A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry non-lucid #37 Dream, non-dream (Comments)
Background: I meditated before going to bed and told myself that I want to remember my dreams. I heard Robert Monroe's intro to focus 10 audio but I fell asleep before finishing it. The influence for the anger part of my dream had to do with church. My friend got me angry and a little kid got me angry by screaming into my ear while I was sitting down. This is not my typical monday dream recall. Since there was a holiday I slept in.

Dream fragment 1, 11:11pm-3:47am."":
Something about bullying.
English 1C teacher was a student in my school. He wrote some sort of book.
This guy warned me that I was getting ripped off by these two guys, one of which is Mark Dice.

I got up and watched some motivational clips again read a bit about LD and ate some food because I am hungry. I made myself cereal this time. I tried listening to Robert Monroe's audio again but shortly went in and out of consciousness. Until i realized I was doing this I wasn't really sleeping.

Dream fragment 2, 4:31am-8:17am." Angry at teacher": I found myself on a motorcycle, inside of an Airport that looked like the one form GTA IV. I stopped at the helicopter landing zone. I sat down in the meditation posture by crossing my legs, and began to meditate for some reason. This guy came into the airport with his futuristic motorcycle. He did a wheelie and the front wheel transformed and disappeared. He jumped off the motorcycle by doing some aerodynamic flip. He landed with one knee on the floor and one hand touching the floor with his fist, it looked cool. The motorcycle didn't fall though, it remained motionless, but it accelerated on same spot. It drove itself off and he called it back with a push of a button.

Still in a meditative posture I tried to concentrate again. This time I saw different people from my school especially the math lab flock to my location. I got up because I didn't like the idea of meditating as a form of show off. I found this store and my Calc III math teacher wrote some stuff down on paper, he told me it was attendance. I briefly looked at it and saw someone's name, which was good enough for me to confirm the truth. My math teacher asked me if I could go deliver the attendance to the office for him. He warned me that I have to deliver it to the door and not give it to the person. I said sure and left to go find the office.

As I walked to the office, which resembled my old high school pathway, I saw a friend from Eng 1A, Aa. I also saw a much more attractive version of her, which I assumed was her sister. I looked at the sister smiled flirtatiously and said hi completely forgetting about Aa. I walked inside the office and I saw them again but this time from a different angle, Aa saw me and she smiled and said hi. I sat next to a table right next to them. I asked them, "didn't I just see you guys right before I walked inside the building?" They looked completely confused, all of them said no. I told them Dejavu. I started talking to the fictional character, Aa's sister, Aa got mad and left. I said bye to her sister and left. I was lost once again. I showed back at the table and I found CA which is a girl that was ignored in the dream and is ignored in waking life. I asked her about the attendance office. She said she could take me. As we walked along this pathway it started to rain on us. I realized I am going to be late to class so I said bye to her and departed from her. Even though I ran in a hurry I was aware of my surroundings. I saw this wooden light house stair case, pretty old wood, eaten by years of hard rain. It smelled like old wood that has grown fungus on it. I don't remember if I made it to the attendance office but next thing I knew it I was inside my classroom.

I entered the class room while teacher was teaching. I squinted to see who the teacher was, it was my Calc III teacher again. I thought that's weird this was not the class room I thought I would be in. I didn't follow through with my reasoning because I was too caught up with the plot and if it was not a dream I don't want to be standing around looking at my hands. The classroom was indeed a strange one it was a blend of my high school arts and crafts class and something else. I found a seat to sit in, which was also the only seat. This kid said I don't usually sit here. I said yeah that is true, I laughed at first. I picked up my stuff and came to realize that was the only seat. I told him I am going to sit there. He had his back pack on it and didn't want to give it up. I got mad and picked up his backpack and threw it. I tried to reasonably explain to him that I am going to sit there. My teacher got mad and yelled, "SHUT UP". I got angry, but not without reason and I said, "YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP, I was only late because I was delivering your stupid attendance". He told me he doesn't care and told me to leave his class room.

Dream fragment 3, 4:31am-8:17am." Angry again, at student": I only say that this is a new dream fragment because I forgot the whole dispute with my teacher.Well the dream started with me inside of my Calc III class. I had my original seat or so I believed I did. My teacher was teaching and I was taking notes. I wasn't aware of what I actually wrote though. This guy sat in front of me and tried to annoy me. He kept turning around and touching my stuff. I told him to stop touching my stuff. I thought about George Carlin's joke about stuff for a split second, but it only amused me for that very second. I told him to stop touching my stuff and for him to mind his own business. He wasn't listening so I forced him to turn around by grabbing him by the neck and turning him. He thought it was funny. I got angry and put my hands in a knuckle with my middle finger slightly sticking up while still bent though. I forced it into the back of his spine rubbing his spinal cord with my knuckle and he fell to the floor begging me to stop. I stopped but the teacher was finished with his lesson and I missed some of it. My teacher left pretty quickly. While outside people asked me why I did that, some asked me how I did, where is the weak spot locate. I didn't care to respond to much of them. I went back to my teacher's office, which looked nothing like his office. It looked more like a normal accounting office not a math teacher office. Well he was eating lunch, and I didn't want to disturb him so I was heading out. He signaled me to come and I did. This women brought me a seat and sat right in between us. She was saying, "hmm" after I said something. I thought that is weird. I told the teacher that I didn't mean to hurt the guy but he was distracting me from school work. I pleaded my case by bringing up the fact that I normally take notes when teacher is talking. He smiled then laughed and said don't worry about it.

Dream fragment 4, 4:31am-8:17am." Weird Costume": I was in a store. I imagined what it would be like to have super powers. I saw this dragon and it had the whole galaxy on it. I saw stars and universes inside of it. I saw some sort of bird wrap it's wing around it. I had some weird costume on. It was blue and pink and a little purple. I don't remember the super powers I had. Oh yeah I also met spider man.

Journal Entry Lucid #9 Dream,Lucid, Comments)
Background: I woke up around 2:00 Am, which was about 5-6 hrs after I went to sleep. I stayed up and I watched some inspirational videos about success and possibility. Then I read Stephan LaBerge's book, I left the computer about 1:20 min later. I went to kitchen to make me some food because I felt hungry, made myself some oatmeal. I don't think the food matters though. I went to my room at around 3:38 am. I listened to Robert Monroe's intro to focus 10. I stayed up for nearly 100% of it. If I did lose consciousness for a second but when I did I regain it by willpower. After doing all the exercises around the end, he mentioned that I have the power to remember anything that I wanted to by touching my head with the tip of my hand and telling myself to remember, so I told myself to remember LD. (*I believed what he said to near 100% certainty but if it failed it was because I touched my head with my hand and I don't know if that is what he meant or if he wanted me to imagine). After 30 min of the audio, I turned over and found a comfortable position to go to sleep. As I was getting sleepy I reminded myself to realize that I am dreaming. I said those famous phrase, "next time I'm dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming". I said this repeatedly and I fell asleep sometime soon. I also heard my moms voice which influenced my dream tremendously.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-2:30am"":I found myself watching my gaming avatar on YouTube. It looked and felt real but at same time surreal. I got tired of watching the car chase, so I got up out of the computer and went to the living room. I hugged my grandmother and father because I thought I didn't see them in a while. I asked them where my mother was. They didn't want to respond for some reason. I thought I know I heard her voice. I asked, "is she sleeping? did she just sleep right now? I haven't seen her all day." My dad looked at me mad, and said don't disturb her. It was early in the night around 9:00pm. Me and my father were outside in the backyard. My mother walks out and started telling us her interesting dream.

She said, "I saw my own brain, literally! I turned over in the dream and saw my brain". I thought that sounds like O.B.E. I told her what if that wasn't a dream and that was real? As we were going back inside the house, my dad said she needs a way to go back to sleep. I don't know what I said, but my father responded angrily, "pssh dream! Dream is nothing". I told myself in the dream I am the only one that walks this path, I am only doing this for myself. I was in the computer room and my mother brought some tea and she asked me which one will make her go to sleep. I said, "I thought you are going to work isn't it early in the morning". I thought this doesn't make any sense why am I doing this looking at the tea bags in my hand. My mother disappeared. I said I better not be dreaming about something this boring. I looked at the time on my computer screen it read at first "9:40 AM.B" then a second glance "9:49 Am" then again "9:50 Am". It was also hard to focus on the numbers. I thought about the time "am" but it was still pitch dark outside.

I realized I was dreaming. I started rubbing my hands right away. I started becoming very excited because it was such a consistent, realistic and not to mention ordinary dream, but I logically became lucid. I tried to spin around to stabilize my dream. The spinning made me very nauseous. It felt like I was shrinking at the same time. It felt harder to breath as well. It felt so horrible that I decided to wake up. As soon as I decided to do that I woke up, with the last thing I saw my grandmothers' bed. I did a RC after awakening and about to write my LD.