A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry #Lucid 1 (Lucid, non-dream)

Background: This is my first post. I am not good at writing so this may not seem interesting at all, but nonetheless it was to me. This would be my 16th lucid dream but most of them are not long, due to me not stabilizing the dream when I have the chance, just like this one. This is my 2nd WILD experience the other one was a very intense dream compared to this. I just want to post the process in which both times became successful, so that I won't forget and maybe it might help others get some idea of there own.

My process:

1) I don't know if this will affect a WILD, but I do about 20-24 reality checks during the day. I aim for 2 an hour but I sometimes might do 3 or 4 and sometimes just one an hour.

2) I drank lots of water before going to sleep. My bladder i guess likes to wake me up 3-5 hrs depending on what time I sleep. If I sleep at 8 pm, I would wake up at 12:30 am, 9 pm at 2, and so on.

3) So wake up in night and write down your dreams before you pee. This is actually very important, by placing importance on your dream instead of your bladder, your brain will place importance for it as well.

4) This is also important: MEDITATE. You know the usual meditation, close your eyes, concentrate on the breath, for this particular mediation do not try and control the breath, and come back to the breath when thoughts arrive. Also do it in the dark helps you concentrate. You could also do a simple phrase meditation, " I will realize that I am dreaming" This made me a critical thinker in a dream and helped me question my dream state, but this will not give you a WILD. (I am not good at meditation. And the experience won't always be the same, so don't expect too much) I do a short 10 min meditation sometimes 15 min I until develop sharp concentration, but feel free to do more or less.

5) Fail at an OBE: Kind of sounds weird but failing an OBE (out ot body experience will take you to a dream).The first time I laid there motionless for some time and with little success of an OBE, so I gave up and went to sleep, and woke up directly in a dream. The second time, I was listening to binaural beat made by the great Robert Monroe, as he likes to call it Hemi-sync. If you guessed I failed again, I laid there for 1 hr motionless, without realizing it. But when I stopped trying and told myself to go to sleep I became successful, not with OBE, but with sleep paralysis. As I was almost asleep I heard Robert Monroe's voice, "remember what you want" I don't know if it was from the audio that I was listening to or if it was the hallucination. I said to myself, I want to come out of my body. I started feeling the vibration, and also the hallucination. I started hearing a sinister laughter, very high in pitch, it was terrifying. I was terrified, of not only the wild hallucination, but the vibrations. This was my first Sleep paralysis experience as well. So instead of trying to come out my body, after the vibrations have subsided, I let the dream take over. (to be continued down in the dream section)

DREAM: I saw the dream being formed, and no it does not have to be as delicate as other lucid dreamers make it to be, mine was a little bit aggressive. I saw numbers, colors, random objects flying over, I was spinning along side the numbers and objects, which can only be described as an acid trip. And I look down I see all these blocks. They looked pretty simple at first, but when I thought, "is this a city?" it became a city. let me remind you that I was floating in the air as the dream is being made. Then I started falling, and as I was about to hit the ground I couldn't help but think about Prototype, the game. I hit the ground, the floor cracked and the shock wave killed some people. I saw the people running, I kept telling them that it was an accident and they don't have to fear me.( I like pleasant dreams and pleasant lucid dreams). Every one I turned to started running, even if they didn't see me do it, the fact that it was in my conscious, triggered them to run. So I thought for a minute how do I convince them I am a good guy. I imagined a cyclops to appear, I turned and looked, and there was a cyclops. I started to fly and I beat the cyclops with one punch to the face. They cheered and accepted me as a good guy. The dream was starting to get fuzzy, and I lost my lucidity.

Update to self:
I have not came across a technique that works perfectly yet.
I have came across techniques that work sometimes and not other times.
My idea is doing everything out of happiness and love. In most of my LD, I normally go to sleep content not raging for a LD, but still wanting to LD.
So what ever can make it more enjoyable then it is worth the time. Even reading books, watching a show, as long as you are happy with still focused mindset on LD you might get it.
Meditation is important as well but again do it out of happiness. I started doing love and kindness meditation out of love and happiness and I had consecutive LD those nights.
2/16/16: came back to read my first entry on the website. Since I have fallen short on LD because my focus changed to school, I lost my motivation. I come back to read my first post, and this is a reminder to future me that happen to glance at this page: I know that school is important, but it does not give me happiness. To remind myself: Why do I practice lucid dreaming? Its because life is short, and it is best to live it to the fullest, live it lucid.