Lucid-schizo-dreamer

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

I need money, go to an ATM. It has a notice saying it is broken, but also has a bunch twenty euros bills sticking out, which I want to grab. I wonder if I'll be accused of stealing if it gets recorded on the ATM's camera, so I remove the notice and pretend I am trying to use the ATM, putting my card in and then I remove the money as I remove my card and hide the bills under the card, so it doesn't show on the video. Then other people passing by come to see if the machine is back to work, since they also need to use it and I explain it is not and that I was just trying it out. Then some bad looking guy comes by, asking if there was any money in it because he had been the last person using the machine and he suspected the machine may have spewed the money after he left. I say no, but he doesn't believe me, so he kidnaps me and I find myself arrested by some mafia guys. I try to escape and accidentally step into a room where the mob boss keeps a feline in a chain. It's his pet. Looks like a young leopard. My first instinct is to pet him but they warn me he'll attack. I watch the mob boss pet him. I later escape through the bathroom window.
I am walking some fancy streets and recognize it is in Italy, maybe Rome. I myself am looking fancy. I reach a street full of tables from restaurants, with tourists eating. I fly over them and hear all kinds of comments of surprise from people. I am half-lucid and spot some roman ruins and decide to go sit on top of it watching the beautiful sunset. Then I fly over to some other ruins nearby and find the mob guy dead in there and the leopard on the lose. He already knows me, so he doesn't run away, but I wonder if he'll hurt me. I grab the chain that is laying on the floor and try to put in on his neck. He does attack me, but it feels like a big cat biting and scratching, not like a big feline who could rip my flesh. So I manage and I secure the chain and walk him around a bit. He submits to me and automatically allows me to pet him. The police arrives and bystanders start gathering. I ask the police what happens to the leopard and nobody knows or wants to deal with that responsibility, so they say I can keep him since he seems to like and obey me. I kinda like the idea but I wonder where I'll keep him because of all my cats and dogs at home.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

On the backstage of - I think - Jimmy Kimmel's show. There is a giant water tank on stage for some reason and Jimmy is inside fully dressed doing some stunt. At some point I feel like he is in distress, so I knock on the glass just to check. All is fine and when it is over, I see the staff putting away all the wet accessories and then I meet Jon Stewart, who is also around for some reason. He joins me and comes to my mom's house to stay for a day, sort of a prize I got at the show, not sure. Strangely, he straight away sits topless on the sofa. I always found him hot, despite just being an ordinary looking dude, so I find myself massaging and caressing him. At first, I feel like it is consensual - after all, he got naked - but then he looks awkward and tells me not to touch his nipples or hair and just keep it professional. I am confused but I say ok and offer him just a shoulder massage. Then I stop, because I still feel him uncomfortable and I also feel uncomfortable and I say we can just talk. I start asking if he ever visited Portugal before. He says no and asks if there are beaches nearby. I say not really, but for some reason I can see Setúbal from my mom's window and tell him actually on that town, there is a really nice beach and we can go there if he wants. He likes the idea and we hop on a train to get there. My mom and some other girl also join. During the travel, Jon disappears and now I am only with the two ladies. The ticket controller comes by and the girl has no ticket and I realize none of us do. She makes up some bad excuse that will make us look even worse. The controller says immediately he will have to fine her. I think we need to get out right now discreetly and we need a distraction maneuver. So I spot this cranky old lady wailing insults at a poor black woman sitting nearby. I get up and spread some jam (that I just happen to have) all over her face, telling her she is a racist pig and to shut up. She is in shock and intensifies her slurs. She says blacks are all criminals and disgusting and she is not sorry. I slap her around, I am really pissed off and try to reason with her, but she shows no desire to be reasonable and just intensifies the hate. Meanwhile I think the controller disappeared but probably because he went to call the police or security, se we need to leave asap.

Back at my mom's house, in my old bedroom. I find some ugly scary bug inside my wardrobe. Then I spot a few centipedes on the bottom of it, then lots of ants and finally notice that all hanged clothes are covered in flying ants. I go open the window, to try to release all the flying bugs, but first I check for any cats laying around and take them outside the bedroom for safety reasons. But then outside, I notice there is some construction work in my mom's bathroom and the workers also keep the window open. I freak out (it's a 4th floor), so I come up with some kind of barrier that allows air circulation but stops cats from going there and falling. Then the house is now like and old gigantic palace with abandoned furniture. Some dude from the workers finds a dog nursing puppies under a dresser and believes one of the puppies is dead. So he picks him up and throws him away to a pile of trash. But the puppy is alive and hurt. I take him to vet. The vet also throws him against the floor a bunch of times. I am horrified and I yell at him, but each time the puppy gets thrown, he actually seems to become better, more awake and transforming into something else. The last time the man does it, he turns into a kookaburra.

Again at the old palace, back when it was alive. I am a servant and I live in the servant's area. Everyone else is away, masters and servants alike and I am the only one around. I am at the kitchen doing some chores when two guys break in. One of them is my old colleague from school in RL, Zé Francisco, accompanied by a shorter chunkier guy who looks like his own servant, but he is no lord or gentleman, they are bandits looking for an opportunity to rob some stuff. When Zé sees me, he recognizes me and I see in his eyes that he wants me and he will rape me. At first I panic, but then I think I was always strangely attracted to him, so it becomes a consensual thing. I lead him to a room and we are getting on, but it takes ages to undress. The skirt and petticoat and corset, so many things to remove. Meanwhile he transforms into someone else and he complains that I am fat and I smell, so the mood is ruined.

Now I am a single mother living in a favela. Some gang members are looking for me, so I hide at some friend's place with my kid. They find me, but fortunately when they arrive, I am in a back room and hide before they see me. My kid is with me and I tell him we are playing a very serious game in which he can't talk no matter what. He is a toddler and doesn't really understand there is danger, so at some point he escapes from me and dwells into the front room where the bad guys are, but they don't know whose child he is and my friends make up some excuse. The kid keeps going to whatever destination he has in mind and never ever says a word, even when they ask him something, so they assume he is mute and let him go.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At an office to apply to a course and a scholarship. I pass all tests but they say they'll give me the scholarship because they did an MRI while I was being interviewed and they say I have tumors in my left boob and need support. I am speechless and tell them I actually have cysts and tumors everywhere but not on my boobs and that makes no sense. Classes are all day on fridays and at first I am happy with the schedule, but then remember I am already going to another school and have a packed schedule on friday.

Some excursion to the north of Portugal. On arrival to some town there is a feast prepared for us. I am starving and jump right in, but others are quicker than me and all I get is some bread dipped in olive oil. There are some activities later, kids playing and adults picking fruits. I am flirting with some hunk who is into me, but at the same time is keeping his distances because he seems to not want others to know. I get bored and go for a walk and all of a sudden I am walking in Lisbon with my mom and aunt Lisa. I don't recognize the streets though, they look so good. Lots of glamorous cafés and restaurants. I see Tatiana dressed like a pinup, blond hair, looking gorgeous, entertaining some customers sitting on tables outside a café with her name. I can see she is doing really well. I think she sees me, but I pretend I don't and just keep going. I feel ashamed that I am a bit jealous of her. Meanwhile, we come across my dad who looks pissed, because he was kicked out of a store for not being well dressed enough. I think he looks ok, not posh but also not ragged. He speaks to my mom privately as they walk ahead and then he leaves. I ask her if he was trying to open a bank account at some posh bank and she says it was just a famous kitchenware brand store. And I was like wtf. Also commented that if it was Elon Musk in rags they would welcome him with open arms. She says he asked her help for shopping new clothes. Then mom and Lisa transform into Margarida and an old Japanese frail lady but I haven't adjusted to that change, so I treat the old lady as if she is Lisa and I make some joke and slap her hard in the arm. As a result, the old lady almost falls down and when I realize it, I apologize a lot. But the lady smiles gently and speaks very softly and tells me it's ok.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At a campus, just waiting for something to end and I am drawing pics, sitting on a bench. Try to make a couple portraits of some people, a bit cartoonish. They look great, just don't look at all with whom I had in mind while drawing them. I go to the canteen and a group of guys who have a love-hate relationship with me, spot me from afar and comment something about me. I sense disappointment and also get the impression that some are planning on going after me to tease me. That worries me a bit. One of the dudes actually thinks I have a crush on him, but he is insufferable. He starts practicing his contemporary dance moves and he has at least one fan who is fixated on him, but he wants to impress me instead, so he starts doing very suggestive moves too close for comfort, and I am like 'please don't". Then I realize I can fly away from this mad people and inspired by his dance I start dancing as I go up in the sky trying to also spark some surprise. But there is barely any reaction from anyone, as usual.
There is a building in front of me and as I get closer to its top, I spot my friend Zilla in an appartment and I stop by, entering through the window. She is nursing her baby and also has some new kittens, but what I am amazed at the most, is that she is also raising three tiny bats. I pick up one to take a picture of him in my hand, but he doesn't stay still and eventually jumps to fly and almost hits me in the face. I get scared and then laugh and she comments they are learning how to fly.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP


A friend brings me a newspaper article where my name is mentioned in the title. I try to understand what it is about and who wrote it. Can't recognize the name, but I think it is of a friend of a friend to whom I told a story. I feel pissed that this person used my name and described me without my permission. But the story is good and actually supposed to praise me for my decision about something.

Somehow I come to a room where my teacher is laying on a bed unconscious, or maybe asleep. I kneel by his side and put a hand on his chest. He wakes up slowly and sees me by his side. I caress him a bit and he slowly caresses me back. He smiles and he is happy to see me. He gets up really hungry. Some monk and some other girl from the Sangha are also around and they guide him to the kitchen table. As we wait for food, he grabs the newspaper and sees my name in it. He tries to read the article but its in Portuguese. I tell him the story. It's about a lady in the Sangha who is married to a guy she doesn't love and she discovers he has a secret room. One day he is out and she grabs the key and enters the room and then the story goes on but I don't recall.

Meet Gabriel who is some kind of angel. Something important happened and he appeared. Then some person I am with sees the ghost of some lady on a window who tries to talk to her. Something about Deuteronomy. I tell Gabriel I also saw her and then things get stranger. The lady gets possessed, but only I can see and hear the demonic sounds and horrible faces coming from that person. I show it to my mom who gets terrified, so she can see it to. The I show it to my grandma who holds my hand as asks something banal as if she didn't notice anything.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

I am with a bunch of high school kids. After some earthquakes, we get "attacked" by clouds of glitter which gets inside us and we start seeing the whole universe and feeling disoriented, like tripping. After a while it gets more clear and we realize we are on board of a train and everything feels a bit different. Outside it is desert and the clouds are white and red. We talk about what to do. I vote for keeping going and seeing more of this place, Zilla and others want to get out and walk. When the train stops at a stop, they get off. The conductor and other local people try to dissuade us of doing so, but this group is very stubborn. Most kids though opt to stay on the train. I join Zilla and her group, despite not wanting initially. I ask the locals for the nearest village and they point towards a direction and say there is only one around. We get there and we go to the only club/bar where we can drink and eat something. It now feels like we are in some Latin American country in the 40-50s. But the bartender says we are actually still in Portugal. We sit down at a lounge room while waiting for some food and we discover a cabinet full of geography and history books. I ask the girl serving us if there is any book about Europe and she opens a book on our table. She has to go back to work and we gather around to read it. My idea is that somehow we were transported to a parallel universe and I am sure history and geography will be different from what we know. I plan on stealing the book if it proves that, so we can bring proof of it back to our universe.

I am at some space station, as part of a skilled workforce who is sent to any planet where we are needed. At the moment we are here awaiting our next assignment. It is normal to hook up with someone for the months we are stuck somewhere, casual relationships that may or may not become serious. My best friend, who's Indian, hooked up with some guy who looks like Idris Elba and she can't believe her luck, because she is just a very average girl. So am I and I am dating a guy who looks just like Chris Pratt and is just as goofy. We are all at the laundry room, washing our clothes and there is a rumor we are about to be assigned to new missions. My boyfriend gets butt naked and asks me to check some pimples on his butt and he sticks his ass up. My friend's boyfriend yells disgusted that he didn't have to see it, while covering his eyes. I ask him to please put his pants back on, but he insists I check his pimples. There are a few indeed, a bit red and swollen and I tell him to just not scratch them and please put his pants on. Then someone comes in and right there starts saying where we'll be sent. My Indian friend is asked to go back to India for some time, there is some mission there for her but she doesn't want to go. People say "But isn't your family there? Don't you feel lucky to be sent home?" But apparently not and I suspect it is because she knows her boyfriend is probably going somewhere else. I and my boyfriend are going to go on the same mission to another station, in the most distant boundaries of our known universe. During the travel there, he keeps making funny scenes like pretending he is going to open the door of the shuttle to get some air. It is actually making me nervous because there is a button we just have to press for the door to open and a secondary safety door is not closed, because people just feel so comfortable they stopped using those. But I insist on feeling safer, so we close that safety door. At our destination, my boyfriend is supposed to test some new secret ship (he is a pilot) and I get to see him doing maneuvers outside. The ship is amazing, looks like a toy plane with a large round nose and tiny chunky wings, but the surface is all metallic, no windows, also with sharp edges giving it a geometric look much like a dodecahedron and it is bright shiny red.
There is some unfortunate episode where some dude is ejected into space after a mutiny on some other ship, on purpose or due to some malfunction, can't tell, and my boyfriend happens to be on the spot and manages to grab him with mechanical arms and in just seconds shoot straight to a station hangar with the dude. He saves him, but soon after there is a strange infection spreading in the station and the director comes out to announce we have been compromised and it is my boyfriend's fault. The guy he saved brought with him an infection. The director explains we are in an area infested by these little aliens - they aren't viruses or bacteria, literally they are like tiny microscopic people who enter someone's body and exploit its resources like a planet. I get to see images of them coming out of a tiny ship inside some body and spread out through the organism to harvest whatever they need. I just don't understand how they multiply to be able to infect others. As he speaks, the director starts showing symptoms and everybody runs away. I, my boyfriend and another friend with her kids, we get on some escape pod, hoping none is infected and we head back to Earth, where we land in Lisbon. Life is normal back on Earth, we go eat some sweets at a café and talk about what to do next. The kids never been to Lisbon and are excited to see new things, but my boyfriend is insisting that we should stay home and rest.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

At some gathering with friends and strangers, Zilla is there, as well as some guys from my school time and the french girl Sophie I met in a band. We are wrapping up the party and there is food and drinks for anyone to take home. Sophie asks me if I want a packet of milk. I say no thanks, don't eat dairy. Then I check a fridge which is full of vegan yogurts and decide to grab some. Unfortunately I make a mess when splitting the yogurt cups, because the lids detach very easily. I then grab some half empty juice packages and start filling a bag with the stuff I am collecting. Then wonder if I could come during the weekend instead, with my car so I can get some more stuff, instead of trying to take this by hand today. But they say the place will be closed during the weekend.
As I leave, I notice this place is in a mountain area and surrounded by an improvised camping site where a lot more people are staying for some more festivities. I go down a road and have a strange encounter with what seems like giant white cow with heart shaped light brown spots. She seems to try to interact with me but then I notice more people behind me also observing the being and she keeps her distance and even seems a bit disturbed by all the curious eyes. She then becomes a woman but still gigantic and very bizarre looking, out worldly. I don't understand what's going on, but someone says she is this mythical creature from this woods and she is spotted frequently and doesn't like crowds.
As I see her disappearing down the road and people start dispersing, it is also getting dark and I spot a UFO in the sky. It seems to be coming lower and lower and nearly touches the trees around me. It is dark and has blue and green lights underneath. I go after it, in the hope to see it up close. It lands downhill in an open area by the side of another road. It is about the the size of a big car and I see two or three passengers coming out of it. I try to lay low behind some trees, but one of them turns in my direction and very specifically calls my name telepathically. I get chills down my spine. I don't know what to do, but it occurs to me to run for a second, But I immediately feel numb and paralyzed and feel myself levitating against my will towards them. I am conscious yet totally unable to fight it. When close to the ship, they release me from the tractor beam or mind spell and invite me to seat inside with them. I decide since they are being polite, to go along and try to enjoy the ride. I try to notice all the details. The feeling I have now is that of a lucid dream, I am trying to stay hyper aware and memorize all the details, but never thought this was a dream. They are three, they all look like human females with short hair and in some sort of tight tracker suits. I notice strange that although their hair colors are natural, between blond and light brown, they have incredible colored patterns t the neck level which seem to prolong onto the skin on their necks, like dye or make up. The ship is really just like a car in which there are two seats in the front and one is for the pilot and two seats in the back for passengers, separated by some kind of net or mesh. The ship is triangular in shape and although outside the chassis was dark, it looks transparent when seen from the inside. I can understand them talking among each other telepathically and to me it sounds like french for some reason. I understand the co-pilot is actually a male and he is uncomfortable with the whole disguise and specially with it being a human female. He complains about it and the others say he shall get used to it. I wonder if they are shapeshifters and I do see that area of their necks, experiencing some fluctuations, like a projection with some glitches. I fear that they might look really scary but I also try to stay positive and think it doesn't matter what they really look like as long as they treat me with care. They capture my entire train of thought and don't confirm with words but I can feel their feelings confirming this is not their true form, that they use it to look less intimidating to me, even the choice of being all female looking. I ask if they are cool or if I should worry about something. Their answer doesn't leave me very relaxed. They say they don't mean to harm me, but can't promise I won't be hurt. I ask why and they say the surgery is a bit painful. I freak out "What surgery? Why do you guys always have to do surgery? What is the purpose?" And they say it is not harmful, it is actually to make me able to survive in their ship and environment. Something about pressure and gases, they show me my abdomen swelling like a balloon and they say they need to perforate to release pressure and apparently other interventions without basically anesthetics. That I don't get why and I start feeling afraid of the pain. But they say it's necessary and that it will be compensated by the training in the theoretical part, that I will love that. And I feel curious again; "what theoretical part?'. Once again they don't use words but I get a feeling from them they will be sharing a lot of info with me for almost a week. We arrive at some kind of hangar, maybe a bigger ship that is stationed, I can't tell in the dark. There is what appears like an elevator and they put me on a stretcher and imply I will now be taken to surgery room as we ascend to space. I am like "You're really taking me to space?" Then I remember my mom and rest of the family who will go crazy not knowing anything from me for a week. I ask them to please contact my family and tell them that I am ok, but I know that they won't. Then I lose consciousness. And wake up.

non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid FA / AP

In a small village in Africa. Find out the villagers slaughtered all their cattle, plus a bunch of rhinos for meat and I am in shock, because it is unlike them. I am told they were forced by some local terrorist group, commanded by a couple white men, who are taking control of the region. A little baby white rhino bruised and covered in blood comes to me seeking for help. My heart is so broken. I hug him and take him to some friends at another nearby village, who promise to take care of the baby and raise him. They also take me to the city, an old town inside rammed walls and designed with tight streets and labyrinthine tunnels. I am staying with some missionary white ladies in a sort of convent or nunnery in the innermost part of the city. News arrive that the terrorist group is taking over the city and we are warned that because we are white women, we should run and hide as best as we can, because they won't be gentle with us if they find us. The nuns escape through some underground tunnels but I grab some knifes and a small sword and I go look for the invaders. Quietly and unannounced, I cut the throats of the men I find, one by one. But they finally realize my presence and then start looking for me in pairs or groups of three or four at a time. I still kill them all. There is one guy I find unarmed and who doesn't offer me a fight and I let him go. I explain I hate killing and just do it if I have to. He goes to his leaders and I know he is gonna warn them about me. I try to sneak into their command center, but it is heavily guarded. The access is through a square, with a huge watermill in the center of a pond. The watermill is a 4 storeys high structure. I am actually coming from above, through a platform connecting a higher location of the town to the watermill which pumps water up. I use the watermill to descend to the square ground level without being spotted. On the pond I encounter a fellow resistance fighter who seems to have had the same idea. But I am spotted. The fact that I am wearing a bright red shirt doesn't help. They didn't spot my friend though, so I surrender before they see him to. The leaders come out of their HQ and say they are surprised I gave up so easily, considering the rumors of the lady who's been killing all their men single-handedly. But I point to the 6 men in front of me, 2 with machine guns and 4 with some kind of riffles with very large barrels and I say I brought knifes to a gun fight and know when resisting is just pointless suicide. So they capture me and as I expected, the two leaders are a couple guys my age who are immediately smitten by me. I get rid of my wet red shirt and I am in shorts and bra, rocking my hot body to taunt them even more. They won't allow any other men to touch me and they escort me personally to a safe place where they provide me dry clothing and also offer me jewels. I find it stupid, but I'll play the game if they want to doll me up. They keep me close to them as they go about their plans and that's Just what I wanted.