Xanous' Dream Journal

WBTB half cup strong coffee at 4AM

The woman in pink scrubs.

I am doing plasma in an ackward chair. It like I am laying with my feet in the air and head down. I want my left arm done so I can play minecraft on my Galaxy Player with my right. I turn around right and it is a normal chair. I find it odd.

I look to my right and I am now driving in front of the hospital and there is a strange woman next to me in pink scrubs. She is loving on me like we are new lovers. I relize this is all wrong and become lucid.

I hug her and say let me look at your face. I want to know who she is. She just looks like a familiar DC that I encounter but nothing like any one in real life. I note it and shrug.

I remember a lucid goal now. Talk to the dream consciousness. Here is our convo.

Me: Tell me something important.
Her: ...
Me: TELL ME something IMPORTANT... Pleeeeease.
Her: uh eh mmm
me: What?
her: Well uh.

I start rubbing my hands for stability.

her: My dad had a grey beard. Its... Garguyal.
me: GARGUYAL? What's that?
her: No not Garguyal. (laughter)

I rub my hand on her arm and note the feeling. Again for stability.

Me: What is there that's important; that you can tell me? What do I need to know?
her: Nothing. You're already perfect.

I laugh so much at this. I feels really great eventhough I don't believe it. This is was my wife tells me all the time.
I let go and want to wake up to remember the conversation. The dream gets dark. I realize I had my eyes closed at the end while snuggling to this woman. I only went with it because that was the flow of the dream and I wanted her to talk.

There is nothingness for a moment. I start feeling my hair. I find a really stiff hair and think it must be one of my gray ones. I play with it until a scene forms.
I am now non luicd back in the room about to give plasma. I see my laptop on a counter top and want to write in my DJ. Now I realize I can't get up because I have a needle in my left arm. The alarm wakes me up. Good thing too because I would have forgot this lucid!

This dream was an unsuccessful/successful lucid as it was short and mostly blind but I got to try some new things like phasing and different uses of expectation. (I couldn't phase through a door but was able to use expectation to make it disappear.)

I had some really interesting and new things happen with sound as well. During my DEILD I heard a buzzing sound and then the alarm clock. I kept in mind that it could be fake and found out that I only had to concentrate just a little to make it stop for a few seconds. That turned out to be a great reality test and told me it was go time. At a later point I could hear the fan like it was centered the living room. This was an odd experience as the sound changed as I walked around it but I knew that in reality the fan was in the bed room with me and I wasn't really walking around it.

Also, my transitions from physical to dream body seem to be getting quick and effortless so that's a plus. I probably would have continued my chain but I think it was the baby that woke me. Oh well that's life.

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Bedtime 11:30PM-7:00AM

Potassium 1200
B6 400MG
Taurin 500MG
Beer

I am not sure why I took so many supplements last night. Blame it on the beer.

Most of the night was a dark blank. But I was able to successfully WILD in the later part of the morning.

I woke up from a dream earlier but fell back to sleep as I was trying to recall it.


Fragment 5:44AM

Something about being at the same place at 13th Street building and going to the gas station.

In another dream my wife says, "You want It. Don't you?"
I say, "Yeah, but after 9 - 9:30 I'm just so tired."

I got up to pee at this point and thought about staying up for 30min to WBTB. Seeing how it was almost 6 I thought my son might be waking up soon so I just laid back down with a strong resolve to WILD. Plus the thought of having to stay awake made me shutter. I was really sleepy. I was able to hold awareness for sometime I eventually slipped unconscious. At about 6:30AM the baby woke us up. I really wanted to get a WILD so it's shameful but I played possum until my wife go up with him. It was worth it because I was more determined not to lose it again.

Lucid #96 WILD OBE 7:00AM

This time I stay aware longer. I used a lot of different visualizations. I have been looking for an easy to go visual to allow me to actively enter the dream easier and more consistent. I ended up trying to imagine myself walking up endless stairs. That seemed to be easy enough. I am not sure but I think I just about lost it again until I felt really strong vibrations.
My awareness snaps to it then. It's funny but I don't remember any sounds this time. I quickly and easily imagined my feet going over the side of the bed an touching the floor. Now I am standing. I see the bedroom door and start to walk to it.

Suddenly I feel the vibrations again. I watch as I am sucked backwards against my will back into my body. I let out a huge gasps. The sensation was very odd but I did not let it stop me.

I transition out once again the same way. This time I am blind. I spend a few minutes trying to open my eyes. Every time I open them I see out of my real eyes from the point of view of laying in bed on my right side. I don't want to wake myself up so I don't worry about it too much as I realize that when this happens, the best thing to do is to go along into the dream and forget that I can't see. I fumble around a bit but quickly and easily open the bedroom door and walk through the house to the front door. I notice that I reach the front door almost immediately. I think no there should be more steps than that. So to satisfy myself I let go of the door knob and take a few quick strides forward until I feel the door again. At that point I realized that I have no idea what I wanted to do. I decide its too late for that and just decide to explore the dream.

I open the front door and realize that I am in my underwear only. I think well its a dream and it really doesn't matter. Then I remember a thought I had in waking life. Now that its getting colder and I having so many OBEs will I feel cold if I go outside? As I step out I feel cold air swirl around me. I don't like it and force the thought out of my mind. The cold goes away.

I see my black cat Sputnik. She it fighting with another cat. I hear the awful sounds of cats fighting and then they both run away. Ha! Now I realize that I can see. It's still really dark and hazy but I can see. I think in waking life the sun should be up by now. I am a little disappointed.

I look around the neighborhood as best as I can. I remember another thought from waking life. I never see to look very far down the street when I am outside in a LD. So I just try to focus on that but its too dark. As I am looking around I begin to notice that the houses look almost like a medieval village and they all have torches and sconces mounted on the outside.

At that point the dream does dark. I feel my awareness pulling away and shifting to the physical world. I let it be as I know I can DEILD back in. I wait never moving or opening my eyes. I make a huge mistake here. I am waiting for vibrations and forget that SP is not a requirement.

I have a false awakening. I grab my galaxy player and start to enter into my DJ. I see the time is a little after 7am. I hear my brother-In-Law say something odd to my left. I look at him. He is lying next to me looking at his phone. He says, "I was just kidding. I just like to say that sometimes." I think I start to realize it was a dream still but the shock of it wakes me up for real.

The last time I had an OBE my wife was in the living room in waking life. Wouldn't it be amazing if she actually saw me on morning? I keep expecting her to say something odd happened but she never does. I doubt it would ever happen. Sometimes I wonder about it but I still think OBEs are just dreams.

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For 2 nights I have had zero recall due to DIELD efforts and being way too tired. After a short break I used B6 last night with better recall but no lucid. Its seems my tweaked SSILD worked the first night but after that I lacked the focus and awareness. I am not sure why except being overly tired.

Bedtime 10:30P - 7:00A

SSILD Tweaked 200MB B6

Fragment

Something about radio apps on the phone and something similar to Osmosis Jones.

WBTB alarm 2:30 up about 10 min
Additional 200MG B6
Moved to sitting position
SSILD to WILD attempt

I seemed to have trouble finding the half-dream this night. I bounced between fully awake or unconscious. There was no in-between. I had a huge time gap between WBTB and first remembered dream


Giraffe 4:22AM

Zoo animals. I see a Giraffe sleeping in a bed with a night cap and gown on. I laugh. (Osmosis Jones like?)

False Alarm 5:33AM

I am at work. The environment looks normal so far. I hear alarms and I realize that I accidently called some chemical spill emergency number. Somehow they traced the call to our building causing the alarms to go off. It turns in to a huge ordeal for everyone. I get worried that they traced the call to my cell phone and they will fire me. I see D from HR and I hear her tell someone it was a fake and will prosecute whoever did it. I slip into the bathroom and sit on a toilet to have some privacy so that I can at least erase all record on my phone. I am so scared I will get fired and worry that they will look at my phone records from the cell phone company.

The bathroom is so messed up now. There are no stall doors and the stall walls are arranged oddly so that there is no privacy. I am actually using the toilet now and I see some guy creep along the wall looking at me. There is a towel hanging and it try to hide myself a bit and keep my phone out of sight. I concentrate on the phone and it takes awhile but after going through strange menus and options, I become frustrated and hope it was good enough.

I wipe myself with some toilet paper. I see a costume dress on the floor. It looks like an old tinker bell costume one of my daughters had several years ago. I take a corner and finish wiping with that. I look to my right and realize I had more toilet paper. I wonder why I did this. I flush and stand up. I see a long couch facing away from the stalls and a large flat screen TV on the wall. Everyone turns to look at me when I flush. I make some sarcastic comment about it and wash my hands.

I walk out of the bathroom into and outside parking lot. I stop and turn around and run back in. When I open the glass door it makes a chime sound like at a convenient store. I forget some things. I see a large 3 or 4 inch Lego figurine and I remember that it was mine. It was the normal yellow color with a white shirt and blue pants. There is some red symbol on the front. Shiek? I leave it until I clean up my mess and wash my hands again. I pick up the dress that I wiped on and say "ooops I forgot to throw this away" to the man who is now on the toilet. I shove the dress in a trash can careful not to get my hands dirty. I go to wash again and I wake up.

I woke up so perfectly still and calm but I could not DEILD. So I recorded in my DJ. I didn't DEILD but at least I remembered to record. I feel like the recliner is doing nothing so I go back to bed.

The Baseball Pitcher 6:59AM

There is a kid who can throw incredible distances. I hear someone say 15,000 next year in the will get over 21. He throws several balls that go way over the batter and over the next field and over the backside of the fence. Then He starts pitching right but has poor aim. The balls go everywhere but to the batter. I find it all very funny.

Fragment
Something about Doctors special under garments.

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Bedtime 9PM-6PM
Apple Juice at bedtime, SSILD Tweaked, Multiple wakenings focused on DEILD/SSILD


Brats Around 4AM

I am taking care of someones kids. I am in a bed room with them and trying to get them to sleep. There are 2 bunk beds in the room. A little boy is on one and there is a window unit next to him. I have a little girls in my bed with me. I think that she was scared. The kids keep talking and I get pissed. I just want to sleep. The boy keeps messing with the AC he says hes hot and its not working. I feel cool and not hot and the AC sounds fine. I threaten to spank both of them. I don't care what the parents think. The girl gets up and goes to the boy. I spank her and she runs out of the room. I look into the living room and see my infant son playing xbox with another infant. I say well they're up I guess I wont sleep at all.

I lay still on awakening and wait to DEILD. Nothing happens at first so I give SSILD a shot before I reach for my DJ

Lucid #95 Lucid Precog Attempt #1
After a short time I start to feel some vibrations. I notice I can still move my hands. I test this by trying to move my hands slightly. I feel them twitch. So I wait. The vibrations get weak so I roll my eyes to the back of my head. That seems to work. I open my eye for some reason and see the room. I am sure it was my real eyes and I close them. The vibrations get weak again.

Then I feel a person spooning my backside. I am lying on my right side. The first thing I think is OpheliaBlue's demon is here to torment me. I was scared at first but then I blew it off and told myself it wasn't real and to ignore it. As soon as I did that it left but as it left I felt a finger go down my spine. Instead of getting chills it strenthens the vibrations. I imagine a finger going down my spin over and over until the vibrations get full strenghth and I can hear the usual sounds really loud.

Now it's time to exit. I imagine my feet going over the side of the bed and touching the floor. As soon as my feet touch the floor I find myself standing in my bedroom looking at the door.

I try to open the door. I feel the doorknob clearly and I can hear the click as I turn it. The strange thing is a phantom door opens leaving the original door untouched. I smile at this is amusement. I open it again and again with the same result. Then I slowly and can carefully open the door. I see the opening now and light in the dining room. I carefully put my other hand in and get a good grip. Then I fling it open and step through.

I am already thinking about my lucid task. In rl I blindly picked a red backed playing card and put it face down on the bookcase by the door. I want to look at it in the dream to see how actuate I can be.

I look but both the bookcases are gone. There are some cards scattered on the floor but the look like paint samples. I squat down and pick them up and stare them over like a nearsighted Magoo. My vision get a little blurry and I have a hard time seeing. The card start to look like candyland cards. I think maybe I can summon the card. So I use expectation and reach behind my back into my waste line. I pretend that I have it tucked in there. I just feel my underwear band and nothing else. I pull my hand in front of me and it is empty. I am still thinking it looks like paint samples. I look up and the wall looks like it has just been painted yellow and the hardwood looks freshly refinished. I wonder if the bookcases were moved for the remolding.

I try expectation again and look in the kitchen and find the bookcases. There is nothing on it but a blue backed card. The card is square but I look at it anyway. I pick it up and its feels like thin paper. I look on the back hoping to see a playing card but it is the same blue playing card pattern on the other side.

I am little frustrated now. I walk into the dining room and yell at the dream. "I want to see the playing card." My voice sounds odd. Like I can hear my dream voice and my real voice at the same time. Like two mes talking at once. I wait for an answer and almost immediately hear the loudest most hideous SHUSHING sound. "SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" the sound is electronic and robotic like some strange android shushing me to be quite. I freak out and throw myself to the floor. I curl up in a ball and put my hands on my head. I was so unbelievably scared.

After a moment. I realize I that a dream can't hurt me so I stand up. The room is now dark but I want to try something else. I speak to the dream again. In the same strange dual voice I loudly say, "I want to speak to my higher self." At that point the dream fades and I lose concentration. I fall into a non-lucid dream.

False Awakening

I wake up and start to record the lucid in my phone DJ. I see people form work in my room. My bedroom door is open. (how convenient) I see a woman at a desk in the dining room. I get an image of some green brochure in my hands. I see R standing by the door with a huge white board behind him. (BTW I saw a similar scene in rl with R today at work) I ask him what was going on. I can't remember what he said to me. I am distracted by another person writing a phone number on the white board. I can't remember that either. I wake up for real this time. I look at the time and it is around 4am.

I try to go back to sleep but I am really juiced from the lucid. I get a lot of HH/HI and halfdream but my mind kept going back to the dream. After about an hour I fall non-lucid.

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Bedtime 9:15PM-5AM
Naproxen 550MG (Tension headache), 1 glass apple juice, bedtime SSILD

Lucid #94

I layed down and did a little SSILD pre sleep while my wife was feeding the baby next to me. I almost immediately found myself in a short hazy and fuzzy LD. I thought about this a lot to make sure it wasn't a half-dream or HH/HI. I am pretty sure it wasn't but it was a poor quality dream.

I am sitting in a folding chair. There are rows of them around me. The chairs are full of old people. I am trying to go to sleep in the chair. Begin to get worried that the people around me will think I am crazy especially when I fall over asleep. I was really emotional about it then I realize it was a dream and it didn't matter. I am shocked at this and that's when I open my eyes fully awake and notice it had only been minute or two. I suppose I should have done an RC to be sure but it was pretty solid.

Parents 2:27AM
Something about college. My parent pick me up. I have some pills in the car. I don't want them. I give a huge bottle of Tylenol to my dad. He was like sure I'll take them. Then I have something called Citrate. I read the word clearly on the bottle. I decide to keep these. I think they extend the effect of melatonin. There was something about a hooker earlier. I told her I would me her someplace specific. I hope my parents don't go there because she will recognize me. I tell my mom who is driving to go straight. We go up a large pipe and it Ts off.
Then the dream changes and I wake up. I had been kidnapped and there are all these crazy people around me acting like zombies. I have to fight my way out with random children s toys. The whole thing feels like it had happened to me before.

2:30AM WBTB- Apple Juice, Bathroom, SSILD

I close my eyes waiting for the first imagery to appear. I fell asleep before anything else. I think next time I should maybe mantra a bit instead of lying there with a blank mind.

Smoke and candy 6:06AM

I am working at the 13th ST plant again. It's now moved in rl. I go to the gas station accross the road. I want to smoke. I wait in line some and then look for Prime Time cigars. Some tells me those are nasty and to buy some other brand. I think it was "Twisters" I ask for one and see that I am also buying a bunch of candy.

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Bedtime 9PM-5AM

Apple Juice, Bedtime SSILD

No recall until after WBTB

WBTB around 3:30AM, Bathroom then straight to bed. No additional aids. SSILD/WILD

FA: Foiled Again!

I know I put this in RED but I am not adding it to my lucid count. I was so so close though. If I had not given in to the FA...

I had strong HH and entered what I call the half-dream. I am walking around waiting for the dream to form. I can feel my body in the bed. At some point it begins to feel more real. I can loudly hear my foot steps like I am walking on gravel on asphalt. I got this same sound once before. I feel like I am kicking my legs in the bed as I am walking. I am unsure if this is real so I stop. I think about the lucid task I want to do. I want to look at a playing card and see if it matches with the random one I have blindly tucked away in the bookcase in rl. Before I can even act on it I feel SP grip me. It is mild and I pause for a bit and then start my usual visualization of my feet going over the side and touching the floor. It feels real but then it disappears. I feel like I am laying in bed still so I roll. I only get to my side and stop. I think that I really woke up. I am half sitting up in bed on one elbow but I never moved that way. I notice later too that I moved way to easy. Not at all like real life.I did not realize any of this and I gave up. Then out of habit I did a half assed nose plug RC. I am pretty sure I blew through but didn't realize it at the time. I fell into non lucid dreams.
I was really disappointed because I should have enough experience that I really shouldn't be falling for this. How many times must I learn that ANYTHING after SP is probably not real?


The first one I was riding my bike in my old childhood neighborhood and I follow some kid down a trail.

Then I have some stupid sex dream about a bearded woman who keeps going on about being a virgin. I think that's probably because you have a beard.

Something about being at my ex inlaws house. I hear the ex MIL say how R got offered a CEO position. I think how she lies all the time and don't believe her.

I was in a room with strange technology. Someone was learning dream control with electricity. She was getting zapped by a box and some voice was instructing her. I walk by and touch the box and it shuts down. I say, "I believe you." And walk away smugly. I think how they should have made the electricity with insulation.

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11PM-8AM
SSILD at bedtime
2 Valerian Root, 2MG Melatonin, 1 glass apple juice

Fragment 11:55PM

I feel like I am stuck in sleep. Sensory strangeness and abstract images.

Sisters Funeral 2:28AM

I go to a funeral for my older sister in a park. It looks like summer and is bright and sunny. My younger sister is sitting in a chair up front and crying. There was some thought about her death being at 2:00. I comfort my sister and cry with her.

WBTB alarm 4AM

Chemical Plant 4:00AM

I work at some chemical plant. I start to wonder around. I climb up a latter and come out of a hatch in the ground. I see men in suits and hard hats touring the outside area. I try to avoid them because I feel like I don't belong here. It looks like a steel structure is being built. I turn around to go back. There is a black mass of stuff that looks like charcoal wood. It is repelling me away and making it hard for me to walk. I struggle against it. The force feels like two magnets with opposite poles. I end up crawling back to the hatch. I wake up and my whole body shutters.

Another glass of apple juice
Back to Bed 4:30AM
SSILD Then WILD

Out of Control 5:29AM

For some reason I pull over to the side of the road to check on my son. Then the car rolls away and down the side of an over pass. I run to it. It is now small like a toy. I pick it up with my right and can carry it up the hill. I place it down and it is full size now. A cop starts harassing my and telling me that he has to take my son with him because I am unfit to drive with him in the car. I scream and yell and curse him. I argue and refuse to let him take my son.

Camp 8:00AM

I am working at a church camp. I am hurrying and getting dressed to be some place early so I can get paid. J from work is there. She is going with me. I can't find my wife. She has the baby in some room. I hear him crying. I wanted to kiss her goodbye but there is no time. The scene changes and I am driving with J. It looks like downtown Joplin and I am confused about were I was going. I thought the camp was in Texas.

Half-Dream time unknown

And I looking at a pool with strange lanes and different depths. I am debating going in or not. I think Michael Phelps is around someplace.

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Bedtime 10:30PM-9:00AM
3 8% Beers, 200MG B6 WBTB+400MG B6 Alarm 3:30AM WILD

Alright time to get back on track with the DJ. I have not had much mental focus waking or sleeping. I have been blowing through every WBTB alarm only to get get up later just to pee or take some B6 and then I pass out completely. I did manage to sleep later this morning and I have a few half dreams during a WILD attempt but I lost focus before it became a full dream. Also I know I lost many more dreams. I was just too lazy to record them. What a Shame.

Whore House 4:42AM

I am in a whore house buying whores. I buy one for $25 just short term. I get tired of waiting for the first one so I buy another for $125 for a longer time. The transactions are like buying things in Skyrim. All menu based.

I know both women are beautiful blondes but I want a closer look at the second. I focus my eyes and her face gets shifty. Then she looks like an old hag from Skyrim. I make a comment and say, "Take that shit off." She discards her skin like a mask and is beautiful again.

I end up outside for something. I am waiting again. It looks like the outside of Trade-X. I see J from work with some dude. They walk by and I get embarrassed. I get into my car. I think I will just tell him that I am here for the gambling. I find some blue raffle tickets and hold them in my hand.

Now I am back in the building. The second woman I paid for is waiting with the first. I dismiss the first because I paid more for the second. Now she looks like an old crack addict. I get disgusted and say, "I'll take the first one who is a pretty blonde. I don't suppose you would give me my money back?"
She smiles and I see her rotten teeth. "Nope sure won't"

I find the other in a loft. She is in bed. There is some random dude sleeping a few feet away but I ignore him. I lay down with the woman. I am shocked to realize she is a virgin.

The "Buffen" 7:12AM semi-lucid

This was a long dream and I have a strong feeling that I was lucid at the beginning but lost is at some point and fell non-lucid. Or course I can really remember much but emotions and brief images so I won't be counting this one.

I am doing something down the street in my neighborhood. I see a woman sit down on a park bench. She is in awe and amazement. I recognize her clothes and face. She is wearing a grey skin tight jump suit with a black leather belt and boots. Her face looks a lot like the lady from Price Cutter.

I sit down next to her. I say, "I know all about you. It weird isn't it?
"How do you know?" She looks even more puzzled.
"Well, I am not a Grimm and I am not a Wessen but you are a Buffen." Now I get a flood of "memory". I remember (like the book Altered Carbon) people have a memory stack in the base of their skull and memories and personality can be downloaded to a new body at anytime. People who do that and are put into a body other than their own are called Buffen. (only in this dream) I tell her about all this and how I was once in her body. Then I remember being naked and playing with myself while I was a woman. Then I get horny and we make out very heavily. For some reason I can feel some sort of lip piercings and her teeth are bumping my teeth. It feels odd but I don't care.

It almost turns to sex when every stops. I am in my recliner on the laptop. I see a webpage. I can see the words but I am reading it in my mind.
"The no sex clause in dreams"
I "remember" that my wife made me agree to this and anytime I start to dream this it automatically stops me. (semi-lucid)

Then I am back to kissing the woman. The her piercings split and press my lips. The sensation is too odd to describe. I hear a sound like a robotic purr. Something like I heard in my Matrix or similar movie.

The world around me collapses and my awareness shifts to my physical body in bed.

Fragments

The lucid feeling and me trying to focus really hard on seeing something but can't do it.

Half Dream - Mute dream guide

I am in strong HI/HH and I see a woman who is clearly from India. I try to do active things to keep in the hypno-state. She keeps staring at me intensely. I try to ignore her but can't. I look at her closely. She is very dark for an Middle-Eastern. She has a red dot on her forehead. She is wearing a pale purple wrap around blouse with blue jeans. Her hair is jet black and sleek. It is long and brushed to the side. It is a very clear and stable image. I can see all the details in her face. The only odd this is her eyes. They are black but there are no "whites". The whites are flesh color. I ask her in my mind, "What do you want?" She gestures to my left. She will not or cannot talk. I try to ignore her but she is persistent. I see her change into a some type of blutbad wessen in the corner of my eye. It catches my attention and when I look she is normal.
"Are you trying to tell me something?"
She gestures again. Pointing
"You want me to follow you?"
She throws her hands up in a way that makes me think. "Finally you get it, moron!"
I follow her on a street in a big city. There are no other people. I watch her closely the entire time. She changes constantly. She stays a female but she turns into many different woman. All races, skin types, and hair color. A few times I get attracted to her and try to have sex with her. Every time she is patient and pushes me away.

At some point during our walk. I ask her if she was my dream guide. She nods "yes" and I can sort of see and exasperated expression on her face but she still doesn't speak. I feel like she thinks I am so stupid. The whole time I am following behind her and I can only see her from a back angle but up close. I continue to study her as she morphs and changes.

Then I lose focus and my body gets uncomfortable. I forget to ignore that and I roll over and lose it. I was so close.

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November 2, 2012

No aids, No WBTB

I took allergy meds and a little DayQuil so I was pretty zonked. I gave myself a break from inducing lucidity because I was not feeling well.

Party 5:21AM

I am parting with my cousin from Texas. There is pot everywhere. There was something about being stuck in a cage.

November 3, 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6, SSILD

11:22PM
I was camping with V and S. I read V's Facebook status about ready to break camp but there is a picture of her being home. S's says something about their kids.

12:33AM
I am playing Sega Genesis Shadowrun but its on XBOX Kinects. I do hand gestures to attack.

WBTB, 400MG B6, SSILD WILD

I can't focus much on SSILD and pass out rather quickly. I think next time I feel so sleepy I will just do a more traditional WILD tech. That or try to stay awake longer. The problem was I knew that I didn't have much time once I finally woke up for WBTB. I still feel pretty tired and lack sleep time.

4:46AM
Long dream about playing someones old Atari. The game turns into a real life adventure. I am attacking inanimate objects that are coming to life. I completely smash a broom stick and thought I won. I realized it was more about climbing levels and turning of the power.
I quit the game and hand the joystick back to a guy at looks like Leo (That '70s Show).

4:49AM
I wake up from a dream and My wife and I are at my ex's parents house. My wife's mom and my ex's mom leave to go shopping. My ex wife goes with them. I am sitting on the cough with my wife trying to remember if my ex just kissed me goodbye or not. I think she did and can't believe she would do that especially in front of my wife. My wife is not freaking out so I wonder. I feel really confused.

6:16AM
There is a horde of old people from the nursing home coming over a grassy hilltop. I notice they are all zombies. They begin to shoot rockets out of their eyes at me.

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Bedtime 9:30P-5:00A
400MG B6 SSILD at begining

Love Story 2:40AM
A green environmental hippie woman falls in love with a business man conservative. They almost part ways but they make up. She moves in with him to New York. It was a real chick flick.

Toilet Parts Time?
I am at the store looking at toilet parts. I see all sorts of strange looking pieces and I feel really confused about what I need to buy. My mom shows up and looks with me. I find a faucet that looks like a woodland scene for the base and deer antlers for the handles.

WBTB 400MG B6 - Total time about 5 min

#92 Grocery Store SSILD DILD

There maybe be a beginning to this dream that I forgot.

I find myself already lucid in a grocery store with a woman that is familiar to me. My wife? We are waiting for something. I watch people come and go with shopping carts. I get bored and yell, "THIS IS ALMOST AS REAL AS REAL LIFE!" Meaning real life can be so boring. My wife is a blonde and looks a little different but I think of her as my wife. Being lucidly bored and move in close to her and point to a back room door. While I push her in that direction I say, "How about you and me go back there and have a little fun? Don't worry no one will care because this is a dream."

We are now in the back. I make out with her a little. There is a bath tub and I want to get in with her. Suddenly she resists and pulls away from me. I let her go. There is a strange scene were I was floating away and she is running after me. She looks like the blonde sheriff woman from Once Upon A Time TV show. (Strange. My wife is watching it as I type this)

I think my lucidity must have slipped here a bit Suddenly, I am back at the bat tub. I point to it and ask, "Will you tell if I use this?"
She says, "I haven't told anyone anything yet."

I wake up.

I get up and go pee then lay back down.

#93 Work Scene SSILD to Active WILD

I do a few rounds of SSILD but I toss and turn a lot now. I think the B6 is keeping me awake. I remember the last time I just forced myself to not move and I quickly had a WILD. So I did that again.I started getting really strong HI/HH and eventually turns into a very long dream.

I find that I am able to manipulate the imagery much like in a lucid. I practice nose plug RCs. I even get the idea to try to get precognitive information (a side project of mine) but that will not form. I gradually find myself in a dream scene. It is a place similar to my job but different in a lot of ways. I find elements from when I worked at another place called F.A.G. (Yeah I know but that's the real name). The entire dream scene and imagery takes place in a massive room in with no walls.

At one point I am with B at the mold shop. The mold machine has a strange cage on it and a conveyor belt. Something is stuck and I crawl in to get it. I realize this is more than HI/HH and I say, "I am dreaming." But at that point the dream fades and I feel my body in bed again and now it feels like HI/HH instead of the dream. At that point I feel a very faint SP vibration. I pause and relax and let it take me only dimly aware of what it was.

There is darkness and then more imagery. I play around staying active and interacting with things. I don't realize that the SP was probably a good sign that I am already in the dream but things just don't see real and vivid enough anyway. My memory is vague here but I wonder around some and just mess around with things.

Now I am sitting in front of some lockers putting shoes on. I see J and K from elementary school. They are older now. In real life I have not seen them since we were kids. J alway had a crush on K. They are sitting at a picnic style table. J is flirting with K as K talks on the phone with who I assume is her husband. I see J whisper in her ear and kiss her cheek. She brushes him playfully away. Then J hugs her from behind and grabs a boob. That was too much she gets up and leaves. I am lucid the whole time but was so amused by what I was seeing that I waited until now to take action. I notice how solid and real the dream is as I walk up to J. I say, "Hey, do you want to go to my house and eat lunch? Or did were you planning on not eating anything?"
He looks at me, "Oh I wanted to eat."

I smile at him and we walk. The giant room fades away and we are outside now. The outside area looks like my old elementary school. Our friendship feels as familiar as when we were kids. We walk up to my car and I see that it is smashed and dented so bad on the driver side that I think the car much be totaled and not drive-able. But I know this is just a dream and laugh. I get in away knowing that it doesn't matter what the car looks like.

Suddenly I am driving down the familiar street and J is next to me. I come to a stop sign and never slow down. I think, "Why should I obey traffic laws in a dream?" This orange truck with a yellow and red flame jobs cuts me off. I try to steer the car into him at the last second but I am too late. He passes and I only side swipe him. If feel the dream fade. So I stop to rub my hands a bit until things feel more stable.

Ah now I am going to have some fun! I make a right turn. The G forces of the turn feels realistic and I smile at this. I say to J, "Haha! AH LOOK OUT!" in a joking tone. In my mind I tell the dream that I want a straight open road. The street stretches out into a rural area. I punch the gas and get as much speed as the dream will let me. I keep focusing on the road. I am thinking, "I want a car to appear." Nothing comes. My vision get blurry for a bit. Then I remember to use expectation. I see a myself coming up to a top of a hill. Now I fully expect to see a car. As a top the hill. BAM there it is. I steer and hit the car head on. I tell J, "Oh no here it comes, ahhhhh." and I laugh. The car just flips out of the way and I feel no impact. Then my subC surprises me.

The car goes over a cliff and he are doing a nose dive into a construction zone. We plung into a vat of black oil. Then we are falling down a shiny, sparkling, glowing blue water fall. I get the feeling of being in a mouthwash commercial and being immersed in cool minty flavor. As cheesy as that sounds it was actually beautiful and breathtaking. I let out a "oooohhhhh!" the dream fades into a black void and I an still falling.

I wake up in my bed. I sit up and look around. I see my wife to my left and the room looks normal. I notice the low light and the dresser and the random stuff we still need to put away. Then, as usual, I think, "What was I dreaming? OH YEA! I could still be dreaming." I look around more closely. I see the bathroom door on the left when I know it should be on the right. "Wait a minute! I am dreaming!"

At that moment my wife comes to life. She puts her hands up in a monster pose and screams like a banshee. The sound is not loud but high pitched. Then I see brilliantly colored rainbow crystalline spikes grow out from every part of her body. I am beyond scared as this was not expected at all. I pass out in my dream and I fall on top of her. I have no control.

Now I am falling in the black void. Then I wake up. I am in the same situation that I was in my false awakening. I see the bathroom on the wrong side. I say, "Oh God no, I can't do that again." close my eyes and I throw myself backward. I get to skip the part where my wife was a screaming banshee.

Now I am falling again in the darkness. I open my eyes and see the room again. I close them and now I feel myself spinning with my stomach being the center point. I can fee the centripetal force on my head, arms, and feet. I relax and enjoy the feeling.

I begin to see that I am in another dream scene when something external and real wakes me up.

It was my son making hungry noises and the time was almost 5am. Time to get up.

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Oct 31 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6

I was in collage. I got on the wrong bus but I decided to just go there instead. Some friends joined me. One said are we going to Minnesota or Missouri?

I find a bookmark with my name on it. I says my name means "Moxology" the study of words. I tell my wife and look for her name.

I am playing golf with my bro and Gilmore from work. I know I am not a golfer so I use some sort of augmented reality technology to help me golf. I line up a cursor to the play I want to tee off from. And then I take practice shots. The computer corrects my posture until I get a perfect swing. No one else can see the augmentation and they get a little jealous at how well I can golf.

Nov 1 2012

3MG Melatonin, 200MG B6, 1 Benadryl (allergies)

Super sleepy all night. I passed out before I could do SSILD or even notice HI. I slept past my WBTB alarm and 30min later I woke from the dream below. The thought of doing a WBTB make me cringe so I skipped it. I thought to do SSILD but was gone before I could try.

I am with my wife sitting at some fast food place. There are children singing for a TV show similar to Barney. I one kid has my same name. I look at him closer and see that he is the child version of me. I am shocked and walk over to meet him. He talk a bit. I don't remember what all was said but one thing. I asked him what his moms name was and he said "Ellenona". At that, my wife bursts into laughter. I smile at her but say nothing.

I want to shake his hand. When we make contact I brace myself because I fully expect a paradox in the space time continuum thus causing the universe to collapse on itself. Sadly, the only thing that happened was a mild sensation of energy passing between us and then the boy no longer looked like me.

He now has ginger hair and looks at lot like an imagined future version of my son. He sits down at picnic style table another the other child actors. There is a brunette woman speaking to them. She is explaining why the show has to be canceled. I see tears and expressions of heartbreak on all the kids faces.

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Betime 9:30P-5:00A
3MG Melatonin, 300MG B6 SSILD at begining

Fell asleep fast during SSILD no dreams recalled until after WBTB

WBTB @ 3AM, SSILD I woke naturally just before WBTB alarm. I only got up to pee and straight back to bed. I did only a few rounds of SSILD before I passed out again. So sleepy.

#91 Brief DILD in Japan

I am in Japan in a Christian church. I feel like it is Catholic. I am sitting among a hundred or so blonde haired little girls. I have my own blonde haired daughters next to me. all the girls are playing brass instruments. I don't remember the song but they play it flawlessly. I can't understand why none of them are Japanese. After they stop I get up and walk to the back and see the pastor standing there next to a small end table with candles. I notice he is wearing a grey suit and black tie. He looks a little like my own pastor in real life. I have a fake and brief memory of him coming to a haunted house and casting out evil spirits. Instead of talking about that, I mention that none of the girls look Japanese. He begins to laugh and reply to that but, at that moment, I look down and notice I am holding my son in his car seat. I carelessly tilt him forward and he falls out and hits the floor hard. I quickly pick him up and hold him close. He is not crying but I look him over anyway.
My wife touches his head and says "He has a knot."
"Nah.", I say. "He is fine."

I am now outside walking to my car with my daughters trailing behind me. It is night time and I see kids playing with a squirrel under a street lamp. For a second I think that I forgot my son inside. I pause and start to think and retrace my steps but, first I focus on my hand. There, now I can feel the car seat handle. I look and there it is.

I walk around the passenger side and glance at my rear tire. I see that it is going flat. I look at the door to open it then look back at the tire. It had now fallen off and the axle is completely broke. It look like pipe threads at the end. At first I am completely pissed and begin to freak out but I realize something and pause and stare at the door again. I tell myself that I can just use dream control. If I believe, it will be fixed. I know I am dreaming at this point but I don't verbalize it yet.

I look back at the wheel and it is fixed but the tire is still low on air. I smile. I make an inflating gesture with my hands and let out a whoosh of air with my mouth. I say, "There. Fixed." I don't bother to verify it I just know. I forget about the kids now and walk around the driver side of the car. I finally say it, "I am dreaming.", and smile. I know that the dream has been getting progressively darker but I don't fight it. I want to continue the plot and see where it takes me. I realize that I was about to do some sight seeing in Japan and I really want to drive to downtown of whatever Japanese city I was in. As I reach for the door handle of the car, I instantly wake up. I feel really tired and I forget to try DEILD.

Naked Between snooze alarm dream

I am running around the house trying to get dressed for work. My wife is up and about and she has some friend of hers over. I say something to her and she replies something and walks into the kids room. I continue to try to find some clothes but I am in the living room. I look down and realize that I have been completely naked the entire time. I don't get embarrassed. I just wonder why I am not at all modest any more. I am amused by this and start to walk into the room where my wife and friend went into. I have no sexual feelings about it at all. I just think it will be funny to streak in front of them. The alarm wakes me up.

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3MG Melatonin 300MG B6
SSILD Was very sleepy only got 2 or 3 rounds of SSILD before I black out. I missed my WBTB and was too tired to care. I forgot a few dreams because when I tried to think back and remember I fell asleep before I recorded.

Bedtime 10p - 5a

I ate a heavy meal late in the evening. (Stuffed Bell Peppers) I am wanting to stop eating at 6. It seems that when I don't eat late I have better recall and more lucids. I'll continue to test this idea.

Joplin Assassins Creed 3:02AM

The Joplin tornado leaves the town in anarchy. Missouri succeed from the union. Unfortunately, and evil dictator takes over. The first part is vague but I remember stalking him from behind. I casually walk up behind him and put a hand over his mouth and quickly thrust a blade into his rib cage and back.

I climb to the top of a tall building in down town Joplin. I look at the sky and remember the events that took place. (I think I am doing what I do during the day. Remember the past few hours)

I see con trails from planes. Some are white and some are black (dream sign). I know the black ones are planes that belong to the US and the white ones are planes that belong to Missouri. I hope that we get a better leader now and we can be at peace.