Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

I received a very odd and coincident music video on youtube through personal messages, has anyone ever had a video sent to you like it was meant for you? but i mean very personal things that only you and someone else knows and no one else. And the person who sent it is unknown to you and joined youtube just last year and had only a few favs and nothing more....like isn't this obvious? I know this was sent to many other random or maybe not random people, but this felt a bit eerie to me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEtpHERWcGY

Ignorance and Close mindedness pisses me off so bad! Especially when it's Christian superstitious bullshit like this guy. Just search sleep paralysis in youtube and you'll find countless "OMG a demon attacked me" videos. Blahblahblah. Flippin google this shit and learn something. Stupid backwoods mother flipper. I actually thought the same way about my own experience until... 1) I woke up and called it A BAD DREAM. 2) I did some research. It's called science. Open a book for Christ's sake. They say "Oh the Bible says"... Actually no I'm pretty sure sleep paralysis is never mentioned. I just can't take it. I really can't. It's these kinds of people that make the world hate Christians and makes me question why I even go to church.



I mean just look at the guy. Derp derp. What pisses me off even more is if you read the comments (which need approval now) He is totally closed minded to any intelligent comment. Bah. Enough.

First: My mind goes through a constant change of mind throughout the day, about LDs and a whole manner of numerous things. College work, Getting off my ass, sorting current affairs, you name it. If there's something that needs doing or it's something I want to get into the habit of doing e.g. Exercise the impulse will be gone in a few hours. I want to write a DJ but get discouraged and uninterested within a week or so if I'm lucky to get that far...My mind imprisons me permanently and takes every pleasure in screwing up what needs to get done. Plus there's something that's immensely important to me right now that can causes a TONNE of stress which needs to be handled in addition to everything else that I'm currently doing.

Second: The bank takes the piss! about 3-4 weeks ago I successfully submitted for a card and still...NOTHING?! I even e-mailed them and they said they had been working on it, i mean...come on! It's a PIN and a card for 1 person. Taking this long is just bad service. I didn't even get a reply from the last e-mail I sent to them! I want to get a job soon and I don't have a goddamn bank account! Leading on my NIN (National Insurance Number) has 'vanished' and I'm frustrated because I called them on the phone and checked their website; they cannot confirm it through phone. I search for hours on the form I have to fill out AND their website. APPARENTLY they don't have a post address and they've become ninjas that are based online! 2 things I need before I can get a job! Tied with the fact that I can, then cannot be asked to do those things is beyond my skill to carry on and not.

Third and final: College! I'm currently doing a Level 3 Extended Diploma at my college for Games Development and tbh it's really partly annoying. We don't specialize in any area, rather than do a bit of everything. A pure example is that we're currently making a game in the program GameMaker, with no past experience. We're making games with software we haven't been taught to use. Another reason is that I signed up for the course because I wanted to program games, model characters, designs games etc. NOT to know how to navigate the market and find the reasons that companies do what they do, what their infrastructure is or anything like that. YES I know it can be important but I'm afraid that I'm NOT going to be an all-star and work in all departments in a Games Studio...I want to learn how to make games and we're NOT bloody adequately doing that in some of the lessons. It makes it less annoying when we work in 3DS Max because that is engaging and interesting. Plus we know how to use that because we LEARNED HOW TO USE IT. However our knowledge isn't extensive and we only know basic tools and other things we utilize, we learn ourselves. I don't see the point in performing work we're NOT going to need, have NO interest in doing and is POINTLESS!

P.S This smiley is meant in pure frustration, not just a general "Oh noes"

My cat doesn't seem to be getting any better.... He's barely had anything to eat or drink for the last few days, which is obviously not a good sign. His meows have also gotten really weak and frail, almost kitten-like, and they all just sound so miserable. We're taking him in to see the vet tomorrow, and... well, hopes are not high.... But it's not like we didn't see it coming. It's not just the two diseases, either. He's a few days shy of 17 years old, which is pretty old for a cat. So he's actually done pretty well considering, I mean he was still active and everything up until this point, if a little less than before....

I just know it's going to be weird without him. We've had him since I was five years old, and I can't actually remember him not being here. And he's a great cat, too. I always thought he was a bit smarter than the average cat, and had a good personality. You could tell he had a kind heart, we had this other cat for a while that we got when I was in sixth grade who disappeared a few years ago, and it was obvious from the start that he wasn't happy with their being another cat around. She always acted kind of tweaked out and wanted to play, and he just wasn't having it. Not once did he ever seem like he got used to her, but it was still obvious every now and then whenever she was acting weird or distant and ignoring us, you could walk into the bedroom or some room at one point and see that he'd sought her out and curled up next to her.... And even on his own, he's not as fat and lazy as a lot of house cats you see, like we pampered him like crazy but he still took the time to pace back and forth around the perimeter of our house frequently and "protected" it from other cats and animals, and brought us those little dead animals as gifts, and never got too whiny or needy or anything.... Actually he kind of kept to himself a lot, though he wasn't afraid of random people in the slightest, but I remember when I was really young when I would be sick he would come into my room and jump in the bed and just lie there with me all day, which was really out of the ordinary behavior for him.... I've always tried to do the same for him whenever he's feeling under the weather. These last few days I've just been lying on the ground next to him a lot of the time, and most of those times I ended up crying eventually.... It's really easy to see how uncomfortable he is. I know it's just... inevitable... but....

I'm already tearing up again.... I just don't want him to suffer anymore.

Last night I broke my nose, one of my friends lost the tip of his finger and another one went to jail. So over all it was a pretty good saturday.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

My cat doesn't seem to be getting any better.... He's barely had anything to eat or drink for the last few days, which is obviously not a good sign. His meows have also gotten really weak and frail, almost kitten-like, and they all just sound so miserable. We're taking him in to see the vet tomorrow, and... well, hopes are not high.... But it's not like we didn't see it coming. It's not just the two diseases, either. He's a few days shy of 17 years old, which is pretty old for a cat. So he's actually done pretty well considering, I mean he was still active and everything up until this point, if a little less than before....

I just know it's going to be weird without him. We've had him since I was five years old, and I can't actually remember him not being here. And he's a great cat, too. I always thought he was a bit smarter than the average cat, and had a good personality. You could tell he had a kind heart, we had this other cat for a while that we got when I was in sixth grade who disappeared a few years ago, and it was obvious from the start that he wasn't happy with their being another cat around. She always acted kind of tweaked out and wanted to play, and he just wasn't having it. Not once did he ever seem like he got used to her, but it was still obvious every now and then whenever she was acting weird or distant and ignoring us, you could walk into the bedroom or some room at one point and see that he'd sought her out and curled up next to her.... And even on his own, he's not as fat and lazy as a lot of house cats you see, like we pampered him like crazy but he still took the time to pace back and forth around the perimeter of our house frequently and "protected" it from other cats and animals, and brought us those little dead animals as gifts, and never got too whiny or needy or anything.... Actually he kind of kept to himself a lot, though he wasn't afraid of random people in the slightest, but I remember when I was really young when I would be sick he would come into my room and jump in the bed and just lie there with me all day, which was really out of the ordinary behavior for him.... I've always tried to do the same for him whenever he's feeling under the weather. These last few days I've just been lying on the ground next to him a lot of the time, and most of those times I ended up crying eventually.... It's really easy to see how uncomfortable he is. I know it's just... inevitable... but....

I'm already tearing up again.... I just don't want him to suffer anymore.

This actually made me cry.
I just...

So sorry to hear that, Aly. Thanks for sharing some of your stories though
17 is a great life for a cat. And especially one with 2 diseases!!!

OP- what the heck. I don't know whether to hug you or smile or both

No real rants from me. I'm still being a milk hog. Hubby's worried I'm drinking too much milk lol. It doesn't seem possible.
I go through 48-64 ounces of strawberry milk every day. (48 is the norm)
My fatigue has returned and my stomach is still being weird, but I feel great.
I don't really eat anymore though. I guess that should be concerning.
Mr.Monthly is 2 days late. I heard too much Milk (specifically Vitamin A) can cause that problem. But I honestly don't think that's it. I don't drink THAT much milk lol.

Hubby's finally feeling better. He's even going to work today. He's mostly just exhausted and sore now.

Hope everyone's okay

Thanks, Zhay. He did live a pretty good life....

We took him to the vet this morning and they said there wasn't really anything that could be done. It was expected, though.... He was in pretty miserable shape this morning. They explained his "two diseases fighting each other" thing too, which until this point I had just kind of accepted as medical mumbo jumbo. Apparently, it was that his hyperthyroidism was keeping his blood pressure high and forcing tons of water through his kidneys, which had been failing for the past couple years, and that's why he managed to survive so long despite that. However, the numbers they check for now were off the charts, like they were literally too high to measure with what they had, and they said that the numbers don't even start seeming high at all until they've only got like 10% kidney function left, so....

These past few days, he hadn't purred at all. That was odd for him, because he always purrs. He was just a comfortable cat. Even when he seemed like he was sad or lonely or something as he was getting a bit more senile with age, he would start purring like crazy the second you even started getting near him. But these last few days he was so stiff, he was barely able to move without sitting down again and never let himself relax, I honestly wondered if he'd even slept at all. A couple times when I was lying with him I could tell he was trying, I would feel his chest and a faint vibration would start up for a short moment.... When we were at the vet, I was holding him as they gave him the barbiturate overdose. For at least his last few breaths, he started relaxing and looked happy, and he even started purring again....

He really was a great cat, I hope he was happy....

*hugs* Alyzarin

I'm certain he left this world happy in your arms.

Thanks, Melanie. That means a lot to me. I think he did enjoy his life, even if he had to deal with some hardships there at the end. We did the best we could for him....

Yesterday it was super cold at the skate park. Only skated an hour because I just had that "If I fall on my hands it's going to be over" feeling. I really need to buy some gloves.

I thought I was going to have a good Spring Break by myself, but relatives want me to come over. My father even gave me a choice if I wanted to come or not, and I wanted to say no, but it's like he forgot and wants me to pack up for Friday.

So much for actual time for myself where I'm not panicking over college. I don't even talk to anyone at home, I just sit in my computer trying to find more ways to make some decent cash and researching on other stuff like meditation, etc.

Which means I'll have to do self-hypnosis sessions through my head, which will be even more difficult because I've been accustomed to talking it out. Doing it in my mind means I have to conquer the random thoughts that will occur when I get deeper into the state. It seems like a waste of gas money and time just to head home and not really socialize to anyone. I should've just lied and pretended there were classes instead of telling him next week is Spring Break. .____.

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And man, I was really fucking stupid to think I would find a friend who would want to have some goals in their life, but that's impractical within this range of age. Everyone just wants to fuck and party like animals (like literally just that and copping out from reality) without even considering a path in life and sticking to it. And even if there were, they would just have rich racist parents, and I remember someone mentioning how their father's face turned red when he found out his daughter was dating a black guy.

LOL, this Hardcore Conservative University was a horrible mistake, and I keep complaining there's either Extremely skinny girls or extremely fat girls. There's no average looking girl with a decent body portion, and the ones that do are so ugly. .____.


Normal, rational people don't spend all their bloody time partying and trying to fit it, especially if it's going to be done in 4 years. Why do they have the need to do something insane and crazy just so they don't think their life is boring?

It's just some excuse of them not appreciating their life right now, trying to do what everyone does and making some treasure out of it. 2 people died who were probably under the influence of alcohol, and they were Freshmen too, which means they were probably below the drinking age. Football players dying, bomb threats, and all sorts of stupid petty shit that ends up with someone dying because they wanted to fit in, be cool, bang ugly chicks in this university, or whatever idiotic reason. No one considers trying to plan out for financial security now, going with people they'll mostly likely forget.

I'm glad I'm not going to make mistakes with socializing with people like this. Everyone wants to fucking party, no matter how intelligent or ambitious they are, it's so annoying! People are so full of shit, but I guess even I have a breaking point in trying to understand and be civilized with people. They'll never learn for themselves, so why help them in the first place? It's a waste of time doing that when I can just help myself and get myself back together. There will be other people to worry about, and these 3 and a half years is not the time for that.

Busted nose + cold = LAAAAAAAAME

This sounds awful, but I am really bummed after learning a friend is getting a major job that will pay a lot. I've sort of come to terms with the fact my career as a writer will never make me rich, but seeing someone who picked a major that he got into for the money and is younger than me making a lot more than me with his first job, while I had to scratch and claw my way up, hurts my ego. It doesn't help that he used family connections to get it, while I had to do it on my own.

It also depresses me that this bothers me. I should be happy for my friends.

What the hell is this - I don't have any kind of head cold or chest cold symptoms at all, but my sinus passages are swollen right where they enter the throat. It isn't bad when Im awake (vertical, and using cough drops plus hot green tea with honey to soothe it) but I keep waking up constantly unable to breathe, which is fragmenting my sleep into weird little bursts filled with false awakenings and deams of suffocating. No fun!!

Does anybody know what might cause this - what should I take for it? Maybe just sinus medicine?

Originally Posted by Tiresias

This sounds awful, but I am really bummed after learning a friend is getting a major job that will pay a lot. I've sort of come to terms with the fact my career as a writer will never make me rich, but seeing someone who picked a major that he got into for the money and is younger than me making a lot more than me with his first job, while I had to scratch and claw my way up, hurts my ego. It doesn't help that he used family connections to get it, while I had to do it on my own.

It also depresses me that this bothers me. I should be happy for my friends.

For everything you gain, you lose something and for everything you lose, you gain something.

Originally Posted by Darkmatters

What the hell is this - I don't have any kind of head cold or chest cold symptoms at all, but my sinus passages are swollen right where they enter the throat. It isn't bad when Im awake (vertical, and using cough drops plus hot green tea with honey to soothe it) but I keep waking up constantly unable to breathe, which is fragmenting my sleep into weird little bursts filled with false awakenings and deams of suffocating. No fun!!

Does anybody know what might cause this - what should I take for it? Maybe just sinus medicine?

Sounds like a sinus infection or allergies. IE Sinusitis or Rhinitis. Saline spray, long showers, or a neti pot to the dome should help.

Awesome - thanks Former Bossman!!

The app doesn't seem to allow me to quote, but this was to the sleep paralysis video by Xanous.

This was gross. Enhancing a superstition that has been debunked is really evil since people susceptible to that will be struck with a real horror out of a natural experience.

He also attributed a woman's seizure to demons. He also had a big ego that the world seems to revolve around his corruption. Sad.

Sequester is threatening my job. I dont care about right or wrong political arguments but this sucks for people like me. 98 percent of our facility is dependant on defense government contracts. We are already seeing the effects as the competition for business becomes more fierce. We are talking about letting peole go in June. Hopefully it wont be as bad as it sounds.

I'd like to find a new job but that will probably require moving away from my little girls. Im not sure we could handle that.

I totally agree with you tiresias!

Originally Posted by Original Poster

For everything you gain, you lose something and for everything you lose, you gain something.

Every time you lose something, you gain a memory of losing something you used to have.




But wait, if you get it back you don't just forget. So I guess that disproves your saying.

Darkmatters: Word of caution on the nasal spray, if you use it too often then you might build up tolerance and your problem might get worse when you stop using it. Happened to my dad, he wasn't happy.

Rant/Complain:

I might come across as a heartless bitch saying this, but whatever. It's what I think.

So the other day when I was going home there was a guy in a wheelchair trying to get on the bus. It took half an hour to get him on. I have no idea why the heck it took that long, but it did. And you know what? I was cool with that. Mildly annoyed since I was hungry, but overall it wasn't a problem because A) The bus was mostly empty, and B) I didn't have anywhere I needed to be.

But then I get on the bus to go to class and it's running a little late. Fine, no problem. The next stop the bus becomes crowded. Ok, I can deal. The stops after that it just gets worse until no one else can fit on the bus, and people are even deciding to wait for the next one rather than squeeze on. Still, no problem. Then I see the guy in the wheelchair, and inside my head I groan. I'm normally at class by now.

The poor bus driver gets out and tries to work something out with the guy. We sit there for fifteen minutes. Class is going to start in a few minutes. The bus driver asks if anyone is willing to get off the bus for this guy.

What? Doesn't he realize that at the very least six people will need to get of the bus for him to get on, people who are undoubtedly becoming more anxious and irritated about not being where they need to be? Not surprisingly, no one moves.

Dude, it sucks that you're handicapped. It really, really does. However, the world does not stop spinning and other people's lives are not put on hold. We have places to go and things to do, and it is completely unreasonable of you to expect that other people will put their needs on hold to take care of you.

Anyways, how it ended up was that I made it to class right as it started (good thing, because it's a small class and I sit in the front row), and that's only because the building my class was in is pretty much next to the bus stop. Sucks for people who have to walk across campus. Also when we left his stop, two other buses were stacked up behind us. So dude, singlehandedly you threw off 30+ people's schedules who were on my bus, you threw off the entire bus route probably for most (if not all) of the day, and threw off everyone's schedules who had to interact with that route. Congratulations. Because you couldn't accept that you couldn't get on the bus, hundreds of people's schedules were messed up.

Now I'm cool with people helping other people, that's great and more power to everyone. But people have their own interests to take care of, and my main problem is the expectation that other people will put your interests and problems first, and then throwing a little temper tantrum if people decide not to help.

The TL;DR version and the main point I'm getting at here is YOU ARE NOT ENTITLED TO ANYTHING. I can pretty much guarantee that everyone has a reason of why they should be treated special. Young, old, even handicapped, NO ONE OWES YOU ANYTHING.

When I was working at my old job old people would get pissed off at me Sometimes. Why? Because I wasn't catering to their particular interests.
"They did it at the other store!"
"I'm sorry ma'am, that other store was not following company policy."
"Whine, whine, complain, complain, get me your manager."
So I'd get my manager and he would appease them and they would learn that if they just threw a temper tantrum and acted rude enough, they would get what they wanted. I'm not opposed to helping people, and I did bend the rules for people who came a lot, who were having a shitty day, or who were nice to me. Treating me like know-nothing scum of the earth does not make me any more inclined to cater to your calcified crotchetyness.

Appeasement does not work.
No one owes you anything.
People have their own problems to take care of.
Honey catches more flies than vinegar.

Fucking entitlement.

Originally Posted by ♥Mark

Every time you lose something, you gain a memory of losing something you used to have.




But wait, if you get it back you don't just forget. So I guess that disproves your saying.

No it doesn't. What I said was comforting, so it trumps anything that isn't comforting.

I'm too tired and confused to... uh... finish this train of thought...