Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I'm back from my trip. Turns out there wasn't much to get worried about.

The first day I was there we were having a few glasses of wine and in the end I got completely shit-faced. I've only been more drunk once in my life. But they all took that totally cool, so I suppose they must be all right people. Unfortunately I took a midnight swim with my cell-phone in my pocket and it's stopped functioning. (At least I assume that's what happened, I'd blacked out by then. But we did take a swim, and my phone was in my pocket when I blacked out and had been in the water when I woke up the next day).

I really loved that phone. Motorola Milestone, I wonder what will measure up?

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Sounds like low blood pressure. Did you stand up quickly at any point in the beginning, particularly right when it first started? Could've been a head rush.... Those things get really trippy, the particularly bad ones practically put me in a k-hole. The last time it happened a friend and I were making carrot cake, and at one point he handed me a spatula and I spent a good few minutes staring at it thinking "What the hell is this thing?? Am I supposed to eat it??", and finally I ended up yelling "Why did you hand me this!?" Then it all slowly started coming back. X) Of course, weed is sometimes just really trippy even without head rushes, too. The last time I got something like you described I had a white-out feeling instead of a black-out, and then things slowly started coming back into focus except that I was just watching everything that was happening on some kind of TV feed of my mind and making commentary on it, things like "Didn't we do this two weeks ago?" and "Oh look, someone's talking to me, and I'm responding to them! I wonder what I'm saying?" I haven't had everything go black before, but that has happened to me a good amount of times. One time I stood up really quickly and the whole room flipped upside down and I almost lost consciousness, I was kind of stuck in a trance where I couldn't differentiate between any aspect of my sensory information and I just felt like I was waiting for something to happen but everything was perfectly normal, until I snapped out of it and realized how odd it had been. Weed is strange sometimes.

No, I was standing still all the time. But it might still have been low blood pressure, as the world didn't go totally dark until I started moving, so...

My husband played favorites with my kids (all of them from my previous marriage). It is hard on kids. "Why did Zee get an iPod and we got nothing?"
It was easy to make excuses for my hubby though. Zee used to be an A-B student who took care of her belongings and who made herself available to help with chores and such.
Hubby had gotten the other kids stuff as well, but after learning one thing or another happened to the things he bought them, he figured "Why bother if they're not going to take care of it."

Sometimes people favor older kids over the younger ones. Older kids are supposed to be more responsible and more appreciative. There's also (unfortunately) the original relationship to look at: how the grandparents are with their own kids. If they have a strained relationship, it might be more difficult to reach out to the grandkids.

My rant is that my brother woke me up this morning. I was actually sleeping fairly well for a change. Earlier, I played my DSi, but sitting on the door was uncomfortable, so I moved it and just sat on the mattress. Because I used books and such to elevate the head of the bed, the mattress ended up sagging and kind of swooping down in the center. It was surprisingly comfortable and the springs weren't as much of a nuisance. I went to sleep at 2:30AM and was woken up at 11:30- right in the middle of an awesome dream which I ended up forgetting
That's the most sleep- and best quality sleep- I've gotten at one stretch for a while now.

Today, the sun is shining so I'm getting more laundry done.

I quit smoking weed earlier today and I haven't been hungry all day. :T I really need to eat something....

Originally Posted by alyzarin

i quit smoking weed earlier today and i haven't been hungry all day. :t i really need to eat something....

What?!?!

I look forward to good dreams now. No excuses.

After getting 9 hours of great sleep, I still had to take a 2 hour nap
But I did have a lot of really strange dreams. Why is it I dream more when sleeping for short bursts?

My rant is that I'm hungry but nothing is interesting me. My boys also left the controller down AGAIN and the pup chewed through the cord AGAIN, so now I'm expected to fix it. I told my oldest boy to do it himself, but he wont. He says I know what I'm doing and I'm faster. I'll give in, but it's a major pain in the butt stripping away the wire coatings. Pretty soon the cord is going to be too short to be useful.

**EDIT**
Oh, and my youngest boy is still retarded. He's now looking into Job Corpse again. But *I* have to speak to them because he "can't". I'll also "have" to drive him from WV to Alabama, because he "can't" take the Greyhound.
I told him he can and will. He called me the worse and laziest mom in the world. I kept calling him retarded until he became annoyed with me and left.
So now it's MY fault if he ends up homeless and dead in a ditch. I told him, his fate lies in his own hands... That he'll be an adult in a few months... That sometimes you just have to accept what help is available and suck it up and do the rest yourself.

But no. I'm the villain. My brother is trying to talk to him to let him know just how foolish he's being. My brother is homeless. But Myles wont talk to him and says everyone "needs to mind their own damn business".

Grrrrrrrrrr

And yeah, I know "retarded" isn't the best thing to call a kid. But I only use it when THEY ARE BEING retarded. I tell them "You're very smart and capable so stop being retarded!" I make it a point to differentiate between the kid and the action.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

What?!?!

I look forward to good dreams now. No excuses.

Did... did you purposefully make all of the capital letters in that quote lowercase?

I'm not quitting for good, I'm just not gonna be smoking all day every day anymore. I'm making it a special occasion thing. And I better get some good dreams out of it, that's one of my main reasons for wanting to quit. >.<

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

After getting 9 hours of great sleep, I still had to take a 2 hour nap
But I did have a lot of really strange dreams. Why is it I dream more when sleeping for short bursts?

My rant is that I'm hungry but nothing is interesting me. My boys also left the controller down AGAIN and the pup chewed through the cord AGAIN, so now I'm expected to fix it. I told my oldest boy to do it himself, but he wont. He says I know what I'm doing and I'm faster. I'll give in, but it's a major pain in the butt stripping away the wire coatings. Pretty soon the cord is going to be too short to be useful.

I get that. But I think it's because you're more likely to wake up during a REM cycle during short bursts, that is, during a dream. Whilst when you wake up after many hours, it's at the end of the last REM cycle where the dream has already faded/ended.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Did... did you purposefully make all of the capital letters in that quote lowercase?

I'm not quitting for good, I'm just not gonna be smoking all day every day anymore. I'm making it a special occasion thing. And I better get some good dreams out of it, that's one of my main reasons for wanting to quit. >.<

Naa, but I put 'what' in uppercase, and it made it lowercase... probably affecting all uppercase letters. I'm surprised you noticed, miss observant.

A special occasion eh.... I wonder how many special occasions will come about. Yeah, you better get some good dream recall. I need a bit of inspiration. I'm disliking my mundane content abundant in my dreams lately.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Naa, but I put 'what' in uppercase, and it made it lowercase... probably affecting all uppercase letters. I'm surprised you noticed, miss observant.

A special occasion eh.... I wonder how many special occasions will come about. Yeah, you better get some good dream recall. I need a bit of inspiration. I'm disliking my mundane content abundant in my dreams lately.

I see. I pay attention.

Hopefully not too many. >w< I'll try not to disappoint.

Originally Posted by Warheit

No need to be sorry, it's all good.

I don't computer game because I haven't had a desktop since I built my last one (the one I mentioned earlier that I played BF1942 on) and went on the laptop kick as soon as they were fire -- and never felt that laptops were the kind of machines you would want to game on. Also, I am just not much of a gamer anymore. I grew out of that in college. I made a lot of friends in school, but saw how detrimental it was to the social health of others who never ventured outside their gaming and virtual realities. I am only considering getting a PS3 now because Skyrim looks cool, I have cash flow and get bored on occasion. I probably won't get one. If I am thinking this much about it, saying no is probably the right idea. I need a new guitar more than I need video games.

Don't get it man. Even if you do want it, which it seems like you don't really, the new one will be out soon so what's the point....
That's sort of a secondary reason though. Much better to spend on music equipment IMO. I just a couple of days ago started realising
how much more enjoyable it is to go do some that improves myself rather than just play some games, which improves yourself about as much
as watching TV does. And I feel better too.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Main thing annoying me is that I bought some flavoured green tea (pineapple and grapefruit), and it tastes like shit. I need to stop believing any flavoured green tea is going to be tasteful. It's like chewing on cardboard.

And I feel disgusted that some 14yr old girls tried to 'chat me up' today. I'm 26.

Hahaha! It's such a weird thing, anything with green tea, what you imagine it will taste like (bliss) is nothing like what it actually tastes like (wtfisthisshit)
Apple and iced green tea sounds like the best thing in the world, but it's fucking shite.

thought i just had a few bug bites on my arm...

but i think it's a rash. i wouldn't be surprised if i fell in poison ivy the other day.

My nerdy friend introduced me to his girlfriend. I have few friends at all let alone a girlfriend. It would help if I got out of the house and into the world, but where do I go? What do I do?

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All the girls I know are asking "WHY AREN'T THINGS LIKE THIS ANYMORE?!" It's pissing me off. Why? How are these advertisements any different than todays?

"Men wouldn't look at me when I was skinny." "Skinny women have no sex appeal." I'm sure skinny women were bitching about those ads back then, just like curvy women bitch about them now!

Advertisers always need someone to pick on; just because they're picking on you right NOW doesn't mean they will forever. They find whatever group has lots of members (currently, larger women), make them feel bad, and get them to buy shit. Back in the day, skinny women were a large demographic, so they made THEM feel bad.

If some other big demographic comes along, they're going to make them feel bad about themselves.

Originally Posted by tommo

Hahaha! It's such a weird thing, anything with green tea, what you imagine it will taste like (bliss) is nothing like what it actually tastes like (wtfisthisshit)
Apple and iced green tea sounds like the best thing in the world, but it's fucking shite.

I don't even like non-flavored green tea, personally. A friend made me try it once and I said, and I quote, "Blech! It tastes like plant." He's never gonna let me live that one down... though I stand by what I said.

Originally Posted by DaveTheJoker

My nerdy friend introduced me to his girlfriend. I have few friends at all let alone a girlfriend. It would help if I got out of the house and into the world, but where do I go? What do I do?

This is the million dollar question.

Spoiler for game rant:

I just had heaps of stuff in DayZ, and there was this guy I'd come across a couple of times in the town, and I saw him again and he said hi to me,
and then I walked in to a shed and grabbed some stuff and heard him getting attacked by zombies, so I went outside and was hacking them my axe, but I got hit and went down, and eventually died.
I got lucky and spawned back in the same town, went and grabbed all my stuff that I dropped when I died and got the fuck out of the town.

But as I was running across a field, some fuckhead sniped me in the head.

Later on I had heaps of stuff, guns and ammo and bandages and painkillers, food, a water bottle etc. I stupidly decided to lose the zombies through a shed, one door was shut, the other was open.
I was just gonna run through and open it up, forgetting the game is unresponsive as fuck coz it's still in Alpha mode. The door didn't open quick enough and I lost everything.

EDIT:

Originally Posted by Singularity125

I don't even like non-flavored green tea, personally. A friend made me try it once and I said, and I quote, "Blech! It tastes like plant." He's never gonna let me live that one down... though I stand by what I said.

Naw man, green tea is the shit. You probably had a bad one or too strong or something.
I get this stuff from China and it's incredible. Lots of Theanine to calm you down too. Supermarket green tea is too stimulating.

Green tea should be taken one way: hot, brewed just under boiling temperature. (If you boil it, it tastes like cast iron and dirt.)

When you drink it un-adulterated (or maybe with a teaspoon of sugar) it's very tasty (at least to me) and does wonders for my dream vividness. It's my go-to nighttime whilst-I'm-reading drink.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

"You're very smart and capable so stop being retarded!"

I love how you compliment your son right before calling him a retard.

My rant is... Anxiety? I'm freaking out about my future. I want to be mildly successful. Not rich or anything. But I would like to have a decent car, a house, boat. And not worry about the bills. If something comes up we can just go out to dinner. Things like that. That's a lot richer than I am right now I guess.

The problem is that I'm not smart enough, or proactive enough to make it in life. I make decent grades. Normally a 3.0 and above, although I am known to fall below that during the times I get in really deep depression. Which is good, but not good enough to go to any school that I want or do anything that I want. My real trouble is math, but I don't want this whole post to be an academic rant.

The money is in the medical feild, but I don't want to do that. And I doubt I would even be able to get in med school. What I really love is astronomy, physics, cosmology. Things like that. But that is way to hard work. I'm really not smart enough for that. And even if I could beat the odds, getting a job after college is next to impossible in that feild.

I'm really just scared right now.

EDIT: Oh and Zhaylin, quit banging your head on those brick walls. You are going to have some serious brain damage.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

A mosquito bit my lip during the night -.-"

Okay so... turns out this wasn't a mosquito bite actually... It just got bigger during these 2 days and it still didn't disappear :S
I'm not sure what is this, but the right side of my upper lip is just swelled and is almost double the size as the left side.... ugh... i look so stupid now

I hope it's not something serious though... i don't want to go to the doctor...

Saw a picture of Rae today, It breaks my heart. She graduated last week, I didn't get to see her or anything, its probably for the better, I really need to just get over her, I just can't. I have thought I was in love before but damn I didn't even officially date Rae I don't get how come it makes me so sick and feeling like shit. I really did it to myself in the end, by just leaving everything the way I did. Just amazing how much I improved myself since I met her, I even remember the very first time I saw her, just some girl walking down the road that I passed in my car, and then couldn't stop glancing at in my rear view. Ugh I just really need to move and restart all over again after I save some money....

Probably doesn't make sense at all to any, I just need to clear my head before I go to sleep I don't want to have a dream about her so I'm trying to think through it then move on to other thoughts.

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

Vintage Weight Gain Ads | Retronaut

All the girls I know are asking "WHY AREN'T THINGS LIKE THIS ANYMORE?!" It's pissing me off. Why? How are these advertisements any different than todays?

"Men wouldn't look at me when I was skinny." "Skinny women have no sex appeal." I'm sure skinny women were bitching about those ads back then, just like curvy women bitch about them now!

Advertisers always need someone to pick on; just because they're picking on you right NOW doesn't mean they will forever. They find whatever group has lots of members (currently, larger women), make them feel bad, and get them to buy shit. Back in the day, skinny women were a large demographic, so they made THEM feel bad.

If some other big demographic comes along, they're going to make them feel bad about themselves.

I just wish people of both genders relied on their own perception and observation of what others find attractive, rather than lazily relying on some distorted media shit. And as if what is attractive is black/white.... they like this, but not this. No. If you're curvy, one person may like you more than if you're skinny. But the next person might like the inverse. Meh.

Originally Posted by tommo

I just had heaps of stuff in DayZ, and there was this guy I'd come across a couple of times in the town, and I saw him again and he said hi to me,
and then I walked in to a shed and grabbed some stuff and heard him getting attacked by zombies, so I went outside and was hacking them my axe, but I got hit and went down, and eventually died.
I got lucky and spawned back in the same town, went and grabbed all my stuff that I dropped when I died and got the fuck out of the town.

But as I was running across a field, some fuckhead sniped me in the head.

Later on I had heaps of stuff, guns and ammo and bandages and painkillers, food, a water bottle etc. I stupidly decided to lose the zombies through a shed, one door was shut, the other was open.
I was just gonna run through and open it up, forgetting the game is unresponsive as fuck coz it's still in Alpha mode. The door didn't open quick enough and I lost everything.

Sounds like a good game. How's the 'realism' aspect play out?

Woke up with horrible indigestion this morning. It felt like an army of tiny orcs were marching through my gut, stabbing the walls as they went. The heartburn was really strong and I was fighting the urge to be sick with some deep breathing. Don't know how it works, but it always seems to ease the pain a little. After a while, it calmed down a bit and I got up and drank some milk to soothe my stomach. Then I went back to sleep and let it slowly subside.

I really hate moments like that. It's one of those times when I find myself thinking "God, if you really exist... I hate your fucking guts!"

Always somewhat disheartening to realize that you didn't really notice anything when you started smoking weed, but less than half a day after you stop your cognition and productivity skyrocket.

Eh.

Originally Posted by dakotahnok

I love how you compliment your son right before calling him a retard.

My rant is... Anxiety? I'm freaking out about my future. I want to be mildly successful. Not rich or anything. But I would like to have a decent car, a house, boat. And not worry about the bills. If something comes up we can just go out to dinner. Things like that. That's a lot richer than I am right now I guess.

The problem is that I'm not smart enough, or proactive enough to make it in life. I make decent grades. Normally a 3.0 and above, although I am known to fall below that during the times I get in really deep depression. Which is good, but not good enough to go to any school that I want or do anything that I want. My real trouble is math, but I don't want this whole post to be an academic rant.

The money is in the medical feild, but I don't want to do that. And I doubt I would even be able to get in med school. What I really love is astronomy, physics, cosmology. Things like that. But that is way to hard work. I'm really not smart enough for that. And even if I could beat the odds, getting a job after college is next to impossible in that feild.

I'm really just scared right now.

EDIT: Oh and Zhaylin, quit banging your head on those brick walls. You are going to have some serious brain damage.

Man, I still feel this way and I've been out of high school for 5 years.
The money is not only in the medical field. In fact, a lot of them get paid shit.
You do not need to be smart to make money. It literally isn't even in the equation.
What you need though, is to be happy.
Of course, even though people deny this, money definitely comes in to it, when you're living in this society.

What you need to do is find something you're capable of, that you may enjoy.
I'm not necessarily stupid, I've been told I'm intelligent a lot, but I am fairly lazy.
Not even lazy, I just lack motivation. Because I have never found that thing that I absolutely LOVE.
I've been jealous for a long time of the people who can just cruise by in life, or moreso, the people who are just absolutely dedicated to some thing
which just happens to be fairly lucrative.

But there is without a doubt something you enjoy, which you are able to do, which can make you decent money.

Don't say you aren't smart. It's a self-fulfilling idea.
It has been shown that an IQ of anything over 120 puts you on a level playing field with all the people in that category.
Basically, comparing yourself to people with 180-200 IQ's etc. you can be just as good as them at anything if you're not a complete retard and you really want to achieve something.

You're right about astronomy, that's one difficult field. That's why there's a lot of amateur astronomers. Give that a try and having this as a hobby will contribute to making you happy.
Given the meager number of telescopes on Earth, it is very difficult to get a job at one.
However, there are other facets of it, and a lot of telescopes are shared, remotely. And you analyse data, write papers etc. etc. the rest of the time.

Physics, there's a tonne of jobs. It's difficult to actually learn it, but if you do well and enjoy it, you'll find a job.

Find a tutor for maths if you want to get better, your school may have some, or just get a private tutor. There are some very smart people on here too (xei, philstoned) who could help you get inspired.
A large majority of maths teachers SUCK GIANT BALLS. It's a fact.
I thought I was absolutely terrible at it too until I got a good teacher. Unfortunately I never kept learning it coz of later horrible teachers.

And if you really cannot do any of these things due to the obvious maths involved in them, find something else.
There are so many things in this world that it is impossible to not be able to find something that you enjoy and excel in.

Just take something simple, a broad thing. For me it is plants, animals, nature in general.
So I'm starting to look in to jobs in those areas.

For me, the best thing I think I have done in regards to this is just getting a job. Just a shitty job that I hate now, but it has taught me a couple of skills
that basically will help me do better in life and has given me some money to pursue a lot of the hobbies that I previously could never pursue, like astronomy and a motorbike and music etc.
I've started actually doing all these things that I have wanted to do for so long, and have some sort of independence.

Sorry I'm just assuming you don't have a job, just sounds like you're still fairly young so I thought it's most likely you don't.
If you do, don't waste that money. Use it on things that will fulfill you.

Originally Posted by littlezoe

Okay so... turns out this wasn't a mosquito bite actually... It just got bigger during these 2 days and it still didn't disappear :S
I'm not sure what is this, but the right side of my upper lip is just swelled and is almost double the size as the left side.... ugh... i look so stupid now

I hope it's not something serious though... i don't want to go to the doctor...

Go to the doctor.

Originally Posted by ZeraCook

Saw a picture of Rae today, It breaks my heart. She graduated last week, I didn't get to see her or anything, its probably for the better, I really need to just get over her, I just can't. I have thought I was in love before but damn I didn't even officially date Rae I don't get how come it makes me so sick and feeling like shit. I really did it to myself in the end, by just leaving everything the way I did. Just amazing how much I improved myself since I met her, I even remember the very first time I saw her, just some girl walking down the road that I passed in my car, and then couldn't stop glancing at in my rear view. Ugh I just really need to move and restart all over again after I save some money....

Probably doesn't make sense at all to any, I just need to clear my head before I go to sleep I don't want to have a dream about her so I'm trying to think through it then move on to other thoughts.

Ah, I also know this feel.... just happened a couple of years ago. Seems like a lifetime ago now that I think about it.
I'm not sure what happened with her, but it probably doesn't matter, forget it.
It's not going to help you to just think about it constantly. Which you will do.

You feel sick because that's love. You have lost a part of yourself, you miss it.
But you probably won't get it back. And you can find other parts that will fit.
So think about that instead. Look forward to the new experiences and keep trying to improve your current reality in the mean time.
It's something I never took seriously, even from the girl I liked when she said it to me multiple times.... "stop over thinking" it.
Nothing good will come of relaying things in your mind and thinking maybe we can get together again or maybe if I this and that and bla bla bla
It serves no positive purpose.

It's been over a week since you last saw her? She is out of your life now. Accept it.
You will find someone better. But don't rely on other people to make you feel good.
You have to make yourself feel good. (Take that however you want )

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

I just wish people of both genders relied on their own perception and observation of what others find attractive, rather than lazily relying on some distorted media shit. And as if what is attractive is black/white.... they like this, but not this. No. If you're curvy, one person may like you more than if you're skinny. But the next person might like the inverse. Meh.

And, usually, one person will like multiple "types" of people. Coz there really are no types.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

Sounds like a good game. How's the 'realism' aspect play out?

Not sure what you mean "how does it play out". But it's awesome. Just awesome.

It's not 100% realistic of course, coz it's a game so people don't take shooting people seriously. Like during a zombie apocalypse, someone wouldn't just be sitting there sniping passers-by in the head.
But some people do treat it more realistically, they're hesitant etc. when they see you but don't just shoot you on site.
And like with that guy I mentioned, he waited until he thought I could be trusted before feeling safe around me etc.

It's the most intense game I've ever played because of the realism. Including the realistic graphics. Sometimes I feel like I'm looking at RL. Totally crazy. If you can put it on full settings.

Mom leaves me in a house with no food and a dirty kitchen and tells me to "make something" when I ask her about food.

Dave, is there literally NOTHING or just nothing you're interested in? I argue with my kids all the time over that. If we have Ramen or Rice, we have food. It's not appealing but it'll fill the hole.

**EDIT**
Ended there because I thought my machine was about to reboot

My rants are:
My 19 year old son is acting like a giant baby. And all because Wal-mart doesn't have a $60. game he's wanting. It's Dragon something or other and it does look neat. But it is what it is. I'm not going to the bigger city to buy it because that will take gas money. We don't really have $60. to waste on a game anyhow.

My other rant is that I've been on my period for a couple of days now. I'm fine with that. I usually don't get cramps. But tampons make me sick. It can't be TSS because it's never that severe. But after I use them for a while I get headaches then severe nausea. So I'll stop using them for a bit and I'm okay. I'll use them again and get sick again. It's HIGHLY freaking annoying.
I need to get off my cheap butt and go to the drug store and look for the Cups again.

I also woke up in the worlds worst mood. My kids woke me at 6AM then at 9 then at 10, 11 and noon (hehee, sorry Dakotah). I was having awesome dreams but I kept forgetting them because of all the interruptions. And when I finally got up I was in too foul a mood to really record them.
After being out and about shopping for a couple hours, my mood has improved. But it's definitely still a Blah sort of day.