• Lucid Dreaming - Dream Views

    View RSS Feed


    Lucid Dreams

    1. LDs 12th? Night of Comp.

      by , 08-30-2015 at 02:57 PM
      -DILD because S is with me and C in some kind of music store. I get really excited about her being there and try to get C pumped up about it too, but he doesn't really care too much. Me and S hang out at a rack of what looks like post cards. On the cards are sexy pics of Mu that both of us freak out over. C is not impressed lol. S is wearing some clothes that are not normal for her; they have lots of bright blues on top of the usual black. Her attitude is unusually perky, too. She leads us out to her car and as we go outside C turns into Mu, now wearing a baggy black sweater, dark jeans and some sexy shades. After S shows us the awesomeness of her ride, which seems to be a black Chevy Neon, Mu gets in the driver's seat and S climbs into the back where I'd been planning to sit. Surprised, I say, "So I get to sit next to Mu?" and she seems surprised that I even questioned it. I speed around to the passenger side and get in and my recall ends.

      -DILD again on the back porch of some semi-familiar house. It's dawn and the sun has not yet risen. Pink light bathes the open field and treeline in front of me and creates a beautiful scene. The air feels great, too. I am astonished that this is a dream, but I just KNOW it is so I start singing to the beauty and floating up. I "take a chance" and fly out over the trees. The light begins to fade and it seems more like deep twilight now. There are big, incandescent floodlights spaced far apart throughout the forest I am now above and I go to each of these like a moth. I land at each light and look around. There's a crude dirt road (not big enough for a reg. car in my opinion, more like for an ATV or 4-wheeler) that winds past each of the lights and nothing else around but the pine forest. I'm no longer singing, but there is some music that has taken over with the same tune and I'm really enjoying it, very peaceful and happy. I fly up and land on top of something tall, I think a tree, and take a good look around. Big fluffy pink clouds are gathered along dips in the land like steam and I start to see tribal-looking DCs running around. Some of them are singing to the song and some are dancing with each other. Some young ones are playing with each other, just tumbling around on the ground. I get caught up in the fun and lose recall for a bit.

      -Recall starts back up and I'm lucid again with a couple of generated cat anthro DCs, a girl and a boy. The girl is a soft pink and the boy is dark stripey blue/black. We are exploring at twilight and find ourselves at a creepy wooden shack. I go inside alone and start exploring. I start to see chopped up pieces of anthro bodies all around and as I get deeper the quantity of these increases. I find no doors and start to hear crazy cackling laughter echoing all around. I confront my fears head on and continue walking through, determined not to give in to the freakishness. I finally reach a room that is practically FILLED with bloody, skinned body parts and the cackling is REALLY LOUD. I turn the last corner and all there is is a small table and chair. On the table is a rotten green-fleshed cat anthro head with a huge grin and white eyes. I sit next to it, grin in its face, and laugh. I figure I might as well go out the same way I came in, so I do so without incident. The girl cat anthro is still outside, so for fun I throw her in the door and slam it behind her as I leave.. so mean lmao. Recall ends here.

      Updated 08-30-2015 at 07:59 PM by 72182

      Tags: competition
    2. LDs 11th? Night of Comp.

      by , 08-29-2015 at 02:43 PM
      Got to bed really late and had no hope of getting lucid, but somehow it worked out! Woke up several times and the last bit was lucid!

      -WILD into my livingroom, feeling very prickly. I feel like all my hair is standing on end and really hard, like plastic. In some spots the hairs feel like plastic hooks like on velcro. Sounds are really loud and clear and things feel freaky. I push through this and float out the front door before immediately thinking of the moon rock eating task. I zip back inside the open door and down a hallway. I hear my daughter whining and getting closer quickly. I reach a table at a corner of the hall and it has a bowl of rocks on it, among other junk. I look through the bowl and find a grey rock filled with holes which I KNOW is a moon rock. It feels really hard and I'm hesitant to bite it, but I do so carefully. It hurts my teeth a lot but finally breaks in half. I try to chew the half in my mouth but it won't break up anymore. It tastes like salt and minerals. I finally just swallow it like a pill. When I turn around, my daughter has crawled around the corner and is watching me. I grab her and phase out of the house through the window. I figure she's gonna follow me anyway and I might as well take her with me. This turns into a long non-lucid about live action D&D in my grandma's old back yard, very fun.

      -DEILD back in (an actual chain! It's been so long! ) to my living room and Lk is there walking around. It feels odd and very real and I'm not QUITE sure I'm dreaming so I do an RC and sure enough I am. Lk has some kind of problem going on or some kind a question he needs answered and we both know that H can answer it. I tell Lk this and he agrees. I figure H is coming over, but Lk just sits down and gets on the phone with him. I refuse to give up on H coming here, so I decide to help it along with my expectation powers. I think to myself that they're just talking on the phone while he drives this way. I walk towards the door that leads to the car port and I see headlights pull up into it. I walk out and H is in the driver's seat of a big, nice SUV which I think is white. He gets out and I move stuff out of his way so he can get to the door. As he goes in I stay really close to him and put off an intimate vibe and he leans down and kisses me on the forehead... I'll take it lol. This devolves into a NLD where we all try to figure out the problem or whatever it was.

      I'm gonna count that kiss persuasion as mind control because I didn't use any language or signals etc.

      Updated 08-30-2015 at 02:54 PM by 72182

      Tags: competition, totm
      lucid , task of the month
    3. LD 8th Night of Comp.

      by , 08-26-2015 at 01:58 PM
      -Long NLD about preparing to run from a tornado which eventually gets me lucid as I'm standing outside. Like my previous tornado dreams, I've been left behind as I try to gather things. I do a nose RC as usual and look around to see that the storm is gone but the sky is a flat grey. I think hard about tasks and points and finally think that I want to eat a moon rock, but then I immediately remember I want to summon someone first. So I turn around with a joyous feeling, expecting C to be there, and he is, standing down on the ground looking up at me (I automatically float when lucid most of the time). I happily call him up and he floats to me and we fly off together. He seems weird though and I look over and he's a weird-looking toilet brush in my hand. I just drop it and let it fall to the ground, sadly not thinking of the new Challenge task. My awareness fades pretty quick after that, I need to remember to stabilize..
      Tags: competition
    4. LD 7th Night of Comp.

      by , 08-25-2015 at 03:06 PM
      Lucidity and points at terrible cause.. awful nightmare spurred by stupid show I watched last night involving a dead baby :<

      -My daughter has some kind of problem and somehow we decide the best course of action is to euthanize her ourselves, painlessly of course. For some reason we're going through this process on the roof of some unknown public building here in town in the middle of a bright, hot day. As the process goes on, my daughter just keeps playing around like nothing is going on, since it hasn't taken full effect yet. This is just all way too much for me and I freak the hell out. The sheer amount of awfulness springs my lucidity and I channel it all towards getting the hell out of there. I immediately run and jump wayyy up into the air and fly away in a straight line as fast as I can. Scenery speeds by in a blur and my recall ends.
      Tags: competition
      lucid , nightmare
    5. LDs 6th Night of Comp.

      by , 08-24-2015 at 05:49 PM
      Still a little sick, but got enough sleep to make up for it and get me lucid!

      -Something tips me off while I'm alone in my house and I decide to do an RC, which makes me fully lucid. I go out the kitchen door and my recall ends there.

      -Same thing happens again: lucid in living room, RC, walk out kitchen door and everything ends.

      These two dreams make me think of a messed-up car trying to start, like the engine trying to turn over for a second then going caput lol. Or maybe a shitty electrical connection trying to light a bulb which flickers.. It's like the physical parts of me that help with lucidity are still getting over the sickness and it's making them "short out" lol

      -Lucid in my house again, another RC. I'm in my daughter's room with her and she's crying and it's hard not to be distracted, but I firmly remind myself she's a figment and turn to the window. I look out, focus on a tree far above and let myself be "pulled" out (phase). It's a nice, overcast day. I think of the Challenge task to go into a house in my neighborhood that I've never been in before. I've never been in any of them except my own, so I just look for one that looks nice. I fly over the neighborhood, scanning for something good. I finally see one, land and go inside. There's a bed in the front room that looks like somebody is in it. I rip the covers away and my old coworker R is there, giving me a mischievous grin like she was hiding from me in some kind of game. I say something to her that I can't remember, then continue exploring the house. She goes to the couch and sits there on her phone. I find her old boyfriend Cody in the next room and I hate him so I grab him off the couch and throw him to the side. Unfortunately as I turn, he's still there and just walks by me as if I never did anything. Everything in the house is much more clean and organized than I'd expect from R, tbh. I end up in a convo with R that turns me non-lucid and fuzzy for a while. Later on in the same house I get close to full lucidity again but don't think of any goals. For some reason I think to summon Co. I do so (I think I use the around a corner type thing?) and he follows me around and we talk as I try to find a good private place for us to get it on. Always people everywhere when that happens! Finally we find out that inside one of my living room chairs (at my house now, yes) has a PORTAL inside it under the cushion. So, with the help of some unknown person who's trying to keep others from following us (thank you SubC!), we get through the chair portal with much laughter and find ourselves in an old but clean bedroom, like at a granny's house. Co turns into C and we laugh and talk on the bed for a while, me now non-lucid.

      Not sure if the portal counts for anything, it just happened naturally so I guess I won't give myself any points for that
      EDIT: Nvm, totally taking it.

      Updated 08-24-2015 at 09:17 PM by 72182

      Tags: competition
    6. LDs 2nd Night of Comp.

      by , 08-19-2015 at 01:47 PM
      -Hanging out with about five people in a room in my house. One of them is M and he's the only one standing up, right across from me, playing guitar with a somber expression. I can't remember where the conversation was, but after some guy to my left says something, M chimes in by saying that he regrets "making (girls?women?) wait for hours," then he leans forward, stops playing, gives me a pained, meaningful look and says, "Do you think that was a mistake, too?" I almost cry looking into those eyes, so I turn mine down and think before being honest and saying, "Sometimes.." M looks conflicted between hope and despair, then I say in a lower tone, "But this is another life.. y'know?" M just sadly nods, gets his things together and leaves. I feel terrible, like I've torn out his heart, and the extreme emotion makes me semi-lucid. I start floating, phase out of the house, then fly after M, who's just turning the corner. It's sunset and warm light is streaming down from the left. I swoop around to get a good look at M and I see that he's as close to crying as a guy can be without actually shedding tears. I feel awful, but something about all this makes my lucidity rise up and I realize I don't care. I start flying back towards the house and see a female DC with short black hair walking towards the neighbor's house like she lives there. There are a few more DCs waiting for her on the porch. I fly rapidly up to her face and point at her, screeching. I just feel like scaring the crap out of something. At first, her eyes widen in surprise, then she settles into aloofness, giving me a look like, Ha! you can't do anything to me. I then "remember" that she used to be a powerful, evil witch, but her soul was taken out and put into this new body so that she would no longer have powers. At first I'm a little uneasy, then I get cocky because of her having no powers. I buzz around her head like a giant, annoying fly for a bit, having fun teasing her, before fading into some vague non-lucidity then waking up.

      -DEILD into a low-awareness lucid in my bedroom. I realize I'm in a dream state, but that's about where my lucidity ends. I just sit there on the edge of my bed and think about the previous dream, which brings me to M. I start imagining myself being very forward with him and asking for sex, but I think that he'd be afraid for some reason. Then something clicks in my head and I think, no of course he wouldn't be. I get up and try to summon him for a second, but decide to stop so I don't end up ending the dream. Instead I go to the window. Outside is the front yard of my Dad's house. I "remember" that C has already left for work, but I see the car parked part-way in the shed. It looks different though. I look around some more and see a more accurate representation of it parked under the trees with C inside. He seems to be on the phone. I phase outside and into the passenger seat of the car. C ignores me and continues talking on the phone. I FINALLY think about the totms and remember the music one first. I turn on the car stereo and the repetitive music from one of my daughter's toys starts playing. I'll have to make a recording of that later.. Only other thing I remember is phasing out of the car and flying off.
      Tags: competition, totm
      lucid , task of the month
    7. Big Party, J & Jon Stewart

      by , 08-13-2015 at 01:20 PM
      Beware: somewhat mature content below.

      Very long NLD in which I hang out with old friends & family for a long time in various places. J is kind of down because she keeps feeling out of place without me because I keep running off to hang with other people. I want to hang out with J, too, but everyone keeps splitting up to different places. At some point I see M and want to hang out with/woo him, but decide against it. This whole thing turns into a party at J's parents' house with all of our family there and all of our friends from that time/place. The back yard is different and doesn't have a pool anymore. There are probably hundreds of people there. I walk around, amazed. I don't recognize probably 80% of the people because everyone invited their own friends, too. People of all ages are there, but not many very old people besides direct family. I run around this scene, inside and outside of the house, for quite a while. Losing and regaining J several times. A lot of this was very vivid, but there's too much to recount and too little time. So eventually, I'm walking up and down this long setup out in the yard. The "setup" is a bunch of garden plots with what looks like corn growing in them in different, weird ways. Jon Stewart is there, walking up and down the line in a grey suit, explaining to everyone how each plot works. I come to find out that these plants are all actually marijuana. I end up right next to Jon as he demonstrates one of the plot setups to me. There's some kind of small, natural stream winding through this one and there's a pipe going over it. All around this are tall corn-like weed plants. Jon tells me that once the plants are established, they build up very thickly around the banks of the water, creating a high-yield situation. He starts ripping plants away to expose very thick, close-together stalks. I'm super impressed by this and I express my admiration. Jon gives a friendly response, but his face belies his general exhaustion and upset-ness at the world's problems. I try to make small talk, but he clams up, so I walk off. I end up far away in a fancy store in the city. I recognize no one and become sad because I've lost J. I'm about to text her when I see her walk in the door with Sh and K. J and I run off alone together, galavanting through the aisles of clothes like fools, freaking out all of the rich ladies that are there shopping. I start chanting, "Fancy, fancy, fancy, fancy!" and J starts chanting along with me. Eventually I leave, alone again. Next thing I remember is watching weird videos online with J and Sh and somebody else. There's some videos of drunk people doing stupid crap, then one comes up of some youngish guys in a weird room all dancing around. They're just wearing cut off shirts and nothing else, but their bottoms are blurred out. The room reminds me of a glorified garage. There's a big table in the middle and cabinets around the sides which have been painted bright green and pink. Somehow I enter into this video and become lucid. I start exploring the house and I talk to some of the guys and wave to the camera that was filming before, making a silly face and wondering if people will see me on the video later lol.. stupid. I make my way to the front of the house and find two ladies cuddled up together in a big bed by the front door. There were kids in some of the rooms, that's important. I talk to them and they seem awesome. One of them disappears almost immediately and I remain talking to the other. I say something to her like, "You got it made, girl! You got [something I can't remember] (we high-five), penis (we high-five harder, laughing), and kids! Kids are cool, right?" We high-five one last time. I know this chick is highly lesbo and was with that other chick, and now she's coming onto me. She walks towards me, pushing me back against a wall. I'm much taller than her and that way I'm looming over her kinda turns me on, too.. I am starting to lose control, so I say to her that I'd love to, but I don't want to lose lucidity before I do any tasks. (Finally thought of them.. jeez) But she doesn't move, only smiles and leans up for a kiss. I lean down a little before stopping myself, but then can't help but grab her butt a little. It's way more realistic than I'd expected and it breaks my brain. I end up dragging her around with me, trying to find a way out of the house, only to find myself trapped and alone again in some dark, cramped hallways.
      lucid , non-lucid
    8. Space/Black Hole Attempt

      by , 08-04-2015 at 01:08 PM
      Signing up for Sensei's new comp already spurred some lucidity!! Yay!

      - I am at my Dad's house it seems and I've become lucid I fly up and out, remembering I want to go to space and fall into a "natural" black hole. It's daytime and I can't see blackness or stars, but I figure if I fly far enough I will. I fly up at a sharp angle, not directly up though because that seems way harder. The massive open spaces of air start to freak me out, but I let go of the feeling. Everything starts to get dark and the blue fades away to reveal stars as I fly on. But, now everything starts to feel 2-dimensional and I don't feel like I'm moving anymore. I keep on trying, but the scene ends. Not sure if I wake up or get really distracted.
    9. Parasites and Finding the Edge

      by , 07-20-2015 at 03:41 PM
      - Eating chocolates with C in the bedroom (Cadbury eggs, yum!) when I look down at a half-eaten one and notice it has this disgusting thing in it:

      These are parasites that normally get inside fish and eat, then take the place of, their tongues. They then proceed to steal all of the fish's food as it eats it. So, I freak out majorly and cry etc. I end up saying to C's brother that I'm just gonna have to wait 'til a lump forms in my tongue, then go get it taken out.

      - Helping a young teen girl with long, straight blonde hair get out of an abusive family situation; dragging her around town trying to find a safe place, feeling like we're being hunted/followed; go to my old house in town where there are other people living now, take her in and lock us in a room; feels like we're safe, but the owners of the house come home I guess and we have to leave. Later on, girl is gone and I'm frantically searching for her and some other people we were with for a second (Lu, Z & C I think). They'd been parked along the road, waiting for me. It's night and I can't find them. It seems like they had to drive off for some reason, like the bad people came or whatever. I keep looking in dark vehicles, hoping they're hiding in one. Most of them are empty at first, then I start finding scary dark shadow people that I don't know. I get really freaked out and become sort of lucid. I just know that if I fly to the moon I can get out of this reality somehow. So I take off and zoom as fast as I can towards the moon. The going is a little slow due to fear. I top a hill covered in buildings and find myself looking at a big lake with hills far across on the other side. The moon isn't reflected in the water, but its light shines off the surface all over. I'm still trying to get to the moon but I start sinking towards the deep dark water. This scares me, but I'm so tired of being scared that I just say "fuck it" and let myself follow the curve of the dream. This decision actually raises my lucidity to normal levels. I end up deep down in some flooded underwater facility. Alarms and lights are going off and some of the crew is still trying to get things to work. It feels very space-like and reminds me of "The Abyss" except everything is completely flooded and we're all swimming around inside. Things go even more wrong and I want to get out of the situation even more. Suddenly C is with me, helping me calm down and guiding me to the "edge". I feel like the dream has an edge and when I pop out of it I'll wake up. We reach a weird corner that seems superimposed over everything else and we start to push against it, side by side with arms locked together. It's difficult, but I draw strength from C and we both persevere. Slowly the stuff starts to bend outward and our heads start to go through. C starts yelling like there's a really weird sensation, then I notice it. My head feels HOT and very tingly and I "see" pink and purple sparkles on the other side, a little like the static on an old, inactive TV. I can see a cross-section of my own head where it has entered the other side and it is much darker purple than what's around it. I get scared because it feels like there is intense pressure on my head, but I remain determined, let go of C's arm, and dive through the rest of the way. I feel almost like a baby falling out of a mother with the last push, but I also feel like I'm ENTERING a womb-like space. Once totally across, I assume the fetal position. Almost immediately I sit up in bed and all seems normal. My bed is in a different position now, but I don't notice. I decide to RC anyway and surprisingly to me I'm lucid! I wonder what to do, not caring about tasks, and decide to have some adult fun. I stand up and walk out of my room calling for D. I have a short moment of doubt about whether or not he will appear, but I dismiss it. I turn the corner into a small dining room that normally doesn't exist, and there he is, sitting and eating at the table wearing nothing but white boxers with red hearts on them. I interact with him verbally (no recall) and he gets up to come into the other room with me. His form seems weirdly insubstantial though, so I just walk away by myself. I encounter some people already having sex in my bedroom, so I decide to just watch. The guy is facing me while the girl is not and he keeps noticing me and being weirded out. I mutter some things like, "I'm not here, you don't see me," and wave my hands over my face and he stops paying attention. I end up getting involved then waking up.

      Updated 07-22-2015 at 07:15 PM by 72182

      Tags: the edge
      lucid , nightmare , false awakening
    10. Seed Task

      by , 07-09-2015 at 05:49 PM
      I'm lucid with C and some random DCs, just having fun in some weird-looking building when suddenly my awareness spikes upward and I remember the seed task. I immediately start walking outside. I find myself on a strip of dirt and grass about two feet wide with tall chain-link fences on either side. I see a dandelion growing near my feet so I reach down and pinch off a piece of the middle of a bloom. I change this into a seed in between my fingers. I walk a few more steps, then plant it in the ground. I find more seeds in my hand so I plant them at different depths further along the path. I turn around at the end and look back where I planted everything. There's nothing coming up yet so I raise my hands up slowly and powerfully, willing, pulling the plants up out of the ground. Three scraggly bushes come up, two of which are green. The one I'd focused the most on, the one in the middle, is completely brown and dead and as I continue to pull up it comes right out of the ground and falls over. I frown and walk away.
      lucid , task of the month
    11. Vague Try @ TOTM

      by , 07-08-2015 at 08:41 PM
      Had my first really good high-awareness lucid in a while and made a pass at the mysterious seed task. I remember being semi-lucid chilling with some DCs in a neat building, then suddenly becoming hyper aware. I walk outside, conjuring a seed by rubbing my fingers together and expecting to feel the texture of one there. I plant it in the ground and back away and that is where my recall ends..
    12. False TOTM: Card Trick

      by , 07-01-2015 at 01:45 PM
      I've just become lucid, not sure how, and I'm walking into a restaurant. Sadly, this does not remind me of the 5-star restaurant totm. For some reason I think that the totm is to perform a card trick on some DCs (guess I was remembering the magic show one from last month..). I walk through the front of the place, heading towards the back, and I see my friend J sitting alone at a round table. I am determined to stay lucid, so when she says hi I return it quickly and keep walking right on past. She has distracted me before. I reach the back of the room and there are many more DCs. The hum of conversation fills the air. 3 or 4 people are sitting around another round table laughing and playing cards. A very large deck of neat-looking cards are spread haphazardly in the middle of the table. I approach and stand to the right of the dealer, a red-headed character I'm not sure is male or female. He/she explains to the player across the table that the next card he/she deals will be an "anti-cabbage" or "no cabbage" card and that he should not worry. I decide that I'm gonna replace it with a cabbage card! Muahahahaaa.. So, the dealer shuffles a big chunk of the deck (most of it is still lying all over the table), holds it forward and prepares to hand the top card to the player. I hold up my two fingers in front of me as if I'm holding a card. I see nothing, but kind of feel something and have confidence that it will work. I quickly slide my invisible cabbage card under the dealer's fingers and watch as the player receives and looks at the card. His face registers shock and a bit of anger at the "lying" dealer. I laugh and run off. The front of the restaurant has become a grocery store and I'm navigating through the shelves. My lucidity and recall takes a downward turn and all I remember is someone is chasing me and I'm running away with a strange mix of excitement and fear.
      Tags: false totm
    13. The Blue Light

      by , 06-29-2015 at 01:06 PM
      I am in a house with a couple of female friends I don't recognize from waking, and I'm semi-lucid. We're all standing in the kitchen which reminds me a bit of my grandmother's old house. Suddenly we begin to move towards the back room and I realize we're in a little train on a track. The train approaches the door, which opens automatically. On the other side is the outside world which drops far far down to the ground below. The metal tracks are suspended over it. Another track is merging with ours from the left and beyond that the tracks just end. It looks like it was built that way, but I "remember" that it wasn't that way before and this makes me nervous. The train is going too fast and I call to my friends to try and slow it down. I use the weight of my body to try to help. We slow down a little, but as we hit the bumper at the end of the rails, the train starts pitching forward, doing a front flip.

      Somehow I get out of this situation and back into the house, feeling more lucid. I think my grandma is standing in the kitchen now. I try to leave the house and the doors keep closing on me. The front door is sliding slowly closed like elevator doors as I approach, but I manage to stick my hand in at the last second and stop it. I float out and up, fleeing this madhouse of falling trains. I feel like the situation is pursuing me, so I angle more up, hoping to get into open skies, but instead of seeing sky, I see flat blue light covering most of my vision. It feels good though, so I plunge myself into it, letting it surround me. I no longer feel my body. I just let go of everything, including awareness unfortunately, and let myself BE in the light. Not sure if this ended when another dream began or ended on awakening.

      This light experience was had by Robert Waggoner as well, in a somewhat different way. I think I'll try seeking it out again sometime!
      Tags: blue light
      lucid , memorable
    14. Reckless Driving

      by , 06-17-2015 at 03:45 PM
      I'm freshly lucid (don't recall how it started). The first thing I remember is running out to our truck and getting in. It's night time, I seem to be at C's mom's house, and I'm feeling excited about lucidity. I start the truck up quickly and drive off onto the lonely country road. It's so realistic that I'm having a little trouble believing it's a dream, but I just KNOW it is, so I put the pedal to the medal. The road starts to curve back and forth and I take the turns like a race car driver, hugging the inner edge. A few times I go a couple inches off the road and it's still really smooth. This gives me a little confirmation that I'm dreaming. I still think to myself, "If this is real, it's really easy! I should always go 200 mph around these corners."

      Updated 07-01-2015 at 08:30 PM by 72182

      Tags: fun
    15. Lucid Lesson: Managing Emotions

      by , 06-16-2015 at 11:59 PM
      It's sunset and I'm with some generated DCs in a white, mid-90s model van. We're all happy and hanging out. One of us, a guy, is driving us into the parking lot of a strip mall. Somewhere in here I become lucid and get outside of the van. Not sure what my intentions are, but I run and get in a car that looks like my car from waking life. I just get in, not intending on driving. I'm planning on getting back out, but I know the van is driving around this way and will park next to me and I worry that they'll park too close so I won't be able to open my door. But, the van pulls around and parks a couple spaces off to my left, facing the other way. The people spill out of the vehicle, gabbing cheerily, and I observe them.

      I start to notice that two of them, a guy and girl with light brown hair, are pretty attractive. I mull this over in my mind, trying to decide whether to initiate anything or not. It would be fun but would damage my lucidity. So, I slowly get out of the car and start walking over to them, still not completely decided. Suddenly, another girl from the group walks in front of me, in between me and the others around the van. She says something in a very loud, whiny voice and this grates on my nerves. I begin to get really angry, then I suddenly realize something. These DCs have been using my emotions to toy with me! I stop and calm myself, then look the DCs right in the eyes. They give me very powerful eye contact and their somewhat amused/excited faces seem to say, "Oohhh she gets it!" I smile back at them.

      I stand there in my awareness, feeling it and thinking, "What should I do?" I go to one of the group members, the brown-haired female, and ask her. She says, "You see that store over there? I want you to imagine what it feels like on a Sunday at Easter, like it is right now. Then I want you to imagine somebody in that store, then go in and talk to them." I say, "Okay," then sit there on the hood of the van, thinking, "Who should I put in the store?" As I think, a few seconds go by and people bustle in and out of the store front. Even a big, bay horse comes out, all on its own with no saddle or anything, though I don't pay much attention to this. Suddenly, LI is standing next to me and I ask him, "Who should I put in that store?" He says excitedly, "Maya Punjar!" and it seems like he really looks up to her. We're now standing very near the entrance to the store, off to the right of it. I stand there thinking, trying to remember who Maya Punjar even is, then some Indian actress pops up in my head and I say, "Ohh! I know who that is." Of course, I don't know of any Maya Punjar in waking life. I consider summoning her, then say, "Well that's not personal enough, what else you thinkin'?" LI replies as he turns and walks inside, but I don't catch what he says.

      I follow him into what now looks like a large house. There is no one else inside and it's kind of dim. He goes into a laundry room and floats up to the top right where the machines for some reason are. I float up next to him and ask him nicely to repeat what he said. He ignores me entirely, going about his business of switching laundry from washer to dryer. I get a little upset and ask him again, even nicer. Still no reply, but I'm determined to keep talking to him.
      Things get a little less lucid here and one of us (can't remember now) starts a conversation about some movie I watched or something. We talk for a minute or two, sitting on some green pleather bench in the laundry room, then I suddenly hear a car horn from outside. This shocks me into "remembering" that C, LU and LN are all waiting for me in a van (maroon this time) outside. I feel instantly bad for "forgetting" and I leap up to go. I tell LI bye as I'm leaving and give him a cock-eyed "eek"/"ohcrap" face.

      I run into the other room, grab my purse and head towards the door. A brown-haired lady cuts me off and it seems like she was coming back in to get me. I preempt her by saying, "I had to take a shit." I don't want everyone to know I was just sitting there talking to LI and forgetting about them. The lady says, "Okay, come on," and gets behind me as I walk towards the front door. I pass through another room, LU and LN's living room, and see them sleeping on the couches on there, close to the door. As I open it to go out, it wakes them and I turn and say bye. They blearily return my farewell and we exchange waves as I go out the door.

      I go to the van which is pulled up at the edge of the yard. There are trees all around and we seem to be in a semi-rural area or an underdeveloped part of town. LU is in the driver's seat, C is in the passenger seat and LN is asleep in the back behind him. I go the passenger door and just try to open it like normal, but my intention is to get into the back seat. C notices this and says, "What're you doin' tryin' to get in one side?" I realize my folly and get in the back seat where Sestma was and is no longer, then I wake up.

      Updated 07-01-2015 at 08:33 PM by 72182

      Tags: lesson