 Originally Posted by frost458
Hi,
I had my first sleep paralysis at 16, the next a couple of days later.
I'm now 24 and had had hundreds of them.
They happen when I'm not getting enought sleep (less than 4h a day for several days).
But, each time I get one I am not lucid, I am convinced that what is happening is real.
by that I mean that I see demons, ghosts and suchs, but never I am able to recall "hey, chill out, this is sleep paralysis".
In fact only once I was lucid, but my brain still managed to scare the shit out of me.
here I was, paralysed and fully lucid, I though "niiiiice, here I come lucid dream".
Then I felt a warm liquid pouring into my ears, it was my first kinestesic hallucination, I found this weird and tried to moved.
A huge crack happend inside my head, then I felt this liquid pouring into my throat, drowing me, and tasting like blood.
I paniqued, tried to cancel the paralysis and I did, then instantaniously no more blood, no more difficulty to breath.
I was very disappointed, it was the first time I was lucid but my brain still managed to screw me up :/
I never had a lucid SP again.
what about you?
ps : some times I'm also able to see through my closed eyeslid, apparently this happens some time to people experiencing SP, it's an illusion tho.
But each detail of my room is there.
frost458,
I also experience Isolated Sleep Paralysis. (I am using this psychology term to distinguish the disorder from the "sleep paralysis" most people refer to on the forum. Let's say ISP for short.) I experienced it for at least ten years of my life. I would see a figure made of dense, black smoke with red eyes. At first, The Shadow Demon would only be at my door or in my room (which is terrifying enough!), but later he began hovering above me. At its worst, I would have bouts once or twice a week. I am also a natural lucid dreamer, though I only have a few LD's a year naturally. Only once have I had ISP lead to a lucid dream, and even then it felt completely different than any of my other lucid dreams. I suspect it may have actually been an OBE. I almost never have LDs that take place in my room or house - they are usually in locations that do not exist in WR. When my dreams (lucid or not) do take place in a real WR location, there are usually at least a few details that will be off. All of my ISP episodes where not only in my room, but every detail of my room seemed to be exactly correct. I think it would be extremely difficult to transition from an ISP episode to a lucid dream due to the paralysis and overwhelming terror. Even now, sitting awake and conscious in my living room, its hard for me to conceive of the entity I would see during these episodes as "just a hallucination". In a way, I believe the Shadow Demon that visited me is a type of actual entity, but one that is inexplicably connected to my psyche. What I find fascinating is the similarity of experiences in people who experience this phenomenon across cultural and geographic barriers. Even years after these episodes, I am still greatly affected by them and wonder what makes the "shadow people" a part of our collective iconography. Perhaps they are a sort of Jungian archetype.
Even if you are unable to turn the actual ISP episode into a LD, I do believe the experience of Isolated Sleep Paralysis and the ability to lucid dream may be connected. Perhaps your experiences may help you to achieve LDs easier than most. If you want to lessen the frequency of ISP occurrences, I do have some advice. First of all, try to get at least 7-8 hours of sleep a night. Also, limit stress and depression in your life as much as possible. I found that I had attacks of these sorts much more often during dark periods of my life and that when I made positive changes the frequency of ISP episodes lessened. Talking to a therapist certainly helps as well. I discovered for me ISP is related to a specific childhood trauma.
There were actually two times when the ISP episode transformed from a terrifying experience to an ecstatic one, when I managed to relax into the terror and just let the experience happen. I don't want to go into the details of that experience here, but I after I moved past the terror, I was able to find a bliss I had never experienced before.
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