Xanous' Dream Journal

When the moon hits you eye like a big a pizza pie *LUCID*

I was able to lay down for a few hours today and take a nap. I was feeling sick and tried. I tried to WILD for an hour but I was just going to noisy HI and my self awareness was just fading in and out. I figured it was the wrong time. Usually enough time trying to WILD will trigger a lucid like MILD or DILD. I had a dream with a MAJOR dream sign and got briefly lucid. I'm getting really pissed at how short my LD's have been lately. I think I am getting better but it is such slow progress. I've never had this much trouble before.

The begining is vague and hard to describe. I am at some place. Drawing or coloring and I hear some women talking. Some one said something about name motels. I heard one say "Best Western" and another say "Motel 6", ect. I say, "Damn ya'll must be cheap." I was just kidding them. I think of one in my minde. How about Hilton. I look to my left and see a sign on a building that says Hilton Hotel but its like a weird optical illusion with cat silhouettes and it morphs into Hilton Tipton.

Then the dream changes and I am in a Hotel room. I am lying in bed trying to sleep. I wake up annoyed that someone left the TV on but I didn't want to get up and turn it off because I was trying to WILD. The noise what driving me insane though. So I decide get up out of bed to turn it off. Then things get weird. Suddenly, I am looking at a PC screen and I click a little blue icon in the top right and the sound stops.
Now I am outside the Hotel. It is night time and the sky is dark but the moon is so bright I can see a shadow of the building. The grass is lush and green and perfect. I can heard the sound of it as my bare feet walk through. I can feel nothing however. I walk until I am in the light of the moon. For some reason I want to take a look. When I am bathed in the bright moon light, I look up.
Instead of a moon there is a giant thing. The best description I can give is something that looks like a cheese pizza. I immediately get lucid. The shock of it was more than I could deal with. I forgot everything but wanted to fly toward it and investigate closer..So I jumped and flew straight up. I should have kept my eyes on it because as soon as I looked down everything faded to black. I remembered that I was supposed to stabilize by focusing on an object. But I had nothing to focus on so I focused on making something.I get really confused here. I don't know if I opened my real eyes or dreamed I saw the inside of the hotel room again but it foggy and hazy and I felt all dreamy still. I closed my eyes but I felt too much of my real body. I thought to DEILD and for a moment I had a FA that I got out of bed in the Hotel to turn the TV off again. I kept hearing so much TV noise. I had a feeling that I was lucid before so I stopped to try to remember what happened. That's when I truly woke up.



Also last night I had a few frags.

Something about the Islamic Church in Joplin

The baby

Climbing Trees

Being at Walmart

Kids on the house

Lucid 1 7:44AM
I FA and start watching TV. Then it is like I am in church. Everyone is leaving but I want to stay as long as I can. I was getting tired of being in bed but was determind to LD I think about my brother. I guess he left too. Then I think.
I thought he was coming for labor day? Awe that's why dad tried to call me. So that means I am off tomorrow as well. Whoo hoo! I have another day to sleep in and have a lucid dream I do I a fist pump in the air.
Wait. I was trying to LD but now I don't really remember waking up. I am dreaming! I
decide to RC just to make sure. I put my hand to my nose and blow through. The sound of my loud breathing jolts me awake. I lay still and DEILD
I am in SP and I slowly and calmly make my dream body put my legs over the side of the bed and and I sit up. Just before I touch the floor I lose focus and wake up. I try to DEILD more but I am too awake now.

Lucid 2 8:13AM
I am standing in a familiar area near the Stadium in my neighborhood. There are a lot of cars parked. I see a grey car pull out of parallel into the street. It starts rolling out of control and I start to get all upset. Then I remember this is a dream and why would I care. It not even my car. My car comes to me on command. I look to my right and see my car coming to me on its own. It is pulling out of the parking lot. It is about to hit another car and I use TK to stop it. It keeps pushing against me wanting to go but I hold it firm. Then I realize there were other things I wanted to do. Like TOTM and 3 Step. I get excited. I wake up.

Power Lines 2:39 AM
I am driving to CJ with my wife's grandma. We see large power lines laying accross the road. Grandma asks "What is it?" and looks worried.
I say "That side of CJ doesn't have its own power so they borrow from the other side."
She replys, "You mean to tell me they don't even have their own power?" And looks scandalized about it.
There are more power lines. But these looks like a large version of the kind of wiring I work with at my job. They are spliced together and I see bare wire exposed. The road is so bumpy now. I see electric sparks. I scream in pain. Though I felt no pain I believed I did.
Now I am standing. On the road dancing over wires that are electrocuting me. Grandma and my car have vanished.
I see a trucker pulled over to the side and I run to him for help. It is a man in purple getting out of a red mack truck. He is on his CB and points behind me. I see another truck coming the other way pull over and stop. I collapse near him. I want to use my cell phone to call for help but it has melted and looks like giant solder balls. The man tells me, "Just touch the solder ball and say 911. It will work."
I put a finger on a solder ball attached to some metal structure. I say, "911"
I hear a reply, "911. What's your emergency?"
I mental relay everything without words. It was faster.
I now I feel better and I am walking to the side of the road. I see the man in purple. He looks like the wizard from the dream last week. He has a full flowing white beard but this time he is wearing a purple link hat and purple tunic with blue jeans. I tell the 911 operator, "I also see a modern day wizard in purple. Well, that's fun." And I grin real big.
I walk along a drive way to were the man is. The 911 operator wants to know where this happened. I forget about CJ and get confused. I ask the man where are we. He says, "Its the Nevada Exit."
I tell the operator and then I look around. I see the house looks like my wifes grandmas house. I look for a number on the porch. 1886. I look for a street sign. Session St. I say, "Im at 1886 Session St. Nevada, MO."
Then I feel my phone buzzing in my pocket. I get annoyed that someone keeps calling me while I'm on the phone. It starts to get dark and I look up. I see a blue light flying in the sky. I think maybe it's a UFO. I follow it intently. It turns into a wisp of a person. It is wearing some sort of mask and the blue light is its eyes. I think this must be another lucid dreamer from dreamviews. I wave real big at him. He just turns to leave.
I can hear his thoughts. "Will have to come back... too many people... don't know what happened here... Have to tell Alyzarin."
I think that I need to get on DV and tell everyone about the accident on the road.

I had so many reasons to RC here and I blew it. And that Wizard keeps popping up. I'll have to confront him next time. He might be my dream guide!

Fragment
I am trying to put both dogs and one cat in a carrier. The cat gets pissed and hisses at me. I don't even know why I did that and let her go.

Banjo/Keyboard
My Nephew made a strange banjo thing. I play a little tune on it and am surprised how easy it was. I look at him and tell him that he did a good job. I flip it over and see it is a odd keyboard thing. Its not like a piano. It more just a bunch of buttons. I just push them all and make all kinds of Socratic notes.
My brother walks into the room. I say, "Hi."
Now I am taking a bath. I think I need to get out. I am standing up and looking for a towel. My niece walks in. I try to hid myself but she just acts like I'm not even naked.
"Here's you some towels." And she leaves. I feel embarrassed and annoyed. I pick up a towel and it red and look and feels like giant fruit roll-ups.

Fragment2
I was flying a kite and it got loose. I am running in the tall brilliant green grass. I have a string in my hand and it is attached to a pavilion in a park. I can hear the sound of the grass and feel the resistance on my legs. I hear bird singing in the distance.

Copied straigh out of my DJ app. What? It makes sense to me! Sometimes I just don't want to type so much for NLDs

All four go to take a shower. I have to pee. Open toilet. Lid is weird. I pee on a rug and some bibs. I remember I just installed a new toilet and let some stuff in. I take it out to wash it.

It wads like watching walking dead. They meet the governor. And try to escape. There was a big confusing fight. One guy in a wheel chair. He gives up and drives into someone sitting.

Fragment of me walking down my street completely naked. I hold my hunk to hide atleast that much.

Wife was possessed. Took her to get help. Cody. Made it to CJ. Ex iblaws. Sex. Kids. Leaving car cover

Ghost Nightmare
I was looking at run down realestate. I had been following these guy around in cars. We stop and the area looks like a modern day ghost town. I tell these guys I am not interested. One looks like the funny one from wipeout. I say, "I don't want to look anymore. It just full of ghost." Meaning figuratively.
Now we are in my living room talking about ghost. We supposedly has some sort of experience. I tell them, "I would freak the fuck out if anything happened to me like that."
The wipeout Guy say, "Well look who's phone it is."
I look down and my phone is in my left front pocket. It is shinning a blinding bright white light. So vivid and brilliant. I become terrified and take my phone out and throw it on the floor to pop the battery out. The battery does not come out. It just gets dimer and reads on screen these word: Damn a crack.
So I type like a text in command line. Stop this please.
The next line of text reads: Sending...
Then the text I typed turns the word stop into stopping.
The guy says, "So you can't get rid of this?"
I say, "No. It just follows."
"Who you gonna call? He flashed a big smile.
I am so scared. "I don't know. Jesus? A preist? My dad? Someone."
I wake up truly scared but the more I thought about the dream the less scary it got.

FA to Japan
I am leaving a theme park with my wife. We go outside the gate and slay down on sleeping bags with a bunch of other people. Some kids were playing near my head and I yelled at them. Then I FA. I am some sort of scientist or professor at a facility in Japan. I am leaving with some colleague. He is bowing to everyone and telling them by in Japanese. I see an American man and I just shakes his hand and spoke English to him while the other guy bowed. He in turn handed me a book and said, "I want you to have a copy of my book." It was gold and tan with some lettering. I thank him and we walk to other people the guy I was with was all telling some people buy but they did not hear him or look at him. I had to speak up for him. Then we walk toward an office or classroom. I say to him you've been saying "ohayou gozaimasu". I think that means good morning. He argues with me and I let it go even though I know he is wrong. We walk to a young Japanese woman and he tells her good morning in Japanese while I just bow deeply. I bow so low I almost fall over. I realize we look like stupid Americans. She looks flustered and laughs and doesn't know what to say.

Bull?
There is a monstrous bull in the darkness of a stable. I switch horses. The light tan horse jumps better. I taunt the bull in the dark and ride off with a lasso. I am ready to catch it. I expect it to chase me but I never see it. I ride around until I see my family at a camp fire. My sister introduces herself to other people as my acquaintance. My mom scalds her. I feel like there is some tension about something.



Fragment of my grandpa dating. It was a big deal to everyone.

Fragment I saw my dead grandparents together.

Fragment about some goats.

There was another Frag but I can't remember now.

All dreams after WBTB MILD
WTF?
Giant Abe Lincoln doll crashes and falls to ocean. I am there. On beach. Blue sky. Blue water. Beautiful. We try to climb up him after he gets up. Some woman is living with fish now. She is engaged to one. There is a bottle of nail Polish. I lick it with a lizard tongue. If fill with black liquid on the outside and sort of threads around. I hear the woman's narrative. Another giant doll rises but only half the size of Abe. Looks like Monster High. People try to climb but they wiegh it down. We let go and it stumbles off. And has a hard time walking in water.

I just want pie!
I got to Wal-Mart to buy pie but can't find. Ask guy for help. Said no. Look in frozen. I look into ingredients to make. Bunch of drunks. K tell to calm down. They get mad. I say, "Yes! Fucking calm down please." Because I said please they seriously reply, "Oh he's so polite." I am now at my parents looking for indredients. Eat frozen fennel seed. I call it fennel seed but it looks round with a yellowis dot in the middle. I am mad they didn't have anything to make pie so I take some sort of cart. I make so much noise I am surprised they didn't wake up.

Work?
I am at a gas station with my Ex-Brother-In-Law. He gives me money for gas and cigs. HA! It was usually the other way around in RL. So I go in to pay. I want some Camels so bad but I remember I quit. I think about it for a long time. I finally say NO I wont. And leave fast!

Now I am hanging with Henry form work at a 3rd plant. It doesn't exists. The place is from a previous dream a loooong time ago. I remember the other dream so I think that I have worked here before. But I also believe it is part of my RL job. False memory. Henry is drinking beer and hanging out. With me. We are waiting for some work and we can't leave. I am a little nervous about the beer. I have my own six pack of Coors Light but I won't touch it. I think I will let it get warm and chug it at lunch. I asked him what we are doing. He tries to whisper to me but go loud. He was telling what our plan was. Then he's like oh sorry I got too loud didn't I? Yes. I worry that we will get busted for beer. I look around and see some office behind a long desk. They have some sort of broken platform where the desk rises to reach a shelf to put documents on. I want to leave so bad. Trying to wait for lunch to drink my beer. Jeff is laughing at us.

Strange Flowers Fragment
I see a group of yellow flower centers surrounded by green petals. The petals expand and contract over the centers like some sort of round muscle or eye lid.

Don't have time for a lot of detail this time.

1. Kids tore up closet. I eat cereal at my parents. There are some strange spoons that look dirty but they are like glass with with red bubbles. Then I pick at some left over fish. Very vivid.

2. Kids watching TV. I gather our stuff up to leave. I look at my GPS and Deanna makes a joke about me having a private adventure. We take is as being dirty. My dad says GROSS.

3.I am working at LJS. I thought it was funny that I always dream about this and now I am really back working here. For a second I almost DILD but I say nope this is too real to be a dream and continue working.
Missed my dreamsign. DAMN!

4. I am playing some sort of video game. It kinda like warcraft but I am dropping magic bombs and kills hordes of ememies.

Talking to wife and got confused about a memeory with the ex

Fishing.

Seeing Auruas.

Got to bed too late but it was worth it. Time with the wife and Season premier of Grimm!

Lucidity RED
Thoughts BLUE

Bank - Fragment
I am trying to fill out a bunch of paper work at the bank.

Baby
My unborn son born. I am upset because I don't remember any of it. I fee like went a way for a long time. He looks like he is about a year old and is talking like he is 5. I put him on the top bunch of the girls' bunkbed. I ask my wife how old he is. She says he is only 15 days old. Together we say "But he acts like he is 5". "I know." She said. "He is so smart!" I am still trying to process why the heck I cant remember anything. I know something is wrong her but I can't figure it out. I play with him for a while and make up for lost time. Then, I get distracted by my phone and start messing with it. I feel guilty for not paying him attention.

Evil Horse Statues
I am in a museum. Full of horses statues made of various materials. I spend a lot of time looking around. Boring (I'll leave out some detail for time sake) Then I come to a strange stone one. It makes and evil face at me and I kick it. The entire statue become glued to my foot and is light like cardboard. I freak out and panic to get it off me. I startle away.

Game of Thrones and Sweeney Todd *LUCID*
WBTB MILD
I am standing on the edge of a wooded area with Jared. I see a bright blue sky and water. There is a road in front of us that leads to a stone bridge. Along the road there is a white picked fence. 3 or 4 wizards are dueling. I see fire and bright flashed of electricity. I don't know what came from who.
Jared remarks on this scene. "They are manifesting for the first time."
I reply with a comment about Game of Thrones. "Yeah I really like Thrones but it gets so boring in places and I lose interest."
Jared replies, "Well, you know it just.....
I interupt, "Hey look! It's umm... It's him!" I see Little Finger but I can't think of his name.
Jared looks. "Oh yeah that's that one guy."

I walk away but now I am walking side by side with a Lanaster. I am trying to decide if it is Tyrion or Jamie. I get worried because we are enemies but I am in desguise. I am really Benjamin Barker but going under the name Sweeney Todd. I get a view of the two of us from behind as we walk accross the stone bridge. I see that it is Tyrion but taller and I can see my crazy Sweeney hair with a grey streak.

Suddenly we are entering a tavern/commons type building. The outside is all stone. The inside has white was wood walls. The entrance is open like a huge garage without a door. I look up and all around. I think to myself that I need to remember this for later. So I gather all the detail that I can. I am taking this as me visiting a ren-fest and I need to write in my day journal later. I notice to the left are what look like bleachers and people in renaissance garb and eating turkey legs. To the right are some wooden rustic tables and chairs but I don't get much detail from it. Then in the back and to the right is an out cropping in the wall and an open window with a bar wench waiting to take orders. She looks bored.

I continue walking to the left and back. There is an opening to a dark red brick tunnel or hallway. I meet up with a Wizard. He looks a little like Sageous' Avatar but more real. He is bald and has a long flowing beard. I only get a gimps of him so I don't really see what his robes looks like.

So Wizard Sageous follows behind him and starts lecturing me about... I think was dream control. As he is talking. He shoot green plastic suction cup darts ahead of me marking the way. I have to jump down large ledges like huge stairs. I don't remeber much what he is saying but the thing that sticks out clearly is... "You can do it if you believe it. Or, I am just a great demon and I am lying to you. You decide." I find this to be profound and I ponder it intently.

We are now deep in some underground tunnel system made of brick. There is a 3 or 4 inch whole low on the wall. Wizard Sageous tells me I have to find a way to fit in it and continue on. I want to believe it but can't seem to understand. I turn and look the other way and see the tunnel turns to the left and into darkness. I see Wizard Sageous walking out of it into an adjacent tunnel.

I turn back and notice the hole has become very large. "AH! I get it! I believe it!" I now know that I am dreaming. I stare at the hole and half the wall disolves into nothing. There is a clear path for me now. But now I don't care to go there. I look to were Sageous walked out of a second ago and think that I have to really go that way. For some reason I know that there is something dangerous to me. An enemy of some sort. I start to go but it is too dark. Then I open a section or wall and look for some sort of light. Its dark there too. Then I remember I can summon. I reached into my back left pant pocket and pull out a 3inch mag light. I can feel the flashlight in my hand very vividly. I push the button and feel the click. The back of the cubby I opened is lit up with a blueish LED type light. I turn to go into the tunnel. And I suddenly wake up.

Maybe next time I will listen and go where I am told! HA! And Sageous the wizard?!?!? I freaken love it! He was almost like a dream guide!

Well I lie still and begin DEILD I feel SP comming but I get so distracted by the dream and I started replying the thing in my mind. Too much thought woke me up. SP faded. I had trouble going back to sleep after that.


Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full not lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I don't know why she is showing up after all these years. I am not saying I think this dream means anything. It is just odd! And what if?

Lucidity = red
Thoughts / Side notes = blue

Ship it
Something about wanting to ship 3 books at UPS. One was going to my dead grandma. I got a bag and wasn't sure what to do. The lady that worked there gave me a box. I started writing my grandma's address. It was mostly gibberish.

Myrtle Dawson
Something somenumber
box 43 31?
Smithville, TX somenumbers
County Jasper somenumbers

Meteor Shower *Non-lucid control*
I am someplace outside with my daughters. I tell my younger one to look. We see hundreds of meters streaking across the sky in all directions. I am so happy and go find my older daughter. I tell her to look. But the sky had gone cloudy. I tell the clouds to open up. They part in the middle and slide away. There is a second layer of darker clouds. I tell them to open up as well. They do. Then I think something is not right. This is odd. I think about doing an RC but then I am distracted by all the meteors and the sounds of my daughters awe and delight.( I missed a major dreamsign here. I was so close but that's ok I will LD later. I have been trying to only RC in RL when something unusuall happens. I think it's starting to get through. I have never truly RC'd in a dream.)

Road Trip
I am going on a road trip with my dad. He rented a huge tour bus for the two of us. I think it's overkill but I go along. I end up driving. I get real sleepy real fast and my dad is somewhere in the back sleeping. So, I just set the cruise control and get in the passenger seat and fall asleep.

I wake up and somehow decide it had been a hour. We are still on the road and cruising along like no big deal. I find it funny that we didn't crash but I think nothing more about it. I am a little worried about the bus now. I pull over to check the bus over and make sure we are still on track with the GPS. Everything is fine. I see a seat in the front of the bus. I sit down and notice there are triggers under each arm rest were the hands meet the end. The left is the brake and the right is the gas. I move the bus forward to the toll booth. I see a cop car coming toward the bus and I think maybe it was illegal to drive like that. I stop at the toll and quickly get back in. For some reason I sit in the passenger side like I was waiting for someone. I can see the cop at the driver side window. I move over and talk to him. He grips me out for "driving with the ballast" and "I'm just giving you a warning this time". I tell him how sorry I am and that I was just checking my GPS. He leaves.

The toll booth arm opens and we continue. I make sure to watch the back end and not hit it on the booth. Now we are on a dirt road that looks like a mud racing track. I check the GPS and we are on the right road. So, I just drive. Then there is a jump off a cliff. I see other cars racing and jumping. The bus doesn't make it. We crash and then roll over the right way. Some characters from the move Road Trip fall out. I think we must have picked them up when I was sleeping. I open the door and let them back in. My dad is awake now and he comes to the front. I start laughing and tell him, "You know what? I was asleep for an hour while the bus was on cruise control! Baahahahahahha!"

WILD fail DILD to DEILD *LUCID*
So my alarm goes off and I am too tired to get up. I lay there fall asleep for about 30min and then wake up and go ok I won't really WBTB but I can try to WILD anyway.Maybe this time I will need a mantra since I am so tired. I repeat "awareness" twice and lose awareness. LOL
I have a FA where I am lying in bed. I am holding an eraser. I just bought two black pearls the other day and it feels like that. Then it is really thin and I get mad at the girls for using it so much. I bought that stuff so I could sketch once in awhile. I get up and go to the kitchen table where they left thier black pearl. I switch them out and go back to the bedroom. (It's odd. There wasn't much visual. Mostly physical sensation. Like moving in the dark.)I decide to I need to pee. So I am standing there peeing when I dawns on me that I haven't really woken up and this is a dream! Bam! I wake up.

DIELD Blind *LUCID*
OK no big deal. I will just lie here not moving. Clear my mind like in meditation and relax.

SP sets in. I start to get excited but I tell myself to be calm. Meditate. After I chill I think about the next step. I know I am paralyzed but I worry risking trying to move. I do it anyway. I force myself to sit up. I feel my dream body rise and then slam back into SP. This time I just imagine my feet rising in the air like I did yesterday. Then imagine them slowly moving over the side of the bed to the floor. I wait until I can feel a dull pressure from the floor touching my feet. Then I just straiten the rest of my body. I move like a wet noodle until I am standing. My eyes are still closed. I can feel my real eyes still and dont want to rish opening them yet. I try to move on and forget like yesterday but I was still thinking about it.
Because I was thinking about forgetting about it, I was still thinking about it. So, the rest of the dream is all blind and mostly tactile sensations and sound. Sill a very interesting experience.
So, I make my way out of the bedroom. I am pissed I can't see. I feel the wall until there is a light switch. I flip and for a split second I thought I could see. I try again and flip it back and forth. Nothing. I walk to the front door and feel like it bark my shin on something but it didn't hurt so I just ignore it somewhat annoyed. I hear my footstep lightly on the hardwood floor. I don't want to be loud and wake anyone up. I guess I just do this by habit. I unlock the deadbolt and open it and close it. I think the storm door was missing. I am amazed because all my sense of touch and hearing was so right on perfect. Now that I am outside, I really want to see. So, I risk opening my eyes, and what I see is my blurry bedroom ceiling. DAMN! I quickly close my eyes and try to DEILD back but I am too awake now

Drawing Attack
After some time I just want to sleep and don't care about WILD or DEILD. It's take some time to relax. So, I don't know if I was dreaming or just in a state of vivid HI for this one but I'll record it anyway.

I see a woman. She is pretty and smiling at me. I try to focus on her face and it goes blurry. I think she knows me. I wonder if I am remembering a past life in this dream. She wants me to come to her but I don't move.

I look at my hands and watch how distorted and odd they look. I wonder why I never think to do this in a dream. I continue to watch fascinated.

This is probably where the HI went to NLD
There is a pencil drawing on yellow paper. It looks like Poncho Villa. I focus on the face but it gets blurry like the lady did. Then the face come to life and Poncho Villa jumps out at me. I pick up a black pearl eraser. I, say "I've got an eraser. I will erase your ass!"
He runs and hides behind the bedroom door. I see him peeing around at me. I say something else to taunt him and I wake up.

Bedtime about 10:30PM WBTB natural no alarm 5:00AM sleep 5:30AM-8:15AM
LUCIDITY in red

At a church function potluck with mom and younger sis. The chruch was odd like a big confusing house. My mom found some lockers with a bunch of locks. You chose a locker and there are locks with keys available. Some with combinations. She chose a combination and tore the combination sticker off. She put her purse in. For some reason I have my laptop in its bag. I feel the strap on my right shoulder. There is confusion here and I can't seem to figure out what I am doing. I notice poster on the wall and some kids playing near by. I see them in peripherals only. I slap the poster and it makes a realistic noise. I feel a hole in the wall behind it. I pull the green thumb tack and look. It looks like a little geocache hidden in the wall. I decide to leave it alone and replace the thumb tack. I walk into the dining area and find my mom and sis. Mom waves at me. I now have this giant white down jacket. I don't know were to put it. I start to just throw it on an end table but Mom points and says, "There is a place over there."

I turn around. I see my dead grandmother (nanny) standing with the crowd but facing me. I was so focused on putting my jacket up that I almost walked past her. What made me do a double take was the fact she was wearing a crazy Lacy bright white dress. She looks ghostly. I thought maybe she is a ghost.

I don't know when it dawned on me I was dreaming. There was no ah ha moment. No excitement. I was just shocked to see her standing there. I remembered the last lucid several years ago right after she and papa died. I got to say goodbye and it was a profound experience, real or not. So I take advantage of the moment. I slowly walk to her and hug her. I am shocked that I could physicaly feel pressure against me. I say, "Oh! Grandma, you are here." I kiss her on the mouth. Unusual but not sexual. Still hugging her I say, "I'm sorry you died."
Her reply was giggerish. I said, "what?" Gibberish. "What?" I speak louder this time. More gibberish but she seems like she is trying so hard. I got the general idea of her saying comforting things. Then it all fades to black.

When I find myself back in bed. I Don't move I don't open my eyes. I Don't even think. I just stay in a clear and relaxed meditative state. I feel a very slight twinge of SP. Then floating. I feel my right leg float up. I almost woke at this. I stay very calm. There is no excitement only observation and curiosity. I thought about my previous SP transitions. So I let my leg float. Then I visualize or imagine my right leg joining. I am nearly standing on my head in bed. There is no feeling of gravity. I think about the floor touching my feet. That seems to help. I feel my legs flip over the side of the bed. My head is still attached to the pillow and arms feel pinned. The moment my feet touch the floor I force myself stand up straight. Yes! I am happy that I transitioned. I realize FA was not an issue. I notice my eyes are still closed so I slowly open. No stop. I feel my real eyes slightly part and see unfocused ceiling of my room. I think, "Ok fine. I can just do this blind until I can see." I feel along the wall and open the door. And see the dining room. I guess forgetting about the vision problem made it go away. I see water dribbled in a trail from the kitchen through the dining room into living room. I wonder what the kids had done. I figure they must be up already. Then I realize it doesn't matter because I have dreaming. I had no real plan so I just walk outside naked. I enjoy the full unrestrained freedom of my LD and started running down my sidewalk. I feel a little modest now. I look down to see if I am really naked. I sure felt naked. I saw my bare skin but I thought I saw underwear. For some reason I had a huge pregnant belly like my wife. "Whatever". I feel my crotch and there is fabric. Also the whole time I have a piece of the comforter blanket from the bed around my neck and flowing behind me like a cap. I looked around briefly and was a little surprised how acturate my mind was being. The neighborhood looks almost perfect to RL but everything had a slight tinge of red color. I noticed a strange Doberman tied to a tree across the street. It was grey with glowing eyes. "Ah there's it is." I am happy to have some reasureance that it was a dream. I was starting to think I was going to have to apologize to the neighbors for "sleep walking" naked. I continue my run down the street as the world fades to black.

I think about trying deild but I was pleased with myself. I felt I passed a milestone with transitioning and was distracted by memory of my nanny.

Fragment
My unborn son. Wife holding him. Me starring at his face for the first time. He has his mother's eyes. Reddish hair. And my mouth and chin. I reach out to hold him full of pride and happiness.

I drank too much last night so this is all the dream I can recall. I guess I will WBTB here in a bit. I got to decide MILD or WILD.

It was like playing this strange video game were you run around collecting things. I was trying to figure out a puzzle when I hear a loud voice say, "There he is. I have found him. Kill him!" Then a hear the sound of a bunch of zombies moaning. I am so nervous I feel my entire body shaking. Not really scared though. It was like a video game. I almost run down some stairs then I run up stairs. There was some power ups and I needed to find a place to stand off. I was met by a hoard of zombies. I was overwhelmed and I woke up.

1:00AM sleep time 2hrs.

Something about a doing dishes, a gas station, a long familiar dream road. WBTB alarm. Looking at phone. Then strange indescribable optical illusions.

I wake up and remember not to move. I did move one foot before I caught myself. I try to DEILD. Evertime I get close my heart rate would go up and my breathing would quicken and totally ruin it. I have been unable to sleep since. I'm so fucking pissed. Maybe it was the Super B Complex vitamin I took? Hard to believe that would induce such insomnia.

I've been really lazy with my DJ lately. I guess I have been tired and busy. Some of these I barely remember. I am just going off notes from my phone app. I need to be more thorough tonight.

Wednesday 8.8.12 12:46AM
I am working as a contractor. I thinking about how to make more money. Pockets are for young men. (?) I pull out a Wiimote and Xbox controller.

Wednesday 8.8.12 6:25AM
I am Drew Carey. I accept an award for Jim Carey. I leave my RL house and get in my wife's car to go across the road to Jim Carey's house. This is my RL neighborhood. I See Jim in cotton pj pants and a sloppy tshirt on a couch though his window. Like I have telescopic vision. I think he sees me so I stop the car in the street and walk over to his mom's house to give her the award. All the time I hear audience laughter like this is so funny. I ring the door bell and a little old lady with white hair answers. I had her the award and tell her its for Jim Carey. She takes it and holds it smiling at me. I say it is a golden globe award. It looks like the boller hat statue from meet the Robinsons.

Thursday 8.9.12 1:29 AM
I purposely incubated the sword fighting in this dream as I was falling asleep at 9:30PM
I am sword fighting a fierce battle against hordes of enemies. I make my way to the king. Then I am faced with a shocking truth. I know him from my past. The things he says to me anger me and make me weak. I use a mind power and visualization (very abstract and hard to explain) to break the power of each sentence before it reaches me.

Thursday 8.9.12 6:13AM
These last 3 dreams are with in the 10 min between alarm snoozes. Interesting this happens a lot. I have been trying to use this to my advantage and maybe pull of a quick DEILD but I have been unsuccessful so far.
I am going to poop in a stall at work but the toilets are not lined up with the stalls and so I am crowded hard against the wall to just sit down. I look at the other stalls but they are all the same. I am disgusted but I pick one and go. Then I remember that I have strange bathroom dreams a lot and this is and unusual experience. I ask myself If I am dreaming So damned close to a DILD.but before I can really think about it some guy starts talking to me from the other stall. I try to ignore him and finish. I hear more ppl coming in and my stall door opens. I grab it and close it before anyone sees.

Thursday 8.9.12 6:28AM
My wife and are going to swim to Japan. Something about some strange creature hovering on a disc over the water. I jump off a balcony into the water and hold it. I use it to float as I swim on my back. I tell it that I am going to take it with me where it belongs. My wife and I swim together. Then I get to thinking about how this will never work. Japan is on the other side of the planet and we don't even have passports. I can't expect my pregnant wife to swim that far.


I am in a bass band. I have my old trombone from high school. My instructor, who looks like George Norry, tells me to play. It sounds horrible. I can't even get a solid note. I examine my trombone and sit down. I see it is in bad shape and I notice the spit valve is missing. I get up to tell him and every one starts playing jazzy music. I see an old friend from elementary school sitting and not knowing how to play. I see my instructor and walk to him but then he starts singing some Sinatra like song. I get irritated.

I don't know why I dreamed of Hasslehoff but its kinda funny. Some details left out for time sake.

Swimming at David Hasselhoffs house. Find something strange. Like a hidden compartment in the bottom. I dive several times holding breath. Someone talks too much and asks David about it. David freaks out that we find it. He tells us he has to kill us now. David shoots. I swim away. I find Beach and climb a ladder up a concrete thing. His girlfriend Cindy come to stop me. Comes but is scared. Shot her? She falls into the water. Her friend comes. I say I'll punch you in the face. Push her down a sandy hill out of sight. I fall on top of her and we wrestle. I see the look on her face. Oh you like it. She smiles. We embrace. I hear my wife's giggle. It is her now. It was all a scheme to be together. Wake up.

A few other fragments. Again I'm leaving detail out for time sake. These other dreams are lacking also because I was trying WILD and DEILD so I didn't record them like usual.

Lying I'm bed waiting in a dorm. Waiting to see my wife. We are not married. See passes by and says hi. We hug and don't wanna part. Alarm. I hid. I see Justin

At her desk. Radios malfunction. I unplug two. Still hear music. Find third. Turn it off. Teacher annoyed. I drive around the classroom in my car and see this desk is the only spot.

Zombie attacking two decaptiated zombie head. Biting ear. Oh that hurts! Help me!

Fragment. I am explaining LD to someone and they keep referring to Inception. I get mad because they miss the point entirely.