Suena

Tried to WBTB, no lucid, but I did have a dream for the first time in a week that didn't seem foggy after waking up! yay!!!

Me and T were standing in a UPS office. I was applying in person for a job. T kept messing with me, playing around while I was trying to talk to the woman at the desk. He was making me laugh but I kept telling him to go, to wait outside, but he wouldn't. At one point, I'm not sure how he did this but, he lifted me up onto the counter and was holding me by the ankles. I got him to put me back down after a few minutes and he finally started to leave, he was almost gone when I asked him for a cigarette first. I knew there was a no smoking sign somewhere, but I guess I didn't care. I lit up and began talking to the lady again. She was telling me that I'd have to go to AC (a town nearby) to make deliveries and something about only being paid 5 an hour. She asked me if I would be using one of their cars. I nodded and then an image of a UPS truck popped into my head and I heard a guy saying that they were going to make me do their bitchwork for 10 bucks.

Next dream, I was standing in a house with my son in my arms looking out a window. A girl I went to high school with ran inside the house wearing this blue summer dress. There was a boy of about 9 or 10 years standing near me now and she went up to him and hugged him, playfully smothering him. She seemed fairly happy. I remember saying something to her, but I don't remember what it was. That's when I woke up.

Well, woke up two hours before I had to be up and wrote down a few notes from an extremely vivid dream. I only remember one part in detail, but it's too disturbing for me to write... Basically did something that I would never do in real life or even consider doing. It's nothing illegal, but just disturbing for me because I have no idea why my subconscious brought it up.

Anyway, I do remember having a huge fight with my parents and I think it might've had to do with religion or cursing, don't remember. I was hanging out with my friend A for a very long time. Then, at the bottom of my notes I wrote that everyone came over. I remembered the whole dream when I woke up at 4am, but hardly anything at 6am. My memory is a little vague on the everyone came over part, I do remember a scene from this though, where I had thought it was only this many people and when I turned around, it was literally almost everyone I knew, or felt like it was everybody. But I had completely forgotten this part. Ughk.

I guess that's it, if you call that a DJ Entry!... =(

My mom was staying in a semi but she had my nieces with her. She was telling me that she could watch my son for me, but I didn't think she could handle two babies and a toddler in a semi truck.

I went to work where I saw this woman I worked with someplace else. She was being kind of rude, especially when I compared this job to the last one. She was a manager still, only where I work now. I was thinking of all the things I needed to do, like start chili, do bacon and the dishes which were up front instead of in the back where they are in waking life. I remember getting ready to start chili when they told me to leave or something.

I'm in the passenger seat of my friends car and she's driving to take me home (even though I had taken my car to work.) She's telling me that she decided to go to this country festival (we're both not very big fans) and I sort of make fun of her just messing around. I told her that was cool because she had friends to go with and that I didn't really have friends anyway, but that I wouldn't wanna go if I did. We pulled to a stop and we were back at my job. There was a firetruck out front and a siren was going on, but there wasn't any fire that I could see. I enter the building and ask if I'm allowed to and they say yes so I go on and notice that somebody else had started the chili for me. They were pointing to these headsets and asking me which one I had used earlier, so I told them that I hadn't. Although, I think I had messed with one of them earlier. I was afraid I was the reason the firetruck was there.

Later, I'm eating lunch with these kids I went to high school with (the highschool was really stupid full of rednecks I hated) and there was this kid sitting next to me bugging me in exactly the same manor he used to. I told him that it's been two years and I still fucking hated him. He was kind of hurt by it, but I knew I meant it. The people across from me started to laugh.

This is about all I can remember, got too much to do. =(

Took a 4 or 5 hour nap earlier, if you call that a nap. Feels like I woke up in a different year. Anyway. I'm getting brief flashbacks of my dreams from then.

I remember my mom and dad were babysitting my son[W] (my mom had just left with my son before I fell asleep.) I was hanging out at home when my mom and dad call me and then they appear outside with W in my dad's arms. My dad has this extrememly worried look on his face as he's handing W to me. W seems fine except he's got a bright red scar on his forehead. My dad tells me that he hit his head really hard, so I yell at T and tell him to hurry that we needed to go to the hospital. Flash to the hospital and the doctor's telling me he's okay and that there is no brain damage. I am thankful but still pretty upset about it.

My son, W, appears a lot in my dreams, maybe I can use this as a dream sign. But I'm worried what these dreams mean when he's always getting hurt and everything's always okay in the end.

Hmmm...

Still pretty vague on the recall, but I tried to write a few thoughts about my dreams this morning when I woke up.

I was with about three other people, one of them was T. We decided to take some mushrooms and trip balls. After we had taken them I realized that me and T still had our son with us and we hadn't found a babysitter. I started to freak out a little. One of the other people, a girl who felt familiar, was angry with me for something I had done (I don't know what it was.) It felt as though I had done something morally wrong (taking shrooms) and/or it was like I had violated some social norm that she felt strongly about. I don't believe the girl was anyone in particular but a representation of a personality type I clash with on a major scale.

This fragment sort of combined itself with my workplace. The girl had made me so mad by her being so harsh towards me that I decided to quit my job. I also remember one moment where I had walked back over to where she was sitting and sat down; I had this strange image of myself, like my reflection had flashed at me (kind of like cameras do in movies when there is intense dialoge* going on.) The expression on my face seemed remorseful and even though I was still angry with her, I was trying to patch it up. I don't remember saying anything to her.

And about the shrooms, I had been expecting to trip and was scared about tripping while taking care of my son. But I didn't feel any strong prescence of the drug's dreamlike effects. I felt different, but still sane. I remember thinking at some point that the shrooms didn't work so we'll be okay. And something about putting our son to bed anyway.

That's it. Hopefully if I keep trying this pen and paper thing I'll recall more dreams. Also I think what really helped was I had my hand hanging off the bed as I feel asleep and I fell asleep holding the pen hoping it would serve as a reminder while I was sleeping and for when I woke up to write something down. Kind of like taping two fingers together to fall asleep consciously, I don't know. And the dream hadn't come to me right when I woke up or within the few minutes I layed there, but it came in the middle of getting ready for work. Just a few thoughts for myself.

EDIT: Another interesting thing, when I got to work this morning, one of the girls I worked with made me have an extreme flashback of the feeling in my dream and of the girl in my dream.

I must be really tired lately because I cannot remember my dreams. This has never really been a problem for me, now it's really bothering me. Anyway, I only remember bits and pieces and nothing is in order...

I had another baby and it was amazing. This is really pissing me off though, all I can remember is a house and me being partially naked for some reason, it wasn't exactly an unpleasant feeling but T is with me somewhere.... I just keep getting vague flashbacks... =( I guess that's all for now, maybe it will come back to me...

I listened to Really's Ultimate Lucid Dream mp3 last night and I really enjoyed it. That person has some talent, because it sounded like something I wanted to get high and cruise to. (lol) Anyway, I tried to just listen and relax, but I did end up falling asleep towards the end I think. And I guess that kind of says something about how tired I was or how good it was because it was only like a 13 minute song. I had also watched the subliminal video before I listened to the mp3.

I don't remember becoming lucid, but I don't remember most of the dream. The things that really stick out is I had a daughter also who was actually older than my son by a few months it seemed, but that's impossible. My son had reached over and they hugged eachother and it was really cute. I was trying to find a place to sleep in our house while my fiance told me he'd watch the little ones. I remember grabbing my son's infant seat hoping it would be comfortable to sleep in, lol.

Next thing I remember is being at my sister's mother-in-law's house. I was trying to find something. I had parked my car on the street and recognized a few girls across the street but I have no idea who they are now awake. I remember trying to be nice to them but they seemed a little hostile. I think they were hostile because of some part I can't remember in the dream. I do think I flipped one of them off who I do remember in real life, but I'm really not sure if she was over there. It's complicated.

Anyway, I went to walmart cause I had to pick up some things to build something. For some crazy reason, there was this dog with me who really liked bubbles. I had accidently taken his leash off in the store and he started to run towards the bubble section. I started to run after him and catch him but thought it would be wiser to run to the bubbles and meet him there before he gets there. Which worked. I got there and I held a bottle of soap in my hand and he got there and immediately sat down, waiting. I squeezed the bottle a bit and little tiny bubbles came out of the top and he enjoyed it. I put his leash back on and went back to buying supplies.

I returned to the house and met my brother-in-law there. His dad was lecturing him about fixing something or recreating some cd. I told my bro that I'd help him out with the project and let's go to walmart. He complained that we didn't have a computer but I did have on in my car. On our way out to my car those girls were getting in their car getting ready to go on a trip. The blonde before she got in the driver's side mentioned something about me being a cunt. I calmly walked over to the door and said, "hey" she tried to ignore me but I got into her face and explained very plainly that if she wanted to call me a cunt then to look in my eyes and call me it, but not with her head turned. Then I went on to say that I suggested she shouldn't be such a bitch. Her friends laughed and she rolled her eyes and as she started to roll up her window (which went very slowly like it was broken) I told her and her friends to have a good time wherever they were going and then pointed at her again and said, don't be such a bitch again. lol

What's funny about this whole dream is it was another one of those that I felt I was consciously controlling but not aware that it was a dream. Glad I could remember even just this bit. My recall's been dry the past few days. Honestly, I think it's too much THC. I might try to not smoke for a week and see how it affected my recall.

The dream seemed to last forever. I think I got to the middle of it and that's where I pick up on remembering. We're in our trailer house, with our son who is 5 months. It's how it was when I went to bed an hour ago, but my son had just learned to crawl and he was crawling around everywhere and picking things up. There were people in our kitchen for some reason, and it's really late at night, and they're all playing some kind of RP board game. But they won't talk to me cause they are "sticking to character" which was kind of pissing me off. anyway, my dream is creepy and for some reason it feels like the world is ending. I'm feeling really scared. My fiance and I are standing by the door which is shut but unlocked and our son is on the floor next to me. We hear a woman's voice talking to someone and they're right behind the door. I locked the deadbolt then and stepped back from the door. She said something about me locking it and I grabbed my son and walked toward the hallway. (I was feeling so scared, my eyes are watering just typing it.) I started telling my fiance, come on, let's go to bed, they can't get in. He seemed amused by the people trying to get in our house.

Then I remember the people all got up to leave and went to the back door, I was being really sarcastic towards them and I said "Oh, they'll sit in my kitchen and have fun but they won't even say goodbye." I started cursing at them and yelling, they weren't too happy about it but kept to character anyway. They went out and I opened my front door, the women were gone and it was sunny out. The people had come around the house this way and I was still shouting at them and they started cursing back at me. I walked back in the house and noticed we had a screen door, which we don't have in waking life. I notice a couple of jungle animals run by, then a smaller giraffe and a tiger running side by side. The Tiger though, unlike the giraffe, was enormous and ferocious looking. I told my fiance to look at this freaking tiger but he acted like it was no big deal and kept playing on the computer. The tiger picked up on my voice and started to stalk over to the front door. I started shouting at my fiance saying he's coming for us, but he still just sat there, in shock. I had a few pens in my hand. The tiger came inside and was walking towards T who was paying very little attention to it. I threw a pen at it and it seemed to annoy him, I ran around T towards the knife set we have but before I could make it the tiger was staring me down in the face.

Quite literally, the thing was on top of me and huge, the size of a fucking rhino. It was right then that I had realized I was dreaming. I thought about waking myself up, then decided to face it. I reached up and as I did it gave me a confused but still very ferocious look. I started scratching his nose and trying to play with him, for a split second he seemed like he was still going to tear me apart and I almost thought the dream was real and that this was the end of the world. Then all of a sudden this enormous tiger was an enormous dog and it started licking me. After it morphed, of course, I felt extreme relief, but I also decided this dream had been too much for me and I woke myself up on purpose, which is pretty much the first time I've ever wanted out of a lucid dream, especially after I had JUST become lucid. As I started to force myself awake, I saw other creatures' outlines forming and I think one was a dinosaur.

I went to bed with the intention of becoming lucid, but it didn't work. However, I did dream lots and lots about marijuana. My friend J and I were trying to get high. We drove somewhere, found my fiance and his mom and we smoked. Then all of us had to be very careful driving home, I guess I was a little drunk too, cause I was worried about the cops cause I'm underage. There were cops pulling people over everywhere for the littlest things. They must've been bored, is what we thought.

The next thing I remember was my fiances mom asking us how we decided to get married.

I had a dream about this guy that's always been a total douchebag to me. He wanted me to call him so we could talk about an unresolved issue. He was living in a garage. The strange thing was he wanted me to call when I heard a certain song on the radio. I can't remember the song, but it was very familiar. I heard the song come on and I called but I hung up on him cause I figured he was just going to criticize and harrass me like he always did.

The second part I remember, me and my finance were almost completely naked and what we were wearing were not clothes, but we were trying to sneak down the hallway from one room to the end of some house. We walked by a bedroom with a bathroom in it and he told me to check it. I woke up.

I was being accused of some murder and was trying to clear my name. These ladies kept referring to me as "it" and I got really upset about it. We were walking through some mall that reminded me of a wax museum. Somehow I found the answer I needed to clear my name and it was done.

The next dream was about apocalypse. I had been driving in my car when I had been told to turn around, so I turn and start going back the other direction. Then I see all these cars start pulling to the side and parking and getting out. I did the same, because I figured there was something up ahead again. Then everyone started grouping up and walking. Then some cars that hadn't seen the parked cars crashed into a wall, followed by three semis. When I saw the first semi I started running, because I noticed it had been carrying gasoline. There was no explosion when it wrecked though.

I found myself in a shop with a few others and we were planning on where to go. I decided we should go to my grandpa's house in another city because it had an attic that was very secretive. We started talking to the other businesses around us, to see if they would come, and all but one would come. The lady that didn't want to join up had this back pack on and she was telling us that it was her time now, to travel and see the world.

I don't remember much else, even though I know more happened. Even though I wasn't lucid, I felt like I was consiously controlling my dream to an extent, like running when I saw the semi.

I was pregnant for the first time (I have a son in real life) and me and T were going to have a girl. We were fighting over something, vaguely remember it being something he would have to go get that would take 4 hours. I think I ended up riding along with him and a friend. That's when I went into labor.

It was really weird though, kinda twisted. I was delivering my own baby, what was in front of me was some weird creature out of Aliens and I have no idea where that came from. The baby died. I was really upset, but T was going around talking about it very lightly, kind of like shrugging it off. And everyone around me was acting like it was no big deal. I remember getting ready to get out of my car and I just stopped and looked around, then started crying really bad.

I go inside this house, thinking I would be alone. I had a being "single" mindset for some reason, like because we lost the baby we wouldn't be together. I walk in to my ex's mom and dad. They're asking me what type of liquors I want with what kind of pop to chase. I told them it didn't matter, just lots of liquor. Then I realized they just wanted to party, they didn't care about what happened. I started to walk to the bedroom when a kid I used to go to school with stood in my way. He wouldn't let me through. I looked out the window and saw lightning and could hear thunder. I woke up.

(When I woke up, say 5 this morning, I was feeding my son and it began storming halfway through, really bad. Not really weird, I knew it was going to storm last night.)

I went back to bed and had some more dreams. I can only remember bits and pieces though. Ever since I stopped writing in my dream journal, I haven't had good recall. I'll have to start up again. I was doing pretty good.

I was in a car with T and he was driving me to work. We left about two hours early cause I knew it would take awhile, we got a bit down the road and I planned on getting ready in the car but I realized I forgot my uniform so we were going to turn around, but I don't think we did. Next thing I knew we were at this place and this girl was complaining about something and we were drawing somebody. I got to his hair and realized it was Johnny Bravo.

I don't remember much else.

Ughk. I just typed my dream up and then my page went back to a different page and I lost everything I typed.

I give up.
Summing: The country Chad was next to Arizona, guy got a purple truck, mom took some of my lortbas.

I was with some girl who made special kinds of cigarettes and I was getting them for me and the boyfriend. I eventually bought some from her that were some kind of vanilla or something. Then I got my aunt to try some. We went to some kind of water park. It was like a safari themed, only it wasn't safari looking, it was gloomy and there were a bunch of hills. There was one big pool that everyone was in, but this girl told me there were others that you had to solve puzzles to get to. So we head out towards another one in my car and we're driving down this road. As I'm driving I notice I'm driving over a bunch of crazy looking machine guns and they're going off as I run over them. I decide to slow down and stop, I wanted to pick one up, but then I notice some headlights behind me before I get out. They saw me stop and I saw some light come on in their vehicle, kind of like a cop's search light, so I decide to keep going. We get to some little room with a little pool inside and we're supposed to get three kinds of candy matched in order to swim. But all we kept getting was candy canes. It was like a video game, cause there were little hovering question marks that we had to run into to get candy. We gave up and decided to go back to the main pool.

Another point, I was hanging out with my ex boyfriends friends, they were girls. One of them seemed a little depressed and I guess she liked to practice magic, but my ex was being sort of mean to her, so I told her she could come hang out with me.

Then I was with my aunt and uncle again, my uncle said he was going to some concert later and I really really wanted to go cause they were playing Tool and System of a Down. I couldn't go though.