Lucid Time!

I finally completed this goal and now I can't remember most of the dream.

Though I do seem to actually be leveling out in nightly lucidity. I think the past four nights have all involved me attaining full lucidity for some amount of time. The funny thing is, I'm not even trying all that hard at LDing right now.

Anyways my goal was to meet up with my old dream guardian, Jack and either make friends with him or get him to permanently leave my dreams.

I remember being in my high school math classroom from senior year. Manei was there along with several other faceless dream characters. There was no teacher, the classroom looked like it was quiet study time or something.

She came up to me and pulled out this picture of Dawn she had printed on a card. In the picture, Dawn was laying across a table. He wasn't wearing any shirt and he had a cigarette in his mouth but wasn't smoking it. He had this really bored/unamused expression. Eye was leaning into the frame as well and had this really confused expression.

She tried to explain; using the picture as a visual aid (I don't see how that picture was of any help.) that the reason that me and Jack didn't get along was not because of any of the superficial reasons that I could come up with, but rather a lack of need. I don't need a dream guardian because I'm already more than capable of defending myself.

She went on to explain how the opposite is true with DawnEye11. She knows full well how to be emotionally intuitive and figure out solutions to problems in dreams, but sometimes has difficulty defending herself when danger arises. I be the opposite.

There was some other argument that she made as well...

"You do not admit it, always say you want to do everything alone, but you work better with partner. Not slave, not boss, but equal. If person bossy and dominant, you get very frustrated and fight them, like with Jack. If person submit to you always, like I did before, you feel too bad, no use power and boss them around. Thats what I here for. Be your equal."

(She worded it something close to this. Not an exact quote, just doing my best backwards Manei-talk.)

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I remember being on what felt like a spaceship or space station. It also gave school vibes. I was looking for Jack in this long hallway with all of these doorways leading into little bedrooms. I found him in one of the rooms. He was playing Hunie Pop. He got really embarrassed and closed it out the computer.

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I was talking with Jack and reading a list of reasons that I had wrote in my notebook for why he should be friends with me. I feel like I read the list two or three times.

In the end, he was about to walk out. We high-fived and I told him he was welcome to come back if he was ever needed, but that if he stayed around too much, us disagreeing was going to be an inevitability.

I false awoken. I was in a savannah area and I was naked. I then became this cartoon worm character and I was really hungry. I feel like I still had a little bit of lucidity.

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There was some weird alternate part to the dream that I can't fit anywhere. I remember telling Jack that if he wanted a girlfriend he could have this: I then manifested a projection of the girl I crushed on in high school. It worked for both of us because he had someone that he could be with now, and I could let go of someone I was never going to get to be with anyway.

I think I might listen to ~Dreamer~ and try the TOTMs this month now that all my personal goals are out of the way. It will be good to work on some less demanding tasks while I work on building lucidity and recall a little bit more. I feel like my lucidity hasn't been quite as clear as it should be.