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    1. Sing me to sleep

      by , 08-22-2012 at 04:39 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      Sing me to sleep
      Sing me to sleep
      I'm tired and I
      I want to go to bed

      Sing me to sleep

      Sing me to sleep
      And then leave me alone
      Don't try to wake me in the morning
      'Cause I will be gone
      Don't feel bad for me
      I want you to know
      Deep in the cell of my heart
      I will feel so glad to go

      Sing me to sleep

      Sing me to sleep
      I don't want to wake up
      On my own anymore

      Sing to me

      Sing to me
      I don't want to wake up
      On my own anymore

      Don't feel bad for me

      I want you to know
      Deep in the cell of my heart
      I really want to go

      There is another world

      There is a better world
      Well, there must be
      Well, there must be
      Well, there must be
      Well, there must be
      Well ...

      Bye


      Asleep -- The Smiths
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    2. 12 Jun: Re-building

      by , 06-13-2012 at 11:53 AM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      non-dream dream semi-lucid lucid false awakening

      Some months ago my dream activity was mortally wounded. I went through a lot, I was depressed, lost, unfocused. Meditation went down the drain, dream recall followed suit. I think I regressed to where I was some 5 years ago. I may have gone too fast, too deep, too soon, into the dream warrior world, without enough prep. I probably fought battles which were too tough and encountered dark forces which drained me out of my energy.
      So, I'm rebuilding.
      Lately my dreams have been a lot about feeling safe in a house. For many, many years, I had recurring dreams about living in a house that was falling apart, whose windows and doors would not close when I most needed its protection. Now the dreams are different. This house where I am now recovering, is big, strong and has amazing doors and windows that seem impenetrable. I feel there's a darkness outside it (still is) but I feel completely safe inside it. I'm rebuilding my dream headquarters and it is a cozy fortress
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    3. 30 Aug: LDs & SP

      by , 08-31-2011 at 07:39 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      I concluded that for my LDs, it is more crucial to wake up (and then go back to sleep) 2-3 hours before the time to get up, than it is to sleep a lot.
      I am now going to bed around midnight (instead of the usual 10-11 pm) and I try to get up around 4-5 am and walk around a bit) for at least 15 mins and then go back to sleep until around 6-7 am. At least in this last part of my sleep, I sometimes have an explosion of LDs, even sleeping less hours.
      Last night I counted at least 5 LDs in sequence, separated by conscious SP. Not much to tell, tough. My focus level was a bit down. I tried to complete an RPG task, but I entered SP in the moment I got to "wear" my character.
      During a moment between dreams I though there was an earthquake, because I could feel the bed shaking violently, but then I concluded it was SP effects. I also felt a presence in the bed with me (I was sleeping alone and my cats were locked outside). I felt it touching me and it was uncomfortable, but it no longer freaks me out (much).

      Updated 09-24-2011 at 09:54 AM by 34880

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    4. 11 May: OBE or astral projection

      by , 05-11-2011 at 03:23 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      I think this morning I had my very first real conscious experience with OBE.
      I think it happened to me before, but I wasn't really aware of how it started.
      But really early this morning I woke up briefly in my bed from a lucid dream and as I started to plunge back into sleep, I heard a little buzz announcing sleep paralysis settling in. Two thoughts came to my mind: either I'd go with the flow or I'd move my hand a little bit to stop it, because I really don't like it and usually it doesn't take me anywhere anyway.
      I tried to move my hand, but so very little that it wouldn't actually interrupt my falling asleep, just the SP noises. As I did it, I felt like my left hand was indeed made of two hands, the physical one and a ghost-like hand. Always with my eyes closed, I focused on the ghost-hand feeling and soon I started to see my hand, my bed and the wall in front of me, although I kept my eyes closed. My body did enter sleep paralysis but I wasn't really asleep either. I decided to move my ghost-hand and I saw it separating from my physical hand. It was cool!
      Then I decided to get up, the whole body. I was lying sideways on the bed, over my left shoulder. So I tried to lift my ghostly head and left shoulder. Then "bam": I felt my "ghost" body separating from my physical body. It occurred to me it was an OBE.
      Excitement was taken over by vertigo, nausea and an extremely uncomfortable feeling. I felt like I was leaving my body and as an effect I was dying. Dying would be ok for me: I wasn't feeling any particular attachment to this body and this life. But then I remembered my mom who was sleeping as a guest on the living room and how much pain she and other people who love me would feel if I simply left. So, afraid of continuing with the process and not being able to come back, I laid down again, merged my two bodies and simply entered the sleep and lucid dream state.
      Later when I woke up I felt a bit stupid, because rumor has it that nobody really dies from OBE. But at that moment I wasn't so sure! It felt really real that I could die, but I know it's silly, so next time I'll try to go ahead with it.

      Updated 09-24-2011 at 09:58 AM by 34880

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    5. Away

      by , 05-02-2011 at 05:17 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      Been away for some time now. Already have 4 notebooks full of dreams on the shelf, but no time to type and post them.
      Maybe one day when my life is calmer (when will that be?) I'll find the time to do it...
      Due to life circumstances, I don't do so much mentalization about what I want to do once I'm asleep. Instead I try to keep a stable awareness throughout the day. This resulted in an increased awareness that I'm dreaming to maybe 60% of my dream time, but the determination to accomplish lucid tasks decreased by maybe 90%, so I have just been enjoying the dreams aware without much interferring on their course.
      Anyway, one of this latest nights I summoned my DG to ask her/him (depends on the occasion) about what I should do, and he told me to stop obsessing about goals and objectives and just merge completely with the experience and savor it 100%. So that's what I've been doing and there's not much to talk about it anyway.
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    6. Side notes: Message from a medium

      by , 11-16-2010 at 04:38 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      I met a german lady who claims to have mediunic powers. I didn't tell her much about myself, only that I had lucid dreams 'cause I wanted to see if she also did, but at some point in our short conversation, she grabbed my arms, looked deeply into my eyes and almost in a trance she gave me the following message...
      That my energy is totally compassionate and peaceful, that I lack wrathfulness and therefore in this life and in this world I'm not meant to be a warrior, but that I had been a ninja before and that in the dream world my dream ninja is still alive and kicking and is her mission to fight the evil powers that move between dimensions. Then she went on with some advice on how to strengthen my dream ninja.
      I thought this was awesomely cool.
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    7. Side notes: Instructions from gurus can be a real turn-off...

      by , 11-02-2010 at 02:44 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      I spoke to one of my gurus about my lucid dreams and he gave me some new directives, so I might have to change my commitment to the ToTY, ToTM and RPG's tasks, 'cause I need to be full-time focused on the tasks he gave to me.
      My teacher also told me to relax and not to be so obsessed about having lucids every night and to once in a while not even care about recall - just sleep. He realised my excitement about LDs and shared dreams and the whole shebang and he said I was getting too amused with my dream experiences. The objective of my dream practice is not to develop a whole alternative life, but simply to train the mind to realise it's only in a dream and to carry it on to awaken life.
      He told me to whenever I become lucid, just sit and medidate. I was not happy about it, but I know he is right, so I will do that as much as possible.
      Flying and sending laser beams from my 3rd eye and meeting other LDers is fun, but my goal is enlightnement, so I must not get stuck on fun.
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    8. Back to DV!

      by , 10-24-2010 at 03:03 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      Well, it's been two weeks since I posted my last dreams. I've been travelling in Japan and mostly wrote nothing on my DJ. Mainly because I wasn't sleeping much and when I was, I could just recall dreams that had to do with day events and not interesting at all. Japan took over me and didn't let anything else more interesting to take place. I basically lost focus from dream practice because waken life was so much more exciting. Also, jet lag for days didn't help.
      But I'm back and will post the stuff I did write down, including a few lucids.
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    9. Precog dreams confirmed

      by , 09-23-2010 at 05:00 PM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      In the past few days I've had really strange experiences with precognitive dreams. It is not unusal for me to recognize places I go for the first time from dreams I had before going there, but this time for a bunch of days I felt like I was living a huge dj vu and that every step I was taking I was reliving several of my dreams.
      I went to Brussels and Ghent for work reasons. I've been in Brussels many times, I even lived there, but his time I took a different route from the one I always take out of the airport. It started there, when I recognised a car park where I had a dream adventure some time ago (even before joining DV, so no DJ record of it). I had never seen the place before, only in that dream.

      Then when I was on this bus to Brussels centre, I realised I'm dressed similarly to the dream of 9 Sep when I meet a friend at a library (on the same night by coincidence I also dreamt about Brussels). I'm wearing a skirt, leggings and some lycra socks that are kinda dirty. I am also wearing sabrinas, which is totally unlike me. I am going directly to the European Parliament, where my friend JF (whom I had met on this library dream) works. I think I need to take the socks and leggings out before arriving there or I'll be going through the embarassement of having to undress there, like I did in my dream, in front of my friend behind a desk. So, that problem was averted, due to reminding this dream.

      Then I spent all afternoon and night working at the Parliament, in some office with some friends and colleagues. Here I recognised the dream of 22 Aug about a "casual 5* hotel". It wasn't really a hotel, but the parliament at night. I recognized the lobby with the black square sofas, the amazing staircase leading to the glass window "chamber" on the upper floor (not really a concert hall, but the look was still incredibly similar). Instead of the lake and plants in the middle of the staircases, there's a huge metallic sculpture on the centre that looks like a waterfall.
      Then when we were working, one of the guys started to sing "who let the dogs out" and everybody joined in and laughed. Someone made a comment that we should have brought our dogs for company throughout the night. And I totally related this to the dream (dogs running around free on the hotel in the middle of the night).

      Also, the recent dream I had about hacking a building was totally related to the Parliament experience. I stayed there all night, which was not supposed to happen - I only had a permit for staying during the daily working time. But me and one colleague decided to stay behind to finish a job in the office of the person who got us in, hoping the security guards would not kick us out. We didn't stay inside the office all night as we were too curious and wanted to explore the building. We managed to walk around, avoiding the cameras and hiding of a security guard (a lady) we saw at a certain point, but amazed that no one was actually stopping us. Only at 4 a.m. did they caught us, because by then we thought nobody would come to kick us out. We decided to sleep on some couches on a corridor and a guard doing a round finally found us. We were totally exposed and relaxed about it. A mistake. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted.

      A few days later I went to Ghent and as I was passing by a really cute shop where I saw this basket full of teddy bears and other dolls, it totally reminded me of the teddy bear basket I had found in the security control room of the building I hacked (in the dream).

      Also in Ghent I arrived at this street where I saw the scene from the dream of 21 Aug (that then I marked as a potential precognitive). I had dreamt of a certain beautiful building on a corner of two streets facing a canal and there it was. It wasn't the embassy of Switzerland - that was a dream confusion, because the next day (not after the dream, but after this day in Ghent) I was supposed to go the german embassy (work related) and somehow my mind foresaw it but mixed it up. Anyway, no doubt that was the same place from the dream, although the building was not pink but actually orange/reddish, but hey... In front there was a canal and I leaned against the fence to take pictures both of the building and of the canal, for future reference.

      Later on, I saw this huge amount of people in bicycles and when I saw a particular family it got my attention - it totally looked like the part of the dream before hacking the building, where I followed this family on bikes. On the dream it was car-free day and... surprise, surprise: I found out then that it was car-free sunday in Ghent!
      By now I decided I should follow the bikers as I did in my dream, and see where it would lead me in waking life.
      Apparently to no place special. They crossed a bridge and kept cycling around the neighbourhood. I was tired of following them and stopped by the back of this huge building which I found to be a museum. On the back of this museum there was a nice garden and I just felt like meditating there for a while. That's when I found a koi pond in the middle of it. Weird. I had to do a RC just to be sure I was not on the moon
      I did sat there for half an hour and had the most bizarre meditative experience. I actually tried to contact the dream world while awake and felt strange effects. I'm not saying it was not my imagination, but I felt weird, like a strong difference of pressure over my head, strong swirling winds started to blow in the garden and around me. It was strange.

      Last but not least, while I was in Ghent I had also this weird dream that I was attacked, on a kind of guesthouse/restaurant, by some cult followers that kept saying "Simon says!" (haven't published this one yet on my DJ) and the next day I found out there was a place close by my hostel (a B&B and coffee bar) which is called "Simon says" - how odd is that? Unfortunately I had no time to actually go there, but the good side is I probably I escaped my attackers

      Updated 09-11-2011 at 10:26 PM by 34880

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    10. Sick

      by , 09-14-2010 at 09:39 AM (Lucid-schizo-dreamer)
      I've been ill the past few days, with a flu or something like that.
      I am very frustrated because it affected my dreams. All I recalled during these days were 2 or 3 fragments, not even worth being posted. It's awful.
      Hope to recover soon the dream recall and the lucid dreaming. This situation sucks.
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