Xanous' Dream Journal

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Nothing to eat after 6PM Actually I totally skipped dinner. I wasn't hungry. We had a late lunch.
Bedtime 10:30PM
300mg B6, 3MG Melatonin
SSILD at beginning

#90 The White Void 11:30PM

I did SSILD in rapid cycles and eventually got to where I would either notice all 3 at once or hold sight while cycling sound and touch. I probably did this longer than I should have. I eventually rolled over to my right side. I would guess it was 30 to 40 minutes. Then still noticing HI I counted 1-10 until...

I feel SP Vibrations. My thought was that it was too early to have a dream so I didn't do my normal getting out my body routine. I just relaxed and waited.

I find myself in a pure white void. I hear in my mind but almost spoken to me at the same time, "Ancient Indian spiritual wisdom." I feel like I am a different person. I am lucid but I don't think of myself as I am in real life or this life. I think I am a tribal shaman.

SP takes me again. I think I am on my back. Again, I wait and enter the white void. I DEILD chain 3 or 4 times. On the last one I look hard into the white void hoping for a dream or image to appear. I eventually wake up.

I have a hard time going back to sleep after that.

Vivid Sex 1:48AM

I have very long detailed and vivid sex with my wife multiple times. At some point another woman joins but I motion for her to leave. There are impossible positions and distortions. I see the woman yell at a kid in the distance. I wake up and fail DEILD.

I remember this dream like it really happened.

Dentist 4:24 AM

I am at the dentist office. They keep saying my name wrong. At one point they call me by my mothers maiden name. I just go along with it. I get a huge run around. Eventually the dentist comes and I think I finally can get my cleaning done. He asks me my last name and has to fix it in the system while I go to another waiting room. It's in a different building and the interior is dirty and dilapidated. I wake up and try DEILD

WBTB a few minutes. Bathroom water.
additional 300MG B6
SSILD to WILD

I can't relax my mind enough to WILD I start to think the extra B6 was a mistake. The furnace is set too high. I am hot. I try to ignore it but I end up having to get up and turn the temp down. I have spent too long on this and I decide to give up and sleep normal.

Dream WBTB 5:46AM

I am doing a WBTB in the middle of the night but I am in the house that I lived in Luling, Texas. I am making a sandwhich or something. Really I'm just lost in thought and mucking about. I see the living room light is on and I assume that my dad left it on.

The baby woke up for a bottle. I tried to go back to sleep with him for a bit but I could not relax enough and he was squirmy fussy.

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Some Alcohol

Bedtime midnight-ish - Wife, her mom and sister were up making Halloween costumes for the kids. I got cranky tired and took Riley to bed with me.

To tired for inductions
WBTB 4:00AM alarm too tired to even get up to pee.

I wanted to sleep later but after a 7AM feeding he snoozed and I sort of fell into a half LD half daydream with lots of really strong HI. I can't say for sure if I was actually asleep but time seemed to pass quickly. I was slightly uncomfortable the way he was snuggled against me. I didn't dare move him. I have been really tired and 6-8 hrs sleep is no good for a person that requires 10. I just enjoyed him letting me lay in bed a little longer. It was nice bonding time nevertheless.


She Doesn't Trust You - 5:52AM

This dream was way longer but I only remember the last bit. I am in a cow pasture and there are two unpainted barns. Cows are all around and I am moving living room furniture from the right one to the left one. There is mud in the barns and I am stepping in it but I see I am wearing rubber boots so I don't mind. I see a rainy misty green countryside out side. I have a folding chair in each hand. They are black metal. The cows freak out and get scared of them. They act skittish like my cats do and some are small like dogs. One cow gets its head caught in a folding chair and trashes about to get free. I make it to the other barn. There are couches, recliners, other folding chairs, and an old cabinet style TV. I am moving furniture around and I keep seeing my deceased grandfather as a reflection in the TV glass. I make a mental note to investigate when I am done. I see and old black leather recliner. I think I ruined it by putting it in a barn. I look closer and see that it is cracked and the color is worn in places. It was trash already. I make a final adjustment and look at the TV. Pawpaws reflection is sitting down in the chair. I am partial lucid here as I dream of the dead a lot but it feels so natural that I don't totally get it. I look at him and ask him, "Where is Nanny?"
His simply says, "She don't trust you yet."
"But...Why?"
He is looking in the distance and I get the feeling that he can see her and hear her. He says to me, "Because."
Then the world folds in on its self and I totally and consciously experience every detail of waking from a dream. I was a very odd feeling and one that would be hard to describe. I thought to DEILD but I had to pee really bad and the clock was 8 min away from my wife's wake up time so it was pointless to try.

This is odd because the last time I remember her in my dream I became lucid. See: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/xano...d-deild-37105/ And a brief NLD:

Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full non lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I am not sure if I have seen her since my son was born. That's some Goddamned crazy shit!

The Voice in the void

Later I am in strong HI I manipulate and interact with it hoping to actively WILD. It feels like a LD but I feel my body in bed still. I thin about the past dream and want answers. I see my grandfather and ask him why again. I can't remember what he said to me but it wasn't an answer. So I ask, "Will you be my dream guide? I would be nice to have a relationship with you and be something we never could have when you were alive." I think about how religious he was.
I don't really see anything now. I an in a black void. I hear a voice reply, "Yes, I will be your dream guide." The voice sounds flat and emotionless. I does not sound like my grandfather did. I ask to be clear, "Will you be my dream guide?"
The same voice, "Yes."
"You are not my pawpaw are you?"
"No." Now the voice sounds deep and sort of like a high class English man.
"Who are you?" He replies but it gets garbbled. I ask a second time.
"Edward Godrich the second."
"OK will YOU be my dream guide?"
"I told you yes."
"OK when?"
"When you let yourself go in a dream, I will be there."

There was more of the conversation but I can't remember it all.
My son squirms and wakes me out of my trance.

That wasnt the type of LD I wanted but both the NLD and the interaction later was fun as hell. I don't really know what to make of it. I suppose it's all just in my head but I hope Mr. Godrich helps me out tonight!

Lucid?
I remember a false awakening early in the night. I said, "Now that's how you lucid dream." I remember wanting to record in my DJ. I can't for the life of me remember the rest of it.

Romney
I remember walking a circle around Mit Romney. I was trying to determine something.

Five Thirty Room (a dream in-between morning alarm snoozes)
I am at work. There are some windows popping up. L, my old lead who is long ago retired told me to go with E, my current lead, to the 530 and see what she needs to order. There is no 530 room in real life and the building looks like the back rooms of Walmart when I worked there long ago. I look around and see that someone straighten up the room but there is still random junk around. I see there is a very little yellow wrap. I suggest we order that. We chit chat and at some point E says he would rather be in the 330 room. (3:30 is time to go home)

Semi-lucid semi-precog
I laid back down between alarms again. I wondered if there was more soap under the sink for my shower. I entered strong HI and was sort of lucid were I look under the sink and saw 4 bars of soap. I noticed something else under there that was baffling and odd. The alarm went off before I was able to investigate.

There were in fact 2 bars of soap when I got up.

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Haunting
My wife I drive to a fenced in building with white chat all around. I know it is a radio station and we know the guy doing the program. we go in but there are several people working in like a warehouse. I don't see our friend but there is a guy working on a dryer. He is vacuuming bobby pins out with a shopvac. Stop and look around to take in the surroundings.

I turn around and I am in this house. It is haunted. There are inflatable toys attacking me. I think that if this was dream I would probably bite it and eat it. So I pick up a ball that looks like a zombie head and bite it and thread it to pieces. It feels like taffy. I go to attack the others.

WBTB Timer Method
Voting first 20min timer
I am at work and we are voting. We have to take a test before we get our ballots. I look at mine. It says Chemistry. I try to read the first question but I can't focus to make sense of it. The new lady is done already. I feel like an idiot. I just can't focus to answer a question. Is this what ADD is?
My supervisor comes to help me but is just talking a bunch of gibberish. She puts a cheat sheet next to me. I don't want it. I just want her to go away. I wake up to the alarm, I lie still and get a few seconds SP then wide awake.

I almost had it there. Things I did wrong: I only was able to get 3hrs sleep before WBTB. I was tired and didn't do a proper WBTB. I only had a 6 hour window. If I am able to have more time, the timer method may work well.

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WBTB WILD-fail B6 200MG

Weak DILD 6:27 AM

I am at the hospital after my son was born. I am in a waiting room. There are people around I ask a man some questions and then the falls asleep. I push the man on the floor and say, "That's what you get for falling asleep during an interview." My son got knocked out of my wife's arms when I did that and falls on the floor. I pick him up. He is swaddled and I say, "Look hes ok." For some reason he looks like a plastic doll.

Now I am laying on a bed. I tell a nurse that my wife and son went home but I wanted to nap for I leave. The bed is next to a nurses station. I try to sleep but get interrupted constantly. There was something about a shirt. And a few other annoyances. I can't remember.

I see Ann Perkins from Parks and Recreation. She is giving me the eye like she wants me. Then I see Andy Dwyer mouth the words "Go talk to her."
I couldn't be bothered at the moment. All I knew was that I was supposed to be sleeping. I close my eyes and I hear a voice say, "He's out of touch with reality. His mind is always consumed with reality testing to the point that he doesn't really live his life." I am focused on lying still. I want to say that noting could be farther from the truth.

Now I am in the drive way of my house. I have the car door open getting my son out. My wife is all upset and worried about him. Then something clicks and I remember that I was trying to WILD. I tell my wife, "It doesn't matter." But I am saying it to myself as well. She fades to the background and I feel half awake and half asleep. I pause thinking. I see a vague impression of my son swaddled. I think I should try to stabilize but at the same time I don't believe I can. I try anyway. I lay myself over him. It's all I could think of at the moment. He dissolves into me. And I fall unconscious.


NLDs short version

The power goes out but the TV is on. I see fireworks on TV but the same ones outside. It was suppsed to be in CJ but its my neighborhood. I feel confused about that. We go outside to see more but it stops.

I have Alice Cooper as my guitar teacher but the guitar looks like a rock band guitar painted black with a ton of buttons. I jam out on it to some Alice Cooper type rock. I have no idea what I am doing but it sounds amazing. I feel dissatisfied and grab a real acoustic guitar and see the floor is disgusting rotted with tons of spiders poring out. I think I should mix up some more bug spray and then fix the floor.

At my exes house. She wants me to take a picture of her friend starting her car. I can't make the camera work. It is the strangest camera ever. Tons of buttons. A few time I have it pointed backwards. I feel like an idiot. I give up and tell the girls it is time to go. D starts crying and a strange liquid flows down her.

I was very dissatisfied with that lucid. I would have had a better chance but we got up at 6:30 to go to the parade. I tried to take a lucid nap and WILD a little after two. I woke twice after each hour and could not remember a thing. Tonight WBTB.

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1 Pint Fosters, 200MG B6, 3x 595mg Potassium

Bedtime: 9:15PM

Fell asleep practicing SSILD

Alien Volcano 10:51
I am in an inactive volcano with my daughters. I get the feeling that it is Mercury. We are on the dark side and there is a layer of ice above us. I break it open and set a detonator to blow it up. We get inside a hot air balloon and it doesn't rise high enough. I push a button on a necklace around my neck. I tell my ex something about the girls being late. Her reply makes no sense. We climb out of the balloon and are at the mall. They want to go see a movie.

Fight With Sister 2:24AM

I am trying to shave in the bathroom and N. makes a rude comment. We blow up at each other and say awful things. A lot of past hurts and grievances get brought up. I continue to shave. I see my hair is so long its on my mustache. I start to shave it but look closer. Now it is just in my eyes. I think oh yeah. I wanted to grow my hair out. I examine it closer and notice every detail. I think about my wife and how we spent the night apart. I miss her and want to see her.

WBTB 2:30AM - 3:00AM 200MG B6

Uncomfortable move to recliner.

SSILD I had some trouble sleeping at some point and went to counting mantra
LJS 4:10AM NLD to DEILD

I am back at my first job Long John Silvers. I am opening and start to gather up food and supplies to cook. My old bosses S and D are there. They are already cooking a large order. I go to some upstairs to get some more fish. I am in a big room and see a lady from the grocery store. For some reason I get naked but cover myself with a jacket. Then I walk to her and ask for oral sex. I purposely control her answer with my mind like some jedi mind trick. We say Yes together. Before we do anything I realize what I am doing and stop. I make myself wake up.

I try really hard not to do this in dreams. Especially lucid. I think it is a waste of time and not fair to my wife. I don't move but recall the dream. Then I really want to be lucid so I try DEILD.

I see F from work and he has a green laser pointer. He puts it on the wall and makes little circles. As soon as I see this I feel vibrations. This is odd because I went straight to a lucid dream but the SP feeling comes after the dream starts. Plus this time the vibrations are totally different. They swirl in my body in time with the laser pointer. Its like my chest is the center and the vibrations are spinning from the point like a ball on a string. I feel it in my head, then my right arm, then my legs, then my left arm, back to my head. I does this extremely fast. It startles me and I get excited and wake up

SSILD with counting to DILD At Work 5:00AM ish

This dream is very dark like poor lighting and the colors are very dull. I am at work and I have my laptop. I am typing out a long post on dream views. I don't know what it said. S. from work is next to me. We are leaning on the long table and I am using it to hold my laptop. He doesn't say anything but is just looking over my shoulder. J. the maintenance man comes by and messes with the outlet. He says he needs to unplug things for a minute. I tell him not to unplug my laptop. He say nothing so I try to hurry and finish my post. Just before I can click "post now" My screen goes black. I say to S, "I told him not to unplug my laptop." I put my head down in disgust. Then I hear some noise like a TV. I look as S he has has a knowing, smiling expression on his face. I look at the laptop and some video is playing. I think about this for a second and I become lucid. I feel a little like a might be wrong but I point a finger in the air and say, "You know what I thing we are dreaming. Watch this." I put the same finger and push it into the laptop screen. The screen is off now. It sinks in a lot and feels and looks very rubbery. The suddenly the dream fades.

I lie still for DEILD. I feel SP but I get very excited again. I try to fight it but then I ignore it and focus on taking deep breaths. I quickly give up and decide I lost it. But at that point I feel my left hand float straight up. Then, the SP stops. I feel like I am laying there and really but my hand up in my sleep. I fell into a non lucid dream that I can't really remember.

It was some time later that I woke up. I realized I must have had a false awakening. I reasoned that my body cant move in SP. I should have caught on to that. I should remember that any time there is SP do a RC afterwards even if I am sure that I failed. You never know.

Wake up time 6:00AM

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Bedtime 11:30PM

4 16oz Coors Light over 5hr period, 3x 595mg potassium gluconate, 200mg B6

WBTB additional B6 200mg WILD with MILD mantra "Look at the sky" and counting

WBTB time 4:00am-4:30am I didn't technically stay but a few minutes but I had a hard time being awake enough to focus. I got really uncomfortable so I moved to the recliner after 30min. It took a few more minutes to get comfortable on the recliner. I eventually forced myself to lay still.

Sky Painting
I find myself in a small room sitting in what feels like a folding chair at a small table. I am painting a picture with professional water colors. I remember I made blotches of dark blue and added blotches of black. For some reason my black was applied with my operator stamp from work. I add some crimson and other light hues. The paint was undiluted so I loaded a larger brush with water only and swiped the whole painting. It blended into an abstract but beautiful early dawn sunrise. Then the water turned into a baby blue color and everything got runny. I tried blowing on it to dry it up an the baby blue only moved and the color underneath was unchanged. I messed with this for a bit.

Then it dawns on me that I am painting the sky. I remember about the sky and that I was trying to WILD. I fall backward in my chair in to an abyss. I hold on the the small canvass for stability but it is of no use. I get a flash of other people posting thier versions of my painting on the forum. Some just added an overlay of a bright object like a building other were abstract. Then I become engulfed in darkness. I stop fighting and relax. I let whatever wants to happen happen. This was the perfect mindset for DEILD.

I lie still for DIELD. I almost immediately feel vibrations. This time I am completely calm.I even think to check myself. Heart rate and breathing feel relaxed and normal. I am pleased. Before the vibrations end I begin the familiar process of imagining my feet connecting to the floor. It takes a few tries but I finally feel grounded. I am now standing in the living room. It is really dark. Just as dark as it is in real life.I think about how I want to make black fire. I don't know how but I look at my hand and try to visualize. Nothing. I feel the dream fading so I stop and look around.

I see the mirror in the room and jump on the couch to get up close. I look at myself and can faintly see my left eye is brown and my right eye is green I am really annoyed that it is dark. I say out loud, "I need some light." My voice sounds weak and raspy. I say it louder, "Light please." Still nothing. I go float up to the ceiling fan. I still remember the chain broke yesterday so I reach up close and pull it. The light doesn't work but the fans are spinning. I say, "Fuck it." and head out the front door.

I am on my front porch and floating. I feel the wind shifting me slightly. It is really dark outside too. I can see a few trees and decide to try some advanced flying. I think about Robert Wagonners book. He says to focus on a place and your dream body will fly to it. So, I look at the top of a very tall pine tree. I zoom toward it super fast. The strange thing is I notice that even though I flew fast, the transition was jerky and not smooth like a badly encoded video file. Maybe my brains computer couldn't render that fast. HA! I see another tree even taller and I fly the same way. Super fast with the jerkiness.

Now I am grasping the very tip of the taller tree. I look around and try using expectation to create some light. I tell myself that the sun should be coming up now. I look to the east and see the sun beginning to rise like predawn twilight. I smile because it looks like my painting. I think that is good but its still too dark. I am out of ideas now. I feel the dream fading. I learned from the NLD just before, that I should just relax and let it fade away and get ready for DEILD.

I feel like I am in a black void so I rub my hands together to stabilize. I partially open one eye and can see as if I am back in my bedroom. I see my hands rubbing together and almost dismiss it as a real awakening. I think I am in bed next to my wife but on the wrong side. I almost get up but pause. I think no I will wait and see. This might still be a dream. I think I must have really moved my leg because with that thought I really woke up.

WBTB 5:00AM-7:40AM

WBTB WILD with sky mantra and counting. The same as previous dream

Black Fire Fail
It take some time to get comfortable and relaxed. About 20 min. I am doing the dive when my wife wakes up and snuggles with me. I tell her I just got back to sleep since Riley woke up. She rolls back over. I am comfortable and let my awareness become a dim thing while counting 1 sky to 10 sky and repeat until I lose track. Each round of 10 I feel myself getting more and more relaxed. I think of it as very old self hypnosis technique I was doing several years ago. It's still effective.

After 20 min I see SP vibrations. Again I visualize and imagine tactile sensations of my feet connecting to the floor. This time it was not instant. I had to feel my feet walking and stomping before I felt out of my body. Then it fades and I relax. I get a crazy high speed spinning sensation and go back into sp. I remember to relax. I try to get up again. I really struggle to get up and I start to get annoyed. This time I roll fast to the right. I am now face down on the floor with my legs stuck in the bed like my body is stretched. I feel stuck. I remember the last time I did this I felt the crazy cold thing that became a lucid nightmare. I get a crazy idea and try to make it happen again. I feel like there is something under the bed. I smile and shove my hand under. It feels blocked like there is stuff under the bed but its clear in real life. I go in to a very convincing FA. I can hear loud country music. I think its some sort of phone alarm. I feel like I am awake in my bed. I start to turn to my wife to tell her to turn it off. I am very annoyed. Then I remeber to watch for FAs. I think about and I realize there would probably not be country music playing next to me. I stop myself and before I even look at her I realize it is a dream. This time I am well into a dream and I quickly get out if bed. I feel weak and drunk. I stumble out if the room. There is way more like in the living room this time. I smile at that. I think its funny how I know the sun is up now and my subC goes with it. I still want to create fire in my hands. I concentrate. I see a breif flicker of normal fire but when I try to go into black it fades. Now, I can't see the fire but I see the room glow. I lose focus. I wake up for real. I look at my wife and smile. She is awake on her phone and looks at me like I am crazy. The clock says 8:40

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Alcohol before bed

Bed time 12:30Am

Angry Father DILD 8:00AM

It's strange but I am at my ex-in-laws house. It's just me and my parents. I am playing with a new phone. It looks like a Note or galaxy SIII. My dad is ranting and raving about how something was evil and of the devil. I was getting really annoyed listening to him so I start to make fun of him. I tell him things like how I love mammon and I worship the devil. I show him little demon animations on my phone. It was straight sarcasm.

Then for no real reason my emotions turn into near hatred. I look up from the phone and I see him walking into the living room. I say, "I am going to punch you in the face!" He passes the ceiling fan and I can see the light shine through his head.

Then it dawns on me. The emotion and the light. All my anger fades instantly. I get overly excited and say, "WE ARE DREAMING!" He just looks at my funny. Then everything gets white washed with a bright light. I think I am waking up. I don't realize that fading to black is waking but the fading to white is something else. I sort of panic and think about the task I wanted to do. I try to visualize but I get nothing. I remember CanisLucidus and how he reentered by saying I am dreaming. It's all I can think of so I say, "I am dreaming." a several times. But then I give up way too easy.

I should always always always remember DEILD especially when the LD is so short. I guess I was taken by surprise in this dream. I am usually so involved with the emotion that I don't become lucid. Thanks, CanisLucidus for pointing out that strong emotion is a dream sign!

I didn't wake up after all. After the white goes away I find myself back in the dream non-lucid. I am sitting in the same living room playing with the phone again. I am scrolling though a bunch of text that I can't focus on. I click a link and see a picture of Howard Stern with puffed out lips hold a microphone. He is next to either some woman or it was Steven Tyler with puffed out lips holding a fake dick. I laugh at this and shake my head. All the time Spencer from work is talking to someone in the room. I never look up to see and I don't know what he is saying.

"Punch you in the face" I think this is the 3rd or 4th time this month that has been said in a dream.

Fragment
I remember being at Wal-Mart. I lay down in shopping cart and try to sleep.


New dream signs: Strong Emotion, Trying to sleep, "Punch you in the face".

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MILD/ DEILD Mantra
1MG Melatonin
Sleep time around 10PM

Old Grey Mare

I am driving following my mom in her car. We come to a stop and her car dissapears. There is a barbed wire fence in front of me. I am talking to my brother on the phone. I tell him I lost her. I said, "You know how sometimes you drive your car into a barbed wire fence and then it messes up and your car disappears? Yeah, that happened to mom." My brother just says, "Yeah."

I am out of my car now looking in the woods beyond the fence. I expect her to return soon. I see horses out there and rocky Ozark mountain cliffs. I see a phantom like horse trot by. I think "ghost horse." I see Kathy from work next to me. She says, "Why don't you just call out to her?" But I don't. I see a really small grey mare. I think, "Old Grey Mare." I am so fascinated with the horses. I feel as if I am missing something when I wake up.
Try DEILD after this dream. Mild vibes. Had to pee. I didn't recall this dream untill I was out of bed.

WBTB WILD @ 3AM

I really wanted to WILD. I got some funny sensations and mild vibes but I really could not stay comfortable. Then my mind kept racing a lot. I kept hearing some kind of noise it sounded like from the bathroom. I got up to check but I could not figure it out. I RCd several times. I finally went to the recliner in the living room. I almost got in to the zone when I heard the noises louder and louder. Then yelling. So I RC and look outside. The neighbors apparently hosted a party and there was a drunken fight next to my wifes car. Plus a white SUV was trying to leave. Being extremely pissed that they ruined my WILD I called the cops on them. The SUV left but the 911 lady they had them pulled over before I hung up. HAHAHAHAH DONT MESS WITH MY SLEEP!

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Bed 10:15. 1MG MELATONIN, VILD for 15 minutes. My mind ends up wandering but it is on what I want to do in next lucid so Im ok with it. I have heavy HI. Then I realize how long it has been and rollover. I don't feel sleepy so I meditate and mantra "I will question reality". I am asleep in a minute or two

Fart Spray Statues 1:43AM

I some smelly arisol like fart spray. I am in a room full of statues and I go around spray each one in the face. They all start puking from the smell. I laugh hysterically. I see some strange "Were the Wild Things Are" type monsters eating the puke. Then I have a plate full of rainbow colored Oreos. The Oreos are portioned way down in to fourth cookies. I have two fourths. I take a bite and they taste really sweet.

That Same Baseball Field 2:35AM

I am at a baseball field that I have dreamed of several times before. It is a small field but there is always this old guy that likes to play there. He is so good that no one can beat him. He pitches to me and I hit it out of the park. He goes and retrieves the ball for me. He hands it to me. I see I hit the cover off. Whats left looks like a skinned turnip with cuts and nicks in it. I assume it hit something outside the fence.

I start to think of the Sandlot. When that one kid hit the cover off. There are several of the characters around me now and we talk about the time he hit the cover off. I see a sheetrock wall with holes in it from baseballs. I hear the kids say, "Woooowwww!


I get up to pee. Quick VILD before falling asleep

Fragment - Jeopardy 4:00am
I remember seeing the set from Jeopardy. I am a contestant.

Half naked bike ride 4:00AM

I go on a rather long bike ride but notice I am wearing flip flops and boxer shorts. I am mildly surprised but don't pay it much attention. I think I have an extra hour to ride because instead of having to be at work at 7 I have to be at school at 8. I ride though what looks like an old childhood neighborhood. I jump off a large curb.

WBTB - 1TBS PB and 200mg B6. VILD

Bladder is a dick 5:30AM Vivid and lengthy

I am in a twin bed. I have some drawing paper in my lap. Someone starts drawing on it. It begins to look like a really cool version of my Arilou avatar. I get excited and look over at him. I expect to see LinkZelda but he looks like Bladder. I say, "Oh wow you are a dream Views member and you live in Joplin. That's so cool" I ask him why I never new before but he says he and his friends didn't want me to know. I try to be friends with him. But he is not interested. I try making conversation but he looks at me odd and continues to draw. I say in a girly voice, "I just want to chaaaatt." Then in my normal voice, "Just kidding."

He done drawing and gets up. He gives me $2 and then askes if he can borrow $1.50. Im like, "ok whatever." Then I ask him for the drawing. He hesitates and starts acting shady. He changes the suject multiple times. I follow him into a hallway and he meets with a buddy. I get in his face and just look at him. I tell him to give me my ex-wifes wedding ring back. (I don't even have it in RL) It worth money and he has it.

I pull out my phone to take a picture of him so that I can tell the cops. I tell him what I am doing. Of course my phone is not working right (Dream sign). I look up and he is running away.

I chase after him outside. It is raining heavily. We splash though the water and I can hear it clearly. Then he runs to a really small drainage ditch and disappears in the pipe. It is maybe 6inches diameter. I get confused and look for him a ways down. I turn around and see another man running out the other end. He sees me and looks scared and runs back in. I know this isn't the same guy. I follow and stop at the pipe. Nothing happens. Then I think if I can run like I am running past it then I will enter. It works. And am in awe that I found this. I am in the pipe but it is a dead end. There are side tunnels but they are clogged with mud. I think maybe I should try entering where bladder entered but I am losing interest. I walk out of the pipe and wake up.

Half naked at work 6:00AM

I am at work and realize I am wearing just shoes and some basketball shorts. I am outside at the picnic tables. I feel really embarrassed. I walk to my locker. I see Jamie drive by and look at me. For some reason my locker is outside. I open it and put a hoodie. I feel stupid for forgetting my shirt. I keep saying, "So stupid."

At some point I woke up and had a sudden urge to try DEILD. I had very mild vibrations and then it went away. I should have done an RC but I was sleepy

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Religious Rage

I am a teenager again. I can't remember it all but there was some sort of scandal in the church. Some sort of bigotry and just a bunch of awful stuff.

I am storming through the building. I see a lady that looks like Umbridge from Harry Potter. I hear her calling some one a prostitue. I am so fed up with this lady. I turn around and yell at her. I say, "GUESS WHAT? JESUS LOVES THE PROSTITUTE! JESUS LOVES THE BLACK PEOPLE! JESUS LOVES THE HOMOSEXUALS! AND JESUS LOVES EVEN YOU! SO GET OVER IT AND STOP BEING A BIGOT!

I walk away. I see my dad as the pastor. He is walking up to the front in the sanctuary. The pews are full and everyone is happy and cheering. I see them throw trash everywhere and going wild. I continue to storm by and I scream at them. "YOU ALL SUCK!"

I round a corner and I see my plant manager from real life. I looks at me and says, "If your mom would let me I would come over there and whip you little ass." I flip him off and go up some stairs.

I am in a bedroom. I know it is mine although is like nothing from my real life. For some reason I realize I am completely wet. I take my shoes off and open a window. The window does not slide up and down but it is 3 panels and tilt out. It is raining. I place my shoes on the roof to eventually dry out. I see a car pass on a road to my left. I only see this in peripheral vision but I hear it clearly. The sound of traffic on a wet road.

I begin to think about how I just flipped off my plant manager off. I don't understand why I lost my temper. I thought about how I should have tempered my anger because he had nothing to do with any of it.

I am Magic

I am running across from something. I cross a ferry. I see a light pass in the woods. It goes around. I only crossed a small pond. I begin to be surrounded by LOTR style orcs. I stop. I tell whom ever I am with, "Let them come." I feel a snarl on my face. I shout, "LET THEM COME!"

Now I am completely surrounded. They do not attack. They look confused by my posture and fearlessness. Then like a silent super nova, I emit a blindingly bright light. It sends a massive shock wave for miles. I watch from a birds eye view as hundreds of orcs fall over dead. Then I see myself in third person. I am wearing a white robe. I watch as my body collapses to the ground from exhaustion.

Techniques/Aids: None. I tried WBTB but I was so tired that I didn't give much effort to VILD. I failed DEILD losing 1 dream recall. I tried to WILD late in the morning but I was too awake by then.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

I forgot to add one. I remembered this on the way to work.

Frank at work clock in. Mold shop. Tells me how to cut peek braid and then mold over the edge. He calls the peek plastic. Thought I was a few min late when I clock in on the job number. We talk about how Steve will fix the time in the system. Then I rember clicking and say nevermind I did clock in.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

I had multiple mirco awakenings last night. So many that I was just too lazy to record much. Its a shame I didn't even write down my LD so I forget a large part. I hope the rest comes to me during the day.

DILD? TOTM fail
Something triggered lucidity. I am assuming it was DILD I remember trying to stabilize a lot in a neighborhood. Something about houses. I was on the ground feeling the grass and rubbing my hands on the grass. I really wanted to feel the texture and hear the sound. I remember trying so hard to focus and gain clarity. *memory gap* Now I remember I had my hands under my jawline. I was outside and it was sunny. I remembered that someone on here looked at their shadow. So I turned until I saw my shadow on a concrete wall. (seeing my shadow in a dream is a first) It looked normal and I had my hands were I expected. I started pulling but my head would not give. It felt as solid as real life. I guess I didn't put enough prep work into it. Then I destabilized really fast and before I could do anything about it I woke up. I think I tried to DEILD but failed. That must be why I forgot to record it.

Fragments
My wife and I are getting married (again?) We want a really small wedding. I am talking to my dad about performing it this time.

There was something about being on the DJ forum. At each post my spirit somehow when to a physical place.

VILD before and WBTB. Failed DEILD twice. Had a small amount of alcohol in my system.

Fragment - Snake
I feel like someone else. I feel snake around my troat.

Fragment - Flagg
Had a long segment of no recall. I had the thought that The Wizard Flagg from Stephen King's books was stealing my dreams.

DILD (brief) - Tire Change
I am changing a tire on a large red pick-up. Tire sizes are all crazy but my ex-wifes brother and father keep telling me its ok. The hydraulic jack doesn't work right. It keeps letting the truck fall. I think I got it working right but the truck falls on me and I get crushed. It doesn't hurt and I don't panic. My movement is restritced and I force myself nit to feel claustrophobia. I am able to calmly get the truck back up. I had to tighten the jack release. I try putting a jack stand under the truck but it sinks in to the ground. Then I use some type of wire attached under the truck to the Jack. The angle is all wrong and i have the jack a good 10 feet away. This is so strange that I realize I an dreaming. I say to myself this must be a dream but I don't follow though with it. I feel busy and don't want interruptions. Someone talks to me and I fall non lucid. There is a third set of solid rubber tires like on a shopping cart. I am trying to figure it out when the dream changes.

Now its an episode of Glee and they are giving a guy money. To men are conversing at a desk. He looks like the main guy from Psych. They want him to drive the same truck and will pay him. They want him to look for that blonde girl from Glee. I don't know here name I hate that show. He says, Ok but I might have a bad day. They agree to pay him extra for gas money. The other guy pumps air with a bicycle pump and it looks like he is jacking off. He begins to comicaly moan and make faces. The view changes to a digital map of San Francisco. I see like a GSP trail of the truck and at different points there is a symbol that looks like a stack of cash. I hear a "cha-ching" sound at each one. Then I see large white bold letters over lay the image. It reads "COLD HARD CASH"

Family Visit - VILD effect almost DILD
I walk into my bedroom and I see my wife's cousin and her family and my brother-in-law. My wifes cousin looks into the bathroom with an devious expression. I peek in there and I see my sister-in-law sitting low in the bathtub. Thankfully all I can see is her head with a towel wrapped around her hair. The dream gets fuzzy. I lay down next to my wife on the bed and just chill with everyone. I see marbles everywhere. A marble rolls off the night table and I kick it. I land on my wife has a large pile of marbles on her. My dead grandpa is sitting in a recliner. He says something about the marbles. get up and look at some marbles on the floor past the recliner. I find some are misshapen. They are orange and yellow swirls on them. I tell him someone messed up in the factory. He says, Call them 'joys'." I find large ones that are more like large broken marble chunks. They have some comics pasted on it. Something about the way I was studying the marbles made me think of lucidity. Suddenly I want to change my clothes but no one will leave the room. So I try to sleep in my clothes. I really want to try to WILD. I close my eyes and slowly start to feel like a weird SP. My hands and arms twitch. Then it starts with my whole body. I decide to get up because I get embarrassed thinking that everyone with watching this happen. I tell my wife we are not going to church today. She argues and I wake up.

VILD

VILD is having and effect on my dreaming. The first part is blank but I remember walking into my bedroom and seeing many family mostly my wife's side. They were all there but didn't give me a lucid party. My dead grandfather was there as well but I didn't DILD. I later wanted to sleep and tried to WILD in the dream and had really odd SP. It felt like my whole body was jerking and twitching. I got up because I thought everyone could see me and I was embarrassed.

Attention focus

I DILD but let it go because I was so focused on a task. In waking life I hate interruptions so it carried over in my dream. I should work on this in waking life. Perhaps interprions can be useful.

I am in an room with Snoop Dogg and Jana from work and CanisLucidus. Its really vauge here but I guess we are partying or something. Snoop is really depressed and wasted. I say something about I can't believe this is Snoop Dogg. CanisLucidus says, "I thought he was just anotha unemployed brotha." I didn't know what that was supposed to mean so I just ignored him.

I sit down on some bench next to Snoop. He looks old and dirty and really drugged out. I try to go to sleep but. He puts his hand up my shorts and starts caressing my leg. I freeze in fear for a split second and then I bail.

I walk out the room and now I am in an airport. I think about trying to sleep in the public bathroom but sleeping on a toilet is just not my idea of fun. I hear music. Poe's Trigger Happy Jack is playing. ♫"You can't talk to a psycho like a normal human being."♫

I decide to just leave. I open up a locker. It looks like my locker from work. I pull all kinds of random shit out of it. Stuff that I don't even want. It would take to long to describe it all. I try to think about where I am going to go. I really have no idea.

Then the dream shifts. Instead of grabbing stuff out of my locker I am pulling electronics from an entertainment center. A man and a woman is telling their kid that are moving today. I hear someone protest how it was unfair to not even have warning.