Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I need to get a full time job while taking a couple online courses and am trying to figure out where to apply. I'm 23 - too old to work at some fast food place or something without feeling like a loser. Plus, in most places where young people are expected to work, they're expected to be really nice and sociable, have outgoing personalities, etc.

I understand why the companies want that, but it sucks for me. I have no problem with being genuinely nice and polite to people, but I couldn't stand my last job in which everyone was expected to be ridiculously nice and fake. They basically expected cashiers to say "HELLO AND WELCOME TO TIM HORTON'S" with a huge retarded grin on their faces whenever a customer entered, which I obviously didn't do. I'm simply incapable of pretending to be nice and peppy like that. It just isn't part of my personality and if I try to force it I end up sounding like an idiot and it's obvious it's an act. And to be honest, even being genuinely nice is hard for me at first. I just don't naturally smile unless something is funny. I don't even smile when I'm happy unless something really awesome happens like I see kittens or something. If I force myself to smile in any other situation it just doesn't work, so even if I'm not trying to be mean, I get the feeling I come across that way. I really wish I wasn't like this.

I'd prefer to work at some place where the people are expected to act nice and polite but in a dignified and genuine way, not too intensely. Like receptionists or people who work at bookstores or coffee shops. That I could do. But most of those jobs seem hard to get. I'm pretty sure you need some sort of degree to be a receptionist, or at least be in school for something related to the field.

I'm considering applying to a bookstore but don't have my hopes up. The only big one is far from my house, and all the small ones are unlikely to be hiring because they're so small they probably have like 1-2 people working there at a time, maybe 5 people working there in total who are already in established full-time positions. Plus, I do like to read but haven't read that many books since I read so slowly. There happens to be a small sci-fi/fantasy bookstore in a location that couldn't be more perfect, and that's the genre I normally read. But I don't even want to get my hopes up and apply there since I'm almost sure they're full. Come to think of it, I probably haven't read enough of any other genre of books to work at one and properly advise customers or anything, so the whole bookstore thing is probably a bad idea.

So I don't know what to do. Does anyone have any good idea where I might apply? I've been to craigslist but most of the retail/sales positions are for those types of fast-food jobs that mostly want peppy teenagers. I wish there existed jobs that didn't involve much customer service but didn't require degrees. I wouldn't want to work in a factory.

I can relate so much. I'm trying to get a job right now too. It sucks. I have the same attitude about not being a suck up fake enthusiastic person. It's why I'd rather not have a job where I have to deal with customers everyday. I tried to apply for a job at k mart and while doing the application thing the computer began freezing and I wasn't able to finish it. Then I applied this morning at a place that makes vitamins. A big laboratory place. It seemed ok, but the place is in the next town over. I also have an application for big lots I might fill out. The whole thing doesn't make me excited. I don't have much choice though. My dad is always threatening to kick me out of my house. My mom lost her house and is living at her friends house. I have nowhere to go. But I want to make money so I can get a car. Right now I'm going to work on getting a permit. I want to save most of the money I make.

Rant: I got a cramp in my leg, at swimming in HPE today.
Like, holy fuck it hurt! I could feel my muscle pulsating inside of me :C
But apart from that, we have this little game where the teacher throws a ring in, and whoever manages to dive for it gets to get out of the pool. I won the first one, so I got to rest up from the cramp

heh, I've never gotten cramps from swimming, but I've never been a serious swimmer. When I was about 7 years old, for one of my Brownie or Girl Scout badges, I had to tread water for 3 minutes. Only, I thought she said 30 minutes lol. I had the lifeguard time me and everything. I got pretty tired, but it wasn't that difficult. Picture a frog swimming. That's what I look like lol. I don't do any sort of real stroke. I "part" the water in front of me (palms together then push away) and my feet "kick" (ankles close, then away from each other, close again). Like I said: a frog
I am VERY envious. I've not been swimming in several, several years. I love the water but the rivers are too darn cold up North (I grew up mostly in Puerto Rico and Florida) and the pools are way too crowded.
I never did learn how to float.

Ugh... I am feeling ill for a whole different reason. I put my clothes in a basket, covered it loosely with a sheet, put it in the car, turned the ozone machine on for nearly 2 more hours. I went out, turned it off, opened a door to try to cover up a mark so my hubby wouldn't notice it and I got a big 'ole whiff of that stuff. Instant headache. But it's strange, because THAT smell is one of my "imaginary" smells that triggers a migraine when my sinuses are driving me crazy. It's one of the smells I sort of sense when I'm feeling floogally.
Now, I need to figure out what the smell is and then figure out why it's in my nose/head at certain times lol.

In a couple more hours, I'm going to go out and roll down the windows so the car can air out.
DRYELL!!! That's what the smell reminds me of. I stopped using that stuff eons ago because of that smell! I hope the smell doesn't linger too strongly. We leave in some 22 hours from now.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I need to get a full time job while taking a couple online courses and am trying to figure out where to apply. I'm 23 - too old to work at some fast food place or something without feeling like a loser. Plus, in most places where young people are expected to work, they're expected to be really nice and sociable, have outgoing personalities, etc.

I understand why the companies want that, but it sucks for me. I have no problem with being genuinely nice and polite to people, but I couldn't stand my last job in which everyone was expected to be ridiculously nice and fake. They basically expected cashiers to say "HELLO AND WELCOME TO TIM HORTON'S" with a huge retarded grin on their faces whenever a customer entered, which I obviously didn't do. I'm simply incapable of pretending to be nice and peppy like that. It just isn't part of my personality and if I try to force it I end up sounding like an idiot and it's obvious it's an act. And to be honest, even being genuinely nice is hard for me at first. I just don't naturally smile unless something is funny. I don't even smile when I'm happy unless something really awesome happens like I see kittens or something. If I force myself to smile in any other situation it just doesn't work, so even if I'm not trying to be mean, I get the feeling I come across that way. I really wish I wasn't like this.

I'd prefer to work at some place where the people are expected to act nice and polite but in a dignified and genuine way, not too intensely. Like receptionists or people who work at bookstores or coffee shops. That I could do. But most of those jobs seem hard to get. I'm pretty sure you need some sort of degree to be a receptionist, or at least be in school for something related to the field.

I'm considering applying to a bookstore but don't have my hopes up. The only big one is far from my house, and all the small ones are unlikely to be hiring because they're so small they probably have like 1-2 people working there at a time, maybe 5 people working there in total who are already in established full-time positions. Plus, I do like to read but haven't read that many books since I read so slowly. There happens to be a small sci-fi/fantasy bookstore in a location that couldn't be more perfect, and that's the genre I normally read. But I don't even want to get my hopes up and apply there since I'm almost sure they're full. Come to think of it, I probably haven't read enough of any other genre of books to work at one and properly advise customers or anything, so the whole bookstore thing is probably a bad idea.

So I don't know what to do. Does anyone have any good idea where I might apply? I've been to craigslist but most of the retail/sales positions are for those types of fast-food jobs that mostly want peppy teenagers. I wish there existed jobs that didn't involve much customer service but didn't require degrees. I wouldn't want to work in a factory.

Can't you get a programming job? Basically the perfect job for non-sociable people. Or do you not know enough yet?

I know how you feel about fast food jobs. The lady boss at the pizza shop asked me if I was coming back after my holiday and I was like "no no no no!!!!" ahha
Way too old. Even though it's just my situation, going to art school etc. and I need time to get in to something better, I still feel like a loser.

Doesn't help that the people in those places try to make you feel like a worthless person when you make a mistake either.

Afhfhf I'm so drunk. I bought some vodka and mixing it with Agrum coz they didn't have any fucking KAHLUA at any shops1? wtf!!!????. SOOO fucking nice hahawsn mmmmm=

I tried to talk to tat older woman who was in my art class who wanted to fuck me. Sent her a mesage on facebook because i'm so horny.
I looked at this girl's page who tried to fuck me a few years ago but I refused coz no condoms, but I haven't talked to her for years and I couldn't just say "hey wanna fuck?" so then I just went on this hormone fueled trip on facebook thinking about who could fuck me and ended on that MILF's page. lol.......... i ahte myrself
I've got it in to my head that when I leave for Queensland I will drop by her house and sex it up. Proabbly won't happen.
I hope I egt laid on this trip though.

So I was waliing into the alcohol shop when these girls asked me to donate to surf life savers and I was like "hold on 2 seconds, I'll be back" coz I just needed to cool down (in my motorbike gear) and look around the shop.
They didn't say anything. But I went back to them after buying my vodka and they were like "yo came back!" and I just smiled and was like "so.... what do you want?" (fuck this is weird, I jsut realised how weird it is that I am pressing buttons and words are coming up on the screen and I'm not even tinking about it really HAHA!)
And they were like "we have these option" and it was minimum $30 and then $50 and $100 and went up to $1000 or $1500 or some shit.
And I was like "...."
And she said no ones donated $1000 today, can you dot hat?"
And i'm like... uuhh yeah no. lol
and I looked in my wallet and I'm like "maybe I sbouldn't have gone in the shop first"
And she just looks at me like I'm a fucking retared or inconsiderate fuck or something.
FUCK YO C'NT BITCH!!!!!!!!
I'm like "can I just give you $10 or something?"
And she's like "yeah we can give you this pin for $10"
I DON'T WANT YOUR SHITTY PIN!!!!!!!
I just stood their waiting for her shitty pin, gav her $10 and walked off.

Seriously I just want to give you some moeny coz surf life savers are a good organisation, why have option for money and shit like that?
they were tryinh to make me give minimum $30 and give you prizes and sht. Idiots.... And no ones is going to give 1000- 1500.
IDIOTS!!!!!!!!

Anyway I hope this bitch gives me sex.


Edit: Zhaylin - I used to get a smell randomly too. For somer eaosn it always reminded me of my Opa (dutch for grandpa jsut if you didn't knwo). I don't know why, maybe I just smellekd it first near him, but it was just a smeel I would get some times, not sure if I imagined it. Sort of musty but.... not really, it was really just a non-smell, but stilla mslle. Too ahrd to describe.
Anyway. I love you all.

I don't like that I'm so emotionally volatile... Just a minute ago I was sitting here enjoying listening to music and watching League of Legends champions dance, and now I'm sitting here reminiscing about the good old times... This always happen when I've had a few bears >.<

Maybe the worst part is that these fond memories consist of the time when I plated WoW, in the good old days...

Originally Posted by tommo

Can't you get a programming job? Basically the perfect job for non-sociable people. Or do you not know enough yet?

I know how you feel about fast food jobs. The lady boss at the pizza shop asked me if I was coming back after my holiday and I was like "no no no no!!!!" ahha
Way too old. Even though it's just my situation, going to art school etc. and I need time to get in to something better, I still feel like a loser.
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I found this post extremely funny. Poor horny tommo. You should post drunk more often though.

All the programming jobs I've seen listed anywhere require a degree which I don't have yet.

Originally Posted by Zhaylin

Ugh... I am sick I really wish I could keep track of my thermometer. But I doubt I'd have a fever with food poisoning (if that's what it is).
I woke up and went outside. It's 55 degrees. I'd normally freeze. But I was clammy and very hot. I tried to puke, but it's been too long since I've eaten anything.
I replaced 2 "meals" with small chocolate milks yesterday (one when I woke up the other before I went to sleep). I had my usual hotdogs in the evening. Around noon my son cooked some Chili with ingredients I'm not use to.
Any of those things (or nothing) could be the problem. I started feeling ill though almost immediately after drinking the last milk.
To make matters worse, my "ulcer" is killing me and the pain is radiating down the left side of my back

Now I'm going to eat some plain bread just so I can vomit. Lovely

Whatever this is, it better pass quickly. I have that trip coming up in just 2 days!!!

Anti-rant: I had some really nice dreams during the 2 hours I was asleep

Zhaylin, I'm curious about how much food you eat a day. You don't seem to be eating enough. Do you have a really small appetite or there are other reasons? I usually strive to eat three proper meals (with enough carbohydrates) a day, although I usually wake up in the noon which means I only get two meals.

Talk about food, I woke up at 6pm today (screw my sleeping time) which means I only ate dinner. It's 4:44am (the timing is just a coincidence) and I think I need food.

The weather is really hot now, I'm sweating even though the fan is on and I think the consequences of sitting at the computer everyday is giving me a backache plus my right leg seems like it's going to get muscle cramps. My body just feels pretty uncomfortable now and it's getting me slightly irritated.

I think I sound a little weird/rude when I made replies to people's post. I didn't mean anything bad though, it's just I can't seem to find the proper words to use at times and I don't want to stick with posting the usual "It's nice", etc sort of thing.

My rant for today is that it looks like I'm probably going to be drinking again tomorrow night with a friend. I'm a little nervous because of the tension headaches. As I complained about recently in a different thread, they can last for up to a week and a half after I drink and can get pretty uncomfortable, but lately it seems they've been happening less and less.... I got totally trashed last Saturday and since then I've only had a couple headaches and only one of them was severe and it didn't last too long, so things are looking up, but I don't want to push my luck. I probably won't drink that much anyway though, and I guess if nothing else happens by tomorrow night I'll probably be fine.... No headaches yet today, hopefully it stays that way. >_> *knocks on wood*

My anti-rant is that I'll be drinking with said friend at a gay leather bar, which I've never been to before, so that should be an interesting experience. X) I wonder what kind of music they'll have there? :O Hmmm....

@aly make sure you drink at least a liter before you start drinking. More than likely the headaches are coming from dehydration. Sometimes if I know I'm going all in that night, I'll drink plenty of water throughout the day...practically till I'm pissing clear constantly, and I'll never get a headache the next day.

My rant is Anatomy and Physiology....it's five days a week (most of my classes are 3 or four) so that means more gas. Also chemistry keeps showing up and biting me on the ass. I'm going to have to keep studying a few hours after school at least until this week is over.

Originally Posted by Auron

@aly make sure you drink at least a liter before you start drinking. More than likely the headaches are coming from dehydration. Sometimes if I know I'm going all in that night, I'll drink plenty of water throughout the day...practically till I'm pissing clear constantly, and I'll never get a headache the next day.

Drinking water truly is the key to avoiding hangovers. My dad used to drink a lot (like A LOT) of rum/red wine/beer, but between drinks he'd down a few tall glasses of water and take a little break. He'd finish about 5 bottles of wine in 3 days, but not once did he ever get hungover or (excessively) drunk!

I, unfortunately, do not seem to have inherited his godly liver of steel.

Carrot, unfortunately, the example I gave IS the normal amount of food I eat daily: 2 hotdogs, provalone cheese and bacon, a handful of chips and something sweet. That's been my routine for at least a year because it was the only thing my bad gallbladder could handle. Now.... I'd just rather smoke than eat and I can't afford both.
BUT, my son is cooking now that we have that electric skillet. So I can usually add 1 real meal (minus veggies or fruit) to my daily intake. I can't tolerate most veggies or fruit. They upset my stomach in a royal way.
I live mostly on carbs and proteins.
Oh, and I didn't think you sounded rude at all

for everyone.

I'm about to leave. I have 2 e-cigs charged and ready for the trip. It's going to be a good time to try to quit again. Hubby actually asked for my input about any purchases. I answered as I always do: "It's your money and your passion. Spend it however you wish." But I was very happy about being asked.
The ozone machine worked very well and dissipated just as well (for the most part). My windshield washer fluid on the other hand I filled the tank before realizing it smelled like rotten eggs. What the heck?! I keep it in the car, so maybe the fluctuating temps made it bad somehow.
We leave in just under 3 hours and I'm actually looking forward to it.

Tommo Hope you find relief soon. I know that frustration very well

Originally Posted by Auron

@aly make sure you drink at least a liter before you start drinking. More than likely the headaches are coming from dehydration. Sometimes if I know I'm going all in that night, I'll drink plenty of water throughout the day...practically till I'm pissing clear constantly, and I'll never get a headache the next day.

I've actually been trying to drink more water lately just because I realized I wasn't getting near the daily recommended amount, and I'd say that has correlated somewhat with the headaches dropping in intensity. I already try to drink a lot when I have alcohol too. I actually don't get hangovers almost ever, it's just the rebound tension headaches that are terrible. I think they're made worse by factors such as dehydration but their original causes were the times I intentionally overdosed on Benadryl. It's been a long time since then and it's gone down a lot though, it used to be just terrible. For months after the time I took forty pills at once it felt like I had a huge weight rolling around inside my head, not big enough to take up the whole space so it was constantly pulled down with gravity (i.e., weighing me down and leaning my head sideways). When it was that bad the headaches would get so heavy that I would start taking a bunch of pain killers just to reduce the pressure slightly and try to force myself to pass out so they'd be over faster. On the flip side though, over time the intensity decreased but the threshold amount of triggers like alcohol required to set them off lowered....

Like I said though, it seems like things are starting to improve. I'm going to make sure I keep forcing myself to do things like this too, and eating healthier and getting more exercise and the like as well. Thanks for the advice.

I've been going on interviews for two months with no success. I'm always awkward at interviews, no matter how much I practice. It's a personality trait! This finding a job business would be easier if interviewers liked awkward people. Embrace my awkwardness, damnit! Being awkward doesn't automatically make me incompetent.

^Same with me, until I couple years ago at least. I think (and hope) I've gotten a bit better now though. I'd get nervous because I'd be so afraid that I'd be socially awkward, which made me more socially awkward. I could pretty much tell the interviewers hated me almost as soon as we'd exchanged two sentences. The best thing you can do though is try not to worry about it. I think that's what happened to me, I just stopped caring so much, and that ironically turns out to give you less to worry about anyway. The interviewers are human like you are; they have insecurities, they've probably been in love, they've cried, they have other things on their mind, they're putting on a professional mask as much as you're trying to. Just remember that and it may not be so scary.

I applied for a full-time job today at a small bakery/cafe, answering a job offer in Craigslist. I don't think there's much customer service involved, and it's mostly just baking the stuff. They said they want someone detail-oriented and clean and I'm definitely that. It's a little farther from my house than I'd like, but is close to the university I'm attending next year and I can look for an apartment somewhere around the two. The only problem is that they said applicants should have 1 year's worth of baking experience and I don't have any really, except for some very minor 'baking' of frozen stuff at Tim Horton's.

Of course I want to be hired. If I had the job, had worked there for a couple weeks and knew how to do everything, it would be perfect. But I'm terrified of everything that comes before that. I'm secretly hoping, in a way, that they won't respond to me at all, because I'm so afraid of it all. If I'm called I know I'll panic over the interview until it's over. I'm afraid of the questions they'll ask and worry I won't be able to think of an answer on the spot. I'm afraid my personality is terrible. I dread that they will hire me, but I won't be able to learn anything quickly enough and I'll be fired. Or that I'll be late for my first day because the earliest bus that leaves that early doesn't get there until 7 minutes before the shift, and buses can be late. As I said above, I'm a lot less terrified of people and can act more naturally around them that I did a few years ago. I think, at least. It's hard to tell though when I'm only myself and am so used to being myself that I have no idea how other people view me. Maybe there's something really off about my personality or my brain for that matter, but I can't tell because I've never experienced anything else.

I just beat Minecraft.

The ending was really, really, really weird. All this pseudo-scientific new-agey stuff about 'energy' and telling me I'm 'love' and 'one with the universe'. It's like I'm in [place I went to where they believed that stuff] again. Why is this in my Minecraft!?

(sorry for the double post but this one is being made 5 hours later, it's a different post)

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I just beat Minecraft.

The ending was really, really, really weird. All this pseudo-scientific new-agey stuff about 'energy' and telling me I'm 'love' and 'one with the universe'. It's like I'm in [place I went to where they believed that stuff] again. Why is this in my Minecraft!?

(sorry for the double post but this one is being made 5 hours later, it's a different post)

It's been a trap all along, they're trying to convince you to come back by embedding their message in various aspects of your everyday life. XD

Alternatively, it sounds like something someone would come up with on a psychedelic lol. I wonder who made Minecraft?

Women are so complicated. If a guy doesn't get to do one thing, but they get to do the other, which in the guy's eyes, note I emphasis THE GUYS' EYES, seems to be unfair in a way. Even if in the GIRL'S EYES, it's just a innocent thing, and gives the guy this notion that there's nothing wrong about it, even though it's clearly something bothering in the guy's perception of it....I just don't fucking know.

Setting double standards and trying to twist the game where anything the guy does that's too much is......derp....TOO much, it's bullshit. Act like innocent little fairies whispering statements contradicting things you oh so declare with such authoritative manner for the guy not to do. But when you do it, even though it's more "diluted" than the notion you give the guy, but still has the potential to be as extreme as what the guy may do, it's just perfectly fine, perfectly normal.

Oh no, this guy must be for a Patriarchal system! *insert stereotypical bashing here* Go ahead! Do it! It's useless, but feel free to do it!

And don't even get me into fantasies, especially if they're strong ones that were just there and poof magically disappeared! Just like that, they magically disappear, and you won't have to deal with it until you're more comfortable about it. No wonder they go after bad guys, you're just denying yourself......it's the same thing when a girl wonder's why a guy wants to go after many women and then come to the realization that they want to stick with one person only for the rest of their lives. ONE. UNO.

I think I should take the red pill and call it a day. I know not all women are this way, but I don't have time nor the stamina to fuck every single woman to make a consensus, I'm sorry. I'm limited by what the fuck I decide to care about.


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Had a lucid dream, but it ends up with me getting the silent treatment. I decided to waste my lucidity, only to get pissed at a dream character that I thought found enticing and worth my time. Me getting mad destabilizes the dream, and I wasted an hour or two of meditation for that. LOL

Let me vomit up the Red Pill, and take the Blue Pill instead, and then come back to the Red Pill that's half-dissolved when I need it again.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

I just beat Minecraft.

The ending was really, really, really weird. All this pseudo-scientific new-agey stuff about 'energy' and telling me I'm 'love' and 'one with the universe'. It's like I'm in [place I went to where they believed that stuff] again. Why is this in my Minecraft!?

(sorry for the double post but this one is being made 5 hours later, it's a different post)

Yeah, it kinda sucks. They've been focusing on all the wrong things with minecraft lately. I wish they could hurry up and release the official modding API, so we can get some useful updates and extensions.

Aly, I hope your tension headaches get better. As Auron and SnowyCat have mentioned previously about taking fluids on board does, in my experience, help somewhat.
You may also be aware that a lot of the common 'over the counter' analgesics (especially those containing Caffeine) when taken too regularly can cause 'rebound' headaches. I think I've had that problem a few times.

Generally my 'tension' headache mostly comes up from my neck, then to the front of my head, probably due to bad posture in my case, although I'm sure (when the GF is round in the evening before the weekend) I sometimes even get headaches from sex (don't laugh!) and orgasm, due to the activity, the neck strain, and then the sudden contraction of the blood vessels in my head; especially when you relax at the weekend.
If I don't control it (with a painkiller) then I go migranious all day after. I generally then have to steer of ALL forms of activity or stress.
I used to get headaches from drawing too much, mainly due to eyestrain and bad posture. Now I just go 'cross-eyed' when I'm trying to put detail in for some reason - I think that is a relatively new problem for me? (I think my eyes with age have gone a bit 'Barclays Bank', i.e: W*nk!)

Me and Alcohol don't mix either!

I don't Want to hear about hemorrhoids and your sex life while I'm at the dinner table.... doesn't anybody have any sense of etiquette at the dinner table anymore?

Originally Posted by Man of Shred

I don't Want to hear about hemorrhoids and your sex life while I'm at the dinner table.... doesn't anybody have any sense of etiquette at the dinner table anymore?

Same. I wouldn't mind if it were really close friends talking about their sex lives. But my parents often end up talking about fucked up things and they and my brother seem to enjoy it. Like a few months ago when my dad mentioned that he had hemorrhoids. That's something I did not know and really didn't want to, especially not while I'm eating. Then when I act disturbed and tell them to please change the topic they seem to find it funny and keep talking about it.

even with "friends" in the household. I'm the only single guy there . and yes I am extremely frustrated and insecure about it. It's bad enough I have to liosten to people having sex when I am trying to sleep. but to hear about it at the dinner table is extremely irritating. Even if I had someone... manners are still manners.

Originally Posted by Dianeva

Same. I wouldn't mind if it were really close friends talking about their sex lives. But my parents often end up talking about fucked up things and they and my brother seem to enjoy it. Like a few months ago when my dad mentioned that he had hemorrhoids. That's something I did not know and really didn't want to, especially not while I'm eating. Then when I act disturbed and tell them to please change the topic they seem to find it funny and keep talking about it.

Go through the same shit. I hate my family.

Originally Posted by Dianeva, again

I just beat Minecraft.

The ending was really, really, really weird. All this pseudo-scientific new-agey stuff about 'energy' and telling me I'm 'love' and 'one with the universe'. It's like I'm in [place I went to where they believed that stuff] again. Why is this in my Minecraft!?

(sorry for the double post but this one is being made 5 hours later, it's a different post)

I just decided to look this ending up and watch it, after smoking. I feel like I have some extra secret knowledge now lol.

Yeah, definitely some drugs in the mix there.