A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry Lucid #9 Dream,Lucid, Comments)
Background: I woke up around 2:00 Am, which was about 5-6 hrs after I went to sleep. I stayed up and I watched some inspirational videos about success and possibility. Then I read Stephan LaBerge's book, I left the computer about 1:20 min later. I went to kitchen to make me some food because I felt hungry, made myself some oatmeal. I don't think the food matters though. I went to my room at around 3:38 am. I listened to Robert Monroe's intro to focus 10. I stayed up for nearly 100% of it. If I did lose consciousness for a second but when I did I regain it by willpower. After doing all the exercises around the end, he mentioned that I have the power to remember anything that I wanted to by touching my head with the tip of my hand and telling myself to remember, so I told myself to remember LD. (*I believed what he said to near 100% certainty but if it failed it was because I touched my head with my hand and I don't know if that is what he meant or if he wanted me to imagine). After 30 min of the audio, I turned over and found a comfortable position to go to sleep. As I was getting sleepy I reminded myself to realize that I am dreaming. I said those famous phrase, "next time I'm dreaming I will realize that I am dreaming". I said this repeatedly and I fell asleep sometime soon. I also heard my moms voice which influenced my dream tremendously.

Dream fragment 1 from 8:20pm-2:30am"":I found myself watching my gaming avatar on YouTube. It looked and felt real but at same time surreal. I got tired of watching the car chase, so I got up out of the computer and went to the living room. I hugged my grandmother and father because I thought I didn't see them in a while. I asked them where my mother was. They didn't want to respond for some reason. I thought I know I heard her voice. I asked, "is she sleeping? did she just sleep right now? I haven't seen her all day." My dad looked at me mad, and said don't disturb her. It was early in the night around 9:00pm. Me and my father were outside in the backyard. My mother walks out and started telling us her interesting dream.

She said, "I saw my own brain, literally! I turned over in the dream and saw my brain". I thought that sounds like O.B.E. I told her what if that wasn't a dream and that was real? As we were going back inside the house, my dad said she needs a way to go back to sleep. I don't know what I said, but my father responded angrily, "pssh dream! Dream is nothing". I told myself in the dream I am the only one that walks this path, I am only doing this for myself. I was in the computer room and my mother brought some tea and she asked me which one will make her go to sleep. I said, "I thought you are going to work isn't it early in the morning". I thought this doesn't make any sense why am I doing this looking at the tea bags in my hand. My mother disappeared. I said I better not be dreaming about something this boring. I looked at the time on my computer screen it read at first "9:40 AM.B" then a second glance "9:49 Am" then again "9:50 Am". It was also hard to focus on the numbers. I thought about the time "am" but it was still pitch dark outside.

I realized I was dreaming. I started rubbing my hands right away. I started becoming very excited because it was such a consistent, realistic and not to mention ordinary dream, but I logically became lucid. I tried to spin around to stabilize my dream. The spinning made me very nauseous. It felt like I was shrinking at the same time. It felt harder to breath as well. It felt so horrible that I decided to wake up. As soon as I decided to do that I woke up, with the last thing I saw my grandmothers' bed. I did a RC after awakening and about to write my LD.