Alyzarin

#1 - Interrupted [Non-Lucid]

This girl A (who I haven't seen since first semester of college) is over at my house during a family party and we're in my room messing around in the dark. And by messing around I mean just playing, but in an overly affectionate way.... I could sense feelings for her and I'm pretty sure she had some for me, too. After a while it was starting to look like it might become a little more than playing, so I got up to lock the door to make sure we had privacy, but then tons of people, including this guy J I used to hang out with, just started waltzing on in and making themselves at home and playing some video game on my TV. >.< We tried to make the most out of it still () but it didn't work out, and A very randomly told me that my room looks like a spaceship. I got up to go into the bathroom to "do my medicine" but when I got in there I was distracted because I was wearing some really bizarre white top and a black jean skirt, and it was definitely something I've never seen before, I'm not even sure it followed the laws of physics.... After that I went to pee, and after I started I woke up.

#2 - Shown The Power Of RCs [DILD]

I was in a high school class with this girl S with whom I've had an extremely embarrassing moment, which I will not go into, and in the waking world I apologized over and over again, and in this dream I felt like it was finally totally in the past. (Even though in the waking world I barely saw her before and will probably never see her again, so it's really not that big of an issue anyway.) We're waiting for class to end, as it's apparently the last class of the school year. There's a video constantly malfunctioning on the projector and we're all just getting fed up with it, and I think to myself that class ends at 8pm (what a shitty high school!) and that it should already be around 7:40, but I check my phone and it says 7:10. I checked again shortly afterward and it said 4:00. Instant lucid. Holy crap, reality checks work! I got up and told everyone "It's already 11:00, school's over, let's go." (11:00? I still don't trust my lucid mind, it comes up with too many non-lucid things still. Like this....) There were objections but I just repeated "Nope, nope, let's go." and walked out the door. Some random DC girl was walking with me in the hallway and said something to me about how "It sucks for people who had plans.", or something like that, and my response was "Yeah, especially the ones of us who are melting!" Immediately afterward I proceeded to rapidly melt, which I felt completely realistically, all the way down into a puddle, and then the dream ended. Damn you dreaming mind!

Side Notes - I had been forgetting to do my mantras lately, and I wondered if that's why my lucids haven't been happening as frequently. After this dream I started doing them again every time I woke up for the rest of the night.

#3 - Odd Discovery [Non-Lucid]

I got drunk with my old friend D (who doesn't drink) and spent the night at his house, though it was actually some fancy Asian-style house and not even remotely similar to his real one. His mom then woke us up in the middle of the night to smoke weed with her. (D doesn't smoke weed either, nor do I imagine does his mom. ) We smoke a lot of corn (medium quality weed) and chat for a bit and I'm just in awe at this discovery that they smoke weed, and the main effect I'm getting is EXTREME cottonmouth. I take a drink of water, then go back to fiddling around with this lighter that never works, and this two-carb pipe (I can't remember if it actually had two chambers, but it was a really cool swirly, spiked design with a mix of yellow and blue) that kept randomly getting replaced with a tiny plastic bowl. We hear a noise and it turns out to be D's dad, and his mom gets scared so I look at the weed and say "Should we hide it!?" and she tells me to do it, so I grab it and shove it in my jean pockets and get up and follow D out of the room. We hear them getting into a HUGE fight and their voices start fading into the distance as we get further away. D stops in this dark room full of random people and I'm freaked out, and he looks almost catatonically depressed and I really want to help him but I also want to get the hell out of there, and I ask him if it's okay for me to leave because I'm scared (his dad is a pretty big guy). He doesn't respond at first, but then shakes his head yes. I give him a sad look of thanks and then run out the front door and hear his dad say "Oh, you better hurry!" I'm frightened and jump into my car and try to start it but I'm shaking and messing up. But I woke up while I was trying to work it.

Dream Fragment - I see my dead grandpa (but he's still alive in the dream), lots of other family members, my dad's close friend J, and a couple random DC kids who are both named Alex. I perceive that I'm in Las Vegas, though this is all actually taking place at my house. All I really remember other than that was J asking me if I'd found him any MDA, to which I responded no because it's hard to come across.

False Awakening - I wake up and text O about how sake is even better in Las Vegas.

#4 - The Last School Of Magic [Non-Lucid]

A lot of this dream is hazy and hard to remember, but I do recall that I was trapped in some place called "The Last School of Magic", or something like that. It's basically this big evil school in the sky that my friends and I can all see from this big open field that seems to have a castle waaaaay off in the distance at the end of a long path, and I end up going through some weird third-person control bouncing shapes and people and traveling through gravity-defying obstacle courses.... It was really bizarre. I just know that is was VERY intense, and at the end I kicked the ass of the evil teacher who had originally invited me to to the school, using some magic I learned along the way. We were outside on the path again by the big field and looked over at the dark stormy clouds in the sky and saw the house where the school was glowing red and vaporizing, and we laughed at it. Despite the fact that I don't remember very much of it, this dream was pretty realistic and vivid. But it probably doesn't help with my memory that I had a....

False Awakening - I got up out of bed thinking to myself what a crazy dream that was, and I found this little book of ancient mysteries or something like that sitting on my desk. I apparently had had it before but never really read it, so I started flipping through it, until I found a story called "The Last School of the Occult". I started looking at it and some of it looked familiar to the areas I had gone through, and I was totally blown away. I started thinking something insane was going on, but then I had another....

False Awakening - I tried writing down everything that had happened and got most of it out. Only to wake up and realize I would have to type it all over again, which is why I forgot so much of it. :T

#5 - Caught In The Wind [MILD]

I was on vacation with O and we got a bong and some weed and took it to a corn field to play where on the way we became Peanuts characters, I was Lucy and he was Charlie Brown. Some girls starting making fun of me saying "You like corn! You like corn!" and I felt it had a strange connection to Francine from American Dad! for some reason. Wind started blowing me back and up through the air continuously at least 20 feet and it made me realize that I was dreaming, but I wasn't really able to hold on to it. I just kept getting pushed back until I had a....

False Awakening - I wrote most of the dream down (there was more to the beginning that I forgot because of this), but then my dad walked in and asked me if I had used mom's wind, and the second I saw him I thought "Damn it!!" and woke up for real.

My dreams last night were kind of scattered and hazy, most of them are hard to remember. I can't say it wasn't an interesting night, though!

#1 - Ice Cream Parlor [Non-Lucid]

At first I was driving down a road somewhere, and I saw this guy J from public school walking down the sidewalk at one point. After that it gets hazy, and then I remember being at an ice cream parlor and trying to get the cake-flavored ice cream, and they put in about a scoop and a half of it but then also put a scoop of mint on top, which I did not ask for. I did ask for sprinkles on it though, which they didn't put on. I was a bit concerned at the time, but I got distracted by a woman who looked like Jane from the newest Fun with Dick and Jane movie (Téa Leoni), but she was in tears and saying that that's not who she is.

#2 - Escape To The Other Reality [DILD]

I don't really remember the dream leading up to this, just the part where I became lucid, except it was more like a low semi-lucidity because I knew I was dreaming and had the clearing of brain fog that comes with lucidity but it didn't stop me from being pretty delirious. I became lucid in my room and decided that my reality (the dream) was closing in on me and trying to destroy me or something, so I decided to get in bed and go to sleep to escape to the "other reality". I guess maybe that was a really skewed way of interpreting the dream ending and wanting to wake up, for some reason?

False Awakening - I woke up in my bed as a result of going to bed in the lucid, and it was extremely vivid, probably the most vivid non-lucid I've ever had, and maybe because I actually intended it to happen coming from a lucid. It felt exactly like real life, not even that dream feeling that comes with the extremely vivid lucids was there. I was laying belly-down in bed, and I'm pretty sure I felt somebody grab my ass. However, the vividness didn't last long, the dream turned into a wonky mix of first- and third-person action camera perspectives and involved an intense Pokémon battle. Though I was aware that I was playing a new Pokémon spin-off game and could see it from time to time, I was still mostly seeing the battle happen in front of me, though it was very cartoony. I was trying to defeat and/or catch a Charmander, though somewhere down the line it became a Bulbasaur. I also remember using my own Charmander, a Squirtle, and a Pikachu in the battle against it, and I remember reading on the game screen that I also had an Arcanine on my team. I finally beat the Bulbasaur in the end (can't remember if I caught it), and then I stuck to the game screen and looked at my team, noticing that the other Pokémon on my team (I can't remember if there was a sixth, or if it was that Bulbasaur if there was) was a Doduo with a move called Universe Cannon. However, it had 0 BP (which I think means 0 PP).

I really liked this dream, first of all because it involved a Pokémon battle , and second because it had tons of text that I could read perfectly clearly. :3

Dream Fragment - "Crime rates somewhere go down, and something about drinking certain cocktails."

Dream Fragment - "Walking around my house which is actually school, leaving a weird class with stars and to speaking to sea and space goddesses, then start looking for my English class or something after getting all my backpack stuff packed up."

#3 - Trapped In My Bed [Non-Lucid]

As I was falling asleep, I started hearing quick, loud collision noises, and then I started feeling my body fading away. I really wasn't prepared for this hypnagogic stuff so it kind of startled me out of my trance, and then I just fell asleep normally.

There was a dream leading up to this, but I don't remember what it was. I think I intended to write it down at some point, but forgot about it after this. I woke up into sleep paralysis, like the real sleep paralysis where you wake up and can't move, not the one people talk about to refer to hypnagogic hallucinations. I was extremely confused and noticed that I had double and triple vision at some point, things were spinning a bit, and it felt like I was closing one of my eyes to help myself see. (I didn't understand what was going on, so given my previous history with sleep paralysis it was more likely that one of my eyes just opened and the other didn't really.) Because of this and the super dreamy feeling everything had, I assumed I had taken DXM. The entire time with was going on, I could hear "Kokomo" by the Beach Boys playing in the background of my mind somewhere. I tried getting up to go to my computer and message O about how I was tripping, and I got half way through the message, which was REALLY hard to do given my vision and everything shaking and feeling a strange gravity and brain fog, and suddenly I started realizing that half way though my messaging it had just started turning into gibberish. I got concerned, and then I looked closer and realized that I was still lying in bed. I did that a few times, and then I recognized this pattern of thinking something's going on, suddenly it gets really confusing, and then realizing it wasn't even happening - from anticholinergic deliriants. I stated to fear that I had taken diphenhydramine (Benadryl) too, and that I was now on a DXM/DPH combo, which is NOT something I need to be doing. I entered a sort of despair and just managed to close my eyes and watched patterns quickly form from the blackness, and as they grew and approached me I started feeling really intense and really uncomfortable vibrations. I probably could've entered an OBE from this state if I wanted to, but the fear overtook me and shook me out of the sleep paralysis. *phew*

Exclusive Club [Non-Lucid]

I was going to some super exclusive club with N, and there were a few ravers of band groupies walking out of it when we pulled up in N's car. Apparently it's just like a crazy drugs and other illegal things haven and you're supposed to act so casual outside to keep it undercover that you're not even allowed to laugh or they won't let you in. And they advise you to take your shirt off for at least ten minutes first so that when you go in and feel how muggy it is it won't stick to you as easily? We're sitting in the car while N waits the ten minutes with his shirt off, and a group of kids walks up up to the window. Among them were some kandi kid, some guy who claimed to have just gotten back from a Van Halen concert, and some random blurry DC. The raver was drooling and spitting all over the place, it was so gross. And then N GOT UP AND WENT UP TO HIS FACE AND KISSED HIM, AND PULLED THE DROOL BACK WITH HIM. Oh my god, I don't even want to think about it. >.< We finally went inside and saw a guy, J, who I haven't seen since middle school, and we were sitting at tables positioned at uncomfortably steep inclines. Like seriously, we were basically standing. J starts joking about the tables, and I look away and back one time and N had been replaced with some blonde-haired girl who looked like one of the people I was drinking with last night, and she had some alcoholic drink in her hand. (If I had to guess, it looked like a scotch on the rocks.) She starts talking about something, but I don't really remember what, and then I wake up.

Dream Fragment - We had these candies which I perceived as weed brownies but they were more just like chocolate chunks with sprinkles, and the sprinkles were varying shades of green and strategically placed with the candy shaped to look like a nug of weed. I also remember A smoking some legal weed mimic, but that's about it from that dream....

Backwards Crab Walk Through Time [DILD]

I'm with M and some random guys pull up in my car so I tell them to scoot over so I can drive. We drop one of the guys off, and then as I'm trying to figure out where to take the other guy he keeps talking about this book he has that's part of some new cult he's in, and there are lots of bizarre religious illustrations in it. I remember one of them was a woman leaning back and staring up in euphoria and she looked like she'd been 'healed' or something, and she had like claw-shaped lips and at least ten or fifteen eyes scattered all over her face. It was really odd.... While I was staring at the book the scene changed from my car to a high school classroom. I tell M we need to leave, and I don't remember who this was but this random woman started chasing us back through time. Like, I would run out of the classroom and it would take me back into a classroom I had from the previous year (I'm not sure if any of these classes were classes I actually had, though). Eventually I started doing a backwards crab walk as I was being chased. During this time I became lucid but was a bit too flustered to make much of it other than to keep moving and watch how insane all of this was. It seemed like I was stuck in some kind of environment loop where the class was just repeating over and over again, and then it all collapsed into whiteness and I woke up.

#1 - The Invader Zim Diet [Non-Lucid]

I was walking around some strange mall, and the order of this dream is hard to remember, but know at least how it ended. But first, I remember walking around a clothes store thinking about Robin from How I Met Your Mother and noticing all these super skinny clothes and hearing people talking about some 'air diet', and I started to feel desperate to get thinner. I went down to the 'diet floor' and walked past D, who was looking into the diet because he didn't want to have to breath as much while sleeping so he'd snore less. Before looking into what exactly that meant, I went downstairs one further past the 'feminine diets' to the 'fat guy room' for a minute, and immediately decided that this was NOT the diet for me. The floor was also really slippery and I was sliding around like crazy. I went back upstairs and checked out the feminine diets. There were two of them. The first one involved eating nothing but air, and the second involved becoming a Invader Zim-style demon character and having to have this inflatable rectangular prism represent your breath and hold on to it at all times. For the rest of the dream I flip-flopped between the two. The latter was very anxiogenic and uncomfortable. There was also some Invader Zim plot going on in the background that was pretty intense, but in the end stopped because Dib was about to defeat Zim somehow but Zim called upon some 'Fish Law' that states that their battle was a stalemate because in this brown paper bag he was holding two of his crab rangoon (which looked right but where shaped like ravioli) were touching each other, one on top of the other. Somewhere unseen to me, O starts complaining that that could've been done at any time. After that I woke up.

Dream Fragment - Something about picking up some cocaine with O.

#2 - Interwoven Tapestry [Non-Lucid]

I'm thinking this one was a non-REM dream. Or something....

In my notes, my first line to describe this dream was "interwoven tapestry of anger and libido". There were repeating, morphing images of a woman (me? it's hard to remember, it had a very dissociated feel to it) that were constantly moving around and switching back and forth between representing strong feelings of lust, fantasizing about stuff, and strong feelings of rage, thinking about murder and the like. I remember there being some third-person narration going on about how you can't feel attraction without anger. And that was it.

#3 - Tequila Ketchup [Non-Lucid]

O, J, and I are driving somewhere with some random DC. We're driving to some hotel room we've rented out, and on the way the DC is talking about some ketchup recipe his family is famous for, they even have their own company for it. The ketchup tastes like refried beans and is made with tequila. I ask him if he's ever tried it with mezcal and he said no because he hasn't tried mezcal since the first time he drank it. So we get to the room, and it has a pool but no beds or anything, just sleeping bags. We get to the room and the help turns off the light and tells us "Goodnight!" and then leaves. O and the DC go to jump in the pool, and J and I spend the rest of the dream trying to figure out which of the many, many switches turns them back on, though unsuccessfully. :T

#4 - The Mystery Continues [Non-Lucid]

The jungle returns!!! And it's just as crazy as ever....

A guy abandons his infant son to grow up in the jungle after he accidentally causes the death of a kid in a small family in a dust cloud while trying to save them all from some prophecy that their precognitive mother had made. The family is part of a tribe of people who are used to living out in the wilderness of the jungle, and the guy is actually the king of some foreign land. After his son has grown up with the family of kids (the mother is dead apparently but the kids are still well-known in the jungle), maybe after like ten years or so, he comes out to tell him about who he really is, the prince of his kingdom. But before that I was one of the kids (I think...) and we were running from a leopard or lion or something (I want to say leopard is correct) and we had some really creamy carrot cake and were using it as bait. They were trying to tell the kid that you're supposed to just put it out there for them to get, but I tell them you're supposed to lick some of the cream off yourself and THEN put it out there, and told them to "live a little". Anyway, so then the father shows up. He also brings them some delicious looking birthday cake with the same cream on it. So he tells his son the truth, and all the kids (I'm now in third-person) are happy for him, but then he also tells them about why he had to leave his son with them in the first place, and one of the kids who was one of the oldest says she remembers about their other sibling who died now that he mentions it. They all suddenly grow to resent him, and it stats turning into Lion King-like animation and all the kids and the dad turn into lions. The father clearly suffers with the knowledge of what he's done, but then I woke up before the plot could continue.

#1 - Ikenkokku Palace [Non-Lucid]

There were a couple different plots going on in this dream, but I only remember one of them. Though I do remember that C was in the other one.... I was in high school, and D and I were in some fight but I wasn't sure what about. He was being really mean though, and I spent the whole dream mad at him but also sad and confused. In the end I learned that he had messed up while playing some game called "Ikenkokku Palace" at my house and that made him mad, but he wasn't actually mad at me or anything and he was just kidding around. I felt so relieved and apologized for being so emotional. In the end it switched to me being on a computer and listening to some playlist that Erii made online and thinking that it was really cool. (I sure have been dreaming about Erii a lot. )

#2 - Whale Support Group [Non-Lucid]

I'm in some marine biology class and I join a small group of students starting a secret organization with some ridiculously long name that's some womens' whale support group, though guys can join too. (In fact one of the founders was a guy, and I pretty sure long name it had ended with "and we play with our penises". ) I'm pretty sure the stated purpose of the group was to support "women, African Americans, and whales." Eventually the group is revealed to the teacher as a way of taking her off guard because they thought she'd be against it, but she actually loved the idea and wanted to join. We were all happy, and I remember jotting down a sentence or two in a book about Dr. Who (which I don't even watch) thinking that I was going to write my own book, but I don't remember about what.... Class ended and I got up to walk out, but then I woke up.

#3 - In-Class RPG [Non-Lucid]

I remember forming a bond with some girl in a class and I felt like maybe there was something deeper there, but that part of the dream is very blurry. I went to my next class after that, and I'm taking classes with D and C (but C eventually turns into M) and we're playing some confusing role-playing game as an assignment and they're super into it. I don't really remember how the game works, but D is close to winning but then M activates some instant win thing no one knew about (not even him) and claims leadership of whatever their RP was about. I watch them go through some REALLY long and totally ridiculous in-character dialogue (they're so into it ) and it skips forward to us in a bedroom with D's little brother S also there. I say "You guys are INSANE. >w<" and grab some clothes I happen to have there - green velour pants, a white undershirt, and something else I can't quite remember - and start walking around the school which is gigantic. I'm looking for my dorm room and starting to feel really tripped out and scared for some reason until I wake up.... I walked into someone's room and there was some stoner guy on the bed who was clearly high, and I was embarrassed and apologized saying I was high too and just lost, and walked out. I heard him saying as I was walking through the halls that he was afraid I was some undercover FBI agent or something. >.>;;

#4 - Renovations [Non-Lucid]

I found some anime DVDs to watch in my room, and a garbage truck parked right out in front of my house as part of renovating it. (??) My dad was painting the outside wall of the house by the deck, and my mom was swimming in the pool. That's all there really was to that.

I was reading through some shared dreaming stuff and saw a post by WakingNomad with this in it:

Originally Posted by WakingNomad

If you have a dream you are walking in a normal looking physical place, and you feel like a ghost, it could be an 'astral dream.'

That got me thinking, I actually had a dream like this a long time ago. I figured it'd be worth writing down for the sake of preserving the memory. I don't really remember what happened in the dream leading up to this part other than that it was a pretty normal dream, I used to know more but it's been way too long since it happened, I was a little kid at the time. But I was sleeping in my parents' bed, and at the end of the dream I had that feeling WakingNomad describes, where everything is very vivid and very normal looking (not dream-like at all) and I felt like a ghost. I wasn't walking though, I was hovering (but not controlling it) in my mom's personal room, which is connected to my parents' bedroom. There are doors separating them with glass centers and window blinds to cover them, and the blinds were open so I could see through them. I saw myself sleeping in their bed in the early morning, and I saw the time on the clock behind my head. I don't remember what it was anymore, but let's say it was something like 6:34. (I do honestly think it was some time after 6am....) I didn't really realize what was going on at the time, but I did feel like something crazy was happening, and there was a large energy building, but everything was fading away, and then I woke up in the bed in the exact position I had been laying in, alone like I saw myself in the dream (my parents had already woken up and left the room), and the clock read 6:34 (or whatever it was), exactly as it had in the dream. I thought it was pretty cool, which is I guess why I still remember it after all this time. I didn't think much further into it, though. I was a kid, I had other priorities. So that's that.

This is karmic retribution, punishment for having four lucids in one night. :C This was the worst recall yet... I don't even have a full dream to post. T-T

Dream Fragment - "Hanging out at O's newest house, made lots of friends."

Dream Fragment - "Third-person Marshall (from How I Met Your Mother) freaks out about an essay exam."

Dream Fragment - "Something about trading attack turns in some IRL RPG."

And now... I leave you with these thoughts.

A lot of my memories for the night are really splotchy, my recall was pretty bad. Plus, I got really distracted for a while after waking up and didn't take the time to read over my dreams until now. As a result, some of this probably won't make much sense. :T Anything in quotation marks is just a direct quote from my notes, and something I couldn't really figure out.

#1 - New College Dorm [Non-Lucid]

"Looking for a new college dorm and seeing a lot of people in the process, getting ready to make an offer but afraid someone else might get out. While looking for someone to get out, somehow I accidentally set up a coke deal through O and he even has it for me by the time I wake up. Apparently I lived under some housing label before and never knew and the employees are shocked because normally everyone who does is close as family and I just never noticed before since I was such a loner, and they were gonna play hard ball but now it seems like they really want to give it to me."



#2 - Easy Money [Non-Lucid]

We opened a restaurant at my house, and I spent pretty much the entire dream taking peoples' money and credit card numbers but never actually brought any orders out.

#3 - Dream Journal [Non-Lucid]

I'm visiting some high school class and we're having some mid-day recess, and apparently I go there day after day because the days keep skipping while I'm outside. On the last day I actually go back inside and see the classroom for once, and the teacher puts on a movie. I pull out a yellow paper pad to doodle or something, and notice on it the words "Dream Journal". Obviously, I remain non-lucid.

Dream Fragment - "Something about Linkzelda41 and eating an orange?? So faint...."

#4 - Joking About Celebrities [Non-Lucid]

"Wandering around school, make friends with some of the girls in that class. D's there, and O. Something about celebrities, we joke about one of them going crazy and attacking the others in a story or movie or something. Then I head through the hallways with D (other D) thinking about what to do, I have class but I end up getting game guides to read instead."

False Awakening - "I think I must have went home, laid down in bed to read the game guides, and passed out early."

Terrible recall. >_< Maybe I should try drinking apple juice before bed or something!

#1 - Feels Bad Man [Non-Lucid]

I don't... I can't, there's not... I don't even, why... it's not... no... no.... No. So this dream, the entire dream, was dedicated to taking a piss in a jar, and then smoking it thinking of it as weed. Not like using the piss as bong water or something, oh no - literally, smoking the piss. Near the end I ended up casually talking to a girl who looks like one of O's roommates about it. >_<

#2 - A New Friend [Non-Lucid]

I was working for some weird old man in a game store in some small town O and I were on vacation in, or something. O was working there too and he was trying to show me how the job was done. The old man comes up to me and hands me this really long and skinny plastic cylinder (really the only way to describe it) and tells me I need to fill it up with ice, and then water from this little playground area across the street. I wasn't sure where exactly he was referring to, but I went outside and met this girl who looks like S, a girl I see very rarely but who I've known since high school, but not exactly, so she's more of a random DC. I told her what I was doing and she showed me the way, so I got the water and went back to the store, but then I realized I hadn't got the ice yet. :T I went and put it in from the ice machine in the back, but I was afraid the old man would get mad at me for doing the order wrong, and he did. He started yelling at me, and he was so angry that he decided to close up shop for the day right then and there. All of us employees, a few customers, and the DC girl sit down and try to think of something to do. She offers me a ride if I'm willing to go get something to eat with her, in a way that makes it sound like she has to give something for me to want to hang out with her, and I feel bad so I say I have my own ride but I'd still be willing to go eat with her. She looked at me inquisitively and asked "Why, are you weird?" and I said "Yeah, I'm pretty weird." She looked happy, but a couple seconds later I woke up.

Dream Fragment - "Camp, tripping with K, exercise and homework, M before K?"

I was a busy girl this night! Four MILDs, one almost V-WILD, and one non-lucid, not to mention some shadow creatures at the beginning of the night. Intense!

Side Notes - So, as I was falling asleep there was suddenly some very vivid and weird blobby structure textured like blue jeans behind my eyelids, it twitched and morphed very quickly. This was not hypnagogic imagery (at least, not fully), it was a remnant of when I used to meditate while abusing anticholinergic deliriants, it moved in the exact same way. I open my eyes and say "Great, so I'm hallucinating now." There were dark clouds moving across my room and coming up to my face, I could feel an animal presence in each one, but I didn't allow them to form into anything. Across my ceiling moved a cloud that I always recognize as one of my delirium signs. Had I let it grow, it would've turned into a big white alien crab thing. I decided to just close my eyes and try to fall asleep quickly anyway while repeating my lucidity mantra.

#1 - Playing With The Weather [MILD]

The first few parts of this dream I only remember in flashes. I remember wishing some city was closer to us for some reason, I think I perceived it as some cool party area, then blur... then there's some spaceship ride at a theater or old house or something where we weren't supposed to be, but I got on the ride with a couple other people and it sent me into third-person mode in outer space, controlling some ship (a star destroyer from Star Wars, maybe?) as some commercial about it plays in the background (just the audio) and the ship gets continuously divided into smaller copies of itself by other ships around it. I think this phase is what caused me to become lucid... suddenly I was back in first-person and standing in front of my house. A big red bus was driving down the street and I tried to pull it toward me with telekinesis but it didn't work, probably too big of a task for a beginner. (I don't think I've used telekinesis since my second lucid ever.) So instead I lept up and blasted off into the sky at supersonic speeds, the wind felt so amazing rushing past my face. I even got to feel myself pass through clouds, which was awesome! I watched the ground streak by until I stopped over some really big field in a country area with one or two small farms. I was really high up, above the clouds, and I saw a tornado tearing through the countryside. (Though, aside from a couple storm clouds, it was bright and sunny outside. ) I gave my telekinesis another shot and managed to change its path by holding my hand out and pushing it in a different direction. Next I turned my attention to a storm cloud next to me and tried to make lightning strike the ground from it, but it wasn't really working too well, it was more like a mild flash that was just a glitch in my perception. I guess that one might take some waking life visualization first to do well. After that I transitioned into third-person again and lost lucidity, there was some kid breaking into a bank and some nasty old man with a shotgun (I think...) and his dog comes in and threatens him to leave and return what he stole or he's going to call this other old man and make him his pet. I woke up after that. There was a lot of dream leading up to the blurry part too, I remember experiencing it, just not what it was.... Though I do remember it involved Erii.

#2 - Outmatched [MILD]

I was back in middle school but in a class with a guy I didn't meet until high school, and the environment was somewhat fused with my community college. I have two electric guitars made of rubber, and they really work but they also aren't stable and bend and flop around a lot. Apparently one of them is broken and the other is a replica of the broken one, and my teacher gets mad at me for having them so I ask if I can take them to a different classroom. She says sure, so I get up and start walking through the halls and swing them like crazy on my way, they bend so much that they made that *wop-wop-wop* spinning blade sound but with a cool little electric guitar noise. While walking through the hall I become lucid, and somehow I went from the second floor to the first floor. I look up a massive staircase and see someone who I don't remember, but I flew up to him and asked him where Mason was. (This guy I had a class with in high school, I don't know why I thought of him but I was basically just trying to keep a dream plot going.) He didn't know so I flew off to the cafeteria (first floor) and there were several rows of tables with computers set up there for some reason. I just had fun walking through the rows and seeing tons of old people I went to middle school with, including D and C, working on some projects. I walked to one of the stairwells and sat down next to it and pulled out my phone to start texting (I think I almost lost lucidity here), and O walked by me and said that I'd better be careful because he had just gotten in trouble for doing that, and I was like oh snap, I'm supposed to be in class! I walk up the stairs next to these two random DC girls and tell them about the guitars and they laugh, and I'm like "I know, fuckin' dreams." Upstairs we walk to a section where there's a large gap in between two sections of the floor that you can see the first floor through, with a bridge off to the right of where I am. Directly across from me is a room with a bunch of people standing out front, so I jump across the gap myself and walk into the room. It's small and nearly empty, with another even smaller room (like closet-sized) connected to the side of it. There's a random girl standing next to the window looking out of it, and she looks over at me. Suddenly she runs over to me at LIGHTNING speed, like leaving a blurry trail behind her and everything, and stands right in front of me with this serious face. I freak out and try to kick her away, but with her super speed she just jumps to right behind my foot. She just stares at me and then reaches out to grab my leg. O_O And I'm basically terrified at this point, but then I wake up.

I need to master that level of super speed as a power!!

#3 - Walking On Water [MILD]

O and I are leaving our middle school to go to In-N-Out for lunch but we accidentally use an exit door that has an alarm on it. I figured this out after we used it but O didn't, so I just wanted to get out of there so I don't get in trouble. We almost left, but O started seeing everyones' reactions to the alarm going off and starts having a panic attack, so I put aside my worries to keep him calm. It jumps forward to me right up next to some window blinds, like literally they're all I see, with individual ones having information printed on them about how I have to sit in this timeout class all day for being in trouble, and it specifically stated that one of the school admins was ninja9578. Eventually I back away from the blinds and see that this class is in a tiny building in front of the school, in the parking lot. This one guy in somewhat fancy black clothes is there and asks me what I'm there for after talking to the teacher about something, but I became lucid around this point. I just tell him I'm getting out of there, and I fly up and phase through the wall and into the sky. I look back and see him smiling and looking encouragingly at me, and he says "This is a dream!" or something like that, and I just smile at him and fly off. I start off down the road toward my house, but then I decided to ground myself and hoof it this time to make sure I didn't get too much of an adrenaline rush. I run down the path, and normally there's a bridge and on the left side of it you see my old elementary school, but instead this time right at the edge of the bridge was a beach with a long stretch of water going out from it. :O I decided that walking on water would be a cool thing to do, so I just ran out on to it. There are waves forming and breaking beneath me and it feels so cool, I try to jump over the waves as they come just for the fun of it. That went on for a short amount of time, then the dream ended.

False Awakening - I had a false awakening here where I intended to start writing that dream down, but it wasn't really significant. Luckily it didn't mess with my memory of it, but it did make me think I had woken up between the alarm part and the getting in trouble briefly when I actually hadn't.

#4 - Sleepwalking Scare [MILD]

I was briefly lucid, I can't remember much other than that the plot of the dream seemed really unstable and ill-formed, like the DCs were actually invisible. They were definitely there in a third eye kind of way, but they vanished easily, and I was afraid that I was actually lucid sleepwalking or something because I was standing naked in my bathroom, and if I closed my eyes and walked around I felt myself moving and all, but when I would open them I'd still be in the same spot. However, when I actually woke up I was still in bed.

Side Notes - After this I wasn't really intending to fall back asleep, but I didn't feel like getting up either. I stayed in bed and started thinking about giving myself a breast massage, but I was so lazy that I didn't even actually feel like lifting my arms to do it, so I started visualizing it instead. To my surprise, the visualization was incredibly strong, and I felt like it was actually happening. A scene started forming around me too, I was walking Target and looking at DVDs while doing this. It definitely felt like it was about to completely take over and suck me into a V-WILD several times, but it was never able to fully do it. Maybe if I'd done this method before I would've known how to push it all the way, but as it is I just don't think I was tired enough to fall into it. After I gave up with that it took me another fifteen or twenty minutes to fall asleep again.

#5 - Chao Raising [Non-Lucid]

I was raising chao (from Sonic Adventure) with K, and then my memory gets blurry.... I wrote down "find a way back to the beginning of an obstacle course which takes me back to the beginning of it all and causes me to hatch from one of his eggs?" I remember before this he was at my house writing a trip report for some cannabinoid smoking blend we had both tried, and then he was leaving but I said I wanted to go with him and he said I needed to hurry, so I went to change clothes and somehow it launched into that. Afterwards he asked me what I was going to do with the new chao and I told him I might go for one beauty-based (?) because until then I'd been looking at Erii as the figure of beauty. (??) Then I woke up lol.

So, I tried taking 1500 mg of aniracetam at midnight to see the effect it would have on my dreams. My advice would be that if you are sensitive to hallucinogenic states of mind (like I am) and/or have a history of panic attacks and general anxiety (like I do), that you DO NOT try this. In my previous experiences using aniracetam as a nootropic, I had noticed that it seemed kind of like piracetam but a bit more trippy, it just has sort of a dissociative energy to it. Now I know that I shouldn't take more than a standard dose (750 mg) or possibly even that if I'm not willing to deal with that. :T

Basically, as it was setting in, my thoughts started racing. I also realized that it may not be good to take a good dose of something that pushes a lot of oxygen to the brain while trying to go to sleep, but that's my bad. I was zoned out and into a mild hypnagogic trance (I get very light, transparent hallucinations easily) when suddenly the weird patterns I was watching became really strong and pushed me into alertness. I sat up thinking "Okay, that was odd. >_>" After that there was an abrupt shift in consciousness, I honestly did a RC to make sure I wasn't dreaming. It didn't really feel like a dream though, more like a trip. In the same way that hypnagogia can involve things like loud noises or images that appear really quick and then vanish in a way that makes them immediately feel really distant, I started getting sensations of chest pains that would last barely a second, then feel like they almost never happened in the first place, and I started to hear my heart beating and it sounded somewhat erratic. Though I've never had it quite as fleeting as this before, I've been here a million times... the point where I have to suddenly get myself under control or I'm going to launch into a panic attack.

I forced myself to get a grip, and started doing some of my normal calming exercises. The anxiety and sensations didn't fully go away, but it didn't make me totally freak out or anything. I frequently was getting the unsettlingly strong dissociative feeling of having all of my senses pulled away from me, like I was about to snap into an anesthetic OBE, but this also came and went pretty quickly. It took me a long time to fall asleep after that, and I think I had one dream before the first one I logged but I can't really recall anything about it. However, all of my dreams after that were considerably more vivid than they had been the past few days, or even really more than any dreams I'd had in a while.

I'd always wondered about the supposed 5-HT2A and D2/D3 action of aniracetam. I'm still not sure if they've verified it yet, but I'm more willing to believe it interacts with those receptors in some way now. It was a lot crazier than I expected.... I know people take doses much higher than that normally and are fine, too. I guess I'm just really sensitive to its effects. If I try it again in the future, I'll probably stick to the 750 mg doses, and probably a couple hours before bed. It does seem to have an augmentative effect, but it needs to be used correctly.

Anyway....

#1 - Meeting Up With Laura [Non-Lucid]

I was hanging out with this guy J I met in high school but haven't seen much of since graduation, and I was supposed to be meeting up with some girl I don't know named Laura soon. I asked J if he wanted to go to her house with me and he said sure. This part of the dream is hazy, but we got in my car and I drove us there, and somewhere down the line J turned into D. We got to her house, but she wasn't there! Her parents and my parents were, though. They were having some kind of breakfast feast with a bunch of pans on the stove that included hash browns, eggs, and mini pancakes, possibly among other things. I went into Laura's room and gave her a call on my cell (I think) and it turned out she had actually gone to my house looking for me, so I felt bad about missing her. :T I told her we'd go bowling to make up for it when I got back. I saw her as I was talking to her, but she's hard to remember. At this point my mind started associating her with Laura Palmer, from Twin Peaks, and she was blonde like her but she didn't really look like her otherwise. I thought to myself maybe we can bring some drugs or alcohol to the bowling alley to surprise her, that'll make her happy. After I got off the phone I went back and saw D pigging out on all the breakfast food. I told him we needed to head out and that he should make those pancakes he was getting be his last plate, and he said "Even worse, I think they're Chinese." and laughed. At the time, I knew what this meant.... It was some reference to the way they were cooked. I have no idea what it means now, though. After that, we were getting ready to leave and I woke up.

#2 - Talking About Disgaea [Non-Lucid]

I spent the night at someone's house talking about drugs or something, then in the morning when I woke up and walked out the front door (into a big auditorium-like building, on the second floor ) there was a huge band/orchestra event going on, so I wanted to get out of there quickly. I distinctly remember walking past this chibified version of another J I knew in school, and he even had a squeaky voice to go along with his look. I ran into an old friend (some random DC?) and the scene changes to a huge department store, and she gets mad at me for not forcing her to play Disgaea before when she thought she wouldn't like it because she said she finally decided to try it after all these years and loves it. She asks for some teaser details about what she can expect out of the game, so I gave some vague information about the plot and some cool stuff you can do in the game, which were amazingly accurate considering I was saying this in a dream, but then the dream ended.

#3 - Glitchy New Pokémon Game [Non-Lucid]

Playing a copy of an unreleased Pokémon game that I somehow downloaded on to a flash cart. (Even in the dream I admit to not remembering how I got it.) I refer to the game as Black version, but I think I might have meant Black 2. It looks cool, but because it's a dream it's extremely glitchy and not consistent at all. Yet somehow, I managed to realize that if you keep going back and retrying the options you were pressing over and over again intending them to work, they eventually would. I don't remember much about the content, though I was actually able to read everything perfectly fine, and I remember seeing a picture of Link (in child form) from his art in Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. Meanwhile, my parents are also walking around the house (I'm moving around while playing) and arguing about whether or not someone will be able to fix some issue if my dad contacts her, but I can't remember exactly what.

My recall's starting to get pretty poor, I think I need to start reading up on some ways to increase it, and also some lucid stabilization guides. I had two lucids, but it seems like every time I have one that lasts more than a few seconds it's spent fighting the dream to keep it alive, and often failing, and I don't get to focus on anything like finding Linkzelda41 or exploring powers. :T Hmm.... (Though, I guess I did get to briefly attempt one thing that would be useful for that this time, but it didn't really work.)

Fragment - "K, tripping, freak out fan on/off, zombies, his phone too warm."

Fragment - "Giant valley filled with water, pink Star Fox fighter battle, on DS. Water level dropped at end."

#1 - Fight To Survive [MILD]

I'm in high school with O and D, a history class I think, and our teacher is giving us a lesson along with some humongous white snake with no eyes that still somehow stares into your soul. Some guy in class was browsing the internet (on his laptop I guess, kind of hard to remember) instead of paying attention, so the snake caused him to become a cartoon and switch bodies with a female anthropomorphic bunny. o_o After class we're getting ready to leave as if class was totally normal, and I became lucid after talking to them about the snake. O walks through a door with some girl on the way out (like literally, they phased right through it) and I follow him (phasing through the door as well, the first lucid power I actually had to work to get good at, and can now do flawlessly ) to try to get him to come back but he still walks off. I decide to open the door to change where it leads to, and it kind of works but not really, it just leads me to a different school hallway. The dream starts to fade so I start rubbing my hands together and feeling the walls and looking all over the place for new input but it's not really working, so I jump forward and start licking the wall as well, three senses stimulated! It doesn't taste as bad as I would have imagined, just sort of neutral. I start walking down the wall (never removing my hands or tongue from it) trying to find something to do, and the dream clearly doesn't want to last. My limbs are slowly failing as if I'd been fatally poisoned or something. Finally I see one of those little bins they had at stores with different ice cream cones and bars in them, and I run over there and just grab a regular vanilla ice cream cone. I started eating it and it actually tasted pretty good, but then I woke up. I guess it wasn't a total waste.

#2 - False False Awakening? [MILD]

I was talking to K about some politics related to lucid dreaming (mostly gibberish I think, but something about how some politician was claiming that lucid dreaming was equivalent to passing through the gates of hell ), and then I get a... well, it's odd because I can't remember far enough back in the dream to know if this was actually true or not, and I want to say it's not, but suddenly I had a feeling of clarity and said "Oh, this is a false awakening." and that made me lucid. I just looked at K and said "You're not even going to remember this conversation." And he smiled at me, then I woke up. On to the couch in my den, which seemed perfectly normal. I thought the conversation we were having was funny so I wrote it down to tell K about it later, but once I finished I actually woke up in bed, and I don't really remember much about the conversation now.

I can't wait for Link to read this one.

#1 - Cute Animal Class [Non-Lucid]

I'm back in a middle or high school class, but it's taking place in my room at home. I don't perceive it as my room at the time, though. The class was strange, and generally involved petting cute animals. I spent the first part of a dream petting a black cat that was sooo fluffy, and I remember a white cat walking around in the background, and at some point some dog that was cute but upon waking up I'm pretty sure was horribly mutated, or at least not remotely what a dog should look like. I think she was based on N's dog, too. Class ends, and I remember thinking that winter break was about to start. I reach down and grab a random blue jacket that's sitting on my bed and struggle to put it on for a minute, then I turn to look at the door and notice that Linkzelda41 is there! I said something along the lines of "Merry Christmas" or "happy holidays", and I ask him to wait up for me while I grab my stuff so we can leave the class together, but he heads out. :< I try to grab all my stuff and run after him, but I start to notice that there's a LOT of my stuff in this classroom. (Still haven't realized that it's my room. ) I start panicking and grabbing as much as possible, thinking "I can't just leave all this stuff here, I need it at home!!", and my arms are starting to get really full and I'm not sure how much more I can carry, but then I wake up.

Fragment - "Large class, black midgets with dog heads that turn into trucks, singing, P."

#2 - Our Fate Is Sealed [Non-Lucid]

I'm with a bunch of other people my age in a house (based on D's?) sitting on a couch facing the kitchen counter. Apparently, we perceive it as being stranded or locked in somehow, and we have been for a couple days. We're trying to keep spirits high, and one guy has been smoking weed with the guy who's cooking our meals because he was freaking out, and we all joke that the food is way better now. A girl tries to play a prank on them after they're coming back to the room from smoking a bowl, but isn't fast enough. He makes some small plates of food and hands them out (and I mean really small, but I suppose we're rationing), and I offer some to the girl sitting next to me on the couch but she declines. Finally she says "It's going to happen... we're all going to die." She has some prophetic powers or something and laments that after all this being trapped it's just going to end. She warns everyone that if they want to make the end of their lives worth it they better do it now. She points at me and says she can't say why but I'm the only one who can go home, but it still won't save me. She also claims that some of us may temporarily come back from the dead but not for long. As a result, when I get home she wants me to make a list with all of our names on it, that way it'll add to the mystery when we die, and when she comes back to life she can get the list and sell it for millions. I woke up after she said that, though.

#1 - New New House [Non-Lucid]

I went to see O's new house for the first time (imaginary house, though going to see O's actual new house was what I did during the day). He had become rich and famous or something, the house was gigantic with wide-open spaces and two stories, and of course tons of alcohol. (Makes sense if you know him.) He had a bed that had some special switch on it that lets you make it shift back and forth between a tempurpedic bed with a heating system and a waterbed, and he even had a several-pages-long list of guests who were allowed to come in. His parents, who are really strict and don't know he's ever had alcohol and never want him to ended up coming over. Everything was going fine until they pulled out a breathalyzer and tested him, and he was a little drunk. They stormed out and told him to come with them. We all went out to the front door and turned into a pink ghost and started floating out toward the car, and we all said "Phantom, you don't have to do this!" Someone went after him, then I did too to change his mind, but it turned out it was just someone elses' car and he was just getting it unstuck and had always intended to stay. I was happy and told him I wanted to try his awesome bed! It jumps forward a bit to at night, apparently I had passed out in the bed so I got up to let him have it back and sleep on a couch. There was a TV screen on that showed the amount of beer in his bedside cooler and had a visualizer that went along with the sounds in the house. o_o (Or as O put it, "the 'verse".) It was dark because all the lights were out but he showed me to some blankets and pillows and I put them on the couch, and he talked about how he was so full and tired because he made the bad decision of eating a lot of bread even after going through all that drama, which he referred to as "Hell McMisery". After that we laughed and I laid down, then I woke up.

#2 - Down The Rabbit Hole [DILD]

I went to go meet with a girl, S, who I had a rather embarrassing encounter with once in mid high school, but have known since middle school. And when I say "rather", I mean "extremely", and I'm not going to go into it. >_< She finally shows up in the room I'm in (it looks almost like a living room/kitchen in a trailer house?) but has no desire to see me, and I don't blame her, but I tell her some really cryptic and trippy thing about how "the rabbit will show you the truth", then I leave and it jumps forward to me walking down the side of a road. A car full of gigantic evil-looking bunny ears headbands (and also wearing some) pulls up but then drives off when I try to get into it and I get mad. I keep walking and become lucid, and another car with an actual driver but still filled with those same evil headbands drives by. I reach out my hand and say "Flagged!" and it pulls over, but as I turn to see it (it drove slightly behind where I was) I see a highly attractive woman walking down the street. I lift my hand again to the car and say "Fired!" and it drives off. I move my hand over to the woman and say "Flagged!" again and she walks over to me. She's blonde, stunning, and wearing some super erotic futuristic stripper-like outfit but manages to pull it off in a classy way with how gorgeous she was. I asked her if she wanted to make out with me, and she looks at me odd and I say "Come on, I'm the Easter bunny. :<" She looks like she's considering it but then things start going blurry and I'm like fuckfuckfuck gotta stabilize! And I intend to reach out to her but then the dream ends.