Turquoise Dreams

Thursday, March 8, 2012

I'm in a office building/science center/office for nature protection.
I'm waiting for someone to finish up his day and we would leave home. I'm thinking about how I wanted to work in this office and instead, my friend ended up working here.

Some office people get together and start talking about Moon and if it stopped rotating and if the position of Tycho crater has shifted. They are showing some pictures of it. I ask, if Moon stopped rotating, wouldn't we see the far side? I talk about taking pictures of the Moon, but not being able to tell if the Tycho crater has shifted it's position. They want me to bring my laptop and do a presentation for them. I don't understand why, I'm not an expert.

Then we are on the street. We see a flood coming, taking everything in it's path. We are trying to get back to the building. (I watched the Japan tsunami on TV).

2/27/12 Monday

I'm on bus in NY. I look at a piece of paper in my pocket and it says I need to get off at Bonhomme & Claire. I ask people around me to help me and tell me where the place is, but they have rude comments and some of them laughed at me.
WBTB 6:45 - 7:15am
WILD#12
As I'm falling asleep, I feel getting closer and I say UP. I feel separation and I appear in hallway outside mom's bedroom on RD. I remembered my phone call with mom, asking her if i can come and visit her astrally. She said yes and I promised, I'll be only in the kitchen/her room area and not anywhere else, so I don't scare her.
It's bright and I quickly start walking towards the kitchen. On my way I glance in the bedroom and see my mom sitting up on the bed. I quickly move to the front door as not to scare her. She comes out, hair all messed up and she is very surprised to see me. She says "you are here". We hug. I also hug with my dad.

2/2/2012 GM 4mg + Choline at 5:55am
WBTB 5:40 - 6:20am
I had the intent to have a healing dream, or go to a healing place, or self-heal my aura.
WILD #11
I'm on a street next to a bombed out building in a war zone. I ran into a building and start running up the stairs, as I'm being chased. At the same time I start to recite the mantra to summon my aura. My eyes get covered by my hand. I can only see underneath my palm and some slivers of light through my fingers. I end up in a brightly lit room. I look around and I'm very surprised, that I don't see my aura. I'm worried my dream will end, so I quickly wish to be taken to a healing place. I find myself at the hospital reception and a nurse welcomes me.

1/25/2012 Wednesday

WBTB 4:54-5:35 GM 4+Choline 600 5:17am
WILD#9 I intended to have a healing dream
I'm in a hospital in Russia. A lady walks by me and she hides in the restroom. I read the signs on doors and walk into the restroom. I want to sleep, I turn off the radio, why am I so sleepy? The room has white shiny tiles. Nurse knockes on the door. I open the door and she asks me if I need help. I say no and she leaves. She knocks again, I tell her I don't need help, I'm just sleepy. This time she pushes her way inside. I collapse on the floor. Now my perspective changes and I'm looking at my naked body on the floor from 3rd person view. She is doing something to me. As I watch myself, I direct healing energy to my body.
WILD#10
I find myself in dark room. (I just read IWL how to see - look at details of hands). I bring my hands up and focus my attention on seeing them. They slowly start to show and also I start to see around me.
I enter through a door into someones appartment. Right behind the door is a table set for a meal with food on it. On the other site of the table stand M's grandparents. (Iknow one of them had passed away). They are not saying anything, but they are invitingly smiling. They are asking me to join them for a meal. I walk towards the door on the other side of the room. I walk by opened door to another room, I think it's the kitchen. Two young man are already eating at the table. I enter the room at the end. This room is qiet, little darker, like a room in summer with curtains drawn. It has lots of older, dark brown, shiny furniture and white laced doilies. I walk around the room, my hand tracing the edges of furniture pieces. They don't want me to be there, because there is lots of gold in there.
There is a door to the bathroom. As I walk to it, I imagine a beach on the other side. But as I walk to the bathroom, there is just dark. I look at my hands until I can see.
I wrote these in DJ, but when I woke up, it was not there.
ALL THIS BEFORE 8am.

Saturday 1/21/12

WBTB 8:10 - 8:30 am, GM4mg+Choline300mgs 8:27am

WILD#5
I have HH about standing next to window in kitchen in NZ. My dad stands next to me. We are looking at the street. I see neighbours house, trees in his yard. I ask my dad how long it has been raining, because there are not just puddles on the street, but there are water plants growing in them. Skies are beautifull dark, everything is briliantly colored and clean from rain. Then I see a deer on the street and I ask my dad 'is that a deer'. Then we are looking out the bedroom window. It had stopped raining, sun is out and everything is crisp and clean. I see the little park, path to the river and tennis courts to the right. I wish myself there by saying 'I ...am....there'. And I feel being moved and now I'm hovering higher than trees. I look at my hands, they look completely normal and I wake up.
WILD#6
Again, I have HH standing by the window in living room in NZ. I see a UFO that's made out of clouds coming from the direction of tennis courts. It is laud like an airplane and flys over the house. I yell 'UFO, to the bedroom window' while running there. I look out and the UFO is taking off higher into the clouds. As I follow it with my eyes, I see the big, pale moon in shape of Antarctica. I say 'I...am...there' and I start moving towards the moon. I also wish to experience my higher self and thinking of my body wakes me up.
WILD#7
I see some HH and I wish to be there. I land in middle of the street of hillside residential community. Houses are typical SoCal, nice teracotta colors, front yards with lawns and bunch of flowers, white picket fences. I look to my left in the direction of the street and in the distance is a mountain range. The tallest mountain is half bare rock, half evergreens. I see it in such an incredible detail, much more clear and detailed than waking life. There must be an airport nearby, because i see huge airliners banking above the street. It's so gorgeous.
WILD#8
I watch old fashioned TV and there is an astronaut in a single person rocket that's lifting off. I wish to be there and in an instant I'm the astronaut. Unfortunatelly, I wake up.
Last dream of the night -
my mom is changing bandages on head of my classmate RB. She says, she'll change mine next.

Thursday, 1/19/12
WBTB 9am-9:15am
WILD and long dream after WBTB, before 11am.
WILD#4
I keep saying ‚Awareness' and 'now I experience my higher self'. I ask healing energy of the universe to heal me.
I have headrush, going down, I keep saying 'to my higher self', when flight changes direction to upwards. It's a beautifull sunny day, I still fly up by buildings, don't want to enter, so avoid them in flight automatically. Land on a very long slope. Sunny, bright, crisp, vivid. Under the slope is some town, on top is a tennis court with some players. I ask either for higher self or healing, but I wake up.

Wednesday Jan.11/2012

Woke up at 4:31 am and remember getting images and going into LD, but don’t remember, if there was an LD.

DR: I’m on a top floor of college dormitory/hotel. I need to remodel some thing in the rooms, to get them ready. I feel like student’s are coming the next day.

I’m repairing small picture frames by putting painters tape on frames and painting. I go from room to room. When I’m done, I go to check, but they are not good. When I pull the tape off, some tape is stuck. I go to rooms to collect them and redo by next morning. Kids and teachers are already there.

1 teacher S is already in the last room on top floor. She is heating up something on a small electric heater for her daughter. I see sparks flying. It smokes and sets of the fire alarm. I can hear it’s beeps. People start moving downstairs, I know, I can’t use the elevator. I come upon the infirmary with patients in blue sitting on benches alongside the walls, waiting to be evacuated. There is a girl with two crutches. I ask her if she needs help getting down, but she says no. I ask the nurse if I can help anybody get downstairs, she also says no.

Thursday Jan.12/2012
DR at 4:25
I have a nosebleed, someone is helping me.
We have returned from a trip, I’m going to lay down.

Friday Jan.13/2012
B-complex 100 at 2:50pm
DR 3:24am I sit on a ski lift alone
going down to the gold mine

7:18am
Our class is on a trip. We are in a small airplane. The entertainment on the plane were magic tricks by a magician. We are told it is expensive. We made a stop. People are getting off, I’m looking for my camera. I unload my backpack, everybody is leaving stuff on a plane, we just going to get some souvenirs and continue on a trip. Someone tells me he is going to get me same big gift as he is getting for someone else already, because I saved his life. Prior to this we flew very low under some electrical cables and I was worried we are gonna hit them. Then this person stands up and reaches up to see if we are too close. We were not, but he got electrocuted. As he is laying on the floor I check his pulse and breathing. He comes to and he thanks me.

Then we are in mountains. Not much green, more dusty and dry looking. We are crossing a natural bridge. On the other side is a castle. Inside we are finding treasures - I find couple of tiaras in shelves, bunch of jewelry, rings and such. There are also photographs from my previous trips with class. I want to borrow them to make copies. I ask husband of the teacher (they live here) if I can borrow the yellow envelope full of pictures, that I will return it to the teacher when she goes to work, school is just two streets from my house.

WBTB 7:18am-8:10am GM 4mg+Choline300mg at 8am
woke up f/WILD at 11:35am

HH- I’m looking at a moving landscape underneath me. Sunny fields. I Imagine seeing myself on the ground. The view is coming closer and I see something flying in the skies. When it lands, I realize its me. As my view is coming closer to the ground, I wish and I merge with myself on the ground. My view changes and I’m in the dream standing on the ground in middle of fields.

There are a few houses nearby. Three cars are parked in front. Yellow, maybe red and closest to me is a beautiful, shiny black dodge charger. I have never drove a car in my dream before, so I decide to go for a ride. Then I notice beautiful orange flowers in grass in the lawn right next to the car. I squat down to take a closer look. These are my favorite orange flowers, that are so common in parks in SoCal. They are so pretty. I see the grass too. Very clear, sharp, I see every blade of green grass. I inhale the air, don’t smell anything though. I look at my hands. They look completely normal, only 6 fingers per hand.

I get up, open the car door and get in. Its beautiful inside. Black leather, black steering wheel, gages and dials accented with red, windows are small and sleek and tinted. I realize I don’t have the key but I know I just need to put my hand to key hole and I will have the key. So I do that, turn the key and car start up. I step on gas and off we go. The road in front of me is turning left in front of some houses. I come to the corner and wake up.

Saturday, Jan. 14/2012
I have two roommates. One is M, we are in US. We want to go to the beach, but she says she cant, she is ill, had some tests done.
Then we are in front of my home in NZ and I’m telling her about possibility of healing in LDs and I explain to her all types of LDs.

Sunday, Jan.15/2012
We just got back home from somewhere. I’m in NZ. Before going upstairs to the apartment, I check the mail. There is a ton of mail. I look for ours and find a ton of magazines, envelopes. It’s exciting.

WBTB 5:37am-6:20am
DILD around 10am

I woke up in this house. For some reason I go to the roof. I see the roofs of other houses, it’s a residential area with moderns SoCal. houses in terracotta colors. I say to myself, if this was a dream, I could fly. So I levitate up and I realize I’m dreaming. I’m dressed in underpants and undershirt. I look around and there is a car approaching. Behind it is a cop car. I decide to better get of the roof, I’m sure the cop had seen me and comes after me thinking I’m breaking in. I loose lucidity around here. I’m back inside of the house. There is more people here now. I wake up.

Tuesday, 1/10/12 Bed 11:45pm

Some first time sensations. Sitting on a bed, did some looking at hands mantra “tonight in my dream, I will look at my hands and realize I’m dreaming”.

Then laid down on my back, which I never do, put my hand on my side where I have and ache and repeated rhyming mantra “from my hand shoots an energy beam to heal my body with power supreme”. Also for just a minute, envisioned white energy coming in through my head on inhale and out my feet on exhale, then in reversed order.

First thing that happened was, that I almost fell out of myself. As I was on my back, suddenly, very fast movement of my perception/inner body , as if I moved to lay down on my left side. Completely unexpected and so much fun.

Then I felt a swaying motion, as if in a hammock. Then on every inhale, I felt my body move towards the head of the bed and with every exhale, towards the feet of my bed. As is the mattress was on ball bearings. Quite intense.

At the same time, with every inhale and exhale, I felt a rotating motion, as if my body was starting to rotate, just one degree at inhale and exhale. I felt I’m no longer parallel with bed, but at an angle of 20 degrees. Also had a rolling motion going on, like on a water bed.

I kept saying my mantra and also saying ‘to the window’, and ‘up’. Then my cat jumped up on a bed and settled down to sleep. The sensations slowly stopped. I was able to open my eyes a couple of times, my room looked normal. I also heard some popping sound in my left ear, as if there was an open can of soda. At one moment, I felt my inner body squirm and trying to get out. I was two bodies at the same time. So interesting. Throughout the whole time, I was perfectly aware.

Then I had some detailed dreams.
DR 1 - 5am

I’m with group of people on a trip. I’m sitting with my teacher K on top of the mountain with steep slopes. We talk and exchange gifts. She gives me some plastic bags. I can clearly see the rocks, boulders and grass with flowers on a slope. Couple of times I almost fall off.

Then we are getting something to drink. I realize, I have only 10 money and 3 beautiful, large, black, shiny commemorative Star Trek Voyager coins. One is for season one and 2 for season 2. I don’t want to spend these.

DR 2
I’m on a street P in NZ. Talking to someone.

Waking Life Element
Not sure in which dream, but I’m talking to someone about bad quality of oranges in stores. The other person agrees. I say, the oranges I bought tasted watery. And the pomelo was sour and dry, when it should be sweet. Then we ended the conversation but I wanted to add something about tangerines I have bought last time were not the best, either.

DR 3
I’m with E in a hotel with beautiful view of city. Clouds look like after rain, I see rooftops and buildings of an established town, not super modern. I ask him where we are and how did we get there. (Waking life element). He sais we are in town…. (I forgot the name) in Maine. He repeats it couple of times.

I think I say there is no water in the room, so we decide to go to the town. We walk through the streets. Come to entrance to a hotel restaurant. In the lobby, the lady is asking me for my ID. I say I don’t have it, we just ran out to get some water. Then E shows his ID. The lady sais - I could either let you in or not, but if I didn’t, we wouldn’t live in a free country that we live in.

Then I have a conversation with E, about how I like, that in US, the person in charge doesn’t have to adhere strictly to the rules, but is able to make a decision, whether to bend it or not, if situation warrants it. (Waking life element - I frequently think about this).

Inside, the restaurant is round, ground level, with large windows and a round bar in the middle. I stand by the window and suddenly see a big boulder rolling down a small hill, that’s landscaped. Boulder stops across the small street next to one of the cute little houses. I call E to see this. By then we notice 3 boys on the hill fiddling with the boulders, making them roll down. A lady holding a tennis racquet comes out of the house closest to us and I bang on the window to get her attention. I try to tell her to call the police on the boys. But she calls them in the house and I realize they are her sons. Then she comes all the way to the window and apologizes to E, thinking he is a police officer. The glass is tinted and you can’t see well from outside in.

LD#13 DILD/WILD/OBE?

Monday, 1/9/12 Bed 2am

Before bed last night I read Waggoner’s Lucid dreaming book, I just finished it, as a matter of fact.

Last pages deal with inducing DILDs via MILD. Formal and informal suggestions. I specifically paid attention to part from Castaneda’s book “The road to…”, how don Juan was telling him to look at his hands in his dream and Castaneda didn’t understand, how in the heck is he suppose to do it.

So I looked at my hands while saying “tonight in my dream I will look at my hands and realize I’m dreaming”. I also said this every time I woke up at night, and at WBTB.

DR: 3am Lots of people, bunch of thoughts, activities about Lding

WBTB 6am-7:50am

LD - woke up from LD at 9:40am

I was trying to WILD, but fell asleep before anything happened. I had quite a long dream before I somehow realized I’m dreaming. So this would be a DILD. But I didn’t look at my hands. I did finger/palm RC and it was the weirdest one so far.
My thumb went in just half way into my palm before I stopped pushing, because it was so real. Not like a playdough in previous RCs. When I pulled my thumb out, there was a big wound that started to close up, I could swear, there was blood. Quite uncomfortable.

But I also remember trying to roll out and levitate out at the same time and I remember hovering above my bed and not knowing how to stand up. That would be WILD/OBE.

LD- I’m in a big, one story house. Lots of rooms, lots of people. It’s some kind of a trip. My mom is visiting, rest of the family has left. I tell her, we should go and do something, since she is the only one left visiting.

There was a bunch of kids and cats. Someone put some chicken soup in the yard for their cats, so all the cats from neighborhood were hanging around the yard and inside the house. One kid got eye infection and we were like oh, great, not everybody will get it.

I somehow realized I’m dreaming. I’m floating around in a house, propelling myself by touching furniture. Suddenly my left had gets stuck to the cabinet. I look, and the cabinet handle was just fixed with some strong glue. I have to pull my hand hard to get it free, it feels like skin from my thumb will peel off.

I get to the room I was before and think about what to do, when I remember I wanted to look at my cats in OOB. I see both of them and they look normal. I squat down and call them. My boy starts hissing and backs away, but a kitten that I don’t know goes after my hand and wants to play.

Then I’m outside. It’s night. I remember I wanted to go to the moon. But I also remember, that I have changed my mind and wanted to stay close and explore the city. I look up and there is the moon, tiny, behind a mist and is rapidly getting smaller until it disappears.

I start flying around, bouncing of bushes and trees. Everything feels real, branches hitting me in face, and I can smell jasmine and see it’s small white flowers everywhere. Try to fly up but not much luck.

There are 3 tree trunks, like a birch, but completely white. I try to fly to the top, propelling myself with my hands, but it’s not easy. I wake up.

Wednesday 1/4/2012
DR 5am - illegals crossing river; in class with teacher S; game show on TV

Thursday 1/4/2012
Took an evening nap - new HH - 1 tiny heart and 1 happy face

Friday Jan.6/2012 bed 11:55pm

Set up another experiment - put a small piece of paper with one letter and a colored pen on top of my kitchen cabinet to try to see it in OBE.

GM at 5am
woke up from OBE at 6:35am

OBE#6
I’m in my bed trying to OBE/WILD. I suddenly realize, I see my room from the correct vantage point, as I’m laying on my left side. It’s darker than in WL (I have some nightlights IWL). All I see is left side of the bed. Right next to me is my cat. I see her as energy in shape of sleeping, balled-up cat. I immediately start rolling out. It takes me a few tries, I’m amazed, she is like a little speed bump. I’m not worried about hurting her, because I know, IWL she is closer to my feet.

So I roll out and fall to the ground. I start crawling on all four towards the kitchen. IWL, its about 8 feet from my bed. As I’m crawling in total dark, I realize, I could feel my way. As I raise my right arm, I bump into a piece of furniture. I grab the round, smooth, cool leg of a desk/chair. Right behind it is a cabinet. I don’t know how, but next thing I’m looking at the top of the kitchen cabinet. It’s much brighter now and I can see a piece of paper identical to the one I put up there IWL and I clearly see capital letter T. Next to it is a small packet of handy-wipe and text on it is in orange cursive. I take it as a color of a pen I left up there. Other than this, there is a bunch of letters and postcards, addressed to me. I can clearly read my full name written in cursive, not in my handwriting. There is also a book. I really wish I could read that all, but I wake up.

After I wake up, I check , if I got the letter and color right. Nope, the paper I left up there has a big square on it and the pen is green.

I was disappointed, especially, because I don’t own any table or chair, that could account for the leg I grabbed in OBE, and I really wanted to go OOB in physical realm - identical or near identical to waking life. It took me almost 2 days to realize, that I actually do, and It’s exactly where I felt it.

I played back in my mind, how I rolled out and crawled and as I’m following my path, I see a small foot-rest, that has 4 6-inch legs and they look exactly as what it felt in my OBE.

WBTB 7am-817am

Regular Dream:
I’m in Mexico. Some nice resort. We go to the pool. Beautiful clear blue water. I dive in, feels good. Next time we come, the pool is closed. Someone with flu contaminated it. Bunch of people disappointed.

We decide to go to the beach, but we see dark clouds gathering in the distance. Wind is starting and I see something like a tornado. I take pictures. People are trying to take shelter in the yard of the hotel. I’m in the yard, next to the door. Someone is banging it, trying to get in. The white door is locked and padlocked. I open it anyway and in walk two children. More people come in. Also one female officer. We start to joke, saying wow, this is not a dream, unlike other, that were dreams. I agree with her, this is not a dream.

Then a big UFO appears in the sky. We are all looking up. I'm taking lots of pictures. The UFO separates into different shapes, it’s trying to tell us something. Suddenly, a pile of broken-up weapons appear on the ground. I have a feeling, they tell us to “take out the trash”, as in weapons are trash of the mankind and we should get rid of them.

Saturday, 1/7/2012 Bed 10pm
Traveling on train with my friend M. There are 3 different stations, that feel like videogame levels.

Sunday, 1/8/2012 Bed 12:45 am B-complex 50mg at 5pm
Lots of dreams, didn’t write them down

Tuesday, Jan.3, 2012 Bed 1:30am GM+choline 5:49am

I set up an experiment in case I have an LD/OBE in my room.

The Experiment:
I wrote 10 individual capital letters on small, 1x1 inch squares of paper.

Without looking at them, I shuffled them and picked one of them out. I placed this one on top of the cabinet in the kitchen. I had to use a little footstool to reach, even then I just barely reached. Rest of them were put away, so I can’t see them even by accident. My plan was in an LD/OBE to fly up there and look what letter it is and then confirm in the morning.

Woke up at 5:49 after a dream and took GM4mg +300mg choline.

LD
I’m in a house with my friend K and her 2 kids. It’s about 10 am and I’m about to take a nap to LD. K tells me, not to sleep too long, because J will have some recital/show in her school and we are going to attend.

I wake up and immediately fly out the window. Before I get too far I remember, that I wanted to check the top of the cabinet. I come back, kids want to let me in through an opened window but it’s too small so I have them open a balcony door.

Now this following part is not too clear to me as in order of events, because there were 2 FAs in between.

I ask a guy in the kitchen, I think he is a fireman, to get me the paper off the cabinet. He hands me the paper and says here you go. I look at it and it’s a small piece of paper, maybe 5x3 inches and has some math problems on it. It resembles a test we used to take in grade school.

I search among the text for a letter, that would be different. There is a stamped “U” in light blue ink, with serif. I write only sans-serif. Rest of the text is handwritten.


The paper doesn't seem right and I realize it's FA. I decide to check again. I pull up a footstool and look on top of the cabinet. There is more papers just like the one the fireman showed me. There is also some chocolate and a plastic bag with stuff I can’t see. I look for my paper but I don’t see it. So I look at another math paper and again I look for something different. There is a handwritten letter that looks like this:


I read it as U.

I have another FA.
I’m flying outside again and land on a top of tall building, that continues as a street. There is a bad guy on lower level. I’m holding a bunch of tree branches so I break some off and throw it at him as grenades. I aim another branch at another guy and shoot it as a rifle. I fly away. I’m trying to get to the orbit to look at Earth. But I don’t stop in time and I overshot the orbit. I look around but don’t see the Earth or the moon.

I’m back on the streets and the town is getting cartoonish.

I wake up IWL and go look at the paper. I'm disappointed, because I read it as C. But as I put it down on the counter, it turnes and I realize, it also could be an U.


I didn’t have fast reaction as last time. Barely any images and I though maybe the GM in capsule was not 4mg, or something went wrong. I got very weak vibrations 3-4 times, but nothing materialized from it. I got a fairly weak headrush 2 times, and that’s how I entered a dream. One time I was able to change direction while in acceleration and even levitate up twice, but each time I very gently came back down. Towards the end, I saw movie of some people in a house, but I think one just got murdered so I was not eager to enter that one for sure. Both FAs I RCd finger/palm.

I'll put another piece of paper to the top of the cabinet so it's ready for my next LD.

Sunday, Jan.1,2012

I'm shopping in the grocery store on H in NZ. I have a shopping cart thats taller than the other carts. I think it's ours, but I give it to another shopper anyway. Then I'm looking for my dad to ask him about it, but he left from the store and I can't find him. Finally I find him and mom in a pub on the corner.

Monday, Jan.2, 2012

I'm taking a shower in a huge open design apartment. The shower is right by the big glass window. I notice someone on the street looking, while trying to look innocent. So i drop to the floor and continue showering.
- I'm trying to get some kids to pick up the toys
- someone is offering me a taste of salad. he puts some vinegrette on it and I swear, I can taste it and I say I like it.

Sat. 12/31/2011 Bed 1:30am

I set my goal to OOB or LD. For OOB - look at my sleeping body, my astral hands and cord. Go to the orbit and from there go see my mom in Europe. I’m in US.

GM+Choline 5:47am

I had 2 OBEs before 8 am and LD between 8:30-11am.

OBE#1.
Starts as a dream. I’m in a big, bright room with friend of mine and her two kids. It’s a living room and a bedroom. It’s not my place and it’s not my friends place. We are playing.

Then I go to sleep and I try to have an OBE. I feel the telltale tingling in the back of my head. I come to the point, when I decide to try and roll out from my body. I kinda expect to hit the floor. I’m amazed, when what feels like 3 inches from the floor I ‘bounce off’ the ‘antigravity energy field’.

I immediately start walking away from the bed, not wanting to get pulled back. It's not very hard to walk, feel only a slight pull. I don’t stop, until I come to the end of the hallway with some windows on left and door at the end. I want to stop while inside, don’t want to go out yet and split second later I remember I wanted to see my sleeping body.

I struggle to see better/open my eyes. Although I see quite well, I feel like my eyes are closed, but not the feeling as I’m looking through my eyelids. I manage to open one eye just a little bit and I see much better, but I’m not sure, if that’s not my sleeping eye so I don’t continue opening it.

I turn around and look for a cord. I don’t see it, but I know it’s there. I follow it back to the bed. First thing I see is the end of the bed, rest of it is hiding behind the wall. I’m curious to see if the bed is empty and I’m in LD, or if there is a sleeping body.

As I come closer, I’m amazed to see the sheet pushed up by what clearly looks like two feet and legs of a person sleeping on his back. I come closer and again with amazement, I see a sleeping person. She is wearing an orange t-shirt, with sheets reaching half way up the torso. I know it’s me, puffy cheeks and all. The person was not sleeping in the same position, as I was when going to sleep and when waking up (right side).

I exit the place and find myself floating between two 10 story apartment buildings, like you find in central/eastern Europe. I remember my goal to go to the orbit and I want to fly straight up. It’s not working as I wanted, so I approach the building and propel myself with my hands grabbing on to balconies to go higher.

I find myself on the ground behind a corner. I think it’s over, but then I realize I could look at my hands and know for sure. I look at my hands. They look very gentle, light yellow/see-through energy and they quickly fade away. I did look at my hands one more time during this experience, but not sure when.

OBE#2
I wake up briefly, just long enough to say “lets try this again”. I feel the tingling in back of my head again and will myself to levitate, but it’s not really working. I think I decide to just go to sleep when I realize, I have my ceiling about 6’’ from my face. I immediately say “to the window” and I feel myself in the top left corner of my window, the exact location, where I was practicing to end up. I’m in my apartment.

I again remember I wanted to go to the orbit. I try, but it’s difficult to fly. I try superman style. Then, I’m next to a building, still up in the air. I know I don’t want to go through the wall as this could be a portal. But I fly in anyway. I feel the change. Inside is a bigger space than I would expect from size of the building. It’s warm, filled with semi-liquid, very soft dark grey matter that separates, as I float through it. I feel like I shouldn’t be here and exit through the wall on the left side.

I never felt presence of my helpers. Did I surprise them and got out when they were not expecting it, or this wasn’t an OBE? The more I think about it, I feel that this was a low awareness OOB. But I’m opened to suggestions. I have read about APs for many hours before bed last night.

LD#11
I wish I got up to write it down, but I didn’t. I kept repeating to myself what it was about, but by the time I got up, it was too late. Actually I feel like I may have written it down, but there is nothing in my DJ.

Friday 12/30/2011 Bed 2:30am

Couple of dreams, but didn't write them down.
Around 10am, trying to WILD, but I know, it's already lots of noise outside, neighbors are moving?

Had new HH. Instead of my usual skulls and scary faces, I saw TINY HEARTS!

Had been trying to change my HHs to flowers before, but it never worked. This time, my cat Kaboosh came to sleep on my bed and I was very happy about it. He does it very infrequently. Maybe he sent me love, or I was sending love to him?

Thursday, 12/29/11
Bed 10:30pm
DR 4:42am I went to the yard at our house on RD10. I'm suppose to feed the rabbits some hay. There are 3 pieces of something, I pick it up and take it to the rabbits. Then I realize, it's some old wood, and I see, rabbits ar already eating hay, someone must have beet me to feeding them.

A storm is coming, I see flashes of light and hear thunder. In a place where neighbors yard is, now I see their living room. I try to close the french door to keep the rain out. I go upstairs to my place and tv is off and unplugged. I see a neighbour smoking a cigarette telling me he unpluged my electric apliances to keep them safe in case of lightning strike.

Got up at 5:34 for 1 hour of WBTB.
I got close to WILD, but didn't finish it.