Hopeless Wanderings

I'm still trying to do a task in a lucid but I haven't gotten there yet. I'm getting close though

7/6/13 DILD

I was in a basement at someone’s house with Niki. It was storming and there were lots of tornados. I realized that this couldn’t be real, this must be a dream. For a second I thought over if I really wanted to have a lucid or just see where the dream would take me, but then I realized that there was something I wanted to do. I slowly made my way outside, careful to not lose lucidity. When I got outside there were dark clouds and the sun was peeking through. I thought it would be nice to see a rainbow, so I waved my hands across the sky and two or three rainbows appeared. Now I had to try to go back to that place from my dreams. I closed my eyes and pictured it and really focused hard but when I opened my eyes I hadn’t moved. I either woke up or lost lucidity.

7/10/13 DILD

I was following Rachel around this water area and she would sort of wade around in the water and then come out before it got too deep. She started saying things like, “I can do this!” and did something impossible(I don’t remember what). This got me thinking.. I’m in a lucid! “Hey, watch THIS!” I told her. “I can fly!” I put my arms in front of me and imagined me flying and I took off. At first I started to fall back to the ground like I always do, but I visualized flying high and it worked. I soared around up and down like superman. I have NEVER been able to fly with that much control before. The dream was extremely stable and vivid, probably one of the most stable ones I’ve had. I knew I had a task to complete. I thought, “okay I’ll just fly a bit more and then I will try to do my task,” and I was confident that I would be able to do it. Then, “SUNSHINE LOLLIPOPS!” My phone goes off and wakes me up. SO PISSED.

Last night I had a bunch of dreams, but for the life of me I cannot recall almost anything from them. Just a few bits and pieces. I woke up on my own around 3 and 5. It seems I don't really need an alarm clock anymore because I always wake up before it goes off.

Around 5 (I think?) is when I tried to WILD. I felt myself falling asleep and almost lost it but then remembered and kept telling myself "this is a lucid dream" until finally I was in the dream. I found myself on the top of the roof of a half-built half-unfinished home. All I remember was walking through a door before I woke up. Short, but better than the first lucid WILD I achieved. I think I'm getting better.

Dream Fragments
-Dad was driving with me in the front seat next to him. We were driving over a bridge when he lost control and our car drove off and we fell into the river. The water was very muddy and murky and it was filling up the car fast. I yelled at my dad to open his window, since mine wouldn't work(we have electronic ones). He opened his just enough to have room to squeeze out. I took a deep breath and then we went underwater. Dad was taking so long to get out of the window and I wanted him to hurry. I was running out of air. I think we made it somehow.

-Dad had surprised me by getting us two McFlurries.

-Indian amazing skier on ski hill

-being punished for some reason by someone

So.. I'm still setting my alarm clock for 3:30 am and 5:45 am. I slept through 3:30 and when the 5:45 went off it woke me from this dream. I wrote it down and when I tried to WILD I couldn't fall asleep so I just got up for the day. I don't know what to do because I want to record my dreams right after I wake, no matter the time, but I don't want to not be able to fall back asleep.

I was at a Culvers/gas station with Niki. I stood in line and got up to the counter ready to order two slices of cheescake for $8.59(something). The guy at the counter told Niki to go get milk from the stock room, so she left to do that. Apparently I looked sad because the guy at the counter asked me what's wrong. Niki had gotten the milk and was staring at us. "Why aren't you putting the milk away?" he asked her. She got to work, even though she didn't work there. I got my debit card out to pay and was trying to hand the card over but the guy got distracted. More people came in and went to the checkout counter that had about 5 crew members. The store was very highly rated because of the customer service. One guy came in and the only person open was the guy who was supposed to be checking me out. He tried to approach him but the counter guy said "sorry, I'm busy." He went away. I was waiting in line again. Finally the guy got back to me and asked me what the price of the cheesecake was. I said I didn't know, around 8-something. "7.33" he said. Odd. Before I could pay he got out two beaten up very old looking books. They were supposedly from 2007 but I looked at the bottom and printed in black was "1987" but someone had crossed off that date and written "1997." They guy took the books and sat down by Niki and I at a table. "What's wrong Laura?" he asked me, in a friendly, caring voice. "Nothing," I said. He went on to look up something in the book and found it. He said something like, "these books are so useless and old they should be burned." Niki laughed. I had my head down resting on a yellow folder on the table. I didn't mean to look sad but the more he tried comforting me the sadder I felt. He stopped what he was doing and I thought he was getting up to leave but, to my surprise, he hugged me. It was really nice of him.

Ok.. I woke up 3 or 4 times in the night and each time I tried WILD but it never worked. This is night #4 (I didn't record dreams from the night before because I don't remember the dreams)
I can barely remember dreams from last night...

Me and my parents were in the psychiatric hospital visiting my sister. I was with this black, curly haired girl and we were either trying to leave or enter the unit. We needed passes to cross, it was kind of like going through those gates at Six Flags or Summerfest. The girl got in easily, but when it was my turn the lady said I had the wrong I.D. I looked and my I.D. belonged to the black girl, which was strange because she got in without her I.D. Anyway, somehow we got in. The next thing I remember was getting ready to leave with my sister and parents. I stopped in this room with this girl with a name that started with a J... and somehow I got to know her. It was as if I had spent the week in the hospital. She said she was going home that day but had nowhere to stay and she didn't feel safe by herself. I told her it was okay if she stayed with us, I'd be happy to have her. I said I have to ask my mom, but that she'd say yes. I ask my mom and, to my surprise, she said no. I said, "we have two houses to stay at. What if we stayed at the one in (hometown)? Or up north?" But she said no way. I got really upset and started crying.

Wow I did a horrible job remembering... there are so many pieces left out. I need to practice my dream recall.

Well, I didn’t fall asleep until around 6 in the morning so I was still awake at 3 and 5 when I was going to try WILD. I tried but I couldn’t fall asleep. Note: I should try it around 8 when I am fast asleep and dreaming.

Me and a bunch of random people were staying at someone’s house to watch over it while they were gone. The house was huge, though I don’t remember any specific details about it. One of the rooms had an arcade in it, the kind where if you win you get a bunch of candy or prizes. I was immediately drawn the arcade with the candy in it so I played the game and it was very easy. It was a game I already knew how to play so I won. The prize consisted of three candles. Random, but I was satisfied. I wanted to steal some of the candy because it was out in the open but I never got a chance. There was much more to this dream but I don’t remember

I was about to leave to go to camp with a bunch of people my age. There was a room full of girls and I didn’t know anyone. I entered the room and tried to find people who were like me. I found some girls and we all started dancing and had a blast. Once we got to camp, it was a huge area in the woods by a lake, with camp on both sides of the lake connected by a rope bridge. Camp was fun because everyone was an adult so we didn’t have to follow any silly rules. Me and a group of girls were assigned to a certain part; there were at least 10 different parts of the camp. Our group was going to eat dinner and then go night dancing, which sounded like tons of fun. Me and a partner had to make a dessert dish for dinner and the other girls would make the other dishes. We never got around to making the dessert because we didn’t know we had to, so everyone left us out at dinner. I left, kind of upset, and was about to walk across the rope bridge when a counselor joined me to see how I was doing. The rope bridge was extremely narrow so when we got to the middle of the lake, the counselor lost her balance and fell in the water. She was laughing and asked me to join. I hesitated, but gave in and jumped in. “The water is warm here, much warmer than up north,” I commented. She didn’t seem to pay attention. My parents and sister arrived to visit me. We walked around and passed M&M World. I suggested we go in and, of course, my sister agreed. When we got there, we were the only ones there. There was a trampoline outside with rocks on it and it was beat up. Random. We never got to go in.

Me and my dad went shopping for a new guitar. I wanted a light wood one. I was nervous to try out the guitar in front of the guy helping us because I wasn’t very good. I never got around to playing a guitar. I saw a friend of Niki’s, Nick, sitting in the guitar shop and talking to his friend. Somehow I got the idea that Niki and died. I started sobbing and went to sit by Nick so he’d ask me what’s up and I could tell him. Then I realized, “hey wait… I just hung out with Niki yesterday…” which was true in real life. Embarrassed, I got up and walked away.

Wow I haven't posted a dream in forever. But I am really trying to get back into it this time because there is a particular thing I want to do in a LD and I won't stop(hopefully) until I do that. I want to revisit a scene from a dream I had when I was a kid. A dream that stuck with me til this day. I want to go back to that moment and figure some things out.

There was this guy that had kidnapped two girls my age and I was there, but not really there, to witness it. Me, Brittany, some weird dude, and maybe some other people were having a little party type get together. We were in the middle of the woods but it also seemed like we were at my house, maybe just in the backyard or something. This guy strolls by our party and wants to join in, so he tells his kidnapped girls not to do anything stupid, and they come join in. No one suspects anything, but since I saw what had happened I knew I had to do something. The three of them sat down at a table and they were facing me. The girl with the black hair had a desperate look on her face that said "help!" I winked at her and excused myself by telling them I had to make a phone call. I walk far enough that I'm not in hearing distance and I call 911. No one answers. I tell them the situation and my address and hang up. When I get back I wait awhile and they still don't come. The girl comments that she wants to see my phone, and I give her a harsh look and tell her no. I try 911 again and I don't remember what happened...

I was standing behind the recliner in the living room. My mom was sitting in that recliner and Steph was sitting on the long couch. Leo and Nova got up, Leo grabbed onto Nova's back and then Stella joined in. Those cats were doing the Conga Line! I realized there was no way this could happen and I knew I was dreaming but woke up.



When I tried to fall back asleep, I kept telling myself, "I'm in a LD, I'm dreaming" and was doing pirouettes on a large pink surface that was floating on pink clouds. There was a gazebo next to me on this pink surface. I started to lose myself and could feel the dream taking over me and I knew I was dreaming. But then the damn cat started whining at my door and woke me up. I was pissed..

Flying Lucid
I was walking down the freeway with this big group of teenagers when I realized I was dreaming. Or rather, I always knew. The first thing I did was jump into the air and try to fly. I just came right came down though. I realized that I could do anything if I just imagined it in my head, so I tried again and his time flew super high and then actually flew around for while. I came back down landing hard on the ground. I hen proceeded to jump high in the air, higher and higher each time, and come crashing back to the ground and "die." After doing this from above the clouds, I got bored and thought I'd try visiting space. So I clew upwards and through the clouds and It didn't take long before I was outside the Earth's atmosphere. I went to visit the moon first. It was relatively small and there was another small moon around it. I touched it and it fell away like dust. Then I went to Saturn and touched the fiery ring. I got bored with this and decided to smash back to Earth again.


Therapy Gone Wrong
Take One:
I arrived at my therapy session after what seemed like forever and I took a seat across from the therapist. I started talking to her about some stuff(idr what) and she then lied down on the couch and didn't seem to be paying any attention to me. Another client(or some random person) sat next to her and she seemed to pay more attention to this other person than to me.

Take Two:
Once again, I was headed off to therapy. I was getting ready and trying to get moving so that I would be there on time but things kept happening that delayed me. Somehow, I was finally almost there and I called the therapist to tell her I would be 20 minutes late. But by the time I got there, I was actually on time and had to wait for her to be ready. I was in the waiting room with some other guy about by age, with long brown shaggy hair. He seemed kinda cool, and I think we talked a bit. He eventually left and went up to the front desk of the physical health section of the building and I was surprised that he wasn't here for mental health like me. Anyway, sometime after or before that, I had to go but my shovel away so I placed it outside the door to the building(why did I have a shovel? I have no idea). I went up to the receptionist in the behavioral place or whatever it's called and told her I was ready to see my therapist. After what seemed like hours of getting ready and figuring out how to get here and sitting around in the waiting room, I would finally get what I came here for. But, instead of telling my therapist I was here, the receptionist jokingly told me, "You're going to have to break up with your therapist." And then she said, "She's busy with another client." A client who took my place. The therapist was standing just a few feet away from me talking to another client. I was pissed off. Then, on top of that, my old friend from elementary school(who turned into a bitch) showed up with two of her friends(TL and TM) and they were all dressed up in homecoming dresses. They were sticking their noses up in my business and I asked them why they were here and they said they were looking for cute guys. (wtf?!) I was so mad and upset that I just left.

Me and my friend Ali were going to be in the dorms together for the new semester. We were surrounded by guys I didn't know and one of them was carrying a bottle with a beta fish inside it. There was hardly any water in the bottle and I felt sorry for the poor fish so I told the guy that I would fix up his male-shift fish tank of his. He agreed so we would go over to his dorm first so I could help him. We got in the car and when we arrived we parked three buildings back and had to walk all the way to his dorm. We went inside he and his buddy's dorm. It was pretty big and had a small kitchen and two round tables in it. I hoped that me and Ali's dorm would look like this. There were new roommates checking in around us and meeting each other and I felt like I was missing out back at our dorm since we hadn't even been there yet. So I prepared another cup to put the fish in while I cleaned the original bottle and said to the guy, "you should really to to the dollar store and get a nice fish bowl that would only cost you..." I was cut off by something. Next thing I know, we are in the parking lot(me, the fish guy, and three other guys) and someone was chasing us. I could later see that this man was Matt, the police officer from the show Heroes. He chased down and, using his powers, killed the first four guys as I was running away towards the dorms. I turned around and there he was right in front of me! I was terrified but I knew I had powers too so I jumped up and flew backwards away from him into the night sky. I appeared back in the dorms, this time in me and Ali's dorm which we shared with some other girls. I didn't want him to find us so I shut the door and closed my eyes and when I opened them our room had been switched to a different floor. One girl was like "hmm did the number to our room change?" The next thing I remember was being on the balcony on the upstairs of the school. The bad guy and his friends were holding professor Suresh from Heroes over the ledge, threatening to drop him 5 stories onto the main walkway of the school. I was up there also and they were holding me but I managed to escape and flew down off the balcony and prepared to catch Suresh. A crowd was drawn now that they saw me fly. I was worried that they wouldn't drop him now since they knew I'd catch him and instead kill him another way. I began to fly back up there and then woke up.

I became friends with this Arab guy who seemed nice at first but then he told me to deliver a bomb to the middle of the city. I wanted him to think we were still friends and also I was scared of him so I agreed. I was with two of my friends and I had put the bomb in the back of the Tahoe and was driving down the street. The guy said he would tell me when it was time so we had some time to do whatever so we went to the movie theater. We were about to see Lord of the Rings but then I got a bad feeling about the whole bomb situation. I told my friends that maybe I should call 911 and tell them what this guy was planning. But then I wasn't sure if I should call 911 because it didn't seem like a real(imminent) danger. We decided to leave the movie theatre before the movie even began and take off in the car. I couldn't control the car very well and ended up running a red light. A cop saw and pulled me over, but when she approached me she brought out a list of everything I've thrown away in the past week and pointed to a movie. Apparently she didn't like the fact that I threw away a good movie and that was the only problem. I thought about the bomb in the back of the car and thought I should tell the policewoman. I hesitated first but decided to tell her. She didn't make a huge deal out of it but instead told me to fly the bomb out over Lake Michigan when it was time. So me and my friends went about until I got the call from the guy that it was time to deliver the bomb. I told him I was on my way to the city and instead took off to the lake when I arrived, the waves were extremely large. All the chaos going on around us was causing this to happen. I put the bomb in the helicopter and prepared to fly. One of my friends got in but the second one missed it so as we took off, she jumped in the water to try and catch us. I flew over to her and threw her a rope and she climbed up. I then dropped both friends off on the shore and decided to fly the bomb out myself in case something were to happen. So, knowing that I might not make it back alive, I took off in the helicopter and headed for the middle of the lake. I'm not sure what happened next because I woke up. Maybe that means I died..

Me and Dani were at the school library and Dani was fooling around somehow.. I think she was stalking people and running around. I was mostly standing there watching her and being entertained. But then one of the teachers, some blond-haired lady in her upper 40's came up to Dani and told her to stop. I got away from the scene before the teacher could see me. Later I caught up to Dani and she told me that the teacher had given her a schedule of all the detentions she would have, which was around 6 or 7 days, which didn't make any sense because she wasn't really doing anything wrong. Not to mention we are in COLLEGE, not high school. Also, Britt happened to show up out of no where and also got the same punishment even though she wasn't even there. The teacher finally caught up to me and was going to give me the same amount of detentions, which I didn't understand at all since I didn't do anything; I was just watching Dani. She gave me the schedule of all the detentions I would have to sit through, but I noticed I would be gone up north for half of them(in RL I really will be gone those days). I told her this and she gave me this evil look so I ran away down the halls and tried to get away from her. Then something in the air changed; instead of people wanting to punish me and not liking me, the mood changed and people felt sorry for me. Like they knew sometime was wrong with me because I wasn't right in the head. The principle came up to me but instead of giving me some lecture, he offered me some lunch.

another drowning dream. you know, the usual.

I was in a large pool with my friend, we were just having a good time hanging out and swimming around. There was this part of the pool where there weren't many people for some reason. I decided to casually swim over there to check it out, but when I swam a few feet past the side-floaty-marker-thingy I realized that I was in a very deep section. It was apparently the deepest deep end in all of Wisconsin, about 15-20 feet(which obviously isn't true in RL ha!). I am absolutely terrified of deep water in dreams(and sometimes in RL) so I swam back to the shallow end as fast as I could, my heart pounding. But as time went by, I became less scared of the deep end and decided to explore it again. This time I remember entering the deep end and being under water, floating along, and then drowning. It was so peaceful, it felt like flying. The lifeguard noticed I was drowning and went to pull me out, but afterwards I was only half conscious but he had a class of a few students by him. He was showing the students how to help a drowning victim, and even though I WAS a victim, he payed more attention to teaching the students what to do than actually helping me. So that failed. And I woke up.

I tend to often have dreams that replay twice in the same night, with different outcomes. The second time around is usually easier since I know what to expect, but still these two are very different.

Take One
The dream started off with me standing by the ocean, watching the waves grow bigger and bigger. This little boy was playing in the water, but then a big wave came over him. Luckily, he was able to duck under it and people cheered as he dodged a few of the waves. The warnings of hurricane Sandy came in, and people started rushing inland. I never found out what happened to the little boy, but I bet he died. I got to this big safety building about an hour inland and met an old man who, for some reason, took me with him to the door and had two tickets and used one on me to get us in. He must have been rich, or known the man at the door because it seemed really hard for people to get in. The building was brick, with giant pillars holding it in black, and on top of a hill. I walked around outside a bit and saw lots of people outside that couldn’t get in. In particular, there was this one lady who looked in through one of the windows, turned around, and threw herself off an abandoned waterslide nearby. The waterslide had rushing water going down it because of the heavy rain, and at the end people were getting sucked in this whirlpool type thing. She waved goodbye like she was on television or something, and jumped on it, sliding down and drowning at the bottom. This influenced other people to do the same and be in control of their own death. I went back inside the building, which wasn’t crowed at all(what a waste of space). At some point I was playing this guitar that I found, playing horribly because I just couldn’t do it in my dream.
Then, the big waves came and rushed over the top of the building. One enormous waved knocked us off the ground and we went rushing further inland with the wave. The section I was in started sinking, and I was extremely terrified of having a slow drowning death so I took this plate I found(apparently we were in a kitchen) and smashed it against the window. Surprisingly, it worked and the window cracked open. I lifted myself out as the water was already up to by chest, and then went around and smashed as many windows as I could to help people get out. Clair from Lost was there with her baby, so I helped them get out. After that, I woke up and tried to go back to sleep but it was too late… and then the dream started over again.

Take Two
Don’t remember how this one started off, I think I was by the safety building again, but I knew it wouldn’t be safe so this time I needed a different plan. I went down to the ocean front, which looked more like a lake front, to gather some supplies and get ready with my dad. This couple near us decided to enjoy their last few moments alive by going in this cabin and making love. I had to swim across the water to the cabin to get some supplies, don’t remember what, and the swim back was extremely hard because of the strong currents, but I made it back. I was ready to leave and getting scared that we might be too late, but my dad wanted to stay behind and do something. I couldn’t wait any longer so I took off on my own without him. Later I joined up with this group of Indians(not Native American) who were headed in the same direction. On me I had only some candy and just the pair of clothes I was wearing. I felt dirty with mud and rain soaking through my clothes. When we reached the top of this cliff, I saw my dad. He had a motorcycle waiting for us and we took off. Eventually we found my mom and sister in a house. They told us to go on without them and hide in the cave on the side of a mountain. We were scared for them, that they might get snowed in since the rain had turned to bizzarding snow. But we took off, this time in a helicopter flown by my dad. We flew to the mountains and saw the little cave, but instead we discovered a different, less steep mountain with a path going up it. It was a famous mountain with a hiking trail, and people were making their way up to be protected from the floods. We followed them to safety.
Whew. That took forever to type up.

So, I only really post on my DJ when I have a dream that really sticks with me that I want to remember, and this was one of them. I think it came from watching the news about the guy who walked into a theater during The Dark Knight Rises and started shooting everyone. My dream is sort of based on that, so it's a bit disturbing.

I was at my local park with Niki and we were just hanging out. The sun had just set and it was getting darker out. There was a movie theater there at the park, Showtime Cinema. Of course it didn't occur to me that this theater is not located in the park obviously, but just a few minutes down the road. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, so I just went to check out the theater, perhaps to see what was playing(which I think was Dark Knight Rises, but I don't remember for sure). Instead of the whole movie theater being there, it was just one screening room. I sneaked in through one of the emergency exits, which wasn't locked for some reason. The theater was packed with people, and I looked around and saw a guy with a gun. Shots were fired, so I ran back out before the shooter could notice me and dialed 911. The lady on the other line seemed familiar, like I'd called 911 a few times already and had heard her voice before. She seemed very chill and relaxed. "911 what's your emergency?" she asked in a very monotonous tone. "There's a guy shooting people at Showtime Cinema! People have been killed, please send someone over." I said. "Someone will be right there," she replied, not a hint of worry or tension in her voice. I thought she would want more information, but she didn't say anything else so I just said "thank you" and she said "you're welcome. bye" like it was a normal everyday phone conversation. I waited outside awhile and it seemed to be taking the police forever to show up. Then, the theater doors burst open and people came running out. I thought it was finally over, until I saw the shooter come running out after them, shooting every person he could. There was blood and screaming; it was a terrible and frightening scene. He shot and killed one of my friends, Dani, and then came towards me. He took a shot at me and missed but I fell to the ground and pretended to be dead so that he wouldn't keep shooting. When I looked at him again I noticed that he was so angry and raging that he didn't notice he'd run out of bullets and was now just shooting blanks. So I stood up to him. I don't exactly what happened, but whatever I did worked and the cops came and everything was secured. The next thing I remember was reflecting on what had just happened. I vividly recalled all the blood, the screaming, the chaos, the dying, and it traumatized me. I cried and cried throughout the day and the next day. I kept having flashbacks and it was just awful. Then I realized that this was probably just a dream, so I talked to my mom and she showed me a newspaper article headlining the terrible event. There was some kind of picture that was blurry and I don't remember, and then somewhere in the writing they mentioned that I was a hero. I was too distraught to even think about being a hero though. 36, that number kept following me around. I could physically see that number, floating in the air around me. 36 people dead. So much death. I cried again, the pain was so real, the emotions so intense. Then I woke up for real and breathed a sigh of relief when I could finally know for sure that it was just a dream.

I know, I know. I haven't posted in forever!! I have really gotta start keeping up with this. I'm just so lazy. This is the first entry in like two months or so.
While editing the lucid/non lucid colors in this it took me awhile to figure out which one was green. I had no trouble with that in the past.. I wonder if my colorblindness is getting worse, if that's even possible haha.

I was rollerblading outside my house when I bumped into an old friend of mine, who was also on her rollerblades. We started talking a bit and then decided to go rollerblading together. We had a blast, going through our neighborhood doing tricks and turns and showing off. To my surprise, she was actually better than me. My mother and sister decided to join us walking while me and my friend skated. I told them it sure was nice to be able to rollerblade with someone at my skill level since none of my other friends can skate at all. So we just had a dandy fun time rollerblading along and it was so fun it almost felt like flying. At some point, I realized that I must be dreaming because I know this wouldn't happen in real life. Even though it felt so amazing, I didn't care that it was just a dream at the time because I was lost in the moment. BO's "My Never" played in my head throughout the rest of the dream. She started doing a cool foot-point-turn-spin thingy that people do in dance and I thought it was so cool so I asked her to show me. I tried this in real life and failed but since I was in a dream I thought I would have more luck, so I tried it. It didn't turn out that great, but better than last time. At the end of our rollerblading journal, I must have lost lucidity because we decided to exchange numbers. I couldn't seem to work my damn phone with a touch screen(even though in real life it's just a regular old phone) and so I ended up giving her my number instead. And that was it.

I know I haven't posted in awhile but I've been so lazy. I've been remembering dreams but I'm too lazy to type them up. Half of them have been about drowning, as usual, including the one from last night. I'm going to post that one as well as one I had a few nights ago that really creeped me out..

I had a dream that I was bleeding all over. I don't know why. I was just taking a shower and blood was turning the water red and I was bleeding out. In another dream the same night, I was trying to help a friend from my college with her math homework but she became frustrated and started cutting her wrist. She didn't stop there. She kept cutting all up her arm and was bleeding all over. It was quite scary/creepy. When I woke up I found a spot of blood on my pillow. I have NO idea where it came from. Weird.

I was in a pool with some of my friends in some sort of waterpark or hotel. The pool wasn't too big, maybe about one-third the size of a regular high school pool. But it was super crowded. There must have been atleast 60 people all crowded in there. There was barely any space between any of the people. I was treading water somewhere in the middle of the pool when I started to get pulled under. I tried to fight my way back to the surface but there was just so many people in my way, and I gulped in water and started drowning. I made it to the surface just barely and managed to wave my arms for help. Next thing I remember, a lifeguard had pulled me out and brought me back to life. Most everyone was out of the pool now, either leaving or watching me.