Hopeless Wanderings

starting to remember more dreams!

I was ice skating on this huge outdoor rink. I was having a blast doing all kinda of spins and tricks. I was even doing flips. It felt effortless. I was out there for about an hour and then went back to my car. It was super windy, and the wind had blown over a trash can and there was trash everywhere. When I started driving my car, it started smoking and making weird noises. I remembered that it was broken and wondered why I had picked that car to drive(it had just broken down in RL). I picked up Niki and we were going to go to Taco Bell but we never made it there.

I was dropped off at this building with a bunch of people my age. I realized that I forgot my shoes so I was walking in bare feet. I didn't have my phone to call my parents so I asked a girl if I could borrow hers. She looked at me weird and was kind of nervous and told me no. I wasn't sure what we were there for, just that it was something important. We entered this huge outdoor theater. We were sitting down when I saw this massive bird, that I thought was an eagle, land on a tree branch. I got my phone out(somehow I had it now) and took a picture of it. I was going to try to send it to someone but I didn't want anyone to see I was using my phone in the theater because that is rude. So I guess we were supposed to be reviewing this new movie, although there was no screen in the room, just movie theater chairs ourdoors in a jungle. Then I realized that this "eagle" was actually a Pterodactyl. It took off flying towards me and I freaked out, but it just soared over my head. Then a bigger dinosaur appeared, a land one(not sure which kind). This was no movie.. this was a dino death trap! The dinosaur was stomping around chasing people. Me and Ali snuck off to this little bathroom to get away. She was feeling scared and sick. I was sitting on the edge of a bathtub with my feet in cold water and asked if she wanted to join me since it might help her feel better. She declined. We did not go back out.

-Fragment about up north with TPLSG
-Fragment about trying to catch the bus to high school(really, still having high school dreams 3 and 1/2 years later!?). Paula was the bus driver. I feel like I always have this dream.

I am so freaking horrible at remembering my dreams..

the other day I was having a really emotional dream and was crying in it and realized I was dreaming and tried to summon somebody but it didn't work.

I was with my sister dressed up with armor and guns. There was this car and people in it started shooting. My sister thought it was cool but I didn't. I ran to the side of the car and shot through the window, getting shot several times in the process. I dropped to the ground and somehow didn't die or feel any pain

I woke up, got out of bed, and a friend came over to pick up something. I went back to my room and fell asleep again. Had some dream about the past. Eventually realized I was dreaming but it was very unstable. I spun around like crazy but it didn't work and I woke up. Actually not sure if I woke up or not, but I remembered trying to FILD and next thing I know I wake up in my room in the middle of the night. Something seems strange. It feels like I transported back in time, maybe to a few years ago, even though most of the scenery is the same. I must be dreaming. I look at my hands. They're fine at first but I look long enough and I only see 4 fingers. Instead of spinning to stabilize, I look at a book on my bookshelf for a few seconds. Everything is extremely vivid and clear. I can see so many details in everything and it's really sharp. I think to myself "I hope this is going to be a long dream." The first thing I do is try to find someone. I think of Andrew, turn around to see him but he's not there. I close my eyes this time, open them, he's not there. I imagine him in my closet. I open the door, he's not there. I give up and decide to go outside and go try flying since I can't think of anything else to do. As soon as I exit my room I wake up.

This is my first lucid in a long time

I say this every time but I haven't posted in forever. I've been having really vivid dreams lately and I think it's from the new vertigo med I'm on. I'm really enjoying them, although they can be a bit strange. And I can never remember them when I wake up. So I'm just going to post this one since it was.. umm... yeah.

don't remember the beginning of this one. All I remember was walking into the bathroom and finding an old friend in the bathtub trying to drown herself. I ran towards her as fast as I could but it was like slow motion. I jumped in the tub and pulled her out and put my arms around her. She was crying. "It's alright," I kept saying. I yelled for x friend to tell friend in bathtub's mom and I think she did. Sometime after that she was feeling better and we were hanging out doing something I can't remember. Eventually her mom came.

well I suppose I'll post another one from last night. I was in Walmart searching for Christmas presents for everyone. I found a bunch of cheap Knick Knacks for TPLSG goodie bags and a fish book for my dad. Then there was a race starting for people to pick up things for a dollar, which was mostly candy. The race started and I got a huge bag of m&ms for that price. It was a steal. The end.

I was in a huge house having a good time(don't remember what I was doing) until something happened that made people turn on each other. I was with this guy who kept killing other guys and hiding the bodies in an elevator, which was covered in urine and vomit. Apparently this fight started when a space craft went down(not sure exactly what happened). So there was a lot of fighting. And in the final fight, it was 2 against 2. We were throwing stuff at each other and one of the things was liquid cyanide. I got sick of fighting and decided I couldn't take it anymore. I ran away and grabbed a bottle of cyanide and dripped some into my mouth and went into the house. A girl who was fighting saw me and told the others and they all ran to find me. I went down this super long hallway and stood behind a sculpture. I then started to drink more of the cyanide until the people caught up with me. One guy stuck his hand down my throat and made me puke it up. Hey, at least it made them stop fighting, right? The end.

I don't know why I keep having dreams about high school since I was in high school THREE years ago..

I was back in high school. For a project, we had to create a game board. Me, Niki, Brittany, and Dani(?) were in a group together and we used me and Niki's monopoly game that we had already created(in RL). We colored purple on the center and put different colored dots. I looked at the final result and realized we had painted over the creepy mr. monopoly man that had originally been drawn on the center. It was time for the class to present our projects and before the bell rang, I went to my locker but realized I didn't know the combination. I went to ask the teacher(Mr. Bobby-osh!) if I could go down to the office and ask them for my combo. He said okay, so I went to the office and told the lady. The lady was black and had shoulder length curly black hair. She told me she needed my debit card so I gave that to her, and then she made everything super complicated and in the end she said she couldn't give me my combo. I got mad and told her that the office downstairs would definitely give me my combo and be a lot nicer than her. So I went downstairs and asked them and they were nice about it, but for some reason I still didn't get my combo. At one point the sprinklers went off and everyone downstairs got soaked. I went back upstairs and when I passed the mean black lady she said something to mock my religion, to which I said, "Jesus is the son of God and you can't make me believe otherwise." I went to my locker and then the combination just came to me. 4-8-58. Usually in dreams numbers are messed up, but I could open my locker just fine. Then I went to class and saw that 45 minutes had passed. We never got to present.

I waited for the light to turn green and then started walking across the intersection. Cars were passing me going straight, but out of no where a car came from the other side of the intersection that had the red light and it ran right through the light and hit me. I was laying on the ground and a male cop came up to me. I was bleeding out on the street. Instead of waiting for an ambulance to come, he put me in his car and started racing towards the hospital. He kept talking to me to keep me calm and asked me questions. As we got closer to the hospital, I was fading. He asked me what 7 times 3 was to make sure I was still fully conscious. I was confused and answered 24. He was very worried about me and he kept telling me to hold on. He then held my hand the rest of the way there. When we got to the hospital, he carried me and rushed me to the emergency room where the nurses took me away. As I was being treated, the dream was focused on him instead of me. He was in the waiting room talking with other people and worrying about me. A nurse finally came and told him that I would be okay. I just couldn't get over how kind and caring he was towards me, how he held my hand and talked calmly to me. He was a complete stranger yet he cared so much about me.

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I know my posts are getting shorter and shorter. My dream recall is getting worse from not practicing. :/

Me and Niki were in my front yard at night time and we watched as a plane flew across the sky. For some reason, I had a bad feeling. But it passed over us and I let out a sigh of relief, when, it turned around and headed straight for us. I shouted, "I love you best friend!" and next thing I know Niki is dead and I'm still alive.

short dream

I was inside my house and I looked out the front window and saw a man with a rope around his neck, the rope tied to the tree in my front yard. He was ready to hang himself. I ran outside to him and yelled "Dont!" and he said something like, "but I don't want to live anymore" and I was going to try to talk him out of it but I realized that I had no idea what to say.. but apparently I figured something out because he didn't go through with it.

I wish I remembered more of this dream

I was standing on the shore of an ocean. it was foggy and I was looking out to sea. I don't remember this but I think I went out as far as I could and drowned (on purpose?). I was then in space, something guiding me (God?) and we zoomed throughout the universe. I saw stars and galaxies and it was amazing. Then I appeared in this room full of guitars. Some of them had broken strings. They represented people's lives. Then, I asked if there was a place to go rollerblading in heaven. I appeared outside on a smooth tarmac and there was this girl rollerblading like an ice skater. I joined her and it was fun

I wanted to die.

I was with my friends and we arranged a date to die. We told our parents and they accepted our decision. Eventually, we arrived at this pond/mini lake/idk what to call it. It was me, Niki, Aubrey, Brittany, and Dani. Two of them tried drowning themselves but it didn't work so we arranged another date. This time, we would jump off a cliff together. It took a bunch of delays, but eventually we arrived at this cliff. All our parents were there, crying. But it was like they accepted it. They would let us kill ourselves. During this dream, I woke up several times but would fall back asleep and return to it. Unfortunately, we never got to jump. But I would have loved to..

Let's run away
To a place no one can find us
Because no one would dare to look
Where we are going
There is no pain, no fear
A place so far away
No one could reach us
Once we leave
We will never be able
To come back
Because
You can't come back
From death

I was in the house of an old friend, Rachel, with my mom and a friend. The house was brand new, walls and furniture covered in white. Rachel's mom was standing in the kitchen, welcoming us. There were some black hand towels on a rod on the wall and me and my friend used them to dry our hands. Eventually, Rachel's older brother came up to us and said something like, "You're messing up my towels! There's towel fluff on the ground!" I didn't see anything wrong with a bit of towel fluff on the ground so I said, "It's just a little bit of towel fluff! It won't ruin your towels!" But then he started yelling at us about it and told us to get out of the house. I walked toward the door and he said things like, "you're a mess! you're worthless!" etc. Me and my mom were then standing outside the house at this huge window. The window was all foggy and I was able to write on it. I wrote, "You asshole! I AM messed up! I (can't say this part) ....(tried to think of a number even though I lost count).... 10 times!" He looked at at what I wrote. Then, I appeared back in their house and was washing dishes. I knew I didn't belong in there, so I was crying. I used a towel to wipe away my tears, but still I was crying. It was that beautiful, real emotion I experience in dreams once in a while. I then saw him standing behind me. He wasn't angry, but just standing there in silence watching me as I continued to cry.

I was at an outdoor Starbucks with Niki. I went up to order and the woman recognized me. She said, "I'm sorry but we've run out of the Mocha Cookie Crunch(or whatever drink it was)" which was what I normally would order. I was fine with that though because I was planning on ordering something different anyway. I told her I wanted a vanilla latte and a vanilla frappicino. She already had a cup with my name written on it like she knew what I was going to order. I was waiting for her to come back to the register to pay but she just looked at me and said, "okay?" asking if the order was correct. I said ok and went to sit down by Niki. We were sitting at small white table outside a gas station next to the coffee shop. There was a dead dog in the middle of the lot. It didn't seem weird at all. Just a dead dog that no one had gotten around to cleaning up yet. The woman came to me and handed us the drinks. I asked Niki if I should go up and ask the woman if I could pay her for the drinks. She looked at me with a serious expression and said, "Let me ask you this, Laura. Do you have wonderful dreams?" Taken off guard by this question, I tried to think of something insightful to say but all I came up with was, "sometimes."

I was supposed to get a message from God, but to get it I had to climb up and down these steep hills. It was dark, and I tried twice to get to the end, to climb the last hill to the top, but each time something went wrong. On the third try, I could feel myself getting somewhere. I just knew in my gut that I would make it to the top. I got excited, and at this point I knew I was dreaming but I didn't care at all. I tried very hard not to lose the dream by being in the moment and not thinking about anything else. I made it to the top! There was a box with a letter in it and the letter was addressed to me. This is it! Finally! I'm going to get a message from God!!!! I pick it up and start to open the letter...

MY FUCK DAMN PHONE GOES OFF

FUCKING PISSES ME OFF

fuckmylife. (this is not the first time something like this has happened)

I'm not actively practicing lucid dreaming techniques but I'm still hoping to accomplish my goal of reliving an old dream.

I was standing in an open field, which I think was an air field but not sure. It was a bright day and there was some kind of building nearby with a bunch of people in it. I look up and see this passenger plane fly up and down above me, losing control. Then, BAM! It crashed right in front of me as I held my head for cover. Then, a few seconds later, another BAM! The airplane exploded into flames and sent debris everywhere. I was lucky to have survived without a scratch. I ran in the building to call 911 but a bunch of other people had already called. I called anyway because I figured they would want to talk to me since I was a witness. I told them exactly what happened and that I was right there when it crashed.

I'm getting closer and closer to my task. I really hope next time I can actually do it. I want it so bad!

super short DEILD

I started waking up and realized I was dreaming. I felt myself waking up but tried anyway. I was in a beautiful field with a bunch of trees in the background. I decided to fly, which is the first thing I always do. I jumped up off the ground effortlessly and flew into the air. I think I might have seen a rainbow. After only a few seconds of flying, I thought to myself, "okay. This isn't what I'm here for." I closed my eyes and pictured where I wanted to be. When I opened them, I ended up in the shower(no water running) in my house. So close! I woke soon after.