non-lucid

11/10/2009

Shoe Conveyor Belt

I'm at the mall, shopping with Andrea, and she's mad at me. I have no idea why. We go down an escalator and there is a conveyor belt enclosed in glass for a window display. On it are single shoes that are glued to the conveyor belt just slowly going around and around. The next thing I know, I'm trying to put a comforter cover back into the clear plastic bag it came in, except it's like a puzzle. Like, I have to fold it a certain way and cram it into the bag and then the zipper goes around all these weird twists and turns to close the bag.

Spanish Lesson

After being in the mall, the mall morphs into like a resort hotel. I know I'm on vacation. Then a group of teenagers comes up to me and tells me that I have to help someone with their Spanish lesson. So we all go to the library and I'm helping this girl with some Spanish homework. The rest of the group are sitting in chairs around us. I remember saying things like "boligrafo" and holding up a pen, then "lapiz" and holding up a pencil. Then I explained that I don't like writing in pencil so much.

11/06/2009

Screens

I'm at my parents' house hanging out with the guy from a dream a couple of weeks ago, Chris Lennon, who in my dream had a sex change. He's still a guy in this dream, and we're in my parents' living room (even though he's never been to this house). I have the feeling that it's late at night and my parents are asleep upstairs.

We go out the front door and see that there are some people hanging out in the neighborhood, even though it's dark outside. My dad comes downstairs and tells us to go to sleep and at that moment I look at the screens on the house and they're all in disrepair. I tell my dad that we really need to get new screens and I start taking the ones out of the downstairs windows because they're falling out of the windows anyway.

Chris and I go back inside and I tuck him in to go to sleep on the couch. I gave him my ipod to listen to as he falls asleep and kiss him on the forehead. Then I go into the front room and start cleaning all the screens I took off the windows. Bizarre!!!

Bra Shopping

I'm with Andrea and we're in a department store... could actually be Dick's Sporting Goods. I just remember going into a fitting room with her and trying on sports bras. The funny thing, though, is that in order to tell if it was a good bra or not, I'd run in place in front of the mirror and watch to see if my boobs bounced a lot or not!! (This is the first dream that I can ever remember looking at myself in a mirror and actually seeing myself.)

Bath Bombs

I'm in the passenger seat of a car with Angela, my boss, in the driver's seat. She hands me a paper bag that I assume is a birthday gift. I open it up and pull out a fork in cellophane with a ribbon tied around the top like a present. I then pull out a knife wrapped up the same way. I feel like they're candy, though, not real silverware. Then I tell Angela that I'm so upset that I have a crush on my Spanish teacher, Dr. Middlebrooks, and I made her a CD and she wouldn't take it (which really happened... I don't know about the having a crush on her, though!!). Then Angela tells me to look in the bag again, and there are bath bombs in the bottom of the bag.

10/19/2009

UVA

I feel like I'm at UVA at a party. I'm sitting on a kitchen counter talking to a hot girl about music. She says she's got some files I should look at on her laptop. I asked if they're files to use as loops in music creation software like Frooty Loops or Cakewalk. She is absolutely amazed that I know about these programs. I tell her music's my thing, I even used to be a DJ for a year at the local lesbian bar. As she's getting her laptop out to pull up the files, someone comes up to me who recognizes me. I'm talking to them and I glance at the hot girl's computer screen... it's scrolling through all sorts of porn pictures. In order not to embarrass her, I continue talking to whoever it was that came up to me.

Then I'm outside walking around the campus and it's snowing out. I lay down in the snow and say out loud, though to no one in particular, "It's so beautiful out here... I wish I had known how my life would turn out by going to VCU. I wish someone would have told me. If I'd have gotten better grades in high school, I could have come here."

Then Jamie Nelder, one of my sorority sisters, comes up to me and asks me if I got her paperwork to fill out in the mail. (Random!)

Blockbuster

I walk into a Blockbuster and I feel like I'm in Buffalo, NY. (I was watching the Bills/Jets game last night. Plus, I had just gone into a Blockbuster for the first time in a long time a couple of days ago and rented the first season of the L word... 4 discs total.) Half of the store is inside, half is outside. Instead of the category toppers on the shelves like Romance, Comedy, etc, are street names from Richmond. Staples Mill and Park come to mind. I see Chris Lennon again, the guy from a week ago who I dreamed had a sex change. I told him, I thought he said he lived in Richmond, what's he doing in NY? He said he does live in Richmond, look at the signs, he lives right down the block.

Then I'm in line with my movies and I'm with my dad all of a sudden. He rented some video games and I don't know what I got. The total comes to about $200. I'm flipping out. They said it was late charges. I said, "no way, I returned my movies, all four of them, I'll even go get them off the shelf if you want me to." So a manager comes up after two other people come and try to straighten this out. My dad said he'll pay $26 but no more than that. I'm crying by this point. I'm yelling "Do you think I'm stupid?!? I'm so smart, you don't even know." At this, the manager shakes his head yes and I get so offended by this, I don't know, I think he's mocking me or something. So I said "Fuck this!" and storm out the door.

Now I'm in New Mexico. I call information and am immediately connected to Blockbuster Headquarters. I ask for the district manager who manages the Carytown Blockbuster location. I remember thinking, I wonder if it's still Randy Stultz, who was in reality my district manager from PacSun. I find a restaurant and walk up these wooden stairs to the balcony so I can get some privacy while I'm on this phone call. But no one answers, I don't even get voicemail. I walk back down the stairs and find my dad in the middle of the plaza by a water fountain waiting for me. We walk into a shop selling jewelry and he asks someone where we are. I look at some business cards on the display case and it said some city name, NM.

Express

All I remember is being a manager of Express and setting up a window display and looking across the walkway to see the store across from me blow up.

10/18/2009

Red Dragon Tattoo

I'm at the tattoo parlor and I'm talking to someone about a piece and I see a mural on the wall and they said it was about that big. (I know, makes none sense.) Then I hear my sister calling me from another room. I run to a back room and yell at her to leave me alone, then I get on the phone and text maybe to update Twitter (which I don't use, but Andrea does) or Facebook that Red Dragon Tattoo is a madhouse.

Mexican Wedding Cookies

I'm walking around somewhere in a downtown-ish area in what seems to be another country abroad. I walk into this side door off the street and find that it's a bakery. I look into all the display cases one by one to find something to eat. (I'm really not a big fan of pastries and sweet stuff anyway.) I see against a wall a display of donuts, but I don't want them. Then I see a guy behind the counter making something. I tell him I want some Mexican wedding cookies. At the same time I say this another guy is telling the guy behind the counter the exact same thing! So the guy makes some for us and I taste one. It's like cinnamon sugar. (I've never had a Mexican wedding cookie in my life.) I take my bag of them and dip out of the bakery and into another place. I hide the cookies in a drawer and Andrea comes in. I tell her there's a surprise in the drawer for her. I'm really pleased that I got her these cookies because they're her favorite.

Crazy Cat

(I've been complaining a lot lately that my kitten Charlie doesn't like me.) I'm in a neighborhood that seems like my parent's neighborhood. I'm at someone's door talking to them and I look into their yard and it's not grass, it's all plants like Pansies and other assorted plants... but they haven't blossomed yet. I have no idea what this nondescript person and I were talking about, but then I go into the backyard to chase this cat I see. I pick him up and he's all lovey dovey, then he gets crazy mad at me and jumps out of my arms and runs away. (Andrea said to me that someone else Twittered that they had the same dream last night, too... peculiar.)

Jay on the Phone

(This was Andrea's dream last night... she thinks I may have been talking in my sleep about this and that's why she dreamed this. She thought for sure my phone was ringing all night!) She's in the bedroom and she hears me on the phone yelling at my friend Jay that he'd better do his homework because I'm not going to do it for him and it took me eleven hours to do it!!! (I told Jay and he said "lol tell her she may not have been dreaming! This weekend I had Thursday and Friday off school for fall break and have been doing mad amounts of Spanish homework, so my theory is that the 11 hours figure came from Andrea subconsciously counting how long I was doing homework for. Call me crazy, but I think it's possible.)

10/17/2009

Calling in Sick

Before I went to bed, Andrea and I talked about me calling in sick to catch up on some homework today. Well, last night, I dreamed that I drove to work... only I was on the highway and there were sound barrier walls lining the highway. I was driving on them and I remember having a fleeting moment where I though, this can't be real, but I never went lucid. I drove all the way to work, parked the car, and upon approaching the door, my boss Angela comes out. I tell her I thought I'd come and tell her in person that I won't be in today. (How logical, right?) So she says that's ok, she just needs to smoke a cigarette, only she doesn't have any, so she has to go down the block and ask someone for one. I really don't feel well in my dream and it's raining out. She takes off down the street and I try to follow her, but I can't keep up. I watch her run away from me and she looks like an anime character with her fists all clenched as she's running. I remember thinking that I have to tell her this when she gets back to me. So I'm feeling sick, and it's rainy, and I look to cross the street, but I fall into a puddle. It's like... so deep that I fall into it up to my shoulders. I'm so weak from being sick that I just barely pull myself out of it and just lay on the sidewalk. Angela comes back with a puppy. I get up and start walking with them but that's the last thing I remember.

10/14/2009

Makin' Out with Crazy Beth

All I remember is that I was making out with a girl we used to call Crazy Beth. I was kissing all over her naked body, especially her stomach. Then I pulled myself away and I noticed that I had been making out with a life size magazine page of her. I turned around and she was standing on the stairs. I vaguely remember having a fight with her and she said she was leaving. So weird!

Grocery Store Theft

I'm in a grocery store and I stole something. I just walked right out of the store with it. I have no idea what it was that I stole. I went to my car in the parking lot to find that it was running and my mom and my sister were in the car waiting for me. I guess they were my getaway.

Sorority Halloween Pranks

This was really long but I don't remember much of it. I'm in college. On campus. Everyone walking around is in Halloween costumes. I'm looking over a fence at some people when my hairdresser friend Katie walks up with her husband Greg. Then I'm blowing kisses at some girls who are walking my way. The next thing I know I'm looking for some kid who's yelling that it's too bad he couldn't get to the other end of the park (I'm in an amusement park now apparently) because he didn't have enough money to pay for the ticket. He's making a big fuss about it. While I'm looking for him on this windy trail things get turned literally upside down. It was so weird I can't even explain it. Then some kid comes out of nowhere and blows dust in my face. I chase him and tell him that's not cool to do to unsuspecting people. I gave him a list of fraternity brothers I knew to prank instead.

I'm mad I didn't realize I was dreaming and try to perform the TOTM.

10/13/2009


Bachata Music

I'm in a bar. There is a group of Mexican guys sitting across from me. The bar area is an island in the center of the room and I'm on the opposite side of these Mexicans. I look over and try to start a conversation with them. I say, "Esten familiares con la musica bachata?" Which translated into English is something like "Are you relatives with bachata music?" I conjugated the verb estar completely wrong and used the English word for familiar, so they must have known I was a total gringa. This is probably why I was not successful with talking to them because they ignored me. Oh well.


Library

I'm at a public library looking at rows and rows of books. I wander over to another section and see that it's the young adult section. I'm checking out all the books when I look over and see my ex Missy sitting at a round wooden table at the opposite end of the row I'm in. I wonder what she's doing there. I pick up the Lord of the Rings book and walk over to the table that Andrea's sitting at and show it to her. I sit down and her mom comes up to me and hands me the phone saying that it's Lionel (her husband, Andrea's dad) and I should talk to him. I don't remember what we talk about, but then he asks if I want to talk to Dawn. I say sure and her the voice on the other end and conclude that it's really Stephanie (who just got married to Brad last year). I ask Andrea if she wants to talk to her. Next thing I know, I've got a gimp leg and I'm walking over to look at more books. I'm like dragging my right leg behind me. Then I see Missy again. I go back over to Andrea hoping that Missy didn't see me and ask her if she saw her, too. I don't remember anything else.

10/12/2009

Hotel Scam?

I'm at a hotel, walking through the lobby with some guy. He's trying to convince me that we can stay a night for free if I follow his lead. So I walk up to one of the receptionists who have desks like bank tellers and the guy comes behind me and starts taking like, "yes, this is the amount we agreed on..." and puts a piece of paper in front of me to sign. Meanwhile, the receptionist is on the phone looking at us like we're crazy. I look down and see that the amount on the paper is $212 and I say that I don't have enough money to cover that much for two days!


Electronics on the Beach

Now I'm on the beach walking along just kicking the water as it comes up on the beach. It's kind of gravely, not the nicest sand in the world. I look down and kick over some gravely sand and find a coke bottle. I pick it up and throw it away from the beach. I walk some more and find a calculator. I start digging in the sand and find tons of calculators. I pulled them out of the sand and started making a pile of them. The water keeps coming up and washing over my hole that I've dug revealing more stuff. Now I get to a box. It's a coffee maker! I set that aside. I get to another box. It's a set of pots and pans! The funny thing is, I open the boxes and they're perfectly fine, there's no trace of sand or water in them. I think to myself... maybe I can put this stuff on ebay or craigslist...

10/11/2009

Shane in the Pool

So I had a lesbian's wet dream last night. I was in a pool with Shane from the L Word. I'm totally not going into details except that when I was underwater I could totally breathe which was very beneficial.

Lucid in Tennessee

I was driving around pretty fast through a neighborhood. The houses were all different, then they started looking similar, then a bunch of them were like smurf blue. I slowed down and stopped the car to get out and take a better look at one of them. I approached the house and all of a sudden, I realized that I was in Tennessee. I realized I was dreaming and in that instant it began snowing and I felt very cold. Everything just became crystal clear. Then I thought that I'd rather be in California and it was like a blip in a movie reel where a picture of some palm trees flashed in front of me, then I was looking at the Tennessee house again. I noticed a big spider about the size of the palm of my hand crawling on the house. Then I lost it.

Fund Raising

I'm in a van with some people and we're getting dropped off one by one. I'm really excited to be in this neighborhood going door to door. I get out of the van and someone hands me a plastic bag with papers in it. I walk up to the first door I see on what I think is an apartment building. I knock on the door and a girl answers, opening the door pretty wide so I can see inside. There are three other people in there, two girls and one guy. There are bunk beds and desks and it's just a room, it's not really an apartment. I tell them who I am and that I'm collecting money for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Fund. I start fumbling through my bag to show them some proof that that's what I was there for. They all seem very interested in what I'm saying and are very supportive. I try to go into a spiel, but I realize that I have no idea what I'm talking about. The people I'm talking to tell me to calm down because they see that I'm getting flustered. I bullshit my way through and tell them something about trying to get new equipment for research. I don't remember much after that.

Hotel Pranks

I remember walking down the hallway of a hotel on my hands. I'm really pleased with myself because I've figured out a way to do this really fast without falling down. I've got my legs over my head in such a way that I have perfect balance. I see a girl from high school (Christina R.) in one of the rooms with an open door and I walk in there to see her. Then I bump into something and fall down.

Andrea woke me up getting back into bed at like 6 in the morning. She couldn't sleep so she had gone downstairs and watched a movie at like 3am. I couldn't concentrate on anything after that because she was talking to me and all I wanted to do was get back into lucidity again!

10/11/2009

I remember three things. I remember waking up panicked but I can't remember what I had a nightmare about. Then I remember walking out of a building, maybe a hotel, seeing a girl I went to high school with who was on the forensics team with me, Elizabeth J. She looks at me and says, "you are such a pimp, look at all those ladies waiting for you!" I'm kinda startled and just say hey to her then walk up to all these hot girls who were waiting for me.

Then I remember running. Someone was chasing me. I ran around the back of the building I came out of to like a loading dock area. Then I wind up inside a fast food restaurant. I look for a place to sit down and I take a seat next to a family. I think I got on my cell phone to make it look like I was taking a call so I would just blend in so the person chasing me couldn't find me as easily. Then my sister comes up to me: she's the one that was chasing me! I freaked out and yelled at her.

Then I'm in my grandmother's house in her bedroom. I walk into the bathroom and there's one of the hot girls from before getting out of the shower. She acts all modest, like, no, don't look at me, and puts on a towel. I hit on her and ask her if she really wants that towel on. I don't think I was getting anywhere with her, so I go into the next room over and it's supposed to be the room I always stayed in when I visited my grandmother, but it's my sister's room. The only things I see in there are stuffed animals. Tons and tons of stuffed animals. Floor to ceiling. All different animals, colors, shapes and sizes... even some clowns.

Side note: I remember when I was younger having a dream where I was in my grandmother's house and approaching a closet door that was just ready to bust open because the closet was so full. Maybe it was the stuffed animals trying to get out! Also, I remember waking up from this dream just kind of sad because I felt like this really spoke to me about how my sister is never going to grow up and be a functioning adult. It must really suck for her.

10/08/2009

Date With Criner

All I can remember is a guy I work with who is a total misogynist being really sweet on what seemed to be a date. I remember being in his car and then getting out of the car to go somewhere and I left my shoes in the front seat. The car's a convertible but I feel safe that no one will take my shoes. Upon coming back to the car, I find that my shoes are in fact gone, but my cell phone and iPod are still there.

Mike Boger's Uncle's House

I'm driving somewhere in a wooded area with Mike Boger. (We've had a falling out recently over his choice of women he dates.) We drive to what looks like a dead end, but it's like a mountain of beautiful flowers! I tell him to stop so I can take a picture. It seems like he's still driving very very slowly to screw up my picture taking on purpose because none of my pictures are turning out right, they're all blurry. So I yell at him to damnit, stop the car!

He stops the car and we get out. He says this is his uncle, the Duke of ____?___'s house. We approach the house on the side of the beautiful flower mountain and there are horses in a barn. They have flowers all over them, too. My pictures of them didn't turn out, either, because they were moving around too much. So Mike goes up a staircase into the house and I'm thinking, shouldn't he call first to let someone know he's there? (He is famous for showing up unexpectedly.) I follow him up the stairs to find another smaller white horse in the house. Someone comes around the corner and says I must be Mike's friend. He takes me into the living room where there are a couple of dogs and... another horse. I don't find it strange that there are these horses in the house, though.

I look out the window and see a beautiful lake. It's crystal clear and the water is so blue. Mike suggests that we go sail in his boat. (This is so weird, he totally has a boat that I had forgotten about... but it's not a sailboat.) I tell him I have to go to the bathroom first. I go to the bathroom and there are floor to ceiling windows, but there are also sheer drapes covering them. I can see out the window through the drapes at his family chillin on the wraparound porch. I'm done going to the bathroom and I walk out to the porch. I'm looking out into the lake and I see two horses swimming and playing a game in the water. Upon closer inspection, they're dunking a yellow Nissan Xterra and another smaller car into the water. It will pop back up and they will dunk them again. They seem to be having a lot of fun with this.

I find my friend from high school, Shelley, in another room. She's telling me to get my sunglasses and get ready to go to the boat. We walk out of the house and down a long walkway covered in like... I guess it's astroturf... the stuff on a miniature golf course. We get to the end and there's a dock for boats extending really far into this lake. I try to take more pictures. Then I wake up.

10/07/2009

Captured!

Funny, I don't remember being captured, but I sure am a captive. I can see a city in ruins because we're in the middle of a war. I don't know where I am, but I feel like I'm in Iraq. My captor is an Indian man who looks like the wedding planner from the movie "Monsoon Wedding." (I can't find a picture!) He's in love with me. I think we were making out. Next I'm in a house of some sort and I'm in a bedroom. But the door has one of the panels cut out of it so I can see what's going on outside. There are some people trying to break into the room next to mine, then they try to get into mine. It's a bunch of Indian kids! They're pissed off and have knives and are trying to cut me through the door! They're pushing on the door and I'm pushing back so they can't open it. They get it open just enough for a small black dog to come into my room. I'm ok with this. Then I turn around and find out I'm actually in a bathroom and I turn back around to the door and the kids are gone, instead there are people waiting in line to go to the bathroom. I turn around again and I see my friend from middle school, Chris Lennon, going to the bathroom or washing his hands, I can't tell which because his back is to me. He turns around and I see that he is actually a woman. I'm so floored by this, but I still remember I'm a captive so I tell him, I've been here for a month and a week, how did he get here?? Somehow I end up getting his phone number that he wrote on a piece of paper that read that his name is actually Christie.


Mark's House

Now I'm playing basketball in my old neighborhood in Illinois with my old neighbors Mark and Skip. This is strange because I never really played basketball with them and now they're being particularly nice to me. Mark starts to go home, so I follow him and he sits on his porch. I see his mom inside through the glass storm door. I open the door to say hey and she says to close it so I don't let the air conditioning out. I ask if I can come inside and she says yes. I ask if I should take my shoes off and she says no. I get inside and she says she's making waffles and pancakes for breakfast. I sit down but tell her that I hate waffles and pancakes (which I totally do!). When I look at my plate, though, I see pizza. So I start eating it. Everything's pretty normal and she asks me how long I've been back. I tell her only a couple of days. She asks what I'll be doing for work. I tell her that I work at Barnes and Noble and think for a minute. I tell her that I can't really fly back and forth and commute to work, so I'll probably just get transferred to a store here in Illinois. I was standing on the stairs as we're having this conversation, then I come downstairs and start playing with the dog. I feel really welcome here. Just good vibes.

10/06/2009

Doing Laundry

I'm somewhere doing laundry. Andrea's throwing stuff at me from across the room to put into the washer. But she's throwing it all under the washer. Under the washer is like a flame you'd find on a gas stove. so all the clothes are burning up! I'm telling her to stop doing that, but she can't see that she's doing anything wrong. All of a sudden, my mom's on the other side of the room telling me what I'm doing wrong. I just keep telling her to shut the fuck up, but she keeps talking. I'm getting so so angry at her. So I leave and walk into a different room where I feel like I'm shopping. There are all sorts of backpacks (which I've actually been thinking about getting a new backpack because mine got some sand in it from going to the beach and now sand's getting all in my school stuff!) with like tropical patterns on them. I really just want a plain one and can't find one. Andrea shows me one that's got clear plastic sides and I tell her that won't do because I don't want everyone knowing what's in my bag(like what's in my bag that's so special anyway??!!!).

10/05/09

OK, so school, life, etc. happened. But I was in Spanish class the other day and someone mentioned having "one of those dreams where you wake up and go to the bathroom and go back to bed and then you really wake up." Yes, totally, a false awakening, right? Yeah, that's what it's called! So I realized I totally miss my DJ. Here's some catch up dreams:

Lately I've had a few dreams where I've been really pissed off at my dad. In one dream, I recall he had something really hot and pressed it to my face and was burning me with it and I was screaming at him that he doesn't even know what he's doing!!! In other dreams I'm just frustrated and mad at him.

Last night I dreamed I had a fight with my sister on the phone. She said she was moving to Quebec. I told her I don't believe her because she lies all the time (true), I can't trust her (true), and I wish I didn't get stuck with a shitty sister like her anyway (also true)!!! It felt so so good to get that off my chest, even if it was only in a dream.

I had a lucid where I couldn't gain control and I just remember it being a strange situation so I just rolled back into normal dreaming.

OK, here's a weird one: I'm in a pet store like digging hamsters or guinea pigs out of the dirt in the floor... but they're in habitats and they're really hungry because they've been underground for so long. I try to get them some food when I walk by a wall of aquariums of various exotic fish. They look prehistoric. One tank has the lid off and there's what appears to be a tiny shark spitting water at me!! Then I hear a voice overhead saying that the end of the world is coming and there's nothing I can do to stop it.

I have some more dreams of being in the bathroom and people walking in on me as usual.

I had one last night or the night before about being a bird... and having a bird buddy with me watching some other birds hunt for worms. We decided they were from the Philippines. Then one little bird who was hurt was looking for some worms and I felt like he was scared that the other birds would attack him. So my bird buddy and I went and scooped him up and brought him to safety. The little hurt bird thanked us and said we should smoke with him. So we started smoking what looked like some thorny stems of plants and I don't even know how we lit it but we were smoking it! (I love the uncomplicated nature of dreams sometimes!)

Anyway, I've had some pretty bizarre dreams as you can tell, and I hope to get more into my DJ on a regular and get into have more memorable lucids!

It's good to be back!!

Monday night 3/16/09

I'm at a department store and it's like an audition to be in a commercial. There's a couple of racks of clothes and I have to pick out an outfit to audition in. The strange thing is, it's me and a bunch of little girls. None of the clothes look like they'll fit me. So I find some bigger clothes that look like they'll fit, but there are pinstripe pants and vests and shirts and nothing looks like I can make a decent outfit out of it. SO I do the best I can and take some clothes into the fitting room. I keep poking my head out and watching some of the other girls do their audition. When I'm in the fitting room, I am having the hardest time buttoning my shirt. I can hear the guy giving the auditions say that he's all done for the day and I stick my head out the door and tell him to wait for me! I still can't button my shirt. I wake up.