Turquoise Dreams

Wednesday, 12/28/11

Bedtime 11:55pm. Had some champagne.

DR between 7 - 8am

1. I'm on a street C, next to my house on RD in NZ. It's a beautiful, sunny day. I look up and on a blue skies I see a grid of rectangles, like a table in Word, maybe 5x4, made out of nice, white, puffy clouds/airplane contrails. In one corner are angel wings also made out of clouds. I'm running in excitement and yell at the neighbour E in his apartment "Look up and see, look up and see".

2. I wake up in an apartment. There are 2 more people here. It's morning and we are getting some food ready for breakfast.
I look in a fridge. There is a bowl of corn and green peas, but I can't see it clearly, they seem to be moving, or maybe my eyes are twitching. They project a yellow glow.

I can see everything clearly, colors, details, it's bright, I just cant read. There is a box of cigars. It says CUBANS. I try to see the country of origin, but cant find it on the box.

One person leans towards me and looks at my eye to find out, why I can't read. Then I realize, I see through my eyelids.

Now I'm in kitchen on RD10. To test if I can really see through my eyelids, or if I just "see" the room from my memory, my dad is doing something. First he throws a big pink blanket towards the tv, then a smaller brown blanket, then he is pulling on a brown sweater with stripes and then he pretends to throw a baseball. I identify everything correctly. I see color of wall paint, light are on, sharp details, but I know, my eyes are closed.

I'm back in the apartment with the fridge and I tell to these guys - I thought I'm awake, but maybe I'm asleep, or maybe I was asleep before and now I'm awake - I couldn't make any sense of it.

3. I'm in a living room in RD10. I lay on a sofa, my cat is next to me. I try to see the color of her aura, but I decide to see color of aura of my friend (I don't know who she is). She is sitting on the floor, leaning against our green bookcase, holding a baby? I can't see the color directly, but I see the inside of the bookcase illuminated by light blue light. I ask her with laughter, if she want's to know the color of her aura.

I wake up and feel the headrush, that for me means transition through field of stars to Lucid Dream.

All dreams were super focused, sharp, colorfull, bright. I was talking to people, which I rarely do. I have a feeling I did have an LD or was very close to it, but can't confirm. Very good feeling from the whole thing.

Monday, 12/26/2011
Something about mall and competition.

(Lately I'm noticing, tons of my dreams are about competition. I don't understand why)

Tuesday, 12/27/2011
took a nap around 5pm.

IWL - I spent a day reading Karen's posts about OBEs
DR- I'm sleeping on sofa and I get the vibrations, I will my body to lift up and it does. Feet first, then rest. I stand up gently next to the sofa.

IWL - after waking up, I feel the familiar feeling of headrush (fast flight through field of stars like at warp speed, headfirst) in back of my head. Something must have happend, it possibly wasn't just a dream.

Newertheless, cool feeling from the whole thing.

Sat. Dec.24, 2011
Bed 1:30am

School trip with H.

Sunday Dec.25, 2011
Bed 12:30am

I made a contract to have an LD.

Regular DR.
- I'm in a hospital setting, but I'm not sick. Big bright rooms, lot's of instruments. Kinda quiet and peaceful.
- Find some old piece of meat and something nasty falls out of it as I'm taking it to the trash can. A mean person claims I'm hiding it for myself and makes me give it to her. I tell her it's dangerous and gross. She doesn't listen.
-Something about cooking noodles and grinding pecans for it.

GM 4mg+Choline 300mg at 6:50am

DR - I spilled water on my bed, had to change the sheets. As I'm putting the comforter on, it suddenly gets heavier and heavier. That strikes me as odd (first time something strikes me as odd) and think that it must be a dream. No time to RC, because as the weight of the comforter pulls my head over the bed, I enter in "headrush" - acceleration feeling of my head racing through field of stars. I say "faster" and faster we go.

LD#10 - I end up in my parent’s bedroom, making beds. I see my auntie and I give her a hug. Her dark red pajamas with small pattern of green are very soft, as brushed cotton. I feel it to stabilize. Also touch the closet, light brown, high polish, slippery and cool to the touch. Frantically rub my hands to stabilize, but I wake up.

It's already past 8am and lots of noise outside, can't really sleep. But have a couple of visuals, I fly over a dream and although I'm not thrilled with it, I decide not to take a chance and enter it, maybe change it later. But for some reason I don't land in it.

Dec.22, Thursday. B-100 7pm, bed 2am.

DR1 - my former classmate M.H.
DR2 - Big museum like mansion, Family from LB likes to overnight there. I'm suppose to take one kid by my car to this place to sleep over. I don't like to be there, place is haunted. I talk to this friendly spirit and I'm not so scared anymore.

DR3 - I'm traveling on a blimp with my mom to Finland. The front and left side has huge windows with metal frame forming a grid. I look closer out the window - we are flying over bautifull icebergs. Sunlit place reminds me of Baltic sea when traveling IWL from Poland over Scandinavia and Greenland. The seats are in U shape, light brown colored wood. I sit next to a guy. Another guy sits on my next side and they start talking to each other, while blocking my view and squishing me. I say 'excuse me", but they are ignoring it. So I lean forward to get some space and I feel how they are leaning on my back with their elbows, making my spine pop up and down like an empty soda can. It hurts and I yell at them.

Friday, Dec.23, 2011. No supplements, bed 1 am.

DR ar 6:20 am
Some kind of a retreat/school for LDing.

DR later on
Im walking on a berm with some kids. Looks like NZ. It's fall. We see some dry tree branches on the ground. I notice bunch of snakes hidind there and show them to kids. One snake comes up to us and is slidering around the girl. She is laughing, but I'm worried.

We turn to go home, but after a while I realize, I put down my DJ somewhere on the ground when we sopped and forgot it there. We had to turn around and walk back. We came to a train station and we hop on a train that's only being repositioned on the tracks, but I hope it will take us closer to place where I left my DJ. Train goes the wrong way, we hop off and I finally see where we need to go. There is an obsticle between us, but we make it over.

Dec.21st, 2011, Wednesday. GM+Choline

I wrote a little contract again to have a lucid tonight. Read Waggoner’s book, did my RCs and my mantra. I also gave thanks for my previous LDs. And I got me my #9.

DR #1- I’m in a back seat behind a driver in my own car. I should be driving and I’m not happy that someone else is.
DR #2- My cousin K
I remembered lots more, but couldn’t wake myself up to write them down for good 20 minutes, and by then that’s all I remembered.

Took GM 4mg at 4:05am.
Tried to either WILD, or if that didn’t work, just fall asleep. Woke up from LD at 5:45

LD and the experience:
At first no visuals, my field of view is dark grey, just like proper backside of your eyelids should look like Then suddenly BAM. Lights turn on, my whole view gets bright and a graphic of top part of classic alarm clock shows up in bright golden color on white (like backlit) background, together with headrush.

I get all excited and I know I shouldn’t so I try to calm down. Then the movie strip starts with some black and white pictures. They are going by at blazing speed. All I can think of is “yes, yes, dream, dream”.

I start to feel/wish to get my dream body hover over my sleeping body and I feel my whole body levitate some inches above my bed. I see my room awash in dark green, as if I was in a pond with green water (just like last time, when I saw my room like this).

I start to will my body to move out of position over my bed. First my head moves over carpet, then my body follows. I’m still in laying down position, just turned by maybe 15 degrees, so my head leads the way.

I start to float over my carpet next to my bed. I’m going through the kitchen, speeding up a little. The whole time I keep saying “keep going”. Then there is a wall separating me from my neighbor’s apartment. I will myself to go through it.

Inside the wall is dark and longer than I thought it will be. I expect to enter neighbor’s room, but no. I emerge in a small room, I feel like its underground. Looks like something you would find in Italy - a cellar type of place. The room is whitewashed and the paint has fallen off in some places. You can see masonry underneath. I’m standing up now.

I don’t like this place. In a hurry to get out of there, I forget to RC or stabilize. By the way, I usually forget to do that when entering an LD by WILD. I go through the nearest wall and I visualize a nice beach behind it. But no, there is another room similar to previous one. I feel a need to get out.

I look to my right and there is a two wing glass door, with one side wide open. There is a street at night behind it. I decide to exit here. By the time I get to the door, I’m already flying. Just like I used to in my previous LD, but not in my very last one. I hover couple of feet over the street. Look up at the sky and see the moon. As I look better, I open my eyes and I’m awake in my bed. RC couple of times in disbelief that it’s over. But it’s over. I get up to write it down.

DR at 7:18am
A girl from church charity comes to the house and gives a boy and a girl living there some swimsuits. As I’m putting them away, I notice, that they change pattern and colors as I hold them. Decide to go and show it to people in the house. I show them the swimsuit, then hide it behind my back and when we see it again, it looks completely different. We are all amazed.

The lady in the house bought some old furniture and I notice, there are some bad forces associated with them. There is a lady, I don’t really remember what I have done to her, but we fought and next thing I see, she is floating in a canal with green water and some algae growing on the sides. She is looking at us and smirking, as if she wasn’t hurt.
A delivery guy brings another piece of furniture. He walks straight to the kitchen a pours himself a shot of vinegar. I told the lady, she has to send the furniture back.

I’m trying to sleep and LD.

Then I’m standing in front of some cages made of walls. First cage has a boarded-up window. I poke at it with a stick. An old, really dirty guy opens the board unexpectedly.
Next cage has two lions behind a screen window. I also poke at it.

Monday, Dec.19, 2011

DR at 7am.
I'm talking to two girls, we are in US. One of them is going home, but wants to return here. So I start explaining to her in detail, how to get visa and how to proceed (the info I gave her is exactly right IWL).
- Someone has a store. I'm in it, but I have nothing to do with the store. In walks some kind of a law enforcement person. The other person in the store tells me to identify myself to the officer. I get really mad and I tell her, that we are not in some police state (and I name couple of countries), where people are afraid of police, like in the country I grew up in. I proceed to say, that if the officer want's me show some ID, she can ask me herself.

Tuesday, Dec.20, 2011
I'm somewhere with someone in building with windows on the left side (looks like building of a bank in NZ).
I did remember more, but didn't right it down in time.

Sunday, Dec.18, 2011.

Some twins were mentally ill. I was carrying my stuff in a laundry basket.

Neighbors kid, who is all grown up now, got out of jail and pulled a gun on someone at the corner grocery store. We got away from there and called cops. We took refuge in and abandoned building nearby. Watched it all happen from there.

- another long LD (over 5 min)
- talk to DCs
- ask my subconciousness to show/tell me/teach me something I should know (how to be a better person,
how to LD anytime I want, ...)
- find a beautifull place
- go to space and check out those space ships in orbit I saw last time
- go to the moon
- fly to another galaxy
- have adventure on Starship Voyager
- swim in tropical sea
- be a modern day freedom fighter
- ask a DC to get me lucid
- find my DG
- visit Bikini Bottom and play riding the fishing hooks with Sponge Bob

Dec.17,2011. Saturday

Went to bed at 12:15 am GM 4mg+300mg Choline at 4:22am. Lucid before 6:44am.

Few thing that played a role in me getting lucid last night.

1. I wanted to take GM already night before, but went to bed really late - 2am.
2. Read a thread on DV about making a "contract" to get an LD - I thought what a heck, it can't hurt. So I wrote one as an afterthought just before bed.
3. Took GM
4. Read R.Waggoner's Lucid Dreaming book just before bed and I just got to the really good part and was stoked about learning some new stuff, but i got this overpowering feeling to go to sleep and have an LD. So I did.
5. I started a new RC 2 days ago (little RC song about looking at my hands and getting lucid from it)

New element:
- First lucid longer than just seconds (one long was maybe 4 min) 7minutes long
- First time I counted my fingers (10 fingers on each hand)
- First time I reached in my pocket and pulled out what I expected to find there
- First time had time to RC more than once and touch walls
- First time flying by flapping arms in Lucid
- First time expected to change the scenery when turned around

DR at 4:22 am before GM
I'm in town NZ on C street. Someone is jumping on a trampoline, falling back on it and jumping up again. On top of the hill are some puddles - 2 elements are merging to create new lifeforms.

GM+Choline at 4:22 am

Went straight back to bed in hope to fall asleep and get up at 7 am for 1 hour WBTB.
But started to have some pretty strong color (golden) visuals like before HH, so I thought I'll go with it and see what happens.

So I guess I got in a WILD, because next thing I know I'm lucid. Pretty strange feeling, because I stayed aware of my body in bed. I guess it's because my cats body was touching mine and I was not able to fully detach from waking life.

LUCID: I enter into series of lucids, they continue, even after I change position. I was able to do everything you suppose to do in LD, which I was not able to do until now, because I guess, this was most evolved LD I had so far.

I start out at home in town NZ, in my bed in living room. I have a headrush and wake up in bed. I know it’s a LD and get up. I remember thinking to be carefull and not to squish my cat as rolling out of bed and chuckled at the thought, since I knew I had no physical body.

Then I’m a soldier in barracks. It’s night and me and my buddy are sneaking out to shop for some food. As we come to the door, I hear some noise and open the door slowly with my weapon aimed at the door. In walks another soldier and we are relieved, it’s not the enemy. My buddy makes a pit stop in the restroom, that suspiciously looks like restroom in GTA3 I’m playing IWL.

Some kids with their instructor are in the courtyard. She is telling them something about chickens. I leave the courtyard.
Outside are small, really cozy looking little streets with nice little houses in orangeish hues. I know all is changed because of the filming they are doing there. I read some signs – street names sound Finnish. But I know I’m not in Finland – they just changed the décor for filming.

I remember to stabilize – rub and clap my hands together. I have 10 fingers on each hand, they look normal otherwise.

Wall of the house is orange with some white ornaments, feels little bit bumpy. It’s dark outside, street light are on. I look down the street to the skies and couple times yell lights, or something like that. It gets a little lighter. I realize, I’m not really yelling, just whispering and I’m aware of my throat on my sleeping body.

Walk through winding street lined with trees and flowers and think lets fly instead. I fly up flapping my arms, not as easy as before in LDs, but make it to the roof.

Next I’m in a hungarian food fair. I immediately look for sausage to eat. I see chafing dishes under heat lamps on display full of pork chops and fish. No sausage. So I ask one of the guys if I can have a taste. I remember, I should not have expectation of taste. When I eat the fish, it’s kinda watery, but not so bad.

The other guy comes closer and offers taste of different fish. I accept. I know I don’t have any money to pay them. But I do know, all I have to do is reach in my pocket and expect to pull out money. So I reach in and pull out some coins, (they look like old roman coins) which I know is more then 3 coins, they were asking for. But I make them say it’s not enough, because I have an agenda, which is suitable only for my personal DJ

I keep counting my fingers. Even before I finish counting, I know I’m in a dream, because there is a small sore on my left ring finger, that I know is not there IWL. But still finish counting and it’s still 10 on each hand.

I know this is a different caliber of LD, because until now in my LDs, I was flying like superman, or levitating without any effort. In this one, I had to flap my arms, although I went very easily, mostly because I told myself it’s easy and I can do it.
While on a roof, I say ‘when I turn around, there will be town B”, which I had a plan to explore. But there was some other town or something else, couldn’t really make it out.

first part of LD was sleeping on my right side, second part on left side.

Mon.12/12 night
some dreams but no recall

Tue.12/13 B-100 at 4pm
long dream but no recall

Wedn.12/14 nothing

Thur. 12/15

DR 2:28am - something about LDing

8am - I'm in a forest campground with family. There is a cabin with small kitchen/common room and 2 bigger bedrooms. Logs are brown. More people are sitting in the kitchen. Restrooms are outside.

Someone tells me to go get batteries f/my camera? I go this tiny shack - there is a counter, and behind it some small shelfs with some bread items. Guy behind the counter is unloding stuff from box on the ground. I ask him if he sells batteries - he does not.

I walk outside but take the wrong exit - there is a yard with someone there. I appologise and find the right door out. I'm walking under some trees, it looks like its getting dark. But little bit ahead of me, there is a beautiful tree all lit up by sunshine. Pretty fall colors. I notice some people on a hill far from us looking down at us with binoculars. I fold my fingers around my eye. I know it's not binoculars, but I get a surprise, when for a split second I can see them clearly.

I have a feeling, I can see a big, futuristic or just modern town to the right through fog.

12/12 monday

Could not sleep last night, finally fell asleep at 4am. Got up at 7am.

Went for a nap (WILD) at 1pm. Fell asleep and had a super short lucid.

I'm in this very large room - looks like a high school gymnasium. I'm shoving someone "look, what I can do" and I levitate a bust of some guy out of the shelf and something else.

I'm floting in the air while I do this and take the person I'm shoving my skills off by shoulder and we rise higher. As I'm flying/floating about, I can hear myself repeating "I'm dreaming".

At the same time, I hear a voice from somewhere deep in my mind wondering, how long it will take "her" to realize, she is dreaming. [As I was falling asleep, I was saying "I'm dreaming"].

I could feel the realization coming and suddenly I knew I was dreaming. Told myself not to get too excited and I almost went to do something, when remembered, that I need to stabilise. So I looked at my hands - they looked normal, they had normal color, I could see the wrinkles - but as I looked, I opened my IWL eyes and that was the end of it.

Dec. 9 Fri
-I'm in a really big mansion - the people are not home. I'm preparing dinner table with someone and chef G.R. is cooking!
-My friend M is sleeping over, we get up very early, my dad is not happy about her, mom made big breakfast

Dec.10 Sat
took GM 4mg + 300mg Choline at 3:45 am
went straight back to bed to try for a DILD - nothing
DR 5:06
Family friend J is visiting, sitting at kitchen table, getting ready for his trip - I bring him a DVD for the trip, so he can watch it when gets bored

Dec.11 Sun - nothing

Dec.7,2011. Bed 11:45pm. No supplement at bed time.

3:30am - no dream, or no recall
4:50am - I'm in house on RD street. We all sleep in different rooms. There is a star wars flying machine (one that young Luke piloted in the race to be freed from slavery). It makes a turn before it hits us and crashes into a neighbors house across the back yard.
Then we are in a town at night and my brother is in a race. Last discipline is swimming in a pool. I get in the water to cheer him up, he is tired.
My cousin brings some food - halves of bell peppers and grapes, but the fruit has been already eaten from it. There is a neighbor that IWL doesn't live there anymore.
I find my old pencil holder from school and decide I'll use it from now on.
Lots of people are going on a trip in colony of cars, I'm on a bus. There is a grey warship at the dock, 2 soldiers in camo, all dirty from white dust are impacting the dust into cubes and loading it on the ship with conveyor belts. As we arrived, they had some plants in planters ready for us to plant them outdoors.

WBTB 6:50am -7:45am GM 4mg + 300mg choline
Nothing. Lots of noise from outside. Couldn't fall asleep. Will take it next time at 4 am.

Dec. 5,2011 - B-Complex 50mg at 11:26 pm
bed at 2am

DR - something about fam in where I used to live

Dec.6, 2011 - no supps, bed at 12 am

DR - whole class went to get immunization, but I had a hidden agenda - wanted to get some testing done to catch somebody on the east coast

DR- I'm an alien arriving to earth? The FBI is already searching for me. Some friends have arranged hiding places for me and as I fly through the forest, I hide in a foliage in a middle of a trunk of a big tree. Then I'm on a sidewalk with friends and we all project fake images of ourselves. The agents trying to act inconspicuous are walking by on a sidewalk ogling us. I think we are fooling them and they think we are pretty blonds and they want to get into a jacuzzi with us.

DR - we are flying with friends to Australia. In the air we see an airplane that I recognize to be Australian Coast Guard with pretty aussie flag.

Dec.4,2011. Today, I got up at 6:48am, WBTB at 7:48am.

Don't recall much.
I was at home in SK. There was an aquarium, I guess we neglected to take care of it, because when we discovered it much later, it was overgrown and there were some fantastic animals living it. Like two huge - 3 feet long millipedes, multicolored, beautifull, but they gave me creeps. All kinds of different lifeforms. It's funny, this is not a first dream I have had about overgrown aquarium.