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I had some interesting dreams so far. (Currently its 3:08 A M and I couldn’t get back to sleep.)

First I remember dreaming of something with people from high school or college, vaguely. Something with a grocery store even comes to mind but its just teasing me! Not going to fully reveal itself.

Then, I was in a public bathroom stall. (M) was in the bathroom stall next to me. His leg kept coming under the bathroom stall and touching me. I was like, “Please keep your leg inside your bathroom stall.” Then there was only one toilet and we were sharing it. Other people were in the bathroom stall too.



It was full of used toilet paper, up to the top. I was embarrassed because a female I liked was there.  I said to him that he should flush all of that before it gets stuck. He flushed it and it was fine.

Then I was waiting tables at a restaurant. My Nana wanted a chicken nugget sandwich.



I was handing them out but biting off the ends first. They weren’t really on the menu. People had to specifically ask for them.

Next thing I remember, I was in my Nana’s kitchen. Aunt (B) may have been trying to type something into a tablet on my chest. I felt like I was becoming a video game character in the kitchen.

At some point there was something about building a Pokémon team. I had an Ice type in the third or fourth slot. I forgot the other types but they were all types with good resistance.



Still, opponent Pokémon in the game were a higher level, so I wanted to level up before any battling. I was imagining a Gyarados doing over half my HP even with a not very effective move (something like that).

Then it was like a mix of Pokémon and Zelda. I chose a starter. Then another character left and I became Link. I was stuck in the water.



I remember clearly hearing one of the songs from Zelda video game. I was like, ‘wait, this isn’t a Zelda game. How did they get this music?’

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkH2zETKqws

But my character became Link like I said, struggling in the water. But then my starter (I think a blue one) came to me, trailing a blue line behind it.

The starter pulled me out of the water. I rotated between a mix of characters. I think I was seeing a red one with antennae have to jump over a ravine of water.



Then I was a green one and running. I got to a fork in the path. It was like running through a canyon.



I chose to go to the right but left seemed like the safer way. Sure enough the T Rex things caught up to me. I remember seeing their shadows overtake me as I ran. But some ran right by me.



Then one did get up close to my face. Only instead of eating me, this other spirit entity came to my face.



I tried to draw that as best I could. It was tricky to actually draw. But there was talk or understanding that they wanted to harvest my physical matter and my energy for some project.



It showed a robot hanging in space. They were building it for some purpose and it was almost done. It had hips like Inferno from Beast Wars. All I could see were its legs hanging there, at first.



Then it became Optimal Optimus, kneeling. I felt like the thing had been created but it decided to not do any harm. So the kneeling meant it was surrendering.

Then I re appeared in the video game. I witnessed other characters telling the woman that my green starter and I had been caught by the “antagonist”. She easily revived us and we were okay. 

Then it kind of jumped to where my Uncle (C) was looking up some things on the computer. Something about an hour.

Then it showed a live stream called “Just This”. It was a Lucid Dreaming live stream with a woman. She sat on her bed to give the live stream. She gave a list of benefits to Lucid Dreaming. One was “Help Small Children”.

Then there was something about fasting or some kind of powers. I remember I, along with some other people, was being spoken of as one of the “top in the nation” with this power. Maybe something to do with fasting. I started to feel like I didn’t want to be public about it. I drank one of my waters and went to find my other.

I was near this patch of dirt. I started to go pee on it. I woke up really thinking I had peed in my bed. Luckily, I didn’t!!! 

If I had wet the bed, I mean all I would do is just clean the bedding and the mattress. So its not the end of the world. I guess it would cost me some sleep. But it could happen to anyone and so I just want to prepare myself not to flip out or be mean to myself about it if it does.

That was it! I woke up from those, and had a decent recall. I must have slept from about 9 to 1 or 2. Since then I haven’t got back to sleep. Maybe I will get back to sleep in an hour or two.



Well I fell back asleep probably around 5 and slept until maybe 7 with little micro awakenings. I dreamed about my Brita filter in the kitchen. And of being at a meeting I hadn’t been to in a while, noticing two people in particular, who I hadn’t seen in a while.

Then I had a Dream Induced Lucid Dream where I was falling backwards onto the floor in my old house’s bedroom. I looked up and saw some shaped on the ceiling. I became lucid as I fell and confirmed it when I landed with no pain. Then I woke up momentarily.

[img of mattress and pillow]

In my next dream there was a mattress and a pillow. I interacted with a guy in the dream. Something about moving a pillow. I was lucid in this dream.

Then there was a younger girl and I guess her mom. I helped the girl with her home work. Then I talked to her Mom. It was a meaningful conversation but I couldn’t remember the details. I remember looking at her eyes though.


(It was closest to the middle one on the bottom row)

They were a greyish color but hard to name the color exactly. Very vivid. Eventually I woke up from that.

I woke up in my old house’s bedroom in a false awakening. Tried to write my dream. South Park was playing really loud on a monitor behind me.



I tried to turn it off. But wasn’t really able to. I think I might have thought it was a dream momentarily but didn’t get lucid.

My computer fell behind my desk. All I wanted to do was write down some brief notes about my dream, before I forgot it. Windows acted funny when I picked it back up. All the windows were different. I worried that dropping it had broken it. I was glad I backed up my computer at the start of the month. (I really did back up my files in waking life)

There was an air conditioner in the window. (I had been thinking of putting in my AC in waking life) so I was like, cool. I guess it never got taken out.



I had a little micro awakening. Then I dreamed of appearing some where my friend was setting up cafeteria tables, for a party. She was like, “Are you here to help?” And I figured I was because I couldn’t explain it otherwise.



I dreamed something about a heavy metal band. I remember the image of the neck of a guitar.

Then I got up. I was kind of sad when I had another insomnia happen.  But I had more peace of mind anyway. I got up and did an hour or two of stuff on the computer that I was going to have to do that day. I mean this was when I just knew I wasn’t going to sleep. I try not to give up on sleep prematurely, but sometimes, I can feel I have too much energy to sleep.

It looks like alot of pages but there are like 15 big pictures so its not so bad. Actually only 1794 words.

2018-05-01s dreams.pdf

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Spoiler for Twext of dream without images:

Tonight was of some I think very interesting non lucid dreams. I also had my second good night of sleep in a row since the insomnia attack! So hope that continues.

My earliest dreams were at my Nana’s. Too vague to remember. Then something in the woods. And something at my high school, near the art rooms. Those were very vague.

Next I dreamed about a skate park though. I remember something about watching other people do tricks, and not really wanting to take the risk myself.

Then we were outside in this field. But there were houses too. A guy was standing beneath some sky. I think he had some control over the cloud shapes.

He made it so that a ring appeared in the sky. I was wondering if I could do it too. It was a ring of light.

I remember my sister’s friend wanted to buy some things I had for the material. There was a graph of how many ounces of material each one had and the price. I remember walking down a road and seeing someone I knew in waking life. I had my hands in my pockets, hiding something. We walked down near a baseball field.

I had to get by there but they were going to play the game. I got to an auditorium. At this point I was holding a snake that became a lizard. I was afraid it would bite me. Didn’t know what to do with it.

Someone ahead of me was drawing a lot of attention to himself by saying wild things. I was glad he was drawing attention to himself because I felt bad about something. I didn’t really want to focus on myself.

I became afraid of the snake and decided to put it down. I draped it over the back of my chair and it kind of hung there a moment. Then it got to the floor, where I noticed it had feet. And walked beneath the seats.

It got up ahead and the person in front of the assembly noticed. But then another kid a few rows ahead picked up the lizard. I could tell the kid wanted the lizard and would take good care of it. I was glad because I didn’t really want the lizard. 

After the assembly I told the kid that he was a great person. And that I was so happy he would care for the lizard. Then I was talking to other people.

I saw a youtube video of a guy who made his background the ocean floor. It was flickering and he said it was glitchy.

There was something falling to the ocean floor at first. There was also something with someone from college. Eventually I woke up from those and thought them through. That was a big improvement in first round of dream recall, but I don’t know what to chalk it up to! 

So then I actually did some physical exercises in the dark before going back to bed. Fell asleep pretty easily.

I had some dreams, but fell back asleep while thinking of them.  One was about a toilet that kept shattering.

I forgot the rest  But when I fell back asleep I had a very long and interesting dream that I remembered a lot of .

I remembered walking on a dock. Some of the planks were bouncy. I bounced on them. I got to the end of the dock and there were two people there.

Then there was like an opponent there and we had these fake guns. They made a bang but no projectile. Something about weight lifting. One fellow doing a demonstration of an overhead snatch, let go of the bar when it was over his head, and it went flying behind him into the water.

I was telling them my power would be weight lifting. But we needed some heavy metal music. So I started making a guitar riff with my vocal chords while they got the music ready. I was going to deadlift.

There was another part where I was walking through woods. There was a bunch of honey dripping everywhere.

I remember walking through some of it. And something with a bee. It was pretty cool.

I remembered being on a bus ride and sitting next to (A) from high school. I was not feeling great about myself, so I didn’t really take the chance to talk to her. I think I was like, well, she’ll never really like me, so why bother. But I realized later that I didn’t need to think of it in an all or nothing way. We could have had an regular conversation.

Then we were on a beach. There was a heavier woman there trying to do sprints to get exercise. She had really big forearms.

I was thinking that I would quit dairy because it caused me bloating. And the bloating lowered my chances with (A). (in waking life I haven’t had dairy since 2016)

Then I was on a message board. Someone asked me why I was motivated. I told them I was motivated to boost my dream recall. That was interesting because that’s a big motivation for me to change different parts of my life style right now.

Then there was a family there. The theme of dream recall boosting continued in the conversation of the dream figures I was with.

The daughter said that her dad let her open the window while she slept. This had boosted her vividness of dreams, perhaps by fresh air. The family was very traditional and didn’t like to change their ways so this was a big deal. The daughter said that her dreams and memories became more vivid.

I thought to myself that the noise from the traffic might make things worse though. So maybe it was just another factor, like the fact that she thought about her memories and dreams more. I raised this possibility.

One of the brothers went quiet. He seemed kind of angry on the inside, or confused. The idea of making yet another change might have been too much. The other brother said that they never change things. They always do the same, autopilot routine, every day. And if there’s anything they need to think about, they just think about it while doing their autopilot routine. Nothing changes.

The other brother said that ignorance is bliss is their motto. He showed his web site and clicked on a page with some topic of social change. The title of the link was something to do with social change but once clicked, the page just showed a bunch of snack foods and candy. And a message about, “now, why would you want to ever think about that?” 

I pulled away from the computer and found myself in a living room. My Uncle told my Dad to give him a “deuce”. I figured this meant 200 dollars. My Dad basically said no.

Then (J1) from college was pounding (J2) into the ground. He was turning bright red. Eventually it broke up and I went over there. (P) blocked me out of the circle. (J) and I glared at him. I told him I noticed that subtle little move of blocking me out of the circle and I wasn’t cool with it.

Then the scene changed again.

One character looked like a fallen tree but was actually the prince. There were a variety of other types of beings around who wanted to kill him but he was a good guy.

A gang of guys with knives came along to take a stab at him. I remember walking by them and they ganged up on me instead. It was kind of vivid. Then the dream shifted and they were breaking out of a store by scraping away the windows. I think it was a jewel store.


The police came and stopped them. I had to carry some stuff out to our car. I had my house plant.

We got into a Jeep and as we drove, there were two characters. One was a woman figure with six wavy arms. She sat in a lotus position and told us some things.

She looked less like a spider though. Kinda like this but not quite.

Behind her was a creature kind of like Trogdor. Here is a drawing.

We pulled into some kind of parking lot near a beach. As we got out, we saw a car falling from the sky.

Okay my drawing didn’t come out quite right.. It looks more like a car with blue angel wings. The flames were a lot more crackly. It was very vivid. The car had blue flames trailing out of its windows, like something was on fire in it, but blue fire. The fire looked really dense.



I ran towards the water to save whoever was in the car. Then a giant red orange crab monster or kraken thing began to rise up. I turned around and ran the other way. Whatever was in the car must have expanded on impact with the water, and became a monster here to destroy all life on Earth!

All of us in the parking lot ran for our lives. We ran into this building and glided down stairs for safety. It was very scary!

We ended up in a class room thing. Some kids were playing a video game but asked why I didn’t play. I told them that I wanted to stay open to situations like this, in case a giant monster ever came to Earth to eat everyone!

I woke up from those in awe. The monster thing was really powerful. I didn’t wake up in fear. I woke up really impressed and amazed with the dream though. 

I slept one more time. My first dream I could remember was of walking by my neighbors house. There were big black rocks in the road.

Then there was a dream of playing Super Smash in my friend (J)’s basement, like in high school.

I had my selector thing over Ganondorf. But then the game was confusing because I couldn’t tell which character was responding to my controls.

My last dream I remembered was of walking by a woman in a mall. She handed me a black journal with writing in it.

I thought she wanted me to write in a page. But then she got mad at me for opening it and looking at it. I tried to tell her I didn’t read anything just looked for a blank page. (The truth) (Why did she give it to me then?)

Well it was a good night of dreams. I am pretty happy with it 

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I got to sleep OK around 8. And slept until maybe 1 or 2.

Yams

My first dreams I remembered were of being at a big round table with my family. I was handing out sweet potatoes. They turned out to be soft but at first I thought they were under cooked.

Out Somnia

I had insomnia again and it was from after my first sleep cycle until IDK when. I gave up after an earnest try, and got up. I don't know what comes first. My workaholism or my insomnia.

Loft

Eventually I went back to sleep. Around 6 I guess. I felt myself drop in.

I don't remember much of the dream but I was in a loft. Something happened. Then there was someone like Goku. they expanded into a big illustration.

That made me lucid for a moment. I realized I was in a dream but didn't know what to do.

Springy False Awakening

I had a false awakening of waking up in a bed. But the bed had springs on it. I figured the dream had startled me into waking with a jolt. And that made my bed keep swinging back and forth.

The springs creaked. I kept trying to tell myself they would eventually slow down. But it seemed like my swinging gained momentum, and the creaking got louder. First it was right to left, then from head of bed to foot of bed. And squeaky squeak squeak.

I was thinking I need to record this dream in my voice recorder. Which I had put away since the sun was already up. (If I dreamed I planned on just getting up to write it. But I forgot that during this false awakening.) I wanted the bed to stop swinging and creaking, otherwise that sound would get recorded, too. So I tried to think about the dream while waiting for the bed to stop.

Then I grabbed onto this black metal bar of the bed to stop it but the force was too much. It felt like it would rip my arms off.

Missing Table

In waking life there is a table to the side of my bed. I got up from my bed to stand, and try to stop my bed swinging from the outside. I realized it wasn't there. My chair near it was though. "Oh well," thought I. "Maybe I moved it before sleeping."

Actually woke up

I appeared in my physical bed kind of surprised about all that having been a dream! It took me a moment to be like, oh, wait, my beds not shaking.

It would have been a great dream to become lucid in. However, I might have just gotten excited and returned to my body, if I became lucid. I'm surprised I didn't find lucidity over the bed swinging like that. I kept telling myself it must be possible and thinking of how my bed was built.



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It was 2337 words. I only do pictures when I feel really inspired to and today I just felt like writing it.

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Spoiler for DJ Entry:

I had a good nights sleep last night. And some good dreams and recall. Got to bed around 8:30 P M and up at 6:14 A M but theres a lot of time recalling and recording dreams between those two times.

Pokémon

There was an interesting Pokémon battle early on that I couldn’t remember much of.

Bowling

I was at a bowling alley. The owner could bowl a perfect strike every time. He came to our lane and did it.

There was a woman’s face above the end of the lane. But it was there because she was dead. And when the ball hit her dead body, it caused her dead body to make facial expressions. She had dark hair. Her face was probably four feet tall.

Teleportation

I teleported to a gym. But I wasn’t lucid, it was just subconscious. I remember arriving there and feeling funny, like something was different now. I tried to set up for a workout.

(J) and (P)

Something with my friends (J) and (P). Maybe a tupperware of rice.

Coats

Something about wearing a big coat. Taking it off and putting it on a shelf. Someone telling me I might need the coat.

Vegeta’s Dogs

Someone who reminded me of Vegeta was mad at me because he asked me to keep his dogs but I put them all in cages. When they got out they were almost suffocated and he was upset. (I would never treat animals that way in waking life)

Car Alarm

I dreamed I had gotten up. The lights were on. I heard a car alarm from the neighborhood. I wonder if I was lucid because I remember thinking, “Am I dreaming that sound, or is it coming from outside my dream?” It sounded like a physical sound. And very well could have been. But I was dreaming when I heard it, and didn’t wake up physically.

I forgot the rest of that part but there was a little dream part there.

Anna

There was something with a grocery store. Then some bleachers. My sister seemed to be dating (M). (M) was (P)’s younger brother but became as close a friend as (P).

Then it became (K) and (M) and they were even younger. I talked to (M) and he said his name was Anna. Apparently it wasn’t really (K) and (M) but it looked just like them. Their Mom had more children and these were the young ones. Maybe 5 years old.

Anna said he was a Demi God. And he explained that whatever anyone says will come back to them. At first I felt skeptical of this. But it made some sense to me. (Now I realize the skepticism was a good thing. The “karma” thing is a commonly held view but I found out about “blame shifting”, “Lords of Karma” and other concepts such as not beliving in a “punishing higher power” that debunk the “karma” concept. And how the “karma” concept has more a negative impact on people. But that’s very new agey.)

Then, I saw a teacher from my high school. She looked older. I told her, “Wow, can you believe it? (L) had more kids!” I forgot what she said.

Teacher Girlfriend

There was a woman I knew from high school. She was a teacher in a school now. She was my girlfriend within the dream. And she was letting me stay at the school. I will call her (S).

Privacy

At one point I was going to the bathroom. But one one knee? Then a bunch of people were looking in at me through a big glass window. I hoped they couldn’t see clearly.

Best Lucid, Dream technique

There was a kid who was mad at me. He said it was because I told someone what the best Lucid, Dream technique was. And really, I shouldn’t say anything about that.

I didn’t know what he was talking about that. I don’t remember dreaming of having done that. (But maybe it was something I did on a thread somewhere. I’ll try to be mindful of that. Usually I just say my own thoughts but not in a way that it’s the one way for everyone.)

Guy Trying to Pee on Me

There was a part in a room full of people. I felt confident. Then a guy started trying to pee on me. I was not really into that so I backed away. He chased me down. I remember waking up from that. Instead of thinking to recall the dream, I didn’t realize I had just dreamed. So I imagined throwing him off me and stopping him from doing that.

Poop In Sink

Well the dream came back. This time I was looking for a bathroom, but eating food at the same time. There was another small window to the bathroom that caught my eye.

I mainly didn’t want anyone to know I was eating food in the bathroom. They would think I was eating poop. LOL. Wait. There was poop in the sink already.

The sink was stainless steel. I didn’t want to clean the poop from the sink while still chewing my food because then I would think I was eating the poop.

So I turned around and faced away from it to finish chewing, which felt like forever. Then I looked at the poop in the sink thinking of how to clean it.

Pokémon Cards

I just remember feeling surprised when she seemed to still like me after some time. (It felt like a few days) And I was still welcome to live at the school. We kind of embraced.

Then some other guys there wanted to play me in Pokémon cards. I had my binder like in waking life with cards. It was like, if they won, they got all my commons and uncommons. There was more to the match, like they were mad at me, and the Pokémon match would settle it.

We gathered around a table. It turned out I had more booster packs. My dream made its own TCG expansions and designs for the booster packs. I remember looking at them, thinking if I remembered the names. Some of the guys wanted to open the packs and use the cards. I said sure but I get to keep anything I want from the packs afterward. There were at least 6 packs.

So then I went to the head of the table, standing near (S), to play. I felt close to her emotionally, which was a positive feeling. However, I wondered how we would all play one on one, with me at the head of the table. Shouldn’t we all be across from each other? It seemed like (S) would still love me no matter what happened.

Waterfall

At some point it jumped to a scene showing a series of water falls. I was thinking of the H M water fall. It showed a series of Pokémon game screens. I guess I just subconsciously love Pokémon.

One screen had a mail box with writing on it. I thought it might be a modified version of the original game.

Con Artist

After going down the water fall it showed two people in a car, but it was a boat. A man and a woman. I had an understanding that the man was a con artist.

Mouse?

I was in my room. I think there was a mouse.

Skulls in Dirt

About 4 people were in the woods. They were taking turns wrapping a black rope thing around their head. Swallowing some of the rope and pulling it back out. I was just watching from outside. I was trying to make sense of it.

(T)

(T) was in the dream. He had his head in a dirt hole. Then the dream showed me that there were two animal skulls in the dirt near by. I thought, “Oh no! That means diseases are crawling in the dirt!” And then (T) pulled his head out of the dirt.

(T) went on to say that many people make You Tube videos expressing their feelings. But his videos were more factual. He doesn’t need to express his feelings because he goes to the Mosque, he says. His accent is like waking life.

Being Outgoing!

Either before or after that, I was walking in the woods, with my voice recorder. I was recording myself talking but at the same time being out going to other people.

It was nice out. People were walking by on the trail. The main thing is I was in an good mood.

Shot Guns

Then there was this part where everyone had shot guns. They had white spray paint on them saying, “Hagner” or “Magner”. (T) and (M) were there. Eventually they gave me a shot gun too.
False Awakening Dream Journaling

I guess I had woken up, thinking through those. My brain felt groggy. I fell back asleep.

I was in a false awakening then. I was trying to dream journal, but it was a big assembly about a belief system.

I kept telling myself I remembered my dream just fine and I could record it later. But then doubted it.

So I tried to take out my phone and write my dream notes short hand while the movie thing played. Thinking maybe the teachers would think I was just taking notes from the movie, and not bother me about it. I don’t think I got to that though.

I remember the other guys with shot guns were still there. We all had shot guns. Someone wanted to trade me for mine. (I am not a gun person in waking life, not really interested in guns, totally against hunting, etc)

Bad guys at bottom of stairs
Eventually the assembly ended. I headed downstairs. It seemed like I was one of the last ones.

Part way down the stairs I heard something going on. A couple of the “authority figures” of the assembly were beating on a guy named Tom. (Not any Tom from in waking life) I witnessed the bad guy put his fist in Tom’s mouth.

I turned around to go back upstairs before they heard me. I wanted to get a video or call for help. (I was thinking the word “police” but they seemed to be on the bad authority figures side)

I looked around for help. Maybe I could use one of the shot guns. They all seemed not to weigh anything though. I didn’t know if they would work.

I saw a guy playing a key board kind of thing. Almost asked him for help. But decided he might be “one of them”.

Chain Saws

After getting by that guy undetected, I found a bunch of various chain saws and weed whacker kind of things. I thought these might be more reliable in stopping the bad guys.

I imagined putting a chain saw into a bad guy but it getting stuck. The the other bad guys could get me. So I changed my mind about chain saws.

Cubicles

Then there were all these cubicles. I saw (A) in one. I jumped up over all the cubicles into his cubicle, landing on the desk behind him. (B) was also in the cubicle.

Even though I did that jump, I wasn’t lucid. It just seemed normal.

I started urging them to call the “police” (not realizing the “police” were the ones in cohoots with the bad “authority figures”). When I said “police”, (B) seemed to shy away. He didn’t want anything to do with it.

Instead of call the “police”, (A) got all pumped up to go take the bad guys on himself. So he and (B) headed out to do that. I was like, “No! You will need more help!” but they were gone.

Waitress

I walked around some more to think of what to do. There was a waitress working in an almost empty restaurant section. This was a giant assembly room I had been in this whole time.

I told the waitress about the situation, thinking she could use a phone or help. She walked down toward the bad guys too. From the top of the stairs, I tried to stop her. We needed more help, not just one person to go down there.

She took off her clothes and kept heading down stairs. When she got down there, she started saying, “Good thing you are beating up that riff raff!” but she also said “Riff raff like me” which I tried to make sense of. Why would she group herself with them? It seemed she was trying to get on the bad guys’ good side, treacherously.

“You can remember and go on your way”

After that I knew she would tell the bad guys about me being up here. They would come up to get me.

I think I woke up briefly, and remembered the dreams in my mind, staying still. Then another dream began. This time I was lucid though.

Even though I was lucid I still feared the bad guys coming. I was like, “They’re not here yet. If they get here, I can easily wake myself up. But maybe I can just hang in there.”

I continued looking for a way out of the big assembly room, other than going down stairs to the bad guys. Flying didn’t really occur to me. I saw a chapel kind of room. And there were stairs going down the other side of the building.

As I headed for those stairs, a brown haired woman appeared, taking up my whole vision. She sang in a little girl’s voice for a while. The last words of it were, “Now you can remember, and go on your way.”

It had to do with just waking up and not continuing the dream. I still tried my best to stay in the dream. But I woke up.

Notes

Pretty good dreams and recall I think. Not as much lucidity but good vividness and recall.

So, this is my second Dream Journal post today, because I ended up going back to sleep later that morning for a nap. First I slept on my back after doing some meditation. I had some dreams but didn’t remem bird them.

All the Channels

I remember I was typing on my lap top. Typing dreams I guess. Typing away on there. There was some audio that kept coming on. Maybe a sports broadcast.

My Dad kept coming in my room and setting up a T V. it was a big T V. My room was a lot bigger, too. “Now we can watch all the channels!” said he, excitedly.

Hiding

There was one scene where I was kind of on our back deck. And I saw the back yard neighbors window open. It was black. But the mom was out there and some kids.

I was behind some wall kind of thing. I felt the need to hide. Not sure why. Maybe I realized it was fine and I could get up. But I remember really really hoping they wouldn’t see me!

More Lap Top

Funny I would dream of my Lap Top a lot. I was typing more on my lap top. I REM ember that the blue headset wire had pulled out. In waking life this causes my computer to blue screen so I was like, oops. Maybe I don’t need it in because I hadn’t been listening to anything.

I remember I was at a podium this time. Maybe more audio kept coming on. I think someone was telling me they did something for me.

I remember tilting the screen to get the words to appear better. As if there was a glare. The screen was red orange with black text like when f.lux is on a high setting.

Forgotten parts

I thought there might have been a part at my Nana’s room or something. I tried to store some details in my head but later, after the FILD, found I had forgotten at least some.

Vibrations

I started to get some vibrational sensations like I might Dream Exit Induced Lucid, Dream. I tried to amplify the ringing but it didn’t go anywhere yet.

As I did this I realized I might forget the previous dreams. I told myself I formed a strong enough memory.

Finger Induced Lucid, Dream

Yeah! So Then I randomly got the idea to try Finger Induced Lucid, Dream. I think it was the fingers on my left hand I started to twitch. I felt something happen I never felt before.

It was hard to describe. I will have to pay more attention to it in future attempts. But something like a bright light in my head. And some sensations.

Twitching my 2 fingers felt different too. They started to move super fast because I was probably twitching my dream fingers.

Back in bed

I was back in bed. Or so I thought. I figured the Finger Induced Lucid, Dream had done nothing. But then I noticed another sports broadcast playing. That wouldn’t be playing in my room since I didn’t leave it on. And no one was home. So I felt like taking a little chance that I was in the dream world.

I’ve heard of this before. During Wake Initiated Lucid Dream for example. Someone being in their bed, and it seems like its their physical bed, so they’re afraid to move. But really it’s a dream and if they open their eyes its going to be a dream.

Snow?! In my Room?!

I started to feel snow fall on me. This seemed normal at first. (LOL) I opened my mouth and let it fall on my tongue. Yep, snow.

Then that also made me think this might be a dream. So I decided to roll onto my back at least and take a peek.

Getting Up

First I was on my back. My low back felt stuck to the bed but everything else could move.

I got to where I was still stuck on my lower back, but I had fallen onto the floor. Or teleported there. I still wasn’t totally sure it was a dream. Maybe I was just getting up.

I willed myself to stand. It was kind of like flying a little, more than using legs and arms to get up.

I still had my eye mask on within the dream. I had to remove a few layers of cloth until I could see. They kept appearing once I removed the previous one.

Invisible

One thing I noticed was the objects in my room kept going invisible. My room was laid out like waking life. Shelf in same place. Desk and lap top in similar place. Even my Dream Journal chair in same place.

Even my dream body would blink into invisibility, then become visible again. I noticed this when trying to check my hands to verify it was a dream. I had a hard time believing that I hadn’t just gotten up out of bed physically.

This will prove it!

I eventually found my lap top and opened it. There was a VLC kind of icon on the task bar, but more to the left than in waking life.

I tried to open a note pad file. My goal was to type myself something and then see if it was there later. But the more I noticed the difference in the computer, I was already sure it was a dream.

Morphing Keyboard

What really sealed the deal was the key board. It was smaller and had more tape on it. Also I remember looking at the letter “D”. It was like where “W” in waking life. But I did the good old double check letters and the “D” became an “S”. The rest of the letters morphed, too.

Popped Back

I thought of checking out the window or something but the dream didn’t seem that stable. Everything was going invisible and stuff.

After I was looking at the key board more I thought, “You know how I will know it’s a dream? That thing will happen where my consciousness pops back into my body in bed. So that’s how I’ll know.” And then that happened.

Notes

I was really excited to get my first Finger Induced Lucid, Dream! It was hard to believe since I never entered a dream that way. But I guess the Finger Induced Lucid, Dream teleported me into a dream. Very cool.

Thanks for reading!

Well, my insomnia’s back. I made 4 questions for myself. One, What do you think causes your insomnia? Two, describe your experience of insomnia. Three, What would your ideal night of sleep be like? Four, why do you want better sleep quality? Then I answered those so I am going to go back over question one piece by piece and see what I can change to see if it makes any difference.

Sleep Cycle One

Pokémon
In my first round of dreams, I had this thing about Pokemon. Some legendary Pokemon and a way to hack the moves. They had moves called S 5 and S 6? I remember a legendary trio but they were dream originals. The map went off somewhere maybe by a lake. Memory just on the tip of my tongue.

Cheese
There was a
Something with a rich guy wanting us to eat cheese.

There was a little hardened cheese left in the dish. It was like he demanded I eat it. I kind of forced myself to.

Aunt Butting In

There was something with my Aunt. My apartment was flooded with water but it seemed normal. Like its normal to just swim down the stairs and stuff. I was blocking my Aunt out. It seemed like she was butting in.

Someything Else

There was somehting else I put on my voice recorder but its not on the top of my head.

Sleep Cycle Two

After some insomnia I actually did fall asleep. I found myself in a dream and became pre lucid. But the dream checks didn’t conclude in lucidity. The rest of the dream was interesting anyway.

Computer

I was on my computer. A task manager kind of program popped up, and it played music. It looked like it was doing a virus scan. The music it played surprised me. It was just an instrumental but it didn’t seem to go with the program.

Eventually it said 14 threats were removed. But one was remaining. The thumb nail of the program had a picture of santa claus. I had to remove that one too. It said the word alert.

Pre Lucid

Eventually I got that program to close. The task bar at the bottom was like my dream the other night. In fact, my dream the other night came to mind, and I was like, wait. Didn’t I dream of my task bar being a little different like this another night? (The start menu was moved over or missing and it was just different.)

At first I doubted it but I decided to finger palm test. I pushed my finger through and it seemed like my hand was solid. I felt my finger between my bone of my hand but figured that was normal in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness if I push hard enough. Also a little dent appeared on the back of my hand. But I figured that was normal in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness. It made me think finger palm tests were just too dangerous.

But I would do a nose pinch breathe test anyway. So I did pinch my nose. I also covered my mouth, to be thorough, and try to breathe. My conscious mind was very active within the dream. Too bad I didn’t actually become lucid.

Air passed through. But I told myself I must not be covering the whole air passage. So it couldn’t be a dream.

It’s not a dream

I looked around my room. I remember seeing my window without curtains. I saw the dark night outside. But light was on in my room.

I considered flying out the window. But I was like, nope. It’s not a dream.

Downstairs

I went downstairs. The lights were on. I was going to the fridge. I hadn’t brung my orange glasses. I sat at the table. I think I was eating food. But also there was talk of some kind of lottery thing.

Randy

I was back in my room then. I was on the computer again. I think I got sleepy. But I wanted to wait to sleep until the task manager thing was fully done. This way if I got up in a hurry to write my dreams, nothing would block me.

Something was playng about American Idol, which I haven’t seen or followed in over 10 years, thank FHQWHGADS. Don’t need that kind of thing.

That fellow Randy was talking about something. I was so annoyed even to have the vibration of American Idol in my space. I quickly shut it off, thinking, “I don’t need this.”

Hug!

I went back downstairs. There was a woman my age. It didn’t seem out of the ordinary for her to be there. My Dad was there too.

I went outside. She was just getting ready to go for a jog. It was like midnight. She said it was for her lucid dreaming practice. I guess she was doing a really extreme Wake Back To Bed which involved going for an intense jog. It made sense.

Then we were talking. I felt like we knew each other. We ended up hugging. I did a smooching sound a few inches from her face because I wanted to kiss her. But then we just kissed on the cheek.

Then I realized we’d kind of just met. So kissing that soon might be too much. I walked up my driveway and I guess she went out for her jog.

Dorms

I went up some stairs and I was in a college dorm. It was a women’s dorm. But suddenly I assumed I lived in a room in the women’s dorm by myself. The reason for this was that I had moved in with a girlfriend into that dorm room. But then she had left, leaving me, a guy, living by myself in a room in a female dormitory. It made lots of sense!

Party

I was at the door with a guy from college. My college room mate appeared there too. I figured they must be my room mates. We went in the room.

There was music. It was like a college party. I was annoyed because I wanted to go to bed. My bed had white sheets on it. White with the square lacing, that has the square texture.

Two people were on my bed. This seemed normal since it was a party. Lots of other people were in the room, and there were other beds, also with people on them, hanging out. (The people on my bed weren’t doing anything intimiate or anything just hanging out.)

I used a funny hip hop phrase in asking them to get off my bed. I repeated it a few times, in a hip hop tone of voice. They got off my bed. A female with dark hair kind of smiled at me from the corner of my eye, as if she appreciated my joke.

I was thinking the hoolgans would notice I was sleeping, and shake me awake. Something about lucid dreaming came to me mind. I wanted to play my audio I play when I fall asleep but it seemed the music would drown it out.

False Awakening

I had a false awakening where I was recording my dream in the dark. Only every sentence felt like it took forever to say. I was like, theres no way I can say every sentence. I may as well go write it out.

Overall Notes

Yeah, insomnia. Blah. I was in bed and probably sleep by 9 the first time. I gotta see what I can do about this insomnia (without drugs).

Last night was kinda weird. I had less dreams, recall and lucidity than usual. I couldn’t understand why because I worked a good L D program. But I’ll just write them and not try to worry too much. I didn’t do any of the usual things that harm my dream abilities. Also couldn’t sleep past 5 or 6 A M even though I tried. Maybe it’s stress.

Sleep Cycle 1

Sleep cycle one I couldn’t really remember anything.

Sleep Cycle 2

Took me a while to be able to sleep.

Hiding

I dreamed that I was in my Nana’s living room. Hiding something from my Dad. He got home and I scrambled to hide it.

Caller

The land line was lighting up and ringing. It said some kind of unidentified caller. I considered answering in case it was someone I knew. But decided not to.

Untitled?

I dreamed that some people from high school saw me and said, “Oh, that’s Charles (they used my old nick name though). He’s back from hell.”

I felt cool about it. Like I was a “BAMF”. I was looking at my beard in the mirror.

Debt Collectors

2 people my age were kind of threatening me that if I didn’t pay a couple hundred thousand at once. Something bad would happen. I forgot what.

They also had some writing that explained how I had to stop being mean to people.

Helicopter

Two guys were flying in a helicopter. I was looking at them from where the wind shield would be. The guy on my right put the thing on auto pilot and went on the floor to sleep.

Pool

We eventually landed I guess and then ran a red light. We didn’t get in trouble.


Then one of the guys was asking me if he could get my key to the pool. I was like, well, I don’t have a key. I have a guest pass you could use.

Lucid Dreaming Class

There was something with a lucid dreaming class with Tim Post.

Sleep cycle 3

I dreamed of being in a computer lab or library computer room. I typed something in. The librarian came around like she was monitoring me. It didn’t come out typed how I meant to.

I had a ruler. I was measuring my forearm with it but not circumference. Just width.

It had wood and metal. I couldn’t find the right picture.

Something about something playing on my phone. It was a false awakening. I couldn’t move, then made a sudden shaking movement, which startled me physically.

That’s It!

Not as many dreams as usual. I had some more bits on my voice recorder but I will just leave them on the voice recorder. No reason to strain.

This is my DJ entry in PDF. Its 31 pages but thats due to spacing/size/lots of images. I wanted to post it as PDF so all the images and formatting would be already embedded since I accidentally messed up the BBcode things.

2018-04-25 - Dreams and Pictures.pdf

If anyone wants to read it but wants something other than PDF please let me know.

Here is my DJ in pdf format. The illustrations are contained in this version:


2018-04-24 - dreams.pdf

Here it is in regular text (without my illustrations though... don't wanna miss those )

Round 1 of Dreams

I recorded these dreams on my voice recorder. I remember being in my room at my old house and then going out the window. I couldn’t get back in through the kitchen because I hadn’t removed the screen. There were two little kids on bikes across the road. They went to go somewhere.

Then there was something about wanting to go to a pool. I was walking through a hallway eating tuna from a can. Then I wanted to go to a pool.

The dream time jumped back to 2:45 P M or so and suddenly the pool was closed? Kind of hard to explain. So I was mad.

Then I was at a cash register and trying to get into the pool still. Something about rolls of quarters. While I was still doing my transaction, a woman tried to get to the register. I was like wait I’m not done yet.

There were a few more things on my voice recorder.

Round 2 of Dreams
I had RLS so I got up to bike and stretch in the dark. Then I went back to bed and had 3 REM cycles before I dream journaled again. I chose to stay still because I thought I’d remember it all. I didn’t remember every bit but by the end of the 3 REM cycles, I had a good percentage.

REM cycle 2-a

My memory of this one started with my friend. And he asked me to watch something as he went in the bathroom.

Then there was a vitamin powder jar. I became lucid some how and asked a woman there if I could eat the last of the powder.

I woke up and thought those through. One more dream flash of a building.

Eventually got lucid in another dream which was with me and 3 friends in a study room. I was lucid again and telling everyone how I had won a game against my friend (S) in a previous lucid dream. (S) was the one next to me.

As Looked at him, he shape shifted into ( C ). I almost didn’t notice!

Then I was like… “Wait! (S) just shape shifted into ( C )! I caught you this time!” because usually people will shape shift and I will have no clue. I tried to will him to transform back to (S) but he just stared at me blankly. I started losing my voice. I tried to stay lucid but I woke up.

There was one more dream flash of a man wading through a lake.

REM Cycle 2-b

I dreamed in this one. I initially remembered it. But by the time I went to record, it was gone from my mind. I regretted that.

What had happened was I began to dream about an Asian woman. It was like we were dating or getting to know each other in the dream. I felt connected to her as time went on.

I remember remembering it at the time. But not when I finally recorded.

REM Cycle 2-c

There was a bunch of earlier parts to this dream chain. Especially involving the Asian woman. But just vague memories by the time I got to record them. This dream chain went on and on.

I remembered a Pokémon game where there was an elephant character (like Musshi) but he was a Pokémon trainer.

Then I remember being on a computer with a big screen next to me. Not lucid yet. Going to look something up on the computer while the Asian woman was up. Then she came back. I wanted to hide what I had looked up but the screen froze.

A blonde woman appeared and said something about how “I have to think about addiction in many different states of conciousness for it to finally sink in.” I understood what she meant.

I woke from that hoping to dream chain and apologize to my “dream girlfriend”.

I did a dream chain where I went out of body. I got up, not sure if I had gotten up physically. (It turned out I hadn’t.) I went to try using my computer. It was in the same place as my physical computer. Eventually I popped back into bed.

That was one thing from the TV.

I went out of body again. It looked like the sun was up. (I wasn’t in my physical body but thought I was again.) I popped back into bed suddenly.

Up out of body again. This time a car appeared to the left of my bed. Now its more of a dream.

I drove the car down a stair case and a hall way and out a door. Willing it to fit through the narrow space. Then I drove around the road. I was lucid. So I put out my hand and stopped cars at will. It was kind of fun.

That dream ended but I hadn’t woke up yet. I was in a grocery store. “Oh, another dream,” I thought. “I have had enough. I will just close my eyes and be in my bed,” I thought, as I looked at a little cartoon thingy. An older woman walked by me.

But JUST before I closed my eyes… To my right, on the counter… A TRAY OF DONUTS APPEARED. I was like, “WAIT!! DON’T WAKE UP YET!!!” And some how the dream lasted long enough for my to go grab a donut.

I chose a tan colored one, thinking it was like a coffee or cinnamon flavor. There were all sorts of colors donuts with various sprinkles.

A guy walked by me and grabbed a piece of donut. Ripped it right off the donut in my hand! He was like, “Wasn’t that weird? That I just did that?” But I was lucid. So I was like, “No, not at all, bro! Come on, let me buy you a coffee!”

Another woman walked by. I was like, “Hey, let me buy you an ice cream shake!” And ice cream shakes appeared on the counter. She kept walking LOL.

I totally forgot to apologize to my “dream girlfriend”.

I woke up back in bed but still not done dreaming. Went out of body again. This time it was kind of dim. There was a creature there.

At first it scared me. Bound to run into something that scares me when crossing dimensional barriers. But I decided to embrace it some how. I woke up before anything else happened.

Then I was in my bed… but it was still a dream! (I didn’t know it then). There was light coming in, and the sound of rain drops. I stayed still and tried to remember the dream, not knowing I was still in a dream!

When I woke up in Physical Matter Waking Consciousness it was not raining and I knew that the rain drops had been a dream.

Notes

I didn’t really feel like typing these but I’m glad I did. Some days I don’t feel as motivated to type them. Other days it is effortless.

Here is a copy of my dreams with images in line (as a pdf)

2018-04-23 - DJ with images.pdf

Here is just the text from the dreams (without the drawlings)

Round 1 of Dreams

There was something with some people on a raft earlier in the dream.

There was something really cool I couldn’t put into words about a powerful being.

I remembered my sister drawing smiley faces in my Nana’s back yard.

One had the top of the circle curled over like on the left. The others had different versions of a lowercase U like on the right.

She also drew a lizard. It said, “My name is dinner.”

Round 2 of Dreams

I had a dream of being at the Arboretum.

Then I left the arboretum. And drove kind of crazily. I pulled out across 4 lanes and in front of a truck going the other direction.



Then I also backed into a building and it got smashed. But then I rewinded it somehow. I don’t think I was lucid. Eventually the dream shifted.

Then I was with these people telling lucid dream stories. I didn’t know it was a dream. There was something about waiting for a shower.

I had to solder something or do some kind of machine work that created a smell. When the other people got back they complained. We were out doors but I still put a fan on to blow the smell away.

Then I was taking out the garbage too because I felt bad about the smell. I overhead one of the rich people talking about eating lint from the couch. Or licking it. I think they were trying to get me to lick the couch lint.

Then I was at a mall. I had boxers on but not pants. I was holding my tan khaki pants and looking for a place to put them on.

There was a thing about needing to consult with agents from the bank. They were waiting around on some couches for people to come do their appointments.

I found a mall computer and started filling in the form. It seemed like it would be easier that way.

I remember seeing that in my dream. I had to confirm my information. Then they detected I was at a computer and came to me.

They wanted me to pay them 1500 dollars a year for my bank account. I was thinking how I will probably have to change banks. I really needed the bathroom so I had to desperately seek a bathroom before I could finish my form and have an appointment. I was afraid to leave my personal information up on the mall computer.

I walked by these dog cages looking for a place to go to the bathroom. Then there was a hairy school bus outside.

I said, “Nice hairy bus!” And a guy poked his head out of the window. “Thanks!” Said the guy.

Then I went left and it seemed like I was in the back of a haunted house. My high school gym teacher was at the bottom of some steps. I passed through there, thinking he wouldn’t let me. But he was fine with it. Seeing high school teachers is a dream sign.

Then I saw a woman who I went to college with. I asked her if she would go with me on a date. She said, “Give me a day, a date, a time, and a place!” But I didn’t have one. I thought, oops, was I supposed to?

Then I woke up. I was thinking if I could ask for her number, and call her when I think of a “day, date, time and place”. Then I realized it was a dream and began recalling it.

I drifted back to sleep one more time and had a dream of being by this house outside. To the left was a stream. I was on the phone with my friend, talking about some stuff. I was also walking around peeing.

I woke up in my bed again and thought I had wet the bed for sure. However I didn’t want to move because then I might dislodge the dream. So I stayed still and thought it through. It turned out I hadn’t wet the bed. Thank FHQWHGADS!

Round 3 of dreams

I fell asleep pretty consciously this time. One dream flash was of a tan beverage and nutrition facts.

Woke up briefly.

dreamed I worked in a restaurant.

Woke up briefly.

Dreamed I was in college. And thinking of going to audit a class on dreams. Then I was in a class on dreams. The teacher was giving a lecture. Some guys next to me did something funny like hijacking the lecture.

Then I was shuffling blue books with a woman from the class. She spoke very softly and I could barely hear her.

Then I had a false awakening that it was around 7 A M. And there was tons of noise. I went to look if my Dad was home. He wasn’t but there was a big red truck out front. In the back yard they had all this equipment going. They were laying out sod. I got mad because it distracted me from my dream recall.

Woke up briefly, glad it had just been a dream.

Then I dreamed of being at my old house’s kitchen with some food. I sat on some pine needles outside. There was glass in the pine needles so I went to put my shoes on. There was food in my shoes. I ate the food and then realized that was probably not the cleanest. I felt kind of sick.

Woke up briefly again, glad it was just a dream. I decided to hold all the dreams in my head and stay still, to keep dream chaining.

This was where I started to get lucid in them. I dreamed of these cartoon characters. And I dreamed I had a camera that could take pictures from my dreams. And I would see them when I woke up. So I got really excited about that.

Woke up briefly again…

Then I was walking towards an empty playground. There was a retainer (for teeth) on a slide thing that reminded me of mine. I figured a kid had left it there. When I looked back it was in a blue case. I tried to move it somewhere safer for the time being.

Then I looked out onto the neighborhood for some people to tell. A mom was at the door as her daughter left for school. I walked up to them.

The daughter said, “You can’t punch me any more!” The mom had purple under her eyes. I was like, “Uh oh. Good thing I’m here to distract the mom a little.” I told them about the retainer.

The Mom pulled the door knob and the whole door came off. She put the door to the side like it was weightless. That plus the dream chaining got me lucid. But I decided to finish what I had set out to do before I had become lucid.

The daughter left and the mom went to look toward the empty playground. Then I woke up.

Laid there recalling the dream until one more started.

I was working in a Restaurant Again. My job was a bus boy but instead of a pitcher of water, I had a pitcher of tan bean soup stuff. One of the pitchers was made out of a taco shell.

So I carried the beans out and poured them in people’s cups. One couple said “Charles, more beans please!” I gradually realized this was a dream, especially from having dreamed of it earlier.

I decided to play along. I said, “Okay, so I just pour the beans in your cup, right?” They looked like almonds.


Round 4 of dreams

One vague dream

Went back to sleep hoping for dream chain

Woke up not remembering any other dreams

Notes

My dream recall and lucidity are improving again. I thought they took a little dip for a few days.

This is my PDF version with the drawings in-line. Otherwise the drawings will be at the end of the post.
2018-04-22 dreams and drawings.pdf


Round 1 of Dreams
The first time I woke up I just remembered a little bit. One was something of a lucid dream cycle and they mentioned the Lucid Saint. It wasn’t refering to the podcast but it made me think of it. Also there was something in my sister’s
room but I couldn’t remember any more.
Round 2 of Dreams
These got a little more dreams going on. I remember my friend had 4 hero sandwiches. He offered me some. I didn’t
want one because I had already had dinner. Even though I felt hungry I would rather wait until breakfast.
I remember talking to him about how he was going to teach foam rolling. He was wondering if he should speak in the “I” or “You”
Position, something that always confuses me. When I put on my sun glasses, my vision got a lot clearer.
I had an app on my phone. He told me the code was 1-2-2-2-2-2-… And more 2’s, to get a special app. So I typed that in but it was
hard to press the touch screen.
We had an audio book playing with a heavy bass instrumental. Some women upstairs wanted us to turn it down so we turned off the instrumental part. I’m not sure if there
was anything else in that dream.
Round 3 of dreams
There was something with a bee type of thing that scared me.
This was a long one. I dreamed that we had to go on a trip. But we were taking a short bus ride home. My friend was
throwing a pill around and picking it up.
I remember I was talking to someone about Astral Projecting. And to go if it feels safe but not to go if it doesn’t. Then I dreamed of my body going to sleep paralysis and being unsure if it was safe or not. But a
light flickered in the loft that seemed paranormal. That was when I knew it was a dream. But I didn’t know it was a dream within a dream!
So then a female fell or jumped down from the ceiling and onto my friend.
At first this scared me. But it turned out okay.
I woke up from that dream but it was still a dream when I woke up. Another friend was there and he had a girlfriend. She had black hair with a big red dyed part and wore denim.
My friend went in the other room and she talked about how I don’t need to be some iron man. I kind of knew what she meant. Then we went out onto the roof. It overlooked water.
I got the feeling she might be a smoker. So I hinted, “I give points to help people
quit smoking.” I said this as a way to gauge her reaction as if she smoked or not. Worried that if she was a smoker, it would be a problem that she came around. I didn’t know it was a dream any more.
It turned out she was a smoker. My friend came
out. They were sitting together in a sky light. I started to tell my friend she smokes. He said that’s not okay. I felt relieved that he wouldn’t condone her smoking.
Then she started to try to kiss him. I felt like this was a way of her trying to
manipulate him to get him to change his mind. I felt threatened by this so I kept saying, “Don’t listen to her! She is an evil, manipulative addict! She is just trying to manipulate you!”
Her eyes began to glow red. I didn’t know it was a dream, so I was so
surprised at this. “Look! Her eyes are even turning red!” And they did. First just the pupils but then her whole eyes. I tried to draw a picture but it was too scary. Her teeth got sharp and her face morphed a little, like Monster Form of Frieza almost. Like a venus fly trap mouth.
I was sure I had talked my friend out of having her over. But then she began to come towards me. She slowly inched towards me
and I backed away. She was holding some writing utensils. It seemed like she was going to stab me with them. I thought of going to hide behind the door.
It turned out to be such a fearful dream that I consider it my first official nightmare in a while. I have
a high thresh hold for what I consider a night mare but this was truly one. In fact even while I was awake and recording the dream, I felt like I could see her face in my mind. I felt like if I opened my eyes, she would actually be there in my physical room.
Round 4 of Dreams
It took a little while to fall asleep. I had some sniffles developing. But I had a dream that ended with this green candle wax man holding a green candle. He lit the candle, and began to melt along with the candle.
I couldn’t remember the parts of the dream before that.
A dream flash happened where two kids in green
coats were flying towards me. With their backs facing me. I got startled and woke up.
Empty hoodie: I was at the mall. There was something about getting ice cream before they closed the metal gate thing. I got locked into a jail cell thing.
I might have got lucid but I didn’t put this in my L D count because I’m not sure if I was. I saw myself in a mirror. I had on a brown hoodie. But where my head and hands should have been, I had only a black void.
I squeezed out from between the jail cell bars and a friend carried me upstairs.
Stop Smoking/ High fence arboretum: In this dream I was walking through the part of the arboretum near the mulch piles. I actually smelled smoke. I rarely have a sense of smell in dreams but in this one, I did. The fences were high picket fences, not there in waking life. I didn’t know it
was a dream though. I looked around to see what trail it was coming from. Up around the bend? Behind me? To the left?
I yelled out stop smoking twice and heard a cough. It was from behind me. A guy with a dog. He yelled back, “It’s a disease!” I tried to run away. Then I woke up with a startle. Lots of emotionally intense dreams tonight.
Round 5 of Dreams
My sister asked me to do the dishes. So I helped her out with those.
There was a commercial of a guy in a foreign zoo. I felt a sense of dream de ja vu. I felt surprised at how long the commercial went. That’s what was funny
about it. It took up so much time. The guy joked around with some animals. Then he stood on a log and put his arms overhead like a bear. And some bears imitated him.
Baby commercial:
There was a commercial with a woman and a baby.
Then another woman sang a song about how other people can have their issues but you can be free of yours. In a nice yodely voice.
I had a little false awakening after that. The commercial draems were
funny because I felt like I saw them before.
Notes
I got more details on my voice recorder but this was just off the top of my head. What I notice is more of the dreams from my final
sleep cycles tend to be the ones that I remember easily the next day and can draw drawings from. The earlier dreams I don’t remember until I listen to them (more often).

I already have everything on my voice recorder. But I decided I would try to write all the dreams I could off the top of my head in the morning too, just to test my memory.

In my first round of dreams there was something about my Uncle mixing butter and Au Jus in a frying pan. Asking me if he was doing it right.

The second round of dreams. Well, it is hard to remember at this point what was from each round of dreams. I recorded dreams 6 or 7 times. There were a few more micro awakenings than usual.

In one set of dreams I was fighting my Uncle. Well, good thing I recorded everything on a voice recorder through the night. I guess by morning my memory isn't that great!

I had a dream of being in a class. I drew something really cool on a chalk board that dissappeared from a certain angle. Also I colored all over my notes and got in trouble. I just put random words but tried to draw the way it looked when I colored all over my paper:

(not the actual words from the dream)



I had a few dreams at a pizzeria. I remember in one dream I gave some friends a ride to their house. Then my friend's older cousin was in the road and he got into my car. I gave him a ride too. He asked if I minded that he smoked. I said I couldn't smell it so I didn't care. He took a plastic bag of apples with him that he said were his. I looked on the seat and there was a cigarette butt. I felt really embarassed because it wasn't mine but I thought he thought it was mine. I didn't get lucid from the cigarette butt dream sign. THERE WOULD NEVER BE A CIGARETTE BUTT IN MY CAR!!! And there was also a bottle of pee in my car and I was embarassed about that too.

Then I saw 3 females and offered them a ride. One's name, I remembered. The other, I actually didn't remember, and felt bad. She said it was something with an S. I think I gave them a ride somewhere, too. It was on the main road near where I live.

Before that I think I was in a gym.

In one of my dreams at a pizzeria, I went in there because my sister needed soap. My Nana and AUnt were there and I was surprised to see them. I started to walk out the other door and I saw cigarette smoke floating up from a guy's hand. I pushed the smoke at him and ran the other way. There was no smell but I didn't catch the dream sign. On the way out, I was still mad, so I yelled, STOP SMOKING. Then the guy chased me. Then it shifted to where there were lots of guys in camoflauge and neon yellow jump suits around. I guess protecting the place, from me, or from him, not sure.



Then I dreamed I was driving around doing my taxes. It was the sixteenth and they were due on the seventeeth. In waking life, I did my taxes earlier in April. In the dream the tax service wanted to charge me 29.99 and I declined.

Then I got to a pizzeria again. This time I was writing a story on a big lap desk that was surprisingly light in weight.

My Nana told me that she always thought I was negative for complaining about cigarette smoke. But now she understands how positive it is, to point out the negativity of the smoke. I was falling asleep, with my head down, but I said I was listening.

Then I realized my Dad was leaving. I got up to go after him. He was making a burrito but all the rice and beans were falling out the other end. A giant pile of rice and beans had accumulate on the floor behind him. oops!

Something with a production anomale creating spiky forks, and Santa claus appearing at the door.

The pizzeria dreams were at R's Pizzeria.

Oh yeah in an earlier dream I lived in an intentional community. There was a feeling that the people there were emotionally healthy and it was easy to talk to them about feelings. I was amazed at how I've tried to recover for so many years but being in a community of other people trying to recover at all times really made a difference.

In my final dream, I got a lucid moment on a dock. I think I was looking at the sky, and something seemed dream like. So I flew up and tried to grab a branch. Then I realized I was really straining, and just relaxed. I closed my eyes and felt myself float down.

Then I was in this place where they were doing an experiment with some people. It was pretty humane, not like some mad scientists or anything. It involved testing different stimuli on the body and it wasn't painful. I remember the blue lined graph with "W-1" next to one wave form and "W-4" next to another, on a black screen.



Then I dreamed I was in the lobby corridor thing, greeting everyone on their way out. At first I was confused why I was there. But then I became lucid and my reaction was to just blend in. So I acted like I worked there, and greeted everyone leaving.

Then when they left I walked in and asked someone, "Hey, do I still work here?" They said yes. I preceded to have some work conversations with other dream figures. I looked down at my shirt and it was similar to theirs. One guy had a big blue hair net on his afro that seemed to grow as we spoke. His four front teeth were missing but I didn't point it out. We talked about the job. I tried to casually explain away how I could have been unsure that I worked there.



Then I had one more dream scene of these red guys in shoulder pads like Saiyan shoulder pads. With pony tails. Jumping 6 feet high to catch basket balls. And landing near a puddle. I think I still was vaguely lucid as a carry over from the previous dream.



Drawing in MS Paint was a lot of fun. I have surrendered my drive to type EVERY DETAIL from my voice recorder because it just isn't humanly possible! But, this was very doable today, and I think it helps exercise my dream memory a little extra. The only thing is, I am motivated now, but I'm aware I could get frustrated again or lose motivation any time. So hopefully I can stay consistent this time instead.