A Dreamer's Dreams

Journal Entry Lucid #20 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background: I told my parents I no longer need their permission to have LD. I realized that "right" and "wrong" are just a different view of the same picture so they don't have to agree with me and I don't have to agree with them. I told them that and they were upset at me. They were praying for me, I guess to change. And the most important part of the dream the man with half a face showed up because I have been having dreams that are gruesome where one involved my grandmother being killed and other with a man being stapled. I had the chance to confront it but I blew it for my own selfish telekinesis. I will have another chance hopefully. I meditated and I told myself I could have a LD but it is ok if I don't have one just as long as I could remember my dream.

Dream fragmennt 1, time 8:10pm-12:00am"":
I was in the living room and I see my dad on his laptop. He was using a program without me showing him how to use it. He asked me, "How long have I slept?" I looked at hand clock and it said 11 something. I said that weird why would he ask me, he hasn't slept at all. I then hear a voice that said move to your energy box. It got pitch black as I walked to grandma's room. I awoken for a brief moment and understood that it was the recording of Robert Monroe.

While conscious I tried to go back to sleep. I see a vague picture of a white horse in my room. It then became clearer and clearer. I had arms and I could move them. The first thing I did is rub my hands to stabilize. As I opened the door to my room it took me to a country side. I see a man to my right with half his face torn. No eyes and flesh dragging on his face. I thought I should project love. I don't want him to bother me though. I don't want to wake up,since I wake up after being satisfied with task I finish. I then gave him a cheap hug and I said, "sorry!". I turn to see if he left and he looked at the floor sad and began walking away. Most of the time when other lucid dreamers project love it ends in a wonderful way. I started to feel conflicted about the choice I made, he didn't disappear. I kept walking and thinking about it, I completely ignored the road made of gold and started walking elsewhere. I see my sister along with my cousin FN, AL, and BY. I tried to use my telekinesis and lift my sister up, but I was still distracted by the incident. She was just on her phone, nothing happened. I turned and tried again she went up, but then she shook her head of disapproval and she floated back down. I tried to lift my cousins and they went up but once I tried to lift my sister it doesn't work. I got angry and when I flicked my finger to make them land, they got launched to the floor. I then hear a countdown 10..9..8..-4 I woke up It was the mp3 player doing count down.