Rave: My Kinesiology professor and other staff members decided to tackle on the Head Adminstrator for the course to see if he can change the Timed Runs, specifically the One Mile and the 1.5 Mile Timed Run.
The head coordinator decided to make alteration to the time to makes things more bearable for everything, and based on the people I've seen in the class, making a 5:30 or less to get 15 points is impossible! Still have to wait for the results to be e-mailed, but I'm glad it's going to be less difficult. I don't want to tire myself too much in the day where I can't even focus on finishing things after the class is done, especially if I had a timed run on the same day I would have a Calculus I Exam at freaking 7:30PM-9:30 PM.
So yay me *blows party object that I can't remember name of*
I can't wait for the meeting I'll have with the advisor too, and I hope that they'll give me a better plan than last semester that's not just a half-assed attempt. The counselor last time just gave me sheets and expected me to see them as magic pills to deal with anxiety. Although useful for the controlling anxiety part, for other stuff I needed to deal with, not so much, so I hope I'll get as much use out of this Academic Coach I have set up.....since it's part of the tuition, and I might as well rape the system before it's too late.
Rant:
I hate it when my relative starts arguining with me on whether or not I should get groceries by myself or with their help. They keep thinking I'm weak, and that I'll "strain" myself. It's getting so annoying. I can wait outside in the cold for hours waiting on the bus holding 100lbs or more on my shoulders and back. I'm not weak, I've done it all the time when I couldn't get help for 2 weeks, so what's the big surprise now?
I think she honestly just wants to spend more time with me, but I obviously don't have time to spend with you, so why not save myself more time by doing it myself, since I don't need much stuff for groceries anyway? It'll save gasoline money for you, more time for myself, everyone wins!!!!
But nooo, she's hoarding whatever "quality" time she can have with me. I can't understand this person at all. All my other relatives are nice to me, but they aren't THAT concerned or underestimate what I can and can't do.
Why can't she be like those people huh?
In fact, it's her same over-protection mode on me that causes conflicts with my father. He knows she might get like that, but he keeps telling me to at least be considerate to her.
Considerate?
Wait what?
Considerate so you can start getting pissed if something goes wrong this semester or if I get pissed off at her? And then he thinks I'm trying to be a smart-aleck at a recent conversation I had with him last week. I don't know how he implies I'm out to get him, that I'm out to try and be a big shot to him.
I just don't get it at all. I haven't done anything thing to you like that for all my life, and you think that just because of a petty conversation, which we barely have in the first place, is suddenly me being a smart-aleck? I'm not trying to make you look stupid or anything, I'm not trying to give you "bullshit talk," I barely fucking talk to you in the first place!
That implication you just set up is completely invalid, which only proves you're just waiting for me to reach a breaking point so you have another person to fix. God, he's been trying to do that to me for quite some time now, and if I didn't have this thread to vent, shit, I wouldn't be able to balance those impulses to just scream at him.
Why can't he just be glad that his own friends like me in general, that I'm actually the kid who didn't make some worthless chick pregnant and ruin her life, that I didn't do any drugs or alcoho because he couldn't handle the stress, that didn't waste large sums of money. Hell, one of his friend's cousins ended up getting a shittier life because he joined a gang in New York.
The poor kid had mental disabilities, so if he gets exposed to that kind of environment, he's completely screwed for the rest of his life.
Am I that guy who's just about my age in that situation? No I'm not! So stop trying to treat me like I'm any of them, or comparing me with other people...because the qualities of them that you cherry pick to suit to your small and laconic sayings at me are useless.
This guy said "Is Brandon on the computer?" and he starts laughing at the kid asking that???? Are you like bored at me or something?
I guess no one uses computers/laptops these days??....wow, I definitely need to get back to reality!
Oh HA HA HA HA, did you forget that same guy and his brother are basically incompetent? Didn't you forget about that?
"Oh, *So and So's son* got this! You need to prepare yourself for that someday."
Okay cool, there are a lot of things any human being has to be responsible for, BIG SURPRISE!!!!
He's literally grabbing whatever people's sons and daughters on his short list and using that as "credible" evidence of what I need to do. Yes, clearly you're not the one giving me bullshit talk. (that was sarcasm by the way).
Complain:
If my father starts getting on me with this time management and stress control shit, when he completely was condescending towards me BEFORE he started contradicting his statement and shifted to what I WAS ENDORSING in the first fucking place....I'm going to SCREAM.
"You have stress? Everyone has stress..."
Oh right, I'll just take the alcohol and the lame ass friends you have, and see how much you can handle your own stress.
Oh wait, you'll get pissed off if that happens. You have a coping mechanism for stress, and so do other people. Yours may not be as healthy, and it definitely doesn't make you worth telling me "everyone has stress."
No shit sherlock!
If he keeps this up, he just might find out that me attempting to control my anxiety and time-management just might be a good thing for once!
*Gasp*
I wonder when he's going to realize that?
Dumbass.
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