Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Suena;

Broken: I've been there. I'm actually having my second, and I was kinda rooting for ya. Just to know I'm not one of the only pregnant girls on this forum, lol. Then again, I'm happy that you aren't because I can imagine having two kids that close in age... gee... think of how many diapers you'd be changing a day! I think I'm going to have my hands full with a newborn and a two year old. close in age is always a plus, too though.

Congrats to you! My kids are almost exactly 2 and a half years apart, and it's actually a really nice age gap I think. I hope your pregnancy goes perfectly and you have a healthy baby.

I'm still depressed and wondering if I want to actively start trying for another...or if that would just be madness. Sigh. I don't know. I'm so indecisive. Also, I saw a huge spider INSIDE my tv screen today. Wtf? How does this happen? I am just imagining it laying eggs amongst the innards of my television and my house being taken over by thousands of tiny baby spiders. Omg it sends me into a panic just thinking about it!

*decide to boot up the Wii for the first time since I moved, because I have a new game I bought for it*
*notice that helpful dad sent everything along EXCEPT the Wii remote*
FUUUUUUU--

/firstworldproblems

I missed something..... whats with all the pink?

Originally Posted by ZeraCook

I missed something..... whats with all the pink?

Alex has come out of the closet and he wants everyone to know.

Oh. So its signified with pink?

Originally Posted by ZeraCook

I missed something..... whats with all the pink?

You should visit Meta Forum more often.

Something about the Word Meta scares me...

I was driving my car to the autoshop to get it looked at and I got pulled over and cited because apparently my license was suspended. Of course they wouldn't tell me, if they told me, they wouldn't get to nickle and dime even more money from me.

I haven't slept for like 48 hours.

So the rest of those responses... Turns out there's only really one of those I quoted I feel I can reply to. For the rest, I can only express sympathy.

Originally Posted by tommo

With the anxiety, just keep working at it man. I know it's shite advice, but it's the only advice. You need to stop thinking about it and just practice talking to people.
I thought not being able to talk to people was due to my anxiety for a really long time, but it was just that I literally didn't give a single fuck about anything most people said.
If you can find people who actually interest you, it will help to be able to start talking more.
It is good to be able to talk to people somewhat that you don't find interesting at all, coz you'll meet them all the time.
But you don't have to hold full conversations.

(...)

Read my advice to Gavin above. Pretty much applies to you. SSRI's won't help. Or if they do they'll leave you a zombie.
It's not necessarily a "bad" state. But it's not living.

It's not really something that's all so easy to work with. The prime problem with depression is the lack of initiative and energy (at least for me). Besides, I can't even tell what I'm supposed to work on. I don't even know how else to think, I've had this for so long I really know no other way of living.
'not necessarily a "bad" state. But it's not living.' sounds pretty good.

More Khh. I know how that is. Which is why I miss Provigil so much. It's like speed and energizes me. Personally, I feel so blah and anxious it's hard to MAKE myself do something I fear is going to make me feel worse. Which is why I live in my bedroom. It's safe here.
But MAKING yourself do something often starts the ball rolling, so to speak and I feel even better for getting out or speaking with someone (I could happily go for days without saying anything).

I have a headache, I'm exhausted and I still have UT discomfort. But it's all tolerable. Which is weird. I'd rate the headache a 4-5 and the UT discomfort at a mid 6 but it's "tolerable" ? I do appreciate my pain tolerance/threshold but I do laugh about it and think it strange. When I broke my wrist, the pain was only a 7 (until it had to be set which sent it above the standard 10 scale lol)
I've taken no medicine yet today- not even a patch. But pain seems to progress with the day so I'll probably take something to get a jump on it.

I was suppose to see my p-doc at 1PM. I'm used to my appointments being at 2. I called to say I'd be 10 minutes late or reschedule but they worked me in at 3. It went well enough. He thinks there's nothing wrong with laughing at problems, stress, pain etc. It's not "masking" or "dismissing". It's just me. He fears my daughters therapist is a quack lol
But it's still a point of aggravation. I could go sit in a corner and rock or cut myself or I can have a laugh AND talk about the issue. But why is the extreme there in my mind. Why can't I be sad or angry and still discuss things? I was about to write that that's something I should ask my p-doc about but then it occurred to me: Why do I NEED to get sad or angry? Why make myself feel something I'd rather not?
It's all stupid...

Originally Posted by tommo

Why can't you eat the weed? Or vaporise?
With the anxiety, just keep working at it man. I know it's shite advice, but it's the only advice. You need to stop thinking about it and just practice talking to people.
I thought not being able to talk to people was due to my anxiety for a really long time, but it was just that I literally didn't give a single fuck about anything most people said.
If you can find people who actually interest you, it will help to be able to start talking more.
It is good to be able to talk to people somewhat that you don't find interesting at all, coz you'll meet them all the time.
But you don't have to hold full conversations.

I bake it into cookies and brownies but I end up finishing my stash pretty quick that way. When I was smoking, I'd make a joint last me the entire day with a few puffs every other hour so 1 gram was enough for a couple different sessions. But when I bake edibles, I ended up using 1 gram per serving so as you could imagine, it becomes costly. That wouldn't be a problem if I had a job, but I can't really do that with my anxiety.

And it's not just when I'm around people, I'm just always really nervous. It's been like that since I was a kid. When I realized cannabis made my anxiety disappear (and totally relieved me of stress, was a natural anti-depressant, etc), it was like a godsend. I'm thinking about buying some seeds and planting them in a forest by my place that's rarely ever visited by people and then harvesting it for personal use. In the mean time, I'm going to try and educate my parents about all things cannabis and then (eventually) tell them I burn. They buy into the whole reefer madness nonsense so it'll take a while.

Originally Posted by dakotahnok

Alyzarin you must watch this thread like a hawk. You like my post as soon as I post them. I think you are always the first.

inorite

And it's not just this thread, it's practically this entire section. Whenever I log in and see that I have a few notifications, there's almost always one or two from Aly (and/or Zhaylin).

I've always had a horrible reaction to weed. It makes my heart race to the point where I have passed out. It increases my anxiety to where I'm just freaking out until the high wears off. Weird how differently crap can affect people...

My current rant is that my muffler apparently decided to take a shit today and now it sounds like my car is a freaking bomb rolling down the street.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I bake it into cookies and brownies but I end up finishing my stash pretty quick that way. When I was smoking, I'd make a joint last me the entire day with a few puffs every other hour so 1 gram was enough for a couple different sessions. But when I bake edibles, I ended up using 1 gram per serving so as you could imagine, it becomes costly. That wouldn't be a problem if I had a job, but I can't really do that with my anxiety.

And it's not just when I'm around people, I'm just always really nervous. It's been like that since I was a kid. When I realized cannabis made my anxiety disappear (and totally relieved me of stress, was a natural anti-depressant, etc), it was like a godsend. I'm thinking about buying some seeds and planting them in a forest by my place that's rarely ever visited by people and then harvesting it for personal use. In the mean time, I'm going to try and educate my parents about all things cannabis and then (eventually) tell them I burn. They buy into the whole reefer madness nonsense so it'll take a while.

Edibles should last longer though. Should get a good 8 hours. Although yeah, that's like $20 a day. (Going by lenient Aus prices).

Remember if you grow, you can't just leave em there and take the buds later on. You're gonna have to figure out some sort of
water system, not automatic but some easy way to water it. Then when it's all done you need to hang and dry the buds. Guess that could be done up a tree. But you have to do it well or it tastes horrible.

Originally Posted by khh

So the rest of those responses... Turns out there's only really one of those I quoted I feel I can reply to. For the rest, I can only express sympathy.


It's not really something that's all so easy to work with. The prime problem with depression is the lack of initiative and energy (at least for me). Besides, I can't even tell what I'm supposed to work on. I don't even know how else to think, I've had this for so long I really know no other way of living.
'not necessarily a "bad" state. But it's not living.' sounds pretty good.

Yes I know you have no initiative or energy. You can say that you were worse off than me or whatever other excuses you want to make to justify not getting yourself better.
The fact is people have had it worse than you and gotten through it. You just need to push yourself once to go for a run or a ride or a swim and you'll feel infinitely better.

That will give you enough energy and initiative (initiative is to feel good) to do it again the next day. It seriously doesn't have to be long or intense, a 10 minute medium paced walk is good.
Just do it.

My rant is I missed all the pink.

Also I so badly want to tell people not to have more kids. But it's the one thing I feel like I have to restrain myself from saying for some reason.
The world has more than enough people, stop giving in to your selfish desires which will never be fulfilled and try to be happy with what you have.
If you HAVE to, have two kids, as that will keep the population under control.

Sigh.... I just want the government to implement maximum child policy of 2 and be done with it so I don't have to filter myself all the time.

This isn't directed at the two young mothers here specifically. I just want to say it coz I can never say it IRL.

Originally Posted by dakotahnok

Alyzarin you must watch this thread like a hawk. You like my post as soon as I post them. I think you are always the first.

DV is basically my social life these days outside of a few close friends and people I only see in class, so it's easy to stay up on my favorite threads. And there's so much likeable content here, it'd be a shame to miss any of it.

Sudden Realization: The word 'content', as in the way I just used it, and the word 'content', as in the emoticon, are the exact same word.

Originally Posted by brokedownheart

I've always had a horrible reaction to weed. It makes my heart race to the point where I have passed out. It increases my anxiety to where I'm just freaking out until the high wears off. Weird how differently crap can affect people...

Most people just need to get used to it and make sure they're smoking in a really comfortable setting. Unfortunately, some people don't have a positive reaction no matter how many times they try it. Shame. =/

Originally Posted by tommo

Edibles should last longer though. Should get a good 8 hours. Although yeah, that's like $20 a day. (Going by lenient Aus prices).

Remember if you grow, you can't just leave em there and take the buds later on. You're gonna have to figure out some sort of
water system, not automatic but some easy way to water it. Then when it's all done you need to hang and dry the buds. Guess that could be done up a tree. But you have to do it well or it tastes horrible.

Yeah I've got it all planned on and I'll be getting some help. I frequent a cannabis discussion forum and it's full of useful information. If I decide to grow my own, that is.
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My chest...



It's not just my left side any more, it hurts on the right as well. I really hope my lungs don't collapse again, every time it happens it increases the likelihood of me needing major surgery. I'm going to need to go through this, which already has me slightly worried, what if I end up needing a lung transplant? Hell, what if I don't even qualify for the transplant?

I used to rely on marijuana to increase my appetite as well but ever since I stopped smoking, I've started eating less. I just don't get hungry. My last meal was like 6 hours ago and I'm going to have to force myself to eat now, because like I said, I rarely ever get hungry. I've lost like 20 pounds since my lung first collapsed and I was already fairly thin before that. I'm pretty sure I'd be declared underweight - which could disqualify me for a transplant (if it comes to that).

So yeah, I'm not exactly scared (yet), but I'm definitely worried.

Feel better, Gavin. Don't hesitate to take action if you think something is happening....

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I used to rely on marijuana to increase my appetite as well but ever since I stopped smoking, I've started eating less. I just don't get hungry. My last meal was like 6 hours ago and I'm going to have to force myself to eat now, because like I said, I rarely ever get hungry. I've lost like 20 pounds since my lung first collapsed and I was already fairly thin before that. I'm pretty sure I'd be declared underweight - which could disqualify me for a transplant (if it comes to that).

Your appetite will improve. I've taken smoking breaks a few times now and my appetite is always barely existent at first.... I stopped like less than a week ago and the last time I smoked was in the morning, before breakfast. I forgot to eat lunch and dinner. Weed does have legitimate withdrawals, insignificant as they are compared to the harder drugs. Just choke it down for now and it'll get easier, I promise.

Now I'm really pissed. I have wanted my bold and my font gone for a long time now. But now they just took the font away and I'm just bold. I feel like an idiot every time I post. I want it all gone. D:

I made tuna fettuccine Alfredo today. It tasted really frwaking good but I burned my thumb so bad. Then I was pouring tea from the pot into a glass and it spilled over and burned my thumb again!

So now I have to get it amputated. Just kidding, but maybe it would hurt less?

I've had the problem before I started smoking though. D:

But you're right, it will eventually improve a fair a bit.

Originally Posted by GavinGill

I've had the problem before I started smoking though. D:

But you're right, it will eventually improve a fair a bit.

Go restaurant hopping and/or mooch off of your friends whose parents are excellent cooks for a little while, anything to make sure that every meal you eat, or damn near, is considerably above average. Once you've eaten enough extremely delicious food in a short enough amount of time, your body won't just want to give up on all of that dopamine, and your appetite will significantly improve and you'll start getting fat. If you're technically underweight then that counts as good advice, right?

We shall have a funeral for your noble thumb, Dakotah
But nah... the blisters will pass, it'll just hurt like hell for a couple days (if that long).

I'm one of those people who can't smoke weed. It makes me feel car sick (light-headed and nauseous).

I woke up with a POUNDING headache about 30 minutes ago. Hubby called and woke me. I was absolutely dead to the world and having some awesome dreams. But my head aches too badly to write them down (it can take an easy 10 minutes to write down the good ones).
I'll probably just write down snippets to help my recall later.
I took 1/2 a Valium for this headache. I freagin hate Valium but if it keeps this headache from worsening, I'll live with the fatigue. I rarely ever take anything more than 1/4 but this headache is pushing toward an 8 pretty quickly.
I never did take any meds. I guess I'll do that now (2 tylenol, 2 ibuprofen). But I should really try to eat something first...

**EDIT**
I left here and went to CNN. You pot smokers are going to be facing even more harassment:
http://www.cnn.com/2012/06/27/us/flo...html?hpt=hp_t2
WTH? I've never heard of pot causing something like that...

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

I left here and went to CNN. You pot smokers are going to be facing even more harassment:
Tests in cannibalism case: Zombie-like attacker used pot, not 'bath salts' - CNN.com
WTH? I've never heard of pot causing something like that...

Translation: There was one cannibal, one person out of billions, and he happened to smoke weed like 99% of the rest of the world, but the weed will now be blamed for it.

Alternative theory: Cannabis = Cannibal?

i tried getting on the highway to drive to work, but ended up just sitting in the on ramp for 5 minutes. traffic wasn't even crawling. so, not knowing that area well, i plugged in the address to my gps and told it to pick an alternative route.

it took me right through the city. i probably would've been better off waiting on the highway. normally, my drive to work is about 45-50 minutes. Today it took 80 minutes and I ended up being 15 minutes late to work.

Edit: yea, just saw that as well. Only thing that showed up on tests was weed. I really hope they don't turn this around and try to now blame marijuana. another guy apparently ate his dog while using spice, saw that today as well. but i can even see that being used as an ant-marijuana propaganda, seeing as it is "synthetic marijuana" (shouldn't even be called that).