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the bubblegum greeb my jaw
purple icons munch my dream face
i am in this fake Colorado town
it's like an amusement park
but it's full of lame overpriced shops
except for the one with the weapons
hmm... i will take a morning star, two maces,
two throwing axes throwing hammers throwing knives, stars
yes yes yes. sword, no shield helmet
time to kick some ass
i turn into a minotaur
i smash the shit
out of everything
fuck yeah
fuck this fake ass place
NOMAD this is your home
you idiot
Q10 slaps his forehead
oops

I am doing mutual healing in a strange Healing Glen... The Healing Glen of The Angels!

I am with Raven, MoSh, Asuka, Basara, Tigress, mowglycdb. We are sitting a circle with our eyes closed. Music and healing energy of different colors flows out of us and mixes.

We are each a different colored crystal being. We open our third eyes, and smile at each other.

***

A woman is reading her boyfriend's DJ:

CN? CN? Who is this CN woman he keeps writing about? Oh. Carol Nakagawa. That's me.

***

I am with Solomon Vandy from Blood Diamond.

We are giving skulls of boys to families, the remains of their sons that were kidnapped and brainwashed to be child soldiers. We don't really know which skull belongs to which family. Solomon tells them anyway, "This is your son's skull." Every family cries, and walks away with the skull to bury it.

We begin to run out of skulls. Some of the ones left are fake plastic ones. I notice one is a 3D plastic puzzle, actually a few are like that. A toy! I feel appalled.

Solomon hands out the fake plastic skulls.

The families know the skulls are fake, and they know they have no way of knowing which skull belongs to who, but they take them anyway, just wanting to bury something so they can mourn the death of their sons.

***

We are on same strange planet similar to earth. Vegeta grabs me by the scruff of my neck, and opens a portal.

We are in another part of the same planet. We walk down a stone path through a grassy field with sparse trees in the summer.

A man in a tall white pointed hat bows to me. He has red glowing eyes. I am everything you love, everything you hate, everything you fear.

We follow the man to a strange tall building, like a temple of glass.

Your initial training is complete. You will now be inducted into the Dragon Warrior Corps. As a Dragon Warrior of Urth, you will defend the Dream Earth from tyranny. We value individual liberty in the highest esteem. Vegeta talks to me telepathically as we walk down a hall with high ceilings.

We stand in a circle around a pool of water on a stand. An alien that looks like an old brown lizard scoops out water with a coconut shell. We pass it around, each taking a sip. He takes the last sip.

This water has seen the light of the many suns, bathed in the moonlight of dawn, has moved through our bodies, the bodies of plants, bodies of water, since the beginingless past. We are infinite, and eternal, as all matter, and all non-matter.

We go to a balcony with no rail. It overlooks a great futuristic city.

We make a silent telepathic vow that cannot fully be expressed in words....

We are Guardians born,
and Guardians eternal,
forever we war against tyranny and oppression,
forever we live, forever we love life,
forever we fight for total freedom.

We salute the leader, and we receive the insignia of the Dragon Warrior Corps: Two golden dragons in a swirl.

We bow, and Vegeta and I fly back to Urth.

I am in many simultaneous dreams. In each one I am a swarm of thousands of Nomads, and Vegeta is chasing me through dreams, toying with me like a cat.

One of Many

I am running through a spiraling wormhole from Vegeta.

You fucking, god... You are no more a god than any other Urthan Dreamer.

I know, that's my point, you asshole, that's a joke!

He uses a simple technique called an Insult Attack, to anger me enough to draw my focus away from a physical attack. He flicks his hand open, and thousands of cactus spikes shoot at me. I swirl my swarm, but many spikes still hit my tiny dream bodies in the center of their backs. The uninjured ones pull out the spikes of the ones injured. The spikes divide themselves, unfolding into spiny spiders getting tinier and tinier until there are swarms of spiders crawling over the faces of me's. I summon murders of tiny ravens to eat the spiders off of me. I am covered with spider bites, slowly swelling.

No! This poison is not real.

I call that attack Cactus Spider Face, and yes, that poison is real. This is not a dream.

I panic and grab my face. My eyelids are swelling... I can barely see. Everything goes black.

NO! This is a dream! I feel like I am somehow deep in the depths of my dream body. I expand myself outward. I am lying on a rectangular rock that has been hollowed out with dry branches lain across. I am tied up. Vegeta is swing an great golden sword at my neck. I roll off the altar. He slices it in half.

"NO, My son! Tis the will of god!" He clambers over the altar, swinging madly.

Holy shit! Vegeta has gone batshit insane! I am fucked!

He runs in front of me, and grabs me by the throat, lifting me into the air. I clutch at his wrist.

No, you fool. I am perfectly sane. I am feigning madness. It's another Psychological Attack. You are afraid of madness, this I sense, so now I exploit your weakness! Some GOD YOU ARE! HAHAHHAHAA!

His Godly Shout feels like a thousand suns exploding through my soul. I use Devil Roar, and pull his energy into me, charging my chakras. I feel them spin and brighten. I pull earth energy into my feet, and shoot cosmic energy out my head. I pull my energy into my dream body. I am a golden man.

I am met with a flurry of fists, I block and punch back as he blocks. Our fists get faster and faster, then I kick him in the balls. He flies back, but it's not him!

He is about to uppercut me, but I morph into a giant gorrilla, and palm his fist, then punch him squarely in the nose. He flies back, but it's an illusion. He teleports behind me, and is about to punch me in the back of my head, But I morph into a beetle, and cling on to his stomach.

Gah! You little bastard. He rips me off but, my legs are still clinging to his clothes. I morph into a giant monster with many teeth, tentacles, and a storm swirling above my head.

"Impressive," Vegeta grins.

"Well I had a good teacher, I make the monster puppet say, and I punch him in the brain, ripping out his spinal cord, and gnawing on it like a rat gnawing through a rope.

"Gah!" You bastard! You know I take pleasure in my pupil's accomplishment, and you used that against me. Now, I will never revel in your accomplishment!"

He turns, and punches me in the face, and I go flying back. I feel like my whole face is crushed as if an elephant stepped on it.

Now, you will see my true power!

He becomes a star, and sucks me into him. I am enveloped in painful overwhelming light. I feel as if a laser or pure sun energy is burning through my every cell. I want to scream, but I am already dead.

He goes back to Vegeta.

That attack is called, Death Sun child. A nuclear bomb.

I mourn for my own dead soul, and all those killed my atomic bombs.

You are not dead, you idiot!

He slaps my face. I quit crying. Vegeta? Holy shit! This is a dream.

And now, I slap you, just like your father!

BAM!

He slaps my face again, and instead of my bones breaking, a red hand print forms on my face.

Dad?

My father's face appears in front of Vegeta's. I get confused.

You good for nothing piece of shit! You insolent child! You will pay for your crimes against humanity.

I now see a parasite on my third eye projecting my father's face on to Vegeta's.

I infected you with a parasite, you idiot. It's called, Child's Pain.

I rip the parasite out of my head, and fling it at Vegeta. He is actually frightened. He stumbles, and clambers away. NO, that's an illusion!

I have already dealt with the demons of the past, boy. I am a thousand years old. It is what every Supreme Dream Warrior must do.

He morphs into a giant snake, and bites me, swallowing me whole, slowly.

I form a sun of energy in my core, and explode it outward. Vegeta's dream body explodes.

We are on two discs floating in space.

He is a light entity, and I am a dark entity. We bow.

(con't)

Training with Vegeta

I am with Vegeta eating dinner in his house... I realize it's an illusion he created. Vegeta chuckles softly as the illusion fades.

You finally realized, you fool. Since you declared war on the Templars of Urth like an idiot, I now must train you in many techniques to protect your dream body with offensive power, the yang power. But, you don't

PRACTICE ENOUGH!"

His shout makes my soul quake, and his head becomes the size of a bus.

This technique is called Godly Shout.

I shout at him: HOW DO I PRACTICE MORE?

His hair blows back, and he smirks.

IN WAKING LIFE, IDIOT!

Oh yeah....

He then makes a sound like a thousand dying souls writhing in pain, as snakes fly out of his mouth and pull me into it. I panic, and try to crawl away. Then, I regain my composure and teleport.

It seems you have a weakness for Devil's Roar. I will do it you again.

He Roars at me, and I use Godly Shout. I REFUSE TO BE DEFEATED! I AM THE GOD OF THE DREAM PLANE!

I summon cosmic energy from the sun into my crown chakra, and blast it out through my shout, a beam of white hot light. I overload his dream body with energy, and he goes supernova. He is now a glowing golden entity.

Good job. If I were a regular enemy, my dream body would've exploded. Unfortunately for you, I am Vegeta, BITCH!

He laughs at me, and sends a flurry of fists at me. I cough up a clock, and smash it in my fist, and time slows down. I dodge his attacks, and uppercut him. He flies back, and I smirk, contented with myself. I realize it's an illusion, as my time dilation stops when Vegeta uppercuts me. I feel my jaw break, and my head snaps back, my skull actually hitting my upper back. Pain shoots up into my eyeballs. I tell myself it's a dream, and the pain fades, but my jaw is in dozens of pieces. I send healing energy from my root chakra into my jaw, as I teleport away from a golden Vegeta flying at me with a cocked fist.

He somehow teleports behind me before I get there, and punches me in the back of my head. I hear my skull crack, and actually feel an indentation in my head. My teeth shatter and I spit them out. Teeth falling out? This is a fucking dream.

I teleport forward, and he meets me with a sword, cutting my head off. I multiply into thousands of tiny me's, and open many portals. I explode myself into all of them. Vegeta multiplies himself, one for each portal and flies into them.


(Con't)

I am gardening in the Biodome with Raven, Angel, and some others. We are pulling weeds out of the garden, and turning them into mulch. A portal opens behind me with a whoosh. I turn around. The portal is black and purple. I see a young blond man with brown hair falling through it along with a strange blob DG.

He tumbles out, and stands up in front of me. He stands up, and dusts himself off. I feel the DG is a little embarrassed. I stare at the DG. He is a floating dark green wet orb, the size of a giant beach ball. He skin is like that of a frog's. He is covered with many eyes. He also has many small mouths with tiny sharp pointed teeth. He grins at me, and bounces his eyebrows. There are little bumps flowing over his skin like a pulse. A few of them slither out of him like snakes. I then realize they are astral tentacles. This crazy fucker is covered in them! Holy shit.

We are somewhere else in outer space... on an asteroid? Why?

I feel this dream guide laughing as one of his astral tentacles touches my third eye.

Everything explosive some Chunnel funneling fennel
fenugreek greeks leak leaks
what the fizzzukk k k k... k...

Everything is wavy and weird as my body divides and destroys itself going into infinity...

the silence slimily screams as it envelops my soul in a fine green hellish mist

i am warm at home

in Hell

I am falling... faster... toward the The Earth? no!

Hurtling toward the moon, I am going to die...

This atmosphere is going to burn me up!

Atmosphere?

Life?

On the Moon?

I am jolted into my standing body.

I fall backward to the ground. I see the portal behind the dream guide and the young man close. The DG says his name is DJ Blob, and he knew me in a past life. I used to be his dog. We hunted ducks in the woods. Ok...

The blond man is thinking about something. He blurts something out in a language of the Norse. I see strange curly runes like living tattoos grow out of his mouth when he speaks, and crawl on his face. My babelfish translates. "Hello! Hey, you! Waking Nomad? Am I right? Are we here? Shit. Dream ending? Anyway, my name is Jorgen, (something like that), and I want to tell you, that we are in a shared lucid dream together. And I made it. Here. Now!"

"Oh, shit, cool man! You're another dreamer! What's your name again?"

Then he starts speaking English. "Oh! I was speaking my native language. I made it to the Moon, Waking Nomad!" At this point he changed into a large boar with light brown fur, and eight eyes. He looked like Kamapua'a. "Ah, I would love to rummage around, but, shit, my dream is about to end so, I must bid you adieu!" He bows and becomes blurry as he winks out of sight.

His DG winks at me, opens a portal, and disappears.

I am walking with Angel in the Biodome through a dark part of a rainforest, holding hands. We don't hold hands a often, maybe because we are in our 30's. But we've been physically separate for awhile, so we were probably doing this because we miss each other.

We are talking about how the plants and animals in the Biodome are evolving. The forest changes from tropical to a more temperate climate. We come upon Raven in a clearing. She sighs quietly to herself. She seems to know we are there, but she doesn't acknowledge our presence. Angel tells me to go talk to her.

Raven is petting a little white rabbit. It seems to smile as it nuzzles her. She is staring at a butterfly on a flower.

Look at it, Nate. So simple and so beautiful. It has such a simple dream life. Do you think it was a butterfly in a past physical life? Is it dreaming?

She turns to me.

Nate, I want to stay here forever.

But, we are here forever.

No, I just want to leave the physical world, and stay in the dream plane forever.

Well, you aren't going to die physically any time soon, I hope.

No, I just wish I could ... leave!

I know how you feel.

I'm cold, Nate.

I put a blanket on Raven.

Come with me. I stand her up, and give her some hot chocolate. I open a door portal to the cottage of Silverwolf. Angel follows us through. Silverwolf opens the door, smiling broadly. Hi, you two? Oh, who's that? Hi!

This is Angel, Silverwolf.

Hi! Oh, Raven, what's wrong dear? Come sit by the fire. Pixy, make Raven some nice soup. I walk Raven to a big chair by the fire. She stares into it. A shaggy grey dog walks to Raven, and nuzzles her hand.

Pixy and Angel stare at each other strangely. They look almost like the same person, but the hair and eye color is different. Pixy stands on her tiptoes and kisses my cheek. Angel slaps her, then Pixy gets absorbed into Angel. Pixy-Angel looks at me with a startled look.

You just slapped a version of yourself, I laugh.

oh!

Pixy de-merges from Angel and laughs. Angel looks disoriented. Spike appears and whispers something to Raven, and kisses her on the forehead. He stands up, nods to me with his bright blue eyes, and winks out of sight. Basara slowly appears in the overstuffed chair near Raven. He plays his epic guitar softly. The energy of the dream alters, becoming more harmonious.

I am on top of a hill. I eat a poison flower. I don't know why. I laugh maniacally and grab my horns. I fall to my knees, laughing hysterically.

An energy ball floats out from my third eye, and I perceive orbs coming out of orbs. Each orb is perception, each orb is dream...

I roll around on the ground babbling.

Raven appears. WTF Nomad?

She gives me some water.

I am a faun in a forest.

I am chasing a black butterfly. It leads me to a clearing. It lands on a stone throne, and morphs into a beautiful woman in a silvery blue dress.

I stand up tall, and morph into Pan.

I bow before valerian. She laughs melodically and says I am ancient as her, but her soul resides in one species for all time, unless its wiped out, whereas my soul jumps from body to body each lifetime. She commands me to stand.

I stand up, and she stands up and looks me in the eye. She takes my face in her hands, and kisses me.

The energy feels unlike any I have experienced before. It feel simultaneously totally alien, yet completely familiar, so human like, and so plant like, so ancient, so young... wise, yet almost innocent.

We fly into space and up on to my asteroid.

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I am on a dragon's mountain on another planet. I meet Xaphor outside. He is in dragon-man form. He is wearing a grey and gold robe. We bow. I am wearing something very similar.

"I ask you one last time, are you sure you want to do this, brother?"

I nod my head solemnly. I feel my soul growling with a dubstep beat emanating from the center of my being, as I walk down a stark wide mountain ledge. There is a large arch in the distance. Though the arch is natural, ornate carvings cover it. Michael and Koomo are each holding a torch. They bow to me as I pass, and I return their bows. I continue on my path, and enter the hollow mountain. I walk to the edge of a ledge. Beneath me is a great abyss.

One of Xaphor's kin, the guardian-priest of the mountain bows to me. I return the bow, and morph into a dragon-man. I am grey with green and lavender undertones. The priest flings his head back, closes his eyes, and spreads his arms. The mountain rumbles and shakes.

Light appears beneath us, a pane of light bubbling up from below. It moves up, slowly at first, then explodes, filling the whole cavern with light. A column of white-hot red energy shoots up the center of the chasm.

I tear my robes off, and roar. I focus all my energy on my chakras, then, my chest and third eye chakras. Two energy balls come out of me, and form one, then two, then six, 8, ten, 12, 24 energy balls, until it forms a copy of me, looking ghostlike.

The image of me floats into the beam of light, and screams. Flesh forms around the energy. Wings burst out from him, and the energy beam fades. He floats down on to the ground. I also have wings now.

"You live forever in dreams, even when I am awake. You are half my energy."

"And half your sentience. I have my own sentience, and free will. It is as you wish."

"It is."

We bow. He sneers at me, and bumps my shoulder as he walks past me to leave the mountain. I grab his tail and swing him around. We battle for what seems like centuries. Civilizations rise and fall around us. We battle for what seems like eons. The continents move, and we leap across oceans, swinging great war hammers, two gods vying for power.

"Why did I create you?"

"To live forever on the dream plane!"

"And why do we battle?"

"For the sheer joy. Also, you are testing me to see we are equal."

I pounce upon him, and end up standing on him with my spear at his throat. We are two ugly grey demons.

"You win."

"Yes, because I have real experience."

"I still maintain my own sentience."

"Yes, you do."

"And, with that, I am off to explore the dream plane!"

My other self takes off into the universe.

"So, what the hell do I call myself?"

"Nostrange? Nocraze- No... aw fuck it."

I proclaim myself Nocraze Fukkit!!!"

I am a short muscular bartender with a bit of a belling, wiping down the counter in my bar in the mythical town of Denn. A white ninja flies backwards through the doors. She runs outside and a attacks a giant red archdemon. She runs up his arm and stabs him in the forehead. I put myself into the DC archdemon and die dramatically. Now, I am in the bartender again.

The ninja walks slowly into the bar. Everyone stops and stares at her in silence.

"Give me a beer."

She pauses. "You aren't going to serve me because I am a woman? GIVE ME A BEER!" she slices a table into quarters.

Your beer is right here, ma'am.

Oh, thanks. How much.

On the house.

She takes a sip.

I leave the DC bartender, and travel into the kitchen. I create a DC cook and a demon boy helping her stir a pot. She picks him up, and scolds him. I go into the demon boy. The woman curses and says he's worthless, and he should burn in hell as she drags him into the bar. Raven stands up, and wipes the beer from her mouth. She roars, and slices the cook up into hundreds of pieces. A tear rolls down my demon boy cheek.

Raven scoops me up under one arm.

She's a demon-lover! She's a witch!

Raven bolts out of the tavern, then puts me in a bag on her back. I poke my head out of the top.

Don't worry little buddy. I'll take you somewhere safe. Raven hops on a winged horse, and we ride to steep craggy mountains, with no plant life, where you can only get to by flying. We land on ledge. There is a giant dragon nest on it. She explains to the mama dragon that humans want to kill me because I am a demon-human hybrid.

I start playing with the baby dragons. The mama seems to know this is all a game, and is playing along, but Raven doesn't recognize me at all. I don't think she realizes she's dreaming.

I wave to her.

Hey Raven!

Raven? That's not my name... is it? I am.. (she says a Gaelic name) Gwennythair (something like that). Her appearance changes to a Celtic woman with long red hair and a harp.

Are you remember past lives? I say.

Am I dreaming? she asks herself, and does a nose pinch RC.

Oh! Nomad? Oh, that's you!

Raven wakes up.

Xaphor appears.

That's another Raven, he says. She is the closest version to the one you know, and in fact the Nomad she knows is most like you.

When they go into dreams, she's a ninja, and he's a shadow samurai. She lives in Japan, and he lives in China, on their version of Earth. I don't really know what this means, but it should prove interesting.

a white lion-man in a waiting room, waiting for my baby to be born...

on a gondola on a ski lift in Aina Haina (a valley on Oahu)

numbers

a pool

red berries...

loud talking

at school

in The House

notes

I meet Raven on the moon. She's a big white catwoman. Ok. She changes into a ninja, and says, "let's go!"

Weird.

We make a portal together, and leap through. Then, I realize I am a black robed wizard on a white horse. I am laughing maniacally, and charging a brown staff with thunder as we ride through the wormhole. Raven is running on nothing. The whole wormhole is made of lightning and darkness. I wonder why it looks different.... Maybe because we are going to SPLASH!

Raven points her heels at the ocean, and crosses her arms over her chest. My horse throws me, and disappears. We fall into the ocean.

A pod of dolphins swims to us. There is one with a ring of stars around its head, which I assume is the leader. They all talk at once telepathically.

Why are you here? Here to make trouble? Here to play? Here to learn? Here to teach?

Are you aware? Most humans that visit us are not aware. They think we are figments of their imaginations, BUT WE'RE NOT!

The leader dolphin roars at me, and I get sucked into a mouth portal. He shows me his soul, many lifetimes, going through time... He was a dolphin, a human, a whale, a praying mantis, a mold, a leaf, a tree, an elephant, a space alien, a space lichen, a space plant....

He tells me is his last human life he was a whaler.

I am energetically spat out of his third eye. Raven is now playing with the dolphins. They are tossing an energy ball around.

A group of dolphins get in a circle around me, and blast me with red-hot white energy. I feel like I am on fire. I scream in pain. Then, I absorb the energy and shoot it out of my crown and feet chakras, into the seafloor, and into space. I zoom out in light body into space.

I see many of the energy beams shooting out from the planet. They are beacons... calling calling... calling for help.

a few days ago

This was part of a really long dream, but I just remember this.

I am at a party. A woman is on my lap that is not Angel. I keep wondering if I have a girlfriend or not. I think I do, but, no, that's another life. That's in a dream. This is my real life. Angel's my dream girlfriend. Right. This is my chick, right here. Why do I feel guilty?

Nap frag

My math professor is driving me around the southeastern tip of Oahu near Makapu'u. I feel like he's driving me home, which is weird because I haven't lived there for 30 years. He says he's tired of snoddling me. He says he has to give attention to the other students. He says the other students are going to fail if he keeps giving me all the attention just because I am the lowest in the class. I feel a little embarrassed.

I keep having these annoying non-lucids. I just want to get lucid from my non-lucid state and stop wasting dream time with stupid DC's and their random bullshit babblings.

I find MoSh in a strange meditation room in Castle Anthrax.

I built this myself, his Shadow Self says. He is sitting in lotus before a mirror. There's a lot of leather, silver, and furs about. Lobo.

He stands up, and cracks his neck. For a second, I see a werewolf with red eyes.

They took her again, or a part of her, or something. All I know is someone out there on the dream plane has hell to pay. I nod solemnly.

I am in the Form of Timelyst Knight, my Future Self, AKA my Shadow Self, an android with a dark energy symbiote for armor. He stares me in the eye, and whips out a jagged dagger. He is now all Shadow Beast Self. He cuts himself, then me. His werewolf undead blood mixes with my dark energy symbiote, and nanobot fluid. A dark fire burns behind his eyes, and his skin becomes adamantium beneath his fur. I feel a rush of energy. He wraps a rag around our wrists.

NOW WE ARE BROTHERS, he says.

We watch the fluids drain into the rag, then he unties it, and rips it in half. We tie each half around our foreheads.

We are now in a motorcycle garage. He hops on a cruiser and pushes his wolf soul into it, then his head changes to that of a great cobra. He grins at me and roars, with the wolf head of his bike, and he starts it.

I am a black android lion. I roar with my Juarcycle, with the head of jaguar, and we take off into a wormhole.

There is a battle at the end.

We are flying over a huge battlefield. No one seems to notice.

There is a strange giant with no face, made of green cylinders being attacked by a massive army of orcs. Where is she?

The giant said that she is inside him, on one of the lower floors. He explains he is a Building, which are apparently alive in this world. The orcs are attacking him to get to her. I scan him. He's right, brother. He is telling the truth.

Mosh leaps off his cycle, and it becomes a giant werewolf, some kind of familiar, and runs through the ranks the orcs wreaking havoc. MoSh shoot chains at the orcs out of his hands. He whips them around and laughs maniacally. I turn into a thousand ice penguins, and freeze the orcs. They get very annoyed.

They all turn to me. I drain their dark energy. They get angry. I become a red energy vampire, and drain their red energy. They emit blue energy, and try to get me to pity them. Then I blast the shit out of them with two beams of energy, one red, one black.

MoSh is flying over them, spraying them with green fire. They run in terror.

We beat the crap out of the orcs on the giant.

(to be continued)