Turquoise Dreams

8.10.14

Last night bed 9:30 -4:40

I was peeking into some small cave. It was all white inside. Small stalagtites and stalagmites were all over the walls, floors and ceiling. Not sure if ice. It was not translucent, but snow white and sparkling.

Right next door was a large indoor swimming pool. It was carved into the rock floor. The edges were smooth, like marble.

Water was clear, and underneath, there was no bottom, but another pool just like that. There were people milling about.

Also some dreams about work.

8/9/14

Last night bed at midnight - 8am.

WILDing 10am - 1pm.


I waited for cats to fall asleep then laid down on my sofa. 5 min into it they started growling at each other, but I was already super relaxed and didn't want to break it, so I let them growl it out. They stopped soon after that.

I got into a WILD via a huge head sensation. Like falling backwards while a waterfall flowing through my head.

I did one ToTM, which now I can't remember. But I remember recapping it in my LD, before remembering the "Pull your eye out" ToTM.

Just before bed, I practiced getting naked, pulling out my green banana (don't want a ripe mushy banana as a weapon) and robbing a bank while yelling "this is a stickup! Gimme all your lucid dreaming vouchers".

Then I practiced getting naked and pulling my eye out. I said this is gonna be gross, and I proly don't wanna do this one.

So after recapping my ToTM, I remembered the "pull your eye out." I put fingers of my right hand around my eye and pushed in slightly while thinking "this is not gonna work". Grabbed the eyeball and pulled it out. My hand is kinda closed and I'm thinking again that it didn't work. But I see a shiny white ball with black dot in size of a pupil between my fingers. I'm totally surprised. (I have also practiced putting the eye behind me and looking at my butt) but I kinda lose it here and don't remember what happened next.

Then I stupidly slept for 2 more hours.

8/7/14

Last night bed at 11pm - 5:50am

Alarm woke me up just as I was taking pictures of wild mustangs on the hill from my window.

DR
Someone alerts me that I have left my dog outside. I remember letting him out to go potty, so as I look throught the sliding glass door to the backyard, I get a mental image of my black lab pooping.

But as I look, it's not him, but some shaggy black dog. I step out to make sure my lab doesn't attack him when he sees him. But the dog is hurrying away, following an older woman, who seems to be a transient.

They are walking off from my yard to the bushes on the hill righ behind my house. I see her dog is looking at something in the distance. I look and I see some animals. I'm thinking those are the usuall deer we get there often. But as I zoom in, I can tell they are a small herd of about 8 wild mustangs.

I'm amazed. I decide to ran and get my camera from upstairs. But I'm running up the long, dusty hill that is now how you get to upstairs. I grab the camera and rush to the window on the first floor. I can still see them, although I thought they will not be tere anymore, since the hill I had to ran up was so big and it took me a long time.

I see a black bronco rearing up and and I'm like "hell, I gotta take a picture of this, this is awesome". I push the button, but forgat to turn it on first. So I turn it on and bronco is still on his hind legs, as if fighting with the other horse. I see the indicator on my camera flashing red for the battery and I'm hoping I can snap at least one good picture.

DR
about the training that just ended yesterday : D

8/6/14

Last night bed 10pm - 3:30 am (work)

DR:

I'm in a room, and there is a woman on the far side, at the wall. Not sure what happens to her, but suddenly there is another woman, dressed in colorful clothes. She somehow jumps on the wall, while she is standing with her back facing the wall. )Like those guys in games dressed in velcro suits jumping on a vertical wall and getting stickied there.)

She is held to the wall by her back, while her arms and legs are moving. Now she is on fire, but only her edges. This is turning into a nightmare and a feel some dark force.

I hurl a large knife at her, to stop the evil. But my knife falls to the ground short of her.


DR:

I'm walking down a boardwalk at some recreation area. A guy tries to pour some water on me from his water bottle. I dodge it, then I see him as he walks few steps away from me. He looks drunk or high. His balding hair is all wet, so is his white wife-beater tanktop. Two people tackle him to the ground. I run there and put my knee up on the boardwalk to kneel on his chest. We are holding him down till police comes. Suddenly he is listless as he is laying face down and he starts to vomit. I look at my hand and his vomit is on it. I shake it off.

8/1/14

Last night bed past 11 - 8:30am?

DR
This was very intense. I'm on a shore of a wide river. Think Danube in northern Hungary. The water is very muddy. Some parts seem to be calm, but others have churning waves, small whirlpools and even tall waves going in direction from the shore. It's very fast flowing. Someone tells me that my brother is going to swim across, just because he wants to go to the other side. No serious reason. That makes me mad. Why would he risk his life for something like that.

So I'm running on the shore, yelling his name out. He can't hear me. I think I see him in the water. Somehow I am now on the other side, waiting for him to emerge. You can't really see him in the water, because of turbulent water.

I am really worried. Then I see him walking out of the river. He has some kind of a full body neoprene suit, including the hood, and something else over it.

Now I'm in some kind of a catle, or ruins rebuilt for turists, walking down a hallway built from large light - gray stones and I'm walking on sand.

DR
I'm walking with more adults and kids on some path in the outdoors. On a hill, no trees. We decide to split into 2 groups and I'm leading one group of kids into some summer camp.

DR
I'm standing on the city square in my hometown. It's in the past, maybe 50's. Communists rule the country. Everybody is dressed in period clothes and also eqipment is from that era. Some kind of commie action is going on. Parade or speech.

I look up and some confetti and propaganda flyers are raining down on us. My mom starts climbing on top of a bus or a van that's right behind us. There is a TV crew with camera on top, filming the event. My mom wants to look at the TV screen they have upthere.

DR
I'm with my best WL friend. In the dream, I can't remember her name, and after waking up it took me a while to recall it.

I'm giving her a single rose as a thank you. I gave some potted bluish plant to some other people, also as a thank you. She gets mad at me for giving it to her. I'm telling her that it's from some people that appreciate her's and mine work, and I'm just relaying the message from them to her.

Then I learn that she changed her name to Ophelia93. And I'm like "whoa, so you are Ophelia, and how about the other Ophelia, and is this just one person, or what is going oooooon?"

DR
I'm watching a canal in Venice from some higher vantage point, like a window maybe. I see a gondola with one gondolier. There is a large fish approaching his boat. It's like a giant goober. It's so big and fat and colorful.

7/31/14

Last night bed 9:15, bud didnt fall asleep till 10 - 3:35 am (training at another location)

I'm naked for some reason. Talking to some people from my past. The woman is giving me 60 pairs of underwear. They are all pink, and some are bit different in sizes. I know I don't like pink, but I don't have a choice.

She asks me if I'm gonna work nude. I say no, I'm gonna put on undies and a t-shirt. I sit behind the desk to shield myself from the male in the room. I'm waiting for him to leave so I can stand up and put on some clothes or a towel that I'm holding in my hand. But he sits on a sofa and puts the tv on.


Yesterday:
There are bunch of tall trees in some courtyard. I'm climbing through them to escape.

Last night bed 9pm-3:35am

Bunch of dreams:

- going down a hole in the grund, throwing dirt on bad people on the bottom
- fighting an ogre

- bunch of other stuff

- vacationing with Ophelia - we are laying on lounge chairs, bare legs, when alarm wakes me up : (

7/27/14

Last night bed 11-4:40am

DR1

I'm outside of my childhood house. Someone has a bird in a cage, and he is carrying it with him out of my view. When he comes back to the other cage, the door is opened and bird - parrot flew out. I did see that happen, but I thought it's suppose to be that way.

He is looking for the parrot, stretching his arm out, so the bird comes to him. Someone else is trying to help, but I'm affraid he is just gonna scare him away. (re-reading this, I realize it's the same feeling I have right now about a WL friend. Within reach, yet so far away.)

Bird flew up to the sky and we look up. There is a huge hawk after him and we are worried. Then we see that 2-3 other birds are there too and the hawk is after them now.

The hawk tries to grab one of the other birds with his wings, but as he puts his wings together as you would hands, the other bird slipps through the long "finger feathers". This happens one more time. This bird is so beautiful. Creamy white, with some redish/brownish color on shoulders.

After he escapes, he lands just feet from me and walks into a crack between some items on the sidewalk. I go there and look inside the wide crack. He looks back at me and I tell him not to be scared. He looks like a 45 cm tall owl, but I know it's also a boy. I think he has Jack's eyes.

We take him inside. He understands what I'm telling him. We walk around and everytime we come to more bright place, he squints, because it hurts his eyes. I think I carry him in my arms to comfort him.

It's weird, because it's a bird and I don't want to scare him away, but he is also a human in bird form.

DR2
This was the last dream of the night, but I don't remember as many details as the owl one.

I'm on a train with my mom and some other people. At some point I'm looking out the window and see a surfer on a humongous wave. Then I see either a shark or a black whale jump out in a wave. I yell at everybody else to look out. Now we see all kinds of seals and sharks and whales jumping out of water, as if also surfing the waves. (Looks just like the Shark week commercial I saw yesterday).

I ran to the other wagon where we left 2 bags for some reason, to my surprise. I have a bad feeling and when I reach to moms bag for a camera, bag is opened and camera is stolen.

Back in the other wagon, someone is saying not to be sorry for that crappy camera, but I tell them it's brand new Olympus.

7/25/14

Nap around 1pm - 3:30 pm.

DR before 3pm

I'm in a circular room, with one side missing a wall. Something like houses in tropics. Room is nicely furnished. We are expecting someones arrival. We know he is a very dangerous person. Someone behind me, who i think is my dad, has something in his hand. I know that we need to keep strict protocol and the visitor is not gonna like any deviance. I'm telling this person to hide it behind the chair, no put it in the closet, yea, closet. No put it in the basket.

The visitor is arriving by car. I stand up and and walk into the middle of the room. I'm realizing that this way I'm shielding Ophelia, who is sitting behind me now. I know I should not be standing in front of her, but I want to keep her safe, even if she will not like it.

The visitor is a young man. Incredibly friggin handsome, about 15 yrs old. He is smiling, and I bow my head, as protocol calls for it. I know if I don't get it right, our lives can be at stake. The young man is Pol Pot. He smiles back at me, and his smile is not threatening. I don't feel any danger, but I know it could go either way.

7/24/14

Last night, bed 11:20 - 8:30

DRs remembered in the morning

I'm at a party with my manager V. I see him clearly. I even remember his last name from WL. There is lots of milling about. At one point I walk outside. There is a large screen window that leads to the bathroom. I can hear someone going #1, and I see a shadow standing at the toilet. The lights are off. I'm thinking, ok, he is going into the potty, all is cool. Then someone comes there and he walks little further away from the house and there is someone peeing in the yard. He has a target on the fence and he is aiming for it. Apparently I was suppose to prevent that and I have failed. Now I'm inside, showing someone how long the pee stream was, and how strong it was, with my arms spread wide, as you would show how big of a fish you caught.

DR

I'm outside of some big, mansion style house. I'm suppose to be taking care of it while the owner is gone. So I'm going there to close some windows and shades, but I see someone is inside. So i tell him to close it all when he leaves, so I don't find intruders when I go there next day.

7/23/14

Today is second day of my WILD attempt - unsuccessful. Day off on monday and today - wednesday.

Last night, bed after midnight - 7:54am. Nap 10am - 1pm. Then second nap later.

FIRST nap dreams:

1.

I'm in Jamaica. We came just for a day. Arrived in the afternoon, then back next evening. As I'm walking outside on the evening of first day, I'm realizing that I don't have enough time to see everything. So I decide to walk to the town ro a beer.

I'm walking on this very rocky and winding path, among some piles or rocks. I sit down to the side to rest, but path is so narrow, I have to constantly move to let people pass.

Ophelia comes along and she asks me why is my ring on left ring finger. I tell her I keep switching with the right hand, when it feels like it should be on the other one. "Like you know, when you sleeping on one side and then you feel you need to turn to the other side, like that". She says "no, i don't know". I wanna talk some more, but she is walking away, turning back to me just to say a few time 'online, online".

I arrive to the town. It's quite modern. Highrise buildings in the center, and older ones around it. There is a tour through the town. It's a rickshaw for maybe 6 people, pulled by a guy on the bike. I watch them for a while, and decide I can walk the tour by myself.

I enter some permanent street fair. There are grilled vegetables and sausages hanging in restarant's windows. I'm sorry that I already ate. I really wanted to sample local cuisine and I don't understand how come I forgot about it.

I walk around looking for a postcard shop to get some nice postcards. A guy is buying a Kit-kat from a next stall, and they also have some coconut-rum chocolate balls that I'm going to buy later, if I don't find something more authentic.

I return back to the motel. Someone said there is a ghost someplace, and it may be exaclty in the building I'm at. Someone walks inside the larger room, where all the beds are. Like a communal sleeping room. The windows and doors close, and this someone starts a seanse. I feel like she is in a hurry to do that, before we have time to protest. She is summoning the ghost and saying that whoever touched the counter with the dead dog, he is someone affected.

2.
Something bad happened. There are some bad guys around us. I think they killed everybody. So me and another person lay down and pretend to be asleep. Suddenly the bad guy checks on me if I'm really asleep/dead, and he figures I'm not. I look at him and he is about to give me a shot. I knock it out of his hand and tell him it's not necessary, I'll cooperate. Then he gives me 2 jelly pills. Red one and green one. I throw them away telling him I'm not taking those either.

He has a station wagon, like in the old west. That somehow turns into a train with open top wagons. There is bunch of us in it. We are already escaping, or are going to escape, when we reach top of the hill. From there we ahve to go backwards on the tracks and train picks up some good spee. Train looks more like the wagons in the mines in Indiana Jones movies.

3.
Some awesome sex. Not sure with whom, but I have a feeling it was a dood.

7/17/14

Last night bed 12:30am - 9am WBTB 9-10:10

Cats were calm, so after breakfast and 1 hr spent on DV and IRC, I got on my sofa in more sitting than laying down position. I started feeling my body falling asleep withing 5-10 min. I knew it's gonna be a great attempt, because of my great recall from the night, and also because I wanted it.

LDs

Don't really remember how it started, but it lasted about 25 min. Then I "woke up", wrote some keywords down and went back to sleep, I think lucid again. But as I was writing it down, I realized I'm still asleep, because even if the paper DJ and my pen were exactly what I had prepared for that occasion, my writing was "drunk sloppy" and I recognized it.

I'm underground again. Large rooms, all well lit. Almost looks like inside of IKEA. No windows, bunch of large rooms, and bunch of people milling around. I'm already lucid. So I do what I practiced while falling asleep. TOTM - I jump in the middle of people and yell: Look everybody, LOOK. I'm getting naked.

Crowd of guys tighten around me and I feel some touches. I started to fiddle with my top, when I remembered practicing having just a simple T-shirt on. So I took of my polo shirt. Wut? A bra? Didn't practice this, dangit. But no problem, quick unhook and girls are free.

Don't remember what was on the bottom, but off it goes.

By now crowd has thinned and some had turned away, going about their business. I'm thinking bloody hell, I don't just need to get naked, but I need your reaction. So I jump up and yell: What yo guys think? Some are still looking, but most had turned and left.

So I grab one of them, push him against the wall and have my way with him. I dont stop till happy ending.

I do the undressing one more time in another room, because I want a reaction out of them, but again, all they do is act uninterested.

But there is a table with some feast. Looks like I came late, because all is left is one piece of something that looks like small flat round candle. I pick it up thinking that this will do as a sweet cake junk food. I take a bite and stuff it in my mouth, cause I need to eat a LOT of junk food. By then it tastes sugary and not that bad.

To the left, there are some pastry/pizza looking things. Never seen them before. I'm thinking they are sweet, but as I stuff some of it in my mouth, it's savory, but next piece is sweet again. I forget to note people's reaction here.

I walk away, thinking how to make it more vivid and last longer, so I clap my hands and yell: I-am-lucid-I-am-lucid.

I think it's time to find a window and get out. I see one, and behind it is my balcony. I walk through the tall glass, only to end up in another room with same window to same balcony. I'm thinking c'moon, this time I walk outside for sure.

And I do. I step off the balcony, so happy to outside of the building. I'm falling to the ground when I remember I'm not that good at flying, but thinking that yes, I'm am good at flying, just so I start flying ok. It's taking me to the left, but I'm thinking I should fly to the right this time, towards the town. But no, I speed up and go really fast in the night sky.

There are no features, only black night sky. I'm getting worried that no features to look at will wake me up. Then I see something faint in the distance. Like a slightly glowing trail. I turn more right and start following it. I see bunch of dots, like you see sometimes in a video game when looking at something in a distance. I'm thinking too bad, that these boulders in comets tail are not looking real. Then I start seeing them as boulders that are turning slowly around their different axes as they are being left behing by the comet. When I look at it from distance, I sear I can hear the same sound that you can hear at the beginning credits of star trek voyager, when they fly over some stoney rings of some planet.


This was some kind of a non-lucid with some awareness : dunno :

I'm at work. Standing at the cashiers, helping out. Another coworker says something about my boobs, and adds: That's because you are a lesbo. I feeze, thinking, finally, you bitch, I got ya now. You were just mean till now, but now the company is gonna deal with you. So I ask her all "offended" : what did you say? Making sure eeeeverybody notices.

Then my higher manager asks me to go with him. We go to some back room, that's barely lit and looks like a cave, or old mine. He/she tells me to grab a flyer from a rack. Not the "boobs" flyer, coz we already covered that one in last session : wtf:, but another one.

I'm left there alone sitting in a chair, all sleepy and tired. barely any lights are on and room is huge and black walls are not making it any brighter. I'm thinking if anybody wanted to come here and rape me, that would no surprise me, coz the darkness and remotness of the place. But i think hell no, that ain't happening and prepare myself mentally for a fight, and also walk to the adjacent room and put some lights on.

7/17/14

Last night bed 12:28

Woke up with dreams all these dreams at 4:43 am

Retold the older ones when I woke up inbetween.

LAST DR:

End of the world attacks.

I'm in the future. Some place at the port and docs, in some commercial builidng. I suddenly get a view from distance. I see the port, with some 4 tall chimneys in the background, as they are suddenly blown up by terrorists. Dark smoke is rising from them, as the explosion deep down below produces the smoke, which escapes from the top of them just before they crumble.

I get an image of Times Square, as it's being covered in plumes of smoke from another explosions. I feel rumbling of the ground, as buildings at the Financial center in NY are crubling to the ground.

I look out the window and see a huge fireball cloaked in smoke rising not so far away. It's huge and I expect to see mushroom cloud. But it's just not a nuclear explosion.

I'm calling my mom, who I think is shopping in the builidng I'm looking at, which had the 4 tall chimneys further away behind it. I get her on the phone and I'm asking her where she is. But she starts talking about something else, as usually. I really don't want to tell her what is going on, but I know I have to so she start paying attention. I tell her that the whole world is being attacked, and I'm going to get her and take her to safety. To tell me where she is and not move from there.

***From here on, I feel like the dream is listening to my wishes, because everything happens as I wish it to be. Not the main story or, but the small details that matter.***

Now I see this as if from third person view, and the people I'm watching are not me and my mom.

So this lady is at her office, on the phone with her son (which was me just a moment ago in first person view). She is told to wait where she stands, her son is coming to get her. She is standing in the hallway, but the elevator door. The door opens and I wish her son was there. As the door opens completely, her son stands there and he pulls her to the elevator.

He is telling her how he ammased huge amount of survival food and equipment and they are going to some island where they are going to live in safety. They are going down with the elevator, and I'm (they are) watching scenes happening some other place.

There is someone else who went to save and take to then their son. I see this person holding young man by elbov and directing which way they are going. I'm with them now. We are enterin a hallway of an office building we need to go through to reach the stairs or something else. This guys has a handgun, and so do I. He doesn't really notice me, and I'm not really there, but he knows I'm there to help him get to safety.

As we are fast but very cautiously making our way down the corridor, we have to walk by many "people". I realize these are the robots of the invading army of aliens. There is a big spider like robot and another humanoid type robot.

Thene there are android type robots with white hair, facial features and black body. We have to appear non-threataning to them, so we know we can't touch them or start shooting. We start walking and talking like them to blend in, which is kinda like a robot talk and walk.

The person that we are doing this for is very rich and that's how he was able to buy all the survival gear, including materials for houses, food and everything that will last for decades or even forever.

Now we are all outside, at a long table. There is food there, like bread and cheese. We are eating together with some strangers, because we need our strength before we go to escape. There is a man, who wants to join us eating, but he is a stranger and doesn't know if we kick him out. I fix him a plate.


DR:
Running out of a builidng at night, with raincoat over my head and shoulers. Pouring rain, going from House of Culture down the hill, towards the clinic to the pharmacy night service for some pain killers.


DR:
Baby bunnies and hamsters in grass, under some boxes. I'm feeding them carrots and lettuce.

BTB 5:11 am

7/15/14

Last night bed 10:15 - 4:45

Working again.

Srs, if I don't start RCing at work, I'm gonna kick myself.

7/14/14

Last night bed at midnight, exhausted from 2 jobs. Wanted to just take a nap and continue working. But woke up at 7 am.

Remembered 2 dreams. Seriously considered not writing one of them down, maybe would be better forgotten. Was not bad as in nightmare, I wasn't scared, but it was extremely uncomfortable. If I find out it was a result of my cat snuggling up to me again...

DR
So someone put a snake in my left chest. It's big. All coiled and twisted up. Everytime I move, it moves and stirrs. Tightens the coils, adjusts, moves a bit. So I stop moving, I'm barely even breathing now. But even then it moves a bit. God, i hate it. Someone is suppose to come to take it out. Now I'm looking into a room through a window. I see a man, holding a 4 ft long dead snake. Looks like he is gutted.

DR 2
I'm at work. Nobody is there though, only customers. Standing at a checkout, but lane is closed. No cashier. I'm there, trying to fix some gizmo, but I'm not a cashier. They are growing inpatient.