Thread: Bemistaken's Workbook

Congrats on the ld, bemistaken! Your lds are so full of a sort of a mystical power - I love reading them. Sorry this wind force was making you uncomfortable at times. Apart from that, I think it's a really cool event and definitely exploring more. Try to slow down next time to see if the experience will have a different feel to it. The falling through Earth layers part sounded quite interesting by the way.

I looked down and saw my husband asleep and for some reason, I had the thought that I didn't want to wake him being out of body

I do this every so often as well. The thought that I might be seen as a transparent figure or who-knows-what by my sleeping bf gets to me and I try to move away from the bed as fast as possible. In one dream, I actually ran into him in the dream corridor and startled him. After waking up checked back with the real person who was up right at that time - he said he didn't see me.

Hi NyxCC! It is always good to hear from you and I always appreciate you reading my workbook. You have given me great support and motivation!

I do this every so often as well. The thought that I might be seen as a transparent figure or who-knows-what by my sleeping bf gets to me and I try to move away from the bed as fast as possible. In one dream, I actually ran into him in the dream corridor and startled him. After waking up checked back with the real person who was up right at that time - he said he didn't see me.

Ha ha! you too! That is so funny! I don't think this has happened before because I usually can't LD sleeping next to someone (most of my LDs always happen when I am alone in the bed). I really was thinking I was going to wake him up and he was going to be mad at me because he had to go to work early...so funny what the mind can do to you!

Again, thanks for your support!

Thank you too!

Wow, bemistaken, congratulations on the lucid! Sounds like a great experience, very powerful!

I stayed up for awhile trying to understand what that wind/force thing was. It is not really scary...well, the only thing scary about it is I don't see anything but the strength of whatever it is blows my mind! Even thought I never see anything, it sounds like a freight train! This has happened several times before but I have never been able to understand what it was and why does this always happen. When it does happen, I have no control over where I'm going (being pulled) and I'm literally being dragged to some place but I always get scared and fight my way back to my body. If anyone understands this phenomena please feel free to enlighten me. Anyway Lucy, always humble and always grateful.

This part is really interesting! At first blush it sounds like an extraordinarily powerful dream transition, which I experience on very rare occasions.

My take is that these experiences, where you go, what you encounter, will all tend to be a reflection of your state of mind. If you can, try to project love, curiosity, and joy. Let the fear fall away.

All of the energy in the dream begins and ends with you, so you are the source and the master of everything you see!

As crazy as some of the things we see in dreams might be, we're always perfectly safe! It can be hard to remember in the moment, but inch by inch (and with practice), I believe we can internalize that truth.

As always, your success (and your great relationship with Lucy) makes me smile! I'm looking forward to your next lucid dream!

My take is that these experiences, where you go, what you encounter, will all tend to be a reflection of your state of mind. If you can, try to project love, curiosity, and joy. Let the fear fall away.

All of the energy in the dream begins and ends with you, so you are the source and the master of everything you see!

As crazy as some of the things we see in dreams might be, we're always perfectly safe! It can be hard to remember in the moment, but inch by inch (and with practice), I believe we can internalize that truth.

As always, your success (and your great relationship with Lucy) makes me smile! I'm looking forward to your next lucid dream!

Thanks CanisLucidus! That makes me feel a lot better!

Welp Lucy, thought I would go 'old school' and start going back to documenting my WBTB sessions...it couldn't hurt .

Date: August 17, 2015
Method: MILD, WBTB
Sleeptime: 3:00am
WBTB: 9:00am, stayed up for 15 minutes, Mantra (I am Lucid)
Results: Continued to lose consciousness and fall into several nonlucids.

Don't think I got enough sleep because usually I have to get at least 7-8 hours of sleep to see any results. So let's see if sleeping longer and paying attention to my WBTB session length will help.

Night, Night

Date: August 18, 2015
Method: MILD, WBTB
Sleeptime: 4:00am
WBTB: 11:00am, stayed up for 15-20 minutes, Mantra (I am Lucid)
Results: Had a slight problem going back to sleep and when I did, it was very fragmented. I kept waking up...I believe I continued to do this because I had some errands to run and I didn't want to be late. I don't even remember having any dreams. So it really wasn't a good morning to try to WILD.

My schedule is clear tomorrow and I will try it again and see what happens.

Date: August 27, 2015
Method: MILD, WBTB
Sleeptime: 12:00am
WBTB: 5:45am stayed up around 10 minutes
Results: DILD (twice)

Became lucid in the middle of a dream. I remember telling my DC that this is a dream and he did not believe me. I told the DC, "Go ahead and try to levitate." He just looked at me and walked backwards. I was still lucid thinking I can control this fool and maybe I can show him how to levitate! Then I said, "No like this" and I levitated. I looked up for the DC and but he was gone.

In my second dream I became lucid and recall saying to myself that I was in the same dream again but my surroundings fell apart before I could stabilize it. When I woke up I was extremely pleased with myself!

You're the best Lucy.

Two DILDs! Well done bemistaken!

Date: October 6, 2015
Method: MILD, WBTB (Took Galantamine for the first time)
Sleeptime: 11:00ish
WBTB: 6:00am stayed up around 10 minutes
Results: DILD (twice)

TOTM Attempt
Wow, that was fast! Don't know if this count (didn't see my body) but here goes...
Got lucid last night and found myself floating above my bed facing the ceiling and I 'flipped' over to lay down next to my sleeping body but I didn't see it. I did see my husband on his side of the bed and my side of the bed was empty (but really messy, like the sheets and pillow was out of order???). Anyway, I attempted to squeeze in the middle of where I was 'suppose' to be and next to my husband. It worked for a hot second and then I somehow got sucked back into my body that I couldn't see and I woke up. But this was still so cool to attempt!

Later on that night I realized I was lucid again when I felt some really strong vibes. Had plans to call on my dream buddy Xanous since I was taking Galantamine for the first time. I called on Xanous and he appeared (a little blurry, but I knew it was him) with two of his children. He was holding the hands of a little girl and a little boy. He was smiling that gorgeous Xanous smile and talking at the same time, but I couldn't remember was he said (damn it!). This was the first time that I was sure that my dream buddy actually appeared when I called him!

I had no idea that Galantamine worked that fast. I will say it was a little different kind of lucid for me. To try and explain I felt like things were really happening a little faster and my mind was really trying to regulate to what was happening. Usually naturally I don't have to keep up like that. So if I had to critique it, for me a lucid dream taking Galanatamine takes some getting use to...but I will also say the lucid was very clear and much more realistic than usual.

Always humble, always thankful.

Date: October 7, 2015
Method: MILD, WBTB
Sleeptime: 10:00ish
WBTB: 5:00am stayed up around 10 minutes
Results:Lucid (x2) DEILD and a DILD

DILD
Realized I was dreaming and became lucid. I tried to concentrate on an experiment I have been working on, but instead a vision of bodies floating in the sea appeared. That vision scared me so I made myself wake up.

DEILD
Decided to try again since I was still 'tingling' and a vision of women at a beauty parlor appeared and they just looked at me (like I really needed my hair done...which I do ).

I concentrated on my experiment mission and instead a little boy appeared. He was adorable. He looked like he was about 5 or 6 years old in a baseball jacket and a baseball cap. He had no face at all (like if i was drawing him in a picture, I intentionally left out the eyes, nose, mouth, etc). I asked him what was wrong and he said, "My mommy will die before my daddy." I said, "What is your name?" He said, "Donnie." I said, "Donnie, do you want a hug?" He shook his head yes and ran into my arms. He held on to me for dear life. Let me tell you DV family, that hug felt as real as me typing these words on my computer. I immediately felt his sorrow and as I was hugging him the scene changed to this:

His mother told him to hide under the bed and don't make a sound no matter what he hears. The father came in and was beating the mother and said he was going to kill her. The mother's face never looked toward that bedroom and at least to me, she didn't seem like she wanted to make a sound. As if she knew if she yelled, the little body would come out from under that bed.

Yeah....I still have the goosebumps.

Congrats on the lds, bemistaken! Does the experiment you're working on involve calling a particular dream scene? Those visions were quite interesting and the second one a bit disturbing. But I think even such scenes are meant to teach us something. I actually sometimes have dreams about other people right at bed time HI. It's like I'm being told stories about others - it's beyond words, really.

Originally Posted by NyxCC

Congrats on the lds, bemistaken! Does the experiment you're working on involve calling a particular dream scene? Those visions were quite interesting and the second one a bit disturbing. But I think even such scenes are meant to teach us something. I actually sometimes have dreams about other people right at bed time HI. It's like I'm being told stories about others - it's beyond words, really.

Hi NyxCC and thank you for commenting! What you are saying kinda make sense...I have no idea why I may see the things I see because I have always been told that what we dream are usually something for us (personally). However, now I wonder if this was for someone else or like you stated...just for me to learn something. I don't like having disturbing or odd lucids or visions during my lucids, but for some reason these are the types of dreams that follows me. Thanks for commenting!

Wow, bemistaken, sounds like an incredible couple of lucid experiences! Congratulations on getting lucid!

When the scene turned nightmarish, did you feel any desire to change the outcome? Not saying that you should or shouldn't, just curious about what you felt in the moment. Or did it feel more like just something you were being shown and should see all the way through?

Anyway, congrats again on the success... looking forward to hearing about your next LDs!

Hey Lucy, I thought I post this lucid I had earlier in the month (10/18) that I forgot about posting so here it is...

SPLIT VISION

I was really physically tired and thought I would just lay down for a few minutes. Got lucid during a nap and realized I had split vision...literally. I woke up to vibes and usually I can't see a thing because it is dark. I was pleasantly surprise to realized I could see however, there was a sight issue I never had before. Upon opening my eyes I saw a straight line drawn straight across both my eyes, my lower eyes saw my bedroom with my physical eyes (as it would look in waking life) where everything looked normal. The top part of both my eyes were in spiritual view (dream eyes where it looked like I was looking through rose colored glasses. Everything with this vision was extremely significant and dreamy). This was the first time that I actually got to see and experience first hand the difference of physical sight and spiritual/lucid sight at the same time. I have read that people can see through their eyelids but I really never knew how that would look. Usually, if I become lucid during a WILD/DEILD I am vibrating and I'm either in the process of being 'out' or already 'out.' During this process I do "open" my eyes and I can see but for some reason I just always thought that I was not looking through my eyelids...even if I was trying to stay still and let the vibes pass so I could float out (all with my eyes open) I just thought that they were my spirit eyes already out before my body...or something like that .

But this time I could actually see through my eyelids. Bottom half physical sight, top half spiritual/lucid sight. So cool.

Always humble...always grateful. Thanks Lucy.

That sounds really cool! Congrats on the ld.

Hello Lucy! These last couple of months have been crazy! I spent the beginning of the year with you and I promise I will end this year with you! I will not go out of 2015 without our quality time. Sorry I have been missing but I had so many life issues come at me all at once I had no choice...but I'm here for you now and that is all that matters. See you soon!

Well said, bemistaken! Let's have a very lucid finish of the year!

Luuuuccccyyyy...I'm Hooooommmee! I must say I am excited to report back to you after my hiatus! Where do I start???

Well, since the last time I talked with you many things have changed in my life. All related to work, family, friends, and a partial mental breakdown. Some good news and some not so good news. I have discovered that no matter how much we try to prepare for changes in life we never can be fully prepared. I have had changes in my job in which I am working for a new organization. I have had changes in my home life in which I have finally gotten one child to stand on their own as an adult (so much work is involved in assisting a young little bird out of the nest in building their own nest as a young and mature 'bird'). I have had a couple of sudden deaths in the family in which no one is ever prepared for.

I should be broken, beaten, and bruised from what 2015 has dished out. On New Years Day, I always set myself up for a couple of goals and my main goal this year was to be ENLIGHTENED. I know Lucy...I really set myself up! What I have discovered about 'finding myself' is that how I react to life's role changes will determine how successful I am in enlightenment. If I react in a negative way then that could hinder my understanding of who I am. I have prayed, meditated, chanted, took all of my meds , and sung every spiritual song that I knew to help me deal with these challenges. You know what I discovered? As bad as it can look I AM STILL IN CONTROL. Even when it looks like my world is ceasing to exist and I am surrounded by darkness there is still a slither of light somewhere buried deep within me. If I can harness this light from deep within I can harness internal control. I can accept what is happening and choose to fall apart in a million pieces or I can give you a million reasons why I choose not to fall apart.

Throughout everything that I have been through I still find my way back to the open arms of Dreamviews...my peace and tranquility in the middle of a tumultuous storm. I must give a shoutout to my Dream Buddy Xanous who continued to send me words of encouragement. Xanous, you may not think those little messages meant nothing but I am hear to tell you...they did I know how busy you are and you didn't have to take the time out to think of me. On some of my bad days, your little message of "Hey Buddy!" was just enough to make me change my mind about doing something I know I would have regretted. Nothing serious...but serious enough that I know I would have regret doing it. Thank you Xanous.

Lucy, you were there for me also. I was able to get to you (Lucid) a couple of time throughout all of the chaos. I recall just getting lucid in a dream for no reason and waking up because I was not sure what was going on. The other time I got lucid was in the middle of the night...I just found myself floating. I haven't been able to think during this time so I just kinda floated from one end of the ceiling to the other. I recall how wonderful it felt. I felt so light and 'tingly' that I remember I just didn't want the feeling to end. I remember experiencing the 'tingles' from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet (if I had a head and feet). I was able to move the tingles from one end to the other...man what a feeling! Even when you think everyone and everything has abandoned you in your time of need, it is such a great feeling to know that my Lucy is always there. Even buried deep within the sh#t Lucy is still there waiting on me. Thank you Lucy.

So, as 2016 comes flying through the air with the greatest of ease what should I contemplate? I'm still here, still alive, and I ain't going nowhere. So what am I going for in 2016?

Me: "Heard this Bih named Enlightenment lookin' for me. Well, tell her I'm right here! I ain't goin' no where! Enlightenment, what's good?! Where you at?! Enlightenment Part Deuce! I'M STILL HERE!"

BTW Lucy, I have chosen not to fall apart .

One Love.

Love Always,
Bemistaken.

Meditation Thoughts This Week

Slowly surrendering...finding myself this week slowly letting go of things I can't control. Also, trying not to feel guilty about letting go. What I'm realizing is that letting go should not bring shame and guilt but peace and understanding. Stop trying to talk myself out of doing something good for me.

To be continued...

So glad you made it through. I know exactly what you mean about how much a little hello here and there can do. I would have totally given up on lots of things if it wasn't for my buddy here Milly. 2015 was a struggle but 2016 is meant to be a good year for shaking off the old and all things that do not serve us well. So heres to all of us.
hmm ok I lost the battle gonna send you a hug I was trying to act all sensible but failed

Originally Posted by MeohMyoh

So glad you made it through. I know exactly what you mean about how much a little hello here and there can do. I would have totally given up on lots of things if it wasn't for my buddy here Milly. 2015 was a struggle but 2016 is meant to be a good year for shaking off the old and all things that do not serve us well. So heres to all of us.
hmm ok I lost the battle gonna send you a hug I was trying to act all sensible but failed

Happy New Year back to you MeohMyoh! Here is a hug (and a kiss ) right back to you and thank you for your comments!

JANUARY 1, 2016
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
What a wonderful surprise and blessing to be able to get lucid three times on New Years Day (which is also my birthday!). I couldn't have asked for a better birthday present. I was taking one of those "after gorging yourself with food" naps and I recall opening my eyes...but they were my lucid eyes and I was not yet out of body. I was tingling from head to toe. My mind was playing tricks on my because I saw my husband staring at me and he wasn't even home. I tried to roll out but I kept feeling my physical legs move and the tingling would stop and I would end up totally back in the physical. I was able to DEILD two more times but every attempt I tried to get out (roll out method, climbing rope method, etc) I was never able to fully get out of my body. At one point, the tingling increased so bad that I wanted to just roll out of the bed and take the chances of hurting my body but my mind kept confusing me and I got scared and decided not too. I gave up and just physically got out of the bed. I did piss myself off by not just going ahead and rolling out (even if I was in physical at least I can say I went ahead with the attempt). I thought my husband could have been in the room destroying my attempt but just like I thought, he was no where to be found. Why do I always fall for stuff like that? Anyway, I was too happy to be mad. I haven't gotten lucid in awhile and I was not going to let this spoil it! Lucy, looking forward to more in 2016.

Always humble. Always grateful. One Love.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

I'm sorry you've been having a tough time, but I am so happy you've been meeting up with Lucy. Congrats! I've been super distracted with life , but I think about you a lot and I am always rooting for you. I'm glad that my messages are helpful to you and whatever it was I'm glad you didn't do it.

While reading your post, one thing keeps coming to mind... something I've learned through my own path to enlightenment is that YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE. You can't always choose your circumstances, but you certainly can choose how you want to handle things. Emotions will change and you've always got a choice in how you react. I don't always remember this, but do strive to maintain this type of mindfulness.

Stay strong. You got this!

Your last LD series is really interesting. I often find it difficult to know what the heck is really going on, but 9 times out of 10 I realize that I should just go for it. I'm often surprised when I realize I haven't move my physical body one bit. Next time, I think you should go ahead and risk falling into the floor.