Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Carrot

Is it very serious? If it is manageable, I think you shouldn't take the medicine too. Try something like cognitive behavioral therapy if they do have.

Rant: Sore throat. Too much BBQ stuff two days ago. That was the only thing that was available for eating at the birthday party I went.

I'd say it's manageable, and my doctor gave me a few options, so should I try therapy before going for the medication?

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

I'd say it's manageable, and my doctor gave me a few options, so should I try therapy before going for the medication?

Just to chime in, Carrot's quite right. The potential side effects of OCD medications (except for weed unless you don't want to be high all the time, but especially with SSRIs) are definitely not something I would ever call worth it if you can still manage your condition by yourself. Actually, I think that's true for any prescription medicine.... Don't take something for medical purposes unless you NEED it. Drugs should be your last option for this kind of thing, after everything else fails consistently.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Just to chime in, Carrot's quite right. The potential side effects of OCD medications (except for weed unless you don't want to be high all the time, but especially with SSRIs) are definitely not something I would ever call worth it if you can still manage your condition by yourself. Actually, I think that's true for any prescription medicine.... Don't take something for medical purposes unless you NEED it. Drugs should be your last option for this kind of thing, after everything else fails consistently.

Okay! thanks guys!

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Just to chime in, Carrot's quite right. The potential side effects of OCD medications (except for weed unless you don't want to be high all the time, but especially with SSRIs) are definitely not something I would ever call worth it if you can still manage your condition by yourself. Actually, I think that's true for any prescription medicine.... Don't take something for medical purposes unless you NEED it. Drugs should be your last option for this kind of thing, after everything else fails consistently.

Yeah. Aly's my "doctor". I've asked her about taking medication when my OCD was pretty serious once. So now I've been using my willpower.

What are your OCD symptoms if you don't mind sharing?

Originally Posted by Carrot

Yeah. Aly's my "doctor". I've asked her about taking medication when my OCD was pretty serious once. So now I've been using my willpower.

What are your OCD symptoms if you don't mind sharing?

Of course I don't mind!

I get very stressed/anxious if things aren't orderly or matched, sometimes I get strong impulses to do negative things, and I worry about little things much more than I apparently "should", like whether or not I washed my hands before eating a meal or if I closed the fridge all the way before leaving on a trip

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

Of course I don't mind!

I get very stressed/anxious if things aren't orderly or matched, sometimes I get strong impulses to do negative things, and I worry about little things much more than I apparently "should", like whether or not I washed my hands before eating a meal or if I closed the fridge all the way before leaving on a trip

I've been constantly replaying scenes in my mind about the part when I wrapped my friend's birthday present. I was worried I gave him something more than the book. Now I'm worried I might go and return my newly bought book instead of my library book.

On days when I get my period, I have new unwanted thoughts about blood. -.-

But usually the reasoning I'll give to myself to tackle the illogical side of my OCD is if I've done something wrong, I would notice it straightaway instead of constantly questioning myself have something wrong been done. Something like trusting your first instinct reaction.

Originally Posted by Carrot

I've been constantly replaying scenes in my mind about the part when I wrapped my friend's birthday present. I was worried I gave him something more than the book. Now I'm worried I might go and return my newly bought book instead of my library book.

On days when I get my period, I have new unwanted thoughts about blood. -.-

But usually the reasoning I'll give to myself to tackle the illogical side of my OCD is if I've done something wrong, I would notice it straightaway instead of constantly questioning myself have something wrong been done. Something like trusting your first instinct reaction.

Yeah, when I get like that I make some more tea, take a break from whatever I'm doing, and try my best to just chill out. Jazz and a nice book is always good too

Originally Posted by SnowyCat

Yeah, when I get like that I make some more tea, take a break from whatever I'm doing, and try my best to just chill out. Jazz and a nice book is always good too

Books affect my OCD too. I tend to re-read if I get disturbed or whenever I reach the last line on a page, then I do multiple checks to make sure the next page number is the right one and I didn't skip a page. @_@

Originally Posted by Carrot

Books affect my OCD too. I tend to re-read if I get disturbed or whenever I reach the last line on a page, then I do multiple checks to make sure the next page number is the right one and I didn't skip a page. @_@

Oh man! That sounds pretty rough-- I don't know where I'd be without my books!

The more I encounter people's opinions on the internet the more I want to facepalm.

Maybe it's time for a nice drink and some dinner.

Originally Posted by melanieb

The more I encounter people's opinions on the internet the more I want to facepalm.

Maybe it's time for a nice drink and some dinner.

-I tried to meditate in the last 1 hour and 45 minutes.I slept through it all after 15 minutes, or even less.

So after I wash my face from that map, I have to wash the dishes soon in a semi-groggy state. Oh nooo, end of the world.

If the Chase Bank ATM near my area worked (I hope they fixed the problem), I might just order some late night Asian Food, finish my Pre-Lab Questions and Pre-Lab Write up, which are just gimmie points, but are annoying.

But wait a second, I have to wake up early, I can't avoid washing the dishes no matter what I do! Oh noessss, I'm in a catch-22. Darn.

If I can clean just one small plate, I slam one pancake and douse that baby with syrup and cheese...but what if I want two? I have step up my game.

But but....if I buy Asian Dinner, I can 50/50 if the ATM is working, but I might eat the whole thing since my stomach is a vortex. I've noticed I've been eating and eating and eating small things that I know will add up.

I just ate a whole box of Raisin Bran cereal that's supposed to be distributed for 2 weeks. Even the breakfast tacos are gone. I don't look fat, but I don't want to take a picture of myself to really see how I am. D:

It's not like I let the dishes look like shit or anything, I wash them, put them on the sink, and just go back to washing when I need them again. I'm not lazy, I'm just.....conserving energy.

Then I remember that post a girl made on Facebook that "just because she's not updating her photos in a while, it doesn't mean she's fast" comment, I feel that's the opposite for me.

Ahhhhhh, I shouldn't worry about my weight, I think, I'm just fine, I ride my bicycle pretty frequently.

Ideal Weekly Schedule to abide to until semester ends:

• Class Time: 13.33 hours
• Studying: 38.5-40 hours <---- holy shit, need to up bit more, but that's just crazy
• Working: I don't have a job
• Sports/Exercise: 1-1.5 hours
• Eating: 17.5 hours <----Okay, that's just another word for a mini-break...like long mini-breaks.
• Sleeping: 49 hours (Only 7 hours a day? That means I have to WBTB 3.5-4 hours and try to WILD the rest off)
• Recreation 3 hours.....looool, 3 hours, and that's the Anime Club that I'm still anxious about
• Other: 4-7 hours, which is just 4-7 extra of studying with the Tutoring and Week-In-Reviews for Math
• Total estimate range: 126.33 hours-131.33 hours

I hope I can do this man...guys, I'm going to do this....GUYS....I can do this...just for this semester...then I can adjust to a 19 hour class schedule (Credit-wise) instead of 14

No rest for the weary.....I'm starting to become appreciative of that quote....like...what's wrong with me man?

*Prays ATM is working*

Yesterday my friend fed me a chunk of habanero pepper without telling me what it was. I thought it was a piece of sun dried tomato or something. So I eat it, and go through the most painful experience I can remember having in a long fucking time. I wanted to die for the first ten minutes and I couldn't talk for the next 10.

There was a pretty big storm in the DV Chat yesterday. Or at least some of it was there, the rest of it continued in a separate room.
I like to think that I can handle getting any flak that comes my way, and I still think so, but man it kind of hurts too. When I walk away from the computer afterwards I'll be shaky and I'll be incredibly distracted. I almost couldn't fall asleep because my thoughts just kept going on and on about it.

It was also funny to see someone who has ignored me talk about what I am and what I do. It was almost surreal to read the amount of distortion, especially on top of all these experiences with K and S. And even more so because I couldn't respond to any of it, I just had to sit there reading this guy saying the most ridiculous things about me.
These past few days have been the season for drama. Even Mr.T started throwing flak my way a few days ago. That was after my last post, where K had asked me to visit them the next day. I couldn't stop thinking about it, so I contacted Mr.T, and it turns out he's really uncomfortable with me at times... It resulted in a pretty long heated discussion. That was the worst I'd felt in a long time. And I don't get it either, it's like I'm the only one that's actually considering the things K says and feels.

EDIT:
Perhaps the worst thing about the shitstorm was that I lost my internet connection all of a sudden, forcing me to quit. Now I have no idea what happened afterwards, I wasn't the only one engaging in the debate.

(extremely vain problem)

I started trying to lose weight about 11 days ago, and since then have lost about 7 pounds. I'm not overweight, I look thin enough with my clothes on. But I would like to look really good in other circumstances. I'm walking for about 45 minutes every day and eating very little. Typically I'll eat two eggs at breakfast, and then a whole-wheat tortilla wrap containing meat, lettuce, etc. around dinner, without any snacks or beverages besides coffee/water/tea. I'm considering starting exercising more soon to develop abs and w/e.

It's taking a lot of willpower and smoking is definitely helping. I'm generally feeling okay; I don't usually feel ridiculously hungry until I'm about to eat dinner or right before bed. But a couple times I've felt like I was going to faint, and this morning I was so nauseous I felt like I was going to puke until I ate, so I'm worried that I'm eating unhealthily little and I'm not sure what to do. I don't need to lose weight as quickly as I am, but am afraid to stop doing exactly what I'm doing. I don't so much as allow myself to eat even the smallest snack no matter how hungry I am (like one chip) because I'm almost sure I'd end up eating more. I'm really good at justifying doing stupid things when I want them badly enough. The only thing keeping me on this 'diet' is that it's become routine. After trying to lose weight for years, and finally really doing it, I don't feel I can risk changing anything until I've lost the weight. But I'm getting the feeling I'm doing something wrong.

I went to IHoP today and, because the breakfast was big compared to the two eggs I usually have, I feel like I've overeaten. My stomach area even looks bigger, like it did two weeks ago. Is that just how it's going to look, no matter what, unless I have abs, after eating a decently sized meal? Does that happen even to people who are really skinny after eating a big meal? Is it just the food in me taking up space? Is working on my abs the only way to prevent that? Or did my body really store that much fat all today or something, because I've been eating so little it's like "finally a lot of food! Since she's probably going to go back to barely eating anything now we need to store as much fat as possible!" I really don't know enough about how this works, and probably sound like an idiot to anyone who does, but please tell me where I'm mistaken.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Is that just how it's going to look, no matter what, unless I have abs, after eating a decently sized meal?

Yes, even if you do have abs. Look at this for example.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Does that happen even to people who are really skinny after eating a big meal? Is it just the food in me taking up space?

Yes and Yes.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

did my body really store that much fat all today or something, because I've been eating so little it's like "finally a lot of food! Since she's probably going to go back to barely eating anything now we need to store as much fat as possible!"

Ding ding ding!

Yes. When you don't eat 3 meals a day (and ideally you should snack too - in between breakfast and lunch and lunch and dinner) your body stores MORE fat, because it needs it for energy later on since you aren't eating any carbohydrates.

Thanks for the input and for possibly clearing a few things up.

But there are skinny people who seem to always have flat stomachs. Perhaps when you're that skinny the stomach expansion is hardly noticeable, or those people eat barely anything just before they're going to show their stomachs (hate using the word stomach when that's an internal organ). Come to think of it though, I had a perfect stomach until the age of 16 and I don't remember it ever expanding. Maybe it doesn't happen to kids? I'm not sure I believe you on this point yet.

@Dianeva: I think they're people with higher metabolism rates, no matter how much they eat they still look skinny. I think you should engage a nutritionist help if you want to slim down, the amount of food you ate don't seem healthy.

@D you also want to take note of when you're the hungriest, and schedule your meals at those times. I don't know what kind of portions you were eating pre-diet, but you should eat smaller amounts, but more throughout the day. IE or more small meals throughout the day so you will be less inclined to over eat when given the opportunity. As for the stomach expansion you mentioned...who knows. But I mean a big meal that isn't really going anywhere. Sure I could see it happening. I think you only noticed because you may be a little more self conscious about your changes in your body.

Edit:

You also may want to consider making gradual changes to your diet instead of making it so dramatic. Cutting out sweets, eating whole grains instead of whites, more fruit consumption that sort of thing. IMO it's a lot easier to make gradual changes to a diet than big ones. I started skating an hour or two 1-3 times a week, and stopped drinking sodas and lost weight over a months time. Now I'm starting to eat more vegetables, leaner meats, and whole wheat grains. When weight loss hit's a plateau, I'll either step up my exercise routine to include gym work, or decrease my calorie/carb intake....which means bye bye beer/liquor.

Originally Posted by Carrot

@Dianeva: I think they're people with higher metabolism rates, no matter how much they eat they still look skinny. I think you should engage a nutritionist help if you want to slim down, the amount of food you ate don't seem healthy.

I think I have a high metabolism where I seem to burn a lot of nervous energy. I generally can eat whatever, although I try to steer clear of fizzy drinks or sugar (inc. sweetener) in tea.

I do walk a bit, and do light exercise however.

My exhaustion outright amazes me.
I sang the praises of 5-hour energy much too soon. I drank half yesterday early in the evening and then fell promptly to sleep. I drank the other half later in the evening and fell right to sleep.
I've been averaging about 15-17 hours of sleep per day. But just now, sitting at my desk, supposedly awake after sleeping so long, I fell asleep. I woke because I heard the cries of wolves and it occurred to me that there was no such sound in the game I was playing.
Friggin travel-anxiety is ridiculous!!! I even eliminated one source of anxiety yesterday by telling hubby we need to take either his truck or my car on the trip because I hate is Prius. The headlights aren't aligned properly so even when driving with the low beams the other drivers get annoyed with me because they think I have my high beams on.

As for diets... I think once you start putting on a little pudge the space is "filled" more easily because the skin has stretched. I used to be extremely thin (too thin). If I ate a lot, my stomach might have protruded the teensiest bit.
But now-a-days, if I lose weight then eat a little too much, the pooch seems more pronounced. That's when I figured it was just the stretched skin.
My diet sucks and I can literally sit at my computer ALL day except to use the restroom, tend the pets, or to grab another Coke.
My daily caloric intake usually consists of 2 hotdogs with Provalone cheese and bacon, a handful of chips and something sweet and about 25-52 ounces of Coke.
I think my weight has evened out at 145 pounds (5 foot 5)

My sons been cooking more now that we have an electric skillet, so I'm starting to eat a little better. I'll have one real* meal a day instead of the hotdogs (*mostly meat and beans no veggies or fruit).

I still smoke close to 2 packs a day.
My blood pressure and pulse, sugar and basic blood work are still normal thus far, but I realize a change is needed and soon. I'm 38 years old.
I keep hoping that eating better will give me more energy which in turn will motivate me to move more

I feel "Blah" today. I need to do some laundry and hang them outside to dry (still haven't found a dryer cord ) and I need to clean out my car and vacuum it so hubby can clear out the air with his ozonator (sp). We're taking my car on the trip but he needs to eliminate the cigarette smells.
Which means I have to get all of my running around done because I can't drive it for 24 hours afterward because it has to air out.
But I WANT to crawl back in bed and sleep all day...

So tomorrow I have to take the bus for the first time ever. I took the bus a few times though but that was with my mates. I'm so anxious and nervous, I feel sick just thinking about it. I'm just so anxious about waiting for the bus, getting on the bus, finding a seat, having everyone look at me as I get on and off the bus. Like what if certain kids start to pick on me, steal my phone or what if the bus is full and I'll be the only person standing there in the middle when everyone's sitting down and looking at me. I'm not even sure if I'm going to make it through the day omg. Any tips?

Originally Posted by Original Poster

Yesterday my friend fed me a chunk of habanero pepper without telling me what it was. I thought it was a piece of sun dried tomato or something. So I eat it, and go through the most painful experience I can remember having in a long fucking time. I wanted to die for the first ten minutes and I couldn't talk for the next 10.

I actually thought the habanero wasn't that bad, maybe because I'm used to it, my friends grandfather eats ghost chillis raw (somehow), I tried licking one and I almost died

Originally Posted by Crashyy

So tomorrow I have to take the bus for the first time ever. I took the bus a few times though but that was with my mates. I'm so anxious and nervous, I feel sick just thinking about it. I'm just so anxious about waiting for the bus, getting on the bus, finding a seat, having everyone look at me as I get on and off the bus. Like what if certain kids start to pick on me, steal my phone or what if the bus is full and I'll be the only person standing there in the middle when everyone's sitting down and looking at me. I'm not even sure if I'm going to make it through the day omg. Any tips?

I think you're just overthinking it, really. Even if everyone does look at you, why pay attention to them? It's just being anxious that'll make you stand out. Everybody else who rides the bus also has to wait for it, find a seat, and be watched by people as they get on and off. There's not really anything to be scared of, just treat it like any normal routine. And as for being picked on... well I hope it doesn't happen to you, but even if it does, just don't let it get to you.... Again, it's being visibly bugged by stuff that makes people come back for more. Anyone who picks on someone like that doesn't deserve your attention, so don't give them any.