non-lucid

I don't think I got lucid last night. My first dreams were really early in the night. I was awoken from something kind of scary but unable to remember it. All I remembered at the end was something like, "A ghosty!" I was in sleep paralysis and trying to remember the rest, when I fell back asleep, without recording. I told myself I would still remember next time I woke up when I thought I was waiting too long to record. L O L... Not!

I woke up again around the time I usually do, after 4 to 6 hours of sleep. I had dreamed about depth charge from beast wars and outlining a color drawing of him. My Dad was cooking eggs for himself to eat. I dreamed I was at this church, walking around, brushing my teeth the whole time. I explained to my friend why I try not to step up onto a high step up thing. It was a bed. Because my knee clicks. I had him step up onto it and his knee clicked, too. Then, he understood. It was R S. R S was at the end of my next dream, too.

The next dream was a long one. I was in this dirt parking lot thing. Then in a video game thing. I saw someone from a job I had when I was 14 or 15.

For the video game thing, first it was on a Mario Side Scroller type of game. I had an invincibility star generator but lost my fire flower before I reached it. Another mushroom appeared that I also got. Then I went down some corridor with writing along it, and into this water or flying level. I bypassed some blue fish ghost bad guy things and went to the boss, this big sea monster thing. With my invincibility star, I could go right up to the monster and stand next to it, automatically dealing it damage.

After that, there was something about being in a field. One kid was throwing a disc at other kids necks (ouch!). Then they were kicking footballs down the field, and landing near us, so we moved. We walked over some fallen tree parts and got to a store.

I was going to steal something from near the front of the store, but put it back. My Mom was mean to a girl and I was like, Mom, you gotta admit you were wrong, kind of thing. Then I was trying to put on a suit but my friend took it and cut it for his own costume. I was so mad, I wanted to take it back from him, and cut the whole thing up, so neither of us could have it. It was like a grey elephant suit. This was also when I was yelling at R S but it was S S who stole my suit. What was I fighting R S about? Its probably in my voice notes.

Then I was wearing no clothes! I was covering up with my hands as best I could. This woman, D F, took a picture of me with an old school camera. I demanded she show it to me and delete it, or I would smash her camera! The picture of me showed two bricks where each of my chest muscles are. I woke up directly from that.

After that I had trouble sleeping. I prayed a while about stuff and then finally got a little more sleep around 5:30 A M.

I had lots of little "dream flashes". The main dream I remember from that part was walking by this party type of room and hearing classical music as my friend B D walked in. I was like, wait, was that B D? I should go in and say hi. But I wasn't wearing my retainer, and my shirt was buttoned funny. When I walked by again, two women came out, not B D.

I also dreamed of different relatives criss crossing who lives where. Like my aunt staying with us but then house sitting for my uncle during the day who had traded lives with my other aunt, and watching his (her) dog.

I had some more details that didn't come off the top of my head. This was just a quick write up. The rest are on my voice recorder. I decided my baseline level would just be to record my dreams by voice through the night. Anything I write about them is just a bonus. The writing got to be so strenuous, the way I was doing it, and eventually I totally lost interest. So a little balance is important.

I got lucid at least twice. One of the times was more of a substantial LD. The other times were just short moments of lucidity.

In my final dream, there was this cat who bit my finger. It was like I re lived the dream 3 times. In the second part, when I got down the stairs, the cat bit my finger. I didn't know it was a dream. I didn't expect much, but it turned out that a huge chunk of skin was ripped off. I thought it was waking life, and got scared. I was really relieved when I woke up and it hadn't really happened physically.

The dream before that was my main LD. I was making some fruit juice with some people. Then I thumb wrestled a friend from school. Then I needed to find a bathroom. I went down some stairs, and I was in a sketchy train station place with public bathrooms. I found the mens room and then had a false awakening where I was sleeping in a dirt hole. Twice, that false awakening repeated. Both times, some scary group of people ran up to the hole and jumped in, and I woke up.

The third time, it started again, with me in the hole again. This time a big group of people were coming towards my sleeping hole. I realized it was a dream, and decided to face them. They required me to speak in Spanish, so I spoke in Spanish to them. My Spanish is pretty good in dreams!

I ended up joining them on a bus. I became aware that everything was hyper realistic. My vision was really sharp. I tried "deepening" which was to just rub my hands and try to rub the seats on the bus. I'm not sure if it worked, but the dream didn't end there.

We pulled into some kind of drive through food place. It was closed but there was a drive through vending machine. I had no money. There were some coins in the coin return already though. Two said Canadian on the back. Big silver coins. I rubbed the back of one and a little silver worm appeared. It freaked me out. I felt something bite my leg really hard, and woke up.

Earlier dreams don't come to mind off the top of my head. BUT I got them all in a voice recorder, so that's good enough for me.

Just as a back ground note, a small group of us as kids had a thumb wrestling thing. We used to thumb wrestle a lot, kind of as a joke. 15 years later or so, it is hard to put a word to the feeling, but the dream recaptured it. It was really cool.

This is all just off the top of my head the next morning. I got my dreams in full detail in my voice recorder.

I dreamed of being on my back on a paddle board, and then trying to use my arms to paddle, and falling in. My friend was morphing into a bug to practice meditation in a bug mind. There was a guy asking people to survey his house. My sister was making a car covered in cereal boxes using tomato sauce as glue. Someone wanted me to set them up a phone meeting at 2:19. I used a phone app with a blue background to help. I was trying to make sure my friend took these white vitamin pills, even though they were mine (Calcium/Magnesium/Zinc).

In earlier dreams I was in a movie theater with multiple screens. I was flying at one point. I was living in a room directly under train tracks. There was a little girl named MiMiMi or NiNiNi who complained that I left my stinky shorts in the bathroom when I went to shower. We had all moved somewhere new. I told a bunch of people to stop walking through a wooden gate so I could move some wood obstructing the way first.

I was on a bus and these old men started smoking cigars. I got mad and told them they were stupid. They said not to call them stupid. It became a fight. They got off the bus. My Uncle was the driver. They kept yelling at us from off the bus so my Uncle got out and started yelling back at them, chopping his feet like a football drill.

There was a kid I knew, but he had 4 arms and one nostril in the middle of his nose, instead of two. When I pointed this out, he turned around, and turned back around, then had only 2 arms, and he had both nostrils again.

There was a video game part where I was overpowered by some of the beasts. One of them caught me behind a rock but turned out to be helping me. The rest of them were these red things. I realized if I ran around with my "charge attack" fully charged before I got close to them, I could strike, flee, charge my attack, and this would keep me from getting damaged as I pelted them with regular attacks. It was a lot like final fantasy crystal chronicles.

There was a class room setting in the first one or two dreams. It might have repeated.

I dreamed that I was shopping for barbecue sauce. I was looking for "Barbecue Ray" or something like that. Then I realized they probably all had processed sugar, and would be no good to me. I was going to buy 3 bottles for 5 dollars each but changed my mind.

There was other stuff too but off the top of my head, it doesn't come to mind. Luckily its all in my voice notes.

In my last dream, there was something with Dinobot from beast wars. He ran his own special base outside of the Maximals or Predacons. When my group showed up there, the dream showed Dinobot sending all the humans at his base into hiding. There was a lot more to that dream, but I couldn't remember it, even though I tried! There was something with a jail.

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In the dream before that, I was in this car. My actual car was behind it. Somehow my actual car started running with no one in it, and drove straight into the road, by the local Laundromat. I thought some snow banks would stop it, but it went through them. I tried to follow it, honking my horn, to alert people. A big red hummer thing couldn't get out of its way. I looked for damage. There didn't seem to be any, but still, the driver was mad. It was my friend, G B. I realized it was a dream. I was like, "Wait, G B, It's a dream! We don't have to go to court! Lets just go fly!" And he was surprisingly like, "Woah, dude! Thanks for telling me! So, how do we do this?"

I said we would have to rub our hands fast. So I started rubbing my hands and the dream got a little more stable. But I was really anxious and lost the dream.

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There was a dream with all this fighting. That was between the above two. We were pouring Ramen Noodles into the dirt because the Ramen Noodles became yellow worms that nourished the nearby pond. At one point we were forced into the military. I was mocking my friend for trying to have a fake positive attitude about it. During another part I was arming myself with a dream version of my samurai sword.

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In an earlier part, before the car crash, it was in a school. Someone made a rap line like, "I got a place in my heart for cruel thugs. I like to give people school hugs."

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I recorded a lot more on my voice recorder, but this is just off the top of my head. There was one really cool part I wish I remembered. I was flying around. I think I was lucid. I looked up and could see neon things in the sky. I could sense it was cool, but it was so far back in the dream, I couldn't remember. After that I was supposed to pay some land scapers 80 dollars, but they paid me 80 dollars instead.

Eventually there was something with this crazy area flat type of game, but more intense. I created a "save state" like in some emulators, within the dream, because I got to a tough point. At the end it was like these gaps I had to jump over.

Then it transformed into someone smoking a cigarette near me, and me getting mad at them. I forgot how they reacted, but it was in my voice notes.

I missed the dream sign of seeing grey smoke, but not smelling it. I even wondered where the smell was, but didn't think to state check.

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I think there was an earlier dream too. Its all in my voice notes. I guess it will be a surprise then when I hear what it was! Oh yeah. Now i remember. My first round dreams was really blank. I think it was eventful but I had only remembered like one or two details.

Dreams from March 26 to 27, 2018

I had good dreams and good recall tonight. A high level of conflict within the dreams but I actually was a lot stronger within the dreams than usual. I got all the details in my voice recorder for my own review so I am just doing a briefer write up.

Dream 1

There was some kind of sports practice. I was mad at the coach. Then, there was something about how the moons and planets were all visible. But shrouded in this grey dust. I remember seeing lots of planets in the sky. The next dream had to do with planets, too.

Dream 2

In this one I was at high school again. I wanted to grow some plants on Mars. Then I was looking up how much sun they get on Mars.

I went into this class room and the teacher asked me to recite the planets. I couldn't think of them.

Dream 3

In this one I got into some trouble at a food store. This water monster under this bridge was coming after me. I escaped by turning into Sponge Bob inside of a tiny plastic jar and bouncing out of the store. When I got out, I had only a coat on, but no pants! I ran to my car but got caught. A police officer was mad because he had to wake up to come arrest me. He agreed to just bring me to my car though.

I got in a fight with some people in the next building. This one guy had the upper hand on me but some how I turned it around using some kind of mind control thing and won the fight. I was worried I would get in trouble for "winning" too much.

Dream 4

In the last dream, I got in another fight with some people. I tricked someone to give up the drivers seat of this bus we were on by asking if I could go to the bathroom before then. This made them need the bathroom some how. I fought these people on a hill and won.

Notes

I liked the dreams tonight. My recall was really good. I got tons of details on my audio files. It would have taken hours to write. So I just made a quick write up with what came off the top of my head.

Dreams from March 2 to 26, 2018

I had some earlier dreams about people from high school. There was a lucid, dreaming lecture thing where someone thought they were still dreaming, and did something kind of crazy, thinking they had become lucid. There was this guy doing a Dave Matthews kind of song. And I got to have a good talk with a woman who I would have never thought smoked cigarettes. She was very understanding of how I felt about the smoke smell spreading and it was helpful. I woke up as she was saying, "Do you know about ____?"

Video Game Boss

The next dreams I dreamed of being in these video game boss battles. I forgot one of the boss battles. But then This big yellow thing was in this room. There were these blue bomb things I had to put in one corner of the room. When it went there, it got blown up.

Beast Wars
Megatron and a wolf Predacon were chasing Rattrap through the local arboretum. All in Beast Mode. Rattrap got away and then I was walking next to Optimus Primal. I was like, "Yeah, Megatron, you don't wanna come near us now!" I might have been Dinobot. Cheetor was ahead of us. We were all in Beast Mode.

Then I woke up and recorded those, and had another long dream. My recall was good tonight.

Diamond Games

I was in this locker room from my high school. There was a wolf attacking everyone but the wolf trusted me. Then the wolf tested how much I trusted him (or her). They became a human and came towards me. I felt fear but extended trust to the wolf spirit, now looking like a human. I think something healed there.

My Aunt kept trying to get me to play this diamond game. I was talking with my Aunt and my Cousin for a while.

I had a false awakening of trying to dream journal. I was glad it was just a dream because I dreamed that I forgot everything! Forgetting dreams is my worst night mare L O L. But maybe I can turn those night mares of forgetting the dreams into my best dreams of remembering my dreams, which will bring up my actual dream recall. So it is like an opportunity for when I am ready to catch it.

In the next dream I was talking to these people wearing really black clothes. Then telling someone else how I didn't feel inferior for not having as nice of clothes.

Then in the distance I saw people lined up to play the diamond game my Aunt had been mentioning. I felt like she had been mentioning it for ages and I just never listened.

I went over to it and a woman I was with got the girls ahead of us to let us play first. People kept coming by and dumping diamonds on us, "Making it Rain" as the dream called it. The woman kept telling me to keep collecting the diamonds that fell! So I did.

Then we had this big crate of diamonds and jewels. The girls behind us were mad because we had some of theirs. One tried to take some but some security guy stopped her. Another security guy took the woman I was with away so it was just me and the jewels and diamonds. Then I was on a dock and two men appeared at the end of the dock. I was supposed to ask them for guidance of what to do with the diamonds.

So I asked them and one pulled out this book. It said I had to think of the hardest thing to do with them, and do that. I was like, no way, I am definitely keeping them.

Cut scene of me walking around my old neighborhood, peeing as I walked. (L O L)

Then, I got to the people I was supposed to talk more with about the diamonds and jewels. I was talking to this spiritual guy who started showing me pages of a book. We heard a zip and it was a little kid behind me. He had un zipped my back pack and taken some diamonds.

I really didn't want the adults to be mad at the boy so I responded very positively. Kind of like, great job! You got them. And I gave him the diamonds he had taken. I said I could spare those, but I needed the rest, to pay my student loans.

Another man to the side said I should go earn the money to pay my loans. I said I did earn these diamonds. It made sense to me that I deserved the diamonds.

I woke up around then. I really liked the dreams tonight. I got all the details in my voice recorder and just typed this up as a shorter post.

I got all my dreams on a voice recorder so I might not type them all. But there were some cool ones.

After one dream, I had sleep paralysis, and heard a voice saying, "Scissor hands is killing me. Please, please, free me. Please" over and over. It was little kids voices.

I had one long dream that ended in a false awakening. This voice said, "There ones was a PUNK who wanted to know what he dreamed about. But then he couldn't." After that, my mind was totally, totally blank. I was like, WTF, did that voice just erase my dream? But I didn't give up. I salvaged a good amount of the dream. It was actually a very significant dream, too.

In my last dream, this woman was saying how people can be too concerned with whether or not they eat follow specific rules, forgetting the Higher Power's "unconditional love and acceptance". I "felt" this very deeply.

I recorded a lot more dreams on voice recorder but typing wouild take me hours!

Dreams from march 19, to 20, 2018

I couldn’t sleep after the second round of dreams for like hours. I slept a little around 6 A M. So I got 2 rounds of dreams and then a little dream in the morning.

Fight with Dad

There was a guy at a computer, making some kind of rap video that was supposed to be funny. He was doing his lyrics, then just sort of hummed over the instrumental, planning his melody. He also had a video where he said something kind of funny with a straight face.

There was another part where my Dad had started smoking cigarettes. I was closing some curtains and then he came in. We were all going to sit with my sister. He said something like he was going to get a pack of cigarettes for 50 dollars. I was mad at him and told him that was so stupid of him to smoke that first one. Now he would obviously be addicted again. But he better quit. People on his side of the family are trying to get me off his case.

They were chasing me and I realized they would definitely beat me up or something. So I ran. I kept looking at doors as I ran, because maybe I could hide in one, but I doubted any would open. I jumped over this railing into a kind of outdoor dining room full of tables. I took some salmon from someone, ate some of it, and then threw it at people.

I damaged some sliding doors so he was putting on new ones. They hung over this bar almost like curtains. He was making sure we didn’t get charged for damaging the room.

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Rattata’s

There was a scene where I was in a library. There was a stack of Magic the Gathering cards. I had to place them with Rattata cards. It seemed like it would take a while to compile a deck, because I had to do each card separately. There was a baby Rattata card that was mandatory, so I put that card. The whole Rattata family was mandatory. I put all those Rattatas and after putting 3, it showed this pile of Rattatas, like a snow man made of Rattatas. There was a specific move written in a box above one of the Rattata cards. The backs of the cards were brown and looked more like Magic the Gathering cards than Pokémon cards.

My user name in this dream is Dark Therapy. I guess it has to do with a forum. I think the name Dark Therapy will weird people out, so I plan on changing it to “Jark Jerapy” or something like that. The Rattata cards had swarm, so they could either all attack together, or all sleep at once. I had to right click to change the card.

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Notes

I had a lot of tension in my legs on this night. Not sure why.



Round 2 of Dreams

I had a list of dreams in my mind but they vanished when I went to record. It is so weird how they can all just vanish like that. I think I have them then, boom, vanished.


There was this part where I was playing some kind of football game. I was in the guard position. They said something about how I would need to defend the running back or something. I was afraid to be hit by whoever was going to come barreling through.

My friend was about to make a touch down but then he stopped. He stopped because the coach had told him he couldn’t score a point from too close or something like that. I was yelling at the coach because this was a lie. And it caused my friend to miss his chance to get a goal. The coach was this thin guy with glasses. There was a pile of dirt on the left side of the end zone. The game field was kind of in my Nana’s back yard. There was a guy telling me he thought my language was mean and maybe that he didn’t want me there any more. I was afraid one guy would call the police on me.

There was this thing about how a lot of people listened to “positive” books in the morning on A I Reader, but I was listening to angry books. There was a woman who needed lots of “positive” or “woo” stuff because she got bored easily. I was judging her harshly for that.

There was something about getting nuts from a jar.

There was something where a Spanish or Latin American guy was in the locker room and needed to borrow some coat hanger things. But the coat hangers were just a long thin metal rod with a little bend to hang them from. There were a handful of them. We were looking for a locker to put them in. The lockers along the sides of the room were too likely for someone to see them and take them. So we picked a locker in the middle of the aisles. This way the guy could use the coat hanger things and put them back and I could grab them later.

Then ☻was there. I was going to try out for the 300 pound weight class (in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness I am 150 to 170 pounds). I felt strong and kind of confident. ☻asked me to do some kind of over head press. I could put my right arm up, but my left arm wouldn’t go very high. There was another part about having kids to Upright Rows. I thought this was a bad idea since I heard Upright Rows are bad for the Rotator Cuffs.

☻said that younger kids can have all this fresh and new excitement for weight lifting, but when people get older, they lose that enthusiasm. I said that I would always have enthusiasm for training, at least until I am 40.

Then we were in this class room thing, with metal fold up chairs. There was a white book on one of the chairs. I think someone got up from one of the chairs. Someone was saying not to get too big or something like that.

At the end, there was something about ☻ in the locker room. He was teaching someone to Lucid, Dream. There was this interview where he showed 6 Lucid, Dreaming abilities. One was something with his face, but then a hoodie, and crab legs. It was called “Crab Hoodie Aspect”. Then the next was called “Dream Mind Control”. And there were 4 more with thumbnails and a picture.

Notes

After that round of dreaming, I couldn’t sleep and just laid in bed for hours. I lost my patience around 4:45 A M and got up, thinking it must be 6 by now. But it was 4:51.

Dreams from March 18 to 19, 2018

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Round 1 of Dreams: Beast Wars, Blue Potato and More!

I couldn’t get all details from the first round of dreams, but here is what I did get.

There are some parts with Beast Wars. In one part, it seems Megatron will be taken to court. There is a hill there. In another part, the Maximals are outside Earth’s Orbit. The dream shows a yellow space ship thing which looks like Cheetor’s. It is like an oval. Cheetor’s gun is supposed to go into it to complete it so it can return to Earth. Optimus is mad at Cheetor because he can’t complete the space ship. Maybe something bad is happening to Earth because of this.

There is a guy on a cafeteria line. It is all stainless steel. The guy is having a huge blue potato cooked. The chef is poking it with a fork. They are saying how it is for his dietary plan. I am unaware it is a dream, but I question this.

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LD: Computer Virus, Stuck on a Wall, Wait… I *AM* Dreaming?!

I forgot the beginning of these dreams but here is where my memory begins.

I am at this new apartment. I have to pay the rent. I keep telling the people I need another day. This goes on for what seems like 3 days. I am expecting my Dad to mail me cash for the rent. My mail is delivered, but the cash isn’t there. I am suspicious that the people who own the apartment are intercepting the rent money.

There is a part where I am with 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢talking about how we both slept over at 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢 house. But 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢 slept over his mom’s while my apartment is at his Dad’s. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢I see my Aunt 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢 and sister. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢I skate out of that room and I am in a mall. I am actually on skates. I see 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢 and I think she might like the way I look with my new beard. I go to talk to her. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢I keep skating.

In another part, I am trying to sleep. I am close to falling asleep. However, I know it is mid day, and I haven’t paid the rent. I am just really tired from the previous night of sleeplessness (within the dream). I can’t get the idea of paying the rent out of my head. I decide to just call my Dad and ask him about the rent, then quickly go back to trying to nap. However, it doesn’t go that way. I try to call my Dad, and I can’t quite think of his number. I can get the area code but for the first few digits I am trying to figure out of it is 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢 like my old cell phone or what. I am getting really frustrated because I was supposed to be able to do this quickly and go right back to sleep. But now it is keeping me up. After some difficulty with getting my Dad’s number, and my contacts menu not working, this icon of a stoic Einstein kind of face pops up. It looks very stoic and intellectual, as if to say, anger is primitive, or something. This makes me even more mad because they are clearly just dissociated.

I am on my computer, trying to do something. I have some awareness of having lent my computer to someone earlier. What am I trying to do? I click on some things and a bunch of ads come up. The ads seem to pop up all over the windows I am currently on, as if they become a part of the program I am already on. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢I think someone must have downloaded something and got a virus. I think of some things I downloaded that might have got me a virus. Well, okay. It will slow me down, but I will just go to Control, Alt, Delete, and run the task manager. Whatever is creating the pop ups will be a simple dot E X E program and I will be able to end the process and uninstall it. So I press Control, Alt, Delete. Also, I do a reality check. I really think it is waking life, though, and I am just doing a reality check to “build the habit” in case it happens in my dream. My finger doesn’t go through, and I am totally sure I am in waking life.

When I press Control, Alt, Delete, the window that comes up is almost metallic. It is way different than what Control, Alt, Delete brings up in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness. I click through and there is something like Window Manager. What do the windows look like? I find where it says Task manager and try to open that. There are all these tabs with bold black text. What happens after that?

It transports me to where I am standing on this big metal screw on a wall. The metal screw or metal rod is kind of rusty. It pokes out of the wall maybe 6 inches, and is thick enough not to bend under my weight. I am really freaked out. I am convinced it is Physical Matter Waking Consciousness, especially due to my finger not going through. I am really high up on the wall, with only this screw to balance on. There is no way to climb up or down. I continue trying to balance. When I look again, there is some ground 20 to 30 feet down. I definitely don’t want to make that jump. No one is around. I reach up again and I can just reach the edge of the top of the wall. I can get my hand on this blue P V C pipe poking up out of the wall, and maybe on another white P V C pipe. There is not enough grip to do a pullup though. What color is the wall? Blue? I just sort of hang there by my finger tips with my foot on the metal rod. Even without the fear of being stuck there, it is just an uncomfortable position.

I wonder if there are people around. I decide to try screaming out for help. At first I think that people will come hurt me or something. Maybe it is a trap. But I decide to try anyway. I scream really loud, like, “Help! I’m stuck here!” What exactly do I say? After a while of that, I get the idea to just jump down. It seems shorter of a fall. I jump down and land just fine. How high is it? 10 to 20 feet? I land just fine. I am relieved to be down from there. I still think I am in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness.

I think it must be a restaurant I am in. There is a door way up to the front of the room. It is brown with glass panels. It is like a door, a little coat room, and another door. Before I go to it, I notice a bunch of note books on the table. When I look, they are my personal journals, or dream versions of them. I think they are my actual journals and I want to hide them before I leave, so no one reads my private journals. They are titled “guitar memos” in hand writing. Different color covers on spiral note books. I can see some cursive writing in thick green marker in one of them, and other colors in others. It reminds me of my dialogue journals. Some of the covers are ripped. I gather them up and more appear. One appears on the seat. Once I can get them all, I bring them over to this cabinet. The cabinet looks to be in use, but I figure the journals are safer there, than out in the open. I cram them into the cabinet and plan to come back for them later.

Without taking any longer, I run to the front door. I almost expect it to be locked. It turns out to be easy to open, and I get out into the street. What time of day is it? Day or Night? I run left as I exit the door, and hear some people in the building across talking about how someone’s business plan won’t work. What exactly are they saying? I slide down this slippery red velvet carpet, which is kind of fun. When I stop sliding, I kick off and slide some more.

Somewhere in there, I realize I am dreaming. What triggers the lucidity? Just a gradual realization? Once I know it’s a dream, I run and fly. I fly up to a roof. I think it is somewhat light out at this point. There are some people on the roof. I interact with them a little bit. Is there a dog? What else happens before I wake up? I wake up and think through the dreams, pretty amazed at that adventure.

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Round 3 of Dreams: The Importance of the second Reality Check & Reconciliation with Uncle

A lot of beginning parts are missing from my memory, and parts intermittently. I will just write what I do now.

There is definitely a part where I gain lucidity and then lose it again throughout the dream. What happens in that part?

Where my memory starts more clearly, I am in a movie theater. Then I fall asleep. Within the dream, I dream of being in a kitchen. There is some food on the stove. The flame goes really high. Something makes me think it’s a dream, so I finger palm test. Instead of going through, it just feels like I am touching my bones. But because my finger doesn’t come out the other side, I conclude it is Physical Matter Waking Consciousness. There is some water almost boiling. I am listening to something on my phone through the headset. I try the other finger through the other hand and that won’t go through either. Something makes me try a nose pinch breathe. As I walk away from the kitchen, I see some lights on some buildings. I feel my fingers pressing my nostrils shut, and yet, air passes through. Wow! I am dreaming! I am so glad I did that second reality check.

I want to take a bite of this big dessert food that’s there, and change the audio on my head set. Then I am like, maybe the audio that’s already on is fine. I take a bite of the dessert food and maybe some red bacon bits that are there. The kitchen is kind of dim the whole time. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢The dream within the dream ends and I “wake back up” in the movie theater.

On the movie screen, a human cartoon and a Snoopy the dog type of cartoon are eating bacon bits. To my sister, who is at the movie with me, I am like, wow! I can’t believe they are eating bacon bits in this movie! I just dreamed about that! The screen shows the people eating bacon bits but then I can see the bacon bits inside their head. They human and dog go around in the movie world and come to another creature. What kind of creature is it? One of them spits out some bacon bits into a thin sheet of paper kind of shape and trades it with the creature. Then they go on.

In the next part I am running from some people. There is something where a pudgy baby is involved. They are like make sure to give the baby not too much or not to little of something. There is a quiet tan woman who demonstrates how to sleep on your side. She is saying to put one leg on top of the other, not one off a little in front of or in back of the other. They are saying this way its not uncomfortable. She demonstrates it on some kind of couch. What happens next?

Next thing I remember is I wake up in this room at my Nana’s. I talk out loud. Am I recording a dream? Anyway, I notice the door to my room is open. I am embarrassed and worried that people outside my room heard what I was saying.

夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢I am looking at a T V screen. My Uncle, who is downstairs, is getting a call from a 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢number. My Uncle is mad because that guy shouldn’t be calling the house, the guy should be using his cell phone. He is saying how that guy doesn’t even have the land line number for my Nana’s house.

Then Uncle 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢comes in my room without a lot of regard for my personal space. It is like because I am a guest there, he doesn’t respect my space. He sits at a desk with a phone and a big stack of money. He is complaining that his girlfriend needs more money. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢I am like you know 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢is right there and you shouldn’t expose her to that stuff. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢is like, “Oh, no, they’re fighting.” I am like, you know, its bad enough you smoke and drink in front of her, and set that bad of an example, but now you are exposing her to all this bad stuff you are saying. I am really mad, and not holding back. I am aware of my harsh tone, and intentionally continue with it, so my point is known. After some time of my scolding, 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢are both crying. I am thinking to myself, well, too bad, it is true! My Uncle stands up and is crying. He stands on the bed and his face is behind some kind of support beam.

He starts to explain why he has so many issues. 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢Then I say something like, yeah, I guess 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢really does affect you guys a lot. What else do we say to each other? I am seeing some shadows on the wall.

I remember thinking that even though he wasn’t attacking me up front, he could come out of nowhere and attack me, any time.

But overall I think this was a really significant dream because I have always fought with Uncle 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢in my dreams. This was not a lucid dream, just a regular or unconscious dream. In some ways I think that makes it even cooler, because it happened on its own. However, I did wonder If it was a dream at one point, while yelling at Uncle 夢ოცნეस夢पनेბები夢But I just convinced myself it wasn’t.

Plant Dream

another dream I remember I have these plants and I'm trying to plant them and it goes with this song that you plant them along with a saw like comes with the plant and there's something with like honey in the planters and like singing I'm singing a song along with the planters but then I'm like I don't know like I don't want any wants to hear this I hear some parts um-hmm

More Uncle Stuff

There was another dream where I was drawing something. What was I drawing? My uncle reached over my shoulder and put a pencil drawing of a spiky monster kind of thing in front of me. I was like, cool, thanks, that’s great. (I saw that as more dreams of getting along better with my Uncle.)

There was another part with my Aunt saying something about having a job where I don’t need to wear my retainer all the time. Like, you could take a day off wearing your teeth. Luckily, there’s a lot of chlorine in the food.

There was a part where I was in a bedroom. The sheets on the bed were grey. I was thinking about this religion where they would beat the crap out of me so I would feel sorry, and then give me forgiveness. I was considering going, then I was like, no, I don’t need the crap beaten out of me. There was a square of sun coming in through the window. I had a recliner chair I wanted to sit in and write. But it was like I had just gotten up and gone to the bathroom, and I wasn’t sure if I should lay down and breathe, or sit up to write, while having breakfast. The idea was that I had the morning and early afternoon to watch a show, do my writing and get some food. Then I had work from the afternoon into the evening, like a restaurant shift. I was trying to get the back of the recliner chair up against the wall. At the store, I needed chicken and/or eggs. I was thinking it would be under a dollar a pound.

There was this other part where I was in the local food store and it was only open seven more minutes. I had on a black ski mask and my orange glasses, but not to rob the place. It was something else. Why did I have that on? There was a bunch of cold medicine on this one shelf. I was looking at it, thinking it sounds like a bad idea. There were like 8 different boxes. I made a joke to the store manager about being there to rob something, but it was a joke. One of the cold medicine boxes said cheap energy. There was a doctor in the store. The doctor’s advice was, “You need to go to sleep.”

Then I was walking down the side walk with these women from the store. I was like, yeah, the doctor is right. I need more sleep. The women were like, yeah, you’re always sleep deprived. So I was like, yeah, but not because I stay up all night on the computer. It’s just the trauma. I think that was a significant insight. I already knew it intellectually but experiencing that conversation in the dream might have helped.

There was another thing where we were walking through my neighborhood. There was this idea of how a person needs to make sure they are working with the trauma effectively. There was a counselor guy who lived on one of the side streets I was working with. I felt triumphant about working with my trauma effectively.
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Dreams from march seventeenth to eighteenth, 2018

These dreams made me pull out the guitar the next day so I could play guitar in lucid dreams again. It was so cool.

Groop 1

These were the dreams from the first time I woke up. I think I had a job at a department store like Sears somewhere in there.

My memory starts with this guy (hidden)and some other people on line to get food. (hidden) has prepared some kind of red meat dish. The red meat looks really tender. I am second in line. I seem to get a smaller piece than I expected. I go to try to get another piece. I am picking up an onion out of the tray and saying how I can’t tell the difference between the onion and the meat.

We all go to sit in this room to eat. I am sitting along the side of the wall with some other people. The guy next to me is saying something about (hidden) and how there was some predictions for 2017 and 2018. In the dream it might be 2023. I am skeptical of the whole group at first. But then I am telling the guy next to me how they are good people because they helped me order a ower tool I needed. (hidden)The next parts I can remember are in some class room settings. In the first class room setting, I have some kind of thing that needs to be graded in the teachers office. The class is in session and I am sitting there with the other kids, while the teacher teaches. My plan is to put my head down on the desk, close my eyes, and use telekinesis to move my project around in the teacher’s office. I just hope no one will walk in while it is floating around. This seems like a viable plan.

In the second class room setting, there are students taking turns giving a presentation about apples. The first student goes and finishes. It becomes the next day and another student goes. There is something where I have a text menu on my phone that shows I have 23 to 24 videos. It reminds me of my You Tube channel. I have to select an option from a drop down menu. The lettering is orange and the back ground is white. The selector is a little sideways triangle. There is something about needing a paid account.

Also, in the class room part, there is something about how if I just play a sport, or go into weight lifting, and take classes, and get good grades, it’s like I won’t really be a person on the inside. I will be focused on all these external results but not really looking within myself.

There is something about being at a mall, with signs around.

(hidden)Before I recalled these I was thinking about something with a grey garage door in a walk around the neighborhood. At first I felt like I would totally blank on dream recall for these but they started to flow back to my mind. I think my affirmations helped me stay more optimistic.
(hidden)I woke up from those and thought them through. They seemed to come to me alright. This is a pretty good dream recall compared to other first groops of dreams.

I had some trouble falling back to sleep. I got on my exercise bike and my legs went for what seemed like a while. Then I stretched and fell back to sleep a lot easier. I need to use my exercise bike more anyway since my knees are on the fritz.

Guitar Chords!

Here is a fun L D I had. It started out with me being in a fight with my Dad. Maybe something to do with a chalk board. And I was listening to some Binaural Beats. There was a peaceful woman’s voice playing, giving some kind of instructions for a pre bed meditation. There was also something about how I needed to go into the hall way or bathroom for something, but I didn’t want to get the hall light or night light in my eyes, since this would disturb my sleep. I was also kind of justifying the angry things I said to my Dad, in my mind. I think I went to sleep within the dream? Or did anything else happen? Well, here is the next part I remember.

I find myself in a replica of my basement at 15 Swoo, playing my Ibanez guitar. I realize it is a dream. This is cool. (I am not sure what triggered lucidity but I just suddenly saw it as a dream!)

I am trying to play an E minor chord, without labeling it in my mind as such. My fingers keep slipping to the first fret of the A and D strings though, instead of the second fret. The basement is very brightly lit. I can see some white square across the way. Once I get my fingers to go to the second frets to make an E minor Chord, I think of the D minor chord. However, I put my fingers to what is actually a C major chord, while in the dream, thinking of it as D minor. The sound is really loud and like a previous guitar dream, I fear it will wake my Dad, even though it’s a dream. It sounds cool. I am excited to be playing guitar in a dream, lucidly. I start to realize the dream might lose stability, and wonder what to do.

The affirmation, “My Lucid Dreams last long and remain stable,” comes to my mind. I say this aloud within the dream. It actually works, and the dream seems to get a second wind. That is exciting!

I get up from the guitar, looking at my hands, and repeating this affirmation. I decide that writing it on something in the dream might help. There is a white countertop with a piece of ripped paper over to the side. I find a pencil there and write, “My, Lucid, Dreams,” and then sort of lose interest. The writing comes out pretty clear though.

Next thing I remember is I have my phone in my hand. Where did that come from? Well, I am looking at my phone, knowing it’s a dream. What’s on my phone at first? I flip through the screens to get to Ad Block Browser because I want to try looking up something on my phone in the dream. I am still repeating “My lucid, dreams, last long, and remain stable,” In my mind. The icon for Ad Block Browser is about the same. But instead of the words, it just says A B B. I tap it with my finger, and a screen comes up. I can see the place to put the hyper link and tap there. A little grey touch based key pad pops up. Wow, this dream phone is so similar to my physical phone. A (hidden) type of pod cast is playing. At first, it bothers me, but I just tune it out. (hidden)I begin trying to type in, because I couldn’t find the microphone for speech to text. I am able to type, “How to control an,” and then I am about to type, “L, D,” but then I realize that I should use the full words, not the abbreviation. So, I go to back space the “n” out of the word “an”, and the dream ends.

Notes

I woke up from this and thought it through, pretty excited about it all. My memory of the guitar part is so solid. Somewhere in the dream, I remember the guitar being covered in a white sheet, on a shelf, under some other stuff. I also remembered something about a bright Note Pad screen, and my Dad typing.

Groop 3 of “Dreams”

I had a series of dreams and sleep paralysis sensations take place before recording again.

Dream: 400 Bucks!

The first dream of these I remember is of me at the (hidden)kitchen or dining room. I was sitting there and my Dad gave me an envelope or a card which looked to have money on the side. I think I was complaining about being low on money. At first it looked like just one dollar, but then I saw four hundred dollar bills inside. (hidden)I wondered what it was for. There is something written on the card about the car being worth $5,400. There is some map my Dad wants me to go look up. It’s working kind of funny. At first it was a smaller place, but then showed a whole continent, surrounded by an ocean, kind of badge shaped.

L D: Leaf Blower Trigger

I think I woke up from that, and thought about it. It wasn’t really enough to break sleep paralysis and record, so I just kept it in my head. In the next dream, I am in my bed room of (hidden)I can see a guy getting a leaf blower going outside. I am angry about this starting up. Maybe it is around 3 P M in the dream. I am sitting on the floor. There are two grey bunny rabbits in the room, hopping around. I guess all my practice of doing dream state checks whenever I see or hear leaf blowers kicks in, and I try a finger palm test. I think I might be dreaming. Sure enough, I am dreaming! The finger goes through my palm. Then, I wake up.

O B E Vibrations: Rolled out and Pinned

I thought through that one and got some kind of O B E vibrations. The vibrations come on quickly, and I am rolled out of my bed sooner than expected. I roll out onto the side of the bed nearest the wall, only my bed is rotated 180 degrees and with the head board to the closet, not the opposite wall. I see a kind of white glowy hand as my own hand. I think I might actually be out of body, but I hope it will just become a lucid, dream, like the other times. I can see the window with the black out curtains drawn, so that’s another way I know it’s a dream. There is an orange jug on the floor which isn’t there in waking life.

So I am like, okay, I just rolled out of body. Here I am. I will just stand up and it will be another OOBILD. I start to push myself up and feel if there is a body on the bed, and I am pulled towards the ground. This really scares me because I can’t move. I am not sure what this is. I try to fight it a little bit, but it avails me nothing. Something is holding this “dream body” or “astral body” of mine, down on the floor, on my back.

As I lay here, I can see this sort of hologram of me appear above me. It is wearing a grey shirt. It begins appearing from its feet, then like a door is opening upwards in front of it, its body is slowly revealed from behind the “door”. I wake up from that in my physical bed, a little spooked. Not a total night terror but kind of spooky is all. I have a huge fear that if I go out of body, something will block me from going back into my body, and something else will enter my body right in front of me. Then it will “possess” me or something. So I guess I will see if that really happens or not. Either my belief in this concept will create the experience from my imagination, or there are really entities trying to do this. Or, a mix of both. But I know my dream or non physical exploration will never give me more than I can handle at any one time. And if something like that were ever to happen, whether imaginary, or actual, I am being prepared as we speak.


L D: Who’s the Boss
In the next dream of this groop, I am in a class room. There is a teacher, teaching the class. I realize it is a dream. (What makes me realize it is a dream?) All I remember is he instructs me that I have to go find some information. I have to go find out who the boss is, or why he is the boss. (hidden)I have to put on a metronome and go walk around somewhere, to the beat of the metronome. I vaguely remembering walking around a side walk outside and then returning. (hidden)I look to the boss guy and say something like, “I did it! You’re the boss!” I vaguely remember his face, just that he was a white guy.

O B E Vibrations: Jaw Shock

So I woke up from that and tried to think it through. But then I got more O B E vibrations. These were very intense and also kinda spooky again. But the O B E vibrations that came along probably came before I could form a full memory of the dream.

I was spooked by the sleep paralysis stuff but I just kept telling myself internally to just relax. There are some swishing sounds, and/or some mousey sounds. Then I feel my body really quickly lifted up out of my bed like 4 to 6 feet. This is a lot faster than I am used to, so I am surprised. I feel like I could push into it, but I tell myself to just relax. I don’t resist it or push my way into it. Relaxing lands me back in my bed though.

When I am back in my bed, the vibrations continue. They feel very electrical. I am feeling like shock waves are being sent through my jaw bones. It feels like they are being squeezed. I am still trying to tell myself to just relax. It is more than I am used to but I am confident that it can’t harm me.

Like the last O B E vibrations thing, my bed is rotated 180 degrees, with the head board up to where the closet is. There must be some kind of bluish white light source behind me. I am more spooked now, because it is flickering in this ghastly kind of a way, casting some shadows of a lamp. I am trying to remind myself that the window curtains can’t be drawn, and I can’t see the curtains the way my physical body would be facing in the physical world. So this must be a dream. But I just keep relaxing, instead of getting up to look. Also, I wear a blind fold in waking life, so I shouldn’t be able to see anything. The other main thing I notice is this really low opacity little white cloud, like barely 10% opacity. It seems to float around, but maybe it is something else.

Notes

I stayed still after that last set of O B E vibrations ended, wondering if anything else would come my way, replaying all the dreams and other stuff in my head. I was surprised that I couldn’t remember the L D with the teacher because it may have been more eventful.

I think the jaw shock thing had to do with tension in my jaw. Maybe it released tension from my jaw.

Groop 4 of Dreams

I laid back down on my right side and eventually got to sleep again. For these I just let myself drift and dream, waiting a while to record. The memories were a little jumbled so I will do my best to put them in order.

Bathroom?

The beginning of what I can remember is. I am with (hidden)and other people. We are doing something, maybe watching a show. There is something about how I have O B E’s. Maybe I have an O B E within the dream before that point. I think I was thinking how people need to just have their own experience.

I go into this dream bathroom to go make some dream #1. The dream door has some see through parts. My face looks different, so I make some faces in the mirror. I kind of like it. (hidden)I don’t realize it is a dream from my different face though. There are two toilets. I don’t want to use either because these women are right outside the door, and could see in if they wanted to. Near one toilet, there is a peanut jar full of #1. I wonder who did that.

Spooky Staircase

In the next part I remember, I am walking along (hidden)and I notice someone to the right needs help in their garage, or might. Suddenly I am in their garage. They are kind of startled. I am like, do you need help? They’re like, no, my Dad’s coming to help me. Its like (hidden) or someone tall. They have a standard barbell with a 25 on each side, and some 50 pound plates around.

Next thing I remember is I am running out of there. Except now I am seeing it all from the outside. And a black haired guy has taken my place. The “camera angle” is showing the chase from in front of the person being chased, and showing a longer haired bodybuilder guy chasing him. He reminds me of someone from the local gym I used to see there a lot. Then the long haired guy falls head first down this long set of cement stairs. He sort of slides down them, hitting his head on every step. It becomes somewhat gruesome, and I am noticing the nightmarish turn it has taken. (I’m not sure if I got lucid, but I did something to change the channel, maybe without knowing it was a dream.)

There is also some really spooky screaming voice that comes on as he falls down the stairs. It is like a gruesome monstrous scream. I sort of “turn it off” and it passes.

Oily Candle

There is another part where I am in a truck, driving with some people. I am at the back of the big moving truck, near a ramp. I think I am getting a ride somewhere but the other people are getting a ride from their flight. I’m asking what they’re doing. They seem to want me to stay out of it.

I want to go to a gym. It is night time. There are some store fronts with dark glass windows. Two store fronts are illuminated with yellow. I pass by one gym on my right, thinking, that gym isn’t my gym. Well, if that one is open, mine must not be. I keep walking though, and my gym is also lit up. I think it might not be the best business plan to have two gyms right next door to each other, but I go into my gym.

Instead of working out, I go to the side room of the gym, where they have this video game. But then, instead of playing a video game, I have this writing on some paper I am trying to do something with. What is the writing for? I light a candle. I am hearing something where some lucid, dreaming author is saying something about how the candle wick needs oil on it for it to burn right. I am seeing a candle drip off the sides. The flame burns down the wick. My paper is to the right of the candle, and the words start to melt off it or dissappear from it. What is this about? I am kind of sad now that my words have been erased by the candle.

Then an Asian guy comes in. he is supposed to be the owner or manager. He says please don’t do that. I say something back, maybe about remembering dreams. Maybe it is a dream journal entry. He says he really doesn’t need to know a lot about his dreams. He has an Asian face but stretched out more or twisted. I can sort of picture his face now. There is something about workout partners.

More Spookiness!

I am in the passenger seat going somewhere. There is this little lizard guy walking around on me. He lays on his back and either dies or pretends to die, kind of dramatically. I notice he is on my giraffe pillow.

There is a part with these witch people who are actually bad guys. They have this audio program that they want people to listen to in the morning. They say it is free, any anyone can listen at any time. No one has to wake up at any specific time. I sense they have some ulterior motive.

Then one of the witch ladies with grey hair has this little person running around on their hand. The little person has a head the size of a thimble, and a little thin small body. They run around on their hand and fall over. The lady has her grey hair down over her eyes like some kind of mask. She is saying, “Do you see how small this is?!”

During a lot of these dreams I was thinking of how to get my dream journal done. So for this one I realized it was like 8 or 9 P M. And I was like, oh, man, it’s past bed time, and I haven’t even wrote my dreams, let alone done my waking life recall. Oh, man!

(hidden)
Pickup Artist Guy

(hidden) is doing a You Tube series on how to meet girls. He has it all set up and I am looking onto the You Tube videos. I click on the first video, which is 50 to 60 minutes. I am skipping ahead a little bit and then going back to earlier.

He’s saying he sits on the benches at the bus stop, to prepare to approach women. He has to almost compulsively approach women to prove himself. He sits there to work up his courage. He has this mirror that he holds up and uses it to look at women’s necks to see what they are wearing. Then he prepares some kind of pick up line based on that. Before he goes up to them, he lays on the grass and rips the grass out of the ground to psych himself up. He is saying how he needs to approach women because he is just driven to do so. There’s the idea that the people at the bus stop think he’s weird but he keeps at it anyway.

Then it changes into a talk about this guy who he is really nice to. He is really outgoing towards this fellow, (hidden)He waves to him, and his hand gets really big, like a camera zooming in kind of thing. At some point he makes the guy’s brief case fall in the water though. But the guy doesn’t even mind. Another guy falls in the water too. The guy just jumps in after his brief case, like its no problem. They are on a dock by the water.

Notes

I tried to fall asleep one more time, but that was it.

Dreams from march sixteenth to seventeenth, 2018

I had difficulties tonight with my dream recalling. I did my best but it just wasn’t there. The last few nights have been very good and hopefully the following nights will be better.

Round 2 of Dreams

I woke up from these and found myself on my left side, when I had fallen asleep on my right. With some idea that this would dislodge the dream, I still rotated back onto my right side, where my microphone was. I should have stayed still on my left side, thought it through, formed a solid memory of the dream, and then rotated and recorded it. I really regretted that bad move and was pretty mad at myself. My recall of these dreams could have been so much better.

The earliest dream memory from this that I can remember is something with my Nana, Mom and/or Sister. Something do with with eating or not eating.

The next thing I remembered was a detail I am sure I would have gotten if I hadn’t moved too soon. It was a cool one, too. Something to do with Terrosaur, Waspinator, and Star Scream, like the Beast Wars Episode where Star Scream possesses them. There was something about Megatron saying you will never betray me again. And Terrosaur or Star Scream kind of screaming as he is being destroyed or blasted.

Then, in the dream, I was going around trying to get people to listen to me, but no one would. I had some kind of thing to tell everyone, maybe from the previous scene. But no one would listen to me. I remembered some kind of orange gold fish shaped thing, and climbing up on a shelf. This was just on the tip of my tongue, but I couldn’t get it.
There is a thing about how having hair would be an indulgence for monks. I am thinking about this as I drive or travel down B Avenue, near the high school. I am thinking that I don’t chew on my hair all day, so it is different from indulging in food.

Next I remember, I am following this guy down a narrow hall way to his room. He is on some kind of strict monastic diet which relates to the idea of hair being an indulgence. He has some kind of fuse thing that he will lay out and then put the end of it in the water. He will light the other end and then the contraption will create some kind of water pressure or bubbles or heat so that he can swim. He is wearing some kind of wet suit. He is saying how it is not environmentally friendly but he just needs it to swim. The Native Americans are mad at him but he is like, just get off my case! And the swimming device thing is still vibrating in his arms.

What else happens in the middle there?

We get to this lobby kind of thing. I am still thinking monastically. There are some people sitting at this table. I am messing around with this clear plastic bubble wrap balloon thing, thinking that the monks here are so ascetic. This is why I like this monastery. Even moving a finger to them is considered an indulgence. I might not be at that level but I like to aspire to it. I am aware that I don’t have much money. One of the monks, an older, bald fellow, is holding a stack of papers. It looks like they could use a paper clip. There are all these office shelf things on their desk that have paper clips, thumb tacks and that kind of stuff. I want to ask the monk for a penny and then use that penny to buy him a paper clip.

Next thing I remember is a woman there is like, we need to people able to work. I want to do it but it looks like the swimming guy and his room mate are going to do it.

Really Long Dream!!!

I woke up in my physical bed like woah that was one of the longest dreams I ever had all at once. I recalled a few scenes back from the end but couldn’t get back much further. I had a lot of trouble falling back to sleep, so by the time I slept, I was probably really exhausted.

The first thing I remember is of trying to set my Dad up with some M P 3 files. I was trying to think of a way to get them onto his electronic device. I am thinking of setting them up on an S D card and then having him swap out his current S D Card. We were at 1 6 24. He was trying to go do something, maybe somewhere with bridges over water. What was it?

There was a part with G S.

There was a part where I was trying to tell someone about what I have been doing since 2016. Only I was telling them about my life from around 2013 or 2014. Some of my waking life memory got into this, but not exactly accurately. I told them I wasn’t working now. I told them something like I had dropped out of college, but I actually finished college in waking life.

The dream was so long. I forgot so much of it because it was just HUGE. I had no clue any of it was a dream at any moment, but I had some moments within it when I thought I had woken up from the dream, and tried to write it.

In one part I was driving around in some parking lot, like to go to an A T M. I think my friend M was on the phone with some women or something. They were saying something like we don’t want you here. That was one that felt so close to being remembered, but not quite. I tried to be optimistic about how much of the dream memories I would retrieve.

My memory of it gets a little more clear around these parts. I was standing on B P Boulevard, and a friend was driving by us in a white convertible. He stopped for us to get in. I guess we were teenagers because he was definitely under driving age. But his Dad was letting him drive this really nice white convertible. So we all got in there.




So there are two girls and 3 guys in the car. One of the girls is the driver’s girlfriend. The other 3 of us are single. But someone thinks that the remaining girl is dating me or the other guy. But really, the other 3 of us are single.

Then it becomes a talk. N M, M B and G B are there. N M is saying something positive about me and G B is saying I’m a hard worker. I am saying how nothing is panning out on my job search right now. M B is saying how he delivers pizza. He says I should just get into pizza delivery because he gets fat stacks. At one point he is rubbing the side of his head. M B says he makes “fat stacks” delivering pizza and makes a symbol with his hands meant to show the height of his “stacks” (of money).

Then I’m with (personal info) at this place that is like where you pour your own soda at fast food places. There is some chart on the wall. We are carrying ice or pouring drinks, something like that. He is saying how it is a lot of money, like 15 to 25 dollars a delivery. He also says he gets 23 dollars an hour. That seems like a lot to me but I make sense of it using dreamy thinking. The ice feels cold. I am like, what if people don’t tip? And he’s like, yeah, I guess so.

What else happens there?

The part I woke up from involved something in a religious church. The religious music is helpful to me at points in the dream. So I have this whole parchment pamphlet thing out that I am trying to write my own script of religious music. I am thinking it is meant to help people with finances, relationships, and everything in life. I am wondering why I would put so much work into this when I could just listen to it on You Tube. But I continue copying it down in my own order. As I do this I am also journaling the dream so far. I get something like the first half which is already a lot. But then I am working on the whole second half. There is one song that I mark as optional. I realize how much writing this is going to realistically be, and that I will have to pace myself. It is too much writing for one sitting. I am starting to want to get breakfast, and so I try to just jot down some dream notes to come back to little by little. I am feeling overwhelmed by how much writing it is. It seems I have forgotten a lot of the dream.

Notes

Then I woke up in my physical bed, so surprised that I hadn’t recorded any dreams for hours. I was able to think back a few scenes, and didn’t move at all. Due to all the time that had passed, I had to go #1, so that was putting some pressure on me. But I managed to hold it enough to get some detail. At some point, I might have got kicked out of somewhere. I liked having had all the dreams but having them all at once makes it difficult to recall.

There was also a part where I was in a bed and had a container of rocks near my bed. I was trying to use them as crystals.

I tried to recall the dreams by thinking of what I wrote in the scene with the parchment paper, because I was and am pretty sure those notes were of the dreams I actually had. But, I couldn’t really get a clear picture of what I’d written in the dream.

Maybe there was something with M M from N J.

Round 4 of dreams

The first thing I recorded was a song lyric from a song that had been playing the whole final dream. But by the time I started saying it out loud, the second half slipped my mind!

I think I had one dream and thought about it then fell back to sleep. It was hard to fall asleep again. The next dream I remember was of me playing this side scroller video game with Piglet as the character. I could see it pretty vividly during the dream but it was hard to describe upon awakening. There were ladders and cows. It reminded me of a Mario Maker video I saw. As I was watching that, I was like, wait, is this a memory of the previous dream? And then I woke up.

I thought about that and fell back to sleep. There were some people in a convertible. I was standing near a building, maybe trying to go #1. The people in the car looked angry at me. They were like, hey, you, do you have a problem with that? I was like, Huh? With what? And they pointed to some cigarette butts on the grass between them and me. I was like, well, I can’t smell them. So, it’s not as bad as it would be if I smelled them. I hadn’t even noticed them! But the guys were glaring at me. Then I noticed a dark skinned woman sitting in the car, next to one of the guys. I was like, hey, you were in one of my earlier dreams! Did I know this was a dream? I’m not sure. How did she respond to that? I got excited it would help me remember the previous dreams. Then I might have had another short dream.

The last dream I had was of this whole family going somewhere. Was it my family? There was a big moving truck leaving, but from inside the house. This guy I see walking around the neighborhood a lot when I go for walks was there. I heard his voice, and it was really high pitched. (personal info)There was something about how I put popcorn on, but then I was afraid it was on for too long. I was afraid it would burn or explode. I was trying to do something though while the microwave ran. I went into this other room as the moving truck left out the front door of something like my Nana’s house. It was like a closet. For the last few “dream minutes” of this dream, there was some song playing. It was like a dream tune. When I woke up from that, I was relieved I hadn’t really left the popcorn on. I probably could have snoozed some more, but I decided to recall the dreams. I couldn’t get back to sleep after that. I got up around 7:30 A M to start the day.

Oh, in one part, there was something about how I was giving someone my credit card information. I read them the last 4 digits of my account number when they asked for my credit card number. Then they asked me for other verification information. That dream probably came from stressing out over typing my banking information correctly on my little cell phone keypad and having to re try over and over.

Notes

So, those were my dreams!

Dreams from March fifteenth to sixteenth, 2018

The dreams tonight had somewhat of a different flavor. I am also paying attention to how I fall asleep now. I think I fall asleep the fastest when I stay still. But sometimes I compulsively fidget. So I am noting how I do with falling asleep and whether or not I stay still.

Earlier Dream Pieces

R S is there. He is doing 100 pound dumbbells on incline. I am seeing if I could do more than him but on flat bench.
C H and R M may also be somewhere in the dream.
A lot of my first dream memories are vague so far.

A Chance with B R

In the first round of dreams I actually go on a date with B R. I have this job I am just starting at, at the same time, within that context. It is like a grocery store job. So she is like, you should go into work. And I’m like, no, I have to wait until I’m scheduled, so I don’t become workaholic. I am taking some apples out of the fridge while we talk. It looks like the apples in my 15 Swoo fridge, except in my room. B R asks another guy a question about himself and I feel insecure that now she is more interested in him than in me. I am thinking I should do affirmations about not being insecure, or being secure, but then if B R found out I did them, she would think it was weird. Like it would “bias the situation”.

When I am done in the fridge, I am sitting diagonal from B R. She is sitting against the adjacent wall, diagonal to my right. I’m hinting to her that I have time off work, so we can connect on a deeper level. I am sort of pointing my knees at her or something. I think I will just be insecure forever.

I mention to her the last time I got carried away with work, a writing project on my birthday. (Dream context.) Since then I have not got carried away with a work project.

Notes

I fell asleep almost using like a WILD method except my mind conked out. I wasn’t trying to WILD, but I was just trying to stay still. Once I stayed still, sleep came on pretty easily.

Long Adventure: Parking Panic, Borrowing Pants, Coloring, Dream Forum

My memory of this dream begins with me parked behind this car. The front of my car is right up to its tail. It must have backed in front of me because I never park that close. Another car is pulled up and about to parallel park behind me. I realize they will probably block me from getting out of the spot by parking too close on either side, and hurry up to get out of there. I hit the ignition and push up into the place where the parallel parking driver is. The cars are red and grey or silver. What kind of cars are they? Who are the other drivers? What road is it on? What else happens after this?

Something with G A comes to mind.

I am in a parking garage after talking to some friends about a job. A T is telling me something about how I have to work hard. I am wearing a white T shirt and doing I T Band stretches by hanging on a beam. Who else is there? What is the job?

At some point some of my clothes get wet. Near some lockers, a woman lends me her clothes to dry myself off. Not her regular clothes but her spare clothes. I see her walk through the hall and thank her for giving me her pants. I realize this sounds awkward in front of other people who don’t know the context, and apologize. What else happens between this and the next part I remembered?

Well, next part is, I am in this class room. I hear three women from high school, E R, A T and maybe another. They are singing this song that goes something like, “Ain’t no tool, just pick up the phone! Ain’t no tool, just pick up the phone!” It is about not being self-sufficient with self-help tools and instead asking others for help. Apparently it is some kind of recovery concert. I’m thinking to myself how since I got into recovery, I have seen so many changes I never would have expected.

Next thing I remember is I am in the class room listening to an African American woman with short black hair say how she doesn’t like the way she looks. She is saying how she doesn’t like her nose and face. I am telling her she looks great, and is probably just judging herself harshly. Without me noticing, her hair gets all these bright yellow highlights in it. I notice the way it looks with her skin color. She continues talking to me about stuff. Then T S comes in. He is wearing a white shirt. He starts talking to me. I ask him to please wait because I am already listening to this woman now. So he waits. Does he disappear?

Next thing I know the woman’s hair is short and spiky. She might become a completely different person. The thing is, I notice the sudden change, just without realizing it could be a dream. Still, I am questioning how it could have happened. It seems to have happened instantly. I am like, did you just change your hair? And she is like, oh, yeah, I just got a quick hair-cut. Throughout all this there is another woman I am trying to impress. I guess by being really nice.

Next in the class room we are all sitting around drawing. I am trying to draw Piccolo from Dragon Ball Z. The sensations of drawing within the dream are pretty vivid but something seems uncoordinated. I am thinking I really need a reference drawing. The woman I’m trying to impress won’t think less of me for using a reference drawing.

Another guy is standing around and there is a seat next to me, so I invite him to come draw. I tell him that he is more than welcome and there are plenty of crayons. (That was nice!) He sits down in the open seat to my right and I pass him some crayons. There are these two really short crayons, the size of a tiny pencil eraser from a clicky pencil. He uncaps one and it draws a whitish grey color. He calls it black though. I guess his vision must be inverted, but still I question that for a moment. The next crayon thing is gold. He calls that one gold. I figure gold must be the same whether colors are normal or inverted. So I am questioning things but making sense of it with dreamy thinking.

Next thing is that people are coming in t take a big class picture. We’re all in a class room and when I look around there are a lot more people than before. They have all these cameras taped together, like a grid of cameras. The idea is that we have to tape together more cameras to be able to take a big picture of everyone. So I decide to jump in and help. I find some fold up tables to use as a work bench for taping together more cameras. (This is funny.) One table is broken or difficult to set up. One of the tables is a reddish kind of wood. One of them works well and that is the one we set up.

At some point my Nana calls me and it is Christmas. I start to think it must be Santa Claus’s birthday or Nana’s birthday but I don’t say happy birthday to either of them. So I think I should say happy birthday to either of them.

There’s a part with these two older program guys at a table talking. They say something that catches my ear. Or something like that. So I am kind of laughing and then they notice I am there. So then they change their conversation and start saying how everyone who goes to the program has to have a “religious experience” in their dream and all this spiritual stuff has to happen to them. They have to have a dream that saves them. I’m overhearing them while looking at this basin of water. It is in a kind of religious room. What comes after that? Do we ever take the picture?

I think I start looking into a cabinet and then I am on a computer. I am browsing a forum about dreams. My user name on the forum is Charles.phone. I am thinking of a dream I had. (I am not sure if I really had this dream or if it was just implanted context. But the dream seemed really familiar.)

I click on a thread and it has a grading chart for my lucid, dream. There are all these numbers next to various aspects of the dream, such as getting lucid and stabilizing. The dream is about being in this under ground place. (Did I ever journal this?) I am thinking, well, I have this whole point system already, I guess I am ready for the competition. Somewhere in there is the word rapping. In my dream journal entry I get a Dialed and then points for attempting to stabilize it.

Then I am reading another person’s dream journal, or a post she has made, about her dream. It is only a few lines. It says, she is on a beach, and there’s someone there. On the beach, she wants to smoke, but she doesn’t know if she should. She ends the post by asking what it means. I get an adrenaline rush and jump to reply, “YOU SHOULDN’T SMOKE!” There’s something about how she wants the beach to be a peaceful place, not a smoky place. Did anything else happen after that?

Notes

I woke up in a funny way. Without me even doing it on purpose, my whole body just contracted and stretched with a big yawn, and I found myself awake. I was not expecting that. So I was like, okay, stay still and think about the dreams! My body doesn’t usually have a wake up surge like that.

When attempting to go back to sleep, I was staying still a while. I was in and out of consciousness and then some small itch came along or some discomfort, and I adjusted. Once I adjusted, I really lost so much progress towards getting to sleep. A little fidget is no small thing! I tried to tell myself I will just adjust this one thing, and then stay perfectly still. But after that, my legs were going wild for a good period of time. Eventually I got them still again and managed to get to sleep. But that one little itch probably cost me like a half hour. I think I fall asleep faster when I stop myself from all the fidgeting so I need to do that, even if its uncomfortable at first.

At the end of that long dream there might have been something with brushing my teeth. That came to mind as I was almost asleep the last time.

Small Buses

This is just a dream flash. There is a school bus going by my house toward the main road. Two more buses are coming the other way down my street. It is raining out. The two school buses going the other way are tiny, like the size of compact cars. They have bright head lights.

I woke up from that realizing it was a dream flash. So I was like, okay, just stay still. And you will be in another dream soon.

Stacking Salmon on the Phone

Another short dream. I am at 1 6 24 and on the men’s meeting line. Someone is having a turn talking and they ask something about what its like to give or receive feedback on a meeting. Someone else says well you already are doing that or something. G or C is on the line. It is dim in the 1 6 24 living room. Then there is something where S doesn’t get a turn to speak in the meeting, but he was moderating. So, he asks if he can speak or check in. So then he is speaking, and in the meeting so we say hey can I check in. So he goes hey guys my boss rejected me today. Then this guy Todd comes in (not anyone I ever heard) and goes, “Hey guys, I’m here!” With no regard for Scott’s share.

While listening, I am stacking these salmon fillets on top of each other. I put them skin to skin, wondering what will happen if I eat the skin. I stack some others fillet to fillet, so they are kind of alternating. I think they are partially cooked. Maybe someone else in the house comments on the salmon.

Telekinesis on a Cantaloupe

In the next dream I am at the Arboretum near the map. The map is a table though, with all these pizzas on it. I walk down the trail with the bubbly trees, thinking it is cool how in my dreams, I can eat whatever I want. All those affirmations that I could eat whatever I want really paid off in a way, without me needing to even eat them in waking life. Somehow I realize this too is a dream, maybe as I walk by the map again, going the other way. The table surface is white. The pizzas are not on the table this time, but I remember them from before I got lucid. I want them to appear again. I quickly think, “Pizzas will appear there!” And then turn around. At first there seems to be nothing, but then I see a tall pizza shaped slice of cantaloupe! Well, close enough, I’ll take it! Just then people start walking out of that middle trail there, and the cantaloupe falls or jumps away.

Telekinesis comes to mind. I put my hand out and try to use Telekinesis to draw the cantaloupe to myself. It flies in my direction but a few feet to my left. I turn around and try again. Then the dream ends.

Fiery OOBILD

As I think through the previous dream, I feel some vibrations and O B E kind of sensations, start to activate. I try to go with them and see what happens.

I am laying on my left side. It is like if I “push” into the bed, and through it a little, I bounce back up, to the “right” which is “up” toward the ceiling. I bounce back and forth like this a little, seeing if anything happens. I hear some voices and feel some prescence in the room. There is some voice phenonmenon taking place. Some voices are whispering, “Yes! Yes!” and other voices are saying “I’m Nervous!” It’s funny because those are my thoughts but I am hearing them as voice phenomena. There is a while strobe light kind of thing here and there. I am like come on we can do this it will be alright, in my “inner” voice.

I roll my right shoulder down so I would be on my front, and this kind of rolls me off where my “bed” would be. There is a table there between my bed and the wall but no pillows like in physical world.

I notice that my dream desk is on fire. It is a bright yellow flame with a hint of orange. It looks kind of holographic. It bounces all around the desk. Behind it is a note book that has the words TRY and another word in big bubble letters. The word TRY is in black. The other word has the letters L and Y and is 3 letters long, but those letters are outlined, but not filled in. I know it is a dream.

I feel heavy and scared. Some things seem to flash and flicker in the room. I think it is really an O B E this time. I manage to pull myself up from the floor to my bed on my elbows, and push myself up. It takes a lot of energy. I am ready to just crawl back into my body, expecting it to be on the bed. However, when I put my arms there, I don’t see a body on the bed. I am kind of relieved that it is just a dream, and not an O B E. I have fear that if I have an O B E, I will be standing outside my physical body and then some other non physical being will fight me off and go into my body. I have never experienced that but it is just a fear. So I am all ready to fight the thing off if need be and go back into my body before it can get in.

The rest of the room is dark. I step over my bed, moving a little more easily now, and go close to my burning desk. More holographic looking flames appear. I try to touch the fire a little bit. I don’t feel heat. But it is something.

Even though I know it’s a dream, and my physical desk isn’t really burning, I still want to put the fire out. I am thinking about how to get water from the bath room to the desk, or what else I could use to put it out. I am basing this all on my expectation of what would be there in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness.

Bright Room

Eventually I was back in my physical body, in my physical bed, or so I thought. Then I noticed the light was on. That couldn’t be the case so this must be a dream. I am glad to have caught it, but I want to lay down and think of the dream so far before I go engage this dream. I figure the L D will be so solid that I will get up and write the whole dream, but within the dream. Well, the dream doesn’t wait around for me. It ends, dropping me back off in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness.

I wonder what would have happened if I had got up. It could have been a fun L D! Well, next time.

Notes

I had really good recall of these dreams. The OOBILD was kind of scary and ominous. And very vivid. I told myself, well, that’s part of being an oneironaut. Exploring the dreams. I am not hurt or anything like that.

So I fell back to sleep after recording the dream, trying to stay still.

Funny Game

Something happens with my sister earlier in the dream. What happens earlier in the dream?

Well, here is where my memory begins. I am looking through this Pokemon screen to select a team of Pokemon. I decide to select a dragon type team. There is a big array of Pokemon that it says are Dragon types. It says Diancie and Cacturne are Dragon types, and this makes sense to me in the dream. In fact it says Diancie is Dragon and Flying but I think it should be Dragon and Fairy. So I scroll through that and select some Pokemon.

Next I remember, I am flying or falling down this side scroller video game level. It is like a free fall. This Star Fox looking thing or eeveelution thing is falling down next to me. It seems like I am supposed to battle it. I get the understanding that it is a ground type eeveelution. When it hits the ground, it will make a big Earth Quake. It has a big body and a small head. It is falling head first.

When we land, it kind of stalls. I am between it and a stone wall. It seems like I won’t be able to jump up to the top of the ground monster thing since it is out of my jumping range. Some how I dodge out of the ground monster’s way and get past it, out into the open. A spring appears like the springs in Mario or Sonic. I jump on that, hoping it will bounce me up on top of the ground monster.

It makes a really funny boing noise and sends me flying off the screen to the right, totally unexpectedly. Then I return from off the screena nd land somewhere near it. I start laughing and realize it’s a dream as I wake up. It just seems really funny to me, the way it bounced me.

So I thought back through that one, and stayed still, to get back to sleep, after recording it.

Chrono Trigger!

How did this dream start? My memory of it begins with me walking out on this World Map of a video game, similar to a Golden Sun world map. It is like a Chrono Trigger game though, with the red character with the sword chucks. I walk onto a spot on the world map that is like a cave, and battle music starts. Then, when I step into the level, it is like a cave, but right when you step into the door, there is a hole you fall into, and lose a life. This seems like a really cruel video game design. I hear a sound effect when I fall in to the hole like when Mario loses a life. The second time I fall into this hole, I look and notice on the top right corner I have 5 lives, like in a Mario game. The third time I go in, I somehow manage to move this grey panel beneath the hole before falling into it. I have no idea how this is possible, but it works, so I go to the left in this video game style cave.

Then the game becomes more 3 D like a Nintendo 64 game. I am walking around by this brown hill with a ledge at the end. I am trying to pause the game or get the camera angle to be from behind me but it doesn’t exactly work. I am controlling the character from outside more telepathically, instead of with a video game controller. I am not aware it is a dream though.

I slowly begin to notice a big shadow of a big monster towering over me from behind. I am like, wow, cool, the video game makes this shadow effect. I try to pause the game to buy some time, but it won’t pause. Then this blue electric jelly fish thing appears in front of me. It seems like something I have to battle.

What else happens after that? I don’t remember if there was more or it just jumps to the next part.

Song

Next thing I remember, I am running or flying alongside this pink humanoid rabbit kind of character. It is either that, or a big dog with a Majin Buu kind of head, all pink. I am thinking of getting an R 4 D S to play Pokemon Sun and moon, but that might not work because it is for D S, not 3 D S.

The pink thing’s head turns red and it speeds way ahead of me. There is this song playing. It goes something like, “If it means something to you, it means something to me. I’ll surrender to you, if you surrender to me.” The first line might be “It means something to you, if it means something to me” which would change the meaning. It has a tune to it that I tried to capture on my voice recorder once I woke up.

I look ahead and there is this big robot head looking thing and it looks like it has a giant cigarette poking out of its mouth. I am speeding straight towards it. I start to realize it could just be a car exhaust pipe. But the way it turns to face me it seems more like a smoker.

Sleeping in a truck

In a brief false awakening, I am sleeping on my front in the back of a truck. My head is hanging down off the back of the truck and I can see the road pass beneath my face. I think to myself, wow, this is a great way to sleep on my front. Almost like a massage table, with no pressure on my face.

Notes

The dream song played for a while in that dream. I had it fresh in my mind once I woke up, but as I laid there thinking through it, I fell back asleep. When I tried to recall the dream, I could get the dream memories, everything I had before, except the song! Only a little of the song came back to me and even then, it was just a guess. What I learned from this, and previous times, was, if there are song lyrics, or If there is some specific kind of phrase, record that right away. Those things have tended to slip my mind more quickly, especially song lyrics, for some reason. Of course, moving to turn on the recorder and speak too soon might dislodge the rest of the dream, so it is a trade off. Got to “play it by ear.”

Notes

I couldn’t get back to sleep after that last dream. It just wasn’t happenin’! After the previous night, I was really looking forward to a similar level of dreaming. Tonight didn’t seem as high a level of dreaming, but last night was like way above average. Tonight was an average amount and of course all the dreams are special in their own way. I don’t know who produces these dreams but it is my favorite channel!

**I omitted the first 3 sets of dreams because they contained a lot of personal information. I might go back one day and just modify them to be general enough to post publically but I didn't yet because it seemed like too much extra work**

**But here are the last few rounds of dreams which were pretty spectacular IM


Writing on my Hand
In this dream I am at my college fraternity house, in the basement near where the downstairs bathroom, laundry room and hockey shelves are. What is going on there? Who else is around? I am in a bathroom at the fraternity house. What else happens?

At some point I get lucid. My legs are in a urinal, up to my knees. I wonder why. Someone is talking about pooping. N D and R C are pointing out something in the bathroom stall. I am not interested. I am trying to get everyone to have a good time and stay on a positive vibe, without using drugs or alcohol.

What else happens around that time? Next thing I remember is this. I find myself in front of my High School, by the white cement wall near the bus stop. There are some people talking. I know it is a dream. I have a pen with me. I try to write on my hands because it might be there when I wake up. I am amazed at how clearly I can write, "Legs in Urinal" on my left palm. I switch the pen to my left hand and write on my right palm. There is ink all over and some green. What does it say?

A kid wearing grey tries to talk to me. What does he say? What do I do? I think I tried to push him away or even fight him. Why? I am not sure.

With these dreams, it was a dream chain. So, I would wake up, try to formulate some memory of the dream without moving, and then another dream would begin.

Feeding Mousey!

In the next dream I am at the kitchen counter of 15 Swoo, near the sink. I am trying to eat some kind of cereal, like bran flakes, with special milk in it. The milk is like a white protein shake, instead of just milk. I notice a mousey on the counter as I mix it and start to eat it. The furry grey mousey is walking around the counter, slurping up spots I had dribbled, or pieces of food I had dropped. I am like, oh, that's nice. A little mouse. (Did I think it was a pet? I realized it might be un sanitary but decided it was just another mammal like me, and could stay.)

At one point the mouse finds its way into my bowl of cereal! It is at the bottom of the bowl, and I can see only a little island of its grey fur from the top of the bowl, wet with protein milk. It is making very loud slurping noises. I may or may not know this is a dream. I think that it would definitely be un sanitary to eat that cereal, so I will just leave that bowl to Mousey, and make another bowl of cereal. I am afraid the mouse will drown, so I try to pour out some protein milk into another bowl to the right. The mouse slips into the other bowl without me realizing and I wonder where it's gone off to. Then I notice it in the other bowl, slurping away.

At another point in the dream chain I remember thinking about changing my clothes, but I forgot when.

Volando

At some point I was flying. I think I was on top of a roof, wondering what to do with my lucidity. I think it was a separate dream from the others.

Funny Bed Location

In another false awakening my bed was in the road near W H Drive. I didn't realize it was a dream, but in later dreams, I was like, oh! I should have known.

Accross the Universe!

I open my eyes and see thin trees in front of me. I know it is a dream right away. I realize it is another false awakening. (Did I do a finger palm test, or just know it was a dream?)

I fly up in the air with some ease. There are power lines near a roof top that I am careful not to touch. They have black covering but still, I just want to stay on the roof, but not touch the power lines. There may have been some other things in the sky i was fighting or interacting with.

I feel bored on the roof. I feel like I have been here a million times, or at least once or twice already in this dream chain.

All the other times I have tried to go to space and stopped for one reason or another come to mind. I decide that this will be the time I go to space. It is just that simple. So, I fly upwards, thinking of space.

I see the ground zoom out beneath me little by little, then faster. When I reach Earth's atmosphere, some doubts come to my mind, but I am able to go ahead anyway. I think the next thing I am going to see is the whole Earth zoomed out, from outside it, and then there it is. Then the space flight takes over on its own. I am amazed as I zoom so far out that I can see all the planets in this solar system, then more planets and stars outside that. The further I go away from it all, I see several spheres from outside, one after another. It is like there is a sphere within a sphere within a sphere, again and again. The spheres are transparent. Some are tinted white and at least one is like a red orange. I think I am seeing a galaxy within a galaxy within a super galaxy or something like that. Next there are these wavy membrance kinds of things. They are shiny and white. It reminds me of what I have heard about membranes between universes and how they sort of ripple and bounce when passed through. They have a whitish glow. They don't take up the whole "dream screen" though but they look like I am continuing to get further and further from the whole multiverse as I could possibly get, way off into space. It all happens fairly quickly, but slow enough that I can see these things happening. It is everything I ever hoped it would be, and more. My first time crossing the universe in an L D!

I am surprised when suddenly I find myself in a body of water. It seems I am on Earth again, but maybe it is like a similar planet to Earth, but in another dimension. I feel I could have looped around and come full circle. This is a big body of water. There is some kind of Goomba ish Mario world monster in the water that looks menacing. It is not really noticing me, but it seems like an option for me to battle it. Instead, I fly somewhere else. What exactly does the monster look like?

I expect I might have to go back and battle that thing as I walk around other parts of this world. I find a floating cube like the ones in Mario. I feel a game controller in my hands, as if I am playing a video game now. There is a thermometer kind of thing near the yellow cube floating there that is black and white. I can affect its level by pressing the Z button which I guess is where R 1 might be on a hand held Nintendo D S. From here on, any time I move my character, I need to press these buttons. I can feel them on my fingers each time.
The box is floating above this small little pond. If the box was one pixel, it would be like a 3 by 3 circle of pixels. The box is over the middle, where there is another small circle. It seems like it will be a healing pond. I want to use it to at least charge up to full H P in case that monster comes to get me.

Does anything come out of the box? Yes. A Red Shell. The Mario theme for when he rides the shell plays. (It is called "Powerful Mario" theme on Youtube. This is so exciting. I hop on the red shell. Knowing exactly what to do, I surf around. It is a lot like the game, only now I am more immersed. There also have been green shells around. This dream is a dream come true.

Next I am on this grassy hill. There are giant grey mice. They are just walking around innocently and I go around them. I surf around on the water's surface, having lots of fun. I go beneath a water fall.
That is all I remember of that. How does that part end?

I either woke up and thought through it before one more dream began, or it ended and one more dream happened.

Flying with Timer

The next thing I remember, I am flying through this corridor. There are other guys and gals flying through there, too. There is a Spanish guy saying emociones liabilidades which I think means vulnerable emotions, or emotions that are liabilities in some way.

As I fly, I am trying to adjust this thing on my phone. It says something like 31 34 37, going up or down in 3's at first. When I adjust it, it starts to go up or down in 2's or 1's. For example 32, 34, 36 or 35, 34, 33. I want to get it to where it is one second per second, moving forward in time, like 31, 32, 33, etc. So I keep flying trying to get that to work. It reminds me walking with the metronome app on my phone, because I was walking with my metronome in the 30's earlier that day in waking life.

Notes

I gave myself 2 L D's for that. The writing on my hand and the space travel mario world ones. Those were clearly separate dreams and I got lucid in both.

Notes

I almost gave up on getting back to sleep, but I did get back to sleep after all. So, that was good. I am just wondering how to recover those missing pieces of the dream? Once I feel I have really maxed out on memory. Also I usually think I will remember a dream next time if I wake up, without recording it initially, but some times I don't. So that is something to be mindful of. Try to record the dream before falling back asleep unless you are intentionally dream chaining. I also thought that I might have flown over water in one of the dreams.

Seemingly Dreamless Sleep

I managed to get back to sleep AGAIN, much to my surprise. But I had no recollection of dreams from that time. Maybe something really vague, but too vague to record.

Trying All Flavors

I got back to sleep again! And had another very cool L D. I felt like I was dropped off from another dimension. What happened in the beginning? I forgot some earlier parts as some false awakenings took place after the initial dream. But I am glad to have remembered what I got. Here is where my memory begins.
I am cleaning some dishes at a sink. (I think I went away from the sink, did some other stuff, came back, and did more dishes. I may have became lucid at that point but for some reason I continued to do dishes.) I realize I am dreaming yet still choosing to do dishes. I'm like, wait, why am I doing dishes? That's silly. It's a dream!

I turn around and there is a sliding door, kind of like the E Q kitchen and back yard we lived in. I slide the door open, step out, and fly up. The dream feels very stable. The sky is bright sky blue and I see some reddish flowers. There might be a creek in the back yard. There seems to be some kind of barrier to how high I can fly, so I decide to just fly slower, which is nice. I can control the speed of my flight this time. What do I do next? Go on the roof? There are some missing pieces to my memory of this.

The next thing I remember is this. I am a mouse! I find I am a mouse scurrying around. I have been really nice to mice in my dreams, and now I am one! I might be eating some food or something. After a few moments of realizing I am a mouse, in a dream, it occurs to me that there might be a... CAT! Somewhere around here. So I run under the cabinets for safety. Sure enough, a black furry cat goes by! So I hide further under the cabinet, perhaps running from underneath one cabinet to another. It seems like it can still get me under the cabinet. What else happens? I become a human again. (The shape shifting was un intentional.)

Here is the "Trying All Flavors" part. I am flying around this semicircle wooden shelf or ledge thing that is kind of high up. I am totally aware its a dream and it feels totally stable, like I am right at home. I am able to fly from point to point on this semi circle thing. I am eating a bunch of delicious dream food. Every few feet, there is another one of these Snapple bottle kinds of things, with a different flavored smoothie thing in it. Two I remember are lemon lime and orange, but there are lots more. I am flying around guzzling from each bottle, just really enjoying it. Each flavor is like what it says on the label. I am even drinking from one bottle before I finish swallowing the last sips from the other bottle. I just want it all so fast! What other flavors are there? There are at least 5 to 10 flavors. I start to think I might be replenishing my "dream energy" for another bout of dream exploration before this L D ends. I start to think I might manifest some ice cream while I am up here.

I woke up from that in my physical bed. My body felt heavy, so it was easy to stay still and think it through. What were the missing pieces to that dream? I think I was doing some lucid activities before eating all the flavorful dream food, which was why I thought of it as replenishing. I started to feel some vibrations as I laid there, and I got ready to potentially re enter that dream. in I'm gonna get a another whole thing here so I feel the vibrations and I get a whole nother thing and I kind of feel like go forward and I think I fall like I was expecting a whole nother dream like that. I told myself I would remember it all once it released me, and got ready to dive back in. I wanted to dream forever!

Drippy Ceiling False Awakening

Well, I lost consciousness somewhere in the transition to the next dream. I "woke up" into a false awakening, in my room at 16 2 4.

I am woken up by some water dripping from the ceiling. I kick all my blankets off and spring up with a startle, unaware its a dream. My Mom is like, there's water coming from your ceiling! From the side of my bed, I can see where the water is coming from. There is this tent or awning that is supposed to go over my bed, but its fallen off. So I pull that back over my bed. I worry the water will run off the edge of that and onto my electronics to the side of the bed. I realize it is almost noon (in the dream, not waking life) and decide to go straight to typing the dream, instead of voice recording it. I figure I've already thought it through and can type it well enough.

I am thinking that when people read this dream views entry, they will be like, man, that guy dreamed forever!

I am thinking of setting up my recliner chair with my lap top, like I would in waking life. The chair would be under the window by the side of the house.

I realize it is morning though so I go through getting my breakfast and all. I can feel my "body" is so heavy and I really disdain waking life. I am so bummed out to be back in waking life, (not knowing it is still a dream!) I go to clean my tupperwares which are full of green spinach juice and mushy black beans. I am cleaning them in this bath tub with hot water. I keep leaning on the wall of the shower, which is covered with a layer of black bean goo. Every time, I am like, aw, man, I got black bean goop on my shirt.

What else happens there?

It's a Business!

There is something with people from two fellowships I am a member of. One fellowship is smaller than the other. The big fellowship they are saying that people go their whole lives. So that big fellowship has a credit card and bank account for each meeting. While the smaller fellowship is more casual. They are ringing up some items with their credit card on a cash register. There is white powder on the cash register conveyor belt.

Notes

I was surprised to slowly awaken from those last unconscious dreams in my physical bed. I had high hopes for letting those vibrations suck me in to another dream before recording. I think its worth the risk though because some dream chains can culminate in more and more expansive dreams. However, yes, some dream chains can just end in a series of unidentified false awakenings. Then again, every false awakening is a chance to become lucid!

Dreams from March thirteenth to fourteenth 2018

Tonight's dreams had a different feel than usual. I had a feeling that I dreamed less. Also when writing these, if there was a part I couldn't remember more of. Like, someone was there, but I couldn't remember who. instead of saying, "I can't remember who it was." I am trying to phrase it like, "Who was there?" So thats what the questions are for. It is kind of a change in style.

365 x 8 DL

In one dream, I was in the gym. I had 365 pounds set up on an olympic barbell. The plates were black. I said some words before beginning my set. What were the words? They were something to pump me up. My arms were really jacked. I remember doing the set and then reviewing the video of it later, realizing I was bouncing the weight more than it felt like I was. Also I did the set facing away from the mirror. I had short brown hair and a sleeveless shirt.

After that scene I was in front of a bed. There were a bunch of sheets of paper all over the place with different affirmations or song lyrics written on them.

Don't know what to say

I dreamed I was in this group meeting type of setting. But some of the seats were down a hill or in a tunnel. What exactly was that setting? My turn to speak was coming along and I had been thinking of different thoughts in my mind. I expected my share to sound a certain way. There was some rule again about no cross talk. When I actually opened my mouth, all I got to say was something like, "I can't decide what to say in such a short time." And then my time was up. Who else was there? It was light out.

Notes

The above dreams are from the first round of dreams. Then I recorded what I could and fell back asleep. It took me a while to fall back asleep after that, but the rest of the night it was pretty easy to fall back asleep.

Surprise Knockout

This dream was interesting. I dreamed I was playing in a Pokemon battle. Who were the Pokemon? The opponent Pokemon did an attack that was expected to bring me down to 50% H P. However, there was some kind of critical hit, and it knocked me out all the way. Above my H P bar it said something like W 4 X or W R 4 X. Then a rainbow colored heat wave kind of effect played on the screen, like where the image ripples. But it was rainbow tinted. I heard a specific phrase. What were the specific words? I remembered them initially upon awakening but they slipped my mind. Something to do with Energy or Abilities. What were they?

This caused me to realize it was a dream. How did that make me realize it was a dream? I started to feel my "body" float up from the game. I tried to fly up through the ceiling and woke up.

What else happened before the Pokemon game? Where was I? It seemed like the back yard of my previous house at some point.

Bathroom

I had a dream after recording the above one that was with me in a bathroom. I had just gone to the bathroom and then I looked down and saw a bunch of poop in a plastic jar. I went to dump it in the toilet, wondering how it got in that jar. There was also something about a video player on my phone that had to do with the previous dream. Did I get lucid in this? I am not sure. How did this lead to the next dream?

Teachers Concert

After the above dream, I went right into this one. Was I lucid? I am not sure. I was flying around though. There was something about a cruise ship and going to Europe. What was the going to Europe part about? Did I fly over water? I came accross this concert of my teachers from High School and my Uncle P. I grouped Uncle P with the teachers even though he wasn't a teacher at my school. Who were the other teachers? I remember ree cognizing them at first. They were singing songs to a crowd of people that I imagined was full of other people I went to school with.

I noticed a girl, K S or N H, playing a black flute. What did it sound like? It didn't look like or sound like she really knew what she was doing. That seemed kind of silly to me.

Did I fly anywhere else? What else happened?

Sister's Dream Ability

Right after the above dream ended, I had a false awakening in this out door place. I was looking right at a tree when I "opened my eyes". It was day time. Where was this location? I was wondering how I got there and preparing to get to where I could dream journal the previous dream. I looked at my phone and noticed it said 6:10 P M. The letters were kind of cut off. I looked away and looked back, not really on purpose, but happened to notice it said 9:25 and the letters were cut off. That didn't make me instantly lucid. (It would be interesting if that was just a habitual thing from double checking clocks in waking life, finally going through to my unconscious dreams.) What made me get lucid? It was partly the clock thing but mainly that I realized I didn't remember getting to that location near the tree. So it must be a dream.

I do a finger palm test. It takes a little pushing but yup, it goes through. I notice some people at a picnic out of the corner of my eye. I am happy to know it is a dream. Who is at the pic nic? My sister gets up from the picnic and walks right by me. It seems like she is heading into the building. What building? She is wearing a navy blue shirt. I stop her and say her name. She stops and looks at me. I am like, "Hi, M!" and we are making eye contact. Her eyes are blue like in waking life. I can see her face very vividly.

I begin to tell her about the dream I have had so far. She says something about how we have to use a certain dream ability. The dream ends after a bit of us talking.

I wake up in my physical bed, still hearing my sister's voice from the dream. Her voice continues on for maybe even a minute. This is interesting to me but I can't reply due to my vocal chords paralyzed. Where as in the dream I could reply.

What was she saying? It was something about dream abilities.

When I woke up, I originally remembered what she said, but waited too long to record it. And it slipped my mind. What exactly did she say?

Who Turned that Fan on?

I found myself in the bedroom of my previous house. My bed was between the two windows. My microphone for my voice recorder was there as well as something that looked like my jumble of pillows. What color were the sheets? I think white. I was having trouble arranging my pillows before laying back down. I was getting annoyed with all this rearranging of pillows. Was I trying to dream journal?

It was light in the room. I noticed the sound of a fan. I looked, and towards the door, a fan was running. Who opened that door? I thought. I figured my Dad must have come in and put the fan on. I hoped he hadn't heard me talking in my sleep, or seen any other indication of my dreaming.

The false awakening got me and I didn't realize it was a dream.

I recorded those dreams and fell back to sleep for the next set of dreams.

Sister Visit

My sister came back to visit in the next dream, but as far as I can tell, I didn't realize it was a dream. I think I was on the phone with my friend L before my sister got there. Now I remember. I was also on a conference call. There were women with U K or Australian accents talking. One was saying how she had to quit coffee, but couldn't make it through the day without a cup. Another was saying how she wanted a pot of coffee but couldn't make it. They sounded sad or child like.
Where was I? I think I was in the same room as the previous false awakening. My desk was facing away from the wall, not towards it. I still had the dividers on the desk. I remember looking at a sheet of paper, that had a type of schedule on it. It seemed that I had slept from 3 to 6 or 7 P M and now it was 6 or 7 P M. My Aunt B's name was written on the 6 or 7 P M line, as if I had something scheduled with her. I figured I had just slept through some of the day and so I would eat something before going back to sleep. Some pizza got into the equation and I was eating pizza.

How did my sister get there? Well, my sister was there, and talking to me about dreams. She was sitting on my desk, to my left, while I sat in the chair at my desk. I was mentioning how my emotional range was only 10% of normal, making a signal with my fingers. Was there something to do with a watch? My sister was eating pizza, too. Only she was making a joke by putting a paper towel into a triangle and taking a bite out of that. Silly!

She was asking me what she was doing in the last dream. I was trying to remember. I told her she was talking about abilities. She was like, "What did I do in my dream?" and I was like, "Was that really you in that dream?" What else happened? Did anything happen after she left? I think she was there to help me remember the previous dream.

After she left, I was in my room by myself again. Maybe I heard more of the phone meeting. I remember putting the phone down on the side of the desk. I remember my black desk. I remember grabbing my hamper and putting in my Grey Pokemon shirt and another shirt. It was like the hamper I use now in waking life. But then I went #1 in the hamper, right on the clothes. L O L. Why did I do that? After going #1 on them, I was like, wuh oh. Why did I do that? And then I figured I would have to go out to the hall way to wrinse the clothes so they wouldn't be ruined. But it was late so I was afraid of the night light waking me up. I started to panic over this a little. Once I woke up in my physical bed, it still took some time to realize that I hadn't really went #1 on my clothes, and my actual clothes were fine.

I woke up from that one and recorded it, before falling back to sleep.

Remote Control Car

I had one dream in the next chain of dreams where it was kind of dark in the ground floor of 15 Swoo. And I was plugging in this remote control for a remote control car thing. It was black and had a red L E D on it like the space heater. There was something about plugging in a double prong plug into the remote control itself. I wondered how it would fly since the car or plane seemed connected to the remote control, but by a shorter cable. What else happened in this part? I might have got lucid again but not sure.

In a School

In this next part I was in a school. What happened in the beginning? My memory of it starts with me walking by a class. What was going on in the class? I saw a woman I know. Maybe they were taking an exam. I walked up some grey stairs and almost stepped on someone's glasses and phone. His head was right by the stair my feet were on and I said, "Are these your glasses?" he said yes and took them. Did he take the phone too?

I continued walking along through this hallway. What else happened in the hallway? There were some people I knew. Something with a phone and or another electronic device. This video player kept coming up on my phone. I remember the bright orange screen.

Eventually I got to the lobby of a reddish auditorium. Who was in the lobby? I talked to more people I seemed to know. Somehow my phone fell all the way down the stairs of the auditorium and looked to have broken. I realized it was a dream. I knew I could just walk down the stairs and get it. But the idea came to my mind to fly down. So, I did a dive sort of thing down the red stairs, probably attracting a lot of attention from the people sitting in the auditorium. I wanted to look like I was diving head first, and then suddenly catch myself a few feet from the ground and land gently in a seat. So that's what I did. A few people around seemed to notice this. What happened with the phone?

Someone in a seat ahead of me seemed to be bothering me. What did they do that bothered me? I turned them upside down somehow and then felt bad about it. It was kind of impulsive. Some other people around didn't seem to approve of me doing that. The assembly thing started to end and the guy in front of me was walking out. His appearance changed from I think curly brown hair to now short dark brown hair.

He said something about dreams. Something about when we are in dreams. What did he say? It wasn't that this was a dream. But I knew it was a dream. I was trying to tell him that we were both dreaming now. I apologized a lot for turning him upside down or whatever I did to hurt him. I was almost pleading with him to be my friend. My idea was that we could be lucid, dreaming buddies and explore the dream world together, helping each other stabilize the dream as time went on. He sort of shook his head and walked away from me. Did anything else happen? I think the dream ended around then.

Poopy Head WILD

I woke up from those dreams and thought them through. I felt my body feel very heavy. Then I felt like my body was being sucked into a portal or something. It didn't happen all at once so I tried to relax and just be open to it. I couldn't really think about the previous dream during this part because it was just too much sensory and or extrasensory experience. So I just went with it and trusted that I would remember my dreams when it was over.

I saw some extra bright hypnagogia and maybe the room flashed some lights on and off. Then I saw a bunch of yellow note pad style text on a black background. It was all shifting and moving really fast, except some text in the middle. I remember the text in the middle was bigger and in bold. What did it say? I remember looking at it and specifically reading it, but it slipped my mind. There were some other words in the bottom left portion of the "dream screen" that I also read, but they too slipped my mind. What were those words?

Then the text sort of went away and a drop down menu appeared on the "dream screen". It had 3 to 4 options. The option I selected was "Is this possible?" or something like that. What were the other two options?

Then I found myself in this room that was flooded with water about 3 to 4 feet high, around waist height. There were 3 men in orange suits who looked like prisoners of some sort. As soon as I appeared they began to come towards me, as if to beat me up. Was I in trouble for hurting the guy in the previous dream? What did I do? Did I try to swim underneath them? I am not sure. But then the water seemed to drain without any one noticing and I was drawing these diagrams on white paper boards for the 3 guys. I think I was trying to convince them not to beat me up. What were the drawings? Something with a blue circle.

Now I am seeing the "dream screen" from outside. The character I was is now a guy with long black hair and I am seeing him from outside. I still identify with him as myself though. I feel what he must feel. He puts his face behind one guy's bottom and the guy pulls up the orange jump suit and POOPS ALL OVER HIS HEAD. The black haired guy is crying as his entire face and head is covered in greenish brown poop. It is not too solid but not too runny. It sort of slowly drips down his head and onto his back. I still know it is a dream. I am like, why are they doing this to him?

During the pooping on the head, there is some mention of the guy being a cyclops. Like if they poop on his head, now he is a cyclops.

Then the same guy lays down his head between another guy's feet and that guy POOPS ALL OVER HIS HEAD TOO. (L O L.) The poop is the same gooey brown green stuff. The guy is crying from beneath the layer of poop covering his face. What was I supposed to do about all this, if anything?

Did anything else happen in that dream? I think it went to another dream.

Casualty of the Dream Chain

What was the dream after the above dream? I am not sure. I knew there was something, but could not remember! Why didn't this one come back to me? How could I have made sure to remember it? I put a title space here to honor it and mark where it would have been.

Sister Diagram

I dreamed I was laying in my bed, and didn't want to get up. This was after the previous dreams, before I recorded the chain. I heard my Dad and sister talking. They were walking around stair cases that were on the walls of my room it seemed. It was something about how my sister got into some activity. she was drawing some diagram with circles and arrows as if on a chalk board all around the whole wall. What did the diagram show? What was she saying?

Notes

I woke up from that last dream in the chain kind of disoriented. Maybe with some other thoughts in my mind. As I thought back through them, I almost fell asleep, or felt another set of vibrations start. After I broke sleep paralysis to record the dreams, I thought I might have fought off another dream, which I didn't mean to do. But I am glad I got them recorded before I forgot more.

Pulled Over!

What happened leading up to this part of the dream? I am not sure.

I am driving down B Avenue, from around the high school or my Nana's. Where am I driving from, if anywhere?

I am on my cell phone with a hands free headset. I begin to notice flashing white lights in my rear view mirror. Uh oh! I think. The lights seem to have been going on a while. I must not have realized they were for me. I don't remember hearing any sirens or seeing red or blue lights. Just white. I figure this is normal for police and pull over. As I pull over, I realize I am not wearing a seat belt. I throw on my seat belt, take off my head set, and put my phone to the side. I can picture the little red hang up button on the phone but I might not have time to press it. I hope the police officer doesn't notice me doing all this. If he comments that he saw me put my seat belt on last minute, or take off my head set, I have some replies in mind to deny it. I don't think I've done anything wrong.

The police officer gets up to my window. He is wearing a police kind of hat and uniform. I expect him to flash a light in my face, but he doesn't. It is night time, and pretty dark out. I realize this must be a dream. What makes me make that connection? It seems to just pop into my mind that this is a dream. Without any direct state checks, I am gradually sure it is a dream.

One confirmation is that for a moment, the police officer's nose is really long, but then it returns to normal. The police officer's eyes are a dark color, like dark brown. He is telling me that I have been swerving or coming too close to the edge of the lane. Then a sky blue van and another car speed right by his back, really fast. It is startling. The people are yelling something out. (What were they yelling?)

I want to tell the police officer that he might not want to stand there. Although I know it is a dream, not much else comes to mind to do right away.

I woke up from this dream right about there. I was happy that I even ree cognized it as a dream. I tried to remember what happened before the lights flashed. What happened? Nothing came to mind.

I recorded this before going back to sleep. Even though it was just a simple dream I wanted to play it safe.

Remembering Dreams

I vaguely remember one dream of it being light in my room, and me thinking something about remembering dreams. What was it? Was that the only dream from that sleep cycle?

Notes

It is a very interesting night of dreams with some continuity between my sister's appearances and other themes. It seems lower in total volume of dreams. But the quality of dreams is high. I am happy with the night of dreams. I feel fulfilled with these dreams and look forward to what the next night brings.

Dreams from March 12 to 13, 2018

**If you don't want to read it all, my top 2 dreams about be "...That might wake me up!" and "Your Shirt Matches the Wall" (just Ctrl+F the phrase without quotes and it will bring you to the title)**

I don't like to call any dream my favorite over any other though. They are all wonderful!

I slept a little deeper than usual and was more groggy than usual. So my initial records of the dreams were a little more jumbled. But still got decent recall.

Dad's Food

There was one early dream about my Dad wanting me to give him a ride somewhere at night. Or there was something else he needed help with. I think He was wondering what to do with his chicken he cooked, and I told him just leave it out over night, kind of as a joke. There was also a part where his cup of water touched a bag of raw chicken, but on the outside. Still, I didn't think he should drink that water now. I also was afraid the water was too cold. He also wanted to leave rice in his water to add nutrients.

Friend Oriented

There was one part about giving my friend M a ride somewhere. These dreams had a theme of me helping others and being a friend.

I met this older guy who reminded me of the guy who lived behind a restaurant I worked at. I was trying to remember his name. John? Joe? John? Joe? It turned out it was Joe.

I was at a meeting with all of these people. It was kind of like a support group. We were all sitting around a big square of tables arranged like a square. My left hand had been jotting down some notes. But then people were going around the room taking a turn sharing, and everyone else was supposed to listen. The monitor of the group said that if we wanted to give any advice, it would have to be really brief, and we mainly had to focus on ourselves. I realized that it would be difficult not to give advice unless I distracted myself from the person speaking, so I let my left hand do some more writing while they spoke. Mean while someone else was saying how they were paying perfect attention to the person. They said their page was totally blank because they were just listening so attentively. I had a black binder with some paper.

Someone next to me wanted some paper. I had only 4 sheets in my binder, and they all had stuff on them. but one sheet, I was able to spare, because it only had a small drawing on one side. So I gave that to them and I think there was a memorable phrase.

The group had a program involved and at first I was really buying into it. I thought I could ask Joe to be my mentor and then finally become someone who is more "friend oriented" when I have kept to myself most of my life. I thought I might finally do it right this time. I felt hopeful about it for a moment.

Then I thought, well, pull back a little. Be skeptical of everything they say, instead of buying it. Don't listen to anyone's advice. Definitely don't ask for a mentor. So I guess I shut back down.

Apartment

There was a guy moving out of this apartment. I think another older guy was sub leasing it to him from the land lord. The land lord may have been the Joe guy from before.

Blue Screen

After a part I put in my private notes, I was at my high school, where the buses pull in. My friends S S and D H were in this dream. They were commenting on this app. It had to do with all these check boxes. They said my computer screen was very bright blue. It was so bright blue we could see it lit up from accross the parking lot.

Gym

Something with me at gym doing chest presses.

Uncle C and Sister

I vaguely remembered a part of being with my sister. And maybe in my Uncle's Den, on the couch by the T V.

Youtube Couple

I vaguely remembered a dream of a Youtube Couple who made a video or a song and made money doing that. Something about having to be read by their voice?

Notes

That was all from the first time I woke up. I remember waking up very lightly a few times and dozing back off before I really got up and recorded dreams. Then it took some time to fall back asleep and I had to unearth an old sleeping position, the diagonal front. It worked and also I had to try to do progressive muscle relaxation until I slept. So these next dreams were all from the next sleep cycle.

I Always Loved You

I am sleeping in a tent, outside the back yard of my previous house. There is a big black dog outside the tent and I am afraid it will get me through the tent. (There are more parts I forgot. )

I am walking outside now and the dog is gone. I come accross a glass table top that is like the one in the guest room at 15 Swoo. It has some scratches. When I turn it, some words show up, based on the lighting. There is one phrase that is kind of long. (I don't remember it.) I notice another phrase from K F. It says something like, "I always loved you." Because I think this is waking life, I am very excited. I hope she still loves me.

Tiny dogs

In this next scene, I was in my Nana's room. There were two tiny dogs, one white, one golden yellow. They were smaller than cats. I still had some fear of dogs that carried over from the previous dream. I woke up from the bed in my Nana's room. I think I was trying to record my dream. I sensed these dogs were coming, or someone in the hallway was beckoning the dogs to "come". I was worried about the dogs in general or perhaps how they would interrupt my dream recall.

I considered closing my Nana's door but that seemed weird. I also looked down the hall and saw one of those child proofing fences at the top of the stairs. it was made of wood. I thought of putting that in place, but also decided against it. I thought if anyone came up the stairs or to the bedroom, it would seem weird.

Then the white dog ran in. I remember it jumping up 4 or 5 feet to the top of my Nana's mantle, then needing to get down. It wasn't even a foot tall. I think I picked it up by the mid section and said hi to it. The other golden yellow dog came in too.

I know I forgot more of this cycle of dreams.

You Need Supplements!

In this one I was running down B P Blvd and onto B Avenue, towards the mini golf course. There were 3 women running in the same direction, one kind of tan with dark hair, the other ones were "white people" as they say.

This guy pulled up along side us and said something like, "You need supplements! You need more than just food and exercise!" And I was like, really? He is trying to spam us to buy supplements?

I may have become lucid or just conscious but without knowing it was a dream. I decided to entertain the guy's suggestions and explain to him that I already take multivitamin, fish oil, B complex, and all the other supplements I take. Then we were walking down this hallway thing. We went down some stairs. (As I type this dream, glimpses of the parts of the dream I forgot come to mind. But not enough to bring into focus.)

The guy was ahead of us. I was behind him, then the 3 women were following. We walked through a narrow part, and then I stood to the side to hold the passage way open while the 3 women passed. The tan woman had black curly hair that had a shine to it. I saw her face more up close and she looked like D P. We decided she couldn't fit because I was suddenly wearing a giant grey coat. So I went on ahead and then they kept following.

I was hoping that the women would like me because of a few reasons. One, I felt I would look good compared to the sales person guy who they might have been annoyed by. Two, I just got a sense they liked me.

Notes

That was all I remembered from those drorms. I knew there was more but I couldn't access it. I figured I would take the three scenes, and record them, before falling back asleep. Maybe it was good I did that because I could have woken up next time without memory of them.

Wellness

There was something about how I slept and had an O B E but within the dream.

There was a part with my Aunt being up early in the morning to do her "wellness morning". She looked really healthy. Her hair looked healthy and her skin had a glow to it. I kept opening and closing the door knob of the kitchen we were in. It was gold and shiny. Maybe I was locking and un locking it, deciding whether I would stay and talk with my Aunt, or go outside. Outside was a little chilly. My idea was to stand out there, fall back asleep standing up, and dream some more, while I ate breakfast, but asleep.

I was putting together a meal with something like rice and lentils, kind of groggy. I wanted to say how I do my own wellness routines in the mornings, too. I accidentally spilled some jelly in the fridge and M M appeared to my right. She picked it up. I was embarrassed but I thanked her. Some jelly was dripping down my face. I thought it might impress M M that I had an all day wellness routine. The main point of me saying it was that I didn't need to start the day super early, because I practice wellness all day. So its not just something I get up a half hour early to do a half hour of, then go on with my day. All day is wellness. But I was also defending why I was not up as early as her.

Water Bottles

This one dream or dream segment was at a grocery store check out. I had a cart with some big water jugs in it and then some cases of smaller waters. Other people were buying waters, too. Something about how I put out four 64 ounce water bottles but then there were five because another guy brought his own. An older woman wanting some water. I wondered why there were not just two 32 ounce bottles per person so they could have equal water in each hand.

Maybe I'll Float

I was walking around on this dock. It was sunny. It seemed like the water was up above the dock. It was towards the Summer. I was thinking I would like to float around in the water every day, during July, August and September, while its hot. But then I was scared, because maybe a fish would come near me! Floating seems like a good idea though.

Notes

That third cycle of dreams was really vivid and eventful. However I was so groggy upon awakening I just couldn't think clearly enough to record it coherently. I think I dreamed a few times of recording it all and then woke up like, wait, I didn't record that. I think that was a mechanism to keep me asleep! I just felt physically and mentally tired. Also some of the dreams were more surreal and not as easy to put into words. I can think of a few glimpses, like something with my sister and a golden pin, and she was running away around some stairs, but nothing really solid. Most of the time I wake from dreams with my mind very alert. Alert enough to think up the whole dream and record it. But some times, like this time, I wake up in a daze. So, I just do the best I can.

Football Practice

I dreamed I was practicing on the H S football team. There were a row of football players in pads and all the uniforms. The quarterback had special lettering on his helmet that said Q B. Then, I was seeing the team from behind. Maybe it was a game. The quarterback didn't seem to have enough protection. The center and running back from the left hand side were going to trade places. One was B D. It seemed weird for the running back, who was smaller, to be the center. But the idea was that he would be able to hit someone pretty hard before getting ran over. I don't know if I was on the team or just seeing it from everyone's back.

...That might wake me up!

There was one part with my Dad drinking about 16 ounces of soda really fast. He had this little glass bottle that was like 16 ounces, like a snapple bottle. He had filled it with soda and drank it all really fast. My sister was accross from him, and I was behind him. I wondered if that was really a good idea to drink that soda so fast.

This was all one dream I think. After the soda part, my memory begins with me in this room. There was this idea that if I drew this green thing on a piece of paper, and lines coming off it, the cat would be attracted to it. So I drew it, and colored in the lines, and the cat was hissing and meowing and coming towards it. I think I shut the door so the cat couldn't get in. I am not sure.

Then I remember going out to this other room with a woman at the head of the table and some guys sitting around the sides. I joined them, sitting at the corner of the table, right near the woman, to her left. I thought this might seem like a weird place to sit. But I did it anyway! I told them about the thing with the cat working.

I forgot some other parts.

Then I was in this auditorium, for an assembly. A lucid dreaming author and researcher was going up on stage to give a talk. He put on a red orange hoodie and then a gold chain with a cross but it was one of those plus sign, equilateral ones. It was a big chain and hung from his neck, shining golden yellow. I wondered why he was doing that and figured he was trying to look like the Pope.

I think there was something in these dreams when I was like, "Why am I watching this?" and almost woke myself up. Then I realized, wait, its a dream, stick around!

He came into the crowd and knelt in front of this little girl who was sitting on the outside row, talking directly to her. The little girl looked away, kind of scared.

I forgot more parts in the middle here.

Then I was at this cabinet or fridge. It was like a black mini fridge. It had lots of square containers in it. I was sorting through them and accidentally knocked over a beaker of reddish tea on the bottom shelf that was nestled behind more containers. At first I was afraid it was red wine but then I saw the tea bags, and knew it was only tea.

Just then a woman came up behind me and said that I should really clean that up, since I spilled it. She wanted some tea and was upset that I spilled it. But there was another tupperware of tea with a blue lid anyway.

I told her it was her problem she had a caffeine addiction. She could make tea in 5 seconds if she really wanted. (L O L!) And how dare she get on my case for spilling the tea. I didn't spill it. Blame whoever put the open beaker in such a bad location in such a tiny fridge.

The woman argued with me some but I basically told her to back the F off. I felt really angry. I thought it might help to put the mini fridge up on a counter top so it would be easier to reach the bottom. But when I stood up, it was a full size black fridge. Huh?

I went to the bathroom, still angry. There were two bathrooms but neither had a label for men or women. So I was going # 1 and then a woman came in. She had one of those plus sign crosses on her nose, in black. I ree cognized her as L N. She had short brown hair.

At first I thought it was weird to be in the same bathroom, but then it just seemed normal. I was ready to defend myself about why I didn't clean up the tea. But she looked happy to see me. She actually asked nicely, "Aw, are you having trouble with the tea?" in a very nice way that kind of made me feel better.
So we started talking and she got close to my face. We sort of went into a hug and we were kissing each others faces. I realized it was a dream somewhere around here. I was looking into her eyes. Her face seemed to morph into a different woman's face a bit. I pointed out that the plus sign dissappeared from her nose.

She was smiling a lot as we were close together there. Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed someone else walked past her. I started to realize I might wake up, and tried to will myself to stay in the dream. I started to tell her, "You know, this might make me wake up..." To try to slow things down. But then I felt myself waking up.

I was glad I got back to sleep for this dream because I almost thought I wouldn't. So it was like a bonus dream.

Wheel Chair?

I dreamed I was on the ground floor of 15 Swoo. I was deciding whether or not to put a load of laundry it. It seemed too time consuming. The laundry was dirty towels and some other stuff. Maybe the kitchen towels.

I also remember seeing this black leather wheel chair thing as I walked around. at first it had a back, but then it just had a long seat part. I figured this was for my Dad to help his knee recover. I wanted to wash it or wash the cover of it so he would be able to use it sooner. Since otherwise he might just leave it sitting there. It looked electronically operated. It had 4 smaller wheels, not 2 big wheel chair wheels. I almost forgot about that dream but was glad it came back to my mind.

Cambodor!

This was a dream about some monster things that looked like magic the gathering cards. Or similar to Transmetal Rattrap but with more striations in the metal. Like made of cabling. The one I remember seeing was this rat mouse thing with a human in its mouth. It was in this dungeon thing.

Your Shirt Matches the Wall

I found myself in this class room setting with computers around the room. I was at one of the computers. Two teachers were this guy Elijah and then the president of a company I used to work for. I noticed the walls had this grey pattern with red and black pixelated looking parts, like a pixelated camoflauge but with modified colors.

I noticed that Elijah's shirt blended perfectly in with the wall. The company president's shirt almost did but it was tinted with neon or electric lime green.

I realized it was a dream partly from that and just in a general way. I decided to point out to them that their shirts matched the wall. It took some coordination and focus but I got to where I could talk to them.


One cool part of this L D was that I felt it start to fade at one point. It was as I stood beside the two teachers as they talked, trying to find a moment to get a word in. Somehow I managed to re stabilize the dream but not with a technique, just with a thought.

I forgot whether or not I called them by name. But I pointed out their shirts. I put my hand on the company president's shoulder and told him he was giving a great lecture before. (I didn't realize until later that although both him and the guy giving the lecture earlier had the initials S L, it was a different person. So he didn't know what I was talking about. but still it felt like a good thing to do. )

When I put my hand on his shoulder, I noticed he was built like a 220 pound body builder. So maybe the dream shape shifted him into someone else.

I wanted to burst out and tell them it was a dream, but I held myself back from saying that.

There were four teachers in all but I only interacted with two.

I forgot exactly how it ended.