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I've been having a LOT of sex dreams lately. But I can't get no satisfaction even in my sleep

The most memorable was from yesterday. I saw my ex-hubby out shopping. He was trying on another pair of black jeans (all he really wore back in the day) but I was wearing a sexy red dress. He saw me. Next thing I recall is we're in a room somewhere. He's mad about something and he whips out the palest, most swollen "member" I've ever seen. He tells me to suck it and I tell him "no. F*** me." He looks surprised that I told him to have sex with me.
Then the dream fast forwards to AFTER the freagin fact and I was worried I had gotten pregnant. He had 5 new kids and I commented to myself that he was definitely still fertile. I worried about how I would explain my pregnancy to my hubby seeing how we haven't had sex in almost a year.

I ended up taking a nap from about 1:30-4:30AM. I had what started out as a normal enough dream.
I was at a gas station, trying to fill up, but a motor bike was blocking me and there were tons of cars around. I got out and moved the bike, but the kick stand wouldn't hold it. Someone in another car was good naturedly laughing at my plight. I eventually laid the bike down. Next thing I recall is being unable to control my mini-van. I almost ran over a cop who was directing traffic out of the gas station.

At some point, I went to sleep in the passenger seat of my van. I woke up to find it filled of guys. Instead of just 2 seats in the front, as in real life, the vehicle had a bench seat. I then played passive-submissive, laying my head on the shoulder then lap of one of the car jackers. He took the bait and placed his hand on my stomach. My stomach?! Really? I was ready to have sex with the whole lot of them, but the leader made it clear that absolutely no harm would come to me. Me. Who was still pretending to be asleep. Arg.

Then I dreamed I was a wild horse o something- in heat- and I didn't get lucky then either.



Then the dreams went to the somewhat mundane. I was trying to take care of my own needs while hiding under a blanket with my niece and a couple other kids in the room. Nothing. Too distracted.

Then, the dream became weird and my mom showed up, upset, because she found strange stuff under my mattress when she came over to clean. The items were small. Some sort of paper trinkets with stuff written on them and some notes. She told me to be careful sleeping on that stuff or something (?) might just happen to me. I didn't even remember what they were but I had the impression they were magic related.
Then my p-doc showed up for a VERY open session. There was another doctor AND my family in the room. I don't recall if we actually spoke. He listened to everyone else complain about me, then he handed me my file.
I worried that he was moving or "firing" me, but that didn't seem to be the case.

Then the dream changed again and I was at a bar, trying to pick someone up. No luck. I woke up.

I wish my period would hurry up and get here so my hormones will get back to normal. This is just crazy!

I slept forever yesterday and today, but I still only recall fragments of dreams.

The most disturbing one was of religious persecution against Jehovah's Witnesses. They were on the run and I was a sympathizer but that's really all I recall other than there being a video which was made of the whole thing and Bon Jovi (sp) was one of the actors. I liked his character the most because he reminded me of the younger brother from the show "Numbers" (which I had watched hours of lol)

In another dream, which may have tied into the one above, there was a woman on the run, hiding with her young daughter. They were staying in a huge run-down bus. There was litter strewn about the inside of the bus and crystals were growing in one corner where water had dripped for years. I told myself that shouldn't be possible, lol, but the dream continued. I had no role at all.

In another dream, a car fell off a very tall bridge and flew down onto a roadway underneath it. (I've had that dream several times before. The roads remind me of amusement park rides which are impossibly high in the air).

There was a dead body in one dream, a little girl who had mutated to having 5 breasts- some of which looked almost decaying. I had a baby in one dream, and in another I fought with my mom telling her I was going to run off and live in the woods like I had always wanted to.

That's it.

I don't recall too much about my multitude of dreams. I've been sleeping a lot because I starting taking allergy pills a couple days ago.

In one dream, hubby was approaching me for sex, but when I started getting undressed, he said I was fat... when I started putting my clothes back on, he tried to backtrack and said it's just how I am. He became interested in me again, but before anything could get started, I asked religious questions about some book we had been reading. Then he got into a different bed and I was ANGRY lol
He recommended some book for me that had been rewritten so 9th graders could understand it.

Then I was at a religious meeting. I signed a 2 pieces of paper to show I attended. My signature bothered me because one of them was slanted to the right and the other was upright (I do that in real life too). And then I very loudly heard someone say "Run!" And I woke up. A moment later, the dogs started barking and growling. I got out of bed, but the dogs are just being loud and playing.

I took a nap earlier from around 5-7PM

In one dream, three people switched places with "doubles" who lived in a different era. I lived in a huge house and had a servant who was horrible at her job lol. Germs weren't known about at this time and I kept trying to explain what they were and why they were important.
Then my hubby and I were talking with some gentleman about cryto-machines. I compared it to a typewriter and my hubby (who "time traveled with me) called me an idiot and was embarrassed for me.
>>That's about all I recall from that dream, but it was inspired, in large part, by a conversation about germs that I had with my 16 yo before I fell asleep.

In another dream, I was putting pictures together for my son-in-law and his new wife. She is absolutely gorgeous. But putting the pictures together was turning out to be a major pain because hubby wanted me to include a bunch of pics about model airplanes from a show he and his son had gone to. The pictures of the wedding, had the music from the wedding embedded in them lol.
Then I got a phone call from my step-daughter. She was having some sort of very minor allergic reaction and we talked about a video game for awhile before she had to go.
>>>That dream was inspired by my hubby telling me he spoke with his son last night before I went to sleep the first time. He and his wife just bought a new house and they're expecting their first baby by Winter.

In the thoroughly enjoyable dream, my 14 yo daughter was pregnant. We could see the baby move inside her belly. She was weirded out until I showed her what parts of the baby could be made out. First it was a foot, the a butt and an elbow.
She left my room but came back a few minutes later holding the baby. I grabbed a tape measure and measured him to be 23 inches long. He was perfect. He had blond hair and blue eyes like his mom. I was worried that he came out too soon, but he was perfectly viable. There were two carriers in my room. One rocked and was slightly bigger than the other, so I told her to place him in it. But it belonged to Andrea (supposed RL cousin) who had just lost a baby (sort of- her young children were stolen by the State for good IRL). I told her it was okay- that we would switch seats before visiting her.
Then my daughter left to clean out 1 of 2 bottles and fill it for him. He picked up a dirty one that had once contained juice and took a tiny taste before I took it from him. I told him "yuck", sticking out my tongue a little and crinkling my nose. He thought it was the funniest thing ever and smiled every time I did it.
Then I did something else which he thought stupid and some sort of rating system was initiated lol.
When my daughter walked back into the room, the baby was gone. He went back inside her belly for a while longer
>>>>That dream was inspired, in part, from me always telling said daughter that she's not "allowed to be a girl". She used to be a tomboy but now she's interested in the opposite sex and she gets all dolled up for them. I'm not ready for my "baby" to grow up just yet. Her bestfriend is a 19 year old boy. She's known him since she was about 7 years old. So the other part of the dream is me being afraid he'll get her pregnant.



All I recall from last nights dreams was driving somewhere to hide a body. That dream came from watching a movie "Night Train" the day before.
I had slept from around 6AM-1PM

I ended up taking a nap from 1AM-3:30AM.

I had a dream that was a combination of the "Gimsons" (Simpsons) and Family Guy but I couldn't remember the name of Family Guy, so in a later dream I was arguing with people (?) about it and I lost the dream because of it lol So, who knows what all that was supposed to be about

In another dream, I watched a series of events unfold where something at a dining room table caught on fire and fell onto something else (a spoon, I think) which landed on another thing and made an alarm clock go off. I then watched (in first and 3rd person) as an Asian woman walked through a lot of different rooms to get to the back of the house. For some reason, the cops were called. They asked her if she understood what "A Beautiful Mind" was about.. that the man KNEW things (mathematically) and didn't have to go through the motions like she was (paraphrasing- can't remember the exact words anymore). She then went on to explain herself, which I've also forgotten.

The next thing I recall is being on a bridge... no, under a bridge. There were work trucks and stuff on top of the bridge which I guess, wasn't a bridge at all but some sort of dock or loading station or ??? Another series of events unfolded. The bridge splits in half and the vehicles started falling off. Everyone starts running, but their struck and killed by the vehicles. A woman is knocked out so some blond-haired guy picks her up and starts running with her. They're grazed by something, though and the woman falls into the water. She's floats next to a pillar and I keep hoping she'll wake up, but she doesn't and drowns.
There was a conversation going on between the people before the bridge collapsed, but I've forgotten it.

In another dream, I found an enormously fat man using my shower. I give him a towel and everyone starts talking. My family (not real family, "I" wasn't in the dream) loved him. My dream husband loved him so much, he wanted the man to stay with us. The fat man had lots of problems with his mom and supposed friends, so hubby starts calling people from the guys cellphone and telling them they were through.
I put on the mans pants (?!) and disguised myself as a man and went outside for a walk. But as I walked, I remembered how badly the fat man smelled and I couldn't believe I was wearing his clothes.
When I returned home, the man had vanished. He returned to his mom thanks to my hubby's calls lol
There was some reference in the dream to "feeling my man-titties" lol but I don't recall the context.

In another dream, a cat made itself split in two so one half could suck on (eat) my 18 yo sons face and the other could suck on his leg. I plied the creature off of him, but then tried to joke about it with my son, saying "See how much this cat loves you? It tore itself in half." He laughed then walked off. Then I talked to him about something I had seen on TV about a "water cat" which does the same thing, but I concluded our cat isn't aquatic and is much too large to be related.

I recall a snippet about flying, something about GPS in a car and still getting lost and a hotel conference. But I've forgotten the details of those.

Damn allergy pills. I crashed at 5AM and woke at 5PM. I'm sleeping way too much. I was supposed to go to the Farm today to pick up stuff, so my son came into my room almost every hour since noon to question and insult me for my inability to wake up. I don't recall much about my dreams. From what I do recall, I think I'm glad lol

I don't recall the story behind the actions, but I was in a large house. People were tied up everywhere. I had killed several of the people but someone (?) I was with was supposed to dispatch of 2 others in an upstairs bedroom. He couldn't do it, so I took the Sling Blade from him and with complete lack of emotion, I slit the first mans throat. I can still remember the resistance I felt from the skin. Blood ran down his his neck but he still tried to talk.
I wondered if I cut deeply enough, but shrugged it off. I then killed his friend.
>>Dream may have been inspired in part by watching "Harpoon: Whale watching Massacre" before falling asleep (It's a horrible movie BTW, and I do NOT recommend it lol). The Sling Blade came from another show though "Sling Blade" that I watched over a week ago.

In another dream, I was pregnant but I didn't want to be. I was a dark haired woman- not myself. I recall hardly anything about this dream. I may have killed 2 little kids. The phase "A crying woman is a scheming woman" kept playing through my mind (which came from the movie "Antichrist")

There was something in some dream about losing items. I had a plastic organizer/container of sorts. It was dumped and the contents became wet and/or lost. I seem to also recall something about scores of dead animals.

Maybe I should stop watching horror movies before sleep lol
But I never dream about the ones I actually love, like Offspring. Antichrist seems to affected me on a psychological level (disturbing imagery), so it will be in my dreams for a good while yet.

I finally had some good dreams.
I went to sleep a little after midnight and I woke, permanently, at 8AM. I'm still taking allergy meds which have been knocking me out.

One dream was based off a 2009 movie, Antichrist, which I watched before falling asleep. Only my hubby was acting as my therapist and he was evil. I don't recall much about that dream because it was the first one that I had and I woke several times through the night.

Another dream was inspired, in small part, by Fantasy Kingdoms. I had a pet griffon that I was riding around my grandmothers property. Below us were several other animals- horses and foals. One foal took off, got into another pen (animals I don't recall) and then into the woods. I was annoyed and told it to have a nice life or come back when it was through because I wasn't going to chase it down.
From my birds eye view, I then started counting the foals. There were 7 at first then I saw others which brought the number to 12.
Then my daughters were on the griffons back with me. My boys were (?) also in the air and I asked one of them to take a picture of us but the camera wouldn't work and I became annoyed again (inspired by my 16 yo wanting to use my broken camera yesterday).

There was something strange about the horse pen and the one joining it... ??? I recall a revolving door. It was in my hubby's house lol. I was putting stuff away but the door was stuck. He was annoyed at me because it sounded like he wanted me to put stuff away on the forth floor (which he doesn't have). When I finally understood him, I said "Oh, you mean the Entertainment Room" but he was annoyed by that notion because it was now just used for storage.
I got down on my hands and knees to work out whatever was jamming the door. In each section of the revolving door was an animal. The one that caught my attention most was a red fox (from Antichrist).
I'm starting to think these are details from dream one lol

Because the next thing I recall about the animal pen was my cat Jasper eating something on the wall that divided the pens. I thought it was a critter and I became sad. Then I realized it was just some sort of jellified goo.
Then I was on my grams back porch. I found some chains- one of which had a stirrup at the bottom. The other stirrup had broken off and the two sections joined then branched off to two other chains which made up the reins. I wondered how I could use them on my griffon.
There were a bunch of emotions and thoughts in this dream. My grams and uncles were all still alive, but grams was annoyed with me (though I don't recall actually interacting with her OR my uncles). I thought about my uncles horses and how they were put to sleep because my uncle couldn't care for them anymore (one uncle and the horses still live IRL).

I recall a bunch of dream snippets. I don't know how they fit into the whole or if they were dreams of their own.
In one, I was going to school. I missed a lucid opportunity because I thought "I'm actually going to pass because I know where my classes are this time". In other dreams about school, I always fail because I become hopelessly lost. There were scenes from the actual classroom setting, but it's all become a blurr.

In another dream, I was thin but pregnant. I thought I would kill myself if it turned out I wasn't pregnant or if I lost the baby. I could feel it moving inside me, which has always been a feeling I cherish.
My hubby needed a kidney and I was going to give him one, but it had to be done by a certain date and I realized I could do nothing until after I had the baby. Then I found out hubby was divorcing me. He and I talked for awhile and he was distant and cool.

In another dream, I was at a car garage (?). Hubby wanted me to get his vehicle- or something out of it- and he told me where a hide-a-key was. The car was unlocked though.

Another snippet was of me putting a cigarette down in his garage. When I returned, I was looking for the griffon lol then realized I was confusing life and dreams

It's storming here. We may lose power, which is why I've saved and added to this post so many times.
Going to get off of here for now...

I was extra sleepy today because I've been taking allergy meds, so I crashed at about 15 minutes before 6AM
At 6:30, my daughter came back to my room, complaining of having the crud that's wiped me out. She had a fever so I sent her back to bed. Hopefully, she wont get taken by the State for this one absence!
I went right back to sleep then woke ??? with my mouth full of blood. I had been chomping down on my gum again.
I went right back to sleep again, then my son woke me at 8:50. Someone was at the door. Crap! Was it the State already?
Nope. Just one of the women who work for my hubby. She needed me to sign tax papers.
Now I'm awake for a couple of hours and I remember nothing about my dreams.
The area on my gum looks nasty and it's throbbing *sigh*

I've not been recalling much about my dreams lately.
I went to bed this morning at 7:30 and woke at 11:30. I was sitting almost cross-legged with my head on the bed in between my knees. I woke when I started coughing up a lung.
I went back to sleep at around 1PM and woke at 4:15.

The only part I remember about any of my dreams is of a man being buried. I was in some enormous dumpster type thing and a couple men (?) were throwing dirt on top of some other man (?). Eventually, though, the man being buried started coughing and moving. Everyone quickly climbed out of the dumpster and one of the guys I was with closed it, locked it and "sealed" it with another series of locks (oddly enough, the lock and sealing mechanisms were the most memorable and vivid part of the dream). I was distraught. I felt if they were going to leave the man in there, they should kill him.

I went back to sleep from around noon-4:15.

In one dream, I was with my JW friend Roxanna. We were teenagers though and I was only 1 or 2 years older than her. I wasn't disfellowshipped but I was on my way to being so. Rox asked me to buy her a pack of cigarettes, so I did. A couple days later, she told on herself. She was grounded but that was it. I kept wanting to ask if she told I had bought them for her. Her parents let me inside to talk to her, though, so I figured she hadn't said anything about me.
The next room (?) was in a hospital. A very old JW was lying in bed. She was told she had a rare blood disease and needed a blood transfusion to live. Rox and I held her hand and told her to be strong. On the floor, hidden somehow, were several cigarette butts. I put out my own cigarette there, though I hadn't had a cigarette until that instance lol

I'm not sure where the next part went... I was at a Convention or something. We were sitting on the floor at first, then school desks/chairs appeared. Someone was on a projector TV speaking about religion. It seemed more like a school than a Convention. He was saying things against what I believed in, so I remained seated. But then an elder//teacher lol told me to stand because he was speaking truth. All my classmates were standing so I was peer pressured into joining them. I hadn't noticed though when they sat down, so I was standing awkwardly by myself for a time.

In another dream, I was in China (?) Two men could run exceptionally/impossibly fast. They were enemies- one with a red light, one with blue. They ran in opposite directions- or tried to, trying to catch each other to create an explosion. One of them cheated along the way, and lit a whole bunch of fireworks. He lit too many and the city caught fire.
I was walking and told the person I was with that I was going up for a better view. A passerby asked how but I ignored him. I went off a ways then transformed into a black and white flying craft that sort of looked like a VW "Bug". I got above the power lines and kept flying.
I landed in some woods near a cave girl and a family of bears (that looked like people lol). I had food with me that I had apparently gathered. I approached the bears cautiously, signaling I was very hungry and wanted to use their fire pit. They ran over to look in my bag, took some items and cooked for me.

Then I was with someone (?) who beat a difficult level in a game and was about to be warped to the next level. She could take one person with her, which was me, but scores of people showed up and cut the line. I still got to go, though, but I don't recall anything further.

>>I'm too sick to decipher anything right now.

Blech. I've only gotten about 4 hours of sleep. I'm sick with a sore throat, earache and cough. And now I have scratches up and down my legs because I was an idiot who tended to the dogs while wearing shorts. They're extremely superficial but the sting something fierce lol.
I fell asleep at around 6AM and woke at 10AM.

All I recall of my dreams is
1) trying to make it through some sort of obstacle course where the floor rose to meet the ceiling at three different squared off areas and at three different speeds. They were side by side and you had to overcome the obstacle to pass. Unfortunately, there was also a spiked ball at the end of a chain which dominated the center square (a square which moved more slowly than its neighbors).
I don't recall the dream actually ending or merging with another.

The next thing I remember is being in a large house with an even larger basement. I was at the top of the steep stairs at first, yelling at my daughter for lying to me. She said she would have the basement clean by the end of the day, but it looked as if it would take her a week to do. I vaguely recall placing two rabbits in a type of AC/utility closet which was half as tall as a normal closet, but long like a crawlspace and located within the basement. I engaged a lock and left (?)
Then I was back at the top of the stairs, arguing with my daughter again and she was very angry, saying someone ripping the stuffing out of everything down there. I immediately thought of the rabbits and asked about them. She shook her head yes "Even them"
I disengaged the lock and opened the door and saw the rabbits mutilated almost beyond recognition.
Then I woke up.

>> I don't know why I'm having so many rabbit dreams. None of them feature the rabbit I have IRL. Our bunny's been feeling very restless lately and has taken to thumping quite loudly. He's in a container in the bathroom which is right next to my room. When he's at his worst, the kids can hear him from the living room and kitchen lol If he's thumping while I'm sleeping, that would explain the dreams.

>>> I think the other dream was inspired by video games.

I had another gallbladder attack, so I slept for almost 24 hours. I was awake from 10:15AM-1:30PM so I could see my 15 yo who's an hour away. I went right back to sleep, woke briefly, went out for a soda and was in so much pain I puked in the bathroom at a gas station before getting enough strength to drive home. Once home, I went right back to sleep and didn't wake until after 1:30AM
I took 100 mg Seroquel to help knock me out. I took 2 hot baths which I slept in. When I woke this last time, the attack had finally passed. My back still hurts a little, so the attack may strike yet again.

I don't recall much about my dreams.
In one, I was upset because I was trying to go to the Memorial (of Christ's death) but I didn't know when it was or where it was being held. I finally found out it was at 2PM, but 2 hours away. I knew I would never make it in time, so I tried figuring out how I could celebrate by myself.
>>I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I don't know when it is. But it's always at sunset and always held at local congregations lol. In the dream, it was more like one of our big Conventions instead of the Memorial.


I dreamed something about secret tunnels. It's been a reoccurring theme since my childhood.

That's all I can remember, sadly enough.

I was extra sleepy today so I crashed at 5AM (paid my 18 yo to wake the kids up for school) and I slept until 4:30.
I had a bunch of dreams to record but I lost almost all of them because 18 yo was excited that one of our cats had kittens in his closet

The only dream I recall is a testament to my current Runescape addiction I was running around in a town and the graphics were just like RS. I was killing monsters and collecting gold. I kept trying to find the library to buy upgrades (Everquest reference) but I kept getting turned around. Then I killed time with a shop keeper because every time I clicked on something, more options and purchase possibilities appeared. I recall clicking on a jewelry box, which opened to another "shop" with yet another jewelry box inside another shop. Then I was browsing scarfs.

>>The dream was also influenced by my 18 yo who was playing RS while I was sleeping

I was extra sleepy today so I went to bed at at around 8AM and woke at 4:14- one minute before the kids get home
BUT, my son used my computer for a few hours, I received a cellphone call about my 15 yo daughter and had to write something down and apparently, the perimeter alarm was going off in my ear the entire time I was sleeping because I forgot to turn it off (workmen are here today, working on hubby's garage). Then my kids walked in, told me about a fire in their school as they were leaving for the day, and now what I had remembered is pathetic little.

I recall sharks. They were very oddly shaped with extreme "hump backs". I was in the water with them and they went into a feeding frenzy- only they were eating each other.

That's it. And I had that dream because of something I posted on DV mixed with continuous commercials for "River Monsters"

I crashed early yesterday because I was almost out of smokes and I am out of food until later tonight. I went to sleep at around 2AM, woke briefly at 6 then again at 6:30 to drive my daughter to the bus stop (pouring rain). Then I crashed again from 7:30AM-1PM. I saw my pdoc at 2, was home by 3 now I'm about to watch Hulu.

The only thing I recall from my dreams is confusing. I was walking down some back roads, trying to find a place. 2 signs were missing letters, so I read "G_N_P__K". Eventually, I figured out it was supposed to be "GunPark".
I asked a female cop for directions. We spoke and she was formerly in the Navy. She was very cool and aloof. I said I had to go to an awards ceremony for my brother-in-law. She said she was handing out any awards. I said: "Oh yeah, I forgot you were Navy." But that was her way of inviting herself to dinner
My brain must have figured out I didn't have a brother-in-law (husbands brother), so the ceremony became something for my brother. The cop ended up turning into one of my 18 yo sons on-line friends, Toni and the ceremony became dinner with my family. My mom and dad were bickering. Toni was 19 years old and a high school dropout. My 18 yo son was 17 and in love with her. My mom was very rude to Toni, saying she needed to go back to school and why is she interested in my son. My dad yelled at my mom, saying she didn't have any say in the matter and to leave it alone.

>>>I watched a Creature Feature before going to sleep that featured some Navy men as bad guys.
IRL, my 18 yo is the school dropout and Toni is doing wonderfully with her life.

That's it.