A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry Lucid #50 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:
I meditate and woke up for WBTB. I meditated again and went to sleep.

Lucid Dream #50, day: 06/03/14, time: 4:27-5:20am" Confusion":
I am in the house. I see my dad is in the kitchen making some food for my mother. I am hyper active running around the house. At first completely unaware of the bright pink lights that makes it look like a club. My sister woke up. she came out of her room drowsy. I jumped around and I thought this feels like a dream.
I then do a R.C, but it failed. I didn't accept it though since I knew it was a dream. I looked at my hand watch and it says 9:15 and I look away and back it reads 9:10. It was fairy close. I went to our backyard. The house look so 'real'. I am too focused on the idea that it could be real that I didn't think about it as 'dream'. I went to the wall outside and I wanted to create a portal. I turn and look back to see no portals. I try again and again. My sister calls me and tells me that I am losing my mind and I need to stop LD. Little by little getting increasingly confused. With further confusion the dream destabilized. I went further into my backyard. With out the confusion I could have been aware enough. I didn't have a door in my back yard. I tried to open it and it wouldn't open at first. I couldn't even recognize that I went into 3rd person perspective. I didn't like it at all I wanted to wake up. They come out and told me to follow them. I didn't want to. I instead willed myself to wake up.

What convinced me that it was "real" was not the logic in the dream, but the confusion. Confusion gets rid of the clarity that lucidity offers.