and text searches during the day and before I fell asleep. I awoke from Dream 1 and lay in bed trying to recall as much of the dream as I could. When I looked at the clock it was 3:35 am. I worked on recalling the dream for around 10 – 15 min. I then ran my mantras through my mind several times as I fell back to sleep. So, essentially, I did a short WBTB. Also, just prior to becoming lucid I was in a heightened emotional state (despair). I have found in the past that heightened emotional states contribute. Also, I was sleep deprived from the previous night. I awoke from Dream 2 at 4:28 am, and felt so high I wasn’t going to be able to go back to sleep. So that means this is 2 nights in a row of sleep deprivation. However, I don’t feel tired at all because I’m still riding the high from the lucid dream. . I am a bit disappointed that I didn’t remember my goals, but it still was a great LD.
      Text Search Experiment: (Day 5) I paid close attention to text all day yesterday. I repeated my mantras as well. I didn’t notice text in either of the 2 dreams recalled from last night.

      Updated 03-28-2014 at 09:06 PM by 68290

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      lucid , non-lucid , memorable , side notes
    13. 3/27/2014 - LD Data

      by , 03-27-2014 at 03:04 PM
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      I was crunching some numbers from my lucid dream records and just wanted to keep a record so far. Chart above shows the total of my LDs so far.

      The day of the week is the morning I woke up. Typically, my LDs take place in the early morning hours.
      The "Yes" column indicates I did not have work that day, so I had potential for more sleep.
      The "No" column indicates I had to work that day, so I had potential for less sleep and being woken up by my alarm.

      One interesting thing I noticed is that the highest number of LDs took place on Monday's. I was surprised by this because I typically get my worst night sleep on Sunday night to Monday morning. I was not surprised to see the next highest numbers were Saturday and Sunday, when I have the opportunity to stay in bed later. The lowest nights were Tue, Wed, Thu & Fri which are all work days.

      I also note that 40% of my LDs took place on mornings where I could sleep later and 60% took place on mornings I had to wake up at a specific time.

      Updated 03-27-2014 at 06:48 PM by 68290

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    14. Dj 3/27/2014

      by , 03-27-2014 at 12:11 PM
      Date: 3/27/2014 (Wed)
      Total sleep: >6 hrs
      Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
      Lucid Techniques: Mantras, Visualization
      Recall Techniques: Mantras
      Fell Asleep: Sometime after 11:30 pm
      Dream Title: Daughter’s Birthday Party
      Dream: I vaguely remember driving to this place. I am in a very large room. It appears to be in an old mansion. The furnishings are ornate dark wood. There is a long, wide set of steps with ornate hand rails and red, black and white oriental carpeting. My old high school friend Joe K is with me. He is wearing workout cloths (tank top , blue shorts, white sneakers, and a white head band). He wants to do dips, but the piece of equipment he is trying to use is broken. The handles are set down too low, about a foot off the ground. I realize there is another piece of equipment he could use. I walk to it, but the two handles are too close together for anyone to get their body between them. I look closely at the handles and realize they can be adjusted, but it would require removing bolts and I don’t have any tools. **Jump** I am still in the same room, but the exercise equipment is gone. There are people in the room who I don’t recognize…yet I feel perfectly comfortable. I know it is my daughter’s birthday party. There is a long ornate dark wood table surrounded by chairs (looks like it could seat 20 people). I am standing at one end. My wife is there and wants to take pictures of the cake. I look at the cake; it is a ½ sheet cake with white frosting. In the middle of the cake is a plastic frame to hold a picture. I briefly wonder why there is nothing written on the cake. The picture is of the cake, on the table, with my daughter’s biological father lying next to it. I know it is her dad, but he looks like Antonio Banderas. . I briefly wonder why there is nothing written on the cake. My wife wants to take a similar picture with her lying next to the cake and wants me to stand on the table to take the picture. I am very annoyed because I down want to stand on the table because we don’t own this house, we are only renting it for the party. My alarm goes off and I awake.
      Awake: 5:30 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 11
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D2 = 5
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D3 = 8 min
      Emotions: General happiness, annoyance at the end
      Dream Signs: In a mansion, exercise equipment that won’t function properly, a childhood friend, daughter’s father appears to be Antonio Banderas, wife asking me to stand the table
      Notes: I took magnesium, and 2 capsules of B5 and Chorine. This had some strange effect. When I lay there, with my eyes closed, I was seeing strange images and flashes of color. I am quite happy that I remembered a dream last night. Due to circumstances beyond my control I was kept awake until after 11 pm. Those circumstances caused me to be very emotional, which cause me to have issues falling asleep. I don’t know exactly what time I feel asleep because my clock was covered. I wasn’t expecting to remember any dreams with so little sleep. I awoke to the Police song “Every Breath You Take” playing softly. I shut off the alarm and lay there for a few minutes and shockingly remembered some of the dream I was having just before I woke up.
      Text Search Experiment: (Day 4) I paid close attention to text all day yesterday. I repeated my mantras as well. I didn’t notice any text in my dream. However, I specifically noticed that the birthday cake in my dream didn’t have any text on it and briefly wondered why there was not writing on the cake (Happy Birthday???), but didn’t do a reality check.
      Categories
      non-lucid , side notes
    15. Dj 3/26/2014

      by , 03-26-2014 at 12:21 PM
      Date: 3/26/2014 (Wed)
      Total sleep: 7.5 hours
      Daytime Techniques: Text Search, RCs, Visualization, Mantras
      Lucid Techniques: Visualization & Mantras
      Recall Techniques: Mantras
      Fell Asleep: 9:30 pm
      Dream 1 Title: Strange Hotel
      Dream 1: This dream was either a bit choppy, or my recall is a bit choppy. I’m in a hotel room, but it is a very large room which reminds me of my sisters living room from a house she used to live in quite a few years ago. The room is very messy. I there are other people in the room but I only know my wife. I know the room needs to get cleaned up, but because I didn’t make the mess I don’t feel I have to assist. I walk out of the door onto a paved walkway. I walk to the corner of the building. My nephew and one of his friends (both about 8 years old) come running by waving plastic swords. I am looking at a parking lot. There are a few cars. **Jump** I am standing on a very high cliff with Joseph Gordon-Levitt (the actor from Inception) and a group of women. They are watching us demonstrate a new invention Joseph created. It is a device which will allow two people to hang out over the cliff to get a better view. It has two harnesses, but it requires Joseph and me to hang onto a handle while lowering ourselves into the harnesses, while they are hanging out over a 3,000 foot drop. I start to climb over the edge, my heart is racing. My legs are dangling as I hang on, but I can’t get my feet into the harness. Joseph says “Screw this!” and walks away. I am very angry at him for leaving me hanging, LITERALLY!! **Jump** I am in a room that reminds me of an old doctor’s office waiting room. There is furniture made of dark wood and a dark brown leather couch. I am sitting on the left arm of the couch (which is thickly padded).
      Spoiler for Sexual Content:
      **Jump** (DAMNIT!!!) I am back in the parking lot of the hotel. There is a tram (just like the ones found at Disney world) parked in front of the hotel. The cars are red, with white roofs. There are a bunch of beautiful women in the tram. My wife and I are standing with another group of women, all of which are young and beautiful. I know there is a fitness competition going on at the hotel and my wife and I are coaches for our group. The other group is our competition. One of the women on the tram (a gorgeous blond woman with striking blue eyes) stands up and yells, “YOU KNOW….WE REALLY DON’T LIKE YOU!!” I laugh out loud. Then I turn to my team and say sarcastically, “Did you hear her ladies? She really doesn’t like us!” All the woman, in unison, say, “AWWWWWWW!!!” My alarm goes off.
      Awake: 5:00 am
      Vividness: (scale of 1-15, 10 is waking life vividness) D1 = 12
      Awareness: (1-10; or lucid) D1 = 8
      Length: (how long it felt like! Because that matters) D1 = 15 min
      Emotions: Annoyance, fear, excitement, arousal, lust, pride
      Dream Signs: Celebrity who I seem to know, pornographic scene with my wife and another woman, at a hotel I don’t recognize, Hanging off a cliff with no safety equipment, Never noticed any text
      Notes: Took magnesium, B-5 and chorine. I am actually pleased that I remembers one of my dreams, in detail, last night. I was exhausted and expected to sleep straight through. I set my alarm to radio and tied to find a station with soft music. Today it worked. The volume was low, and the song was soft, so I woke up gently and didn’t forget my dream. I awoke earlier in the night from another dream, but fell back to sleep before I could recover it. I did my mantras and visualization exercises before bed. I know one issue is I just don’t get sufficient sleep during the week.
      Text Search Experiment: (Day 3) I actually remembered to do a text search before my workout this morning, but didn’t do it when I first woke up. I’m continuing to search for text during the day, especially when I change environments (go to a different room, enter a different building, go outside, etc). While I am searching I am very aware and keep stating that I am dreaming. I’m trying to find the right mantra for this experiment. I’m struggling with finding something that is very simple yet sends the correct expectation to my subconscious. Right now I state, “Tonight, while I’m dreaming I will look for text. When I find text it will be a reality check and I will be lucid. If there is no text to be found I will count my fingers and become lucid.” I am staying positive and looking forward to the weekend when I can sleep for more hours.

      Updated 03-26-2014 at 12:27 PM by 68290

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