A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry Lucid #2 Dream,Lucid Dream , non-dream (Comments)
Background: I woke up around 3 and I tried to make some music on my computer. I read just a little bit. I did 2 or 3 reality checks just because. I didn't read Stephan LaBarge's book like I usually do. I was very sad. I tried to go to sleep at first and failed. I read my vows then I tried to go back to sleep. I started listening to some music. As I was listening to the music I imagined myself crushing all my problems. Destroying it from the Earth. I told my self it wasn't good that I am destroying but it was for a noble reason, freedom. I kept doing this. I didn't know that their was some emotional tension because I began to cry while doing the visualization. I went to sleep wanting a lucid dream but accepted the fact that I may not get one and I just wanted to sleep.

Dream fragment 2 from 4:40am-5:22am"": It was pitch dark and I found myself in the hallway of my house. I started hearing these loud vibration sounds. I thought who could be making all those sounds. Fear came in my mind. I then saw my grandma's room light so I thought maybe she is brushing her teeth in her room. I was about to use bathroom but it was too dark to pee, so I tried to turn on the light. It didn't turn on. I thought, "that's odd it took it a while to turn on" then realized it didn't turn on. I became lucid. I then ended up on my bed I tried to stay in dream, but it was pitch black so I gave up. I then awoken but I did WBTB right away. I didn't move my body. I started feeling the vibrations along with some nice sensations. I wasn't too scared of the vibrations this time. I thought to myself I can go back into this dream. I was in my room again. I knew it wasn't my physical body so I tried to wiggle out of this paralysis that I felt in the dream. I tried furiously and failed. I tried to move, nothing. So, I thought to myself I should just try and keep my awareness. I then heard these two guys talking outside my room. I tried listening to what they were saying. I was scared and I found my body on the floor next to my closet. I could move now, so I started to move my hands. The dream started to fade. I woke up in my room and the light was on. I looked at my hands, not reality check. I thought since I could see the room it was not a dream and with that thought I woke up.