Suena

Lucid.

I guess you would call this WBTB. I was trying to call asleep consciously and it kind of worked, my husband almost interuppted me because he came out into the living room to get something, but he said something and I'm pretty sure it was real. I was in the middle of transitioning into a dream. He walked off and as he was walking down the hallway all I could see was darkness but I felt different, felt like I was hovering.

I knew it was the beginning but I couldn't get anything to really form, I did for a minute and I instantly started rubbing my hands together and I shouted clarity for the first time in a dream. It faded though, I don't understand this. I almost lost it and woke up but at the last second I decided to sit there and wait in the dark and that's when I was suddenly in my house. I can't remember much, but I got up from the couch and I think I said something to the dream, like be vivid, lol, since clarity hadn't worked. It seemed to work. I went to the door and turned the knob, it came open, much to my surprise and I shut it behind me as I stepped onto the porch. Then I jumped back like Spiderman to give myself a boost off the door and started to float, but I ended up grabbing onto my house and climbing on top. I knew the roof would only be hot if I let it, and for a second I was trying to feel it's warmth. I got up on the house and woke up. The whole time outside was very vivid and the sky was a dark yellow, but very vivid. The sky as I approached the roof was different somehow, I just don't remember why it was.

Ok, so after this lucid, I had a dream. Kind of a nightmare for me.

I can't remember every detail... but I was called into work at McDonalds, where I used to work while I was prego. I quit though and now I work at Wendys, anyways, I was working both jobs I guess, and this was my first day back at McDonalds. The manager was talking to me like she wanted me to come back for good, but I told her I could only work Thursdays and Fridays (The two days I don't work at Wendy's.) I had driven a moped to work, and I do remember doing this and leaving T at home, but when I got to work I wondered why I didn't just take the car. This is when some weirdness happened. I kept flashing back from being home to being online to being at work, all the while, having a huge fight with T because he wanted to sleep with other girls. I was very emotional in this dream.

There was a moment when I was at home and sitting on the couch scraping up a bowl of coke, cocaine. (I've never done this in RL.) T was talking while I was doing it, telling me he was going to this town and fuck some girl named Tex. He wasn't breaking up with me, he just wanted to fuck someone else. I was so pissed I picked up the bowl of coke and I had been putting baking soda in it, for some reason, anyways, I picked it up and slammed it right into his face. He couldn't believe it and I felt so bad, started apologizing, then I told him he needed to flush his eyes out with water, this worried him, he got up immediately to do this. We both went to the sink and were flushing our eyes with water.

After this, the girl showed up and was walking around and talking to T about all the things they were going to do together, while I was there. At many points, I told T I was leaving and he went into the bathroom and started throwing out my make-up. I followed him into the bathroom and not even a second after he'd walked in the entire bathroom sink was clean and glistening. I told him I WAS going to clean that eventually and he just scoffed.

There were these video tapes that this girl had brought with her, and she had rented them, hoping T and her would watch them together. I decided to hide them after debating on whether I should destroy them. I started hiding them around the house right before they walked in the door. They were talking about this place they were going to go. This is all I remember about this part.

Way on earlier in the dream, I was at my house, which was also a store called Third Planet (actually exists.) My friend J shows up to sell some clothes, he seemed hesitant when I answered, I was like come on in, and I finishing a cig. He comes in and sits down on the couch. Just then I see a mouse run from the closet door. I freak out and tell them and two of the guys that were hanging out, K was one of them, was going to kill it. I told him if he killed it I would beat his ass, told him to let him outside. He went over to the mouse and almost smashed it, but I stopped him and then he opened the closet door and there were three more mice, I started to scream. (Mice in real life don't scare me, Idk.)

Well, wish I could've remembered all my dreams from last night, but I just took this nap and this is all I could remember.
From last night, I keep getting deja vu though about the dream, just these feelings from it keep popping up like flashbacks and fading real quick before I get a glimpse of anything tangible I can actually write down. I just keep thinking about this Tall man.

I feel like a failure. Haven't been writing anything down and lose the dream by afternoon. I did go lay down for an hour earlier to practice getting my body into SP. I didn't get far, I think I had just fallen asleep and then I had a small dream.

I thought I was awake, because I was laying in my bed and my husband had just come in and put Mia, my sister's dog, in the bedroom and shut the door. I got up, because I wanted to know why Mia was here (I had just seen my sister and Mia yesterday.) I got up and let Mia out of the bedroom and went into the living room with her. I didn't see my husband, but everything was gone in the living room, like picked up. My first thought was wow, he's cleaning. I started thinking about Mia again and wondering if my sister had forgotten her here. Then I woke up in my bed about 5 minutes before my alarm would've went off.

Might have had the potential of becoming lucid if I hadn't woken up. I think I knew it was a dream but just woke up to make sure instead of doing an RC. >.<

Had several dreams last night but way too much going on to remember more than this.

There were a few people over at my house that I had never met before. One of the guys offered me a vial of LSD. It had weird floating blobs in it. He said I could trip for free and I told him I couldn't cause my kid was home. He said I didn't have to take much to trip and it wouldn't last as long. So I drank a bit of it and had some of the blobs in my mouth, I went ahead and chewed them up. Then he went and offered my husband some and he was going to take it. I told him he probably shouldn't just in case something happens with our son. He said he'd be fine and he took some too. I started tripping within half an hour apparently, at least that's what I exclaimed to a girl who wanted to take some. It kicked in fast, and I remember sitting on the couch, talking to two guys. It really felt as though I had taken acid, because the conversation was so simple and so funny. I just started giggling like crazy and I told them I had no idea what was going on right now, with the conversation. I started to see colors vibrate my vision and then they would disappear. My son was in his crib sleeping and I was staring at him when I realized I wasn't tripping anymore.

Just a fragment. There was a whole story to it. Slacking on my dream journal. =/

I have no idea what's up with the blobs...

I had incredibly vivid dreams last night, but I had to work so I only took a few notes and I know I'm missing part of it. =(

I was looking through an old composition notebook of mine and found sketches that were really amazing. One of them had a park bench sitting overlooking a river. The water was in such good detail that could almost see it flowing (should've done a RC.) It was in a sort of 3D style. I was amazed that I had drawn something so good. I was about to show someone when I realized that my friend, A, had used my notebook at one time. She's an artist, so I assumed she did them, which made more sense. I was a little disappointed.

The same dream, just later on. I was at a house I used to live in a long time ago, a doublewide, but it was where my home is now. I was talking to this girl when I realized that she was my new sister. We were standing in front of the bathroom mirror discussing make-up. She was pointing to the eyeshadows that were hers, then she said I could use them but just to ask. That's when I told her that I really liked the eyeshadow she got for me. She asked me which colors they were, and I started describing the same exact eyeshadow that I wear in waking life. I named off the colors, slowly as I tried to remember what they were. Purple, orange, yellow, and a maroon color. When I woke up I was surprised to have remembered something like this from my waking life. Was I semi-lucid, maybe? (BTW this is the part I was forgetting.) After the eyeshadow thing, it made me want to start getting ready for school. I looked at the clock and it was 12:55am. I was debating on whether I should sleep or stay up and do my make-up early.

Then I noticed that some people from my work were at the house. M is fighting with her boyfriend, K, and is being pretty aggressive. I tell them I need a bag of weed and he's going to help me. We go outside and he's still acting violent. He tells me that he has to go to R to get the pot and that I have to go with him. Before I could say ok, we're zooming off in his car towards this field that is next to my house. I'm not in the car, I'm like hanging on to the window or maybe in some kind of side seat, but totally not in the car. He's going way too fast to make the turn, I realized, and we drive straight into the field going at an incredibly high speed. I could feel the woosh and see everything in a blur. Then as he gets dangerously close to this house he starts to do a 180 in an insane wide turn. I'm so scared by this point and wake up before we make it. I remember thinking the car was going to flip.

I was preparing for a zombie apocalypse. I was going through my mind of everything we would need to have in the car. Then when I went to pick out the car, it was kind of like a video game because I clicked on the vehicle I wanted and it appeared, lol. Then I was at the bottom of these stairs, and I had been keeping the doors locked but the front door was open and I knew they were coming. I was yelling at my friend upstairs that time was up and we needed to split. She came down the stairs just as a couple zombies wandered in and started chasing us but the girl ended up knowing the one that was behind us and they started talking a minute... lol.

Can't remember much more detail than that. I do remember thinking that the zombies were health nuts.

Ok, so hopefully as I'm typing I remember more. I woke up at like 5:30ish and just thought about lucid dreaming as I fell asleep. I became lucid in a dream later, it was strange how I did because I was in a bedroom and was about to go see someone and I was thinking in my mind, well this is a dream so it shouldn't be hard to find them, and that's when I realized what I had just thought and was like hey... I don't have to do anything, I'm dreaming!

I'm surprised I remembered reading the Task of the Month for May, but I could only remember the basic task and I could remember the catch a ghost task from last month? I think. Anyway, there was a light in the bedroom, two of them actually. They were hanging on the walls and I decided to try to move it with my mind but it wasn't working. I was squinting and focusing as hard as I could but it wouldn't move. Finally I told it to move in a very commanding voice, and I tried to believe it would move. Then it started hovering towards me.

I got bored with it after that though and I can't remember how I got out of the house, but I was walking down the street and I saw this graveyard and a house in the middle of it. I remembered the catch a ghost task and realized that one was over so I didn't even try. A lot of the dream is vague to me now. Ohhhh, and I made sure to feel everything like constantly so the dream wouldn't fade. The walls, the carpet that was in the house, and my favorite was the grass.

I decided to find a man. I got in my car for some reason, didn't even think of flying. I drove out to this house and there was a man, who looked a lot like this actor that I can't think of his name. The guy who played Ferris Bueler in Ferris Bueler's Day Off, but he also looked different, and a lot less scrawny very attractive. The thing was, I didn't wanna just force myself upon my DC because in the past, that has led me to very disturbing sex stories... I decided to sort of court him like get him to like me first.

I had first seen him in a truck with, I assumed, his little sister and he was pulling into his family's driveway. It was strange because the house was back a ways from the street and there was this sign with weird electrical wiring, like some paranoid freaks lived there. Thats when I realized it was his parents house and his dad might be in the military. I walked up to him as he got out of the truck and asked if we could talk. He told me he had to go to work, but I insisted and so he invited me inside to meet his folks. I go inside and I realize the house is freaking adorable. There was the living room and a small opening/hallway to the kitchen and in that opening on each side a small hallway that leads to a bedroom. At first I tried to get the guy to show me to his bedroom, lol. But he's still in a hurry and so his dad, who sounded really hoarse like he smoked to much, was barely a whisper, decided to show me the house.

He showed me one hallway and I pretended to be interested but I didn't wanna lose the guy. I listened to his dad, but I can't remember what he was saying, when I heard another car pull up outside. I got outside to find a woman sitting in the car, waiting on the guy. Apparently it was his girlfriend. Somehow I convinced the guy to let me drive him to work and he finally said ok. The girl seemed pretty pissed off at me. The guy eventualy turned into my husband at one point on the way there and I looked over and told him I really liked him. He seemed flattered. When I got him to his work, he let me hug him but that was it.

I realized that I had wasted too much time trying to get laid. So I got in my car and was about to drive, when I decided to fly instead. I got out of the car and woke up.

I was with a friend and we were doing a lot of stuff, don't remember much, just know that she was in my dream. This was the beginning of a long and crazy dream.

T's mom calls us and tells us that T's father had just passed away. It took a little while for it to hit me. We went over to their house and were looking at stuff that reminded us of him. Finally it dawned on me, the reality of it and how much it hurt to lose such an amazing person. I just started bawling and curled up on the bed in my husband's arms.

Then I was parked outside of my house, but I was across the street and I had my son in the backseat. I was getting ready to get out and go inside when I noticed a strange looking object in the sky. It looked like the common symbol of a UFO only it had these little wings at the back that were straight, not pointed outwards. This part was very vivid. I watched if fly over our neighbors house and over us and it was hovering very close between mine and our neighbors house. I was expecting an abduction when I noticed a little door had opened up, all fancy looking, and it was glowing blue. Then it started to leave. I decided to do the same and was getting ready to start my car when I was grabbed by a robotic-crab-like-arm. I reacted immediately by breaking the arm off, never getting a good look at what exactly it was. I drove off to find someone I could tell.

I end up at a video store with T and am scared out of my mind. I tell him what happened as we walked through the game section. He told me there might be an explanation and just to look around and take my mind off of it. I start looking at these games on this table, assuming it was a clearance table. A kid, kind of chubby with a metal t-shirt on, approaches the table across from me. He's keeping his head down and trying to get a good look at me without my notice. But I did notice and I asked his name, he looked down at one of the games and quickly said "Black Ops." I called him a liar and started running towards T. The kid was following and he gave me a inhuman feeling. Then an older man joined him and they started chasing us through this library of games and what not. As we were running I noticed a bunch of men in black suits, they seemed to be helping us, but at the same time I was wondering if they were with them.

We go back to the house. As we're entering, we notice there's someone or something lying on the couch, they sounded injured and weak. T lays down on his back and starts to creep in backwards, I guess he was trying to sneak up on the thing. He starts to get really close and it was like all of a sudden he entered a high pressure area and water started coming out of his eyes. He moved back out of reach and had a very shocked expression. I told him that I had felt that when I saw the UFO earlier. Then the thing on the couch started moving again and it got up and I think it had changed it's form a little bit. It looked human-like except it had strange curvy ears stick out like an elf. I noticed that it looked really young, like a toddler. That's when T started saying something to it and it kept saying "Bay-bay." It started to walk towards me and I had my son in my arms. It acted like a toddler seeing a baby and it was reaching out its arms towards W. I almost let him touch him when I realized I didn't want it to hurt my son.

T acted like I was being rude and I told him I was just being safe. Then it was suddenly and older female, a short one. It got really close to my face and I noticed as it was speaking to me that it had one blue eye and one green eye. Huge round eyes. It was saying that she had heard I needed a peace and hope leader. Someone to guide me in those areas. It acted like it had been sent here to help me. I felt the love and caring nature of this being. Then I woke up.

Crazyyy dreams. Scared me a lot.

So, been a little distracted lately and haven't been focused on my dreams. I've been wanting to type up a very memorable dream I had about a year ago, so here it is.

I was in the ocean swimming towards land with a bunch of killer whales and dolphins. I was sort of riding with one of the whales but on his belly-side. I don't remember hanging on to him but it was kind of like he had his own gravity (not a fat joke, mr. whale guide.) Anyway, he and all the rest of the animals were splashing in and out of the water working towards land. He kept getting higher and higher out of the water and coming down even harder each time, sinking. I can recall being in the water looking to my right to see a line of dolphins doing the same thing. And when we were in the air I could see a city getting closer and closer. So I lost the whale once, he landed in the water and I sunk away from him and got scared thinking there were going to be sharks. Sure enough, a massive hammerhead appeared but he wasn't attacking me, he was leading me back to the whale. And the whale had waited for me. Then we continued on. What I felt in the dream, trying to figure out why they were doing this, I noticed the waves that they were making were going to wipe out the city, and that THAT was their intention.

When I woke up I started thinking about the song Aenima by Tool. Anyways, this was a non-lucid, but amazing.

Okay, can't remember my dreams. When I was little though, I used to have lots and lots of dreams of witches. Here are three I remember ranging from the ages of 5-10.

Castle Witch

I was laying in a double bed with my older sister. She was fast asleep, but I was staring at this huge poster of a castle that covered the entire wall. The door opened to the castle and out came this witch-like lady. I kept my eyes partially closed, in the dream, so she wouldn't know I was awake. She walked around the bed looking at me and my sister, I guess to make sure we were asleep. Then she touched this cat figurine laying on the bedside tabe. She left the bedroom and went to the kitchen. I got up and snuck after her. When I came out to the kitchen, she was sitting at a boothlike table with my two sisters. They were laughing with her and having fun, but I knew she had cast a spell. So I ran and got my parents and they seemed to think the lady was crazy too. That's it.

Dorito Witch

I was at my grandparents trailer house. I was running around with a bunch of cousins (like we did on the holidays) and we were all lining up to jump on my grandma's bed. The bathroom was at the very end of the hallway next to the bedroom. I was walking to go jump on the bed when I heard voices in the bathroom. I crept inside the bathroom and found a witch (hat and everything) and my dad. The witch was feeding my dad nacho cheese doritos, but not through his mouth. She had a little part of his back cut open and was stuffing them in. >.>

Male Witch

I was at my cousins house and we were running around playing outside. We started to run down to the cellar, the door flew open before we reached it. And inside I could see a lab with lots of green glowing test tubes. There was a man witch and the color of his skin was also green.

Just felt like sharing since I couldn't remember my dreams from last night. < 4hours of sleep =(

Can only remember feelings from my dreams last night.

I had two lucids this morning that made me forget my dreams before them.

I tried rubbing my hands in both of them to make the dream more vivid, in the first one I just started flying around upside down and couldn't control it really. I wasn't flying anywhere in particular though, it was just black nothingness. Woke up...

The second one, I remember rubbing my hands as soon as I became lucid, I was outside and everything started to become more vivid when I started but it faded fast. I think I tried to fly but I sort of just bounced, like you see people doing when they're "on the moon."

Alcohol is no good for recall, and I think I'm going to quit and get serious. Because I bet I would've remembered my lucids a lot better if I hadn't drank last night.

Went back to sleep and dreamt of my friend J. I was standing outside of my house and it was snowing and the snow was very pretty, very powdery and glistening. I said that this Christmas would be a good one. While I'm outside my friend J comes up to me and asks if we could hang out, I say yea, come in and smoke a bowl. He says he's not smoking at the moment, so I tell him to come in anyway and hang out. He says he'll be right back and walks off.

He comes back in a car with some strange guys dropping him off. He comes in and there's a few others there. There was this water bed thing on a different level of my house (doesn't really exist, live in a trailer) and the bed was on top and this tank that pumped water was on bottom and I noticed it was leaking. I thought I had fixed it but then all the water started to flow out, so I turned this knob and it stopped so I filled it back up with water.

C, from work, is there also, and he was saying some really funny stuff, cracking everyone up. J comes up to me and I notice he is sweating really bad, parts of his shirt were yellow, my mom asks if that's sweat or if we spilled water on him, he said he sweats a lot... So I offer to get him a shirt, and he's all for it. I tell him to come with me and he follows me into the bedroom.

I was happy to be alone with him, I don't know why. I start looking through T's shirts while talking to him, telling him I wasn't sure if T would mind or not. I give him one of my shirts that has some halloween pumpkin on it. He takes it gladly.

That's really all I can remember after going to work and coming back.

Of course, can't remember when it started, but I was sitting at home thinking about playing a game and it's late and T isn't back from a concert yet, I think. I'm a little angry for him going because he didn't ask and it was in KC, a 6 hour drive. When he does come back, I yell a bit and he ignores me, then I go to lay down on the couch. My mom tells me I should take my "birth control" pills? I told her there was no point, that we weren't going to do anything.

My mom had to drive somewhere to pick something up, she had diapers with her.

Then there's this girl who is in some kind of virtual reality game but she's there in front of us speaking, she's pregnant, she's someone I know in WL and she's talking about her being Eve. She said a really strange quote. My mom acts surprised about the quote and we see the girl holding a stump of wood which apparently was supposed to be Eve's head. So my dad gets up and goes to take it from her.

Then I'm with my friend A and we're going to some concert with this guys she knows. The guy was really cool, but we didn't know him very well. He had been trying to take my friend out apparently for a year, but this was the second time they were hanging out I guess. I remember walking around his house, once during the day, and once during the night.

We were all going somewhere walking through trailers and I see a set up with speakers all in the end of one trailer hooked up to a really nice stereo. It's bright and sunny outside and I notice they have speakers wired throughout the house, I say, wow, somebody was partying last night... A didn't understand what I meant, so I had to explain the speakers.

At one point, I was in the living room, some family at the table, and I was trying to show them T's green laser, but the laser wouldn't do what I wanted it to do, my grandpa was chillin in the living room.

- pretty vivid dreams last night, uinfortunately, there was so much that I am forgetting lots of parts. Oh well.

Can't remember dreams from last night. Nappp.

T's ex came over to our house and they were talking about something they didn't want me to hear. They were talking about a girl and I thought they were hiding something from me. I asked T to come into the bedroom and talk to me. He followed me into the bedroom and I asked what was going on. He gave me a pathetic smile and told me he needed to show me something. He takes his ring and it's in some sort of jewelry box and he points to it as if to say he chose me and I had nothing to worry about.

And just for fun. This is the earliest dream I can remember from when I was 4 years old.

I was at my grandparents house and I had this dream right around my 4th birthday. I was in a bunk bed, top bunk, and my grandparents were sleeping on the bottom. I'm up there with the skeleton guy on "Tales of the Crypt" I think that's what it's called... He's just up there talking to me.

T made me go to his parents house but I'm naked wearing only a towel. I go over there and am standing in the kitchen with T, his mom, and some other family. T's mom was saying something, then I started thinking that I shouldn't just be chilling in my towel.

Another dream, I was at a bar and grill with a couple people, C and Q. There was this man who was supposed to be our teacher, I guess, but he was being really touchy and was trying to spoon me. I tell him to get his hands off me and that I wouldn't tell anyone but that he won't do it anymore with a "if he knew what was good for him" kind of attitude. He stopped and didn't say anything but that I needed to finish my assignment.

So then I found myself sitting in a booth next to Q, different booths, if it matters. Which it does, cause that's how it goes, ok, and she had just ordered a shot. I told her that I couldn't wait to be 21 and she acted uninterested. So I invited her to come to my 21st birthday in a couple months and she shrugged an okay.

I know, sometimes I used past-tense and sometimes present. Is it really that important?

It was storming outside, pretty intense-like. I was going around the house shutting the windows as rain was spraying in and making the curtains go crazy. That's all I remember from my "nights" sleep if you can call it that.

Then I went back to sleep and I was upset, everything was how it was when I fell asleep. A bunch of girls that I hang out with occasionally showed up in PJ's, they were planning a sleepover at my house, which I didn't expect. T got up and we weren't talking cause I was angry with him and he was angry with me. He was trying to get his car up and going so he could go celebrate, he said later that he was celebrating his birthday a little early, and he was mad at me for making plans, I guess. The girls were all hanging out, my house was a mess and I told them we should go get movies later, thats when I went up to T and asked him to just stay gone tonight.

Then I'm with T at the lake, same dream as above, and everyone's tuning into this stupid talk radio station. They're telling everyone to call and answer questions or shout out their opinions and everyone is calling. The station people were there too, in front of us, and there were guys acting clever for calling and watching their phone call. I remember thinking it was all stupid.

I became lucid in my house and when I had fallen asleep this time, Alice in the Wonderland had been playing on my TV. I became lucid, and was angry, I pulled a gun out and started shooting the characters on the movie. Then I said fuck it and tried to fly through my window, part of me doubted it was going to work, I got through the window and there was nothing on the other side, I woke up with my eyes still shut. Then I had to get up.