Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Jabre

Oh god, how can we stop this?!?!

At least you're asking the right person jk jk

I just feel like raving about the fact that today I'm in a good mood, I woke up from a LD and now I'm about to take a nap and make it two.

I drank coffee too late, now i'm up, can't sleep! 3yr old up at 5am!!! -_- Gonna sleep late again.

Wanted to meet up with Maeni because he would be in the area (1 hour and 20 minutes with the train) for today, so I got early up this morning, got ready, went to the bank to get danish krone(s), went to the railroad station. All fine so far, started to rain and thunder but oh well.. until I saw this. If you don't speak german or danish: It basically says that the guy who sells tickets is sick today, so you have to use the machine/automat, and of course the machine doesn't take cash so okay I thought I will just wait till the train comes, I could buy a ticket from the ticket inspector, I at least thought they would have someone on board of the train who would sell tickets because of the situation, but nope .. And it was the only day Maeni would be in the area D: So yea, my first rant here, normally I wouldn't post stuff in this topic, but today just felt like a "NOPE not gonna happen" from the universe, it just doesn't want that I meet Maeni


(If you wonder about what I censored; I censored some stuff that could give away were I live, and a telephone number from the customer service)

I have to go to the hospital to see a urologist today! I'm not looking forward to it!!!!

Does it really take two hours to trim the grass in front of the apartment? And does it really need to be done so early? Really? And lucky me, I had pretty bad insomnia last night. So thanks for waking me up
:irritated:

Ok, so I'm entertaining that shit. Even though I have zero chance (this is the other girl now lol, the ridiculously beautiful one). Why do I do this to myself????

I guess at least I won't get too wound up this time, since I know there is no chance of anything happening.


Oh, also the fucking birds are tweeting at ridiculous hours of the morning outside my window. Like 12:30, 1:00 AM, 4:30 AM etc.
DON'T YOU KNOW IT'S NIGHT!? Stop confusing me!

I'm so sick. There was absolutely no reason I needed to get drunk last night, but I just kept drinking, so fast, even when I knew I'd reached my limit. I've promised myself that I'm never going to do that again, drink so much I get sick like this. I just want this to be over, nausea, the worst fucking feeling in the world. I took an advil and I feel weird from it but I'm still sick. I was so drunk I posted barely coherent rambling in the drunk thread and had no memory of it. I had to read it like I was reading someone else's post. So I actually blacked out or just forgot. I don't remember going on DV last night or going to bed or anything, just annoying, complete lack of control. Come on fucking advil, just work.... I've been eating vegetables and w/e.... nothing works fast enough though. Sick of being nausiated. Really don't want to puke again after that advil and eating stuff that will help me. GOD DAMNIT JUST END THIS. Suddenly no other problems seem to matter at all. At least normally while dealing with those problems I'm not sick, I'm healthy and can think clearly but I always take it for granted. And I know I will again when this goes away eventually.

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Well I'm better now. I don't wanna say why on here but I just spent like half an hour lying on the floor with my kitty, pondering what it's like to be a cat. To haz dose little whiskerz all ovr ur face, and dat fir on ur skin, and such a cute li'll chin. >^.^<

Then I felt like an idiot cause my brother was actually home when I thought he wasn't so I think he heard me talking to the cat.

So i went to shop...bought something for ex-hubby cuz he asked for it...basically it will be like this until he leaves.
SO...i bought myself stuff but i won't show it to him >_> because it's very pretty and nice stuff like a cheap watch that looks pricey (all rose gold colored), some eye shadow in a mini compact, and lip gloss costing 4 dollars (in my book it is pricey for lip gloss!) but i love the nude-ish pink color so i couldn't help myself! AND it was buy 1 get 2nd half off...and eye shadow was included.
I will post pics here about that lip gloss and stuff i bought...this thread needs some OMph! We should share what we buy as in stuff! And brag about it

The why is coz u smoked the reefer.

Rant: I just figured this shit out from a dream last night. It was a very poetic and beautiful dream, and really really calm, compared to almost all of my other dreams.
I gotta say, as much as I hate my ex-friend from high school, she's really helped me figure some shit out, in a lot of dreams. Really strange.

I think it's utterly ridiculous that almost every dream I have centers around me being forced to do something. I know what it stems from and there is no cure for it. I am here, and this is all. Dreams will be the only release for this suppressed emotion.

...also, I have never felt such a fantastically stupid combination of joy and exasperation, for just as soon as I settle into another round of grey dream mush, my subconscious reintroduces Liam, and with him comes aching color.
Why can't I just learn to live without?

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

Does it really take two hours to trim the grass in front of the apartment? And does it really need to be done so early? Really? And lucky me, I had pretty bad insomnia last night. So thanks for waking me up
:irritated:

I was going to say something funny...then it sounded really violent. Sorry the bastards woke you up >.> there. Now it isn't violent...or funny.

Amureha: Still made me laugh though And believe me, I was thinking pretty violent thoughts myself. Nothing gets me riled quite as quick as screwing with my sleep.

Well, we bought a car. Glad that's done with. Got it for about $600 below Edmunds fair price, so go us. Unfortunately I was expecting to get home about three hours ago and have two homework assignments and a quiz to do before bed. And there's a test tomorrow.

Edit: Just something else I wanted to gripe about... when we were introducing ourselves the sales guy said to my husband "Oh, so you're here to buy a car for your daughter?" and my handshake just kinda went kaplooie and he said "No...this is my wife..."

I know I look young for my age, but jeez. We're only four years apart. And he does not look that old. Somewhat insulting. The sales guy apologized a lot, but... eh. Wow.

Also one of my pet peeves is making a transaction but the guy looking at my husband more than me, even when the purchase is entirely my own money. But my husband, awesome guy that he is, deferred to me on purpose for a lot of things until the sales guy looked at us both about the same. Yeah. That massively gets on my nerves, particularly when I'm actually getting in on the conversation.

My interests are so unique, sometimes I feel like nobody else I know cares about what I'm interested in. I could understand why, but I do feel alone at times. Like right now. Whatever.

Originally Posted by NewArtemis

Also one of my pet peeves is making a transaction but the guy looking at my husband more than me, even when the purchase is entirely my own money. But my husband, awesome guy that he is, deferred to me on purpose for a lot of things until the sales guy looked at us both about the same. Yeah. That massively gets on my nerves, particularly when I'm actually getting in on the conversation.

You should have turned into a werewolf. Then he wouldn't have looked at your husband at all.

Originally Posted by Amurehna

You should have turned into a werewolf. Then he wouldn't have looked at your husband at all.

Damn straight.

Find Your Red Blood - Alex Jones Rant ReMix - YouTube
Try and watch this without laughing XD

Crazy how much one day can change your mood. Not even a full day.... FML.

Rave!!
I know no one cares...but...this is the stuff i bought...the lip gloss is awesome!!!!
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Originally Posted by tommo

Crazy how much one day can change your mood. Not even a full day.... FML.

I know how you feel, i experienced that a little bit today. A person i know got mad and then in turn got me sort of angry. It was actually a pretty good day until that. Thankfully though, after about 40 minutes of laying on my driveway at night, i took my mind off it and moved on.

I had another dream which turned my mood around somewhat, again. It also changed the meaning of last night's dream.

Great, our by-elections for my city....Conservatives won...that makes it sooo much better (sarcastic remark)....we do great being Liberals....but now idc, all is same crap ...just different toilet. Won't help our city at all.
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Nope, fuck it that's it. Unless she does like me and has to talk with her friends at work about it, obviously without me, then we're done. Friendship was a goddamn sham.
She literally walked past me and about 30 seconds later went and got everyone else to go on break. By the time they left, I was in a different part of the store and once again the ridiculously pretty girl gave a look as they were leaving. Still not sure what that look means. I'm guessing empathy, some sort of sympathy at least. But not entirely sure.

Originally Posted by tommo

Nope, fuck it that's it. Unless she does like me and has to talk with her friends at work about it, obviously without me, then we're done. Friendship was a goddamn sham.
She literally walked past me and about 30 seconds later went and got everyone else to go on break. By the time they left, I was in a different part of the store and once again the ridiculously pretty girl gave a look as they were leaving. Still not sure what that look means. I'm guessing empathy, some sort of sympathy at least. But not entirely sure.

Tommo, I think you're misunderstanding how women easily make their own groups without many guys knowing what they'll be talking about. Just because she didn't have you with their group doesn't mean they don't care about you. Maybe there's a possibility that they dont, but you don't know that.

Don't you find it pretty coincidental that she would gather all the females except you? Even though there were probably a few males here and there, they probably weren't as much of a threat to her telling any secrets she probably discusses.
Especially with how she popped the question where other people felt that you two were like a couple, don't you find it a bit questionable she would want to see your rection when asking you that question? Of course, I'm no expert on this, but what you're going through is what happened to me a lot when I hanged around with a lot of females.

They tend to nudge you certain questions and give you hypothetical scenarios so they can see your reaction before they attempt to make a move on you. Simple example, though a bit disheartening for me, was when a girl on April Fools Day said she had a crush on me. She wanted to see my reaction, and then just took full advantage of that day to make me angry.

Before she popped the question, she was talking with her other friend who was basically giving her own review on how she viewed me. Then after that, it became obvious she liked me, especially with how she suddenly had a massive interest of sniffing my clothing and telling me how good I smell.

You were actually off to a good start analyzing and trying to connect the dots, but you were applying it to the wrong people (most particularly the manager). Maybe you should just focus more on the girl who you think may like you (but obviously is trying to play hard to get like any human being would so they don't look desperate).

Anyway. Yeah, unless she says something which makes what she's done alright, I'm done.
I was thinking while the power was out and think she may actually like me. She's so goddamn on and off though, it's just ridiculous, she doesn't seem nervous at all in general. So it didn't make sense that she would be nervous around me if she liked me, but I think it's possible she does. Coz it doesn't make sense that we'd talk for a whole day on fb and then basically half a day all up the next couple of days. And then she'd be like she doesn't even like me IRL.

The reason why they're so sporadic and clinging all over you on Facebook is because Facebook chat alleviates the burden they have of asking you face-to-face questions. They can focus more on the concepts they have in mind for you rather than being infatuated by you and not knowing what to say.

I've had it happen to me countless of times:

One scenario was this chick who was the leader of a volleyball team. I had her in my Physics class for a certain period in High School, and back then, I used to be curious on other people that seemed approachable, but just in a friendly manner. The moment I said "Hi" to her, it already ended up with her talking to me more.

The best part is, she and I both were pretty good at drawing, so we would exchange things about art as filler to get to know each other more. Even when I gave her one negative side about myself, she still liked me and always asked,

"Hey, how can I make this line straight when gridding for a drawing?"
"Hey, how do you normally start out drawing?"

And all sorts of things, if you're catching my drift here Tommo. She would always tell me that I shouldn't feel shy to say "Hi" to her every now and then, and what's even more hilarious is that she sat next to another volleyball chick that was also eyeing on me as well. So basically, the girl I talked to on Facebook was the conduit for information so the other girl knows who I am.

But whenever I meet that girl face-to-face (the one who would draw as well), she always fucking teases me by just pretending I'm not there while using her peripheral vision to see whether or not I'll communicate with her. Especially when she sat right in front of me with her back faced to me. Whenever she comes in, she would give me the "eye" women generally give to guys to show they have you on hawk-mode.

The same for a girl from California, she was a cousin of a girl I drew, and while the girl I drew had no interest in me, the cousin took full advantage in wanting to get to know me better. She was the type of girl that would talk to her cousins all the time, and she was actually a decent and likable girl, but the thing is, it was obvious she liked me.

Then another girl that wanted to bake some cookies and hang out with me because I drew her too. I'm pretty sure that any girl that wants to make cookies, to actually go from dough to cookies obviously likes you in some way. Maybe not sexual, but just curious with the potential for it being sexual. Especially when she's the type of girl that doesn't really do things for others other than feeding off on how they like her being cheerful, happy, and seemingly positive about life.

Women are much clever than us, but when you start picking up their habits, it's even easier to make more accurate presumptions. The only thing you have to do now is just keep adding on and putting two and two together, and just be aware of what she's doing both on and off Facebook. And if you and her and the group has all that time to go through this High School model of love and drama, then it's obvious the job is fairly simple to them and you, and they're just doing this to make their lives a little less boring.

The point I'm trying to get at here Tommo is that Facebook chat is the easiest form of people being more confident about themselves with others, because the face-to-face discussion isn't there, and they focus more on things they have in mind to get to know you better. So as you're sitting there being puzzled on what to do (and using the classic "I'll-just-wait-for-a-miracle-to-happen"), the reason why she looks like she's a shitty mess altogether with being apathetic towards you and being a double agent while talking so much to you on facebook is simply because Facebook chat destroys the burden she would have to hold if she were to communicate with you like that face-to-face with other people watching you two.

She's able to shift between playing hard to get to you, but she knows deep down that the moment work is over for the both of you, when you two go on Facebook chat, you're going through verbal sex with each other. She's just extracting whatever information she can about you, while purposefully making you feel awkward when you meet her face-to-face, because you're thinking "She should know who I am by now, so shouldn't it make it easier for me to communicate with her?"

She's on and off for a reason, and it's not only girls that do this too, guys do it a lot as well. Except this time, the guys are like "omg bby marry me I love you 4 lyfe gurl" when they're chatting on fb, but when they're with their male friends, they're like,

"Yeah bro...she's totally digging me man, I got her right where I want her. I'm gonna tap dat shit tonight broski!"


Of course, this isn't me over-analyzing this, since I can come up with at least 10 scenarios on how she's shifting roles on and off to you, especially since when she wanted to see your reaction when she asked about how other people saw you two as boyfriend/girlfriend.

Of course, I'm not trying to make you more paranoid or anything, but just telling you that. Girls on Facebook to me are seriously easier to talk to, which is why I quit using Facebook other than to post my drawings months ago. It's just a petty game of cat-and-mouse and who will come out with a leading statement of who likes who and such.

I think I will message the ridiculously pretty girl on fb and see if she will tell me anything about why they don't ask me to go on breaks.
I dunno, maybe I won't. I really don't know.

Do not fucking do that, I am telling you right now, you're just going to stultify yourself that way, because then they'll think,

"OH SHIT, He's actually concerned about what we're doing!" BINGO, they got you right where they want you. (But here's the secret, they'll just act shocked and bothered with, "Huuuuuh, what you are talking about?!?!?!?")

They'll scurry like little hamsters and start giving out their blueprints of what to do next. Alpha-9-Delta, we have a concerned male on board. 67' 69'' with double platoons STAT.

And if you were to do that on her facebook wall, you don't know the underground communication or private facebook groups they probably have (just kidding with the private group thing, but you never know!)
And maybe the pretty girl herself actually has her own facebook fodder friend army where if she talks about how men are in her perspective, they suddenly like her status and treat her like a goddess I bet huh? Pretty girls have an easier time to collect fodder friends while also eyeing on people they probably see as easy to relate to because they know their beauty is an easy way for any guy on whatever attractive spectrum to talk to them.

They're calculated and ditzy at the same time, but when you're more calculated than them, they're just making things easier for you.

GODDAMMIT! I go from one fucking absolute to another to being completely indecisive to maybe this or maybe that.
Fuck this shit.... Worst part of evolution without a doubt.

Nah bro, just Facebook and real life drama where the highlight of their life is seeing who gets the person's dick faster (metaphorically speaking of course).



- Linkzelda

PhD in Facebook Linguistics and Strategical Communication

Originally Posted by tommo

Nope, fuck it that's it. Unless she does like me and has to talk with her friends at work about it, obviously without me, then we're done. Friendship was a goddamn sham.
She literally walked past me and about 30 seconds later went and got everyone else to go on break. By the time they left, I was in a different part of the store and once again the ridiculously pretty girl gave a look as they were leaving. Still not sure what that look means. I'm guessing empathy, some sort of sympathy at least. But not entirely sure.

All I know is I'm done. Unless she says something that drastically makes i....

Okay.... the power just went out in as far as I can tell the entire town. I think someone hit a pole. But now it's back on, may have been precautionary and they didn't actually knock it over. Crazy how fast these people work.

Thanks for DV auto-save feature.

Anyway. Yeah, unless she says something which makes what she's done alright, I'm done.
I was thinking while the power was out and think she may actually like me. She's so goddamn on and off though, it's just ridiculous, she doesn't seem nervous at all in general. So it didn't make sense that she would be nervous around me if she liked me, but I think it's possible she does. Coz it doesn't make sense that we'd talk for a whole day on fb and then basically half a day all up the next couple of days. And then she'd be like she doesn't even like me IRL.

I think I will message the ridiculously pretty girl on fb and see if she will tell me anything about why they don't ask me to go on breaks.
I dunno, maybe I won't. I really don't know.

GODDAMMIT! I go from one fucking absolute to another to being completely indecisive to maybe this or maybe that.
Fuck this shit.... Worst part of evolution without a doubt.

Man I think you should chill a bit. You seem to be letting your emotion pull you along. I've heard you mention a few times that you don't have much friends who have similar opinions or behavior to you, and that lack and your search can cause some very unrealistic thought (I went through a semi-friendless stage for two years or so in highschool as well). How about we look at the situation logically.
I don't know much of your story because it's quite hard to follow but I'll start anyway.

The girl who you talked to on facebook is likely not fully realizing the implications of her actions. If she does like you, she might not want people to know, I've seen it so many times, both to me and other people. When you are directly talking to people, they often open up and present themselves as their image of an ideal human. They can tell you about a lot of things on a very personal level. This alludes most people to think that is their way of acting around other in real life.

In almost every single case this is not reality. People act extremely different around others. The need to fit in is probably the single largest cause of moral paralysis. Despite her feelings for you, she still fears the consequences of having a relationship. Just as you over-exaggerated her actions, she probably over-exaggerated the possible result of taking things further with you.

It might not be the case, but I think you should definitely include the possibility that her ignoring you is not being done to hurt you but in fear of being singled by others.

For all I might now it could be the same with the other girl.

As well as this, your action might also deter the two girls from making a move. One of them might be expecting you to presume you can go with them. Some girls like to ask, others like to expect.

The only way you can know is by asking directly. Speculation will drive you crazy. Be forthcoming, chat for a while and ask straight out "is there a chance for us to be more than friends?" or something similar.
No matter what happens nothing will be more agonizing than waiting for it to happen. If you are too afraid to ask, then you shouldn't pass judgement on the girls because they probably are too.
Usually these things don't resolve themselves for the better.

(Link sniped me Great stuff their link, I agree with all of it)