Thread: Bemistaken's Workbook

January 4, 2016
DILD & DEILD
Thank you for blessing me with another moment to realize I do have a soul. Got lucid several times last night. Meditated before I went to bed on just letting go and letting GOD in. Woke up to some intense vibrations and I just let it happen. Once I was 'out' I decided that I was not going to do anything. I was not going to try to remember the TOTM, wasn't thinking about accomplishing any goals, wasn't thinking about challenging myself. The only thing that I wanted in being lucid was to just BE. I was being moved backwards again, but I didn't fight it...I just let it happen. I recall being dragged through my walls and through the roof of my house...all while going backwards. I use to get scared but this time I didn't even think that it was odd. I have decided to stop trying to figure out this phenomena and just let it happen. The time will come for me to be ready to see whatever I am suppose to see while going backwards. That's when understanding and comprehension will come. No hurry.

Just Be.

Wow our transitions are so similar. Congrats on rocking the lucidity! Letting go is really important sometimes

What an awesome start of the new year! Congrats!

Hello my love! Thank you so much for sticking with me during my hiatus. You gave me a visit last night and it felt wonderful. I can't remember how I got lucid, but I do recall when I did get lucid I was blind. I went back in my body and was able to DEILD my way back out and all I can remember was that my husband was holding my hand and my church Minister was there also. I can't remember what we were doing...after something (???) I woke up. I didn't even care how awkward the dream was because I was lucid and that was good enough for me. It feels great to be back in the swing of things. I have been meditating for the month of February and I always feel as limp as a noodle when I'm finished. Meditation is awesome! Time to get back to my lucid goals! See you soon Lucy

Meditation sessions today and they felt wonderful. Getting back into the swing of 'letting go' and I plan on continuing .

Meditated everyday this week for 1-1.5 hours. I'm am doing very well with this and I hope to continue improvement. It is really hard trying to clear the chatter and it may take around 20 minutes for me to clear it all before I can 'feel' at peace. Gotta keep pushing!

Wow...I've been gone for awhile that I barely recognize the mobile site! Looks good! Had several life changes take my concentration, but I'm slowly working my way back. As always... Feels good to be home.

Trying to get back to a routine...

April 25, 2016-Present

Meditation: 1 to 1.5 hours a day

Exercise: Run 3-4 times a week for at least 1 hour

Diet: Meh...

Dream Journaling: Pretty good!

Lucidity: Nothing...but I will say my dream recall is better then what it use to be. I recall in one dream that I knew I was dreaming but I didn't do anything about it. I even said in my dream, "I'm dreaming" but I still didn't do anything and I went along with the dream...Damn!

I have had many obstacles/challenges (personal) this year so I know that my stress level is hindering me. Slowly but surely I'm taking control over my sanity and I know things will get better for me.

Signing off!

May 8, 2016-May 14, 2016

Meditation: 1 to 1.5 hours a day

Exercise: Run 3-4 times a week for at least 45 minutes

Diet: Pretty good! I dropped 4 pounds since the last posting and I'm not even dieting. Just trying to refresh my spirit with good healthy food and exercise.

Dream Journaling: 3-4 entries this week.

Daytime Awareness Work: Yes, with questioning my reality with RRC's. Also doing a lot of Frying Man's Attention, Reflect and Recall this week. Been somewhat hard because I'm a teacher and my job has me so distracted all the time, but school will be out soon for the summer and I will be able to focus more on this.

Lucidity: Vivid dreams but no lucids...I'm on a new sleep medication and it leaves me feeling like a damn zombie in the morning. I don't like it at all! I feel so nauseated in the morning and I believe I will tell my doctor to take me off of this one. I rather have insomnia than be nauseated.

Signing off!

Hey Bemistaken! Good job on the regular exercise and meditation. It must be very invigorating.

Those insomnia pills don't sound very good. Have you tried using melatonin instead? It's a sleep aid but not as powerful as the ones I suppose you're prescribed.

Originally Posted by NyxCC

Hey Bemistaken! Good job on the regular exercise and meditation. It must be very invigorating.

Those insomnia pills don't sound very good. Have you tried using melatonin instead? It's a sleep aid but not as powerful as the ones I suppose you're prescribed.

Hi NyxCC! I'm going to try Melatonin again because this sleep medicine too powerful. I'm so hung over the next day!

Redemption.

May 15, 2016-May 20, 2016

Meditation: 1 hour a day

Exercise: Run 3-4 times a week for at least 45 minutes

Diet: Pretty good! I dropped 2 pounds this week .

Dream Journaling: 3-4 entries this week.

Daytime Awareness Work: Same from last week. "Yes, with questioning my reality with RRC's. Also doing a lot of Frying Man's Attention, Reflect and Recall this week." School is out so I will try to really concentrate of my awareness and reflection.

Lucidity: Yes. Finally had confirmation that I DO INDEED HAVE A SOUL. On May 20, 2016, I recall waking up to strong vibrations (I was taking a nap). I hadn't had a lucid in months (almost three months to be exact). When I realized I was lucid, I was careful not to get to anxious or upset...I wasn't trying to do a TOTM or practice a certain skill like flying or going through a wall. I just wanted to be in the moment...be at peace. I recall me smiling and just floating in and out of my physical body. I lost count of the DEILDS, but it doesn't matter to me...I wasn't trying to keep count. I believe I have reached a certain level of lucid dreaming that my personal count of lucids doesn't matter to me anymore. I've made the decision to now focus on the quality of the lucid...not the quantity.

During my lucid all I wanted to do was control my emotions. In the past, I realized that when I get excited during a lucid I will be dragged by some type of invisible force, wind, and/or suction and I didn't want that to happen. Because I hadn't been lucid in so many weeks I just wanted to get back into the feel of being lucid. I practiced focusing on objects, tried to relax and not be so anxious just because I would end up back in my body, and truly tried to capture the feel of the transition. In essence, I just let things happen from one single moment to the next without analyzing the moment to death...it was refreshing.

Always humble and always grateful.
Bemistaken.

Yay! Congrats! Love how you enjoyed this ld.

My beautiful Mother, a Turtle, and Two Doves...

Dream #1: I saw my mother, yet when I was looking at her she looked like a younger version of myself but I knew it was my mother. She was smiling and very happy in a beautiful bright red dress...grinning from ear-to-ear

Dream #2: A huge turtle staring me straight in the eye. The big turtle didn't move or do anything...it just kept staring me straight in the eye.

Dream #3: A beautiful white dove being carried in the mouth of a beautiful big white dog (or white horse). I could tell the dove was unable to fly and the dove just laid in the mouth of the dog. The big white dog was very careful to not be too rough with the beautiful delicate white dove.

Dream #4: Another white dove flying erratically in a cage. I felt that the bird wanted to leave the cage, so I told the bird to just leave, but the bird would not leave out of the cage. It continued to fly haphazardly all around the cage...never flying out of the little cage door. It finally got tired of flying nowhere and laid down on the floor of the cage exhausted. I was sad because I knew all the dove had to do was leave the cage and it would be happy.

DATE: June 7, 2016
METHOD: WBTB and MILD
SLEEP: 6 1/2 to almost 7 hours
WBTB: 40-45 minutes
WILD x1 and DEILD x3

Did something I haven't done in a long time...a WBTB. It worked. I now realize that I have to have a lot of sleep and stay up for a little longer than I thought. In the past, I have done WBTBs after about 4-5 hours of sleep and I would stay up around 15-20 minutes. I suffer from insomnia so I always had a fear that I would not be able to go back to sleep if I stayed up any longer.

Over the past couple of weeks I have been dabbling with how long I should stay up. Well, this morning I told myself I would push the fear factor of not being able to go back to sleep in the back of my mind and I would stay up longer, so I stayed up for approx. 40-45 minutes. I usually go to bed around 1 or 2 am, but last night I went to bed around 3 am. This is not unusual. I woke up around 9:40am and I stayed up for the 40-45 minutes. I did what most of the facilitators and teachers say to do, so I kept my thoughts on being dreamy, calm, and lucid. Honestly, I kept telling myself to anticipate getting lucid (I believe this made a world of difference).

This is what happened...

I stuck with my new mantra, "I am Lucid." I ignore the noise and dreamlets (all while still kinda noting these are signs I'm almost sleep). I black out a couple of times but get right back to "I am Lucid." I notice a feeling like a heavy blanket landing on top of me and I start to 'tingle' from head to toe. This is my personal sign vibrations are upon me and I take a dive into the vibes and I roll out. I couldn't (and could) believe it! I haven't been able to do a good WILD in months, but I truly was able to stay alert and witness the transition. I felt myself still vibrating like crazy so I just kinda hold on, but then the vibes weakened and went away and I was back in my physical body. I was able to DEILD back out and I immediately went into stabilization mode. Once stabilized, I wanted to just practice on the quality of the lucid so I did a few skills I haven't done in a while. I took off flying and trying to maintain control but I got a little 'drunk superman' and ended back in my physical body. I DEILD out back and forth around 3 or 4 times until I was too mentally drained to do anything else and I allowed myself to be in physical.

Just a side note: I don't ever recall having this happen to me before but I do remember that every time I DEILD my way back out I would look down at my lucid body and I would have on different clothes. One time, I was totally a different person...like I had the body of a child...a little boy. Strange (???).

Always humble. Always grateful.

Just want to say... been reading your workbook, and ... I love you. I just love you. You're doing so awesome.

Originally Posted by ThreeRainbows

Just want to say... been reading your workbook, and ... I love you. I just love you. You're doing so awesome.

Hello ThreeRainbows! You have made my day! Let's be friends! (friend request sent!) Have a wonderful day and a very LUCID night!

I just discovered your workbook. Amazing! I've had a few WILDS, which were the most bizarre and exhilarating experiences of my life, as well as one OBE years ago that scared the daylights out of me. But I want more! I love reading about your experiences!

Originally Posted by dreamingaze

I just discovered your workbook. Amazing! I've had a few WILDS, which were the most bizarre and exhilarating experiences of my life, as well as one OBE years ago that scared the daylights out of me. But I want more! I love reading about your experiences!

Thank you so much for reading my workbook! I appreciate it! Let's be friends (friend request sent)! Hope to talk with you soon!

It's so great to see other people with this same passion! I feel like such an alien with most people because of my interest in the spiritual implications of lucid dreaming. The looks I get when I try to explain this stuff...I even have a reality check tattooed right on my arm, and that is especially hard to explain. LOL.

I really like how you added your goals to your signature. What a great idea. I think I might try that so my goals are right in front of me all the time.

Just when I thought I had you figured out you throw me a curve ball Lucy!

WILD X1

I'm just coming back from vacation on a cruise ship and I thought there is no way I will become lucid on this trip. For those of you who have taken a cruise before you know the music and partying goes on and on 'til the break of dawn!

On my second to the last night on the ship, I woke up extra early to try to beat the long breakfast lines. I slept around 6 to maybe 6 1/2 hours, so by around 7am I was getting my breakfast on a tray and heading back to my cabin to eat in peace. I ate a huge breakfast and downed a couple cups of coffee. By now my husband was waking up and asking me how long the lines were and why didn't I bring him back something to eat (I did, he just didn't like the healthy choices of food that I brought back). My husband decided that he will head down to get his own breakfast. Being alone in the room I decided to lay back down for a quick nap since it was still so early. I laid there thinking that 6 to 6 1/2 hours is a long time for me to sleep. I also thought that there is no way that I should be able to WILD after going down four flights of stairs, getting a tray full of food, passing so many people and having to say' Good Morning' to them because they said it to me, walking up four flights of stairs again, then eating and drinking two strong cups of coffee. Note that being LUCID is ALWAYS on my mind, from the time I close my eyes to the time they open...I try my best to stay aware and recall. Laying in bed with my eyes closed I thought to myself, "Why am I vibrating?" I thought I was dreaming at first but I knew I wasn't because I just watched my husband leave out the door and I had just closed my eyes. I was tingling and I decided THIS IS HAPPENING and I concentrated on my 'third eye' and the vibrations shook me straight out of myself. I needed to do a RC so I levitated and it worked. I was in shock!

So what's the big deal?

I had a WILD recently in which I discovered that I need a lot of sleep before I attempt to do a WILD (a minimum of 6 hours and no less then that). I also found out that my timing for a good WBTB is unusually long at around 40-45 minutes. For me, the big deal is that I never had stayed up so long and did so many things and still be able to WILD! From the time I woke up to get breakfast to the time I laid back down had to be around 50 minutes (at least). The facilitators, moderators, and teachers are correct when they say you need to practice with the timing! Did I already know this...yes, but I was always reluctant to stay up for a long time fearing that I wouldn't be able to go back to sleep. I would always try to run back to the bed after around 20 or 30 minutes.

I know that everyone is unique in their own way but I want to know what is up with really long WBTBs? Does anyone else have their WBTBs timed at almost 1 hour??? Also, I didn't know that you could be so active during a WBTB...or is this just a fluke?

Anyway Lucy...always grateful. Always humble.
Bemistaken

June 23, 2016
Total Sleep Time: 7 hours
Meditation: 4-5 times a week for at least 45 minutes
Exercise: Running 45-60 minutes 5 times a week
Method: DILD

This morning I did something I never have done in my life...in a DILD, I was able to interact with a DC. This may seem very small to some, but it is monumental to me. You see, interacting with a DC has been one of my goals listed in my signature for almost two years. I very seldom DILD...usually because I believe everything I see in a dream. However, something happened in my dream this morning that usually never happens to me.

Here's my story...

I recall I was on my 2nd or 3rd dream and all of a sudden I just got really focused and I became lucid. I remember seeing a little black dog. I'm famous for going back into my body quickly (mostly during a WILD), so I started doing things that I do with WILD so I can stay lucid. I started rubbing my hands together and told myself to stay focused on the dog. I recall I was still rubbing my hands together and the dog stopped moving and stayed still right in front of my by my feet. I wanted to do something extraordinary so I decided to change the dog into a ball. Mind you that I have never change anything into something, but I have always believed I could do it if I tried. Still rubbing my hands together and never taking my eyes off the dog I said (in my head), "Turn into a ball now!" Let me tell you DV family, I have absolutely no experience with SUMMONING OR INTERACTION WITH DC's, so I was not ready for what was manifesting right in front of me. Stay with me as I try to explain what I saw. As soon as I said 'turn into a ball now' the little black dog broke apart into small little pieces..., like little black particles floating at my feet where the dog once stood (trying my best to give you a picture here). As it broke into small particles, the particles turned red and then clumped together and blew up like a balloon into a red ball...are you getting the picture? OMG! IT WAS AMAZING! I have never been able to do something like that, nor see something like that!

But guess what? That is not the end of the story! I turned my head to look over my shoulder and the scene changed to like a swimming pool party. I felt like I could do anything after what I just witness, so I walked over to a DC standing by the pool and I told him, "Hey you! Go jump into that pool now!" He didn't say a word, he turned around and on command, he jumped into the pool ('sideways style' like a synchronized swimmer)! I laughed so hard I believe I woke my damn self up!

I can now put that Red X in my goal box as completing the task of interacting with a DC! Don't seem like much, but to me...I just won the lottery! I did it!

Always humble. Always grateful.
Bemistaken

Holy heck dream buddy!! I'm so happy you got to experience this. That must have been so cool. I'm really proud of you for holding the dream together and having so much control! Congratulations

Originally Posted by Xanous

Holy heck dream buddy!! I'm so happy you got to experience this. That must have been so cool. I'm really proud of you for holding the dream together and having so much control! Congratulations

Thanks Buddy,
I'm just trying to be just a little bit like you (my hero and you're still the best )! Love ya!