Thread: Mango's Workbook

My dream recall is terrible at the moment so I'll say my mantra, "I remember my dreams," as I'm going to sleep and during the day. No bright lights before bed (gonna be hard as I'm addicted to going on my iPod very late at night in bed). Thinking about dreams. Dream journalling. All that jazz. I've done mindful meditation for two days so far and it's pretty hard. I've never realised how much I'm thinking during the day. Like, my mind never gets some peace and quiet! Hell, we really are prisoners of our minds, aren't we?

I'll be doing the meditation for a long time and will record my progress, seeing if its made any difference to my waking and dream life. So each post will have a week's worth of meditation practises, not including the last two days, and I'll edit my post at the end of each day to type in the progress.

10/12/14: Gosh, it was weird to catch what my brain was thinking. It seemed to catch on to random bits of music I listened to during the day and played over and over like a broken record. Most of it was annoying as they were pop songs I despise.

I'm noticing a lot more details with this exercise though. And I remembered three dreams. Took a while to remember, but much better than nothing! I also woke at 3am via alarm, but I forgot to actually get out of bed. Welp. Tomorrow then.

11/12/14: It was a bit harder to do yesterday. My recall is spiking a bit in quality and vividness, which is good. Both the dreams I remembered had something to do with astral projection or lucid dreaming. I even remembered a tiny detail, which was of me adjusting my diamond earring. It felt real-ish, but so far I'm not 'there' in dreams yet.

12/12/14: Didn't do much because a lot happened. I've noticed that I only do mindfulness when I'm calm or not doing much. That needs to change so that I'm doing mindfulness in other situations. Also, I recalled four fragments/short dreams last night.

13/12/14: Easy on that day. No dreams recalled.

14/12/14: Hard. No dreams recalled.

15/12/14: Didn't do it. I've been staying at home as my course finished. I need to actually be doing something to do mindfulness or else I'll forget. A few dreams were recalled last night but it took about 10 minutes to remember them. It's very hard for me to remember dreams and then everyone in my family remembers them vividly every night. Bloody fucking hell, what am I doing wrong? MILD doesn't seem to work for me either - I woke up in WBTB and remembered dreams, then I did MILD to remember dreams and I didn't remember any the next time I woke. Sigh.

16/12/14: Probably going to skip this day.