memorable

pre-bed 9:00PM
2000MG Fish oil - (some posts suggest better dreaming)
100MG 5-HTP
Bed 10:00PM
WBTB alarm 2:30AM but I woke naturally at 2:19AM
2ish MG Galantamine (poured half capsule out on a dish and just licked it off. )
250MG Choline
600MG GPC
0.5MG Melatonin

INSOMNIA!

+1MG Melatonin at 3:00AM
+2MG Melatonin at 3:30AM

Dosed off a bit brief DILD that I can't now remember. It was a crap dream anyway.
Short WILD with vivid Rainbow colored static and geometric shapes. I haven't tripped that hard since High School!

Finally fell asleep
I woke up about 5:30AM from a NON-lucid. Something about me and another man playing with our sons. We have Lord of the Rings action figures and bicycles. Aragorn against a goblin, orcs, some shrimp like creature, and Uruk-hai. The funny thing is the action figures were actually talking to each other.

#125 FA's Brief Lucids and one Hellacious DEILD chain

I don't know how long this entire dream segment was. I feel it was probably around 30min. Maybe longer. I am not sure. There are a few memory gaps in the beginning but this is the best I remember.

Ex in-laws
I am staying at my ex in-law's house. My ex wife does not exist. My current wife and my ex's brother brother is there. There was some long dialog. Something about his birthday party. I sit and listen to the convo. I go into deep thought like I usually do. I feel dislike for this guy (I never liked him IRL). I think about why I am even here. I remember that I dream this a lot.

I remember some SP but my focus was low

Downtown event
I have a FA. My wife and I are leaving the ex in-law's house. First we were driving now we are walking. My wife tells me that her "brother" R is going to give an anniversary surprise during his birthday party. I feel disgusted and want no part of it but say nothing.

It is really early in the morning and still dark. It looks like we are downtown Webb City. There are a few curbside bistros open and large groups of people are flocking to them. Most of them are nicely dressed in evening dresses and suits. As we are walking through I comment on this to my wife but decide there must be some event going on and these are famous places to eat. Anthony Bourdain comes to mind.

I sit in a folding chair next to some woman in a black evening dress. I look around and notice my wife went into a building. I just *know* that she had to use the restroom. This woman looks familiar to me but I don't know her. I felt an indescribably strong connection to her. Like a close friend or a family member. She is older with shoulder length gray hair. She is well kept and beautiful for her age. I get the feeling that she is ultra rich and well known. In spite of that, she is super friendly and down to earth. We have a really long conversation. I forgot almost all of it. I can only remember telling her that I was really confused. I told her that I had a brief lucid dream and I just woke up. I told her I wasn't sure what was going on. I felt really sleepy still. I don't remember her reply if any.

I start missing my wife and look behind me. I see a bunch of folding chairs set out full of people and a woman at a podium. My wife is taking a seat in the middle. The woman at the podium says something about a church service. I feel annoyed. I just woke up. I am tired and I am in no mood to sit through some church service in the middle of the street. I march over to my wife. I sit beside my wife, put a hard hand on her shoulder and ruffly whisper in her ear, "What is this bullshit!?" The woman turns to look at me. It is some blond woman. She looks shocked an a little scared. I feel extremely embarrassed. "OH! Um sorry. I thought you were..."

I run off to find my wife. The shock of this triggers lucidity. I remember that I took G and was trying to get lucid.

I am in bed with vibrations.

Memory gap

I have another brief FA to lucid here but I can't remember enough to record anything.


Blanket Attack

I am back in bed with vibrations. This time I feel like a retard. I very quickly remember the dreams and how I was so close. Now I am more focused and determined.

I transition out of bed but I am unstable. The blanket suck to my head and I can't see any more. I try to fight it but my hands can't feel anything. I give up and turn to leave blind. I am thrown back into SP.

DEILD

The Colosseum - Another failed attempt at TOTY

I transition out again. This time it is better. But I am blind. I feel my way out of the bedroom. I try opening my eyes for a bit but I realize that I keep opening my real eyes. I see the dream and see the waking world. Finally I stop and focus seeing through my eye lids. Now I can dimly see. This time instead of heading to the front door I wonder what the back door will be like. My vision improves once I reach the back door and have a hand on the door knob. I try to visualize a Colosseum. I think of the line I used last time. I open the door but I see a moon lit back yard. I close the door and try again. Still the same. Not wanting to push my luck and wake up I walk out side. At this point part of me wonders If I am sleep walking. As a RC I try to float. I see me feet lift off the upper level of the back deck. Yep it's a dream. Now, I uncontrollably float over the rest of the deck and do a nose dive into the ground. I flip and roll end over end. Undaunted, I get up and brush myself off. (Brush myself off? lol) It is still really dark so I look up and ask the dream, "I need some light here" Oops I forgot to be polite. "Please." Nothing happens. "Can I please have some light?" I look around sort of wildly. I see a full moon and some stars. I try to focus on the moon but it is like looking through unfocused binoculars. It is really unstable and blurry. I look to the east and see the sun is just beginning to light up the sky.

Encouraged, I decide to fly to Rome. I "feel" like Rome is to the east. My flying stinks but I remember a trick I learned from Robert W.'s book. I see the closest tall tree and focus on the tip. I go into warp speed. I see the small focused point of the tree but my peripheral vision is a blurry mess. I sort of lose vision for a sec but feel the tree branches smack into me. I blindly grasp and feel something small thorny branches. There is a dull pain but I don't dare let go. I see another tree in the distance. I repeat the exact same thing.



I look farther out. I see a tree covered mountain range. The sun is rising behind it. The mountains look really far away. They are small and on the horizon. I pick a spot with trees and focus. I fly/teleport. Again, I grasp branches and hold on. I lose vision briefly again. I think that this has to be far enough.I let go and drop to the ground. I land hard.

I pick myself up off the ground and notice the sky is dark again. I try to imagine the Colosseum again. A huge spot light comes on be. I begin to hear a roaring crowd chanting something. I think, This is it! I pretend I have a sword sheathed on my left side. With my right arm I make a drawing motion. I can hear it come out but I feel nothing. All I can see is my shadow on the ground in front of me. I am a bulky muscular man with a Gladius in my right hand. I am in a fighting stance and ready for battle. At that moment the dream collapses.

Haunted?

DEILD back into bed. This time I give the SP a little more time. I focus on the feeling and relax. I just wait and watch like I do when I have HI.

I begin to see a bright blue blob of color. I focus on it. It looks like some sort of animation on a computer screne. I sit up and reach for it. It becomes a tablet in my left hand. I continue to watch the strange blob. I ask the the dream, "What is this?"
I hear a reply in my mind, "EVIL..... THIS HOUSE IS HAUNTED."
I become afraid. I shout. "YOU FAGGOT! SHUT-UP! NO IT'S NOT!" (faggot? really? Sorry folks, I never use that word IRL) Then I realize that I pretty much just called myself a faggot. I think about stupid it was. The dream collapses.

The Creep In The Mirror

I DEILD again and remain calm. I sit in SP again. I am beginning to realize that if I give SP some time and not rush things I will be able to see better. After some time I can see the room. I get out of bed. This time I try to focus on using the bathroom door to teleport to the Colosseum. It is the closest door. I remember the non-lucid awhile back that when I opened the door it led to a park outside. I try to visualize the outline of wall again. I open the door. Nope. Normal bathroom. I try again and the room is a black void. I feel encouraged and walk in. I imagine a Gladius in my hand and try my WILD tech in dream. I make a repetitive chopping action with the sword and wait for the Colosseum to form.

Suddenly the lights come on. I am just in my bathroom. I can see the sun coming from the window. The light is bright and warm like noon in the summer. I decide to just play around now.

I go to the sink and look in the mirror. I notice the medicine cabinet is all wrong. It has a sliding glass door rather than a hinged one. I look really creepy and distorted. My body is all jittery and wavy like I an underwater. I focus on my face. My eyes look bloodshot. My goatee is gone and I look like I am 16 again. I gasp and let out a laugh. When I do that there is this strange zooming focus effect in the mirror with the background behind me. I am taken aback. I focus again on my face. I am making crazy faces at myself. I am still wavy and jittery. My reflection give me a half smirk. It looks like someone is photo editing my mouth in real time with a smudge tool. I realize I am not smiling. Then I notice that I have a black, smoky aura around me. I gasp and again the strange zooming effect. It was almost like reality bent and flexed around me. I focus on my face once more and it looks sort of normal. I feel really creeped out and decide to move on.



I think about going outside so I look out the window. I pull back the blinds but find that I can't see past the screen. Its just really bright light coming in. I decide to head to the front door.

I walk through into my son's room. And become distracted. I see him asleep in the crib. I lean over him and say "BOOOO!" He makes a face and puts his hands to his mouth. He looks like he is about to cry. I feel really bad that I scared him. I try to comfort him and kiss is forehead. Then I wonder if I am really astral projecting and worry that I am waking him up. Then I get an idea.

I rush back into my bed room to try and see myself. I go back through the bathroom. There is breif darkness. Then I an standing next to my bed in the dark. My wife wakes up and half-way sits up. I see my body lying in bed in my right side with my legs slightly bent. I notice that MY HEAD IS MISSING. I jump in the bed next to me. It feels like a plastic dummy. It has a shirt and shorts on. I reach into the neck of the shirt but it feels like smooth skin. I remember the headless boy dream the scene destabilizes.

Concentration is Lost

I begin to DEILD again. I feel the vibrations buzzing my body. This time I become distracted. I realize that have had a long dream. I feel like I am going to forget is all. I try to think back while keeping the SP going but this much thinking fully wakes me up.

The time is exactly 7:00AM. I feel a little confused because the room is so dark still. I swear to myself that I am still dreaming but after several clock RCs and awareness checks I quickly realize I am not. It is just cloudy outside.

Bedtime 9:40PM - 10:26PM
No Aids
SSILD / Meditation

112 Creepy Fun House - OBE at first of sleep.

I fell asleep earlier for about an hour in the recliner. We get to bed and I have a hard time going back to sleep. There were a few disturbances and I was up an down for a while. Finally I meditate to get relaxed. I end up doing SSILD a bit later.

I find myself in SP. I have a hard time at first but I forcefully get out of bed. Though it's dark and I have a hard time seeing, the room is lit pretty close to real life and I noticed that I opened my eyes. If feels real but what I see is from the right perspective. I wonder if this feeling is always fake and I have been having blind OBEs for nothing.

I open my bedroom door and I see (I get chills just typing this) that creepy ass ring girl from OpheliaBlue's dream. She is peaking around the corner at me from the kitchen. I pause. I am scared shittless but I have the courage to confront her. I say to her, "Oh no you don't. You just better stop it!" She seems afraid of me. She backs away and steps fully into the kitchen and out of my line of sight. Emboldened now and pissed, I say, I'm going to kick your ass. Get the fuck over here and I will kick your ass." I want to follow her but I am afraid I will be stuck in the dark with her and plus I really am a chicken at this point. I decide this is not the direction I want to go and I close the bed room door forcing the thought of the evil girl out of my mind.

I think maybe I can use the mirror to teleport since I have one right here on the back of the door. Solid. I start to concentrate on the mirror being a hole in reality an not solid. I get distracted for a bit and see my reflection. I have a painful and strained expression on my face. I look closer and it distorts into a fun house mirror. Then it get dark and I can vaguely see that I look like a werewolf now. I am amused and shocked. That's why she was afraid?

I relax and concentrate on falling into the mirror. It works. I feel myself go into a small opening. I feel like I am spinning with my arms and legs splayed like a starfish. When it stops I find myself in bed and SP again.

I think I hear my son crying. I grumble. Then, I feel and hear my wife quickly getting up to go check on him. I wonder if it was real or not as I am still in SP. Not caring much at the time, I get out of bed with a struggle. I get curious if I can spy on my wife so I go through the bathroom into the other bedroom. As I step into the bathroom I recognize that I have never been in here during OBE time. I feel the cold tile on my feet. I continue to the other side but the room tilts now. I am struggling uphill to reach the door. I stretch my left arm out and to my surprise my arm stretches to reach the door. I close my eyes and get both hands on the door knob. I opens and I have to fly upwards to enter the room.

I float over my son. I can see him sleeping in his crib. The lighting again is normal and I can see how the room is dimly lit with the night light. I wonder where my wife is.

Then I feel a presence or something pass through my torso. The shock of it sends me back into my bed. I hit SP again. Now I remember the demon girl and wonder if it was her that sent me back. I feel worried about my son.

I decide this dream just sucks and want to wake up. I think I can hear sirens of emergency vehicles outside. The sound gives me a sense of urgency and I really feel the need to wake up. I can't move. I say "Wake up." like some sort of command. I really thought it would work. Then I remember something I read about how to wake up from SP. I never thought I would want to use it but I do now. I hold my breath for a few seconds. The feeling is awful like suffocation. The suddenly, I watch and feel my awareness shift from the dream world to this one. The feeling is like no other. It's a different feeling from fighting to stay in the dream vs. fighting to exit the dream. I am still afraid and realize I am panting. I was very shocked when I realized how little time I just spent being asleep.


I wanted to record this experience right away as I was now not at all sleepy and kind of excited that I had an early REM lucid. I was still very afraid and It honestly took me a while to muster the courage to open my bedroom door again. All I could think of was what if I really see this evil entity when I open my bedroom door. I know it sounds silly but this one was just freaking scary!

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 9PM-6PM
Apple Juice at bedtime, SSILD Tweaked, Multiple wakenings focused on DEILD/SSILD


Brats Around 4AM

I am taking care of someones kids. I am in a bed room with them and trying to get them to sleep. There are 2 bunk beds in the room. A little boy is on one and there is a window unit next to him. I have a little girls in my bed with me. I think that she was scared. The kids keep talking and I get pissed. I just want to sleep. The boy keeps messing with the AC he says hes hot and its not working. I feel cool and not hot and the AC sounds fine. I threaten to spank both of them. I don't care what the parents think. The girl gets up and goes to the boy. I spank her and she runs out of the room. I look into the living room and see my infant son playing xbox with another infant. I say well they're up I guess I wont sleep at all.

I lay still on awakening and wait to DEILD. Nothing happens at first so I give SSILD a shot before I reach for my DJ

Lucid #95 Lucid Precog Attempt #1
After a short time I start to feel some vibrations. I notice I can still move my hands. I test this by trying to move my hands slightly. I feel them twitch. So I wait. The vibrations get weak so I roll my eyes to the back of my head. That seems to work. I open my eye for some reason and see the room. I am sure it was my real eyes and I close them. The vibrations get weak again.

Then I feel a person spooning my backside. I am lying on my right side. The first thing I think is OpheliaBlue's demon is here to torment me. I was scared at first but then I blew it off and told myself it wasn't real and to ignore it. As soon as I did that it left but as it left I felt a finger go down my spine. Instead of getting chills it strenthens the vibrations. I imagine a finger going down my spin over and over until the vibrations get full strenghth and I can hear the usual sounds really loud.

Now it's time to exit. I imagine my feet going over the side of the bed and touching the floor. As soon as my feet touch the floor I find myself standing in my bedroom looking at the door.

I try to open the door. I feel the doorknob clearly and I can hear the click as I turn it. The strange thing is a phantom door opens leaving the original door untouched. I smile at this is amusement. I open it again and again with the same result. Then I slowly and can carefully open the door. I see the opening now and light in the dining room. I carefully put my other hand in and get a good grip. Then I fling it open and step through.

I am already thinking about my lucid task. In rl I blindly picked a red backed playing card and put it face down on the bookcase by the door. I want to look at it in the dream to see how actuate I can be.

I look but both the bookcases are gone. There are some cards scattered on the floor but the look like paint samples. I squat down and pick them up and stare them over like a nearsighted Magoo. My vision get a little blurry and I have a hard time seeing. The card start to look like candyland cards. I think maybe I can summon the card. So I use expectation and reach behind my back into my waste line. I pretend that I have it tucked in there. I just feel my underwear band and nothing else. I pull my hand in front of me and it is empty. I am still thinking it looks like paint samples. I look up and the wall looks like it has just been painted yellow and the hardwood looks freshly refinished. I wonder if the bookcases were moved for the remolding.

I try expectation again and look in the kitchen and find the bookcases. There is nothing on it but a blue backed card. The card is square but I look at it anyway. I pick it up and its feels like thin paper. I look on the back hoping to see a playing card but it is the same blue playing card pattern on the other side.

I am little frustrated now. I walk into the dining room and yell at the dream. "I want to see the playing card." My voice sounds odd. Like I can hear my dream voice and my real voice at the same time. Like two mes talking at once. I wait for an answer and almost immediately hear the loudest most hideous SHUSHING sound. "SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" the sound is electronic and robotic like some strange android shushing me to be quite. I freak out and throw myself to the floor. I curl up in a ball and put my hands on my head. I was so unbelievably scared.

After a moment. I realize I that a dream can't hurt me so I stand up. The room is now dark but I want to try something else. I speak to the dream again. In the same strange dual voice I loudly say, "I want to speak to my higher self." At that point the dream fades and I lose concentration. I fall into a non-lucid dream.

False Awakening

I wake up and start to record the lucid in my phone DJ. I see people form work in my room. My bedroom door is open. (how convenient) I see a woman at a desk in the dining room. I get an image of some green brochure in my hands. I see R standing by the door with a huge white board behind him. (BTW I saw a similar scene in rl with R today at work) I ask him what was going on. I can't remember what he said to me. I am distracted by another person writing a phone number on the white board. I can't remember that either. I wake up for real this time. I look at the time and it is around 4am.

I try to go back to sleep but I am really juiced from the lucid. I get a lot of HH/HI and halfdream but my mind kept going back to the dream. After about an hour I fall non-lucid.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 10:30PM-9:00AM
3 8% Beers, 200MG B6 WBTB+400MG B6 Alarm 3:30AM WILD

Alright time to get back on track with the DJ. I have not had much mental focus waking or sleeping. I have been blowing through every WBTB alarm only to get get up later just to pee or take some B6 and then I pass out completely. I did manage to sleep later this morning and I have a few half dreams during a WILD attempt but I lost focus before it became a full dream. Also I know I lost many more dreams. I was just too lazy to record them. What a Shame.

Whore House 4:42AM

I am in a whore house buying whores. I buy one for $25 just short term. I get tired of waiting for the first one so I buy another for $125 for a longer time. The transactions are like buying things in Skyrim. All menu based.

I know both women are beautiful blondes but I want a closer look at the second. I focus my eyes and her face gets shifty. Then she looks like an old hag from Skyrim. I make a comment and say, "Take that shit off." She discards her skin like a mask and is beautiful again.

I end up outside for something. I am waiting again. It looks like the outside of Trade-X. I see J from work with some dude. They walk by and I get embarrassed. I get into my car. I think I will just tell him that I am here for the gambling. I find some blue raffle tickets and hold them in my hand.

Now I am back in the building. The second woman I paid for is waiting with the first. I dismiss the first because I paid more for the second. Now she looks like an old crack addict. I get disgusted and say, "I'll take the first one who is a pretty blonde. I don't suppose you would give me my money back?"
She smiles and I see her rotten teeth. "Nope sure won't"

I find the other in a loft. She is in bed. There is some random dude sleeping a few feet away but I ignore him. I lay down with the woman. I am shocked to realize she is a virgin.

The "Buffen" 7:12AM semi-lucid

This was a long dream and I have a strong feeling that I was lucid at the beginning but lost is at some point and fell non-lucid. Or course I can really remember much but emotions and brief images so I won't be counting this one.

I am doing something down the street in my neighborhood. I see a woman sit down on a park bench. She is in awe and amazement. I recognize her clothes and face. She is wearing a grey skin tight jump suit with a black leather belt and boots. Her face looks a lot like the lady from Price Cutter.

I sit down next to her. I say, "I know all about you. It weird isn't it?
"How do you know?" She looks even more puzzled.
"Well, I am not a Grimm and I am not a Wessen but you are a Buffen." Now I get a flood of "memory". I remember (like the book Altered Carbon) people have a memory stack in the base of their skull and memories and personality can be downloaded to a new body at anytime. People who do that and are put into a body other than their own are called Buffen. (only in this dream) I tell her about all this and how I was once in her body. Then I remember being naked and playing with myself while I was a woman. Then I get horny and we make out very heavily. For some reason I can feel some sort of lip piercings and her teeth are bumping my teeth. It feels odd but I don't care.

It almost turns to sex when every stops. I am in my recliner on the laptop. I see a webpage. I can see the words but I am reading it in my mind.
"The no sex clause in dreams"
I "remember" that my wife made me agree to this and anytime I start to dream this it automatically stops me. (semi-lucid)

Then I am back to kissing the woman. The her piercings split and press my lips. The sensation is too odd to describe. I hear a sound like a robotic purr. Something like I heard in my Matrix or similar movie.

The world around me collapses and my awareness shifts to my physical body in bed.

Fragments

The lucid feeling and me trying to focus really hard on seeing something but can't do it.

Half Dream - Mute dream guide

I am in strong HI/HH and I see a woman who is clearly from India. I try to do active things to keep in the hypno-state. She keeps staring at me intensely. I try to ignore her but can't. I look at her closely. She is very dark for an Middle-Eastern. She has a red dot on her forehead. She is wearing a pale purple wrap around blouse with blue jeans. Her hair is jet black and sleek. It is long and brushed to the side. It is a very clear and stable image. I can see all the details in her face. The only odd this is her eyes. They are black but there are no "whites". The whites are flesh color. I ask her in my mind, "What do you want?" She gestures to my left. She will not or cannot talk. I try to ignore her but she is persistent. I see her change into a some type of blutbad wessen in the corner of my eye. It catches my attention and when I look she is normal.
"Are you trying to tell me something?"
She gestures again. Pointing
"You want me to follow you?"
She throws her hands up in a way that makes me think. "Finally you get it, moron!"
I follow her on a street in a big city. There are no other people. I watch her closely the entire time. She changes constantly. She stays a female but she turns into many different woman. All races, skin types, and hair color. A few times I get attracted to her and try to have sex with her. Every time she is patient and pushes me away.

At some point during our walk. I ask her if she was my dream guide. She nods "yes" and I can sort of see and exasperated expression on her face but she still doesn't speak. I feel like she thinks I am so stupid. The whole time I am following behind her and I can only see her from a back angle but up close. I continue to study her as she morphs and changes.

Then I lose focus and my body gets uncomfortable. I forget to ignore that and I roll over and lose it. I was so close.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Bedtime 9:30P-5:00A
400MG B6 SSILD at begining

Love Story 2:40AM
A green environmental hippie woman falls in love with a business man conservative. They almost part ways but they make up. She moves in with him to New York. It was a real chick flick.

Toilet Parts Time?
I am at the store looking at toilet parts. I see all sorts of strange looking pieces and I feel really confused about what I need to buy. My mom shows up and looks with me. I find a faucet that looks like a woodland scene for the base and deer antlers for the handles.

WBTB 400MG B6 - Total time about 5 min

#92 Grocery Store SSILD DILD

There maybe be a beginning to this dream that I forgot.

I find myself already lucid in a grocery store with a woman that is familiar to me. My wife? We are waiting for something. I watch people come and go with shopping carts. I get bored and yell, "THIS IS ALMOST AS REAL AS REAL LIFE!" Meaning real life can be so boring. My wife is a blonde and looks a little different but I think of her as my wife. Being lucidly bored and move in close to her and point to a back room door. While I push her in that direction I say, "How about you and me go back there and have a little fun? Don't worry no one will care because this is a dream."

We are now in the back. I make out with her a little. There is a bath tub and I want to get in with her. Suddenly she resists and pulls away from me. I let her go. There is a strange scene were I was floating away and she is running after me. She looks like the blonde sheriff woman from Once Upon A Time TV show. (Strange. My wife is watching it as I type this)

I think my lucidity must have slipped here a bit Suddenly, I am back at the bat tub. I point to it and ask, "Will you tell if I use this?"
She says, "I haven't told anyone anything yet."

I wake up.

I get up and go pee then lay back down.

#93 Work Scene SSILD to Active WILD

I do a few rounds of SSILD but I toss and turn a lot now. I think the B6 is keeping me awake. I remember the last time I just forced myself to not move and I quickly had a WILD. So I did that again.I started getting really strong HI/HH and eventually turns into a very long dream.

I find that I am able to manipulate the imagery much like in a lucid. I practice nose plug RCs. I even get the idea to try to get precognitive information (a side project of mine) but that will not form. I gradually find myself in a dream scene. It is a place similar to my job but different in a lot of ways. I find elements from when I worked at another place called F.A.G. (Yeah I know but that's the real name). The entire dream scene and imagery takes place in a massive room in with no walls.

At one point I am with B at the mold shop. The mold machine has a strange cage on it and a conveyor belt. Something is stuck and I crawl in to get it. I realize this is more than HI/HH and I say, "I am dreaming." But at that point the dream fades and I feel my body in bed again and now it feels like HI/HH instead of the dream. At that point I feel a very faint SP vibration. I pause and relax and let it take me only dimly aware of what it was.

There is darkness and then more imagery. I play around staying active and interacting with things. I don't realize that the SP was probably a good sign that I am already in the dream but things just don't see real and vivid enough anyway. My memory is vague here but I wonder around some and just mess around with things.

Now I am sitting in front of some lockers putting shoes on. I see J and K from elementary school. They are older now. In real life I have not seen them since we were kids. J alway had a crush on K. They are sitting at a picnic style table. J is flirting with K as K talks on the phone with who I assume is her husband. I see J whisper in her ear and kiss her cheek. She brushes him playfully away. Then J hugs her from behind and grabs a boob. That was too much she gets up and leaves. I am lucid the whole time but was so amused by what I was seeing that I waited until now to take action. I notice how solid and real the dream is as I walk up to J. I say, "Hey, do you want to go to my house and eat lunch? Or did were you planning on not eating anything?"
He looks at me, "Oh I wanted to eat."

I smile at him and we walk. The giant room fades away and we are outside now. The outside area looks like my old elementary school. Our friendship feels as familiar as when we were kids. We walk up to my car and I see that it is smashed and dented so bad on the driver side that I think the car much be totaled and not drive-able. But I know this is just a dream and laugh. I get in away knowing that it doesn't matter what the car looks like.

Suddenly I am driving down the familiar street and J is next to me. I come to a stop sign and never slow down. I think, "Why should I obey traffic laws in a dream?" This orange truck with a yellow and red flame jobs cuts me off. I try to steer the car into him at the last second but I am too late. He passes and I only side swipe him. If feel the dream fade. So I stop to rub my hands a bit until things feel more stable.

Ah now I am going to have some fun! I make a right turn. The G forces of the turn feels realistic and I smile at this. I say to J, "Haha! AH LOOK OUT!" in a joking tone. In my mind I tell the dream that I want a straight open road. The street stretches out into a rural area. I punch the gas and get as much speed as the dream will let me. I keep focusing on the road. I am thinking, "I want a car to appear." Nothing comes. My vision get blurry for a bit. Then I remember to use expectation. I see a myself coming up to a top of a hill. Now I fully expect to see a car. As a top the hill. BAM there it is. I steer and hit the car head on. I tell J, "Oh no here it comes, ahhhhh." and I laugh. The car just flips out of the way and I feel no impact. Then my subC surprises me.

The car goes over a cliff and he are doing a nose dive into a construction zone. We plung into a vat of black oil. Then we are falling down a shiny, sparkling, glowing blue water fall. I get the feeling of being in a mouthwash commercial and being immersed in cool minty flavor. As cheesy as that sounds it was actually beautiful and breathtaking. I let out a "oooohhhhh!" the dream fades into a black void and I an still falling.

I wake up in my bed. I sit up and look around. I see my wife to my left and the room looks normal. I notice the low light and the dresser and the random stuff we still need to put away. Then, as usual, I think, "What was I dreaming? OH YEA! I could still be dreaming." I look around more closely. I see the bathroom door on the left when I know it should be on the right. "Wait a minute! I am dreaming!"

At that moment my wife comes to life. She puts her hands up in a monster pose and screams like a banshee. The sound is not loud but high pitched. Then I see brilliantly colored rainbow crystalline spikes grow out from every part of her body. I am beyond scared as this was not expected at all. I pass out in my dream and I fall on top of her. I have no control.

Now I am falling in the black void. Then I wake up. I am in the same situation that I was in my false awakening. I see the bathroom on the wrong side. I say, "Oh God no, I can't do that again." close my eyes and I throw myself backward. I get to skip the part where my wife was a screaming banshee.

Now I am falling again in the darkness. I open my eyes and see the room again. I close them and now I feel myself spinning with my stomach being the center point. I can fee the centripetal force on my head, arms, and feet. I relax and enjoy the feeling.

I begin to see that I am in another dream scene when something external and real wakes me up.

It was my son making hungry noises and the time was almost 5am. Time to get up.

Thoughts | Non-Lucid | Lucid | Techniques/Aids

Some Alcohol

Bedtime midnight-ish - Wife, her mom and sister were up making Halloween costumes for the kids. I got cranky tired and took Riley to bed with me.

To tired for inductions
WBTB 4:00AM alarm too tired to even get up to pee.

I wanted to sleep later but after a 7AM feeding he snoozed and I sort of fell into a half LD half daydream with lots of really strong HI. I can't say for sure if I was actually asleep but time seemed to pass quickly. I was slightly uncomfortable the way he was snuggled against me. I didn't dare move him. I have been really tired and 6-8 hrs sleep is no good for a person that requires 10. I just enjoyed him letting me lay in bed a little longer. It was nice bonding time nevertheless.


She Doesn't Trust You - 5:52AM

This dream was way longer but I only remember the last bit. I am in a cow pasture and there are two unpainted barns. Cows are all around and I am moving living room furniture from the right one to the left one. There is mud in the barns and I am stepping in it but I see I am wearing rubber boots so I don't mind. I see a rainy misty green countryside out side. I have a folding chair in each hand. They are black metal. The cows freak out and get scared of them. They act skittish like my cats do and some are small like dogs. One cow gets its head caught in a folding chair and trashes about to get free. I make it to the other barn. There are couches, recliners, other folding chairs, and an old cabinet style TV. I am moving furniture around and I keep seeing my deceased grandfather as a reflection in the TV glass. I make a mental note to investigate when I am done. I see and old black leather recliner. I think I ruined it by putting it in a barn. I look closer and see that it is cracked and the color is worn in places. It was trash already. I make a final adjustment and look at the TV. Pawpaws reflection is sitting down in the chair. I am partial lucid here as I dream of the dead a lot but it feels so natural that I don't totally get it. I look at him and ask him, "Where is Nanny?"
His simply says, "She don't trust you yet."
"But...Why?"
He is looking in the distance and I get the feeling that he can see her and hear her. He says to me, "Because."
Then the world folds in on its self and I totally and consciously experience every detail of waking from a dream. I was a very odd feeling and one that would be hard to describe. I thought to DEILD but I had to pee really bad and the clock was 8 min away from my wife's wake up time so it was pointless to try.

This is odd because the last time I remember her in my dream I became lucid. See: http://www.dreamviews.com/blogs/xano...d-deild-37105/ And a brief NLD:

Dead Grandma- Fragment
I experience strong HI untill a full non lucid dream occurs. Funny there was no SP
I am looking in the filing cabinet on the bottom drawer. My wife comes close to me and bumps her pregnant belly on my head. I look up and caress and kiss her belly. Then I look at her face and it VIVIDLY distorts into my dead gramdma. I am reminded of how it happens in Grimm. She telepathically tells me that she is reincarnated into my unborn son. I ask her how can that be he is a boy and you were a woman. She tells me things like that don't matter. I wake with a startle.

I am not sure if I have seen her since my son was born. That's some Goddamned crazy shit!

The Voice in the void

Later I am in strong HI I manipulate and interact with it hoping to actively WILD. It feels like a LD but I feel my body in bed still. I thin about the past dream and want answers. I see my grandfather and ask him why again. I can't remember what he said to me but it wasn't an answer. So I ask, "Will you be my dream guide? I would be nice to have a relationship with you and be something we never could have when you were alive." I think about how religious he was.
I don't really see anything now. I an in a black void. I hear a voice reply, "Yes, I will be your dream guide." The voice sounds flat and emotionless. I does not sound like my grandfather did. I ask to be clear, "Will you be my dream guide?"
The same voice, "Yes."
"You are not my pawpaw are you?"
"No." Now the voice sounds deep and sort of like a high class English man.
"Who are you?" He replies but it gets garbbled. I ask a second time.
"Edward Godrich the second."
"OK will YOU be my dream guide?"
"I told you yes."
"OK when?"
"When you let yourself go in a dream, I will be there."

There was more of the conversation but I can't remember it all.
My son squirms and wakes me out of my trance.

That wasnt the type of LD I wanted but both the NLD and the interaction later was fun as hell. I don't really know what to make of it. I suppose it's all just in my head but I hope Mr. Godrich helps me out tonight!

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid

06:24 AM, Monday 01 October 2012
I am at the mall and I see some boys in a store some out next to a counter. They are being rough and bump each other. The dad scalds them. Then we are outside and they are playing in the dirt. The dad joins them. Then I notice we are all playing in around a giant chocolate cake. It looks like brownies. It was chest high. I take a hand full and taste it. It was dry and little flavor.

02:34 AM, Monday 01 October 2012
Kids trapped in a vortex from Once Upon A Time. Daughter is shrunk in cereal like HISTK. I can hear her voice but not see her.

03:00 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
I am driving in heavy snow on a familiar road in Joplin. I come to a strange intersection and see Wurlnan in front. I don't stop in time and slide past him in to the intersection. I wave at Wurlman as I pass him. I maneuver through on coming traffic and get in the middle without getting hit. I try to follow behind wurlman. I can't remember what car he had I was focused on his face as much as possible. Some I get in front of him. Then there is a sudden avalanche. We are no longer in cars. Its more like a hallway that is pack to the ceiling with snow. I dig through the snow and see the rest of the hallway and a bedroom at the end. I turn around and see that my car is now my mattress in RL. I see Wurlman behind me and I shake his hand. I am happy to meet him. I say, "Hi... a..a....aurth..ur?. I feel confused why I called him Aurthur. I say,"Nice to finally meet you". Some dude that living the house says, "I guess you should stay. The powe can be out for weeks in a storm like this."
I say, "Ooooooh nah man. Shitty. But I don't no what else to do. I look at the matress and doorway and I see that it can barley fit. I walk in the bedroom and I see a matress and box springs with no frame. It has a wild and crazy pattern on the sheets like my wife lounging pants. I see my son lying on the bed crying. I say to everyone, "Well it looks like we woke up my infant son."

07:24 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
Working out in a gym. Strange looking weights. Not matching up. Just want dumb bells.

11:05 AM, Tuesday 02 October 2012
I am riding my bike really fast. Suddenly the path drops off about 6 feet down. There is a 2 lane road cut through the middle of the hill. I can't stop and think to pull up on my front to land more on my back. I see I'm too high up and will get hurt. I try to turn. I land on solid level ground and lightly flop over on my butt with my bike next to me. I see that I am on the other side and I must have flew over it. I start laughing so hard. "Ha ha... ha ha. I can't believe I just did that. Haha... haha. I Can't wait to tell Krystal at work." I get up and see an old man at a church looking at me. Get back on my bike to show that I am not hurt. (I always have my phone and use an app called endomondo to track my cycling) I look at my phone. This time my app id different. I see points on GPS like google maps markers. One says "OB". I think, "Oh it's OpheliaBlue. She must have been nearby." I think I should go see her at her house but realize she doesn't live anywhere near here. I decide to go into the church to rest. I realize that I am out of breath from riding and should rest after that crazy experience.
Inside the church I see two ministers talking about religion. I can't remember verbatim but they are talking about how they hate 'religionism' being taught. One told the other how at one church someone "ikipikied" him. I laugh to myself. He is talking about speaking in tongues. I think omg they are describing the Pentecostals. I leave and think I want to go to this church later.
I go back outside and see that my back wheel got bent when I landed. The wheel just falls off and I see the rest of the bike falling to peices.


There is something about a woman cop who is a witch. She doesn't know it. She reads minds but in doing so she drains some the essence of people. Another witch is explaining this. We are walking thru a fair. She says, "So many people and they don't know who's coming." I see little boys every where looking at me. They are wearing shades. One has a cup with a open bottom. I have camera and I play with him and growl.

Suddenly I walk through the front door of my house. I see Naomi sitting on the couch. We talk something about a carrier cover for the baby. I say my wife doesn't like that one. I sit on couch next to her but it is odd. Like am slouching and laying down. I see Daisy and she snuggles with her.

Before hand I decide to do the advanced TOTM, swim in the cretasious sea. I watched BBC Sea Monsters with Nigel last week and was prepared. I would enter the mirror in my room and be on Nigel's ship.

I decide to WILD and actually did it! It was a lot like DEILD after all. I layed there with my mantra and a very dim awareness and suddenly I hit SP. It was a slight twinge and I wondered why so short. I relaxed and felt it again but stronger I get wildly excited. I feel my heart pounding and my breath shorten. I wanted lucid so bad tonight. I force myself to be calm with my meditation. Once I was relaxed the SP went away. My dream body gets up but I feel really real and wonder if I am a wake. I walk to the mirror and push on it and it is solid.

I am suddenly back in bed with SP. I get up and run to the mirror and bash my head on it solid. I feel embarrassed and drunkenly go back to bed. I feel the SP again. Again I rush to the mirror I really thought that if I entered the mirror I could be on the deck of Nigel's ship.I hit my head on it and wonder if why wife thinks I am nuts. I feel like I was just sleep walking. I go lay back down only to hit SP again. This time I think more about it. I remember the room didn't look right and I barely felt the mirror. OK lets just concentrate now.

I cleared my mind. I felt like I was floating. I get the urge to spin. I felt like I was on my back and the center point was my stomach. I begin to spin so fast that I could feel the centripicle force on my arms and legs. It was a nice feeling but I wanted to get on Nigle's ship! I made a new mantra. Nigel. Nigel Nigel Nigel... I imagined my hands connecting with a smooth railing of what could be a ship deck. I felt the friction from my spinning movent on my hands. I stopped the spinning and had a solid hold on it with my left.

Suddenly I am back in bed sort of awake. I DEILD quickly. I hit SP again but this time I slowly get up. No good. My body feels sluggish and the bed feels like a tar pit. I could only get my left arm over the edge of the bed. I imagine my feet slowly floating over the side.

Suddenly I feel something hard and cold on my left hand. It is so cold it almost hurts. I don't know if it got me or if I got it. I feel like I am pintching a cold raw half thawed chicken wing. It scares the hell out of me and I think something evil is there. I force myself reminan calm. I know I am dreaming and I am very determined to do the TOTM. The thing is so gross but It actually helps stabilize me. I stand up and pick the thing up since it is attached to my fingers. I want to know what it is. My vision is dim but the thing in my hand turns to my son. He feels cold and dead. I feel panic and I wonder if he is even alive. But no no. I am dreaming he is not real. I really have to tell myself this. I don't feel like I am going to wake up but a part of me wanted to so that I could check on him. I cuddle him to me and calm down. I force myself to walk the the mirror once more.

I feel my son sort of meld into my left arm and dissapear. I slowly face the mirror an with more determination I press my face into as hard as I can. It is just solid. So weird. I see my reflection. My face is blured and my reflection is looking to my left with a mind of its own. Yes I am deffinitely dreaming. I breath out with frustration and my breath fogs the glass. I hear my wife complain about something. I look over and she threw an arm up in disgust.
I say, "OOOH SHUT UP. You're not real anyway."

OK time to think how am I going to do this. I open the bedroom door thinking I would just be there. Nope. I walk to the front door and really concentrate on being on Nigles ship. I walk to it but I am slowed down. The room stretches and I can't reach the door. I try to run but I feel like some force has me by the waist and I can't get any traction. GOD my house is getting scarry!

I see my hands and it causes me to pause for a moment. They look so odd that I am distracted. I remembered something I wanted to try. I look at my fingers and see how crazy distorted they are. The lengths are all wrong and some fingers fan out into 4 or 5 other ones. I kind of chuckle at this. I have read that this happens in dreams and makes a good RC but I had never see it for myself in a lucid dream only in HI. Then, I remember something else and I try to make magic like on skyrim or the sorccerors apprentice. Bah I got nothing.

OK back to work! I am too determined not to complete my task. I force my way to the door and now it wont open. So I hit it. It cracks like glass. AH HA! I hit it again and again and each time the door cracks away. I begin to see daylight. They living room was so dark before. The last time the door looks really weak so I use the force. I force push like in Star Wars and the door explodes into tiny peieces.

I run outside but it is just my normal neighborhood. I run a few houses down to the south. On the East side of my street I see 2 women sitting on thier front poarch talking.
I stop and ask, "Can I get a ride to Nigel's boat?" I figure it was worth a shot. They both look hessitant and shocked that I talked to them. I think about how DCs like to talk gibberish a lot and I don't expect much of an answer.
But the one on the left says, "Yeah". I follow her to her house accross the street. Shis is wearing a black and grey one piece bathing suit. I see her keys in her hand.
I say"Well the thing is we might have to drive to the ocean. That's a long way." I think how I don't want to spend my LD trapped in a long car ride! She looks discouraged and confused.
I decide to try to convince her or something else. I said, "Look. Don't you have a teleporter? I know you have to. Eeeeeveryone has a teleporter!" I look at her hopeful and try to convince her.
Then she says one word without emotion, "Yes."
As she goes in her house she turns and says, "I have to freshen up a bit."
I follow her inside but think to ask, "Is it ok if I come in?
Again she says "Yes."

I look around and she has a messy house. I see a cat run off. I take it all in.
She says, Sorry my house is a mess."
"Oh dont worry about it. I dont mind." Then for some reason I get horny. Its just me and her alone in her house. Giggity. I grab her to me and take her top down. She goes limp and to allows me without emotion. I stop.
"I am sorry. I should not have done that." I remember that I have a task to do. I don't want to waste my lucid dream on sex. I would just wake up and be mad. I let it go.

We walk to a back room and she hands me a pill bottle full of some liquid.
"Here drink this."
I say, "What? So I drink this and I am teleported? She nods. "Are you sure? Whats in it? Oh well here I go." I open it and drink all of it. I remember one TOTM where you drink a potion and I didn't focus on the taste. This time I took the time to. I noticed it was thick and slightly sweet but tasted a lot like cough syrup.

I waited but nothing happened. "nothing happened"
"Oh thats just my vitamin thereapy. I dont like it."
I get pissed and realize she obvioulsy isn't going to help me. I hear some man talking in another room but Ignore him. I start to walk out side but I see a hallway to the left. I decide she has to have a teleporter some where in the house. I sneak in hoping she thinks I left the house.

I walk to a room and see a gross and dirty tanning bed. I see the light and feel the heat from it. There is a dirty toilet to the right. I start to get in the tanning bed thinking that will work but I really dont want to try that.

I walk to the next room and see a black pod of some sort. It looks like a SCI-FI deep sleep chamber. That has to be it! I get in and lie down. The lid closes and the light dims. Nothing happens. I look by my right hand and see a control panel. I punch a few buttons and say, "Cretaceous Period!" I hear a chiming sound and a swooshing noise. Then a chiming sound and the lid opens.

I AM AT THE BOTTOM OF AN OCEAN FLOOR! I see all the fish from the Sea Monsters show. Thousands of fish swimming all over the place. I am so happy. This is way better than Nigel and his ship! I am right in it. I see a Mosasaur right off the bat. I dont see sharks. I see something like Ichthyosaurs. I see a few Xiphactinus. I also see hundreds of other things that don't belong. Like little cartoony worm like things on the floor. And cartoony looking turtles. There was so much activy and so many different things swimming around that I have hard time seeing it all. I feel like sensory over load.

I hear some silly music and a dopey voice singing. "...Here I am swimming in the deep blue sea. The deep blue see. The deep blue sea...."
I laugh my ass off at this. I laughingly repeat "The deep blue sea hahaha!"

I notice and am not surprised that I can breath underwater. I remember that every underwater dream I could always breath like no big deal. I begin to swim. I notice the coral life in the floor and white sand. I see a deep ocean floor valley not far away. The water is so clear and everything is amazingly beautiful. But the ocean life is so thick! None of the fish seem to notice me and I am not afraid. Even when the big fish with large teeth swim by I feel calm and they ignore me. The fish don't even bother to eat each other. This Cretaceous Ocean is tame. I am surprised at this because I thought for sure I would be eaten if I pulled this off.

I get kind of bored just swimming. I feel content that I completed my task and am happy with myself. I see woman in a bright red one piece. She is just floating like she is dead. But I see her head turn and one eye look at me. Her reddish hair flows in the water. I come to her from behind. At first I act like I am a fish and lightly bite her arm. Then I get really horny again the dream turns into the best lucid sex ever. I feel really guilty because I don't like wasting a dream on sex. I didn't care at that point. I'll leave the rest to the imagination...

Afterwards. I notice we are on a white sandy beach and I see a rock cliff. For some reason I think there is a road up there but I don't care. I really just want to wake up now and record my dream. At that thought the world fades to black.

Xiphactinus


mosasur


Ichthyosaurs

Zombies in the house. Stuff in two rooms. Other people story lines. Two dudes had sex. Teenage in high school. Turning. He was Hidden so no one saw face. Finally ate someone. We came and he was normal and vomiting. He said it told him to be normal again. We have a cure but not much. We put some drops in coffee and tell him to drink the whole cup. He said or just the flavor. Some woman takes some in her chocolate milk. I am in a room alone. There ate two guys next to me. Watching. TV. Talking about zombie flu h1n1. He have been bidding. Upstairs. TV confirms what we feared. I decide we need quiet. I close windows and turn TV way down. I get the others to do same. I think about how many zombies I attracted. One Guy puts hand under door to mess with zombie. I grab him. I tell them we need to Get out. There is a small hole to the attic. From there we can bust out to the roof.

Bedtime 10:30p – 8:30a

1) 1:45a Playing some sudoku like board game with Jess and Megan at our house. I walk into the living room and there are red Christmas lights everywhere. I continue the game on my phone like it was words with friends or something. I also think to play my old supervisor.

I move to recliner and begin attempting WILD. After each NLD I quickly record what I remember on my phone app and resume WILD.

2) 3:29a find myself in SP. I try something a little different to enter the dream. I force myself in a rush to get up out of the recliner. I feel my dream body stumble and fall and then I re-enter SP. This time I relax too much. I have a false awakening.

I have the laptop on my chest and the recliner feels like it is reclining way too far back. I am still trying to WILD. I ear the alarm clock distantly in the bedroom. I wonder how it is 6:00 already. I expect my wife to come looking for me and sure enough I hear her walk in the living room. I just lie still because I really don't want to ruin my WILD. I figure she will just see me asleep and leave. But the computer is on my chest and on. I think she will see a post by RareCola and read it.

Then, I hear her say. “You're going to kill yourself with that.”
I give up my charade. “What?” I look at her as she is going back to the bedroom.
“I said your going to kill yourself.”

I get up because originally I had planned to get up with her at 6 and stay up for 30min and then WILD.
I notice the recliner is turned wrong but when I go to move it there is another recliner in its place but it is a darker brown. The other recline shrinks and slides next the the strange one. I then walk into a strange kitchen. I wake up.

Another SP episode from DEILD. This time I know that I just need to visualize a dream scene and I will enter. For some reason I get too excite and SP fades.

3)4:38a I plant some sort of seed in the crack in the back deck. They are round and small but I don't know what it is. I water is. The water hose floods the area. Then I have another FA. I look next to me and see Janna sitting on the couch. She has marijuana seeds. She tells me she gave a seed to some kids and is worried they will get in trouble. I tell her they probably won't plant it. I go to use my phone app to record the planting dream and I realize “This isn't real”

I wake up briefly

4)I am now watching Johnny Bravo through my window on a TV in my neighbors yard. Then I FA and I am back in my recliner. I feel like I am holding a remote. But wake for real and see I am not.

5)4:42a I am in the recliner. I see Travis and tell him about the fake picture I sent him. He say, “Dude I don't know how those pictures of me get posted.” I explain to him that it was just a look alike with a tramp stamp. He changes the subject.

6)5:28a *LUCID*

For whatever reason I am driving with my wife and another guy was with us sitting in the back but he never says anything. We go down towards my job. It is late in the morning and I decide to just take vacation. I pull into the parking lot. And I tell my wife maybe I should just call it in instead of going in to ask for vacation. Then I notice the time on the car's clock. It is 8:38AM and I realize I can't ask for vacation after 8. So I decide just to use the call in line and not have a vacation day.

Suddenly we are inside in an office. My wife is at a desk typing on a computer. The guy is sitting several feet behind her watching the computer screen. He is behaving like a silent observer. Ignore him completely. I am on the floor putting my shoes on. As I am getting the last shoe on I remember to pay attention to my awareness like I do in RL. I think to myself, “I am dreaming.” But I didn't mean anything. Then it dawns on me. “I AM dreaming!”

I don't have my shoe on but I know it doesn't matter. I look around. I remember to stay calm. I try to focus on various office supplies on the desk. I see things like a coffee mug with pens and pencils in it. Then I look my my wife and see the guy in peripheral vision. I never really look at the guy. Maybe he will be my dream guide. Too bad I forgot to think of that. Anyway I know neither one matters and talking to them at this point would be a waste. They are just DCs.

I stand up and turn around. I see a door that is partially open. It is the only way out of the small room. I briefly remember that if I ever become lucid at work I would have fun with it and do the things I couldn't do in RL. I rush for the door and expect to see the production floor.

I open it and instead... The room I was in is at the end of a long hallway full of doors. Each door goes to a different office. "OK fine. Stay calm. Focus. You are dreaming. Keep awareness." I walk down the hallway and pop into random offices. The walls are wood paneled and with no decor. The doors are those cheap hollow wood doors. They are unpainted and stained a very dark brown. I don't notice the flooring. The color scheme is very bland and boring. All the offices are empty. There are no people anywere. "Ok strange but not that strange for a dream." I hear a phone ring once. I walk into an office room that I thought it came from. I see a desk with computer and a phone that is off the hook. There are a few papers scattered on the desk. I pick the phone up and put it to my ear. I hear nothing so I press zero. I hear a short ring and then, a young woman's voice answers, “Student services.” I think it's odd so I don't say anything. I press the hook with my finger to hang up. I don't hear a dial tone. So I just lay the phone back where it was. I can hear her voice but distantly, “Hello?” The sound of it is as you would expect for a phone away from your ear. I am a little impressed with my subconscious at how vivid the dream is.

I continue down the hall. Now I am looking at double glass doors. It looks really dark outside and I can't see anything beyond the glass. I want to break glass so I rush at it. I can hear my footsteps like I am wearing boots on concrete and I actually feel the impact of my feet on the floor. I note this is really cool for a dream.

I dive head first for the glass but it is soft and doesn't break. I feel my head got stuck. It feels like a wall of Jello. Of course, the natural reaction is to close your eyes. I feel the dream fading. I don't want to lose it so I back out. I re-stabilize myself by looking at the glass doors and focusing. “OK fine. I just want to leave here its boring.” I slowly push the doors with my right hand. There is no sensation and its like the glass is gone but then the door opens and I am looking at the next set of doors. I feel a little frustrated that glass doors are keeping me in this building. I almost feel trapped but I am determined. "Maybe dreams are like being a ghost in the movie Betelgeuse. You can never leave the building. No that's a stupid thought. This is my dream." I push the next doors slowly open.

Then I am immediately engulfed in darkness. I feel myself wanting to wake up. I begin rubbing my hands together. I can feel the friction and heat. It is almost painful. So I stop and clasp my hands together. I am still in the dark void and I think, "Maybe I am awake and I was really doing that with my hands. No, I don't believe it." Then I realize that I in darkness because I just have my dream eyes closed. I slowly open them but cautious not to open my waking eyes. For a moment I am confused because my eyes felt so real. "Am I opening my waking eyes?" So. I only open then halfway. I see that I am at the driver side door of a Grey truck. I decide its safe and I open my eyes fully now. I notice It's not very clear or vivid. The dream quality not as good as it should be. except for my sense of touch. I touch the glass of the door. Solid and feels real. I slap at it a little and am surprised that it sounded normal and I could feel the impact on my hands. Then for some reason I am abruptly jolted awake. I think I heard a noise in the house. It was storming.


7) 8:24a I am going with some people to a house I own. I am renovating and selling. I see a bunch of low class scummy people on the porch. I see a shirtless fat man. His checks hang down real low and he pushes his man boobs together. Somehow it all looks like a giant ball sack. I feel disgusted. I loudly tell someone I don't know how I will ever sale this house will all these kind of people around. I enter the house and the floors are still dusty from sanding the hardwood. There is a little girl there and I kindly ask her to go outside. I wake up.

Waking Time: 11:00am

Helicopter For Sale

There was something about being at the hospital. Then my wife and I are outside. I see a really small Helicopter for sale. Its looks big enough to hold at least on person maybe two. For some reason I think maybe it is a radio controlled toy but I dismiss that idea. I have this conversation with my Wife:

Me: Look, it's a helicopter for sale!

Wife: Yeah, like we have $50,000

Me: No, it's probably more like the price of a used car.

Wife: So, like we need a helicopter.

Me: BUT ITS A HELICOPTER! We can fly around in it. How cool would that be? I mean I could fly to work. Well, maybe not work it is just a few blocks away. But wouldn't their mom shit bricks if we picked the girls up in that thing. Wow! It would be soooo cool!

Wife: No.

Tinsel Light-Saber

I am in an arena with other Jedi. We are all fighting each other. But we are using stiff pieces of colored tinsel as light-sabers. WTF LOL. The swords where just as functional as any light-saber. Some how I was in third person watching myself. I teamed up with an odd looking human-ish woman. Now I am looking at myself and her fighting together in a screen like on TV. I hear an announcer say, "They are fighting friendly style." I see the words on the screen. People were dying all over. Limbs severed and body punctured. All the light-saber sounds and flashes of light and sparks as tinsel collided. Then some how, the sith I was fighting and I, we eliminated. We just vanish. I don't die but I am out of the game. The focus is on the woman I was teamed up with. I had the only red light-saber. It was lying on the ground. The woman lost her light-saber and did cart wheels to over and picked mine up. Then as the sith ran to her she spun around in one fluid motion and sliced the man straight down the middle of his chest. He fell on his back. Then she reached in with her hands and opened up his chest. I could see chest bone and ribs and lungs and heart. Then she lifted him up to show the crowd. The air filled with the sound of cheers and jeers as she is the winner. Then I am first person. She hands me my light-saber back. I am surprise to get mine back as it was unique. She said something about honor and I realize she really is a good Jedi.

Aids:1/8 tea peppermint oil WBTB
Methods:MILD - Half assed
Morning Supplements:500mg L-Lysine, 500mg C, 595mg Potassium Gluconcate, 1 Super B-Complex
Sleep Quality: Felt refreshed in the morning. Slept solid. Solved pillow issues.

Trying to LD 2:00AM
I am jogging down a familiar street. I see Jeremy and Becki. I invite them over. We are now in my house. But this is my first house. Jeremy talks about how he can tell me how many ghost are here. I tell him I don't want to know. I feel happy and safe here and I don't want to ruin it.

Then I am in my first truck. I am in the passenger side trying to sleep. My wife is in the driver side sleeping but tossing and its bothering me. I am trying to WBTB. I have an audio induction and I want to hear it. I adjust my headphones and try to sleep. I couldn't help but notice that my headphones feel like underwear on my head. Then notice that is light outside and rainy. I see Chris driving up to her daughters house who happens to be my neighbor. I am a little surprised. I hope that she doesn't notice me and my underwear. She is all but starting at me now. I just sigh and close my eyes. All I want to do is have a lucid dream and If I have to do corny things like listen to my underwear then who cares. I actually hear some music. It is a Ke$ha song believe it or not.

*I hear the intro music*

"Maybe I need some rehab,
Or maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession,
I'm seeing it in my dreams"....

(Very appropriate! Except Lucid Dreams is my drug. Bahahahaha LOL)

I feel irritated and tune the music out. I feel like I am being watched and I just want privacy. The truck drives around the block. I don't notice it but I am driving it with my mind. My wife is in the driver seat but I am controlling where to go. Then I remember we left the kids in the house alone. And I think we should hurry even though we are just going around the block. I look out the window to the right and see a distorted iPhone. It says Brooklyn on it. The woman in the truck with me is now my ex-wife and she starts bitching about how much money she spent on that phone for my niece and now its ruined.

Now I am in a bed trying to WILD. Something wakes me and I look to the left and see my sisters husband with a bed pan under him. He is squirting shit through his clothes.
I say, "OH GOD! YOU NASTY FUCKER! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!?!?"
He jumps us and runs to the bathroom. He slams the bed pan on the floor and I see chunky shit splatter up on the wall. There is shit on the bed. I am disgusted but I feel sorry for him at the same time. I know he is sick and can't help it. Then my dog goes sniffing at it. I grab her too me and hold her. I lay there not wanting to deal with the mess. I half expect to smell something horrid but there's no smell. I close my eyes and wake up.

I Don't Want to Die!
My wife and I are in a hotel. She is not pregnant and we are partying. We are drinking and she starts to smoke pot. I am shocked but I'm like well we don't do this often. She leaves the bong on the couch and my dog daisy starts to hit it. She runs through an open door into a yard. Then she howls as she ex-hails. I find it strange that I see really black smoke come out. I am surprised at the color of smoke but I just laugh. She is trying to get more. I hand the bong to my wife who is in the recliner watching TV. Then I say wait let me. I take a long drag. I notice that there is no smell no burring in my throat and no taste. Then I ex hail. I instantly feel fucked up. I make a comment about how fast that hit me. She says she knows.

I leave the room for some errand. I walk outside and see a nice area with a pool. There are only a few people. I jump in and then leave.

I go inside a bar and walk through to the bathroom. I notice a bartender and a dart board in my periphrial vision. I sit down to shit in a stale but the toilet is so high people can see me. Some take notice and just sigh and finish up. When I walk out of the bathroom I am now in a church and service is about to start. I take in the whole scene. I notice people to my left conversing and greeting. I see a crown scattered about and people in various conversation. I see all the pews and the stage up front. The stage is blurry and I dont focus on it too much. I see another bathroom down a ways and too the right. For whatever reason I walk to that. I walk past the womens and enter the mens. It is dimly lit and there is one toilet on the right and a sink on the left back wall. The entire right wall is glass. I can see through into the womens bathroom. The bathroom is identical to the mens and I see a large woman pulling her pants down and sitting on the toilet. It seems that she cant see me and it think it must be a two way mirror. I try to respect her privacy and advert my eyes and quickly leave the restroom.

Then I am in an elevator. The interior is minimalistic, plush and cream color. (now that I think about it... like a casket!) I push a button. The elevator begins to malfunction. I feel it tilt back and get smaller. I an now lying at an incline. I push some other button. Then it compacts into a ceiling with metal beams. I hit the stop button. I am so stuck I can't move.

I quickly WILD to have an OBE to go get help. I see a lady at a desk. I tell her my body is stuck in an elevator and I need to get it out before I die. I move out of my body. It feels so natural and familiar to do this. I go through the wall and see a lady at a help desk. She is an African American woman in a red blose. I quickly explain to her that my body is trapped. She tells me a bunch of instructions. I dont remember. Maybe I am still stoned?

I go now to do whatever it is she told me. I am now walking through the spot where the pool is. I see a lot more people there and I don't bother to take a dip this time. I walk to a concrete walk and spot an elevator door. I feel that this is where my dying body is. I pry the door open with my hands. There are more doors behind the first. They are red with purple trim. I get through a total of four doors and my body slips out. I catch... me. My body is limp and cold. I find it very odd to touch my body from outside of myself. I drop... me. And I try to use my mind to enter back into my body. It does not work. I am getting panicky.

I scream, "I don't want to die!"

I lay down next to myself and try whatever I did to exit now to re-enter. Nothing is working. I look to my right at myself and see a hand with a respirator to my body's face. I see hands doing chest compressions. I am still not back in my body. The light fades and everything goes dark.


*Holy Shit. I think I will avoid elevators for a while.

Aids:1/8 tea peppermint oil before bed
Methods:DEILD/WILD - FA
Morning Suppliments:500mg L-Lysine, 500mg C, 595mg Potassium Gluconcate, 1 Super B-Complex
Sleep Quality: Light, wakefulness, RLS

Huge Storm 1:12 AM
Huge storm coming. Riding with dad. I see storm shelter. I hear some song that reminds me of someone. And then another song. I remember an ex-girlfriend.
"I say I hate all songs."
I see Jeremy and Jess in the car with us.
"What song? I say do tunes to what you want."

Dude, Where's My Car? 3:15 AM ish

I am at my parents sleeping in a recliner. It is dark and I can't sleep.
I went to my parents with the kids. I am leaving. But I can't find my car. I see a white car that is stripped down. The kids think it's mine but I know better. We run down the street looking for it. I feel tired and weak and can't run well. I see white cars everywhere but none are mine. I don't want to call the police yet because I keep thinking that I remember that I parked in a strange place and I knew I would not remember. I tell the kids this.

Now we are in some nursing home and wondering around. Not sure what happens here. Something about me not being a good enough Christian. How I let bad things into my life. Thats why bad things happen. Some old woman? I feel guilty for lucid dreaming like it is a sin.

We leave. I tell my kids we got to look some more before we call the cops. Deanna says that Dalynn already did. I asked her about that. It was when I was holding her and she blew into a strange balloon.
She says, "Well that lady scared me. So I called the cops."
We run outside but I feel overwhelmed and too tired to walk. I lay down in the grass and dirt. I curl up on a mound of dirt. I tell the kids I just want to close my eyes. My body relaxes and I wake up.

WILD 3:30AM ish
When I wake up I am in the recliner that I moved to because of my RLS. I don't move a muscle. I relax myself and I roll my eyes into the back of my head and focus on my skull. Sleep Paralysis almost immediately kicks in.

I hear the familiar strong wind sound laced with rinings of the ears. I feel the familiar vibrations and windy sensations. I noticed this time that the sound and vibrations increased and decreased in intensity like waves on a beach. I make a quick note of this. I can feel my legs moving up. It feels like something has me by the ankles. I become afraid and I have to remind myself it is not real. I try to enter the dream but I get stuck in SP for longer than I wanted and because of the last dream I thought I was doing something evil. I keet telling myself that it was ok. And it wasn't real. You do this all the time and its always been fine. No good, the feeling was persistent.
I try to ignore the thoughts and visualise anything to move on. I my mind wonder and my dream eyes see.

I see a road. I am flying low and fast down a vivid and brightly lit road road hugged tightly by evergreen trees. I enjoy this but my eyes begin to opened and I see the dark living room with one eye and the road with the other.

I go back into full SP. Still the same feeling of guilt. I think that this is getting no where and I want to go back to my bed. So I suddenly and forcibly make myself get up. I stumble back to my bedroom. I heard and felt my loud footsteps.

I think how odd this is. I was feeling the vibrations like wind on my body. The loud sound of wind and ringing. Typical SP. Was it possible to not be truly paralyzed in sp?

I now find myself tangled in my blanket. I am standing by my bed and I can't find my way out. I am unsure of what happened. I feel so confused and my mind feels numb.

I say, "I'm dreaming. I'm dreaming." But my voice sounds odd. It is weak and unsure. Almost like I am asking a question. I am not convinced. Then I throw myself in the bed. Now I can find my way out. I feel half asleep and strange.

All my actions have woke my wife up. My wife mocks me. And complains how this is not good what I'm doing. She is pissed I woke her. I feel embarrassed and say nothing. She gets up to go the bathroom. I close my eyes and relax. But instead of going to sleep I wake up still in the recliner. God dammed FA!

I was so sure I was awake.

Aids:12.8mg menthol before bed
Methods:Attempted WBTB WILD - Failed
Morning Suppliments:500mg L-Lysine, 500mg C, 595mg Potassium Gluconcate, 1 Super B-Complex
Sleep Quality: Heavy sleep. No RLS. Tired still this morning. Pillow not comfortable

Fish Dog
I am walking outside and the world is flooded up to my calves. I have this fish that is following me. It is my pet but it is behaving like a dog. It is jumping up at me and swimming around me and wanting my attention. I smile at it and continue to walk. I look up briefly and check the sky to do a sky RC like I do in waking life. I see nothing unusual or odd so I shrug it off and continue.

Then I get an underwater view of the fish swimming. Like a camera is following from behind. The water is clear. The fish looks like some sort of evolved fish with legs and large teeth. Kind of alligator-ish. It is just dog paddling and half turns its head to acknowledge me.

Then I am inside my house. Or a house. I am walking around and the Fish and the water are still present. I wonder how I could have all this water in my house and not rot everything out. I assume it is built to handle it. I look closer and start to see odd things like there is carpet and the floor is not level. I think that this really needs to be fixed and I worry some about it. I am really questioning why there is water everywhere but I just don't think about testing reality.

Then I am looking at a fake rock pond. I see a large golden Cichlid. I recognize it as one of the same fish that I had in an aquarium long ago. (I feel guilty because I remember that I flushed it down the toilet because I got tired of it. It wasn't even dead.) I add more water with my mind because I notice the fish didn't have much room. It keeps trying to swim upward.

Forgotten
Damn lazy ass didn't write it down!
Forgotten
Damn lazy ass didn't write it down!

House Sitting
My mom and I are going over to my Aunts house to check on it since her and her family are gone on a long trip. We go in the front door and look from room to room. The house is familiar but different. I tell my mom it looks a lot like my first house I bought but they really changed a lot of stuff and it looks really nice. The kitchen has a door and it is partially sealed. We get it open and the first thing I see is dirty dishes that have bee sitting for days. I half expect it to stink but I smell nothing. I look and see really nice title floors and counters. I look down a hall and see a bath tub and linoleum. I am turned off by that and go back the other way. In the living room we decide to leave.

We get outside and I see a man in a truck in the yard yell at me to let him in. He is the exterminator and needs in. My mom and I wonder why an exterminator would come so late in the day. It is about to get dark. Before I could do anything I get distracted by my older daughter and my two mini dachshunds. We all go back inside and I worry that one of the dogs will pee. I tell my daughter not to touch her because she will get too excited and pee on the carpet.

Interpretations: None at the moment

Happy Skies

I am molesting a woman but she quickly puts me in my place. Then I see my wife bent over.
I press against her and say,"How much?"
She laughs and replys, "$100 and you can do whatever you like."
I get handsy with her and ask, "How about $50?"
She says, "For that you get a panty ride."
She is in just panties and a t-shirt and gives me a lap dance. I close my eyes in the dream and it feels amazing.

I suddenly open my eyes because the shock of it. (It is a false awakening) I want to go to bathroom and change but its like the dream the other day. There are people sleeping in odd places. I see my nephew asleep in the bathtub.
I realize am in a trailor house so I go to the other end. I see my dad asleep in a bed. I go to the bathroom. I start to change and I see red carpet in the bathroom. Something about this gives me a horrible memory and a bad aweful feeling. I think something like this is the house where that bad thing happened. I start to shake and feel scared(I honestly have no clue what that was about) But the feeling quickly passes. And I go about my bussiness.

As I walk out I see his eyes are open. He is just starting at the wall. I know he sees me but he doesn't move. I think maybe he is just half asleep still. Then, I hear him say something rude (can't remember what he said) I stop and look at him but just then my dad walks in. My dad tells my dad, "You stop that. What he does is perfectly natural and we all do it!"
I don't want this so I tell my dad, "Pleeeeease just let it go. Please."
(The man looked like my dad but didn't sound like my dad at all. He almost sounded feminine and flamboyant. Plus my dad talking to my dad... Whuuuuut?)

We walk outside. I look around and another trailer in front of us with a faded deck. I see mountains in the distance and a clear blue sky and I see a nebula thing in the day sky. Almost like that sky in Asgard in the Thor movie. I see a line of planets there to. They look brownish and dark with almost a grainy texture. There are very large ones and very smalls one. The large ones have what look like moons. The colors are bland. Mostly browns and yellows. I see a few stars in it though. I see texture and great detail. I stop and feel confused. I think how awesome the sight is.

Then, in a flash, I think, "wait something is odd. Something unnatural. This is not normal. I am dreaming!!!!!" I just know that I am dreaming. I don't even bother with RC. (Like I said before, if I have the mind to question, I just know)

I tell my dad. "Dad! We are dreaming!" As I begin to float I laugh and giggle breathlessly. I feel so giddy. I am so happy because I have been trying so hard lately.
The guy posing as my dad blows air out and looks scared. I think for a moment how I have had it in the back of my mind to find a dream guide. This guy may be the one. I let it go for now. I notice that I am touching the ground again
I say, "No really! We are dreaming."
I take his hand and use my other hand to push of the railing on the deck. We float up together a few meters. He is smiling and laughing quietly. I now know he believes me. I am out of breath with excitement. The entire scene is so vivid and so awesome. The sky is clear. I see the mountains in the distance. The summer grass below us is brown in spots. The air feels cool. I feel great peace.

I look back at the planets in the sky. They are very vivid pictures. Still there. I think how it looks like a text book. I study it so that I can remember the thing that made me lucid this time. I think, "Yes, strange things in the sky. Of course, that is a very old dream sign of mine."
Then suddenly I remember TOTM but before I could do anything every thing fades to black and I am back in my recliner with my eyes closed wishing it had not ended so soon.