non-lucid

Had this dream around 3am this morning. It was long and complicated.

There were these brothers, I think three of them, and they were criminals. And their sister who was an Olympics athlete of sort was being unfairly discredited from winning with false accusations of cheating, and they were using their criminal abilities to try to save the reputation of their sister. And the dream kept switching back and forth between different scenes where the different brothers were, but I had some sense of a cohesive though convoluted plot (but that sense may have been wrong). One of the brothers was at a doctor's office out of some reason throughout the dream. The other two were elsewhere dressed in masks trying to break in somewhere. I think they needed to steal evidence that she was framed and had won based on her own abilities.

In one scene I was somewhere up high with one of the two brothers. While for most of the dream I was watching it like a movie, but in this part I was involved. So I was up high with one of the brothers, and he was going to fall, and I helped him fall more gracefully. He still got hurt very badly and could not call for help himself, so I called for help for him. While his ribs were being mended they discovered why he was there (breaking in to steal the evidence).

Meanwhile the brother at the doctor's office was telling the female doctor about it, and he had a nosy audience of a small group of people listening.

That's all I can remember. None of the character's were known to me, nor does the plot ring any bells in my mind: it does not remind me of anything that happened nor any movie or book. Just a really weird dream.

A mother of a grown daughter who wanted to control her daughter too much came to me to change her name to one of the mother's choosing. I realized that it did not matter what I did, so I said to the daughter. "You can do whatever you like. You control your own fate. You can choose your own name." The daughter's eyes opened wide - she was very surprised.

I believe this dream was almost lucid:
(1) I realized that it did not matter what I did. Why? One possibility is that part of me realized that there would be no negative consequences of my defying the mother. Why? Could it be I realized it was a dream on some level? I think this was not lucid because I did not realize it consciously not that I recall, but this was close. Interestingly, when I realized that "it did not matter what I did", I chose to do the right thing.
(2) What I told the daughter is what you would tell someone to help them become lucid: You can do what you like. You are in control here.
(3) There was a sense of empowerment to this scene which was almost like in a lucid dream.

Dream sign: This was not my only dream about the power of a name!

I dreamed that I got these pets for our kids: a miniature King Kong (real one), a couple kittens and a lizard. The King Kong was hugging the kittens not gently enough. My husband wanted to know why this choice of pets, and I explained that I thought they would keep things lively.

I at least know why the kittens. We went to a dinner party last night, and the hostess was telling us about a cat she was watching for friends who used to menace a fish in a bowl (the fish was also those friends). When they came back for their pets, they said they had in the meantime adopted three kittens.

I dreamed that lots of kittens had gotten into our living room (which was nothing like our actual living room) through the balcony. There was also a stranger there who acted as if he belonged there. He was disturbed by all the kittens which were causing havoc, and he wanted to know whether they were ours. It turned out that our housemate (don't actually have one) had invited him to stay in her absence and had advertised our home as a quiet place. Then the owner of the kittens came also through the balcony to try to retrieve them.

We had let our kids go out in the woods alone, and I was tracking their GPS on my phone, and could occasionally zoom in to look at what they were doing.

At some point I noticed that my four year old had become a proficient swimmer. I knew he had it in him! I thought proudly.

However, then the GPS signal of my four year old started to get confused and when I zoomed in a different kid would show. I could see my seven-year old climbing a tree, but that was not my younger son beside him.

My husband said that it was ok, just a glitch, but I told him that I had a feeling of dread like something terrible had happened.

We reached the woods, and found a group of kids tied loosely to a tree with some cable. They lay there as if in a stupor. I still had not found my son. I heard the voice of the evil man who had done this saying something over a loudspeaker. I don't remember all he said, but it included "it does not matter." I could somehow know that the tree cables or something there was boobytrapped so I could not free the kids. I also somehow knew the evil man could see me.

I still also had not reached my older son yet, even though I had seen him on GPS phone video, had not lost him.

I woke up from this nightmare after this, quite shaken.

I had to look in on my sons, and found them safe asleep in bed of course. Despite risk of waking him up, I kissed my younger son on cheek - I would have kissed my older one, but he was harder to reach not being near the edge of the top bunk at the moment.

In hindsight, even before my conscious self was aware of it that this would turn into a nightmare, the setting was clearly there. We are watching kids over GPS and phone while they are alone in the woods! They are engaging in potentially dangerous activities such as swimming unsupervised without lifeguard or lifejacket for my younger son and tree climbing on very high tree for my older son.

It is interesting that the nightmare again goes to kidnapper theme. I thought I had successfully vanquished those kidnappers in my previous dream, where I felt so much empowerment due to having rescued my boys and preparing to fight bad guys using my superior martial arts skills. Well apparently they are back with a vengance and this time there is no empowerment for me. Of course, due to the GPS and leaving them alone in the woods, it is all my fault this time. Also i do not even get the relief of seeing my boys before the dream ends, making sure that they are alive and well in the dream. Fear of kidnappers in waking life is one of those cultural irrationally blown out of proportion fears: I know that in reality the odds of boys being kidnapped are miniscule, and I did not think that I really feared this in waking life that much to give me nightmares (perhaps it is not so much the likelihood as what would be worst case scenario - fear of kidnappers and boogieman), but of course I am as a good parent worried for my sons safety, and that of course is the cause of these dreams.

In this dream I was some sort of Sherlock Holmes like character, male student, affiliated with a university. This university would be closing, and with it the crimes investigation department, and I was calling and asking about to see who would be interested in accepting the past crimes archives and the network of informants who would allow one to continue to benefit in solving future crimes.

The local police department was not interested because they thought they already have all that. Ignorant fools!

A local newspaper could not handle this.

A rich millionaire was very interested, and I almost passed this to him, but then I realized in the last moment that he was a criminal mastermind.

I remember thinking that no one could be worthy of accepting this of course (I was pretty stuck up brilliant but full of myself), but I knew that it was better to find someone rather than for all this to go to waste and not be used by anyone.

I think I asked a few others in this dream, but don't remember. By the time I woke up, the search was still ongoing.

April 24
To bed around 10pm

Around 3am headache continues from evening - woke up with headache

In my dream my husband and I were working n same company on same project. It was New Year's Eve, and my husband was away on a business trip. I got to see him though through video conference at company party. I could see him but he could not see me. I was a bit sad. (Side note: This makes sense because my husband had a work conference call in the evening, so work infringed on family time.)

Same dream different scene? there was an improper design to our system, where something that should be in one table was in two for older data, but not for newer, and I had at first suggested that this be fixed. But then when we established that some functionality was actively using accessing these tables,we discovered that this could not be fixed. Someone I actually collaborate with but in different role, nickname Bow Tie, was trying to accommodate this change, and then found out that it could not be done, but then forgot, but then got reminded. I explained it further, and he remembered. (This makes a bit of sense in that we now have some things that are illogical at work but are in use, so this could be a warning that fixing them may not be a good idea? Or maybe just my mind realizes the difficulty of fixing things while in use, and questions whether it is worth the risk of breaking things even more.)

There was more to this dream. It was long, vivid and convoluted. What does not make sense to me is why my mind insisted these two are part of the same dream - they appear separate.)

April 19

To bed at 8:30 very tired

2:40 a dream that seemed clear but hard to retain and put into words. Work related. In Excel. A Table. Evaluating work of others?

An earlier dream now remembered a bit: I was in law enforcement and someone I knew worked with he recommended me for work in a more important agency, maybe FBI? I was female, but not myself.

5:50 in ice cream shop with family but also some people from church. Flavors: chocolate, vanilla, and strawberry - less adventurous than I would choose in real life (although got to love chocolate).these were either ice cream or shakes or both. A parishioner from our church who has been dead for years showed up. We then went next door to some sort of bar/restaurant to join him. He said why didn't we bring him some ice dream, but then said that he couldn't have it on his diet anyway. We marveled that it had been 8 years already.

Remembered from earlier: I did dream of the coworker about whom I had had a dream of me asking him out on a date. There continued to be some illicit attraction, but this time I am not as shocked by it as last time because I know I will not act on it in real life, and i know i can't help what I dream of in non-lucid dreams. Yup, he is an attractive man, but that should not be a problem as long as I don't act on it.

Remembered from earlier: Some weird dream where I had some sort of weird rash on my skin or maybe a burn, and it could be peeled off and it got better. This weird patch had weird stuff stuck to it that was entangled: some yarn and a snake. Once freed the snake moved, proved to be alive, but it proved to be half snake and half yarn, body glued somehow in the middle. once it cam to life it tried to bite me.

5:55

My son wanted to do experiment with poop. I vetoed him, saying that poop is too dirty and can only be studied by scientists in special labs. He reminded me that we are in a lab. I said that this lab is not special enough. He had some poop in sink with either red flossers or red bubble making toys. I ran water to make it go down the drain.

Went to bed around 10:00pm

11:30 kidnapper in a car garage in our van wants to take my kids - I retaliate, I rescue the kids, I prepare to fight using martial arts which i don't know in real life. I felt sure that I would win. I don't remember dreaming the actual fight - i think the dream ended on my intension to fight and sureness of winning. It felt very empowering. A surprisingly vivid dream for this early in the night. A typical mother protects her kids dream.

"12-30 this us a reas," - at first I assumed that I was not awake enough to make sense while typing. But now given my struggles with typing in the morning, I assume that I just did not double heck the result. It could have been a clear sentence in my mind.

4:00 cannot remember anything and distracted by my husband while trying to recall

To bed around 9:30 pm

11:00 1st awakening of night. No dream recalled. Remembered to check reality.

1:00 no dream, but before moving I though that it would probably be 12:30 since I remember last waking up at 11pm. It was actually about 1. Did reality check.

4:00 my son is learning how to ride a bike, so the bike and my son were prominent in this dream fragment. It was definitely visual. Not sure whether or not there was a plot. Non lucid, no sense of self - more like watching a movie, no awareness. Reality check upon waking up

Got up to go to bathroom and drink a bit of water. Will try WILD. Did some simple arithmetic in my head to make me a bit more aware - caught myself mistake 2+2=3! So not fully functional brain, but good that caught it. Ok, now going back to bed:

Auto suggestion: "I fall asleep aware. I dream. I taste something in dream. I fly. I reality check after wake up. I remember my dream."

Was trying too hard and could not fall asleep for the longest time.

When I did I had a bunch of fragments:

Something about my older son's school

A really neat impressive fortress/igloo made out of plastic but then with snow piled up on top. Huge and very vivid. A mother being shown this fortress, was asked, "So you never come out here with your sons?" Her answer "I did not realize before that they do arts and crafts out here." And I had the sense she meant: I could not care less unless arts and crafts are involved, but now that I know, it's of interest to me too. I just remembered while I was looking at the outside of this snow fortress, I thought "Wow, this is so vivid!" That thought only makes sense if I was at the brink of being lucid - if part of me knew it was a dream, but just had not consciously acknowledged.

My husband and I tried to pawn off an inflatable mattress to some college students, who could not care less. We realized in hindsight that while we left the mattress there, we forgot to include the pump. The students were male, and their dorm only had three walls with one wall open to the outside - so not much of a shelter. At some point I thought that maybe this was not their dorm, but just a place they hung out, but they did appear to sleep there too, and I remember bunk beds. I had the thought that they might be members of a musical band, but don't know why.

4/16/2013 recorded outside of dreamviews first - late morning dream after awakening after each sleep cycle with no other memories

I was interviewing for a job with an elderly lady in her home, which was like a fancy mansion. Out of some reason i had the down comforter with me - for comfort? I was shown from a hallway to a living room / salon. The comforter stayed in the hallway. Another woman left just as I arrived, and she was going for another job interview and worried whether she looked good in the yellow blouse - it was very canary yellow, but suited her. The old woman among other things asked me to take dictation using a video which told me what to write. I tried, but then admitted defeat: I was making too many mistakes, not catching up, and the next set of dictation was going to be even harder. I said that I seldom write with a pen any more, and I don't type well fast either - never had to. But I do regularly use the computer and also type on my phone, but generally not dictation. I realized that the reason why she had me do dictation was that when she interviewed for a job decades ago that's what she would do. It showed a difference in generations: what was expected of a woman in a job interview. I expected that I had failed the interview, but to my surprise, I got a job offer. She realized that dictation was not needed for this job, and she liked me.


I think even though this dream was set at a job interview though I decided that I am not actively looking now after all for now, I think this dream is actually about my desire to be accepted by others for who I am despite faults. I think the setting was a home not an office because this dream was personal not official.

Angie is a friend of mine whom I have not seen in person since we were eightteen, and we really were close friend when we were sixteen. She lives in Europe, I live in the US. We are Facebook friends.

In my dream I had been invited to Angie's birthday party, and was eager to go. However, I kept getting confused: when is the party? Is it today or tomorrow? Check on phone. Tomorrow. When is it? Am I in the car now because I am driving there? If so, I don't have a present. No, the party is on Friday, and today is Thursday (in my dream).

Will I even need to drive there? Couldn't I just walk? But it will be late at night, and the party is barely walking distence. Could my mother drive me there? As long as she stays in the car: it would be awkward if she came in, unlike for that other party of another friend where that was ok.

I am not entirely sure whether I was an adult or a teen in this dream. I think it may have switched from adult to teen in mid-dream.

I was not aware not even a bit, even though with all that confusion I should have questioned that something was wrong. I kept not remembering from one moment to the next when that party will be. When I thought of walking at night, I briefly visualized that, too, but it did not raise any weirdness flags. The dream was quite vivid however. A prime example that vividness and awareness are so separate.

In this dream some parent I did not know was bragging about their children that they napped better, stood taller, progressed better than other people's children, and that it was due to special nutrition.

This dream was rather lengthy and vivid, however, due to the way I was woken up, I could not work more on retaining the memory.

This dream was supposedly about work, but I did not recognize the other people. Throughout the dream I was trying to establish whether a record in the database was a real production record or a fake test record. I went from one set of people to another person. Finally I found a guy who said that it was fake test, and he was sure of it despite only barely looking at it. I said "How do you know?" He: "Because this record is about 'killer potatoes' and there is no such thing." I looked at the data, and yes it was about killer potatoes. I felt so bad for not having noticed that before.

I tried to then establish who had entered this fake record into the production system, but I could not narrow it down to an individual only to a department.