A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry non-lucid #31 Dream, non-dream (Comments)

Background: I prepared for sleep early. I made some juice well it wasn't really juice. I took out some avocado and I pealed it. I put it into a paper cup and I grinned it up with a knife after getting the inside. I put a little amount of water in their. I added a banana, and did the same with the banana inside of it. I added a little amount of milk. And I put some grapes, I had to hand squeeze though. After I had some of that I made me some tea, I thought it was the "calm chamomile" but it something else. The tea tasted nasty so I ate some cookies with it. I tried doing a sleep meditation by Diana Winston from UCLA. I feel asleep before I could commence with the mantras and the visualization. Hopefully tomorrow.

Dream fragment 1, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I was with my cousin FN and she asked me to look for her shoe for her. At first I said no but I said ok

Dream fragment 2, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I helped a girl from my Chemistry class with mathematics.

Dream fragment 3, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I was in chemistry class and we were sitting in a hexagon table like usually. I was with this Asian guy that is from my chemistry class, and another guy. We watched a video about mortality. I don't recall the video. The Asian guy asked me a question(I don't recall) about mortality. I told him it is nice to be alive or to believe you are, and who knows what if we enjoy death. I looked at my body and felt my life force, IDK how to explain it. The dream clarity increase tremendously when I felt my life force. I turned around and they were gone. I thought that is strange. I looked at my hands and started to count, I don't remember if I had a certain amount of fingers. I turn back around and they were right their. The Asian guy smiled at me.

Dream fragment 4, 8:15pm-1:10am."": I was inside church. I saw my counselor and I had to wait to talk to her because she was busy with a lot of people. BS dad was looking for him. They asked me and I didn't know. This multiracial girl, who look an islander came and hugged my counselor saying, "you're so fluffy". I thought it was an insult and looked at her weird and my counselor did same. She said I am sorry I didn't know you spoke English.

I walked to my room (environmental change). I had a half eaten doughnut and I was about to throw it away but I saw my cousin, SA. She was on my PS3. I asked her if she wanted it. She was so happy. She had a twinkle in her eyes. This kid from church, BT, tried to play on my PS3. I asked them if they seen BS. They said he sneaked out. He went into this opening in my closet. I thought how strange once you tell someone the truth and give them freewill, they immediately do something bad. I went outside to investigate.

I got distracted by my sister. She was in the car with many other people. She had her window opened only to the point that I could see her eyes and half her nose. She was on the right side of the car, European style. She said something that was personal. I responded, "look at you! In your half dream state, you don't even know what you are saying". She said, "what?". I tried to explain it to her but she couldn't comprehended. I thought about how she acted in her dream like state and thought maybe that is why she can't LD. She drove off like a manic. I turned around and I see my house, and my sister going their. Their was all these guys, 6 feet something tall. They were all black as well. I became angry, I didn't want them in my house. I told them they better leave or I will stab them with a knife. I told them that this is private property and if i hurt them I will not be responsible. This one guy walked into the garage. I ran into the house and grabbed a kitchen knife. I go to the garage and he has a hammer. He tried to hit me and he missed. I went back to the garage to get a longer knife. I could hear him hitting the wall as if he forgot why he was swinging in the first place. I run back down and they were gone. The walls were ok. I saw my sister drive off. I saw a cop car on the other side on my neighbor's house. Apparently my grandmother moved out and lived in front of our house. The cop was no other than my Calc I, teacher. I asked him to come over so we can talk about what happened. He said he has to talk to his grandmother. I thought wait what.

I turn around and I see a man from my Calc III class, PY. He was now a math teacher. I was going to be in one of his classrooms. He was talking to this guy. The scene looked dark and rainy. As I was trying to talk to PY, he turned around. So I walked through the gates and followed them. They were laughing and talking very loudly. We went up stair and their is a music class room their. They are still talking very loudly. Everybody was looking at them funny. One old lady had the courage to ask them to lower their voices down.

I got up multiple times during this time. And I finally got up at 1:10 am and stayed up until 5:00. In that time span, I tried making music and I watched videos, and I talked to my sister. Yeah she sleeps real late. I also drank some tea.

Dream fragment 5, 5:10pm-7:23am."": I was driving my car in the freeway with my parents. I was loosing control of the wheel it felt like someone was grabbing on to it. I saw a hand but no person. I got into a little car accident where my bumper kissed another. I said I can't drive under these conditions and I parked the car at the side of the free way. A lot of people were there as well. My dad found an an awkward sink and he pointed out how weird it was. I on the other hand was embarrassed that he was using a sink to wash his face in the middle of the freeway.

Dream fragment 6, 5:10pm-7:23am."": I was talking to my teacher about my grades but the assignments I had didn't match his. He kept asking me for a certain paper and I tell him and they don't match. He kept asking me, but I stopped responding. He asked me why. I told him we don't have the same assignments. A TA came inside and got on a lap top. He had chicken grease all over the laptop. I started singing for some reason.