Turquoise Dreams

5.12.14

Last night bed around 10pm - 6:40am

I got up, went on DV for a bit, then went WILDing at 7:10am. Got nice and relaxed within 5 min. I realized, that I'm not focusing on my closed eyelids anymore, and maybe thats why I'm not getting any more HH and dreamlets that I enter to be in LD. So I did that and was getting some flashes of images. My cats were still moving around, so I thought I just go to sleep and hope for a DILD. Turned to my side and fell asleep.

DR:

This was very long and very detailed. First ghost dream in which I was not scared. Later in the dream I applied some knowledge that I have learned as a lucid dreamer, about incorporeal beings, how it's normal, nothing strange or to be affraid off.

I'm at home in moms bedroom. As I leave the room, the TV turns on. I shut it off and as I walk to the kitchen, the TV on the kitchen dinning room table turns on. I grabbed my keys and I was outta there. I don't like messing with ghosts.

I went to the caffee and I'm having my coffee, thinking that I'll stay there all day, till someone else comes home. My dad comes and I tell him to ask the barista to make him a coffee from bottle of instant one I brought. But I forgot the bottle, so he orders coffee and sandwich. I want to pay for it, but he says he has money.

I tell my brother or mom or both about the ghost, and they reluctantlyadmit to me, that "she" is there for 3 years now. They just didn't wanna tell me. And I'm like, wow, so it's true, everytime I felt a presence, or hair on the back of my neck stood up, ... it was all true.

Now we are at home. Me, my brother, uncle and auntie from apartment below us, and I think my mom.

As we are talking and visiting with family, things start to happen. Flowers in a vase start to move. Courtains, flower petals in 3 low vases are swirling, even changing colors. We always just quietly point at it to each other. She also makes some arraingement with flowers in a circle and a baby bottle standing up in the middle of it.

I finally say very nicely "could you please not do it anymore". But by now I wanted to help her, but I also know, that you should never ask a ghost how you can help.

My brother picks up a small plate with some dressing on it, and he shows me that "she" wrote in it. It says "I love" and we put it down so she can finish writing it. But then I notice that there is something else written there and I send my brother to get his camera to take a few pictures, so we can enhance and read it. My oncle gets the plate and he wants to eat the dressing and I tell him "are you nuts, ghost just played with it and you wanna eat it?"

Now she is writing lot more in other places too. I get a pen and paper and I'm copying it. We learn that her name is Maria and she died of cancer. She used to frequent italian forum. She writes down the whole web address. http//[italian sounding name ending in *oni* or *ini*], [second name berlusconi or berluscini] plus some .edu and something else or similar.

She also tells us a name of people she would love to send message to on this forum, to let them know, what happened to her.

Some if the information she is giving us is now by her voice talking to us. There is a paper bag on the table and it inflated itself. The voice coming out if it faintly says "listen". I hear it, but nobody else does. So I tell everybody in the room to "listen". "She" repeats it a few times and now everybody is quiet and we can hear her.

As she is talking from the paper bag, the bag is moving, rolling a bit on the table and it comes to the edge. I pick it up so it doesn't fall down and to my surprise, the bag is heavy. I feel like there is a person's soul inside. (I remembered in a dream reading about it in WL if soul exists. They weighed a dying person and then again at the moment of death. Body did lose some wight at the moment of death)

So now I'm holding the bag with this persons soul that is talking to us, and now I'm sobbing. I started when writing the web address down. It really took me, how is this person trying to get in touch with people from her beloved forum.

I want my brother to experience the weight of the empty bag, so I hand him the talking paper bag and tell him it's heavy.

5/11/14

Last night bed 10pm - 4:50am

Yesterday at work, I have spent good hour reciting "Next time I'm dreaming, I look at my hands and realizeI'm dreaming" and "I'm dreaming", while cutting strawberries and looking at my hands in gloves.

DR:

I'm looking out on the street from my childhood home's living room window. Hurricane is coming, so I'm guessing that's why there are some police cars parked in the street, and some people parked their cars in the middle of the roadway, so they don't get damaged from debree falling from houses.

As I look closer, I see some pieces of roofs and other debree in our back yard, so I'm thinking the hurricane happened already.

Now on the street, right in front of the entrance to the tennis courts, some cars are stopped in traffic, waiting for cars to pass from side street. Among them is a stealth fighter. I scramble for my camera, quickly looking in my room and finding it in my drawer. I rush back and snap a few pics.

I have a feeling something is gooing on, so I walk outside to the tennis courts. There is a gift shop and people in it are giving away some greenish earrings and some other jewelery. They want to put it on me and my alarm goes off immediatelly. I somehow get away from there and as I'm walking away, I see groups of people and individuals coming towards the store, each of them wearing a lapel pin of same colors and design as the earrings were. I know they are all converted into aliens now and I have to avoid them and act not suspicously.

They give a chase, I start running, dropping something, I think about returning for it, but no time, and I make it inside my house and lock the door.

DR:

I'm at work, inside a giant walk-in cooler, that's large as a warehouse. Some of my coworkers took my U-boat and my other things and are pushing them inside the storage place with intent to leave it there, and shut the door and turn the lights off when I go retreve it. So I go out of there and lock the door on them, while they are inside. But I leave the lights on.

5/6/14

Last night bed past 10pm - 7;30am?

DR:

I'm in a secured room, sitting with oter people around large, rectangular table. We are kinda locked in there. Not sure why, but we could be in trouble.

There is an industrial camera in the upper corner of the room and we are being watched. Lots of documents on the desk. Also telephone. It's ringing and I'm suppose to answer it. But I don't want to, because I dont like what I'm about to hear. But not answering is even worse, so I pick up the receiver. There is so many buttons, I have no idea which one to press to accept the call. Someone shows me but either too late or it doesn't work.

So whoever was on the other end of the phone is pissed now and is talking to us through the camera. I'm suppose to get some info from docs on the desk. They look like files if individuals. There are ID photographs, names and info about people. I'm looking at names. They are all in baby blue color and written sideways. I find one thats mine. It's short and I say here it is, but not this time. This time I have different name. I find TheHighLordJedi, and I recognize it as mine.

DR:

I'm talking to a person in my work place (IWL place). I'm supposed to start training for her position to be able to sub when she is on vacation (true IWL). But some people are jealous of me. (true IWL). I'm uncomfortable, but I realize it's their problem, not mine, and I can't let that bother me too much. (true feelings from WL).

5/5/14

Last night bed 9:30 - 7am? Working afternoon shift, so slept in : P

DR:
I'm in NorthKorea with some others. We are crouched in a ditch in the fields somewhere. Looking up, there are railrad tracks in the air. There is also some kind of a huge tube. The northkoreans are sending train wagons someplace through these tubes, so it's invisible from spy satelites. Later we are hiding in basements of some buildings.

The train wagons are going by at blazing speed and they are very loud. (standing near trains in WL always scared the heck out of me.)

(I also wonder, if the loud sounds in dreams are same as loud sounds while transitioning.)

5/4/14 Sunday

Last night bed around 9pm - 4:50am

DR:
I'm someplace that feels like school or dormitory. Something happens and I'm desperate to get back to where I was before. I pack my stuff and walk to the bus stop. I'm asking some people if they know what time is the bus coming.

Bus stop was on side of the side road. Road surface is all cracked, the bus schedule on a pole is obstructed from view with overgrown weed. I see the main road ahead, but it's also deserted.

I remember I got there from the city by a bus. So I'm looking through bushes if I see my bus number on the schedule. I have to climb the pole t get a better view.

Then I remember I got there kinda walking and hitchhiking and I kick myself to even going there, if I knew I will not be able to get back from there.

Bus comes and I ask the driver if he goes where I need to go, or at least if it will take me closer. (The problem in these dreams is, that I never remember where I need to go). I figure I can't stay there, so I better get on no matter where he is going. Now I find out I don't have any money and driver is kicking me off. I beg and cry and somehow he lets me ride. (bad feeling from the dream allover)

DR:
I'm home, visiting. I'm there for only few days and have to get back here in 2-3 days. Bad feeling, because something happened. Not sure what. I'm talking with mom and I'm asking her if she wants to keep the beef jerky and some candy bars, or if I should take them.

5/1/14

Last night, bed 11:15 - 6:20am

DR1

I'm in my highrise apartment. Neighbors TV is loud, but I don't want to close the window, because it's hot inside and nice cool breeze is coming in. I walk out on the balcony, and 3 balconies from 3 directions are kinda facing each other, just few feet away. 3 neghbors are out, and we start talking. How we used to be poor, but now we are not and THEY are telling US to turn that friggin TV down. I repeat what neighbor said in hope he will realize it' shis tv that was loud.

DR2

I'm at my friends apartment. We wan the lottery. I'm telling her, that nnobody knows, they only know we have won 10 000, so she shouldn't be telling them othervise.

4/30/14

Last night bed 10pm - 4:50am

DR 2:50
1. I'm loading supplies for a day

2. Watching myself on a video. I'm maybe 10 years old on the video and I'm playing outside. Running down the dirt hill, into the canal dug in the dirt. (We had places like this in my childhood next to my house and we used to love playing there). I'm wearing red shirt and as I run to the bottom, I fall and hit the side of the canal. I pick myself up and I'm OK.

3. I'm around my childhood house. Somebody is there and we are talking about neighbors yard and his 2 trees that look like some famous people, pres. carter and some actor. The grass is lush, 1 foot tall, full of blooming wildflowers, all waving in the wind. It's beautiful. I tell somebody we used to play there.

Young woman walks by, we say hi, and I'm told that's pres. carter's daughter. She tells us a fake name, as to stay anonymouse.

4. 4:50am
I'm at the swimming pool. Lots of very tall slides. Apparently there is an order in which you should go down and complete them all. When I come to the end, there is a girl and we talk. She says something about her being the fastest, and I'm not sure why, because it's not my nature, I challenge her to a competition.

So I go to the first slide, then next. There is an attendant and I'm asking her which way to continue, if this is the right way, and she says yes, just go on. So I finish and now I'm standing in the line to the booth. The give the the guy in front of me piece of paper with some numbers. The give the same to me and they tell me to write down 12:13. That;s my time and apparently it's the record time, best finish time by far. Then I hear that some girl was bumped from the cover of the magazine she was suppose to be featured, and not it's gonna be me, because of the record. My friends are laughing, that now they gotta make me look all purty.

4/29/14

Last night bed 10pm-4:23am

WBTB till 6am

6am - 8mgs Galantamind + 900 mgs of choline

Laid down to WILD at 6am, got up to pee at 6:32, after already was partially asleep. Went back to sofa and WILDed.

Woke up at 7:51 from a chain of DEILDs. Didn't count them, but there were at least 5 distinct transitions. As I was falling asleep, I was telling myself "please no sex". But I had a feeling it's futile.

All transitions were from me realizing what I see is a dream. I stood up into every one of them. I was mostly blind. I was tellling myself as falling asleep and in LD, that I have to just open my eyes as OpheliaBlue does. It didn't work. I tried to pry them open with my hands which normally worked, but not this time. But I did wonder, if I'm doing it with my real hands to my physical eyes. I also tried to take the hoodie off of my eyes and sunglasses. Didn't work, because I know I didn't believe I have a hoodie or sunglasses on.

These will probably not be in any order:

1. Realizing I see my room, I stand up, walk to the door and walk outside. End up thousands of miles away, on the street in my hometown, in front of my childhood house.

I start walking to the town. It's at night. A guy drives by on his bicycle. I resist the urge. But he turns around and as he drives by my again, I yank him off his bike by hooking my arm under his elbow. As I'm dreagging him off to the bushes by the side of the house, I'm asking him if you wants to have sex. He says he doesn't know how to. I ask him "do you have a penis?". When he answers "yes", I tell him "then I'll show you how to". We duck behind the bushes and get busy.

2. Again realizing I'm in my room. I make a consious effort to walk out my door, and not jump out the window or go through the wall, as usually. I unlock both locks and turn the knob. There is a box in front of neighbors apartment and I realize this is my current place or residence.

I walk outside but I'm in front of my childhood house again. Once again I start walking down the street towards the town. I notice it's winter and everything is covered in deep snow. I'm rather gliding or hovering maybe a foot above ground and nice speed. There is a fort kids made from snow in the middle of the street. No cars because of snow. I glide over it and say samething to kids.

I figure I should go to the moon, since I'm moving at nice pace. Skies are overcast, but there is some faint light from one star. I say "when I turn around, there will be moon" I turn few times, but no moon. I take aim for the star, but I realize there are no features to focus on and I;ll lose lucidity if I continue, so I abort.

3. Again I realize I see my room and stand up. Walk to the door, but this time I don't unlock, just turn the knob and door opens. But before I do that, I say "there is a moon behind this door" and I imagine lunar surface. But no, it's my hallway again, only this time with even more boxes than last time. I look at the label on the box in front of my door to see who sent it, but can't make it out. I decide ot check it out when I wake up to see if it's still there.

4. A very annoying insect is buzzing right at my face. I put all my effort into moving my hands and I try to shoo it away, but then I catch it and squish it, expecting to be bitten.

5. Same hard sound of insect buzzing, I squish him again.

6. Finally, some sinking sensation. I push my head back little bit more and now I'm falling backwards. It's aaaaawesoooome! But it doesn't last long.

7. There are some cucumbers and other stuff on the plate and I realize it's a dream and stand up.

8. I'm outside, at night. I see 2 helicopters with what looks like a refueling plane. They are chasing and shooting at 2 triangular alien ships. We are in Nevada.

9. I'm talking to alex on IRC, when OpheliaBlue boops me, and I tell her I'm talking to alex. I think she has a message for him.


10. Also in Nevada. Half way up on a huge mountain that has rocks, no vegetation, typical desert rocks. There is some kind of an apparatus. I'm test piloting it. I get out of it, then walk to the edge of the clif as tall as if reaching all the way to the skies, and I throw myself off. Wooooo. Love that feeling.

Thank you for my dreams and transitions.

4/29/13

Last night, bed at 10pm.

DR 12:30am
I'm showing someone "I hope this is how yo put product out correctly

4:23
Making winter version of chocolate easter bunnies called "winter bunny".

April 25, 2014

Last night bed 8am - 4:40am

Yesterday I took 100mg of Bcomplex around 3pm.

Miserable night. Kept waking up every hour or so. I probably miss being more active on my work days (yesterday and before I was off). Also some other crap.


DR1 12am

Once again, my dream mimics my daytime emotions. Fuck this.

I'm at home, we have family visiting us. I get up, squeeze by them and walk away. Everybody is looking at me like wtf? Why is she leaving. I don't like leaving like that, but I guess I have had enough.

DR 2

Very very uncomfortable dream. My own parents don't trust me. My dad catches up with me somewhere on the sidewalk where I'm sitting, curled up in a ball, bare feet dirty, a mess. He is acusing me of being homeless and why don't I get help from them or something. I yell at him I have a job and place to live.

Last dreams of the night never had a chance. Thoughts of my day flood my mind the moment I wake up and override any remnants of a dream.

Monday 4/21/14

Lastnight bed 9:15pm - 7:45am

Woke up at 11pm with these dreams:

1)
I'm between tracks at the train station. Standing by a black, matte, old fashioned but somewhat modern looking locomotive. It's 4 times bigger than normal locomotive. It's imposant. It belongs to me. I step accross the tracks to the left and I see another train coming and I know I'm gonna make it on time. I duck under another train that's not moving. I emerge by another huge black matte locomotive. It's not moving, but it's about to pull out. I run alongside looking for a door. I find one and hop on board.

The whole train has only sleeper wagons. I wonder how it would be like to sleep in one compartment with 8 strangers. I decide to walk through the train to find out.

I walk through a compartment that is large and has about 20 people in it. Some are sitting at the desk playing cards. I walk to another door and step over a boy in grey sweater and I apologise to him for him having to move so I can exit. He said no problem, that's what happens when you sit by the door.

2)
I'm hovering over a steep street, that looks like a river that overflowed it's banks. There is a fast rushing water coming down the hill. Otherwise it's a normal street with cars and buildings.

I see a car on the top, with a driver frantically waving at me. I think he is worried I'm gonna drown or he is gonna hit me.

Another car is coming buy and my presence makes hem change direction, so he doesn't hit an innocent bystander, but he crashes and kills only self. I understand he was suicidal.

4.16.14

Last night bed around 8:20 - 1:50 am

Came home from work at 7am, talked a bit on skype, then took a nap 11:25am-3:48pm

Had a very long and detailes dream with OpheliaBlue.

I'm kinda getting used to this 3am work thing. I have one more day of this, then 3 days of 6am. Don't know my next week schedule yet.

Disappointed with GM though. Took 2x4mgs + 2x300mgs of choline. Not a thing. My head feels normal, no bubbing sensation or headrush or anything. My gm could be getting old.

4.16.14

Last night, bed at 8:30ish pm- 1:50am

DR when woke up

I'm living in an incredibly huge house. It's not mine, someone is letting me stay there. They are away now and someone is telling me that before they come home, I need to clean up. I'm pissed, because didn't even use any dishes or anything, and I have to clean up. There are 2 other people living there as renters or something, so while I'm putting dishes to dishwasher, I'm telling them to clean their shit up, coz I ain't doing it.

Alex comes in as the owner with his lawyer as i'm sleeping and I'm pissed that they don't even lower their voices.

A contractor is there now and he is going to make another huuuuge walk in closet for the owner, same one, that I'm using now. He is asking me if I took my clothe out already. I told him he told me he will start construction in a month and I should empty the closet in 3 weeks, so wtf. He is asking me if I want the owner to put my stuff in the storage for now. I say no way in hell.

I hear the TV and I'm walking in the room to shut it down. I come to one of the bathrooms in the house. Someone is staying there too. There are 2 flat screens on the wall, both are on on some diff channels. I'm trying to shut them off. Then I see 3 flatscreens in the middle, with some videogame in progress and another monitor to the left of them. I also see a main system remote and I think I should not shut it down, coz he has a game in progress.



Ok, so it seems I was a bit angry last night, lol. We'll fix it tonight.

4.15.14

Last night bed at 8:45 pm - 1:50am

I had to be at work at 3am, hence the early bed time.

DR 1

Woke up at 11pm from a DILD.

I'm in an unknown hallway with my dad. I'm telling him we are dreaming. We were doing something fun, but now he is like "what else is there to do in a dream"? So I say we can go and slide on a big yellow inflatable raft. Thank got this boring part ends here.

Now I'm at some other place. It's night. I feel like doing it and there are 2 girls. Somebody takes one of them. I'm thinking "oh great, I'm left with the chubby one". But I also dont care, hehe. I push her down and she giggles, and I remember Ophelia talking about having her way with girls, when she changes into a guy in her dreams. I'm not sure I changed into a guy, but I just knew, that none of those tiny details will make any difference with me completing my plan. Not sure what happened after.

But now I'm in a room that looks like wooden cottage, like wild west type of a building. Someone walks in, a guy this time. I lock the door and we do it. Happy ending iz all I'll say. Thank you, come again, hehe.


DR 2

I'm in my homeland, on some kind of a trip with foreigners. We walk down into the river and water is reaaaaly low. At some place I kneel down and touch the ground. There is just less then 1/4 of an inch of water. Just enough to make a wet sound. Rest is sandy.

I look ahead and the river is missing all the water. It must be a drought. I tell them we have go and explore, because this happens like only once in 20 years.


DR 3

I'm walking through a street fair or some other fair. I look for some candy. I see lollipop glasses made from blue sugar. I buy one and taste it and it's the best flawor I ever had. I want to buy more, but the lady is out. So I keep looking at similar things, maybe I'll find them, or they will taste the same, or other vendors will have them. But the lady says, after I ask her, that she doesn't have any more of them. I really want to buy some for my family, who is also there at the fair, but walking separately.


DR 4

I just glanced at the title of an entry 2 post below mine, and from "suspenders" I recalled this dream.

I'm in my childhood room. I have these mans suspenders on. Everytime I pull on them on the top on my shoulders, they levitate me up. My mom is standing in my door and I'm showing her this and saying, that changing lightbulbs and cleaning the light fixtures will be so easy this way. She faints.

I can sooo clearly feel the gravity being 0 and me just levitaning upwards so easily and effortlessly. Such a freeing feeling.

4.14.14

Hell week is behind me (both jobs ridiculously busy, to the point of it not being fun). I'll still be getting up at 2am to get to work by 3, but I'm hoping for normal or close to normal sleep time. As long as I figure out how to go to bed at 6pm.

Last night, bed 10:20pm - 7:40am

DR1

I'm in a huge at least 2 story house. We are expecting a nuclear attack, so we are making preparations. Me with some kids are getting some built-in closets ready with blankets, aluminum foil?, testing the doors and stuff.

I'm suddenly sensing that an explosion went off. I'm yelling at others "It's happening, it's happening"! I'm ushering them into the closets. I know we have very short time till the shock wave gets to us. But I'm mostly worried about the heat and that's what I'm hoping the aluminum foil and blankets will protect us from. Even if there will be inferno all around, even in hallways, we hope to survive in the closet and not get too hot to die.

I know I'm on borrowed time and the heat and shock wave can kill me at any moment. My whole body is tense and I'm prepared to die. But I have to finish putting people in the closets. I'm also grabbing 3 cats and putting them inside, but they are getting out of there, being oblivious to the danger.

We are all in the closet and we are shutting our eyes tight as not to get blinded by the super bright light of the explosion. Even so, the darkness is getting brighter and brighter and I'm worried. I put my hand on my eyes and it's still getting brighter.

Quite intense dream with lots of emotions. Not much fear at all, more just an urgency to get everybody to safety without regard if I make it or not.


DR2

I'm at work. I'm new here. It's some kind of a high/tech office building. I'm walking through our supply room. I't huge like a hangar. Lots of windows on the right hand side.

Lots of boxes stacked up. There is one column of cardboard boxes taller than others. It's like 3 stories high. I'm amazed, how can it stand without falling over. As I'm walking back towards the entrance, I see a ton of other supplies and even large equipment. Lot's of it is suspende or stacked up in the air.

I get a bad feeling about an earthqake and I speed up. I'm getting kinda freaked out now thinking that this is really not a good place to be during an earthquake.

I get outside and I'm walking on the ground floor by the main gate. A tall and skinny column made out of styrofoam is holding up some smaller roof. But it felt down and someone is trying to make it stand up and support the roof again. he is doing it wrong and the styrofoam column snaps into 3 pieces. I pick them up and I'm helping this other person to put the support beam back in it's place. But as soon as I pick them up, this other person runs away, leaving me there holding the pieces, which makes it look like I did it.

Now I'm inside in the lobby. There are a few desks with at least 2 receptionists. I'm deciding which one to tell about the snapped beam. I pick one of them and I don't wanna rat anybody out, but with her questioning the truth comes out, that someone else broke it and I was just trying to help put it back.

Then we sit in the lobby in comfy sofas and chairs and we are talking and joking and laughing and I think to myself, how nice it would be to have a friend like this. We are leaving now, everybody is putting on dark long winter coats.


DR 3
I'm visiting OP. She is not as tall as I remember her? We are walking and talking inside her place and I kinda feel intruding, unwelcomed. I say that I had poured some glasses of vodka. She doesn't say it, but I learn somehow that she has a cold and fever and stuff. So I say we don't have to drink, I don't like vodka anyway.


I'm glad my recall is good. I know it fluctuates so not really upset over dry spells, but it sure does feel good to remember. Thank you.