Turquoise Dreams

01.15.16

Yesterday work 6pm-11pm. Stayed up till 4 am today. Slept till 11:30 am.

Read the TOTMs thread and decided to do the Read the book title, meet someone from IRC and change gravity for a DC.

900mgs of my new alpha-GPC at 12:30.

Went to sofa at 1:34, woke up from a 40 min long event at 3:18.

In less than 10 min I was already feeling it. Body relaxing, getting light, even with my cat sleeping on my legs.

Then I realized I forgot to pull my hood on my eyes so I can see the HH better. I did that even though I could barely feel my body anymore, but I told myself that it will not ruin anything.

I was very close to a lucid, when a dog int the neighborhood started to cry and I'm like oh no, coyotes. I thought my attempt is over, coz that got me out of the mood.

I thought I'll stay for 2 more min. I realized I'm typing something and that I'm dreaming.

LDs

40 min long event with 2-3 distinct entries. Rest of it was "i'm dreaming" "oh it ended" "no wait I'm still here" "it ended" "nope still here"...

In one of them I started to move my dream arms in front of my face to see if I am dreaming. They covered my face and it was dark. Then I noticed a sliver of light between my fingers, so I put my hands down and it was a sunny day.

I walked to the window to jump out but I remembered I wanted to see my room to compare if it's the same. The shape and size was the same, but furniture was different. I got to the window again, when I decided I didn't compare enough so I went back and said, yup, still not the same. Then left through the window.

I'm sitting on a floor of some room. Looks like a nursery. There is bunch of books around me. I pick up one and it's a small choldrens book with all hard pages. Nice green cover and it's about animals.

I pick up another one, it's an atlas. I got excited and started paging through it. I thought what if I pick a place and teleport there. I'm looking at map of afrika and thinking NOPE. I look for north america, I know it's at the beginning. I think New York would be nice to visit. I find the east coast, but Los angeles is in it's place. Dangit. I put it down.

Then I remember the TOTM. I pick up the atlas again and start reading the cover. As I do it, the letters flip and now I see the back side and it's also upside down. So there is the barcode, and ISBN# and bunch of tiny numbers. I turn it around and it's the back side again. I laugh. The page turned upside down like on a tablet when you turn it sideways.

I pick up a childrens book and it's about animals. I pick the next and the next, all about animals.

Then I see some book titles, not sure on what. I read like 10 of them. I think I better write them down. I reach for an empty envelope and pen that I prepared. I know i prepared it for real in WL too. But I know this is a dream and the envelope is not the same one. So after I write them down, I keep repeating 2 titles so I remember them. One I forgot, the onter one was "6 doctors laughing".

Now I'm in a room, laying on a floor. I hear some commotion from the other room and there is a guy with a suitcase comeing by my room to the front door. He stops and asks me what the hell I'm doing there. I say I love there, even though I know I'm just visiting. And I know he doesn't live there either.

He walks up to me and starts touching me all over. Then there is another duud and another chick. Fun goes on for good 10 min.

In one transition I wanted to take it further so not sure how, but I got some really strong vibrations, strongest in over a year and a half.

1.10.16

Had a day off yesterday, today I have a 6pm-11pm shift. Had a short lucid during morning nap from 10:30 am.

Today I did the same. Slept through night, got up around 8, then back to sofa at 10:20 to WILD then stayed in bed till 11:58.

I guess my subC was starved for lucids because it was just awesome. The sensations from the moment I layed down. Pushing backwards to get the falling feeling was so intense and worked like a charm.

This time I actually got into a lucid with the falling back motion. I think what I did is I leaned back, my headrush went crazy intense, then I straightened back up again and I was in a new dream. Once this didn't work, I was still in the same place, so I decided to stand up and walk away.

First LD - WILD - don't really remember what happened.

Second LD - DEILD - In a second lucid I was sitting in a high chair, like at the bar or barber shop. I just remembered that I wanted to read a book title. I grab a magazine off the counter and start paging through it.

Every page is a full cartoon add for a movie or a DVD. For some reason I think it's not for books. I read them with amusement. At the end I decide to wake up and write them down. So I reach form my pen I prepared and write down at least 6 titles. When I woke up for real, I only remembered "SpongeBob - Under the Sea" and "Iron man". I remember thinking "ooo, Iron Giant, OpheliaBlue loves this one too"

Third LD - DEILD - I also got to meet Payton Manning and 3 of his Broncos teammates, and taught CJ Craig from the West Wing about Lucid dreaming. Also came this close from having sex, but I had too many clothes on.

I was walking on a very wide and long, shiny stone starcase going up. On my left, there were more narrow stairs going down. On top of those stairs was a small platform with chrome railing. 4 football players in Broncos uniforms were standing on it. I was surprised there were no reporters. As I walked by, I recognized Payton Manning, the Broncos quarterback. I panicked and furiously thought about what to give him to sign. I was gonna give him my arm, but I didn't have a pen. So I just said to them "great job, love you guys, the whole team is great". They rolled their eyes and smiled.

I'm sitting next to a tall woman. I realize it's CJ Craig from The West Wing. I ask her if she knows lucid dreaming. I tell her I tell this secret only to people I know they are good. She says yeah, and she tells me what type of dreams she has. I tell her that tha'ts not LDing and proceed to tell her what LDing really is. When you realize while dreaming, that you are dreaming. She was called away, but she asked me if I wanna go with her on the movie set.

Next is a non-lucid. I'm in some building with many rooms. People having sex. I'm thinking I gotta get me some. But I realize I have too many clothes on. Darnet.

This non-lucid was proly last night - I'm with my dad and uncle and others in some hispanic suburb of NY. I look to my left and there is Empire state building with some golden colors on the top, just like in the beginning credits of Sex and the city show.

We are in a european pub and I'm picking beer to drink. First I have is a dark one, next i'm picking a light one. The don't have IPA.

1.9.16 - day off
Yesterday worked till 11 pm and went to bed at 2am. Slept till 8 or so, WBTB till 10:30. Slept till 2pm, but had a lucid in first part of sleep with WILD. Only about 5-6 min long.

I was in some tiny apparatus, which then turned into a flying car like in Jetsons and I drove it through a obstacle course to see how fast and accurate I can go. I went pretty fast.

In a much longer non-lucid after this one, there was a huge party in a family I used to work for. So much food. But I later realized it's all tofu. Even the icecream I ate. Ewww!

01.07.16

Had 5am-1:30pm shift yesterday and have a 6pm-11pm shift today.

I slept a lot last night.

DR:

Very chaotic, fast paced, no leader, nobody knows whats happening or how to solve it, everybody doing his own thing.

I'm in some very tall and big structure. Modern building, maybe like office building. There is water on 2 sides.

A girl I'm babysitting goes in the shallow water and is dragging a huge black sheet of plastic behind her. I grab it and reel her in.

Later on the other side of the buuilding, we look out the window and some huge tornados are in the sky. They ar skinny and they have some cross sections on them. They are weird. We get in the corridors and away from doors and windows. I try to go back and look at the tornadoes again, but I sense danger like I could get sucked out at any moment.

Some strange, bad force is at play as well. We look for ways to neutrilize it. We look in cabinets and drawers and other pieces of furniture.

12.23.15

Second week of dayjobs.

Had an awesome dream. Long and detailed.

First I'm at a doctor because I got 2 small wounds on my right leg. I needed stiches. He asked if I want something for pain before he starts and I declined. Always wanted to know how that feels, so here is my chance.

He puts some small metal rod through my skin as to test if it hurts? I'm not sure. But it looks like he has no idea what he is doing.

Change of scenery.

I'm walking on a sidewalk on some hilly residential neighborhood. To my left are some winding, steep, concrete steps with some thick shrubs and lots of trees next to it. There is ryan and his brother and sister. We greet each other as if no time had past since we last saw eachother. We are all happy. Their mom is there too.

We do bunch of things together. Happy dream and good feeling afterwards.

Last saturday 12/12/15 was my last day working at night. On monday of this week I started day shifts.

For last 2 weeks or so, my dreams are so compeletely effed up. Bad dreams with things that...urgh

12.7.15

Slept through night, since I was off. Going to work tonight.

I'm at work, sitting somewhere on some boxes, having lunch, holding a bottle of beer in my hand. I realize it and trying to figure out why I don't do this more often. Then I realize I'm at work : P So I rush to hide it and I put it on a shopping cart full of crap.

I go upstairs and there are cubicles like on The West Wing. Lots of glass walls and doors. There is a former classmate there and we decide to do it. He goes to get ready to he bathroom while I start locking doors and closing shutters. One door is toally off the hinge so can't close it and there is lots of foot traffic. I know it's proly not gonna happen.

12.06.15

I worked yesterday, had night off today and tomorrow

I'm told that I can move to an island off of Sweden. It's a manmade island made of wood. I'm under water, coming up to surface. There is lots of seaweed and light is filtered by them. I'm only few feet under the surface. I'm watching the bubbles rise, how the seaweed is moving with the waves and some sea slug on a large leaf. I'm amazed. I come up and see a large rectangular island that looks like a pontoon.

Next I'm on the island and i feel sand under my feet. It's hard to believe that it's all on wood, because sand seems to be deep.

Someone needs to poop, so they squat behind some drift wood. They cover it with showel and sand. I wonder if someone makes a hole next to it and they showel sand on it, if they uncover the old poop 0_0.

12.4.15

Last night had night off. Slept till 3am. Then was up and slept from 1pm-9:30pm.

I talked to my subC while falling asleep, thanking for my dreams and asking for more. I got 3 very detailed dreams.

1. This was the first one so don't recall much.

I just got to the top of some tall hill with bunch of other people. It's at night and we are sitting down to rest. I pick a spot near a low stone wall on the edge of the mountain.

I see a garage door. The top part has small decorative "windows". They turn one by one and I see some very old carved heads of some missiles. By old I mean from 9th century or so. Red lights on some electronic panel underneath each missile is starting to blink and change as the missiles are charging, ready to be fired. I'm impressed, but not surprised. Also glad that it will help us defend that location.

2. I am by the shoreline. Not the ocean, but more like some cove with high rough, volcanic looking walls. There is a house in the corner. It looks like a vertical tube made out of glass. It has glass walls and ceilings. The owner had to make it this way, because not enough horizontal space, only vertical. He is showing me each story. One is a swimming pool. Another is an aquarium. One has a bedroom. 2-3 are just a pool with maybe a fountain in the middle. Everything is glass and water, so if you look down from your bedroom, you see all the pools and aqarium underneath. The sign on the house says it's on the market for 50 million.

3. I am in Iran. By myself. Walking on a beach, under some natural bridge in the sandstone. It's shady there and I realize that's why locals like that spot. Not too hot. But I want to collect some sea shells so I walk on. There is lots of women in black burquas and bare feet. I don't see any seashell there. I know that place gets lots of foot traffic so they were proly already all picked up.

I decide to pull out my camera and take pictures of everything. I'm kinda worried if they will catch me and delete all my pictures. Maybe I should put a new memory card in, so if they do, I don't lose all previous pictures.

I look at the camera and it has a sticker on the objective. As I look through the view finder, I see the view blocked off, but there is still a small ring on the edges of it and I think it would be interesting to be taking pictures like that.

I see something in the water that's not an ocean. It's more like a small river heading for the ocean just a few yards away. The thing looks like much brighter water that is tropical blue while rest of the water is dark. I aim my camera to take a picture.

Now I am on some kind of a boat. As I come closer, I see that the thing in the water is a body of a man turning with the currents. His arms are tied in front of him with dark blue cloth. As the boat continues, there is bodies everywhere. I count at least 20. All have hands tied and I realize they were executed by the government. People on the shore are spitting at them. I'm waiting for a loogie to land on me too, but they have a good aim.

Going on a open top cart. Some girls on it I think will be unfriendly to me, but one of them tells me I should have some kind of a tour guide book with me, so the police will believe me that's why I'm there. I see they all have a few books and leaflets in front of them. One girl gives me one of her books and I start looking at it when a female police officer comes to us. I know how strict police in Iran can be and I expect to be interrogated, but as I say good morning to her in english, she just lets us drive by. It's also important that we have someone who can translate from english for them, so I agreed I will do that for the group.

The female police officer turns to us and shouts something to one of the girls. Something about her name Anna-Marie, if it is in the dokuments as well.

Change of scenery and now I'm at some historic site. Inside of something like a cave that was unearthed. Bunch of stone artifacts are on display tables. Curators or guides are there to show us. We can touch the artifacts. Most common are some small shiny, brown and black pebbles. Mostly elongated pieces, smaller than one inch. I'm finding them on the tables, floors...

I'm going in some hallway. On the left are jail cells with metal bars and no doors. It's suppose to be a museum, but I think they have prisoners there. I get to one cell and I collect some of those stones from the floor. They are suppose to be important and help with something.

As we get back, I'm looking at more stones on the exhibit tables. There is a box of broken crystal. One visitor takes 2 pieces and puts them together. They fit. Then he adds 2 more fragments and now the crystal ball is complete. It's not see through and not round. More of a square and carved like crystal bowls or similar.

I look inside and there are people walking around in there and having a life. I look deeper and it's like a whole universe in there.

after mrpriority mentioned in chat that he never been anything but human, I rememebered another dream:

[17:19] <@gab> I morphed into an animal last night
[17:19] <@gab> first time ever
[17:19] <@gab> ginsan will be proud
[17:19] <@gab> proud pappa
[17:20] <@Mismagius^^> Oh nice!
[17:20] <@gab> bald eagle
[17:20] <@Mismagius^^> Oooh, good choice
[17:20] <@gab> was cool
[17:20] <@Mismagius^^> You fly?
[17:21] <@gab> yeah, we were talking with ginsan the other night
[17:21] <@gab> and he mentioned he loves birds
[17:21] <@gab> especially predators, and showed me some videos of bald eagles
[17:21] <@gab> I guess I wasn't watching alone
[17:21] <@gab> yeah I flew
[17:21] <@Mismagius^^> Awesome~
[17:22] <@gab> I remember leaning forward and my arms morphing into wings
[17:23] <@gab> and this wasn't even lucid, or I don't think it was, but I was thinking that I should try morphing, picked a bald eagle and after I thought I gotta tell ginsan

12,03,15

Yesterday sleep from 11;30am -9 pm

I just returned home from someplace. As I'm stepping into my grammas one room home through a wooden door, I realize that I have been away for 10 days and didn't get online or check my emails one single time. This fills me with dread and terror and I just can't fathom how did I forget about all that.

I turn right and I reach to the back of the shelf that gramma has right next to the wall. It's a metal shelving thing. I am absolutely mortified that I don't remember where I hid my laptop before I left but at the same time I remember it's on the shelf. But I'm so scared out of my mind that someone took it and how was I so stupid to leave it there.

Next thing I have it opened on a desk an my brother is there too. I have an image of a small fire that just started out of the blue, but was estinguished.

Now I look at the small wooden stick that's in one of the USB ports and it just caught on fire by itself. I blow and it goes off. I tell my brother who was not looking and ask him why he thinks it happened. We somehow come to the password that I set for my laptop. He says the fire is the result of pent-up energy that has no other way for release.

Next we are talking to a woman who tells me that It's bunch of numbers and all of them give sum of 8, which I didn't know. Shee says that sum of all those 8's is 0, and 0 is the number of evil intelligence.

I ask her how to get rid of it. She says I need to smear my room with pentik. DAnother woman thats there with her says the name of the plant in another language, sounds latin or european. I want to know if the evil intelligence will stay in the room or follow me if I move.

I woke up so scared I was braving the thought of getting up and putting the light on, but I lost the fight. I got up and put the light on and stayed up.

11/16/15

Sleep 4pm-10pm

We are somewhere outside, by the water. Something happens and I need to be inoculated. So someone carves few slow, deep cuts into my right hand, between the thumb and pointy finger. I feel crappy, as in sick or something. Someone says it needs to be done again, so they recut the cuts and make some new ones. Lots of cuts, all deep and wide with dark red blood.
(watched walking dead just before bed)

This was on my day (night) off, Saturday 11/14/15.

Woke up in the morning after full night sleep. Atayed up for an hour or so, took one of my last 2 galantaminds and 3 Alpha GPCs. Watched some TV for 15 min, then wanted to give me enough time to fall asleep before GM kicks in in about an hour after taking.

Fell asleep, then woke up and felt my familiar Head rush. The back top of my head feels ice cold and sensation of water rushing through the water hose.

I knew I was awake, but I say what the heck, I'm gonna just stand up and walk away anyway. I did that then counted my fingers and I was lucid.

I was in some kind of a urban canyon. Between tall buildings and carts full of boxes, just like those in my work. : ( I grabbed a red two-wheeler mid flight and started flying with it higher and higher, over the boxes on the next cart and next one. I was happy to be flying. but srs, c'mooon. Work, boxes, two-wheelers... work... work...work : ((( More like a nightmare. Doing it 6 days a week for real and then have a lucid doing it on a night off. Pathetic. And I did this few times, maybe 3-4 times.

I appreciate the lucids and all. But...

11/14/15

Afternoon sleep after sleeping all night last night (was off).

I hear a sound outside of my moms kitchen. I go out on a balcony and don't expect to see anything, because it;s cloudy. But I do see a large commercial airplane. It's making a sound that's not consistent with it's size. There is some writing in blue cursive on it's trunk, but I can't make it out. I yell at my mom to get me the binoculars. She says they are in a sock drawer. I'm frustrated coz that's not helping me, I want her to bring it to me.

By then the airplane landed and it's a small helicopter with cockpit made out of clear plastic in a shape of a bubble. It almost looks like a model controlled from ground, but it's a full size one. The place it landed on is a small frozen lake surrounded by ice and snow and hills.

Now I see water to the right, under the full moon. I say that's strange, because it should not be visible. Then I notice that the water is all the way to the second story balcony and windows. I tell everybody that the house is floating away now, same way as in other 4 dreams I had about house moving/floating away.

Water starts to come in through the windows and I jump there to close them more tight, and so does my dad. I yell at my brother to get some more towels, but he says no.

11/14/15

I had a night off last night. Slept from 11pm or so - 8am

DR:
I am in Asia, perhaps Vietnam. In some kind of a run-down hotel. Something about bathrooms.

A chef makes scrumptious looking asian meals, like General Tso's and some pork belly.

I'm stocking some chocolate cake. Now I'm in the office of US envoy in this asian country. He is telling me that there is no escape for us, we are gonna be all killed no matter if we are trying to escape on a bus, or oter way, or stay in his office. So I ask him if it's ok to eat that chocolate cake. He says sure.

I go back and eat the whole damn thing. First I only take a chunk of the frosting and want to cut it up so nobody notices, but then I say srew it and eat it all. But before that I make me a plate of that asian food and add some mustard that my friend is asking for. I remembered after I woke up how it all tasted.

Just before this I'm watching an opposite wall in this hotel, where on top part mice start to pour out of an invisible opening. There is hundreds of them. They stay on this short ledge on top of the wall. I tell this to the envoy and I tell him that good chunk of the wall is missing there.

(Just before bed I watched the movie Chef where he was cooking these awesome looking dishes. This is the food part of my dream. The mice - I saw a roach farm on tv that same day.)

11.07.15

sleep 3:45pm-10pm

Finally recall.

I'm somewhere in US with my mom. She says we are going somewhere to see our family. So I buy a plane ticket.

Sitting on an airplane. Window seat. I notice that it's rather comfortable. After you squeeze into your row, the seat itself is larger and more comfy than on other planes. I realize it's because this is a smaller plane.

Somehow I don't know where we are going. We just landed and are taxiing to the airport building. Going under few bridges that look like tunnels. I tell my mom this looks like tunnels in town where we live in europe. Just then I glance a city in the distance and it's New York. I tell her "we are in NY, NY!" Is that where we were going? She says yes, so I'm like cool, I got the right plane ticket.

Some people are getting off, so is my mom. I get up an start walking to the door, but stop to grab a in-flight magazine to learn what type of an airplane this is so I can travel with same one next time. I'm only few seconds behind others, but by the time I get to the door, flight attendant just closed it. I say I'm getting off, so she opens it and I quickly walk out.

There is no airport building, only a dirt field. I look back and there is a chain link fence with small, faded metal sign saying the name of the airport. I'm trying to make it out and remember it. The last part of the name is ...Field.

We walk into some small bar. My mom shows the barkeep a map and asks him how to get to the marked address. It's a crossing of 2 streets. Barkeep writes down few bus line names. A bus arrives outside and leaves. I say there was a bus, but he says we should take a tour bus line, otherwise the bus driver may get mad.

I look at the map. My mom keeps mentioning we need to get to Bonaventura. But the name of 2 cross streets is different. Then I remember that Bonaventura is a name of the building her mom's sister lives. We are going to visit her. I saw the building on the google. It's very nice, with a doorman and all.

2.
We are sitting at the table as guests on come cooking competition. There are 4 kitchens for the competitors. They have teams of 4-5 people. My mom is asking them a lots of questions just to be annoying. I tell her to stop, they need to think what they gonna cook. When she doesn't stop, I walk up to the group of judges and I wait for them to finish evaluating before I tell them about mom. They say it's time to leave anyway. My mom is not happy, but I tell her that guests are allowed to stay only for first half anyway.