Quote Originally Posted by sivason View Post
Wow. I just had another and it creeps me out! I am getting what I asked for, but have become spoiled by never having bad dreams. I kind of forgot how horrible bad dreams are! I still think it is somehow a valuable experiment. Read this next part and tell me if there is something I can get out of this, other than chills...

"""12/04/13 I really did have a fully non-lucid and was shocked. I have really had basically no bad dreams in years, due to always being semi-lucid. This was very uncomfortable. I am in a house and my sister is telling my wife about things that make me so angry. The things she is talking about did happen to my father and his sister, but in the dream they happened to us, and I want it kept a secret. My father had kept it secret his whole life, and his sister just recently told my sister the details. I got so angry that I told my sister I would beat her up if she were a man. My wife said what happened to me as a child did not in any way hurt how she felt about me. I grabbed the sprayer on the sink and sprayed it full into my sisters face, but even then she kept talking about it.

Well, I asked for some truly vivid fully non-lucids, so I guess I got that. I am not used to this, and it makes me cringe a little. I am not sure what to make out of it."""
It almost sounds like you may be hiding or keeping certain information about yourself, from yourself. Something I have had to become extremely careful with is the term "secret." I honestly believe (whether its waking or dreaming) having secrets will be one of your biggest down falls. If you have a secret of any kind, it will end up being used against you. Don't hold secrets, don't keep them, don't hid anything from yourself or others.

As for the path you have taken with dreaming, this is what I did after I began understanding LDing. It is the perfect way to dig into what you really desire/fear, I became a complete observer within my dreams. If you become semi-lucid during these events, it is completely fine, you can actually dig in deeper to the meaning of the dream. Instead of doing reality checks, stabilizing and controlling the dream, you can start to ask yourself questions about the dream, or basically guide yourself through what is happening. To me, they become almost like out of body experiences. I exercise control, but only to the point of navigating the maze/ trap/information/etc. Literally ask yourself (within the dream) what the dream means and why certain things are happening. Or look for signs (similar to dream signs) as to why or what is really on your mind. Observe the environment to see if there is anything left as clues or hints. Is anything out of place? things missing? maybe the tree's talk, etc.. There will always be something out of place in a dream, but the key is to observe it, and then understand what it is actually telling you.