Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

So much anger here lol everyone.

My rant is- of course- that I slept pretty much all friggin day again. Last night I slept from 3AM to around noon which is 9 hours. THen I was falling asleep at my desk and went back to sleep at 5PM-8:30. For a total of 12 1/2 hours GRRRRRRR!! Which doesn't seem like too much until you tally up the hours I spent sleeping yesterday. My days and nights kind of run into each other.

I will be SO figgin happy when I'm through traveling.
I'm sure I already ranted about this, but the place we're going has only one bed. I've not shared a bed with my hubby in years. Nice hotels have really nice comforters but they kill me. I sweat and end up feverish and when I sleep with hubby you can multiply the heat by a million
Not to mention what poor hubby has to look forward to. I'm a very violent sleeper. I kick and hit and toss and turn all night. The bigger the bed, the worse I am.
Ugh....

An anti-rant is that I bought a salad with grilled chicken tonight for dinner instead of hotdogs... but now I'm rushing off to the toilet every few minutes Still- it WAS nice to eat something different for a change lol

I got $100. from hubby tonight out of next weeks grocery money. I have to pick up my meds, a graduation gift and nice card for Zee and I also picked up 2 packs of e-cig cartridges. With whatever's left, I have to get my son some more food as well as the dogs some food. Sonny boy is going to be eating a LOT of pasta.
I'm also a little worried about leaving him. We have no house phone. I use the computer to make out-going calls and my cellphone. What if he gets hurt? What if the power goes out? Some 5,000 people in my town are still without electricity.
But even if the power went out the day I leave and he has no way to cook food, he will still live (I keep telling myself). He'd just go into hibernation mode. And it takes longer than a week for a person to starve to death anyhow.

And what about my birds? If we lose power, will they be able to keep warm enough? The bunny and dogs have fur coats, so I don't worry about them. But the birds are tropical lol

NOW I'm having anxious thoughts... but no symptoms of anxiety. Go friggin figure.

Originally Posted by tommo

Boss just called me to come in. I can pretty much 100% guarantee that she never even organised for someone else to do the shift.
No swear words convey how pissed off I am right now. I don't owe them, they owe me, and they don't even realise it.
The shop isn't even open yet, there's no way they could know whether it's going to be busy tonight. I don't think it's possible to make it more obvious that she didn't arrange for someone else to do it and she doesn't care the slightest bit.
If I don't get this painting finished I'm gonna have to postpone the trip a day.
I feel like slaughtering someone right now.

Why don't you just tell them no in situations like that? That's what the other employees probably do, and they keep calling you because they think you're a pushover and will work any shift.

Agreed with Dianeva.

I had a problem saying "no" once-upon-a-time. My boss actually had to counsel me on learning to refuse work.

It was good advice.

I think I finally have myself pretty much figured out. I'm confusing as hell.

I also like dopamine too much. Way, way too much.

Goodnight, DV.

I found it out to Alyz I'm Indecisive, in the way that I am fine with most things, but the things I'm not I REALLY AM NOT FINE WITH AT ALL, and I need to find a girl that can take all the love I have to offer.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Why don't you just tell them no in situations like that? That's what the other employees probably do, and they keep calling you because they think you're a pushover and will work any shift.

Originally Posted by melanieb

Agreed with Dianeva.

I had a problem saying "no" once-upon-a-time. My boss actually had to counsel me on learning to refuse work.

It was good advice.

Yeah.... but it's my last shift and I just thought it's not worth ruining a possibly still okay reference for. Especially since I think she was pissed of at me for saying I don't think I can do it, a few days ago.
I've refused before, but not often otherwise I would just seem irresponsible.
I was really fucking close to just taking a shit in their oven though. Thankfully I was only there for 2 hours.
Also, one of the guys there is an absolute prick too. I thought he was ok, but annoying and I didn't like him.
But today I was folding the boxes and he goes and TELLS ON ME to the guy boss, without even saying anything to me.
He did it once before too when I was just having fun trying to stack the boxes as high as I could (slow night, and tonight was slow too).
I drove him home every time we were both on till late so many god damned times. And he's still a prick and a kiss ass.
He'll get what he deserves.

Anyway WORK IS DONE, time for hittin' the open road!
I will see you all in a few weeks if I don't come on DV tomorrow (I probably will)

Grandpa died today. Grandma had died in May. They are together again. Voted.

So sorry to hear about your Grandpa, Warheit.

Tommo, have a great time!!!

I have a rave. I slept again from around 7:30-noon. I had a lucid dream at some point (though I've forgotten it), but my last dream was awesome. I was male mouse Not only that, I was a SURFING mouse escaping some bad place I was at. There was one other mouse with me and we had some sort of tiny canister that pushed our surfboards VERY fast. At one point, I was upside down on the water
I went so fast at one point though, that I knocked another random mouse off of his board. I slowed and he asked how long it would take to get to shore (I think I broke his board). I told him about 2 days and he asked for help.
Somewhere along the line, I ran into a female country mouse with a pet bear cub (sized WAYYY down of course). It was very slender though. More like a stuffed animal bear. And it was a strange orange, brown and black color because it was also a ZOMBIE bear cub. He wasn't dangerous though. He was actually blind and deaf so I put him in a sack and carried him.
As I slowly started waking up, I realized we hadn't actually escaped. The evil scientist guy put trackers on us to see how well we would do out in the world.

What a weird, weird dream. But I absolutely loved it lol

Now I have to get ready for my daughters graduation. I should leave at 1:30 because I have 2 other stops to make along the way.

Who's actually right? Me or that other guy. My youtube name is sorakekairi btw lol. And I'll talk about my bus journey later.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

Who's actually right? Me or that other guy. My youtube name is sorakekairi btw lol. And I'll talk about my bus journey later.

This is taken from: http://www.dreamviews.com/f19/fantas...-method-98062/

There are two very different types of OOBE.

* Astral Projection. This is a whole body projection into an environment that is commonly referred to in new-age writings as the Astral Realm. A strange word to use because it conjures up pre-conceived images of a starry mythical realm filled with beings of astral energy etc. However upon entering it, it’s soon realized that it is more familiar as the landscape or world you encounter when dreaming. But you have entered through the back door, and can objectively investigate and explore it without suffering from the sub-conscious imagery you are normally blinded by or the story-line you are normally wrapped up in when dreaming. Within the ‘Astral’... not even the sky is the limit. This environment, however real it seems may be considered a virtual world that is created by the projector or an actual authentic realm. Upon experiencing it, believing that it is real or fabricated matters not because it is indistinguishable from reality... even surpassing normal reality in quality and ‘reality’.

* 1st Phase OOBE. This is seemingly a projection into this reality, often referred to in new-age philosophy as an ‘ethereal projection’. It is much more difficult to achieve because of the way it is entered; during Sleep Paralysis. Apart from the fact that it takes place in this time and reality, the main difference from AP is that instead of experiencing it in body, you are seemingly a free floating point of conscious awareness. This phase can lead on to 2nd Phase which is again experienced as a free floating consciousness but is not in this reality.

But honestly, you're going to find people say:

• It's the same thing, and then make up some other term to try and define Lucid Dreaming, AP, OBE. (Like in obe4u that calls it "The Phase")
• Some will say that AP/OBE are the same
• Some will say that AP/OBE's are vivid WILDs

You just have to know that when someone like that person states they've been doing it for 10 years, it doesn't mean they're absolutely right. The same goes for you, but that's not implying one side is right and the other is wrong.

It's that when you deal with the paranormal, it's too subjective, so setting a conviction means you're prone to blocking out other truths.

Then it goes into this unnecessary argument between

-experience vs. logic
-non-intellect vs. intellect
-solitude vs. conformity

What matters is that you find something you can believe in, but still keep an open mind, because things with Lucid Dreaming, AP, OBE are going to have extremists from every corner.

Just look into all categories, and make a general summary of each, note similarities and differences, weed out the crummy misinformation you see on the internet and books, or any other source of information, and always continue to having an open mind.

It's not a matter of who's wrong or right, it can't be simplified to such binaries of black and white.

If you want to just call yourself a lucid dreamer, and stick with the practical ideology that it's all in your head, and any talk of AP/OBE is too overwhelming for you, then you have every right to do so.

It does get complicated honestly, when people talk about these things, because no one can make a rationalization as yet, which is good, because until it can be scientifically proven, and basically overcomes all possible falsifiable outcomes, it's something you have to

experience for yourself.

I think there's a difference of AP/OBE, but I won't know that until I try the mechanics to see the difference. I have it at the back of my mind, but I'm always willing to change those ideas if I see something convincing enough that I know is logical for my reality.

Originally Posted by tommo

I was really fucking close to just taking a shit in their oven though. Thankfully I was only there for 2 hours.

I really really hope that's some kind of metaphor.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

Who's actually right? Me or that other guy. My youtube name is sorakekairi btw lol. And I'll talk about my bus journey later.

Sounds like arguing over whether unicorns' horns are white or grey to me.

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I found out just last night that it's my dad's birthday today, and I have no idea what to get him. Even if I did it would be a hassle to go get it, especially since it's pouring rain. But I literally have no idea what to get. Presents for a parent are kind of stupid. They have a lot of money; if they want anything they'll get it themselves. I might just end up getting him nothing or sharing a present someone else got him. But when I get him nothing he gets all sad and disappointed, which is fucking stupid, he should understand. I'm easy to get presents for (if nothing else I'd be happy with money) and if someone didn't get me one at all, I'd be completely fine with that, it seriously wouldn't even phase me. Since I know how stressful it is to get people presents and understand why someone might not want to have to deal with it. So it's annoying when people who are really hard to buy presents for take it really personally and feel upset about it.

Spoiler for stupid ranting:

holyshit dreamscoming back i thought i'd forgottn all of them, that was gona be my next rant sry for the typing. something about smoking, bf there, going out for a smoke but i couldnt, had to stay somewhere, baking a cake or something? other people around, really irritated......................................... . .... FUCK it's jjust like... on the verge of my memory.... but can't quite get to it, some big dream, seems i need to go a little further and the entire story will come back in detail but i CANT REMEMBER.

I just tried to think about it for a few minutes but ended up thinking about sex or something. I'll try to remember more of it... I'd been looking so forward to sleeping last night because I thought I was going to remember a lot of dreams, since I'e been writing them down, now I have nothing. Has it really almost an hour since I woke up? I must get up and do things or I'll be sitting here for hours checking dv.

Ever since that hospital/fainting incident I've constantly been on the edge between consciousness and unconsciousness. I would just drift off into an imaginary world; the problem is, I'm not even sure whether I'm dreaming or hallucinating. Just over an hour ago I was watching Doctor Who in the living room. I felt pretty relaxed until I experienced this fuzziness (vision, hearing and I could even feel it a bit; like mild static shocks). Then I remembered I was sitting on a brick chimney on some random rooftop then the sound of the TV woke me up again.

Guess I'm still a bit tired. Pretty wise decision to not go to classes today then I suppose.

Also, math midterm tomorrow

You know, I wanted to come here and talk about how I felt really insecure today. I was going to go on this long rant about all these terrible negative emotions I've felt in my life that are still eating me up from time to time and how sometimes it's so intense that it's hard to stand, probably would've thrown in some relevant chemistry information, and basically would've just made an all-around miserable post. Then, before I really got started on it, I talked to my boyfriend about it. Within ten minutes I felt so much better, it's hard to imagine that I was even getting worked up in the first place. So while that rant may show up again one day, for now it' a thing of the past.

I'm so lucky.

Originally Posted by Crashyy

Who's actually right? Me or that other guy. My youtube name is sorakekairi btw lol. And I'll talk about my bus journey later.

You're correct because dreams and OBEs are two separate neurochemical experiences regardless of your beliefs, and subjectively there are some differences to them. Some time ago I was reading brainwave tests about the two as well, I can't remember exactly where it was but it differentiated OBEs and dreams.

Originally Posted by LightofHeaven

Ever since that hospital/fainting incident I've constantly been on the edge between consciousness and unconsciousness. I would just drift off into an imaginary world; the problem is, I'm not even sure whether I'm dreaming or hallucinating. Just over an hour ago I was watching Doctor Who in the living room. I felt pretty relaxed until I experienced this fuzziness (vision, hearing and I could even feel it a bit; like mild static shocks). Then I remembered I was sitting on a brick chimney on some random rooftop then the sound of the TV woke me up again.

Guess I'm still a bit tired. Pretty wise decision to not go to classes today then I suppose.

Well, you essentially had a typical hospital out-of-body experience when you slipped straight into that dream state. There have been many studies showing that once you've had an experience like that that boundary between waking and dreaming tends to become a bit weaker for people (i.e., they experience sleep paralysis and OBEs more commonly).

I just got a note from the clinic at Chris's school, he failed his vision test. 20/80 in his right eye, and 20/60 in his left eye. Same thing happened to me at his age: I had a massive growth spurt one summer when I was 9, and ended up much taller with shit vision. I was hoping he'd inherit his dad's perfect vision, but again, same thing with me. My mom's vision is bad, but my dad's is perfect 20/20. I guess near-sightedness is the dominant gene? That don't seem right.

Time to call the eye-center at Walmart. And I'm probably going to go ahead and budget for a back-up pair of glasses for him as well. because this is CHRIS we're talking about.

Anti-rant: At least I'm addressing this NOW. Danny's son Andrew, who lives with his mom, has had bad eyesight for years, but no one got him glasses. Even with him being on his dad's awesome insurance plan, and the $900/month in child support they get from him, they couldn't manage an eye appointment and a $20 co-payment? When me and Danny got together, I just said fuck pride, we can just get the glasses for him. Then he borke them, so we had to replace them, because she couldn't manage to do it for him. Lol this is an anti-rant? Yes it is, because I'll make sure my son can see. It's really hard to do well in school when you can't even see the board.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I'm so lucky.

Aww I wanna feel appreciated and loved.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

You know, I wanted to come here and talk about how I felt really insecure today. I was going to go on this long rant about all these terrible negative emotions I've felt in my life that are still eating me up from time to time and how sometimes it's so intense that it's hard to stand, probably would've thrown in some relevant chemistry information, and basically would've just made an all-around miserable post. Then, before I really got started on it, I talked to my boyfriend about it. Within ten minutes I felt so much better, it's hard to imagine that I was even getting worked up in the first place. So while that rant may show up again one day, for now it' a thing of the past.

I'm so lucky.

I know that feel lol, isn't it wonderful?

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I just found out one thing I might be able to get for my dad's birthday but it's like $200 Maybe I can ask my mom or brother to pay for some of it, if I can even find it. It's something at Starbucks that seems awesome and I'm sure he'd love (and so would I) but I don't even know if they sell them in their stores or you can only order them online. If online it's too late for that and I'll be stuck at the beginning.

I signed up to be a student at an online university last night and was e-mailed a student number. Then they showed me a page with my student ID number on their website with the receipt and told me to print it out, but I didn't, because I've found I never end up needing those things when they ask me to print them out. Then while trying to sign up for courses it asked me for my student ID number, which I'd thought was the same as the SN I was e-mailed, but I guess it wasn't. I checked my history and everything and couldn't find the 'student ID number' they'd sent me. So I just phoned them, some British sounding lady answered, we could barely hear one another and she seemed irritated. Then at the end of the call she told me to write it down, I can't just call whenever I need it. No shit, I can't stand phoning people (believe me I scoured through their website looking for some way to e-mail about it instead of phoning first) and already feel like an idiot for having to and you think you have to tell me to write it down? Again with passive aggressiveness (starting to think this is a Canadian thing, not just my city, since the school is in Alberta... or maybe it's just a human thing).

Originally Posted by LightofHeaven

Aww I wanna feel appreciated and loved.

I love ya and appreciate your mad lucid skills <3

Originally Posted by LightofHeaven

Aww I wanna feel appreciated and loved.

Aww. :c Well, we love and appreciate you here. :3



Also, what Ophelia said lol.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I know that feel lol, isn't it wonderful?

Why yes, yes it is. This day just got much brighter. I think I might put on some Netflix now. I was just planning to sulk lol.

Much appreciated. Seriously though, sometimes I feel like Dexter.. watching the world teeming with life and joy while I feel empty inside. Sometimes I wonder if I even understanding what feelings are. Yeah, I know.. this guy is majorly depressed.

Originally Posted by LightofHeaven

Much appreciated. Seriously though, sometimes I feel like Dexter.. watching the world teeming with life and joy while I feel empty inside. Sometimes I wonder if I even understanding what feelings are. Yeah, I know.. major depressed guy here.

Tell me about it, that's along the lines of what I was originally going to rant about lol. Those feelings usually pop up out of habit for me these days though, it's a lot easier to put up mental walls than it is to tear them down. Unfortunately I don't have the healthiest ways of dealing with it, or at least didn't until now.... You can PM me if you ever want to talk about it though, I understand those feelings completely.

I just made it back from my daughters graduation. Ugh. I was gone for almost 4 1/2 hours.
Walmart was out of the way, so I stopped at K-Mart along the way and bought her a (horrible) card, some earrings and a gift bag. But I was better on time than I thought, so I stopped at Cracker Barrel and bought her a Beanie Baby and an AWESOME card.
They took forever. It was at least 3:30 before the graduation started (I was there right before 3). Then I actually got to go to her "Cottage" and every single peer and staff member (for her group) spoke. Then I spoke (wasn't expecting that!!) and she she spoke.
It was very touching and one of her peers was crying so much, she couldn't say anything.

Then I stopped at Taco Bell and ate in the car, then went BACK to K-Mart to return the card. If it was just a couple of bucks, I wouldn't have worried about it. But that crappy card was over $5. lol I'm so glad I found a better one.

My rant is that I am not in for the night just yet. I have to fill 2 'scripts and get food for my boy and the dogs and then I have to ozonate the car. Ugh.
I'm going to kick back and watch Hulu then head out in an hour.

Dianeva, $200. ??!! Wow! My parents favorite gifts from me was a boat or something that I carved out of soap lol and a poem I wrote for my dad. I burned and curled the edges to give it a sort of antique look.
For my folks, anyhow, it wasn't about the cost of the present but the thought that went into it.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I really really hope that's some kind of metaphor.

You pick the weirdest things out to comment on.
It was just an exaggeration. I wouldn't actually shit in their oven. Besides they'd stop me as soon as I stepped on in. I would do something where I can just get out quickly but piss them off, like throw a pizza at em or empty sauce buckets on their heads and run.

Zhaylin your mouse dream had me cracking up, that sounds beautiful.

Rant: I'm eating oats with water. I'm almost gagging on every mouthful. Blergh.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Tell me about it, that's along the lines of what I was originally going to rant about lol. Those feelings usually pop up out of habit for me these days though, it's a lot easier to put up mental walls than it is to tear them down. Unfortunately I don't have the healthiest ways of dealing with it, or at least didn't until now.... You can PM me if you ever want to talk about it though, I understand those feelings completely.

I'm not depressed. I have a relaxed attitude towards life and I don't experience much sadness or tension at all; it's just that I feel nothing. I have plenty of friends and loved ones to spend my time with and despite all this, I know so little about humans in general. I frequently observe the way people interact with each other and often puzzled by it. Before I go further, I would just like to clarify that I am not entirely emotionless. It is something I'm known for, as far as my family, peer groups and psychiatrist are concerned but very few of them realize that I do experience joy, love and sadness just like everyone else. I really treasure those rare moments in life of pure bliss such as my sister calling to check up on me during the storm, having a juicy steak, playing with my cat and of course having a nice lucid dream (well lucids come by pretty easily but epic ones are epic).

I'm gradually learning to identify and express what I feel more. It helps to have these people on DV listen to our problems. Honestly, I've learned so much from everyone here and since April 2011 when I joined DV till now has really been an eye-opener for me. It's an interesting medium of expression because it doesn't matter that I don't know any of you personally, I am able to freely talk about my life and I can always count on getting some insightful and meaningful responses. It really is like having a second family. Family hug?

Isn't it /kind/ of rediculous that there's still no flipnote on the 3DS? I mean, it's been out for over a year (nearly two) and there's still no flipnote. The was one of the major reasons why I even bought the system in the first place (hate this thing so much). Probably the worst purchase of my life, it literally sits and collects dust.