Thread: Rant and Rave, Cry and Complain

Yuppie A hug for being a sweetheart

everyone else. I hope the week gets better for all of you!!

Maeni. I hope the little one is truly okay and that any sort of investigation doesn't POSTPONE her healing. How terrible!

I just woke up. I have bad heartburn/reflux from all the caffeine I took yesterday and my ears are icky but all is well enough Though I have to go to Wal-mart soon for some more food and meds I hate Walmart at this time of day...

Originally Posted by Maeni

Spoiler for Maeni's Post:

Okay, that's it, that's the final straw, it's official: Everything goes wrong lately. Everything is a complete and utter fucking mess, and I'm so mad right now and I don't even know how to react to this new addition to the clusterfuck.

So, on the 20th of July, my computer broke down, my C Drive completely fried, but I didn't give a fuck because I was gonna go on a vacation to Norway, and immediately after that, a one-week vacation to northern Denmark with my friend and his family, including a 9 year old girl, his cousin, whom I have a crush on. (Yeah, Maeni is a pedo, this isn't exactly shocking news anymore.)
So we go there, and it turns out that part of the family weren't here. We later found out that they weren't even coming, for mysterious reasons. This I found really depressing. I don't like to admit it, but she was practically my sole motivation for going in the first place. But oh well, the rest of us still had fun.

So then I got home, I sort of expected my dad to have fixed my computer, because hell, how fucked could it be? Apperantly, very. So instead I just sat at my dads laptop doing brainless surfing. At this point there were a few factors affecting me. There was this weird wistful depression-like feeling because that girl hadn't been there. An unintentional 2-week weakamon challenge probably also helped drive me mad. My room was a mess, and I actively tried to make it so because, heck, I guess I was in some kind of self-destructive mood? Maybe I wanted to visually represent how chaotic I was feeling by making my room a mess.
And then I decided to not go to bed at all, since I didn't feel like I could go to sleep at all.

So the next day, armed with sleep deprivation, my friend asks me to go training with him. At his uncle's place, where the cousin is. So I agreed. When we got there, it started to rain heavily, and he made a snide comment about my attractions that really hurt. I guess I was also nervous about meeting his cousin after so long? Anyways I sort of pussied/derped out and instead took a run on the beach and got in the water in my normal clothes.
So I'd fucked it up for myself now. Great job, me. But one thing worked out, by the evening I'd gotten a new hard drive with a fresh copy of Windows 7. Turns out that I had actually taken a backup of my diary about a week before the crash, so the data loss wasn't actually as bad as I had thought.
When the computer was set up, I went right back into the good old rhythm of not doing jack shit and being bored and drinking a crap load of pepsi max and cookies and basically just being useless all day.


Two days later, my friend asks me to go do that exercise we didn't get to do last time. Armed with a good night's sleep, I agreed. But here's where shit got really fucked up. This is where the reason why I'm ranting comes up. This is what I'm so fucking mad about:
My friend had been told the real reason why that part of the family wasn't there at the vacation. Apparently, one day before we left, shit went downhill. There's this dude, who was there the entire week on the vacation. He was with that family that day, and he'd gotten really drunk. At night, he'd slept in the living room, and for some inexplicable fucking reason, he tried to molest the girl. From the way I hear it, at least he didn't get very far with it, but certainly far enough.

I don't even know how to react to this? This is horrible on so many levels. They've gotten the police involved, but this is a downright lose-lose situation. The two families are pretty close, but whether he gets convicted or not, this will ruin fucking everything. And simply the idea of him assaulting this girl is just incredibly infuriating. And then there's the added spice that this is the kind of guy giving pedophiles like me a bad name. I would like to take care of her and be close to her and treat her nicely, meanwhile this fuckface who ostensibly isn't even attracted to kids just goes and attempts to rape her for no fucking reason.

I just... Fuck, man. Also just on a purely personal level, I'm saddened that my friend seems to not even care. He explicitly stated that he didn't care much, but that he was angered when he heard that Mr. Fuckface had called him a coward behind his back. I'd looked forward to seeing her for like a month, and I'd missed her every day of the vacation, and THIS turns out to be the reason why she wasn't there. Just... Fuck, everything. Fuck people.

Good fucking job, dipshit, you managed to make a pedophile be disgusted with your actions.

If there is a positive note, it'd be this: Today I actually saw her, and she seemed upbeat as usual, playful and mischievous and didn't show signs of being totally traumatized. I really fucking hope she can stay that way, but I know that it's, at the very least, going to be an everlasting unpleasant memory for her.
I still miss her, I saw her for like a grand total of 10 seconds before she left again. Sigh.

I also guess I almost have to include a disclaimer, for the numbskulls, that I don't want to molest her. From past experience, I know that I am perfectly content and happy with just playing with her or even just talking or basically anything. I'm not like that retarded drunkard. I'm a real pedophile and I coincidentally also have empathy like I think most pedophiles do. The guy who did this to her was probably just a regular heterosexual with no standards, lacking brains and empathy due to whatever issues he has, enhanced by alcohol.

Maeni, you just made my day! So I was having a debate with a friend of mine whether watching anime is for a certain age or for all ages. Since I said that not always what most people find suitable or right for someone means it is that way , one of his major arguments was that pedophilia is also something that society sees as a bad behavior that shouldn't occur and I wasn't really sure how to counter that and what to think. Although now after reading about Maeni, the Sympathetically pedophile I am relieved to know that not all and even most of the pedophiles (according to you) out there are not evil molesters as we often hear ,but just people who have a certain attraction to children which is expressed with a lot of empathy and a natural love to children .

Now since it is a rant and rave thread so here is my rant: My vacation is ending in 20 days and I barely touched any of my homework for the summer vacation... In addition to the mountain of Math and English homework I have to do , I need to start a huge project for computer class that I haven't even started and 25 hours I need to 'volunteer' (they are not really asking me...) at the local dog pound . Some of those activities are not that bad (The dog pound as an example) ,but really big time consumers that might leave me without much of a vacation . Well at least I can be happy that I got food and shelter and hope that things like that would be my troubles ^^.

Just got back from my first day of work, my feet hurt. But at least I'm getting paid so woo.

Originally Posted by Alyzarin

Sickening. :/ I hope he gets what he deserves.... And I hope that girl is strong, because it'd certainly help her. I really hope she's alright, and that nothing too terrible will come out of it....

Aye.. But like I said, this is a lose-lose situation for everyone regardless of whether he gets convicted or not. If I understand correctly, my IRL friend's part of the family sort of relies on him helping out financially, and he has a son of his own. So if he gets convicted, there will be financial problems, a young boy left dad-less and potentially family drama, blame games and injured relationships. If he doesn't get convicted, there will merely be the worst conceivable atmosphere anywhere he is, which means the two families will probably have to almost cut ties with each other.

I just wish I had some way to help, but it's like my only tie to them is through my friend.

Originally Posted by Beefer

Maeni, you just made my day! So I was having a debate with a friend of mine whether watching anime is for a certain age or for all ages. Since I said that not always what most people find suitable or right for someone means it is that way , one of his major arguments was that pedophilia is also something that society sees as a bad behavior that shouldn't occur and I wasn't really sure how to counter that and what to think. Although now after reading about Maeni, the Sympathetically pedophile I am relieved to know that not all and even most of the pedophiles (according to you) out there are not evil molesters as we often hear ,but just people who have a certain attraction to children which is expressed with a lot of empathy and a natural love to children .

He should have mentioned murder or genocide instead? It isn't that long ago historically speaking that sex with children was common and accepted, so if his argument is that some things are universally and objectively wrong, that's a strategically bad subject to choose I think Murder would have been better.
But yeah, honestly I can't say for sure that most pedophiles have empathy, it's merely an assumption that I feel is likely. Look at it this way, there are a lot of heterosexuals in the world, and a lot of homosexuals too. A small group within both of those groups lack empathy, and they are rapists. I merely assume that it works the same way for pedophiles, that most of them function normally and can make normal judgements. And just like with heterosexuals and homosexuals, there are bad apples.

On your rant... I've never had homework in my summer vacation. That sounds really shitty. How can it even be a vacation if there's homework!

14 hour work tomorrow, woohoo. I can't complain cuz its money and it's just a 1 time thing. Except I'm complaining anyway. Damn.

I talked to this guy on omegle for over an hour. He was so fun to talk too! But before I gave him my Skype username my computer kicked me out. So I will never see him again.

I feel weird. really weird... I think I'm slipping back into depression. I can't stand this, I'm One step up from living on the streets.I feed my dog more than I feed myself I hate feeling like a bum, always worrying about where I'm gonna sleep tonight. I hate borrowing a five or ten for a few days so till I can find a way to make some money then pay everyone back and start again. Then If I don't save up enough in time to buy my dog food before the last bag runs out I have to borrow. I hate my 'friends' that only come around when its beneficial to them. I hate not being able to find a job, I hate the self-centredness of everyone I see, Judging eyes. Its the youth. most elderly people smile at me, but the youth is fucked. I hate the fact that I was born into this place, because I hate a majority of the people I meet. I can't stand less than half of the people I meet. I can't even watch T.V. without being disgusted by what I see. I'm sick of getting hung up on people, Especially girls that I get stuck on, I can get stuck on a girl having never dated her just hung out or maybe messed around. I have multiple health issues right now that are somewhat embarrassing, very irritating, and maybe fatal. Not to mention everyone I meet with experience in mental health say that I have something wrong with me, but I can't afford do be diagnosed. I feel terrible, Like I'm Terrible. I feel like everything is messed up, a waste of energy. I feel so helpless.

Originally Posted by ZeraCook

I hate the self-centredness of everyone I see, Judging eyes. Its the youth. most elderly people smile at me, but the youth is fucked.

The elderly made the youth.
Well, the.... middlely anyway, the youth's parents.
I find most elderly ok, then the middle-aged are fucking scumbags, and the youth are generally okay, some a great, some are fucked. Probably almost 50/50. That's what I see anyway. As a generalisation.

I don't know if I can give any advice which could help you, I'm sure you're doing what you can. Just good luck
I'm sure you'll be alright. Don't try to fix everything at once. Find a job first and then you'll have the ability to see a psychologist etc.

Rave/Rant: I just bought tickets to Missy Higgins! She's doing another round of tours since the last one was mostly part of festivals etc.
I did forget, I checked last night, realised it was still one more day, woke up at 10 and only remembered at about 1:00 or something
I still got pretty good seats though, up the top a few rows back. Better than nothing. Bloody assholes get on the tickets so fast these days.
This was a pre-sale not available to general public and still half of the seats were taken! BAH!
Maybe I'll wear my glasses to get extra magnification if it's too far away haha.

What I really hate is that you can only choose "best seats" and sometimes you can choose a certain section's "best seats" but you can't choose the precise seating.
What would be so hard about having the seating plan and clicking the seats you want, then they get greyed out as they're sold?
So easy!
Maybe what they think are the best seats aren't what I think are the best. Ah well. I got tickets! YES!!!!
Now to wait until December

I finished my blanket several hours ago... I'm just sitting around, waiting to hear from my mom about my boy. Hopefully he makes it to Florida safe and sound!!

I've been watching Downton Abbey and I'm sad to be through the 2nd season already. I started watching it for lack of anything better, but it's now one of my favorite shows

My anxiety has been raging (constant yawns, no adrenaline surges thankfully!!) but I got back on Wellbutrin yesterday and I've cut out caffeine again so I should be back to normal in a couple of days.

Originally Posted by tommo

I find most elderly ok, then the middle-aged are fucking scumbags, and the youth are generally okay, some a great, some are fucked. Probably almost 50/50. That's what I see anyway. As a generalisation.

Exactly, exactly, exactly this^^^. The youth can be good without peer pressure and shit. The old are mostly nice once you get to know them. Then theres the middle aged working their high pay depressing jobs, cant even laugh more than 2-3 times a day. I absolutely hate meeting a grumpy middleaged person, I mean c'mon they still have a good number of years to go and enjoy themselves .
Rant: I hate cycling and someone doesn't wave back to me. In Ireland it's a custom to wave to absolutely everybody, every farmer, priest, builder, housewife, child. And then here I am cycling and a car drives past, I expect it to be a nice countryside man but no it's one of those sour middle-aged man/woman from the city who moved here to ruin my mood and build shabby boring houses. Some people don't belong in the countryside.

Walk away walk away walk away. Shut the door so he doesn't have to listen to his son whining throughout the morning over the normal shit one year old's whine about. Shut it out shut it out. Ignore the tears and the blood on the bathroom floor. Ignore the tears bastard. Pregnant wife pregnant girlfriend pregnant bitch, who cares?

I just want to move out. I wish my parents had a place so I could live with them and I wouldn't feel so trapped confused and alone all of the time. We're getting no where. I know we have a few months left, but I'm about to start school and I'd really like to reach a decision on things now before I'm too boggled down with 15 credit hours to figure everything out for myself. Let me do it all alone. Finance is his only department. That's good enough for him. Knock up your wife and let her deal with everything there after the baby is born. That's all that matters, that baby once it's OUT. Then fight fight fight some more. Who cares about the emotionally unstable pregnant woman who feels completely alone in the world. Big deal, so he could make a difference in how everything turns out but he chooses not to.

So tired of the minecraft music. It makes me sick that he can sit in front of a screen for hours at a time hitting little buttons on a controller, lost in this fantasy world, building shit that doesn't exist in real life, that serves no other purpose than to be talked about and boost his ego about how skilled he is when he works at fucking mcdonalds.

I sit there, and I sit there, and I think why the fuck do I even stay up for him to get home? What for? On the off chance he will want to talk about something? Fight about something? Have sex? No. No, why do I do it? How long can he hold a conversation before he starts completely ignoring everything I say because some douche bags are speaking into his headphones? Fucking shit. Fucking fucking fucking fuck shit.

Cry cry cry cry cry. Part of me hopes the world does end in 2012. It's all meaningless sometimes.

Hugs all round! Big extra hug Suena!

@zeracook - I know it's difficult but try to go outside every day and do something active for 30 minutes. It's not a lot of time and it can make a world of difference for the condition.



I was woken by the Jehovah's Witnesses this morning. I didn't get much sleep. I had something I wanted to rant about last nigt but I forgot already.

Wait, now I remember. My son forgot to put the trash and recycling cans out this morning. By the time I woke the trucks had already gone by.

*shakes head and sniffles a little*

Let today be an easy day. Please.

Gah. Why do I drink? I makes me feel terrible, and I know I'll get a hell of a hangover...

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

Exactly, exactly, exactly this^^^. The youth can be good without peer pressure and shit. The old are mostly nice once you get to know them. Then theres the middle aged working their high pay depressing jobs, cant even laugh more than 2-3 times a day. I absolutely hate meeting a grumpy middleaged person, I mean c'mon they still have a good number of years to go and enjoy themselves .
Rant: I hate cycling and someone doesn't wave back to me. In Ireland it's a custom to wave to absolutely everybody, every farmer, priest, builder, housewife, child. And then here I am cycling and a car drives past, I expect it to be a nice countryside man but no it's one of those sour middle-aged man/woman from the city who moved here to ruin my mood and build shabby boring houses. Some people don't belong in the countryside.

In general, I find that elderly women are a pain, and elderly men are pretty cool (even though they tend to smell).

Originally Posted by khh

Gah. Why do I drink? I makes me feel terrible, and I know I'll get a hell of a hangover...

You don't feel good whilst 'tipsy'?



Rant: Meh. Sometimes I wonder if I'm generally indifferent. Everything just flows by... and I watch. Time to look at the stars.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

In general, I find that elderly women are a pain, and elderly men are pretty cool (even though they tend to smell).

You would know more than me XD my grandparents are pretty clean and cool though so I don't have much experience.

Originally Posted by dutchraptor

You would know more than me XD my grandparents are pretty clean and cool though so I don't have much experience.

Yea, but mine's a greatly biased perception given the situations I ended up with them hehe.

Originally Posted by Wolfwood

You don't feel good whilst 'tipsy'?

Well, yes, that's probably the problem. It feels good when I get tipsy, and then I drink more to chase that feeling. And I feel down. Depressed. Bad. Etc.

Suena. I despise your "partner". Some people never grow up. It's a shame.

everyone else.

Hope your day gets better Melanie.

My rant is that I have a horribly sore throat. I've had it for several days but it's finally getting on my nerves. I'll have to get more antibiotics from hubby and just live on them as he has (for an ulcer).
I've also had a bit of a headache for being off of caffeine- but it's nothing major at this time.

My son made it to Florida safe and sound. I stayed awake until I heard from my mom at 7 this morning. When I fell asleep I had a strange combination of dream themes- Downton Abbey, war with death and injuries and something strange about thousands of spiders hatching and falling off the ceiling. There were also large birds and I was spraying them with poison for some reason.
Strange dream combos lol But at least I recalled them.

**EDIT**
Ugh.. it's now nearly 8PM and I'm falling asleep at my desk. WTH? I broke down and took a caffeine pill but it's doing nothing. I've been getting plenty of sleep, so what the heck gives?

I can't remember if I complained about this before, but...

Light pollution.

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

I can't remember if I complained about this before, but...

Light pollution.

So like.....(I know you mean artificial), but

Real light, increasing body decay as well, our existence alone is an example of inevitable pollution.

Oh god, this really is a problem! Kill all humans!

Originally Posted by Linkzelda

So like.....(I know you mean artificial), but

Real light, increasing body decay as well, our existence alone is an example of inevitable pollution.

Oh god, this really is a problem! Kill all humans!

Simply existing also gives off infrared light. Our bodies emit it. STOP THE INFRARED LIGHT POLLUTION!

I ran I to my ex-best friends mom today. She knows my mom so she stopped and talked. I don't know why it made me so mad. I like her mom alright. I guess I just want to be done with her, all of her. Of course her mom constantly talked about her, so that could have triggered the anger.

Bitch.

Man, so many serious, life-altering situations lately. It would feel weird to hit "like" for them, but you all have my sympathy.

I'm pretty pissed right now. I got home from work to find a notice stuck to my door. Apparently the apartment complex wants my overdue rent within the next 3 days, or I have to get out. Oh, but wait, I put my rent check in their little rent drop thing on the first of the month, just like I'm supposed to. I have to assume they lost my check, waited until I'd gotten a good amount of late fees, and then delivered an ultimatum. I just... *sigh* I could go on, swear a bunch of times and all that, but it's been a few hours since I got home and now? Now I'm just tired. I was tired enough when I got home, and now I think I should just go to bed now. This is just total bs...

I also had this small realization earlier today, brought back to my mind by your talk about middle-aged people. I was reminded today that probably 95% of the people I work with are at least 30, probably older. It's hard to judge from looks and I don't exactly run around asking people their ages. They are somewhat happy, at least, but it made me realize... what am I really doing there? I've jumped neck-deep into the corporate world at the age of 22. Most of my friends still take it nice and easy and chill out... and I'm jealous of that. I want these next 10 years of my life back... maybe when I hit 30 I'll jump into this kind of stuff again.

Such a pipe dream right there... no way can I just drop this job, the money is too good.

Originally Posted by ThePreserver

I can't remember if I complained about this before, but...

Light pollution.

It's getting worse and worse where I live. Just last night I realised how horrible it's gotten.
They don't even ATTEMPT to block the streetlight light from pointlessly lighting the sky. Literally a few inches of metal around the top would stop light pollution.
Then there's some fucked up fast food place that literally has a gigantic light on their roof pointed toward the sky FOR NO FUCKING REASON! AT ALL! WHAT THE FUCK!???

I'm slowly working on a document to send to the government which would outline how much energy we could save and how much money we could save by putting covers on street lights and using low wattage lights (street lights are the single biggest cost for government). Hopefully it helps to get something done about it. Apparently they also stop some chemical in the atmosphere from breaking down greenhouse gases as well, just the light inhibits it. I'll need to look that up again. As well as obviously fuck up the night sky view and fuck up sleeping patterns of animals, including humans. Birds are out at the most ridiculous times now.

Where are you working Singularity? There could be a way to do it without being in the corporate world.