I think I've almost posted in this thread as much today as I have the entire time...before today. That sounded horrible. I suppose anyone can find any damn thing to be upset about, I just want to get it out. |
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“Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a friend.”
I think I've almost posted in this thread as much today as I have the entire time...before today. That sounded horrible. I suppose anyone can find any damn thing to be upset about, I just want to get it out. |
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Last edited by NewArtemis; 01-05-2013 at 01:28 AM.
“Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a friend.”
I swear my father is being a fucking retard, he doesn't know that I spend money on food because I made it on my own. So now it's suddenly a big deal, and even if I tell him that, he's going to say "That doesn't justify anything." |
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Well I understand the whole overthinking things aspect, but that's why I described my reasons for thinking it. I've already gone through that phase of thinking one or two DSM traits links me to anything, I've long since moved past that. I'm much more conservative about my judgment these days, which just makes me even more sure of something when I can continuously come back to it and still feel certain of it. I don't really let myself begin to think I have something anymore unless I have practically every listed symptom that I can and have read several personal and clinical reports and find a strong relation to all of them. I do pay attention to the differences because I've gone through stages like thinking I have psychopathy and schizophrenia as well. (And I agree, they're definitely diametrically opposed.) |
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I'm tired of stupidity. Not at anyone in particular, although there are plenty of people out there that fall under the category. I get so tired hearing bullshit on tv, and people then spewing up that bullshit to me. Then when I try to explain how they're full of shit they put up a wall. I lose more and more faith in humanity every day. Like seriously, next time you watch a commercial, look how fucking stupid everything is in it. Don't look at it as a whole, and pick it apart. It's a series of generally retarded themes coming together to deceive and lower the intelligence of the person watching. It's just ridiculous. |
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Peter piper picked your pecker.... wait that's not right.
I can't find the user map on the forums... Was it removed? |
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Awesome! I did it again. Congratufuckinglations to me. It happened. Once again I didn't think about what I do and now they caught me. Usually, they'd dismiss what I've done, but they might consider what I've done last year which is even worse (in there eyes, especially) and then I'm fucked up. To the max. Then I can quit the most favorite thing I'm doing and everything I built up will crumble. And then the only rope that holds me above the surface gets cut and I will fall. Sure, there's a chance that they indeed dismiss it, that would be awesome. But because I'm so pessimistic I just can't believe that. But I should believe that. Unfortunately it's easier to say 'I knew it!' afterwards than believing in the best outcome and get pushed back to reality. |
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"I'm not here. This isn't happening."
Ok so this is my last chance to have a lucid dream this holiday before it's over. I really want a long, vivid and amazing lucid dream. I've got 4 different alarms to wake me up during the night/morning, so I'll be wilding for 4 times this night. And hopefully I'll have a lucid dream, if not I'm going to cry. asdfghjkl |
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DILD: 9 | MILD: - | DEILD: - | WILD: 2OBE: 3 | AP: -
I can see you sleep through your bedroom window. You're killing yourself with lucid dreaming.
It seems like everyone I talk to have had some great downfall and all of 2013 has been shit to them. Meanwhile I've been feeling fantastic. |
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I really hate when chat doesn't work. |
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I hate family dinners. I work 9-10 hours, and I'm happy to come home and cook dinner because all day at work I fantasize about making something wonderful (today was chicken fajitas and queso flameado omg). Anyway, I'm cooking for 2 hours, trying to get it right: marinating the chicken, toasting the tortillas, shredding the Oaxaca cheese by hand. I even made my own chorizo sausage. Then as soon as everybody sits down to eat, they're all fighting and yelling and bickering, and forcing some to eat what they don't want, and fighting over the CHAIRS christ. |
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I got a synthesizer for Christmas, but it's actually a MIDI keyboard and software synthesizer. I have to register it to be able to use it. I tried registering it and it said the serial number was invalid. I looked at their forum and apparently it's a common problem with this specific keyboard, but they aren't doing anything to try to fix it. I emailed them and it took 4 or 5 days before they even replied, and that only said that they will try to help as soon as possible. I finally got a reply 3 days ago and they told me to take a picture of the serial number so they can give me a new one and they still haven't done anything since then. Now it's too late to return it so if they don't help me I'm stuck with this useless metal box. If anyone reading this wants a synthesizer, don't buy anything from Arturia. I wish I bought a MicroKorg instead. |
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Because my life is going so smoothly now and OCD has nothing to worry about, it starts wondering what y gender is. I'm actually checking my gender every other minute... |
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Last edited by Carrot; 01-05-2013 at 07:34 PM.
You can edit your subscriptions through the control panel, check next to the threads you don't want email from, selected threads arrow, through my control panel only radio button. I don't get any mail from DV unless someone comments on my DJ, and that isn't happening xD |
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“Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a friend.”
So according to my dad, he should force members of the family to watch movies (on DVD) because it is "family participation." I really am concerned by the idea that staring at a glowing rectangle with absolutely no interaction is a family gathering. I understand that my brother shouldn't be locked in his room all day, but my father is seriously overestimating the value of watching a film. And forcing him to do it just makes everything worse for everyone. But what do I know about parenting or supporting a family? that's my anti-rant... |
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"You Can't, You Won't And You Don't Stop"Lucid Goals: [Ask a DC: "Am I dreaming?"] [Ask a DC: "What are you?"]
Mama sets them straight. |
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I didn't have a lucid dream last night. I overslept all my alarms omg. |
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DILD: 9 | MILD: - | DEILD: - | WILD: 2OBE: 3 | AP: -
I can see you sleep through your bedroom window. You're killing yourself with lucid dreaming.
The problem is getting an e-mail for every single reply. Subscriptions are awesome, but you only want it for the first reply after you've last checked the thread. |
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It's oxytocin. It has to be. Oxytocin levels are high during REM. 5-HT2A receptors have oxytocinergic effects, in addition to 5-HT1A, 5-HT2C, D2, and alpha1-adrenergic receptors. It's likely that 5-HT2B indirectly stimulates oxytocin secretion as well through increasing serotonin levels. It all makes sense if you think about it. The more similar a chemical is to serotonin, the more oxytocin it's probably going to release. Tryptamines generally have 5-HT1A activity, while the phenethylamines often don't. I think that's why tryptamine psychedelics are more likely to feel real and spiritual than phenethylamines. The exception would be for those phenethylamines that clearly have D2 activity, such as mescaline and 2C-E. LSD actually binds to 5-HT1A and D2 in addition to its psychedelic effects, and DMT binds to 5-HT1A, 5-HT2B, and alpha1, and it's more similar in structure to serotonin than LSD is. They're also commonly touted as the most realistic and mind-expanding psychedelics. Notably, however, bufotenine is often said to be more realistic and complex than DMT by DMT vets, and it's almost identical in structure to serotonin. Oxytocin is the love hormone, but I mean that in a way more than just creating feelings of love for someone. It creates those feelings of acceptance and high emotional states, and most importantly to what I've been thinking about now, it's involved in facial recognition. DMT entities are often regarded as real beings.... Could it be because the large release of oxytocin puts life in their eyes? Any hallucinogen can create perceptions of human(oid)s, but tipping the scales like this could be what makes DMT entities stand out from those on other drugs. Another thing to consider is serotonin releasing agents, like MDMA. They're known to create a large amount of their effects from a strong increase in oxytocin levels, and drugs that are simultaneously 5-HT2A agonists and serotonin releasing agents are often recognized for creating convincing hallucinations. These would include AMT, MDA, 6-APB, and MMDA, among others. MDMA is also known to cause hallucinations to become more structured and delirious when combined with strong 5-HT2A agonists. MMDA is the most significant to me, though, as it's actually a selective serotonin releasing agent and it's known to produce intensely realistic visuals. MMDA is a very rare drug that very few people have ever sampled recreationally (at least, people who talked about it afterward), it was illegal before the research chemical scene really came into existence and a lot of people don't know about it, so reports are scarce. However, one of my favorite trip reports is of MMDA and the person who took it, who is quite experienced with many hallucinogens both common and rare, claimed that the only thing that he could compare to the reality of it is DMT. He specifically stated that the entities he perceived on it seemed really alive. |
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Explain? What has to be oxytocin? |
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Rant: Huge, neurotic dog #1 is feeling better but she has apparently passed her violent hyper-diarrhea on to our huge, neurotic dog #2. I got to find out about this during my WBTB. I'll spare you the details, but suffice to say that I need to get by the store soon and pick up more Lysol wipes, paper towels, carpet cleaner, and dog shampoo. |
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