Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

Whaaat, a break? But I just got back! T-T
But man, that sounds pretty miserable. There's really nothing worse than a nightmarish cold... Try drinking some hot water with honey, lemon, and ginger added! That trusty blend has gotten me through many a sinus infection. As for the headache, I have yet to find a good home remedy for those, other than caffeine. Maybe a nice long rest would be best.

That actually sounds really good.... I may have to give it a shot in the morning. I've already moved into bed so I don't really want to get up lol. Plus, I've already smoked through a lot of my medicine so I'll probably be out before long. I'm guessing that a good sleep would help me more than anything right now.

And yeah, I just need to detach from everything for a little bit and work on myself. I also really need to peel myself away from the monitor for a while and be more active again. It won't be for a long time though, I'm just looking to refresh a bit. I've had some more time away from the computer lately and it's becoming obvious that it would be healthy for me. But I'll be back.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

That actually sounds really good.... I may have to give it a shot in the morning. I've already moved into bed so I don't really want to get up lol. Plus, I've already smoked through a lot of my medicine so I'll probably be out before long. I'm guessing that a good sleep would help me more than anything right now.

And yeah, I just need to detach from everything for a little bit and work on myself. I also really need to peel myself away from the monitor for a while and be more active again. It won't be for a long time though, I'm just looking to refresh a bit. I've had some more time away from the computer lately and it's becoming obvious that it would be healthy for me. But I'll be back.

I wish you the best in all of your future endeavors. We'll all be here (hopefully) waiting when you get back!

Cripes, Snowy! Glad you're still with us in the land of the living!!

Aly, you seem like a free spirit to me- not in the least goth.
Tommo Sorry you felt THAT low. A job is definitely NOT worth feeling suicidal over!!

everyone.

I managed to stay awake yesterday. The first time in at least a week that I was awake longer than 4 hours. I seem to have shaken the worse of the crud.
Myles is still missing in action. I spoke with my mom yesterday and asked her to get me phone numbers to see if he's been arrested or anything. Then she had to go and tell me that Pensacola, FL now has a worse crime rating than NY city. Every day, it seems to her, someone else is getting killed.

My biggest rants are my body. My balance is really screwy. Especially immediately after waking up. I can't tell you how many times I've actually ALMOST fallen down. My room is so crowded, that the furniture always saves me.
The other thing is instant headaches whenever I get cold. It's weird, but I tense up so fiercely that I get an instant tension headache. As soon as I warm up, it goes away

Ugh.. and now my bird is yelling at me. I slept for 10 1/2 hours though, so what do I expect lol

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Tommo Sorry you felt THAT low. A job is definitely NOT worth feeling suicidal over!!

hehe, nah it was because I was tired. Maybe I didn't write that clearly enough.
I mean the job thing compounded on it, but it probably wouldn't have been that bad if I had slept the day before.

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

I wish you the best in all of your future endeavors. We'll all be here (hopefully) waiting when you get back!

Thanks, Snowy. Like I said, I won't be gone forever.

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Sick sneezes are so painful. And my neck is really hurting, I keep needing to just lean it back for a while.... I was supposed to see a friend today too but I don't think that's going to happen. :T And tomorrow's my dad's birthday, so I'm going to have to be active for that. Bleh....

I guess an anti-rant is that I'm almost at 100 lucids since registering on DV. I had another one about a girl last night, so odd. I even remember being really turned on in the dream and then waking up and immediately thinking "eh", and I was perfectly coherent while it was happening. It is useful for insight in the differences between the waking and dreaming mind, though. It makes you think....

7 out of 14 guys at work have been fired. Luckily I've still got a job, but losing so many good coworkers sucks, stupid economy!

If it's all the same to you, Snowy, I'd like the long version! That sounds awful!

Aly: Hope you feel better! My husband swears by a hot tottie, but maybe sticking to water and orange juice is good. Sleep upright too? Helps with drainage.

Zhaylin: I've had some of the balance problems too! The getting up from bed sounds like a blood pressure difference, you know, going from sitting to standing. I also randomly get dizzy, so my doctor recommended some head movement exercises. It was a while ago, maybe vertigo exercises? Anyways, they helped me, I still have to do them sometimes though.

I guess I have three things to say, the first is once again that I'm lonely. And dude, no one sits next to me in class. I have no idea why, I'm very hygienic and try to keep an open and friendly body language. I initiate conversations sometimes. But still not really feeling it :/ I know relationships take time, but... eh. The second is that I'm really interested in research, but it's looking like all the research done at my school is for graduate students. All the same, I'm going to email the professors who have similar interests. Hopefully I can do something. I really have nothing to show for the years that I've been in college, it's embarrassing. How will I get a job?

And the third thing, most like a rant: This government is retarded. It's like a mooch parent, you know? "Hey, I need some money so I can do some stuff for you." "Alright, here's some money." *Gov pisses away money* "Oh hey, I need some more money. Couldn't really do so much with that last bit." "But that was a good chunk of money!" "Do you want to get in trouble? Give me your f**kin money!" and the cycle continues.... I don't even want half the stuff they make or do. People's voices aren't heard because of the electoral college, the people who are there seem to have more of their own interests at heart than the country's, and it's just the same ideas over and over and over. We can't get any new opinions in because we can't get any third parties in. The whole thing stinks, I'd like to start over again. Keep the constitution, just change some stuff.

Edit: I just realized I waited for my lab class for two hours and lab doesn't start this week. I'm glad I can laugh at myself. No harm done except that I'm a little hungry and my butt hurts from sitting on a flat wooden bench for that long.

Originally Posted by Matte87

7 out of 14 guys at work have been fired. Luckily I've still got a job, but losing so many good coworkers sucks, stupid economy!

Oh man, that's rough. I agree, it's terrible to lose good coworkers. You never get used to good friends and collaborators being sent on their way. I'm glad that you've still got your job, though! I hope things pick up for you.

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

I guess I have three things to say, the first is once again that I'm lonely. And dude, no one sits next to me in class.

I remember running into this situation every time I'd take a class in a new department and wasn't lucky enough to already know people. It can be tough to sniff out who you have things in common with in the classroom setting. The ice usually melted once the study groups and projects got rolling. A major advantage you have here is that you are a super cool person. Wish I'd had that going for me!

Cry: One of our dogs managed to badly tear some of her skin and I had to take her to the emergency vet last night. (She made it way worse by chewing on it, but we've got her in an e-collar now.) They're doing some more work on her today. I'm trying to stay Zen about it, but... blargh. Can't manage it.

The most upsetting part of dog ownership (at least of our crazy dogs) is dealing with all of the unnecessary self-inflicted injury.

Anti-Cry: My dad was supposed to be in Algeria this week on business but his visa didn't come through. I can't tell you how grateful I am that he's home and not caught up in any of this recent chaos. <-- Me hugging my old man

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

Aly: Hope you feel better! My husband swears by a hot tottie, but maybe sticking to water and orange juice is good. Sleep upright too? Helps with drainage.

A hot tottie? I don't know what that is. o.o I should get something with vitamin C in it though, I'm going to go grab something right now.... Thanks for the advice.

And how do you sleep upright? >.> That seems like it would be a challenge for me lol.

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So, earlier when I was trying to kill time I was researching the function of different muscarinic acetylcholine receptors in the hippocampus. There was a study suggesting a link between M1/M3 and the increase in endocannabinoid levels and activity. There also seems to be a link between M1 and REM, which would make sense given that endocannabinoids induce and enhance REM there. Based on what all I've read too, I'm wondering if M1 has something to do with imagination, as part of a process related to memory.... Drugs that block M1, like diphenhydramine and scopolamine, completely destroy your ability to think rationally or outside of the current moment, though they're non-specific antimuscarinics as well. However, drugs that activate CB1 like THC dramatically increase imagination, even if they are memory disrupting in their own right. However, this may come from a drop in acetylcholine levels associated with exogenous cannabinoid use that would not apply if the cannabinoid effect was coming downstream from acetylcholine activity. Anyway, I wouldn't be surprised if this receptor is a big reason that REM dreams can be so vivid and intense, especially if they're supplemented with choline or cholinergic drugs like galantamine. The thing about M1 is that levels of it in the hippocampus are known to decrease with age, following the same decrease in memory functions and REM phases. This suggests that it is very important in getting really crisp and lucid dreams. For a while after that I was trying to find some way to upregulate the receptor, but nothing really practical came up (aside from proper diet and exercise). But finally I found something definitely good enough, something that upregulates muscarinic acetylcholine receptors across the board in the hippocampus: zinc. Who knew! There are actually plenty of reports of zinc having a positive effect on dreams, and many of them even say it didn't start right away, which could coincide with an effect via receptor upregulation rather than activation. I always figured that it was because of allosterically enhanced D2 receptor activity, but this is actually a much better concept to work with. (Actually, could they be related? Hmmm....) Anyway, I think I'm going to start taking zinc every day and see what happens.

Rave: My Kinesiology professor and other staff members decided to tackle on the Head Adminstrator for the course to see if he can change the Timed Runs, specifically the One Mile and the 1.5 Mile Timed Run.

The head coordinator decided to make alteration to the time to makes things more bearable for everything, and based on the people I've seen in the class, making a 5:30 or less to get 15 points is impossible! Still have to wait for the results to be e-mailed, but I'm glad it's going to be less difficult. I don't want to tire myself too much in the day where I can't even focus on finishing things after the class is done, especially if I had a timed run on the same day I would have a Calculus I Exam at freaking 7:30PM-9:30 PM.

So yay me *blows party object that I can't remember name of*

I can't wait for the meeting I'll have with the advisor too, and I hope that they'll give me a better plan than last semester that's not just a half-assed attempt. The counselor last time just gave me sheets and expected me to see them as magic pills to deal with anxiety. Although useful for the controlling anxiety part, for other stuff I needed to deal with, not so much, so I hope I'll get as much use out of this Academic Coach I have set up.....since it's part of the tuition, and I might as well rape the system before it's too late.


Rant:

I hate it when my relative starts arguining with me on whether or not I should get groceries by myself or with their help. They keep thinking I'm weak, and that I'll "strain" myself. It's getting so annoying. I can wait outside in the cold for hours waiting on the bus holding 100lbs or more on my shoulders and back. I'm not weak, I've done it all the time when I couldn't get help for 2 weeks, so what's the big surprise now?

I think she honestly just wants to spend more time with me, but I obviously don't have time to spend with you, so why not save myself more time by doing it myself, since I don't need much stuff for groceries anyway? It'll save gasoline money for you, more time for myself, everyone wins!!!!

But nooo, she's hoarding whatever "quality" time she can have with me. I can't understand this person at all. All my other relatives are nice to me, but they aren't THAT concerned or underestimate what I can and can't do.

Why can't she be like those people huh?

In fact, it's her same over-protection mode on me that causes conflicts with my father. He knows she might get like that, but he keeps telling me to at least be considerate to her.

Considerate?

Wait what?

Considerate so you can start getting pissed if something goes wrong this semester or if I get pissed off at her? And then he thinks I'm trying to be a smart-aleck at a recent conversation I had with him last week. I don't know how he implies I'm out to get him, that I'm out to try and be a big shot to him.

I just don't get it at all. I haven't done anything thing to you like that for all my life, and you think that just because of a petty conversation, which we barely have in the first place, is suddenly me being a smart-aleck? I'm not trying to make you look stupid or anything, I'm not trying to give you "bullshit talk," I barely fucking talk to you in the first place!

That implication you just set up is completely invalid, which only proves you're just waiting for me to reach a breaking point so you have another person to fix. God, he's been trying to do that to me for quite some time now, and if I didn't have this thread to vent, shit, I wouldn't be able to balance those impulses to just scream at him.

Why can't he just be glad that his own friends like me in general, that I'm actually the kid who didn't make some worthless chick pregnant and ruin her life, that I didn't do any drugs or alcoho because he couldn't handle the stress, that didn't waste large sums of money. Hell, one of his friend's cousins ended up getting a shittier life because he joined a gang in New York.

The poor kid had mental disabilities, so if he gets exposed to that kind of environment, he's completely screwed for the rest of his life.

Am I that guy who's just about my age in that situation? No I'm not! So stop trying to treat me like I'm any of them, or comparing me with other people...because the qualities of them that you cherry pick to suit to your small and laconic sayings at me are useless.


This guy said "Is Brandon on the computer?" and he starts laughing at the kid asking that???? Are you like bored at me or something?

I guess no one uses computers/laptops these days??....wow, I definitely need to get back to reality!


Oh HA HA HA HA, did you forget that same guy and his brother are basically incompetent? Didn't you forget about that?

"Oh, *So and So's son* got this! You need to prepare yourself for that someday."

Okay cool, there are a lot of things any human being has to be responsible for, BIG SURPRISE!!!!

He's literally grabbing whatever people's sons and daughters on his short list and using that as "credible" evidence of what I need to do. Yes, clearly you're not the one giving me bullshit talk. (that was sarcasm by the way).

Complain:

If my father starts getting on me with this time management and stress control shit, when he completely was condescending towards me BEFORE he started contradicting his statement and shifted to what I WAS ENDORSING in the first fucking place....I'm going to SCREAM.

"You have stress? Everyone has stress..."

Oh right, I'll just take the alcohol and the lame ass friends you have, and see how much you can handle your own stress.


Oh wait, you'll get pissed off if that happens. You have a coping mechanism for stress, and so do other people. Yours may not be as healthy, and it definitely doesn't make you worth telling me "everyone has stress."

No shit sherlock!

If he keeps this up, he just might find out that me attempting to control my anxiety and time-management just might be a good thing for once!

*Gasp*

I wonder when he's going to realize that?

Dumbass.

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

If it's all the same to you, Snowy, I'd like the long version! That sounds awful!

Are you sure? Well, if you insist...

So the whole thing started when one of my buddies got a little bit intoxicated one night (okay let's be honest he was pretty drunk) and ended up in BIG, BIG trouble with some guys who you do NOT want to get in trouble with. I didn't hear about this until awhile later. So after a few days, we were walking down the street at night, just me and him. There was almost no one around; only a few cars every now and then, when I spotted a large van coming down the road towards us at a very high speed. Upon closer inspection I noticed a man in the window aiming what looked like a gun at my friend. I knew there was no time to run, and my brain clicked over to "shit-hitting-fan mode", causing me to leap onto my friend, bringing him to the ground and shielding him from the gunman with the back of my body. about 10 shots were fired, 3 of which hit me. The man underneath me was perfectly fine, save for a bump on the head where he hit the ground.
Here is where I lost consciousness.

I awoke in the emergency ward of the hospital, with a hole in my calf, side, and upper thigh. The doctors had been able to stop the bleeding and stitch me up a little bit. I discovered later that my friend, realizing that I had saved his life, carried my unconscious and profusely bleeding body two and a half miles to the hospital, saving my life as well. I had lost a significant amount of blood, and was feeling pretty dizzy when I finally woke up a few hours later. Luckily, the doctors were able to remove the bullets from me without any significant problems, and told me that I would be able to make a full recovery after some physical therapy. The police showed up after some time, and spoke to my friend about some things. Here is where I learned about the drunken encounter between him and those thugs. (I also called my brother and asked him to go over to my place every now and then to feed my cat.)

Two weeks later I got out of the hospital, able to move around with the help of a cane. Then I got the bill for my treatment. UGGGGHHHHHHHHH. It brings shivers to my spine just thinking about it. Let's just say I was taking a break from electricity for a little while.

I spent the rest of my hiatus doing one of three things:
1. Pretending to do work so I wouldn't get fired (my job requires I be physically fit)
2. Sitting at home petting my cat and drinking the cheap tea
3. Physical therapy

It was a fun time. But it's over now, and I actually made a full recovery! Snowy is all better now, and is ready to get back to lucid dreaming.

Ugh, my internet isn't working ("borrowing" from a neighbour ATM). I'm gonna have to call the cable company tomorrow... Really not looking forwards to that >.<

Also, I just don't feel good. In general. Haven't for a while now. It's getting to me.

@ Snowy: That's intense!! You're an amazing friend though, I'm impressed. Especially since you made a full recovery! Glad to have you back.

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Alright, now I'm mad. My nose is so stuffed up that I can't do the French inhale. I normally do it with basically every hit. This cold is messing with my ritual....

Last week a gas pipe was cut on our truck. We suspected it might have been a case of vandalism but we weren't sure, thought it could have just torn from the cold. And then last night the tires were slashed, all six. The repairs are gonna be fairly expensive, and since this was my Dad's work truck, he missed out on a few days of work.

Pretty sure it was my neighbors. They called the by-law officers about a noise complaint a little while back which was pretty... ridiculous to say the least. It's a 3 tonne truck so it makes some noise once you get it going, but it's only left running for 10 minutes before my dad drives away in the morning (anywhere between 5:00 AM and 7:00 AM) and the 10 minutes it to park it at night (usually around 6:00 PM and 9:00 PM). We realize it's kinda noisy but we need it for work, nothing we can do about it. It'd be one thing if we were just leaving it running for an obscene amount of time, but that isn't the case at all. They're the only house close enough to really be affected by the noise, and I don't think it was just a couple of random teens since it was just the truck that was vandalized.

We have a car parked beside it and another one parked in front of it - sandwiching it in the back of our driveway. Had this been an act of random vandalism, it would have made more sense to just go for the easier targets. But instead, they went for the truck. If I see the neighbors' shiesty son anywhere near the truck tonight, I shall call upon Zeus and ask that he unleash all of Mount Olympus' wrath upon his bitch ass.

You might consider installing a small cam to capture the scene at night. Catch them in the act and you can get damages and criminal charges brought against them.

Think today was the last day at my current high school. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye to everyone. :/

Originally Posted by tommo

Visible muscles are highly overrated. How many MMA guys do you see with six packs? Basically none.
A bit of belly fat is very normal, you have to shed basically all of your body fat for the fat on your stomach to disappear. It's just not worth it.
Abs look cool and that's about it. If you're actually in a fight, it's better to have some fat protection on your gut in case they try to wind you, also gives you some extra weight to throw around.

I don't mind having a little belly fat, I just want to lose some because how I feel its too much, my bodies not proportioned in my eyes, but It might be because I lost alot of weight through anorexia and I hear when you do that, you don't see your body for how it really looks. I'm not anorexic anymore though.

Originally Posted by ZeraCook

I don't mind having a little belly fat, I just want to lose some because how I feel its too much, my bodies not proportioned in my eyes, but It might be because I lost alot of weight through anorexia and I hear when you do that, you don't see your body for how it really looks. I'm not anorexic anymore though.

I was actually thinking about bringing this up earlier when you mentioned it, but decided against it. I was just going to point out that body dysmorphia is one of the disorders linked to the same receptor polymorphisms as OCD, and there's evidence that anorexia is often something that you're predisposed to because of it. That is to say, a large reason people become anorexic could be because they see their body incorrectly, not the other way around. Not that I'm saying that's definitely the case for you, just thought it was worth mentioning. I almost went that route a couple times but was lucky enough to talk to my friends about my feelings first, though I still don't really trust the way I see myself completely.

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That zinc, man.

So I took some last night with dinner. After my parents went to bed I was just sitting out in the living room and felt a little bit depressed. Not really about anything in particular, exactly... just a sadder mood in general. I hadn't felt that way in a while so I figured I was just due for it. But I ended up making a post here (not in this thread obviously) about wanting to become love, I just wanted that feeling to fill me up. This morning I read that zinc is a 5-HT1A antagonist. 5-HT1A is a serotonin receptor that releases large amounts of oxytocin, and it's often implicated in the effects of MDMA and associated with feelings of love. I wasn't depressed, I just wanted my 5-HT1A activity back.

I love the brain, I really do.

On the bright side, I did have a fairly clear and vivid lucid last night. I have them from time to time anyway, but I like to think that the fact that it happened the first night I took zinc is a good sign.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

I was actually thinking about bringing this up earlier when you mentioned it, but decided against it. I was just going to point out that body dysmorphia is one of the disorders linked to the same receptor polymorphisms as OCD, and there's evidence that anorexia is often something that you're predisposed to because of it. That is to say, a large reason people become anorexic could be because they see their body incorrectly, not the other way around. Not that I'm saying that's definitely the case for you, just thought it was worth mentioning. I almost went that route a couple times but was lucky enough to talk to my friends about my feelings first, though I still don't really trust the way I see myself completely.

It makes sense because I did start because I didn't like how I looked, and Idk, honestly I don't really see a change too much, and it trips me out because I see other people who lose like twenty pounds and I'm like whoa! it looks like they lost way more than me, but I don't really take it to heart I mean like I said before I know that to an extent my self-perception is off.... it would suck if I was like those guys from the Matrix movie, you know because how they look in the matrix is how their mind sees them, but then thats basically how I am now right, because I don't see myself how others do. anyways i'm kind of ranting

like I said before I don't really eat like I did when I was anorexic , I'll go into detail because I don't really care if anyone knows, but I was only eating one meal every two to three days and now I eat 3 meals a day like I used to before when I was bigger. My friends tried to talk me out of it, but I talked them into accepting it because I said it would help my self esteem and self image, but IDK if it really did, and I know that it has taken a toll on my body, like I can tell even though I don't have as much fat I also lost muscle from it,, which is another part of the reason I'm working out now on top of losing my belly fat, I am way more sensitive to getting sick and I when I sleep I sleep for really long periods of time, but when I did have anorexia I also was smoking 100 dollars of weed to myself and doing 5 to 15 LowerTab pills a day, and I would go from 3 days up, a week being the longest without sleep....

due to the toll on my body rumours started spreading that I was on Meth, and I still have people talk to me about it and it bums me sometimes, because I've never tried meth, because when I was a kid both my parents were horribly addicted to it to where they neglected me and my younger siblings severely and I had to basically be their parent by ten and I know I'm alot like both my parents and have a really addictive personality.

I swore I made an appointment for today at 2 PM, but apparently it didn't get processed. So now I have an appointment for 11 AM on Tuesday of next week. Damn it, I wanted to get it done TODAY, so I could at least get started on whatever would've been planned for me.


Ugh, I should've known the system was faulty, which messed up the scheduling at least for the point I was trying to apply. *sigh*

Speaking of weight, I need to lose some too, but since I work all day, and shit. I might just wait till the summer. Or at least when the sun is up when I get home. I'm 187 lbs, and I kinda wanna lose 15 to 20 lbs. that be great. But anyway, thats not why I'm posting here.

Fuck. Stupid. People. Holy crap. "Ermergawd! I know nothing about 'puters yet I still blame you!!!" This program was made by a bloody idiot in Ontario, and I STILL haven't gotten a call back because thi-

Ok, JUST got the call back. AFTER I did a system restore as a last ditch effort to get his data back. FUCK. Now I have to wait for that to finish. THEN call the developper back, and wait 4 hours. Hooray!

@snowy Holy crap dude that is crazy, you've got some guts. Are you safe now?
Thanks for the compliment on becoming a dream guide, I'm happy I've become one, finally officially helping the lucid community.

A fire alarm went off today for no reason and the sound was so horrendous and piercing it felt like my heart was going to explode (I swear) it was so horrible.

Anti rant: I'VE PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST So I was very nervous and I've studied for 4 hours or so. But I didn't think I was going to make it. You need atleast 41/50 and guess what my score was.. yep 41/50 (I'm so lucky haha). So I'm officially allowed to drive a car with my mum or dad and after 3 months I can finally do the official exam, so I can drive on my own. I'm afraid of driving a car though. I've got no experience at all and I'm afraid of causing a car accident so yh :/

Well, I've got some things to complain about and some to be happy about, as per usual

Complaints first:
My head is killing me. Allergies have been awful for the past week. Just go away allergies, I hate you. The second: What the hell is up with the people in this town and getting the trash at ungodly hours?! Seriously! At my dorm they picked up the trash at 2-3 in the fucking morning, so I got to be woken up with the nice BEEEP! BEEEP! BEEEP! and I had friggin insomina, so thanks a lot, and here it's at 4 in the fucking morning. I don't have so much trouble with insomnia anymore, but damn, that time means that I've had enough rest to stay awake! So I stay awake! RAGHHHH!!!!! and I was woken up from an awesome dream which I don't remember anymore. (In case you can't tell, having my sleep ruined or interrupted really, really pisses me off.) Eventually I fell asleep again, and the fucking train had to wake me up. Trains, trains, trains. There are so many trains here. Blasting a horn to warn cars, cool. I get it. But blasting and holding it FIVE TIMES for EVERY SINGLE ROAD in a CITY in the middle of the fucking night? NO! GRAH! And then I had to go and have a nightmare. So cool. Great night.

Also, I don't like sick people. Well, not the people, but the sickness. I'm sorry you're sick, but dude, COVER YOUR FREAKING MOUTH. I'm kind of a germaphobe, and having people all around me that look like they have the flu and Johnny over there is hacking his lungs out and I can feel his spittle and mucus hit the back of my neck? Gross. Gross gross gross.

I also don't like people who don't get personal space. I've complained about people not sitting next to me in class, but dude, those rules do NOT apply on the bus. So when the bus is empty, DO NOT SIT RIGHT NEXT TO ME. It's really weird. Get it weird guy? If you're interested (which I would be surprised about, plus I'm married) maybe sit across from me if there is no one else on the bus. Not right next to me.

Now happy things:
It's a possibility that I'll get to work in one of my professor's labs! Sweet, right? She studies sleep and long-term memory. I really hope I get to. I'm excited. Course it's not for sure, but... heh. Also, my husband is awesome. As usual And it's my birthday tomorrow so I'm going to get to see all my family and get lots of presents! Yay! And we found a huge forest/park right next to where we live. It is really pretty, not very used, and there are lots of plants I want to identify. And I saw a woodpecker