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Journal Entry Lucid # unknown Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I been thinking alot about lucid dreaming. I have been doing a R.C. when I see my sister since she is in every dream. I did this for only 1 hour before I went to sleep. I have been listening to PercyLucid's audio religiously.I heard it before I went to bed. I took his advice on not watching videos for an hour before I go to bed. While going to sleep I listened to Lucid dreaming series. While listening to it and telling myself I am already asleep. I relaxed my body and acted like I am asleep. I used PercyLucid Mantra as I tried to visualize snow to get ToTM. I drank water to do WBTB. I woke up after 2nd rem so dream is short. I also went to sleep excited, positive and energized. I told myself I wasn't going to write new LD I had until I updated my 3 month absence of writing on DV, but I was so excited about this dream. I wrote it a day late because I had an exam followed by getting into a minor accident.


Lucid Dream # unkown, day: 12/16/14, time: 8:18-11:23 pm" Sun in the Palm of my Hand.:

It was a bizarre story about a nerd that got teased by people. This girl tells him to do a song about them. He started rapping. I don't remember what the rap was about other than it was cool.Then I see a dream about corrupt cops roaming the streets. They been tailing people around the city causing chaos. They are playing loud rap on their patrol car. They pretended to help a civilian out but instead started to shoot at them. The other cop, not in patrol car maybe in a detective car, was just shooting at another car filled with gangsters. The cops are shooting just like gangsters. One had a shotgun in one hand just shooting at them.

I believed what triggered my lucidity was being in garage with my sister. I was telling her how I would love recreate the fullmetal alchemist scene where the guy named father became god and made sun in hand. She just laughed it off. I became lucid, only remember this part of the dream. I was still thinking about creating the sun. I had a moment of doubt what if it don't work. I told myself to get something to help me out at first. I turn around and like a mistletoe I see a red circle held by strings dangling on the door. I hovered my hand a little below it and I just believed like theflowofmysoul said. And it went from a 2d cut out to a 3d eminatting red/orange/white sun, miniature of course. I was amazed by the outcome. I now wanted to create it without any type of assistance from the dream schema. I threw the mini sun I made and threw it at my dirty garage which I didn't notice until later.


I held out my hand and opened it and out of thin air *boop* the sun, but this time it looked less realistic. The dominate color was red and the fire was just like a ball on fire. I then tried to do a different thing. First a red dry ball, I thought mars? then I created some weird colored ones. And finally I made a small little Earth. I know I should have thought about putting them together and making them revolve but I didn't. I threw them at the garage floor. My sister asked me, "could you make me one?" I said sure, and I tried it was hard to make this time. I told her after I gave it to her to make it herself. I told her to do it for another it is draining, but to do it for oneself is motivation. She asked, "how do you do it?" I told her believe not wish. Then her friends showed up. One girl I had a crush on for a while now.

I tried to impress them. I saw the clutter on the floor of the garage, some pieces of metal scrap. I told them that I could pick up all of them. I start to use TK to pick them up. Some of them were very small and hard to concentrate on. But little by little they start gravitating upwards to my will. I managed to get half of them up their, imagine little bits of metal the size of a chair. Some of them were sharp. I although I was amused but to girls I was just annoying. She said to me, "that's boring". I dropped the metal that I TKed. I then thought maybe it is the size that they want to see. I start TK the TV, they all jumped and said,"Nooooooo". I don't know what I did wrong. I watched the TV and I kind of lost lucidity for a second. Saw something about rihiana getting married to somebody. I got bored of this drama show and I got up. I became lucid again. I walk to my grandmother room looking for something but I forgot. I look at the computer and I hear this person speaking a foreign language. I note it into my head about the absurdity. I remembered what I was doing before I got distracted and I wanted to create a life size model of the sun and planets.

I walk out side and I remembered that I have been in this dream for a long time or it felt like it. I start to feel the dream destabilize and I remembered reading that flying helps. So, I after rubbing my hands a bit I start to fly. The dream looked clear again. I could see a pool in the yard. I then felt dream destabilize again. I am being sucked in by something. I try to escape it. I grabbed on to a rail. and I began doing what PercyLucid suggested to feel objects around you. I felt the coldness of the rail, the roughness and smoothness. I landed. My father shows up and he brought a watermelon which began to roll into the swimming pool. It was the same size as me. It went into the water and it had a hole in it. It began to sink. I went into a weird water bending stance, lol don't know why I did it at the moment. I used TK to take it out of the water, it was fairly difficult. After taking it out I just levitated it and brought it to my dad. He gets mad and tells me that I am wasting my time and I need to study. I told him I never felt more alive, and I feel energized. I then had a thought that woke me up. What if I wake up.

Just want to say thanks to PercyLucid for the audio class. And flowofmysoul for those words of wisdom on dream control.

Journal Entry Lucid #74 Dream,Lucid, thoughts in dream,(Comments)
Background:I actually remember what I did this morning because it was so memorable. I did wbtb at 3:19 and I slept from 10-3. I watched a movie as I normally do while being attentive and imagining that the movie is my dream. I didn't meditate before going to bed. I actually didn't meditate for a weeks now, I became increasingly lazy. I haven't been putting my LD DJ on here and I haven't been doing as many reality checks. It all had to do with school starting and I felt kind of sad about my classes. Well on the 08/24 I started to accept my circumstance and I started to go back to my regular schedule. I started to do R.C both noseplug and gravity RC. I only do gravity RC on and off but the noseplug I always do it with my RC. (Written 12/31: I have not done gravity RC in quite some time so it didn't develop like his did, it was just starting to mature and I prematurely stopped doing it when school got started.)

Lucid Dream # 74, day: 08/25/14, time: 7:00-7:24 Am " "Gravity RC"":
At first I had a dream about a test that was due in class. I am on the website for my school and they had a random search button. I clicked on it an it took me to a random website. It had naked people on it. I swiped the website to get another website. I pause for a minute to let it sink in I am thinking "WTF". I thought about how such a program to exist that takes people to random websites and the downside to it. The teacher informs us that the test has started. Everybody is finishing. I am stressing out. I tried to read but words were to small to read. I got mad and start talking to others about it. I see ER, I say sup to him. He gives paper to the teacher, and throws a huge back of chips in the trash. He left without helping me, it is just like him though. I then went to the teacher to complain. I asked her how long do we have. She tells me as long as you want. I said a whole day.
I wake up next to a swimming pool. I see my DJ in the water. I laugh at my dream. I say wow what a stupid dream. I have to take a test. I looked around and I think stupid me I didn't even do a RC I could be in a dream for all I know. I do a RC but I wasn't mindful. I then told myself to be aware of the whole body kind of gravity RC. I tried to feel my weight and my legs felt like noodles. The weight fluctuated up and down in a circular motion. I realized I am in a dream. .I am now in my room, I ask did I wake up, told myself nope still dreaming. I couldn't believe that the gravity RC worked. I feel the dream fading. Fear start to enter my heart. "NOT NOW" I say to the dream, desperate to hold on to it. I then hear a voice in my dream it was my voice or how I think I sound like. It said, "You have to get to get used to this, you are now a lucid dreamer. You don't need to be terrified of waking up". I start to feel happy. I then calmed down. I then went to a light switch to turn it on/off. I remembered reading about a task somewhere to turn on and off by your mind. I think brighter it didn't turn on. It has a window, where a mirror is supposed to be. I see a door outside. (dream start to fade so I concentrated on visuals.) I walk to it thinking it is a door to darkness. I opened it and it was dark. I then see a face look at me. The face was size of my body. It got smaller and it had three eyes. I got a little scared but I calmed myself and asked it what is wrong? He replied back but I forgot. I woke up after hearing him/

Journal Entry Lucid # 58 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed. And I meditated after doing WBTB. I tried to become aware of my body and I ignored the little itches that the body gives out. I did fall asleep, without awareness. When I did my WBTB I woke up at 2:00 Am and I watched some movie. My parents are getting ready to start the day as always. I then talked to my dad and said to him, "Do you know what is so beautiful about the darkness?" He responded, " heh, nothing darkness is evil", he is a very christian man and only sees one way. Even though I know this will dissatisfy him, but I proceeded, "Darkness gives rise to possibility, only the imagination fills in the gap". He tells me, "darkness is bad..". I told him to look at it a different perspective and maybe he will understand what I mean. He didn't quite understand even though he claims to. Well you get the point.

WILD experience: I had a dream and I awoken from it. I kept thinking about the dream and I began falling back to sleep. I then hear the loud wind again. At first i was scared and the noise started diminishing. And I became sad, but then I resolved to myself that I will do it sooner or later. I stayed still. I felt like my hands were swinging. I felt out of control. I don't know if that was astral body or part of the dream. During all this I could hear the loud wind that was deafening and it got higher in frequency and it felt like needle that keeps getting sharper with the increasing of sound. I thought I can't do this, but I kept thinking about the dream I had to distract me. New images started to form, complex patterns. I could also hear sound now, no more pain. I think I came in with fear though. I hear laughter that keeps on distorting and getting lower in pitch. I saw blood dripping from the patterns. They turned into a pyramid. Then I hear a voice say to me, "Do want to meet our lord, Lucifer?". I thought this is only a dream, and besides I have to live by my words, I say to myself to face all fears. I then say yes. I see a book open and it was covered in blood. My body felt possessed and I squirmed around in the dream without my control.

Lucid Dream # 58, day: 07/03/14, time: 5:20-6:59 Am" Facing Fear:
I am now 180 degrees on my bed, sleeping where my foot should be. I see a clown, a lady clown looking at me, she had blond hair, She had a clown outfit but the colors were a little bit faded as if she has worn them for years. She said, "I am sorry it didn't work". I know it's a dream so I just looked at her. I could see that I am in my room, but it is still a dream. She looked at me and realized that I know. She said, "If you want to explore this place you have to put on a mask". I am still just thinking to myself, "no, mask is a representation of losing one's identity and replacing it with another". With that thought, she said, " okay you have to put on a scarf". She put it on me and told me to follow her.

As we were making our way through an office with little to no lighting. I am looking around telling myself be aware. I touch the desk to feel the texture. I would look at the wall for pattern and I am just occupying myself saying be aware that i am not truly experiencing the dream. The clown lady is standing next to the door like a SWAT person and she open the door slightly. I see a little girl in a bright pink room, looking frightened saying out loud to herself "Be aware. Be Aware." She is walking back and forth. I thought to myself what is my dream trying to tell me, the clown said calmly and slowly, "Calm down". I started settling in the dream. It felt stable. The clown disappeared. I wanted to see how the little girl responds to the change of my thought. I opened the door and I hear a short scream of something fearful, "Rah" and for that very second I felt a cold darkness come over me.

I am scared and I rocked back away from the door. I then calmly told myself to calm down. I turned and started walking away. I pass through door after door in a endless mansion. I started to become scared. I see the walls crumble. I thought to myself without being scared, "wow this doesn't usually happen in a dream of mine, it is mostly stable". I started to walk away. I kept telling myself that I got to get out of here. I see a friend of my sister, KE, and he is outside the house being dragged by strong wind. He tells me that I need him for some reason. I tried to use telekinesis to bring him back into the house. I couldn't the wind were blowing really hard. And objects in the house started to throw themselves at me, a lamp, a vase, etc. I used telekinesis to stop them but they kept coming. I then found a slide looking thing that leads outside.

I see a man climb out of it. Towards the slide and he slides back down. It looked like he is having fun, even though I had hell in there. He actually wanted to come back to the mansion. I on the other hand flew up into the air. It is raining. I felt so relieved and i could think clearly now. I felt powerful. I then extended both my hands and used telekinesis. I created a barrier around me, I want to say spherical but since it wasn't visible and I know there was a force field because of the way the rain responded. The rain didn't touch me. I see myself in 3rd person perspective. I could see the water bouncing off of the shield, it bounced more at the top*. I am viewing first again. Since I could think clearly I thought why did I experience that. I realized the conversation I had with my father, that was one. I also know that I came with fear from the start of my dream.

I told myself If I go out and have fun in the dream it would be preferable, but if I go back I could face a fear that I thought I conquered, darkness. I judged myself and called myself a coward, I agreed that I am acting as a coward at the moment but if I go back and face my fear that is what courage is, to face one's fear. I decided to go back. I flew back to the ground. Just a weird thing I noticed, I saw the clown but now she is a business lady. She started walking with a long coat on. She takes it off and now she is naked and begins to approach the other guy. I just ignored them for I had no interest. I went back to the dark room. And I opened the door. I see a lot of people cleaning up the place. I see Walter White from "breaking bad" with a bandage on his face. His face looked bruised like on season 3 after he beat gust. He was next to a pay phone. He calls Dewey from "Malcolm in the middle". He looked dead at me and he said on the phone with a serious tone, "Dewey (3 second pause) it is done". I then feel my body being dragged at an alarming rate. I woke up.

My interpretation: I think that it had nothing to do with darkness, but since I came with fear in my heart from the start my mind related it to the last things I saw.
I think the whole thing was about me facing fear not the fear of but confronting fear. And maybe the guy having fun on the slide signifies that I make the experience what it is, he was having fun while I wasn't.

*I love mathematics and after thinking about the way the water splashed; I think it make sense that the water splashed more at the top of the force field because the top has the most amount of surface area that comes into contact with the rain. The side would just brush the water and the bottom doesn't really exist. I am just amazed at the details that dream present themselves. It truly is fascinating that something creates without us straining our mind.

I just realized that the clown lady could be Harley Quinn from the comic books. I never knew she had blond hair.

Journal Entry Lucid #50 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:
I meditate and woke up for WBTB. I meditated again and went to sleep.

Lucid Dream #50, day: 06/03/14, time: 4:27-5:20am" Confusion":
I am in the house. I see my dad is in the kitchen making some food for my mother. I am hyper active running around the house. At first completely unaware of the bright pink lights that makes it look like a club. My sister woke up. she came out of her room drowsy. I jumped around and I thought this feels like a dream.
I then do a R.C, but it failed. I didn't accept it though since I knew it was a dream. I looked at my hand watch and it says 9:15 and I look away and back it reads 9:10. It was fairy close. I went to our backyard. The house look so 'real'. I am too focused on the idea that it could be real that I didn't think about it as 'dream'. I went to the wall outside and I wanted to create a portal. I turn and look back to see no portals. I try again and again. My sister calls me and tells me that I am losing my mind and I need to stop LD. Little by little getting increasingly confused. With further confusion the dream destabilized. I went further into my backyard. With out the confusion I could have been aware enough. I didn't have a door in my back yard. I tried to open it and it wouldn't open at first. I couldn't even recognize that I went into 3rd person perspective. I didn't like it at all I wanted to wake up. They come out and told me to follow them. I didn't want to. I instead willed myself to wake up.

What convinced me that it was "real" was not the logic in the dream, but the confusion. Confusion gets rid of the clarity that lucidity offers.

Journal Entry Lucid #31-34 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:Finally finals are over and I can relax.

Lucid Dream #31, day: 04/29/14 time: 3:10-4:38am " Regular Joes have super powers too. ":
Context of the dream, people have super powers and are being recruited to join and train(I guess military).
I am in my garage,relaxing on a couch, the garage door is open. I see people walking in and out of my house with bags. I thought to myself this remind me of an apartment complex. The people look like teens somewhere around 17-18. Some of them flooded the garage. One girl was wearing lingerie and she start approaching me slowly. She said, "today I feel like I need some attention". I didn't want any attention so I looked at her friends butt. She got mad and left. I hear someone say no and they dropped their belonging in the street. I fell on the floor and it ripped a hole in road. I told them that I will get it for them. The cars were speeding like they were in the freeway. I backed away. I overhear a fat girl freaking out about having superpowers.
I realized it was a dream. I went to the fat girl and I told her that she has more power than she realizes. She started freaking out even more. I was thinking "they don't even realize they are in my dream." I started to look around. I am in a restaurant and nobody had food on the table. I spin again and I saw a women that had a burrito shaped like a purse or vise/versa. So, I flew over and I bit into her purse and it tasted delicious. For some reason it felt like a long time in dream and I felt hungry so I woke up.

Lucid Dream #32, day: 04/30/14, time: unknown" Def Jam Bobble head":
I was at a club of some sort. Purple and blue lights. I am walking in the hallway and I walk past the bar. I see a familiar figure, it was D-mob from def jam and boy did he have a big head. It was a bobble head. I hear the intro of the song "dum dum....dum dum". I did a RC but it failed. I said no way

this is a dream. I was laughing so hard though. He stopped and approached me. He said furiously, "what's so funny? Do find anything funny?" all while his head bobbled up and down. I cracked up in his face. He got mad and tried to swing at me. I dodged them while laughing. I all of a sudden got angry and levitated him. I then threw him through a wall. I knew what I wanted to do next but I saw a baseball and a cup, like bear-pong except it is with a baseball. I wanted to see how much control I have with telekinesis so I set it up. I Tk the baseball and I tried to make it in the cup fast, I missed. I levitated the cup back up and got the ball. I tried again a little bit more slowly and missed. Third time I painstakingly put it in slowly and I made it. I became happy and complete so I woke up. So I didn't do exactly what I wanted but it is ok I will get it.

Lucid Dream #33, day: 05/01/14 time: 3:10-4:45am " Maybe a lesson":
I am on a cruise ship. I am a balloon or I felt like one. I floated up and up. I see a dog next to me.
I realized it was a dream. I was now in my old church's bathroom. I walked out and went through the exit. I see a house right in front of me. I thought how strange. I didn't want to investigate at all. I just wanted to leave. It started sprinkling, I couldn't feel it but I could see it. I went up and flew about ten feet or second story of the home. I see a Japanese girl and her parents arguing. I tried to fly away but it felt like I was bounded by the house. The girl says to her parents, "I don't want to live your dreams anymore". I then could fly away and I sped off which woke me up. Maybe my subconscious wanted me to see what she had to say.

Lucid Dream #34, day: 05/02/14 time: unknown "":
I see a cop get killed and I wanted to leave the area. I am now in the backyard of my house. I then realize it is a dream
I walk towards the house to see my family. A car is in the middle of the yard. I used TK(telekinesis) to lift it then I launched it. I hear my parents inside. My dad is talking to somebody on the phone. For some reason I thought I was going to get valuable information so I stayed. I didn't get anything so I tried to fly out. I woke up.

I just want to note that this has been the most amount of LD back to back for me in a week. I nearly had one LD a day, except for yesterday and today. I also had the worst dream recall for yesterday and today. And I am having hard time stabilizing but in time it will be ok.

For me in the future if I struggle to have a LD and for others that might want to try it.

To put it simple I get a LD passively. During the day while I think about LD and at night, I tell myself I might have a LD today, or I might not, but I want to remember my dream. I see LD as a gift from my subconscious mind, so when I have one it is special to me.

During the day as I walk in school, I try to do All day Awarness. Link: http://www.dreamviews.com/induction-...kingyoshi.html
I also act very curious. If I think something is strange I do a RC and I investigate. I would mess with objects as if it was a dream expecting it to do crazy things. After doing that I tell myself "next time I am dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming"

I do WBTB and I stay up for 1hr -2hr. I also noticed that I had LD around 5am, if I go to sleep at 8 and WBTB at 2 or 3, then I go back to sleep around 3-4.

I meditate before going back to sleep, some 10 min meditation on breath. I listen to my favorite music. Then I tell myself "the next thing I see is a dream" I say this until I go to sleep. I keep in mind that I may not have a LD but that I definatly want to remember my dream I also put myself in a slightly awkward position. First while listening to music I would be in the most position like on my belly with my hands at my side. Then I move my hands up in a nice comfortable position that could make it easier to fall asleep faster. This helps in making the last thought about dream.


-Re (4/26/14): I always think I got my mind figured but once I think I do, I realize I don't. Ld went down this week(4/20-4/26). There is just so much thing that can effect LD.

I have lost my interest in posting all my dreams to dreamviews. There are some benefits, such as editing writing as much as I want but having two DJ is hard to keep up with and can be draining. I have decided to put up only dreams which I think are interesting or I any LD. Hopefully I have lots of LD to make me active

Really bad recall, I will start meditation again to see if that increases my recall.

I didn't recall a dream I did however noticed myself waking up and gaining consciousness. I could hear this muffled sound and I started to focus on it and it became clear what it was 'rain drops'. I tried to stay in that threshold of semi-consciousness but couldn't.

Background: I am writing this because I read that you should always write something in your dream journal. Well I went to bed after a 15 min meditation. I felt good afterwards. I went to sleep like always, but this time I tried to remember my last thought. Normally when I do the incubation I fail because my mind goes all over the place and my last thought is not about lucid dreaming. I didn't remember my last thought though. I woke up and moved around unconsciously. I tried to remember my dream, but nothing came to me. I waited and waited still nothing so I went to bathroom. I didn't let that get to me, so I did a 10 min meditation. I tried to go to sleep, I didn't feel like sleeping. So, I left and started reading Stephan LaBerg's book. I became too excited to sleep, so I stayed up. (from 8:30pm-3:00am)

Journal Entry non-lucid #9 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I meditated for 15 min and went to sleep around 9:40am. I did one reality check before meditation.

Dream fragment 1 from 9:40am-11:51am" A suspicious Reality Check": I was eating some cracker with some people in my room. I am very strict about my room so I was telling them not to leave any crumbs. I then left them. I was with my dad, I did a quick reality check. I looked at my hands. I tried to feel my surrounding and it felt like a dream. The reality check failed though. I looked at my dad suspiciously and I said, "I swear it should have worked". He looked at me odd so I didn't pursue my thoughts.

Dream fragment 2 from 9:40am-11:51am " Four Girls in the Boys' Locker Room": I walked into my old school locker room for P.E. I had half a doughnut with me. It was caramel and it tasted very good. This guy looked at it and he wanted some of it. I didn't want to share it because I felt hungry and ate it. I turned to go to my locker and I saw of friend of mine. He was bent over next to the bench and beside him on the floor was another guy. My friend was rocking back and forth, like a crazy person. I was like what is going on. I shook it off and when I was about to open locker he threw something at me. I said kind of irritated, "What's wrong with you?" He then made a joke about Africans. He said,"do you know what they do to conserve energy because they have no food, they don't even blink." I ignored him and was about to attend to my locker. Four Asian girls walk in the boys locker room, and no they were not hot what so ever. They were trying to take their cloths out of their locker and were speaking in some Asian language. I got mad and started mumbling things at them. They laughed and left. I looked at one of them and I remembered her face. I thought it was odd since I didn't see this classmate in a long time, I said,"Anna!?" The last girl turned around. Her face changed, I didn't recognize it though. She was now a hot brunette with glasses. I asked her,"were you in my middle school class?" I thought about the name, and told her the name. She responded with a no. I asked in suspicion, "Your name is Anna though?" she said yes. I took some time to think about the oddity of the coincidence.

Dream fragment 3 from 9:40am-11:51am " Chemical": I was looking for some chemical. I found it but this girl in a bikini wanted the chemical. She walks away with it and I followed her. I think I looked at something that she owned that said dream yoga. So, I said you don't know dream yoga. She then proceeded to go backwards and do some gymnastic thing. I didn't want her to spill the chemical so I didn't question the fact that what she did had nothing to do with dream yoga. She then jumped in the pool with the chemical. I told at first in a relaxed tone to come out because the chemical is spilling. I assumed the whole thing didn't come out because it was powder and sometimes powder can act like a solid when compacted together. I then started yelling at her to come out. She came out but left the chemical in the pool. She was just standing there expecting me to go get it. I looked at what I was wearing, which I never do it a dream. I had some cargo shorts and shoes on. I didn't want to go in the water so I grabbed a stick. The environment was drastically changing. At first a normal swimming pool then it changed into a more chaotic kind of like a swimming pool blended with a pond. Then it changed into a small river. This old man showed up and said you kids are too lazy to get a stick. He tried to get it with a stick. I got a bigger stick and tried to get the chemical which was surrounded by corals and ocean stuff.